<h4>Chapter 20: [Viiness Maker]</h4>


    ''So, are you an angel... Or maybe a fallen angel?''


    [Neither]he replied instantly, without flinching.


    ''Hmm, then what the hell are you?'' I asked, tapping constantly on the armrest of the chair.


    [I... I don''t know.]


    ''You don''t know, or you don''t trust me enough to tell me what you are?'' I questioned, sensing his hesitation.


    Well, I can understand his feelings. Even I don''t want to share too much about myself with him.


    Reason?


    Because I don''t fucking trust him.


    ''What''s your name?'' I asked, as he remained silent after myst question.


    [El.]


    ''That''s not your real name, is it?'' I pressed, observing thedy who brought my food.


    "Enjoy your meal, sir," she said with a light smile as she passed the food to me.


    "Thank you," I replied, taking the food and cing it on the table in front of me.


    "..."


    [What happened?]


    ''I felt ufortable when I thanked her,'' I replied, looking at thedy.


    Is my noble nature kicking in?


    I can''t even say thank you now?


    "Ma''am," I called her again, making her look back at me. "Can I get anything electronic, like a phone or a tablet? I can pay for it if you want."


    Thedy looked at me awkwardly before she bowed a little and replied, "I will arrange one for you, sir, and it will be on the house."


    With that, she walked back inside as I grabbed the utensils and brought the soup close to my mouth.


    "nd as ever," I mumbled as I drank the soup. I couldn''t taste any vor or sensation from the food.


    And... For the rest of my life, I will have to live like this, never knowing how food tastes.


    Just the thought of it depresses me.


    [Wait... are you not going to ask anything from me?]


    ''Look buddy, you are thest thing I have to worry about,'' I replied as I drank the soup just to fill my stomach.


    [Seriously... What is wrong with you?]


    ''Everything,'' I replied, shrugging my shoulders. ''Everything is wrong with me.''


    The sound of footsteps approaching pulled me from my thoughts, and I looked up to see thedy returning with a small electronic device in her hands.


    "Here you go, sir," she said, cing the device on the table in front of me. "A tablet, as requested."


    "Thank you," I replied, again feeling a slight difort.


    Opening the tablet, I quicklyunched the first browsing app I could find on it.


    [What are you doing?]


    ''Trying to find out who the [Main Antagonist] of the game will be,'' I replied before taking a deep breath.


    Hesperia kingdom.


    I typed it in before clicking on the search icon and waiting for the results.


    And... Nothing appeared.


    I tried again and again with different approaches and words, but nothing appeared on it.


    "Sigh..."


    With a sigh, I ced the tablet back on the table before leaning back in the chair.


    [Are you going to tell me what you were doing?]


    ''Hmm, you know, this world we''re in, it''s a world of a game or something simr,'' I replied before closing my eyes.


    [And... you are not him, right?]


    ''No shit, Sherlock. I would have beenughing like a madman if I were to be him,'' I grumbled in reply.


    [Why?] his voice echoed in my mind.


    ''Why, you ask?'' I scoffed at his words before replying, ''That fucker is going to get a harem and power that he didn''t earn, and you''re asking me why?''


    [So... aside from this hero person, who else is there?] Sensing my sour mood, he quickly changed the subject.


    ''Well, there are heroines, viins, viiness,'' I replied, pausing briefly. ''...And then there''s me, the viiness maker.''


    [So... you''re special?] his voice probed.


    ''...No,'' I replied, feeling a hint of bitterness. ''I''m just the heroines first love.''


    I am a one-way ticket to a bad ending.


    I opened my eyes to look at the tablet again, feeling a mixture of frustration and amusement.


    Opening the browser once more, I searched for another name: Azariah Noah Aljanah.


    In an instant, thousands of articles appeared before me.


    "Disgrace of his family, rudest person to talk to, killer, rapist, mental patient... Woah, aren''t I famous?" I chuckled softly as I read ''my'' history ording to the inte.


    [You are not the same person as him?]


    ''No, I am not and in a sense I am,'' I replied before closing the tablet. ''But you don''t know how dearly I wished I wouldn''t be him; being him is the shittiest thing that can happen to me.''


    [Because of your body?]


    ''Partially, yes, but mostly because of my blessing.''


    ''Blessing of Amun-Ra'' that I got when I was a child.


    Blessing of one of the strongest Gods to ever live, but this blessing became a curse when the world got to know about it.


    My body and my blessing are the most desirable things that all the evil organizations want.


    A body that can work as a container and can adapt to all kinds of energy in this world.


    That''s what my blessing is capable of...


    ...But the problem is, my body rejects Mana and because I can''t use Mana properly, making it extremely hard for me to get stronger.


    I am basically a duck on a chopping board, ready to be chopped.


    ''...And you know what''s the worst part in all this?'' I thought as I closed my eyes.


    ''If I don''t think about how to survive by the end of this year, I will be turned into a puppet that only moves in her hand until the end of my life.''