I did harbor feelings for Ji Xinxin in the past, but toward you, I also Song Shiyu blurted out, only for his words to screech to a halt halfway through. His mouth fell agape in shock as he btedly realized what he was going to say.
Pity me? Ji Fanyinpleted his sentence in his stead.
Song Shiyu didnt answer.
Ji Fanyin calmly took a sip of water before cing the cup back onto the table. I heard that Miss Chen is preparing for marriage. To avoid unnecessaryplications, Ive decided to terminate our business rtionship.
Song Shiyus eyes slowly dted upon hearing those words. He answered without the slightest bit of hesitation, I refuse.
Hasnt Ji Xinxin returned to the country? remarked Ji Fanyin nonchntly. You should go look for her. Shes your white moonlight.
Ji Fanyin! bellowed Song Shiyu furiously.
A waiter was just about to get their order when the sudden bellow intimidated him, causing him to timidly walk away.
Ji Fanyin ced her finger on her lips and shushed him, Were in a public ce. Dont be a public nuisance.
Song Shiyus chest rapidly expanded and contracted under the influence of his rampaging emotions. It took him a while to suppress his rage.
He furiously questioned, What are you trying to ask me? What exactly do you want me to say? Are you waiting for me to confess that the person I like is no longer your younger sister but you?
A question mark popped up in Ji Fanyins head. She was about to answer with an Of course not, but Song Shiyu didnt give her the opportunity to answer.
Fine! My feelings have changed! I have fallen in love with you! My feelings for you are even stronger than how I previously felt for Xinxin! Youre far more important to me than she is! Are you satisfied now?!
Despite Song Shiyus emotional outburst, Ji Fanyin was hardly moved at all.
She calmly assessed Song Shiyus expression while musing over his confession. Then, sheughed. Song Shiyu, arent you getting something wrong here?
Song Shiyu red at her as if he was going to eat someone whole.
Ive never wanted your feelings. Ji Fanyin waved her hand dismissively at Song Shiyu. Ive told you from the very startIck money. I thought that Ive made things very clear. Are you still deluding yourself into believing that the Ji Fanyin who has feelings for you is still around?
Thats why I couldnt say anything to you! eximed Song Shiyu with suppressed agitation. I couldnt ept that you no longer had feelings for me. What does that make me then? I neglected you, used you, hurt you. I denied you in the past, only to helplessly fall for you now. What does this count as?!
Ji Fanyin raised her eyebrows.
She wasnt too surprised to learn of Song Shiyus thoughts.
Proud people had the tendency to ignore facts that made them question their own self-esteem. It was a natural defensive mechanism to protect their own sense of self. It was due to this that he interpreted Ji Fanyins actions as an alternative method to attract his attention.
That was why he thought that Ji Fanyins act of epting money to be a stand-in was some way for her to preserve her own self-esteem while staying by his side.
That was why he assumed that Ji Fanyin had taken care of him while he was ill because she still had feelings for him.
That was why he believed that Ji Fanyin was just being jealous when she asked him about his blind date.
That was why he surmised that Ji Fanyin had refused to go out with him because she doubted his sincerity.
But even an elephant could be brought down by an army of ants. It was only a matter of time before his castle of lies crumbled.
If I admit to that, wouldnt that mean that Im a fucking idiot who fell in love with someone whos no longer in love with me?! Song Shiyu hissed through gritted teeth. It was the first time in a long while that he had used vulgarity in front of someone else.
Ji Fanyin directed a perplexed look at him and asked, Do you not think you are?
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White moonlight refers to a person that youre fond of but is well beyond your reach, simr to a goddess of your dream.