"What?" Johnson asked and Alexi looked up at him nodding her head in yes.


    "Yes... I want to protect Martin." Alexi answered.


    "What do you mean?" Johnson asked and Alexi walked towards the big window.


    She looked out at the busy city as Johnson walked towards her.


    "Alexi..." Johnson called grabbing her attention.


    "As I said before... Martin is one of the amazing guy I have met. I never believed in love or marriage before. I always felt like it''s not my cup of tea. After whatever to Happened, I was disgusted about the word called... Love.


    Because, I thought Love isn''t something that hurts... But love is something that make you feel happy." Alexi said with a smile.


    "But... After seeing you and Sam together... My thoughts on love started to change little by little. Until then, I had no intentions on falling in love with anyone. I never dated before seriously either..." Alexi said as she shrugged.


    "As things started to change between you and Samantha, I realised... Love only hurts until you both find your way to each other. Because, once you both fell deep in the love then, there''s nothing and no one that ising in between you... And things never change. You promised each other to stay together no matter what! You never hurt each other ever again." Alexi said and Johnson nodded with a smile.


    "I tried to give it a short to Martin and date him because, I just... Wanted to give a shot. It''s not like I am not interested in him but, I didn''t dated him with the intentions of getting married to him." Alexi said making Johnson frown.


    "Yeah... But, seriously it''s not my intention to just date him simply... I want to be with him. Stay with him. Spend time with him. But...


    Marriage with him was not something that I can think about." Alexi said as she sighed.


    "I lost hopes on marriage the second... I..." Alexi stuttered as she looked down at her hands.


    "The second... When the blood got on my hands for killing Leo." Alexi said as tears rolled down in her eyes.


    "He was alive." Johnson replied and Alexi took a deep breath nodding her head.


    "He was... But i lived a guilty life... For more than 5 years." Alexi said as a tear rolled down from her eyes and Johnson sighed.


    "I didn''t sleep peacefully even for a night knowing that, there''s blood on my hands and it will be... Forever." Alexi said as more tears rolled down from her eyes. Continue your story on mvl


    "It was so hard for me to digest the fact that I killed someone whenever I think about it... You can say, that is why I overworked every time and just didn''t ever cared about my life... I just wanted to escape from this world... From the things I am stuck at. From whatever I am thinking... I just wanted to escape from myself.


    That is why, i choosed hard roles to y. So, that I can run away from myself as much as I can... I don''t want to return back to mysslf because there''s too much that I am going through." Alexi said and Johnson took a deep breath and walked closer towards her and gave her a brotherly hug.


    She hugged him tightly and started crying out so badly.


    She started to pour down herself and let go of herself in Johnson''s arms. She didn''t ever opened up like this infront of anyone other than her sister and Andrew.


    Johnson is the third guy to know what she is actually going through. She is scared of herself... She is scared of what she did. She is scared of her anger. She is scared of her whole self.


    "Shhh... It''s okie. You didn''t do anything. You are all good." Johnson tried to reply but he understood that he can''t say anything to make her feel good right now because she needs to vent out her right now and thats the only thing that can make her feel good.


    "Alexi..." Johnson called and cupped her face. He wiped off the tears away from her cheek.


    "I believed that, I am dangerous for myself... Dangerous for the one whoe into my life. I am not sure how will my anger react against me... And I don''t want to end up doing something I will regret, Johnson." Alexi said with tears and Johnson nodded his head.


    "And... Martin is the one who I don''t want to lose in my life and i just want to protect him in a way he doesn''t feel hurt... But, I feel I am dangerous for him. I am still trying to runaway from myself... I feel it''s not the right time for me to drag someone into my life where, I am... Myself is running away from my own world.


    It just cruel to do that and make him sufferter with me. I don''t want to do that, Johnson." Alexi said with tears.


    "I want to Protect Martin from myself." Alexi said looking into Johnson''s eyes.


    "Alexi, it''s not thag. Listen to me... You are not at fault. You are not guilty anymore." Johnson said and Alexi shook her head as she stepped back from Johnson.


    "You don''t know, Johnson. I am dangerous woman. I almost killed someone... What can someone expect from me? Just... Imagine...


    What will happen if anyone outside... Get to know that I tried to kill someone... What will they think about me? Heck... I am running away from myself... It''s not a big deal when others run away looking at me." Alexi said with tears and Johnson grabbed her wrist.


    "Listen... You didn''t want to kill anyone. You were saving a life by putting your life at risk. We all appreciate your guts for going all out to help someone when they need you. You are one of the person who people feared off because you aren''t any less than anyone. You are the person who saved your sister''s life.


    I am sure you don''t regret saving her life. Do you?" Johnson asked and Alexi shook her head in no.


    "See... There you have your answer. Yes. Some People hate your guts... Yes. But, They only raise your value.


    They are so in height than many people today where no one can even touch your hair strand. We are all proud of you, Alexi." Johnson replied with a proud smile.