<h4>Vol. 2 Chapter 54 </h4>
<i>Tranted by Springl </i>
<i> </i><i>Edited by Springl</i>
I’d never actually spoken to him, but when it came time to choose courses at the end of the year, I wanted to match?with him.
As I expected, I assumed he would prepare for the exam on time, so I decided it didn’t really matter which optional courses he chose. It didn’t really matter to me because I was mostly judged on my grades, and I usually got really decent grades. Then I wanted to boost my chances of being in the same ss as much as possible by enrolling in courses that the other students didn’t choose.
“…”
It’s now useless.
I never expected the atmosphere to be this gloomy when I first arrived at Dae-han’s house. I’d rather be at home resting. I pinched my earlobes firmly because Lim Dae-han, who sat opposite me, made me feel awkward and embarrassed.
Instead of eating downstairs like yesterday, I ate breakfast in the living room of a hanok. At the table where we chatted at dawn. When he woke me up, the table was already full, most likely because Dae-han had purposefully nned a meal here.
Dae-ryong, who was sitting on Lim Dae-han’sp, raised his face and gazed into Lim Dae-han’s eyes. Lim Dae-han did not eat in a hurry as usual but he looked at the rice and then slightly looked up at me.??I felt like an uninvited guest.
“Hyung…”
Dae-ryong called me. When I looked up, Dae-ryong was holding out tteokgalbi with a spoon and a fork and offered it to me. Oh, I hate it. Because I knew who was creating the atmosphere in this situation, I deliberately raised the corners of my lips.
“Thank you, Dae-ryong.”
When I picked up a bowl of rice to ept it, Dae-ryong shook his head and said, “Eueung.” He then says, “Aaa…” I drew the corners of my mouth down as though noticing, then slowly opened my mouth. My mouth was filled with the sweet tteokgalbi. I didn’t expect it to be that big, but my mouth was full. Looking at it now, Dae-ryong picked up one tteokgalbi and ate several bites at a time.
Lim Dae-han was staring at me from the top of Dae-ryong’s head. My face stiffened as soon as my gaze met Dae- han’s. I didn’t mean to, yet I did it unknowingly.
Lim Dae-han tilted his head. When he touched Dae-ryong’s head, Dae-ryong raised his eyes and smiled.?Lim Dae-han feigned not to see for a moment before raising his gaze upwards and grabbing the spoon Dae-ryong?was holding.
“Ki Young-hyun.”
“…Yeah.”
“Let’s eat and talk.”
Nod, nod. I nodded instead of responding, and Lim Dae-han scooped up his rice.
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I didn’t like dating advice shows, but every now and then, I saw a story on TV about a lover who was dissatisfied because he didn’t express his dissatisfaction. If that was the case, why were you dating in the first ce? I used to think like that, but I had no idea I’d be one of them.
Dae-han and I sat on the floor, looking out into the backyard. Dae-ryong went?downstairs. I had nowhere else to look, so I focused on the bamboo in the backyard corner. I’d never seen bamboo nted in a typical house before, but it was understandable given that it was Dae- han’s.
Lim Dae-han sat on the floor and looked straight ahead with his head tilted. I bit my lips as I was both awkward and shy.
“That…”
Dae-han spoke up shortly after. I sat quietly waiting for Dae-han to say something.
“I didn’t mean not to tell you.”
“…”
“Because you might not be interested.”
“… What?”
I asked back because I couldn’t understand what Lim Dae-han was saying.
“I didn’t want to bother you.”
Lim Dae-han spoke at a slower pace than normal. He also chooses suitable words to say. I lowered my gaze from the bamboo. I looked to the side and saw Lim Dae-han’s two hands about to grab my hand. Lim Dae-han grabbed and released my index finger.
“Thest time I asked, you said you would tell meter.”
“Well. It’s nothing to worry about. You’re… already helping me with my studies.”
It was difficult.
