Chapter 295: Quite a Few
T and Mistress Holly entered into the back room of the workshop and sat down at a not-usually-present set of table and chairs.
The table held steaming tea, ready and waiting.
The tea was one that T couldnt quite ce, but it went down smoothly, and she felt herself rx as the warmth spread through her.
Now, Mistress T. We will be doing basically all the tests we did in preparation for your Refining, so that we canpare the results as a way to measure your bodys recovery and improvement.
T took another sip, sighed, and nodded. Out of curiosity, shouldnt we wait until I am physically fully recovered?
We will need to take another set of measurements then as well, but we need to head off any potential issues now, if they exist. So, we cant wait any longer.
Very well. I expected as much.
Good. Do you have any questions?
Honestly? Yes. I have quite a few, but not really about this process.
Mistress Holly gave a long-suffering smile. Well then, lets see what I can do to help with that.
As T settled back in her chair, she realized that she hadnt invited Terry to join her.
She opened Kit and called to him. The terror bird flickered to her shoulder, where he headbutted her cheek, and curled up.
T stroked the avian, then turned back to Mistress Holly. Sorry. My questions. What was that ck gunk?
That is actually a subject of some debate. Once it separates from an Archon, it begins to fade. Any attempt to perform tests upon it, or direct magical scanning at it either utterly fails or seems to speed up its fading.
And if it remains on the Archon?
Then attempting tests or scans causes it to retreat back into the Mage, harming the Refining.
Ts eyes widened. Could my magesight have triggered that?
Oh, no. Your magesight wouldnt have seen anything from it, but you probably already know that. It would be simple deadspace to that perception.
Are there any guesses on what it <em>might</em> be?
The most prevalent theory is that the ''gunk'' is a purely conceptual substance.
How does that make sense? Shouldnt it have to be material?
In theory, no. Not that we understand conceptual magics that well.
And so it would be what? The concept of bodily corruption?
Thats as good a guess as any, honestly.
Well, in either case, Im d that it didnt retreat and harm my Refining.
Quite. We would not have left your magesight active if it could harm you.
T grimaced. You didnt seem to mind hurting me.
I never imed differently. The pain, the hurt, was for your own good, and was required because of your condition.
She frowned. But you just said
Mistress Holly sighed and shook her head. Harm and hurt are very different things, Mistress T. I think you know that to be true. For example, a parents discipline must hurt to be meaningful, whether that hurt is physical, financial, social, or otherwise, but it should never <em>harm</em>.
Ahh, I see the difference. Hurt is painful, but that fades, while harm is damaging in the end.
Precisely.
She took a deep breath and asked one of the more important questions, trying to not let her voice tremble with either anger or remembered agony, So, why <em>did</em> you allow me to experience so much pain?
Do you remember when I rendered you unconscious to inscribe parts of you?
Yes.
What happened when you woke up?
Ts eyes widened just slightly as she understood. The sum total of all the pain I <em>would have</em> felt hit me at once.
<em>That,</em> if done for the Refining, would have killed you, almost without question. The pain you felt was mostly on the soul-level, as one of your soul-bonds, specifically your body, was broken down and stripped of pieces of its makeup.
Stripped of who knows what.
Well, we know the results, but that doesnt really help us concretely identify the substance. Mistress Holly gave a rueful smile. In fact, us knowing the results lets us extrapte the connecting concept of what was removed, which is why the conceptual substance theory holds so much weight.
And those known results are?
Refined gain incredible multiplicative increases to throughput, magical density, inscription efficiency, and magical control. An end to physical degradation due to time. An almost total immunity to non-magical disease and poison. A perfecting of your gic code, to be passed down to any offspring. Physical capacity is amplified as well to an incredible degree. Mental functions are lifted topletely new heights.
Mistress Holly clearly saw Ts confused frown.
All of this will manifest as your body solidifies in its new state. There are many more-specific benefits, but they all are understood to fall under what I already stated. These are some of the reasons why we implement the reconstruction inscriptions before Refining. Aside from making the process easier, they make the results better, too.
