Through all those memories I have discovered another side of me that I never thought I had. It isn''t about killing, I can slaughter without regret ... no, I''ve done far worse. I''ve lied to mother and father about who I was, telling them I was just a rowdy kid when I was going around beating gangsters. I also relived the memories of when I was still in Simiry when I cracked my eggshell with my sister at my side, the fated day where my father was supposed to have been burned alive, how my own sibling was taken away from me and how the peoples in my head disappeared.


    Like many misfortune in my life, it was caused by Enri. You know when you are young you tend to make fun of other quite easily, especially if they are talking to themselves like I used to, well I was talking to the people in my head but it looked like I was talking to myself from an outsider point of view. Evan couldn''t take it, he couldn''t bear to watch as people alienated me and he made the three of them disappear along with every memory related to them. Because of that, I stopped going into fights with gangsters, I just stepped down to delinquents.


    Evan also kept erasing some memories after he hid, like when I discovered that my classmates Emily was not so normal, I mean how could she get past a whole army of hired mercenaries who had managed to take me down and locked me up in a cage. Now that I think about it I have an idea of who she is, I mean Mr Maferbed turned out to be the Tytan of earth.


    |Come on old friend, it''s not the time to be crying. We gotta make you even more powerful than you are even now.|(Evan)


    I giggled.


    |Hehe I would say that you are Tytan''s father but I''d be lying.|(Apocalypse)


    |Shut up and let''s talk for a bit you idiot.|(Evan)


    He sat down in front of me and a small table appeared between us, some drinks were set up on the table. Of course, I knew all of this was taking place inside my head but it doesn''t mean I''ll refuse some alcohol. I poured some into my glass and took a sip of it.


    |So what do you want to talk about ?|(Apocalypse)


    |Many things old friend, many things. Like you know, how weak and stupid you are.|(Evan)


    |I think I fail to catch the meaning of your words, I do not think "weak" is a good word to describe who I am, I did wipe out an entire continent by myself in less than a week.|(Apocalypse)


    He sighed and looked at me with eyes filled with pity, and I am not used to be looked at with such eyes. To tell the truth being looked at like that pisses me off to such a point that my urge to slaughter is rising as we speak.


    |YOU are weak, you only fought with monsters and the races, they aren''t even ants to a Vermillion so why do you feel powerful ? Should you get serious now you could wipe Europe off the map with one swing of your arm but that''s nothing compared to what your grandfather or even your sister are able to do. They had five hundred or even more years of training to themselves so how can you who is only twenty years old compete with them ?|(Evan)


    To that I couldn''t answer a thing, it''s true that so far I''ve only fought with weaklings, when did I start to think that kind of bullying was power ? But what did he say ? I can wipe Europe off the map without breaking a sweat ? Oye, so far I thought that having the destructive power of an atomic bomb was enough, does that mean I have powered up ?


    |Yes and no. You have powered up thanks to that little onslaught of yours and no it is not only due to that. Like Humans, you unconsciously hold back as not to hurt yourself and destroy all your surroundings. And that''s because you spent too much time with Humans and did not want to be considered as a complete monster ... your loved ones running away from your powers.|(Evan)


    |I ..... I .... I did not ..... it can''t be ....|(Apocalypse)


    I can''t say anything to that because it is true, I know I don''t have a complete awareness of who I am, many things have happened to me without me being aware of it. My transformation used to be less random, I thought about good memories and I would trigger my dragon blood, if it was bad memories it would make my Tytan blood boiling, but now, now it is almost as if both of them had mixed together. I don''t know if I should be scared or excited at this point, feeling weak is something that scares me so much that my blood freeze at the mere thought of it but at the same time it means that I can get into a lot more thrilling fight and come back even stronger and that made my blood boil.


    Evan looked at me with a small sad smile, in a way he is me so of course he can feel my confusion and understand my inner turmoils. He took a sip of wine and slammed his glass on the table, it shattered and went flying everywhere but the time seemed as if it had slowed down, thousands of glass''s sparks gliding in the air like tree leaves. Although everything around us was in slow-motion Evan and I seemed to move perfectly fine.The story has been stolen; if detected on Amazon, report the violation.


    |I like this space, you''d think it is the inside of your head but no. In fact, it isn''t, it''s what you''d call a god''s room.|(Evan)


    |Sorry what ?|(Apocalypse)


    |Although a lower one who can''t create his own world you are still a god and have your own space for yourself, it''s very handy, you can retreat your mind inside it any time you want, here time is warped so you can stay an eternity here and only a few microseconds would''ve passed or if you want, thousands of years. And that kind of space is perfect for the training I had in mind for you, you see each time you kill someone you get stronger, that''s because you absorb a part of their power but with what I''m going to make you do you''ll be able to absorb everything you couldn''t absorb and kept lingering around you.


