Introduction: My heart was shattered that day.  It was on that day that I realized that life had an end, and that mine was coming.  It was on that day that I realized that I was going to die.  Leukemia, they told me.  It''s almost over.I didn''t know what to do after that.  I thought that maybe it would be best to die right then, get it over with.  I thought that I could push myself away from all my friends, all my family, stop them from missing me after I was gone.  I thought that I could handle it on my own, that perhaps the world was better off without me.I was wrong.   My name is Alyssa Gray, and by the time you finish reading this, I''ll be dead. ________________________________  A few warnings and things to note:-I''ve put up the tramatising content tag due to a lot of mentions on death, dying, illness, and a mother who tends to be rather cruel.  I know that I take a perspective that many will strongly disagree with, and I''m okay with that.  Just be warned that this isn''t lighthearted stuff.  This is real, and death is real, and this part streaches beyond the fiction into reality.-I''m going to say a minor spoiler, but I don''t want it to take you unaware because it is something to be aware of....