In a daze, I thought of the past.


    Back then, Ryan and I had only been married for six months. My period was dyed by about 10 days. Even though he always used protection, I still faintly wondered if I might be pregnant each time. When I bought the pregnancy test kit, I was eager to share the news of being pregnant with him.


    Now that I really was pregnant, thinking about Ryan standing just a door away, I couldn''t muster any excitement or joy. All I felt was fear and nervousness about what unexpected changes mighte. The worst oue would be losing this child.


    The mere two and a half years had turned everything upside down as if we were from different worlds


    now.


    My legs felt like lead as I walked to the door, my emotionsplex, but I found no sign of Ryan outside! Where was he?


    All that remained was my handbag, left alone on the metal bench by the door.


    Had he left?


    I pulled out my phone from the bag, a message was on the screen.


    "I have some urgent business. After the medical report is ready, Gary will deliver it home. I''ll be backter, wait for me."


    I sighed and walked outside the hospital. Suddenly, my mind changed.


    I already had the ultrasound report in my hand.


    It would be easy to make some adjustments now.


    I dialed Jane''s number. She answered almost instantly. "I was just about to call you. Where are you? Why didn''t youe to work? What happenedst night? Why did your phone suddenly turn off? Did you and Ryan have sex?"


    She fired questions in rapid session.


    Thest question made me blush with embarrassment.


    What was she on about?


    I chose to answer the first one. "I''m at the St. Heart Hospital."


    "For a prenatal checkup? Why didn''t you tell me? I could have gone with you." Jane always managed to get straight to the point. "Wait. Isn''t one of the Frost Group''s hospitals? Why did you go there?"


    I briefly exined the situation to her. "However, when came out of the ultrasound room, Ryan had already left."


    "Damn, you almost scared me."


    Jane summed it up. "So Ryan still doesn''t know that you''re pregnant, right?"Text ? 2024 N?velDrama.Org.


    "Yeah."


    "That''s good then."


    I hailed a taxi on the side of the road and sat in the back seat. "Jane, I feel lost."


    I had originally nned to tamper with the report during this time.


    But when I lowered my head and saw the tiny child on the report, my heart softened.


    The doctor''s words also echoed in my mind.


    Could he change his mind because of the pregnancy?


    If so, could I provide aplete family for the child, and would I finally find my own happiness?


    "Are you thinking whether he might sever-ties with Jessica because of the child?" Jane asked after a short pause.


    I didn''t hide it either. "Yeah, am I being foolish?”


    "Don''t you dare say that about yourself."


    I had expected Jane to scold me once she knew my thoughts, but instead, she said, "Charlotte, I know how much you love him. Love isn''t something born out of rationality. If everyone could cut their losses and weigh pros and cons in time, love would be even rarer."


    "Besides, you''ve spent a third of your life on him. As long as he gives you a glimmer of hope, it''s hard for you to back away in time."


    "It''s not that you''re foolish, it''s that men are just despicable."


    Her words left me silent for a long time. With a strained voice, I said, "I want to try again."


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