Book 3: Chapter 15: An Uneasy Feeling


    The smell of blooming flowers hung in the air, reminding Carmen that spring had well and truly arrived. In any other situation, she might have weed it. Indeed, even as a refugee who’d been banished to wilderness, she appreciated the warmer weather. However, it also highlighted a series of issues, not least among them that with the passage of time came the increased risk of hunger.


    Her group had long since run out of rations, and though they’d had some degree of good fortune hunting, they were only a couple of dry spells away from having to ration what they had left. But mostly, she was worried about the increased animal activity that would inevitably apany the warmer weather. Many predators either hibernated or at least slowed down during winter, but now that spring had arrived, they would be up and about. And they would see the ragged group of refugees as prey.


    Because for the most part, that was what they were.


    Certainly, they could hold their own if they caught a monster by surprise. And against desperate groups of bandits, they could survive well enough. Yet, Carmen knew exactly how close to the edge they were walking, and it was painfully obvious that it would only take a single push to send them all careening over a cliff and into oblivion.


    If it weren’t for her responsibilities as a mother, she might have simply given in and let it happen. Increasingly, the simple act of putting one foot in front of the other had be draining in a way she could scarcely articte. It wasn’t difficult to understand why, either. She’d lost everything. Her wife. Her forge. Even her home. Miguel was the only thing left, and he was the lone thread keeping her from simply giving up.


    If she’d been back in Easton, she might have lost herself at the bottom of a bottle. Or maybe she would have picked a few fights. Lost herself in her work, perhaps. However, none of those outlets were avable. Instead, they’d been reced by the tedium of survival, and it had proven a poor substitute.


    Because as difficult as it was, survival was not exciting. Nor was it terribly distracting. Long periods passed where nothing happened, and in those moments, Carmen could only dwell on everything she’d lost. On how thoroughly she had failed. People had died because of her. Others had been banished from the only viable life avable to them. As a result, they were out in the wilderness with no real civilization for a hundred miles in any direction.


    They needed rest.


    They needed somewhere they could settle in and collect themselves. Perhaps a ce where they could set a permanent life. Maybe they would choose to keep going and look for something more developed. Or not. But for the moment, everyone needed a break from the constant rigors of travel and survival. One was doable, but both at the same time came at the expense of one’s sanity. Carmen felt it as keenly as anyone else.So, she couldn’t help but feel a tinge of optimism when Colt returned to the column of refugees and said, “There’s a good spot up ahead. Water. Some wild edibles nearby. And a reasonably intact shelter.”


    “What was it?” Carmen asked, still trudging along the highway. It made travel easier when they could find a stretch of road, but it was also a grim reminder of the world they’d all lost. It was especially poignant when they stumbled upon an old roadside hotel or a gas station. They’d seen fast food restaurants as well as a few abandoned rest centers, establishing that they were traveling in what had once been America. Every now and then, they’d find something that clearly belonged to other countries as well, which served as another testament to how thoroughly Earth had changed. It was one thing to know that everything had been mixed up and randomized, but it was something else altogether to see a inly Russian business a mile away from a building from South Africa.


    “A high school,” Colt said. “There are a few cars in the parking lot, too. Nothing electric, but you could use the materials.”


    “You think it’s a viable ce to settle?”


    The man shrugged, then reached up to his head, but as had been the case since they’d been exiled from Easton, he was missing his customary hat. For some reason, that struck Carmen as sad. Or wrong.


    Theck of his right hand didn’t help that sense.


    “Dunno,” he admitted. “Maybe, though. It’s right next to ake, too. There’s water and shelter, and we can potentially fish for food. Seems like a good start.”


    Indeed, it was. And over the past month or so, they’d covered enough ground that they weren’t looking over their shoulders expecting Roman’s people to overtake them. So, they were far enough away from Easton that they could reasonably expect to be left alone. For now. Carmen suspected that Roman had ns for expansion, so who knew what the future might hold?


    “Alright. Lead us there,” she said. Then, she turned to the others and let them know what was going on. That was met with no small amount of relief, and soon enough, they left the highway, following a small road until, about five milester, they came upon their destination.


    The school – called Lincoln High School – was nothing special. Just a low-slung series of unimaginative buildings. However, upon initial inspection, it seemed mostly intact. And it wasrge enough to amodate their group.


    Still, Carmen approached with all the caution of someone who knew just how dangerous their world had be. So, she summoned a pair of cksmithing hammers – one in each hand – and activated hertest ability:


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    <strong>Augment Weapons</strong></td><td width="260">


    <strong>In a twenty (20) yard radius, increase the durability of all weapons you have created. Also, add fire damage to each weapon. Temporary. Duration based on Strength. Current: 7 Minutes</strong></td></tr></tbody></table>


    It was Carmen’s first truebat ability, which she’d acquired at level thirty-five. And though it wasn’t as shy as something a Warrior or Sorcerer might use, it had proven incredibly useful over the past couple of weeks. It was also helpful that her summoned hammers, which had been manifested with Summon Tool, counted as her creations. As she used Augment Weapons, her hammers took on a red sheen. So did the des of the spears each of the refugees carried.


