<h4>Chapter 312 - [Bonus ] Don’t Want To Degrade You</h4>


    " what? What was that? Hey Rui, are you okay?" Lin Yan who nearly toppled after Lin Rui brush past him. The impact with which? Lin Rui collided with him was not that light either if not for Su Wan grasping his wrist on time, Lin Yan would have toppled on the ground! Because of this Lin Yan couldn''t help but get angry How can his fourth brother who was going to study at the academy, act so recklessly? " Lin Rui! I''m asking you to stop! " However, no matter how much Lin Yan called Lin Rui, thetter never stopped.


    " what''s wrong with him?" when Lin Rui kept walking despite Lin Yan calling him, Lin Yan looked at his rushing back with a frown " he never acts like this, never Have I seen him like this, just what happened?"


    with that Lin, Yan tried to walk to Lin Rui but Su Wan stopped him, as she shook her head " it''s fine you go and check on Jing ge, I will check what''s wrong with him"


    Lin Yan pursed his lips, he didn''t want to leave Su Wan and Lin Rui alone because he still remembered how the two of them got in a fight because of some small misunderstandings, what if Lin Rui upsets Su Wan again? Wouldn''t it be troublesome if he made Su Wan mad again? Which was why he wanted to check up on Lin Rui by himself, but now that Su Wan suggested that she wants to check up on Lin Rui he couldn''t possibly stop her, right?


    " Alright but if he makes you upset you cane and tell me alright ?" sighed Lin Yan, Lin Rui was usually the gentlest of the five brothers even more than Lin Yu who faked a cheery and delicate persona sometimes, something that could make such a gentle and calm Lin Rui mad could never be something simple.


    " Don''t worry I will" promised Su Wan, however internally she was sure that if Lin Rui made her upset, she was enough to teach him a lesson. She didn''t need Lin Yan to interfere in her fight with Lin Rui.? She smiled then ran after Lin Rui leaving Lin Yan behind who was frowning, however, he didn''t worry about the two of them for long, Su Wan was no delicatedy if things became bad thus, the only person who would suffer would be Lin Rui.


    With that, his heart was a little more at ease, as long as Su Wan does not get mad everything else was like a breeze of spring. As for his fourth brother who will suffer, who asked him to be stupid?


    If Lin Rui knew that his fourth brother threw him to a corner like this he would feel so wrong that his liver might turn blue from red.


    Lin Yan stepped forward to go back inside the room but then he heard footstepsing from behind and stopped, as he turned his head and looked at Lin Yu and Lin Chen who wereing back from God knows where looking at the two of them who were striding inside the house- one looking like the God of death with his scowl and killing intent while the other was looking like some jollyckey as he whistled some merry tune.


    " where did the two of you go? asked Lin Yan looking at the mother hen like Lin Yu and the small chick like Lin Chen, though their physique hardly allowed him to envision that " and most importantly what did the two of you do ?"


    Lin Yan as the elder brother couldn''t help but have a sense of foreboding, the sight of Lin Yu and Lin Chen together had something in it that made him feel like something terrible was up.


    Pressing a hand on his temple, Lin Yan sighed" please tell me that you didn''t kill someone, alright? My heart is not strong enough to withstand that "


    Given their suspicious history when the two got together, Lin Yan couldn''t help but feel that someone was bound to get unlucky today.


    " what are you saying brother? Do we look that terrible to you ?" asked Lin Chen with a pout "? we just went on a walk and nothing more, after staying at home in such a tense atmosphere, Ah Yu and I were feeling stuffy so we just went out to refresh ourselves can''t we do that ?"


    " that''s r...right third brother you wronged us," said Lin Yu as he swiftly followed Lin Chen''s lead and made himself look pitiful.


    However, this act of his would have worked in the past but now it only made Lin Yan even more suspicious as he red at the two of them with narrowed eyes, while contemting what the in the hell these two did behind their backs.


    On one side Lin Yan was interrogating Lin Yu and Lin Rui while on the other hand, Su Wan was trying to make out what was wrong with Lin Rui who was sitting on his bed with his legs submerged in chilly water from the vat. Seeing him act like this she could more or less figure out what happened. However, she didn''t me him, the fact that he was here trying to cool himself could only mean that he didn''t touch that little hussy Luo Chenxi and instead came rushing to stop himself even if it meant to torture himself!


    " are you okay?" asked Su Wan in a low voice as she approached him but Lin Rui didn''t respond instead he kept his head bowed while he covered his face with his hands, Su Wan sighed and spoke in the most gentle voice" it''s not your fault. I don''t know what happened but it''s not your fault at all"


    He looked up, his eyes rimmed red as he shook his head" it''s my fault, she did something wrong yet I still treated her cordially. I gave her the chance to scheme against me, if anyone is at fault then it''s me"


    Su Wan sped his hands and drew circles on the back of his hands " no it isn''t, I agree that you were stupid to trust her but - but that''s because you are kind enough to give others an advantage of doubt. It''s not your fault that others don''t appreciate your kindness, which makes you vulnerable.? But being kind is not a mistake, it''s neither your fault nor w "


    However, Lin Rui who was still feeling guilty looked away from her and sighed" I could have betrayed you, betrayed our marriage.? I can never rest in ease knowing that, just because of a small mistake I could have ruined everything that we have with my own hands, it''s not easy to forgive or to forget Wan Wan"


    "But you didn''t and that''s what matters"


    "I mean I could have done that "


    " you find her attractive is that it?"


    "Of course not! How can that be "said Lin Rui eyes widening, his eyes fell on Su Wan then inadvertently his gaze fell on her lips making him even hotter than he was, not wanting to


    take advantage of her, he looked away " I will never find anyone else attractive other than you"


    " then what''s the problem? Why are you still sulking ?"


    He lifted a brow " sulking ?"


    " yeah sulking " she climbed on hisp and straddled him " sulking because you are guilty. Guilty because of your overthinking, you would have never betrayed our marriage even if the most beautiful woman in the world seduced you because that''s just not you. I know it and you do too but you just can''t help but create stupid scenarios in your head, it''s your favourite past time isn''t it ?"


    The way she said it made it sound like that Lin Rui just made a small mistake and everything was okay and that made Lin Rui shake his head incredulously. He couldn''t understand how Su Wan can not be angry at him? Even he couldn''t help but be upset with himself! Her personality was like this tough and iron-willed but in reality, she was just a tiny little thing.? If he exerted even the slightest bit of strength, he might really hurt her with the least amount of effort both physically and mentally but she always acted like she was fine - which was why they always thought of her as someone stronger than she was, but Lin Rui didn''t want to make the same mistake twice.


    Lin Rui inhaled a sharp breath taking her sweet scent before he shoved her lightly from hisp" leave, I''m not in a condition where I will be able to control myself.? "


    " then don''t control yourself, " said Su Wan hugging his neck " it''s not like I''m asking you to, why don''t you stop torturing yourself and just do what you should. I will be fine"


    Lin Rui took her hands in his and disentangled her hold, he held her hands while controlling his lust and passion that was rolling inside his body " you don''t get it, do you? You have no idea how important you are to me, Wan Wan. You are not just my wife but my everything, are going to be together till the end of our lives and I need you to be okay and happy. I can''t do without you which is why I don''t want to lose you. I will not touch you just because I have to - you are more than just a mean to relieve my desire and I refuse to make use of you like this.? Because it will not only degrade you but also our rtionship, I will touch you when I''m sane and gentle not when I am having a hard time controlling myself.. You are not my whore, you are my wife, and as your husband, I will respect you, so please leave and let me be. I don''t want to hurt you, if you stay I''m afraid I will do something irreversible "