T grunted. Terry seemed to be getting bored, so he flickered to a corner, where he contentedly curled up to wait.
Do you mind if <em>I</em> ask you a question?
She only hesitated a moment before shrugging. I suppose not.
I didnt want to ask before, because I didnt want to influence your decision, especially when you had an expert to consult. Now that its done, though, what was your reasoning behind binding the dasgannach with your weapon as opposed to your elk-leathers?
T grunted. Shed actually given it a lot of thought and talked it through with Mistress Aurius. T had been inclined to use Flow, and her research and talks had only reinforced the decision. Thats simple enough. The elk-leathers and dasgannach were too simr. One would have subsumed the other, and Id have been left with one that could somewhat pretend to be the other. Flow and the dasgannach were distinct enough, with marginal ovep, that they should now be able toplement each other, rather than overriding or fighting for supremacy.
Mistress Holly nodded. That would have been my fear as well. Im d to know that you got good advice, and its also nice to confirm that Im not so ignorant in the field to have missed the mark.
T grunted again. She was almost frustrated with Mistress Holly, but she realized that it wasnt Mistress Hollys job to hold her hand in such decisions, especially when theyy outside her expertise. Mistress Holly had gone above and beyond, finding an expert for T to work with, after all.
The Inscriber titled her head in thought, seeming content with Ts response. Thank you for satisfying my curiosity. What else did you want to ask?
Soul bonds.
They arent my area of study, but Ill answer if I can.
It has been implied to me that I shouldnt have more than eight at any one time.
That is fairly standard, sound advice, yes.
I have Flow, my elk-leathers, my Archive link, and my body, right? Does my body count?
In almost every sense, yes. Mistress Hollys smile shifted towards a wry grin. Except toward that limit. While youre Bound? It counts and is like any soul-bound tool, in every basic sense. Once you Fuse though, you basically do to your body and soul what you just did to your weapon and the dasganach.
T blinked a few times, processing what Mistress Holly had said. So, because my body is Fused with my soul, it doesnt count as a bond?
For soul-strain, no, it doesnt count.
So, I have five more slots?
You? I have no idea. There are <em>so</em> many extenuating circumstances that might have affected the strength, flexibility, and durability of your soul in ways I have no clue how to understand nor quantify. Standardly? Yes, Id say four more tools and a spouse would be the limit. She held up a finger. Though, I wouldnt rush into any of those bonds until you were utterly sure.
Absolutely not. So, the dasgannach and Flow are just a single bond?
That <em>is</em> usually the point of a merging. If you were set on doing all your bonding <em>now</em>, I would befortable telling you to only add four more bonds, but as the merging settles over time, it will only strain your soul as much as a single bond in the end. She narrowed her eyes at T. I feel the need to emphasize that this is meant as an upper limit, not a goal. Most Archons end up with four or five tools of various natures.
Offensive, defensive, storage, and Archive connection?
Generally, yes. Each of those takes a different form, within reason. So, its not like its a standard set of gear by any means. There are also obviously Archons who end up with a different set entirely, and almost no one who stops before Refining has a soul-bound Archive connection, so its only vaguely urate.
Thank you for that rification. In that same vein, what does it mean for my bonds that I am now Refined?
On the surface level, they are going to Refine as well, though it will take longer for them, and it is an automatic process. In the case of inanimate objects, weve not observed any of the ck sludge, either. When you Fused, the change was mainly in you, and you likely gained greater control over them and simply had more power to grant to them for their usage. Now, however, both you and your bonds will end up altered.
T opened her mouth in shock, but Mistress Holly held up her hand.
Altered isnt the right word, but its also the best one I have. You will find them both more efficient and able to handle more power. Your Archive connection will likely allow for faster transfer of information at the very least as well. That is a rtively standard item, so the results are somewhat known. Its especially well studied because very few bond one before Refined, so those that do are watched closely. Master Nadro implied that you are already starting to be able to use that connection for real-timemunication, rather than simply for the sharing of notes. Is that correct?
It is, yes.
That would have been much more difficult, if not impossible before Refining.