I pressed my lips together, unsure how to handle the situation. Silence followed naturally. In fact, Dae-han’s word?made some sense. It was difficult to exin, but I was an exam taker with only about a year remaining on the SAT, so it would be a bit taxing to just keep listening to other people’s stories before graduation, so he might have thought about that.
Still…
“Still, we are dating. Uh, I wish you had told me what you were thinking.”
“…”
“And it wasn’t the only time you were like this, so yeah, it was a little bit. You…”
I slowly let out?the memories ofst night from my mind. You left me alone thest time your friends came. You also did not mention the trip. I didn’t know you were going to your parents’ ce until I asked.
I had no grudges. However, when the old memories began to flood my mind, I found myself talking continuously. Lim Dae-han, who had initially listened silently, trembled as the stories of the past came out one by one, and then lowered his head like a criminal.
Not everyone had the same personality. Just as I didn’t tell Dae-han every story I had at home. For example, when I came from the tripst time, I didn’t tell Dae-han that my older brother had noticed the marks on my neck. Also, my older brother doesn’t like it when I spend a lot of time outside these days.
I wasn’t sure if it was the same after all. But if I keep piling everything up like this, it might blow up someday.
“Well, I wasn’t upset yesterday, but you asked if I was.?It wasn’t good since I came across as petty. I wouldn’t be begging you to study with me instead of going to the job ss if you told me from the start.”
Actually, I don’t know. It was stillplicated and I couldn’te to a conclusion.
I wanted to grow up with him, but I never thought to prioritize him. Just because I be?a college student does not instantly make me an adult.
But I didn’t tell Lim Dae-han about it until now. Then it was as if I was retrieving what I had just spoken.
“I think I spoke too harshly yesterday. I’m sorry…”
I scratched my head and apologized. Lim Dae-han exhaled deeply.
“I’m sorry. I couldn’t tell you.”
“…”
“But it’s my first time dating someone I like, so I don’t know what to do.”
It wasn’t just Dae-han, so was I.?It would have been nice to have a dating manual, but there was none. That being said, I couldn’t just do what I wanted just?because I liked it so much.
“… It’s difficult.”
I muttered to myself. Dae-han’s gaze?focused on me.
“Are you angry?”
He raised his head when asked. Dae-han’s expression was not good.
“…”
I shook my head without answering.
“It’s just that I don’t know. It’s difficult…”
“I’m sorry.”
“No, you don’t have to apologize…”
He lowered his gaze again. Lim Dae-han raised his hand and ruffled his short hair.?He then tapped his hand on my thigh and extended it to me.
“Hand.”
“What?”
“Let’s hold hands and make up.”
I lowered my gaze to those callused fingers. I took a look at Dae-han’s face. Dae-han seems strangely tense. He grabbed my hand?with his shaking hands. My hand was tightly grasped by his?big hand. It was cozy andfortable.
I hope it remains this steady. In reality, I felt anxious since I didn’t know what would happen to people’s minds.
Lim Dae-han, unaware of my thoughts, slowly drew his hand toward me.?I got up to react because it appeared that he wanted me to sit next to him. I sat beside him without letting go of his hand.
“… Give me a kiss.”
You have a lot of demands. Nheless, I raised my head and briefly kissed Lim Dae-han’s cheeks?and lips. Kiss, kiss, kiss.
“From now on, you must tell everything without hiding anything. Because I’m fine…”
Am I really fine? However, I pretended to be fine for the first time. I’ll be fine if I take good care of my heart. Even if he switched to a?career ss, it wouldn’t make much of a difference.
“Okay.”
Lim Dae-han fixed his palm and interlocked our?fingers after answering calmly.
“… You have to tell me without hiding anything.”
Then he answered bluntly.
“Okay.”
Lim Dae-hanughed after he gave a brief response. I locked my gaze on the face of such Dae-han. Although we had reconciled, I felt strangely uneasy. I didn’t know why.
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