<h4>Chapter 10: Epilogue</h4>


    Ayase Saki''s Diary


    7th of June (Sunday)


    When I said that I was relieved, I really meant it.


    I could tell just from meeting him then that he wasn''t a bad person.


    At the same time, he felt very considerate.


    He''s willing to put in new hot water in the bath after he''s done with his.


    I didn''t expect him to be a student at Suisei though.


    8th of June (Monday)


    Asamura-kun called out to me at school.


    Contrary to my expectations, Asamura-kun is a very t and even person.


    I don''t like the idea of him just taking the rumours about me at face value, but I know that it can''t be helped. I know what I look like to others after all.


    I was angry. Yet, he epted that I was angry.


    He might be the first person I ever met who was willing to adjust to me like that.


    9th of June (Tuesday)


    Memo: Asamura-kun likes his fried eggs with soy sauce.


    From today onward, I will be cooking food.


    Asamura-kun is going out of his way to search for a high-pay part-time job for me, so I will provide him with breakfast and dinner.


    He apologized for not being able to find anything, but I knew that it wouldn''t be this easy.


    Especially asking strangers for help.


    If I could do that…


    10th of June (Wednesday)


    Urk, so embarrassing…


    To think he would hear that.


    I don''t want to lookme, so I try to keep my hard work a secret.


    Maaya came to visit us. She''s as noisy as always.


    The three of us yed together, andughed a lot. How long has it been since Iughed like that.


    We exchanged LINE contacts.


    It''s very much like Asamura-kun to keep a scenery picture as his profile picture.


    Thanks… for the umbre.


    11th of June (Thursday)


    I have to pay more attention when I dry my underwear in my room, yep.


    Underwear is just like every other piece of clothing. How could you be so entranced by it, Asamura-kun…


    Luckily, he didn''t try anything vile with it.


    But…


    He said he won''t do anything. He admitted to having desires like that, but stated that having them and acting ording to them is a different problem.


    I couldn''t agree more.


    Whenever I hear his opinion, I realize that I always sympathize with it. That''s probably why I feel so rxed.


    Asamura-kun is dangerous.


    He understands me too well.


    12th of June (Friday)


    Asamura-kun got angry at me for the first time.


    In the heat of the moment, I even told him about it. Even though I didn''t want to remember it again. Yet, it looks like he experienced something simr to me. I didn''t ask what exactly though.


    We talked a lot, but there''s things I couldn''t tell him.


    I was willing to sell my body…because I was scared of being indebted to Asamura-kun.


    13th of June (Saturday)


    At night, Asamura-kun and I ate dinner as just the two of us.


    Mom and step-father went off to have dinner as the two of them.


    Asamura-kun was the one who came up with it. Shows again that he is considerate even about the smallest details.


    That''s exactly why I can''t call him ''Nii-san''.


    Once I start calling him like that, I''ll definitely rely on him all the time.


    That is one thing I cannot allow myself.


    I''m sorry, Asamura-kun.


    But…whenever I call him Asamura-kun, deep inside my heart, another emotion starts to rise up, different to me calling him a big brother.


    It''s a feeling I haven''t ever experienced, and I can''t put a name on it either.


    I only realized that I became conscious of Asamura-kun.


    It makes me feel uncertain, even gloomy.


    Even when I go to bed, I have trouble sleeping recently.


    If I don''t listen to calm music, in order to heal my brain cells, then my hands and feet won''t rx. Unable to fall asleep without listening to music, how can I even hope to be independent when I''m like this? I feel pathetic.


    …Just what is this feeling, really.