Chapter 867: Why Now?


    Meanwhile, Xiang Wai had dragged Zhai Yanjun but now she looked conflicted


    about where to take him. The problem was solved by the manager who offered


    to let them use his resting room. Xiang Wai took him there while Zhai Yanjun


    stayed silent all the way. He didn''t evenment on why she was dragging


    him around.


    When she entered the room with him, she closed the door and even locked it


    making Zhai Yanjun''s brows quirk up. He suddenly felt uneasy about this


    arrangement. He didn''t think it was a good idea to stay in an enclosed space


    with Xiang Wai. All alone.


    She turned around to see him staring nkly at her and frowned, "What are


    you waiting for? Take off your shirt."


    Zhai Yanjun tilted his head and she realized what she said sounded a bit wrong.


    "What? Are you worried that I''d do something to you?"


    "No, I''m worried that you won''t do anything to me," he replied with a serious


    look.


    His words made her look dumbfounded for a moment. She cleared her throat


    and said, "Don''t talk nonsense. You''re scalded by that hot coffee. Look at the


    patch on your chest." She was still talking in dissatisfaction as she started


    unbuttoning his shirt. "Can''t you watch where you''re going? Can''t you avoid a


    waiter? With your skills, it''s a wonder how you survived in the army until now.


    How did you get promoted to Captain? I should really talk to yourmander."


    "Lalso didn''t think I''d survive for so long in the army," said Zhai Yanjun softly.


    Xiang Wai''s hands paused for a moment when she heard it. At least, she knew


    the real meaning behind those words so she looked up at him sharply, "Do you


    still want to die?"


    "I never wanted to die," he replied. "If I did, I wouldn''t be so desperately


    holding on to this life. And I''m d, I did. At least, I got to meet my aunt and


    Fai. I also learned something new about living from all of them. And | also


    learned how much I don''t deserve to have you."


    Xiang Wai avoided his eyes as she pulled open his shirt and looked at the


    redness on his chest. However, the other scars on his body were definitely


    worse than this scalded skin. How could it be a big deal?


    "It''s not even a big deal," said Zhai Yanjun as he tried to take a step back but she


    was still holding on to thepels of his shirt. "Wai, it doesn''t hurt. If this much


    hurt, I wouldn''t be able to survive on the border of those snowcapped


    mountains. You''re really worrying for nothing."


    "Who is worried about you?" she retorted subconsciously.


    "If you''re not worried, why aren''t you looking into my eyes?" he asked. "Can you


    not do it? I feel stifled when you don''t look at me." He took a moment and


    added, "The way your eyes only held that other man felt more ufortable


    than this skin injury."


    Xiang Wai looked into his eyes and was momentarily lost for words. She


    gathered her thoughts before saying, "You... You never talked like this before."


    "Right?" he nodded to himself. "I also wonder why I held back. I should have


    been more honest with you and myself regarding my feelings for you."


    "Why are you telling me this now?" her voice raised and it was visible how her


    emotions were affected by his words. Her mood was so easily fluctuating


    because of his presence. All because of him.


    "I don''t know," said Zhai Yanjun honestly. "Maybe I think it''s about time to tell


    you this. Or maybe I don''t want to keep hiding my true thoughts anymore. The


    other day, Fai said when everything looks dark, I should find a guiding light


    and focus on that light with all my heart. It made me realize, that in my life,


    you had long been ying the role of the light. The light pulled me out of the


    shadows that haunted me for far too long."


    Xiang Wai lowered her head and continued to look at her feet for some reason.


    She didn''t dare meet his eyes again. Earlier, when she did, she already realized


    that she was losing control under the spell of his gaze. It was a dangerous y.


    She couldn''t y this losing game. She couldn''t extract herself from the spell


    of his gaze. So, it was better to run from it.


    "Did youe here because you heard about my blind date?" she asked him in


    a low voice. "Did youe to beat my blind date or to snatch me away?"


    "Neither," he answered. "I honestly didn''t know you''re meeting your blind date


    here."


    “And if you knew, would youe?" she asked.


    Zhai Yanjun sighed, "I think I''d stille."


    "That''s so not something you''d do," she said.


    "I know, right? That''s not something I''d normally do but I had been thinking


    about your blind date since I learned about it. It had constantly been on my


    mind. I won''t lie, when I saw you with that man, I wanted to go up to beat him.


    But karma got to me sooner than I could act and I burned myself as you can


    see."


    "Beating someone for no reason is also not like you," she mumbled.


    "They say you lose your rationality in love," he told her. "If you''re still rational


    while being in love, then either there is no love or you''re just fooling yourself.


    For years, I stubbornly wanted to hold on to my rationality but it made me lose


    my love. So, I don''t see anything wrong with acting not like myself."


    "You''ve be talkative," shemented. "That''s quite an impressive change


    in such a short time."


    "You''ve be calmer," he remarked. "And that''s also a remarkable change in


    such a short time."


    Xiang Wai took a deep breath and said, "Go to the bathroom and wipe your


    chest with cold water. Even if it doesn''t hurt, you should clean it up. I''ll find


    you a new shirt.."


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