<em>-Shes right. We could obviously have done it if I stopped backing up your mind, and other uses of the Archive, but it still would have been a strain.-</em>
<em>But, thats silly. Why wouldmunicating in real time take that much informational throughput?</em>
<em>-The Archive is secure, not fast, perhaps? Its also designed as an informational repository. It is much easier to give it information than to ry information </em>through<em> it.-</em>
<em>Hmm That sounds like theres some sort of conceptual backing to it, and thats causing this nonsensical duality of capacity.</em>
<em>-That is in line with our earlier guesses.-</em>
Alright. I think I understand.
Now, do you have other questions, or should we get to the tests?
Just one more, unless your answer keys off more.
Mistress Holly smiled and took another sip of tea. Ask away.
My fusing feels off somehow. Strained? Tangled? Something in that vein.
T had looked into her inner view of her fusing and found the massive, crocheted field to be rather less ordered than it had been when she had Fused. Specifically, the part which represented her body seemed to have been cut apart and put back together, no longer <em>quite</em> fully intermeshed with her spirit and soul.
It wasnt in a way that made it seem like the whole thing would pull apart, but it was definitely <em>not</em> how she had left it.
Ahh, yes. That is expected.
Does it have to do with the changes due to Refining?
It does. This is a known result, and not one that you should deal with at the moment.
But I could?
You cant. Well, I mean of course you <em>could</em> fix it, but it isnt worth your time and effort. It would be foolish, so you <em>shouldnt</em>.
T frowned. What do you mean?
Mistress Holly sighed. Because every step from here forward will make the Fusing worse, but it wont break it. If you aimed to keep it perfected, you would need to fully undo it and start over to make it right, and then youd have to redo that for every single step between Refined and Paragon, then again for each major progression towards Reforging. And then yet again when you headed towards Ascending.
And then towards Transcendent, too? T finished for the woman with a sigh.
Well, no. Mistress Holly smiled knowingly. While to my knowledge, we dont have definitive proof, the most prevalent theory is that moving from Ascending to Transcendent is simply a matter of doing precisely this, meaning re-Fusing. At that time, your body, soul, and spirit will have been cleansed and its just a matter of aligning and interweaving them. Thus, the final step is simply to rbine them into a coherent, perfected whole.
T felt her mouth hanging slightly open. <em>She just told me?</em>
She blinked a few times, uncertain if shed misunderstood.
<em>t did she just tell me how to reach a certain, future advancement?</em>
<em>-Well, yes, but to be fair it was a theory, and still an </em>incredible<em> distance from where we are.-</em>
<em>I have to test this. What else will she tell me?</em> Does that mean you can tell me what the other advancements take?
Yes but no. Mistress Hollys smile turned wry. Paragon? Yes. Reforged? Yes, but I <em>highly</em> rmend that you wait to learn that bit of knowledge for at least a year, if not until you are a Paragon. Ascending? Yes, but it is rmended that you wait until you are a Paragon, otherwise you will make the process of reaching that advancement <em>much</em> harder.
T frowned. Arent we set up to hide these secrets, to make progression easier? Isnt that the point of the previous secrecy?
The Inscriptionist snorted. No, not at all. We hide the things that would make advancement basically impossible. These bits of information will just make it much harder, so we allow the individual Archon to decide.
I see Well, Id at least like to know what it takes to be a Paragon.
Of course. Like Refining, it is incredibly simple in concept, but difficult to enact. Blessedly, it is an internal process, as Fusing was, not one requiring exterior assistance or intervention.
T nodded, waiting expectantly.
Bing a Paragon simply requires releasing a mortal view of this world and your experiences within it.
<em>What now?</em>
<em>-What now?-</em>
T scrunched her face in confusion, but no rity came with a moments thought. So, she asked, What now?
Mistess Holly smiled. You must allow yourselfand your spiritto let go of a limited view of reality. You must allow your thinking, along with your emotional responses, to be that of the next world, thus allowing your spiritand the half of your soul that remains hereto better align with the half of your soul that is in the next world.