    Usually, you absorb 15% power of the one you killed and the rest wanders around you, ready to be harvested. Do keep in mind that''s only for Vermillion, it is not the case for Humans and the other races so don''t go try to do that with something else than a Vermillion, that would kill them.|(Evan)


    |Since when were you an expert on energy ?|(Apocalypse)


    |Believe me, when you are trapped inside someone''s head you can see things they can''t see themselves so shut up and listen to me, old friend.|(Evan)


    |Okay so what do I do ?|(Apocalypse)


    He snapped his finger and the table disappeared leaving us in a completely white space with nothing inside it. The air, if that is how you call it, was very heavy and even breathing was hard, it was like when I tried to attack the Tytan of Earth but much weaker. The weight on my shoulders was heavy but I could still move around pretty easily, Evan too seemed to be fine, he was smiling like a madman.


    |Okay, so in theory, it isn''t that different from Ki so sit down and start to meditate.|(Evan)


    I did as I was told and sat down, crossing my legs and putting my hands on my knees. I softened my breathing, only a few inspiration every minute that''s all I need to stay alive and enter a trance. My body comes from the earth and is steel, an unmovable rock that endures the harshest typhoon and points to the sky like its father the proud mountain, nothing shall make me move, not even the strongest wind or the softest breeze.


    |Good, now instead of focusing on your inner self, try to focus on the outside, your body is but a shell, you do not come from the earth, YOU are the earth.|(Evan)


    I started to focus my consciousness at the end of one of my fingers, I can''t hear the sound of my heart beating anymore neither could I feel the weight of my clothes on my shoulders, I couldn''t move, I was just the end of a finger. Now that the easy part has been done I need to figure out how to make my consciousness leave my body, how can I even leave my mind ? Does that mean the soul and the mind are two different things, since my mind isn''t in my physical body right now does that mean my body is soul-less or is the soul something that can exist on several planes at the same time ?


    It isn''t the time to ask myself that kind of question, I must figure out how to exit it. I wonder if he was talking figuratively when he said the body is a shell, there exist a lot of animals and monsters that have a shell but they have a way to make their limbs go out of it, something I doubt I have so must I consider my body is an egg, that''s what is closer to a shell as far as I know. So, to open an egg you must first crack it from the inside. I guess I''ll just have to blow it up, I gather Ki where I am and make a small ball out of it, once there is enough Ki inside it I make it explode.


    I feel like I am floating, and ... how gosh ... is this bloody mess me ? Gosh, I should''ve used less Ki, my body is only a puddle of blood now ... oh well, it has already started healing. Hmmm ? What are all those weird colors around me ? There isn''t even one that is supposed to exist, I can''t even describe what I am seeing, it''s .... it''s ... it''s so beautiful, is that the energy that surrounds me, it''s as if it was dancing. And how I explain how I am feeling ? It''s as if I was seeing scent and smelling colors, tasting the sound and hearing the taste, it is weird yet extremely comfortable.


    |This isn''t how I expected you to do it but it seems it worked just fine anyway. Now you should be able to sense the energy that surrounds you.|(Evan)


    |Yes, I do ... oh fuck, this feels like my heart is beating every time I try to talk.|(Apocalypse.)


    It seems I can control what is around me, if want to make one of this wave of energy move I can just by sheer willpower, I can''t describe the feeling and how I do it, it is just ... just out of this world


    |Okay, now instead of manipulating it, try to make it your own, that energy belongs to you and is one with you.|(Evan)


    I think I got the gist of it, I wrap myself in all those waves and calmly wait, I can''t say that I''m breathing but let''s just say that I calm myself as I try to make that energy fuse with myself. If I can manipulate it that means I am the same entity as those waves, I am built of the same thing, otherwise I shouldn''t be able to interact with it, if I can interact with it I can sew it on myself, if I can sew it on myself I can make it mine, if I can make it mine I can become it, if I can become it, I have succeeded.


    After a few hours I succeeded, it wasn''t that hard but accepting the fact that I was only pure energy and not some sentient being was very hard, when I leave my shell I am not sentient, I am just energy ... Gosh, that''s sad to say.


    |So .. how do I go back ?|(Apocalypse)


    |Just enter through the mouth and go to the heart that should do the trick.|(Evan)


    I did just that and I opened my eyes with a filling of an incredible power-up if I could destroy Europe in one arm swing before now I think Earth would be doomed with a flick of my finger. This time I mustn''t let the power get to my head.


    |Okay ... now that everything I needed to tell you is said, I''ll let you wake up, see you .. old friend.|(Evan)


    |See you too.|(Apocalypse)


    And I woke up in a dark and bad smelling prison cell.