(From Blue''s Perspective)


    "Doctor Dimitri, you could have just sent them with Ruby," I said.


    I ran out of my contraceptives. So, I sent Ruby to Doctor Dimitri to get more pills for me. Usually, he would send them with her, but this time, he came in person.


    "No, I have something to tell Your Highness," he said.


    "Am I going to die?"


    "No, it''s not like that," he shook his head.


    "Please take a seat," I said.


    He took a seat and ced a little bottle on my table. They were probably my pills. I was a bit anxious, probably because of the look on his face. Doctor Dimitri rarely smiled. He almost always had a serious expression on his face. That was the reason my heart was thumping inside my chest thinking about what kind of disease I might have.


    I was checked every fifteen days. It was Dem''s decision so even the smallest disease could be caught as soon as possible.


    "It''s regarding the pills, Your Highness," he said. "Alright, let me be clear. The pills prevent a woman from getting pregnant. The sess rate is ny-nine percent. But that one percent- it is not impossible to get pregnant even after taking the pills.


    Your Highness and His Highness are very active for a couple, so it is important to know so you won''t be shocked if it ever happens though the probability is very low."


    "For a moment, I thought I am pregnant again," I sighed in relief. "I am not ready. It will take me time to get ready mentally to even think of having a child."


    "In that case, if Your Highness gets pregnant, you can go for abortion. I don''t think it is a good idea to have a child if Your Highness is not ready mentally. It will put both the child and Your Highness under pressure. Pregnancy is not a thing to regret. So, I wish Your Highness will always make the right decision about it," he said.


    "Yes, I understand. Last time, I failed to make a mental connection with the baby. Do you think it''s because it was unexpected?"


    "It''s not unnatural for Your Highness to feel that way back then. Your Highness might have said that you would be okay even if there was a kid, but you actually did not feel that way deep down. To be frank, Your Highness was not ready at all. Your Highness tried to love it, of course, but love is supposed to be natural.


    Your Highness cared for it, but it did not go to the extent of how a mother loves her child. After the miscarriage, Your Highness was broken mentally because you thought it was your fault that it happened. Your Highness was suspecting that because you did not love it enough, such a thing happened," he said and I could not say a word. I only listened to his words.


    "Your Highness, a miscarriage is not a mother''s fault, at least, not usually. It happens naturally sometimes."


    "Miscarriage is the unintentional termination of a pregnancy before the 20th week. Miscarriage urs in 10 to 20% of known pregnancies. The actual number is higher since it can happen very early in a pregnancy, even before a woman finds out about her pregnancy," he added. "Your Highness''s miscarriage was not normal. It was the result of a plot. But that was not Your Highness''s fault at all.


    So, it''s better not to take the me on yourself. Is Your Highness still having nightmares?"


    "Less than before. About that incident, I am getting over it. I think it''s impossible to get over itpletely, but I will try not to me myself just like Doctor Dimitri said," I said.


    "That''s a good idea. Your Highness''s mental health has improved greatly. I think Sapphire helped Your Highness a lot. Your Highness should continue to share your life with the cat. It will help Your Highness rx, especially during stressful moments," he said.


    "I do so. It has turned into a habit of mine," I said.


    "Good. Please do not ignore your mental health no matter what. Because Your Highness needs more care for your mental health than you think. Mental health is just as important as your health. It''s not a sign of weakness or shame. And if you are feeling any difort or anything, it''s not just in your head either.


    Your Highness has to speak up about it," he said. "It has been quite a while since I am Your Highness''s personal doctor. So, I know quite a bit about Your Highness. I think Your Highness needs to be careful about your mental health. The environment is not normal either, so please be careful.


    Since it is a ce where Your Highness must stay, all I can say is that Your Highness needs to be cautious about your mental health and if anything is bothering you and stressing you out mentally, please send me a word."


    "Yes, thank you. I will do so," I nodded.


    ''What does he mean by the environment is not normal?''


    "Can Ie in?"


    "Evan? Yes,e in," I said.


    Evan came inside and eyed Doctor Dimitri as if he knew him. It was possible since Doctor Dimitri used to visit every kingdom and treat patients there. He liked to look for weird diseases to do his research. Now, I am a human and an interesting person to him. He could make medicines that were suitable for me and he found them interesting.


    "This is Evan. He is helping with our recent investigation. And this is my personal doctor, Doctor Dimitri," I introduced them.


    "Good day, Doctor Dimitri," Evan smiled.


    "Yes, good day to you too," Doctor Dimitri said, ncing at him once and then looking at me again. "Anyway, please take care of yourself, Your Highness. If you feel something is wrong, tell me right away."


    Doctor Dimitri left. He was not a man to talk more than necessary. He talked a lot about my health, but that was because it was his work. He was not the type to talk idly at all.


    "So, Doctor Dimitri is truly now Blue''s personal doctor? My spies told me about it, but it''s good to see in person," he said and took a seat. "You don''t mind if I sit down, right?"


    "No, it''s fine."


    "I happened to hear bits of your conversation," he said. "So, you have not thought of going for another child after the miscarriage..."


    "I am not ready. Well, it doesn''t seem like you heard bits of our conversation," I said.


    "Haha, I am a bit curious, you see," heughed.


    "That''s my personal life. So, please refrain from being too curious," I said. "Anyway, why are you here, Evan?"


    "You mentioned that you have something more to discuss with me. That''s why I havee. As I said, I am a bit curious."


    "I would like to discuss it in front of Luc," I said. "What about lunch today? I will invite Luc as well."


    "The master of the magic tower, huh? It seems the Queen does not like to talk to me in private. Well, I am not judging. But I am still curious- are you ufortable with me in any way?"


    "It''s not that I am ufortable. But I think it''s more about what''s appropriate. It''s not an official meeting. If it was, it would have been fine," I said. "Since it is more of a personal meeting, I think it''s better not to spend time together when there is no one else. Yes, my personal knight is here, but it''s still not okay."


    "Is the King not okay with this? Or the Queen is not okay with it?"


    "Both," I replied. "Anyway, I will see you at lunch, Evan. Ah, that said, are the servants serving you well?"


    "Yes, they are... They seem to be more interested in helping me with the bath though. I am satisfied with the service."


    "I am d that everything is to your taste. And I need to know something else... I heard that Evan doesn''t spend a single night alone. Should I arrange a few women for you to serve you tonight? You can choose one among them, or have all of them serve you, I don''t care," I said. It was a bit embarrassing, but I needed to ask him eventually.


    It felt good after letting it out.


    "That will be amazing. I have never had a woman from Querencia serve me. It will be a new experience," he said. "Send me a few women and I will choose one from them. More than one woman seems to be too much for me. Don''t worry.


    I am not the type to kill women after I am done with them like some certain people. You don''t have to clean up after me. I suppose you are not used to cleaning up since the King doesn''t have a harem and nor do you."