Ts scrunched face became a grimace as her parents immediately came to mind and anger built within her. <em>So, I have to acknowledge that, in light of the next world, their betrayal is rather meaningless? There. I did it. Are you happy?</em>
<em>-T, I dont think thats what that means, and I dont think you do either.-</em>
Mistress Holly sighed. I know you have much to work through. I will tell you one thing that my master told me when I had reached this step. This is not about freeing those who have wronged you. It is about freeing yourself.
T looked over to the other woman in confusion. I might still be a bit fuzzy, but I dont think I understand.
Let me tell you a story as an analogy.
She nodded and leaned back, continuing to enjoy her tea.
Long ago, there was a group of Mages who avoided iron entirely to prevent any tainting of even their mental foundations for magic. It was a core tenant of their group, and an unthinkable breach to have any interactions with iron.
T huffed augh. Theyd have loved me.
Mistress Holly smiled in return. Quite. But you understand the setting?
I do.
Important to the story is that this was when humanity lived in the countryside, moving around in smaller groups. This is before the cycle of cities was established.
Alright.
So, a master and mageling of this group were walking through the countryside, and they came across an overturned cart. It seemed that a wheel had broken, causing the contents of the cart to fall out onto the man who had been walking alongside, prodding the oxen.
Now, the cart had been loaded with long iron rods, each two inches thick, and the cartman was basically unhurt but utterly pinned under the jumble of rods.
I think I can see the conflict of the tale. Ts mouth quirked up into a half smile.
Shh. Even so, the Inscriptionist smiled in return. The master, without hesitation, rushed forward, grabbed the iron rods and with tremendous strength, brought on by his magics, freed the man. Less than a minuteter, the two Mages were on their way, and the cartman was already working to repair his vehicle, no longer needing their help.
Mistress Holly paused to take a sip of tea before continuing.
The two continued walking after that, and the mageling was understandably conflicted. His master had vited the strictures of their group and had touched iron. More than that, it wasnt a simple idental brush with the metal. He had purposely grabbed it over and over, even utilizing magic to allow him to effectively work with it.
Finally, when they had nearly reached the end of their trip, and the day was drawing to a close, the mageling couldnt take it anymore. Master, how could you do something against our ideals? the young man asked. You willfully touched iron, endangering your mental foundations.
The master turned to his mageling and gave a sad smile, My boy, I touched the iron for but a moment; you have been carrying it all day.
Silence fell in the room as both women enjoyed their tea.
Mistress Holly seemed content to wait for T to fully process.
Finally, T nodded. So, it isnt about what happened, it is about your mindset?
The Inscriptionist sighed, setting her teacup aside. Yes and no. Let me try a more real example: Your Refining was traumatic.
T felt her eye twitch at the change in topic. Yes, it was.
And I led you into it.
She grit her teeth but responded again, Yes, you did.
You could hate me for that. You could leave and refuse to ever see me again. There is no question that your view of me <em>has </em>changed, but you are still here, listening to me and willing for me to still help you. Either response makes perfect sense given what you have gone through.
T didnt have a response.
So, let me ask you this: If you chose to hate me and avoid me, who would be harmed? Would your hatredyour avoidance of mecause me anysting harm?
After a moments thought, T had to concede, No, it wouldnt.
But would it harm you?
Probably
That is what I mean. Few things are so clear cut, even the situation surrounding your Refining, but it is a good analogy.
Im still not sure I quite understand.
Mistress Holly smiled again, more softly this time. Thats understandable and more than fine. If you truly understood, youd already be a Paragon. You are young, yet. Give it time. Master Grediv is a wonderful resource, too. He will likely have a slightly different perspective and might convey it in a way you would understand better.
T grunted. Then, she gave Mistress Holly a side-eyed look. So, your master told you that tale?
Yes.
When you were in my position, Refined and looking towards the advancement to Paragon?
Yes.
And yet you are Refined? As basic and pure a yellow as Ive ever seen?
Mistress Holly smiled mischievously. Am I? I dont generally think on such things.
T opened her mouth toment further, but Mistress Holly stood up.
Now, we should really get to the tests, Mistress T. I have much else that I need to do this week.