Nichs had barely undressed himself. He positioned me between himself and the disy cab. His eyes were devoid of emotion as if he was looking at an exhibit even while doing what used to make him lose himself. In the small space, only my muffled sobs could be heard. After what seemed like an eternity, he finally left. The moment he released me, I copsed to the floor,


    In my daze, I thought I saw an arm reaching out. But when I looked up, Nichs was calmly watching my disheveled state while fastening his belt. The arm I thought was reaching to help me remained lowered.


    Iughed bitterly. After treating me like this, he would not even want to help me up. How dazed was I to think he still had some humanity left?


    My body ached from his intentional roughness. I grabbed a random piece of clothing from the rack and intended to go shower, but he stopped me.


    showerter. Keep it in to help with getting pregnant." I suddenlyughed. I then took out a box of emergency contraceptive pills from my bag in front of him. I swallowed them without water.


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    I did not know how bitter poison could be, but at that moment, I felt this could not be different from swallowing poison. The bitterness spread through my entire body, making my heart, liver, spleen, lungs, and kidneys ache. "Children? I will never bear your children in this lifetime!"


    Nichs clenched his fists tightly. Lowering his head, he was also in deep pain. "From the day you agreed to let me have you, you''ve been taking contraceptives.


    He stated it with certainty. But not wanting to believe it himself, he asked again, "You''re saying that, even during those good days we had recently, you never thought about having a child with me?"


    I walked unsteadily toward the bathroom. This time, he did not stop me. He stared at me from afar, his eyes looked like he was unwilling to ept the truth.


    When I lost my child before, I did let udia take the fall on purpose. But if she had not repeatedly caused trouble and made things difficult during my pregnancy, I might not have lost the baby. At least half of the me fell on her.


    I knew Nichs wanted children. When I was prepared to try epting him again, I had considered the issue of children. But the person who killed my child was being kept close by him, and he still wanted me to bear him another child?Text content ? N?velDrama.Org.


    That was absolutely impossible


    unless udia was gone. This was my bottom line at that time, so had been secretly taking contraceptives. But now, even if udia were gone, it would not be okay!


    Men always imed how simple it was to have children, but only those who had been pregnant would know how difficult it was to nurture a child.


    How many days did I spend in the hospital even for a child I could not keep? How many medicines and injections did I receive for the baby? Nichs knew none of this.


    Now, my feelings for him were no longer enough to support bearing his child. I let out a mockingugh as


    I looked up at him.


    "We once had a child. If you want a child, go find that murderer outside and have her give the child back to you."


    I looked at him with contempt and disdain and locked the bathroom door. As I turned on the shower, the sound of the running water instantly blocked out everything outside.


    I wanted a moment of peace, but suddenly heard a loud "bang". Nichs had mmed the door shut.


    I listened numbly before stepping


    under the shower, hoping the heat


    would embrace me and ease my body''s aches. But when the water hit my sore body, the pain intensified so much I could not straighten


    up.


    I could not tell if it was water or my tears running down my face.