    Most importantly, Colt’s new sword did as well. Called Second Chance, it had been created using the metal from that first bandit leader’s sword, and it was easily the best weapon anyone in the group had. However, it was a long way from the best Carmen could do. But without a proper forge and the right materials, it would have to do.


    Even with only one hand, he was still far and away the bestbatant among the refugees. Every now and then, Carmen would see him fumbling with something – like the sp of a belt she’d made to hold his sheathed sword – but otherwise, he bore the loss stoically. Carmen wondered if she would have reacted the same.


    Probably not.


    Colt led the way through the school’s front doors, and Carmen was happy to see that it was no different than a thousand schools across America. To her left, she saw a school office, and to the right, a trophy case meant tomemorate a bunch of academic or athletic achievements.


    But there were no flying monkeys or other unlikely monsters.


    So, they continued on, checking each ssroom along the way. To Carmen’s surprise, they found nothing but desks, whiteboards, and a bunch of abandonedputers. Everything looked like it had been untouched since the world’s transformation, which put Carmen’s hackles up.


    Still, no matter how hard they looked – and they searched every corner of the small school – no dangers presented themselves. In fact, they found nothing but good fortune, even stumbling upon what had been the school’s woodshop ssroom.


    “This is all good steel,” Carmen said, inspecting a sawde. “This can’t be real…”


    “We were due a little good luck,” said Theresa. The woman had huge bags beneath her eyes, and a sag to her shoulders. She’d earned both. She was the closest thing they had to a healer, after all. Without her prowess as a Chemist, none of them – including Carmen – would have survived. Even with her efforts, they’de close to losing multiple people.


    And Theresa wasn’t the only one who needed a rest. They all did. Which was why the school was such an attractive option. Still, Carmen insisted on sweeping through the ce one final time before giving the order to settle in. That resulted in no new information, so the group took refuge in the school’s cafeteria. Meanwhile, Carmen and Colt – and Miguel, to Carmen’s consternation – scouted the surroundings.


    They were just as devoid of monster activity as the school. Even theke, which was nestled only a few hundred yards from the school, was incredibly peaceful. In fact, the whole area looked like paradise.


    That sent a chill up Carmen’s spine, and as she stood on the shore, she said, “This is too good to be true.”


    “We’re allowed to find peace,” Colt said from where he stood beside her. “The world ain’t all terrible, ya know. There’s plenty of good out there. We just got dealt a raw hand.”


    “That’s one way to put it,” she muttered. She ran her hand through her dirty hair. How long had it been since she’d felt clean? Back in Silverado? Suddenly, she needed a long, hot shower. But that wasn’t forting. The days of conveniences like that were long in the rearview.


    She settled down onto the ground and, as she clutched her knees to her chest, she looked out over theke. Before she knew it, tears were tracing lines down her dirty cheeks. It wasn’t the first time she’d wept since being exiled from Easton, but she never really allowed it to go past a few scattered tears. Yet, now that she was alone – or mostly – she couldn’t stop them. Soon enough, the sobbing escted into the ugliest, sloppiest sort of crying.


    For his part, Colt remained nearby, but he didn’t remark on what Carmen considered a disy of weakness. Miguel, on the other hand, sat next to her and leaned his head on her shoulder as he said, “It’ll be okay, mom. It’ll all be okay.”


    As he spoke, he rubbed her back. It reminded her of how Alyssa had alwaysforted Miguel. Which only served to bring all of her deep-seated sadness bubbling to the fore.


    She wept, and not just for the losses she had endured. Indeed, she cried for everything she knew wasing. All the hardships she and all the other refugees would have to experience before they could even think about returning to normalcy. She wept for a boy who’d have to grow up without one of his parents.


    But most of all, she wept because she missed Alyssa.


    She’d always been the strong one. She had been the backbone of their rtionship, and always, Alyssa had been the shoulder Carmen had cried on. Now, she only had Miguel, and that was a burden she didn’t want to put on her son. However, she couldn’t stop.


    So, she wept.


    For how long Carmen sat there, she didn’t know, but by the time she finally pulled herself together, her eyes had gone dry, and the sun had set. At some point, Colt had wandered off, but Miguel had remained by her side the entire time.


    Just like his mother would have done.


    Finally, she nced over and said, “Thank you.”


    “For what?” he asked, blinking his big, brown eyes.


    “For being here,” Carmen answered. “I’ll be stronger from now on, but for now…thank you. Now, let’s go back inside and see if we can make something of this ce.”


    After that, the pair rose and headed into the school, where they found Colt and the others. They’d eachid out the nkets they’d scavenged along the way, and they were all restingfortably. It was the first peace they’d experienced since leaving Easton, and though they were still tense, every indication was that they could finally rx.


    But just because things appeared safe didn’t mean Carmen could drop her guard. So, she drew Colt to the side and said, “I’ll take first watch. You take second. This ce seems peaceful, but…”


    “I get it. But flip that,” Colt said. “I’ll keep an eye on things. You need your rest.”


    Carmen was going to argue, but then she just shook her head. Colt was right. If anyone in the group needed a peaceful night, it was her. So, she just said, “Okay. Wake me when it’s my turn.”


    Then, she headed to a corner where sheid out her own ratty nket, thenid down and, within only a few minutes, was asleep. That night, she dreamed of broken promises and shattered peace.


    They were not pleasant dreams.