Chapter 1041: Chen Yuan’s Decision (2)"It''s a technique used during the unrest era in the past by Chen Family''s founder. He built a group of people to protect the city and to make sure they would not betray him, he used this technique. And the record was passed down in Chen Family.


    It''s believed that should there be someone who could learn this technique once again, the rise of Chen Family is inevitable. Unfortunately, it''s also because of this technique that a lot of people will die."


    Chen Yuan stood still. "Even if I try to stay alive, a lot of people wille to me. They will want to use me for what I was worth for."


    She knew.


    From the moment she realized the true nature of this inheritance technique and could do it even while she''s blind, she would be the target of many people. The temptation of this technique was too great.


    So great that it would attract countless people to chase after her.


    This was the reason why she moved to Fei Yang Kingdom back then. With the rtionship between Zhang Xu Kingdom and Fei Yang Kingdom being so bad, there was no way they would be able toe to her.


    And even if they send a few people, her people would be able to deal with them.


    That was how Chen Yuan lived a few years of her life peacefully.


    Nan Hua''s face twitched a bit. "You can be the one to destroy them instead."


    "Heh, indeed, that''s not impossible." Chen Yuan raised her head and shook her head lightly. "But I don''t want to. That''s why we''re different, Hua''er."


    People''s mentality was different.


    Some people could easily break down with just a few insulting words.


    But some other people couldugh even with a ton of curses thrown straight to their faces.


    And in Chen Yuan''s case, she had killed so many people that she could no longer sleep well without the help of her incense sticks. Every single time she slept, she would be reminded of the uncountable amount of blood she had spilled.


    Back then, she didn''t want to die yet.


    But now, she''s tired.


    No matter how many people''s lives she had saved, it could never erase the fact that she had killed a lot of people with her own hand. When she destroyed Chen Family, a lot of people were swept along just simply because they were in the same city or had some rtionship with Chen Family.


    Blood flowed like river back then.


    Even if she couldn''t see it, she could sense it all.


    The thick smell of blood, the ssh of blood that formed river on the road, and the cries of despair from the people around her… Chen Yuan could never forget it even if she wanted to.


    Those who had rtionship with Chen Family waspletely destroyed by Chen Yuan.


    She didn''t want to hear any of them anymore.


    There were even times when she hated herself. She hated the blood that flowed through her vein because it was still part of the Chen Family that she hated so much. The thought of how cruel the Chen Family was and how it actually passed down to her often made Chen Yuan felt aggrieved and angry.


    But she couldn''t die yet.


    There were many people who cared for her and Chen Yuan also wanted to try to stay alive and enjoyed her limited time.


    "I have people who care for me and will always support me. But I couldn''t be the perfect person and fulfill their expectation for me. All I want is to find my brother and live together just like in the past, but time can''t turn back and the past couldn''t be replicated." Chen Yuan smiled faintly, showing the same gentle look she has always showed.


    She had never been a ruthless person.


    Before being forced into despair, she was nothing more than a cheerful and yful young girl who had full of hope for life. She learned everything in order to make sure that she could live better in the future.


    But things didn''t turn in ordance to what she expected.


    "I know that I have to move on, finding another thing that I want to do. However, I can''t forget the past and everything that had happened back then. Being the best? Revenge? Everything turn pointless when the very person I want to protect is no longer here.


    And I have to thank you that you''re trying to protect him back then. Even though there''s not much that you can do, just the fact that you try to help is already veryforting for me."


    Yet, Nan Hua didn''t want to look nor hear at this right now.


    She knew very well that Chen Yuan had given up.


    "Why? Senior Sister Chen, even if you didn''t fulfill their expectation, they''ll never abandon you."


    "I know."


    "Are they not important enough for you?" Nan Hua asked again.


    Chen Yuan''s body trembled. It was indeed difficult for her toe into this decision when she recalled the few people who cared for her.


    After she had lost her brother, she still has her Master, the few people under her, and also her junior sister who cared for her. They were all important for her and Chen Yuan also didn''t want to disappoint them all if it was possible.


    But she…


    "I have my own selfishness…."


    "Even for yourself?"


    Chen Yuan was silent. She looked in the direction of Nan Hua and knew that there were still many things in life that she hadn''t experienced yet.


    She wanted to experience them.


    She wanted to see the better future, beyond all this war and cruelty that she faced every single day.


    She wanted to be able to live and see what the future holds for her.


    But at the same time, Chen Yuan was tired.


    Tired of the cruel life that was faced to her.


    Tired with the harsh reality that was thrown to her.


    Tired of her own life.


    "Hua''er…. my time is up."