Chapter 332 : Help (2)


    I immediately frowned when I heard what he said. Help? What does he mean by help? Did something happen while I was busying myself working today?


    "Help? What kind of help are you talking about?"


    Rufus leans on his chair and heaves a deep sigh. "I know you are busy with work, but you''re the only person I can run to. I just don''t know what to do anymore, purny."


    I immediately stand up and sit beside Rufus. Then I hold his hand, making sure he knows that no matter what happens, I am here for him. "Don''t worry about my work. I''ll deal with thatter. Right now, I want to know what happened? You aren''t the type of person who''ll barge into someone''s office uninvited. So, tell me."


    Rufus smiles bitterly and shakes his head. "I think I''m losing it, Csille."


    "Losing on what? I don''t quite understand what we are talking about here, Rufus. You''re losing on what?"


    Rufus stared at me, and I was taken aback when I saw the pain in his eyes. Is he hurt? But why? "I think I''m losing her." He then shakes his head. "I don''t want to lose her, Csille. For the first time in my life, I want to be selfish. I don''t want to see her with somebody else, even if that person is my cousin. I don''t think I can bear to see that. I don''t want to see that." He then repeatedly shakes his head.


    It''s my first time seeing him like this. Hopeless and down. I can definitely hear the helplessness in his voice. Gone is the happy go lucky Rufus Astalieu that I used to know. I heave a sigh and hug him. "Rufus, what happened? Can you tell me the specifics? I wouldn''t know what to say if I wouldn''t know the details."


    What happened today that made Rufus feels so helpless like this? As far as I know, Prince Fraser and Princess Paislee''s rtionship is still progressing these days. So, howe Rufus feels threatened right now? Rufus hugs me tightly before he answers my question. "I saw her with him."


    I nod my head. I know he is having trouble sharing this with me, but how can I give him advice if he wouldn''t tell me the specifics? "Okay. You saw her with him and then? What happened after? What did they do that made you have a reaction like this?"


    Rufus didn''t immediately respond to me. He just hugs me for a couple of seconds before he breaks from our hug. Then he stands up and walks back and forth to my office. I just let him do what he wants to do. I think in this situation, the best thing to do is to let the person honor their emotions. I should let him acknowledge that he is in pain and know the reason why he is in pain. Because only with this he would know how to resolve this conflict.


    A moment after, Rufus stops walking and looks at me. "Csille, I saw her hugging that guy. I saw her hugging him!" He then pulled some of his hair out of frustration. "What should I do, Csille? I don''t want to lose her."


    I sighed in relief when I heard what he said. I already thought he saw Prince Fraser kissing Princess Paislee, or he saw Prince Fraser confessing to Princess Paisee. Although I know it''s impossible to happen because I didn''t write about that. But the thing is, he got so worked up because of a hug? Is this even Rufus? Although he seems like a happy go lucky person and an impulsive one, he is a reasonable one. He isn''t the type who will jump to conclusions.


    I let Rufus let out some of the frustration before I walked to him and stopped him from pulling his hair. Then I made him look at me. "Rufus, did you know the reason why she hugs that person?"


    Rufus got silent for a couple of seconds, and with that silence, I already knew his answer. He didn''t know, or he didn''t even bother to ask. I heave a sigh. I guess love really makes some people irrational. "You didn''t, right?"


    Rufus avoids my eyes, but he still nods his head as an answer to my question. I heave a sigh. "You still didn''t know, but you already jump to conclusion? Rufus, I know you have strong feelings for her, but if you want to win her, you need to fight for her. If you will feel hopeless every time you will see her with someone else, then you better give up. You cannot win her with that kind of thinking."


    I heaved a sigh and made him look at me. "Rufus, do you want to win her heart?"


    Rufus nods her head. "I do. I don''t think I can bear to see her with anyone else. I badly want to win her, Csille."


    I nod my head, satisfied with his response. That is right. That is what he is supposed to do. To fight for Princess Paislee even if he knows it will be difficult because he will be fighting against Prince Fraser.


    I stare at Rufus for a couple of seconds before I nod my head. "If that is the case, then you need to listen to me. Haven''t I told you before that as long as she isn''t with someone else, then thepetition isn''t over? So, instead of watching over who she is with, why don''t you make a move and try to get close with her? You cannot win her by just looking at her from afar. Make a move, or else it will be toote for you."


    Rufus nods his head and looks at me. "Thank you for making me feel better, Csille. You''re the only one I could really rely on."


    I smile sadly at him. I am the person I could rely on? Will he change his mind if he knows that the reason that everything is happening to his life is because of me? Can he still say that to me if he knows that I will be the reason for his heartache in the future?


    "And I''m d to always be here for you. I wish in the end you get what you want because that is what you deserve, Rufus. I want you to be happy. Genuinely happy."


    Be happy without Princess Paislee because no matter what you do, you will never get Princess Paislee''s heart. ________________________________


    After the heart to heart conversation I had with Rufus, I busy myself working with the documents I was reading earlier. I was too engrossed with work that I didn''t even realize that it was already eight in the evening.


    I look at the clock and sigh. "It''s already eight, and I still have a lot of documents to work on." I stretched my numb arms and got up from my chair. I think I need a coffee. My eyes are starting to get tired, and I''m quite sleepy already. So, I need a little booze. N?v(el)B\\jnn


    I walk out of my office and go to the little kitchen in the Foundation. Because most of my employees are living in the Foundation, I made sure they had all their necessities. We have a kitchen where they can cook their favorite dishes, a library where they can rx and read, a tea room where they can enjoy their daily cup of teas, and other rooms that will not just help them but will also make them rx. I want to make sure that my employees are living the life they deserve. So, they wouldn''t have any reason to leave the Foundation. I was about to walk to enter the kitchen when my eyes suddenly saw a silhouette in the hallway. I squint my eyes, trying to see who is that person is, but because the hallway is dark, I can''t see who it is. "What are you doing standing there? Do you know that you can startle people with what you are doing?"


    It''s a good thing I wasn''t the type who easily got spooked with this kind of thing. I even used to join my friends when I was young when they were ghost hunting. It was never a scary thing for me. In fact, I did enjoy it when I was young.


    I frowned when I didn''t hear any response from the person. Is that person have a hearing problem, or is my voice not that loud?


    "Excuse me? May I know who you are and what you are doing there? Can you also please stop standing there. You might frighten people. You know there''s a lot of children living here, right?"


    Aside from Cairistine, the daughter of Mairenn, there are other children of my employees who are living in this building. So, I am worried that they might get frightened when they see this.


    After not receiving a response again, I decided to walk towards that person to talk to him or her. It might be weird, but I couldn''t identify the gender of the person, which is weird. Isn''t it quite obvious if a person is a girl or a boy based on their silhouette? I stop a few steps from the person. I maintained a safe distance in case if this person was someone uninvited. Although the Foundation has guards guarding every entrance and guards who are roaming around the vicinity, I still don''t want to take some rest. It''s better to be safe than sorry. I was hoping I could get a better view of the person when I came near them, but I was wrong. It seems like everything is dark on their side, which is an odd thing because the moonlight is passing through the windows. So, there is light in the hallway.


    I was about to say something to the person when it suddenly spoke.


    "Ysavel hos..."


    It''s just two words, but I feel my whole stop because of it. It''s a guy. I am definitely sure it''s a guy, but that''s not what I should be concerned about. How does he know my real name? I take a step back. I don''t understand what is happening, but something is telling me that this guy is a bad omen. I was about to take another step back when the man raised his hand, and my eyes widened when I realized something. I couldn''t feel my feet! It''s as if my whole feet got paralyzed all of a sudden. However, I can still move my knees up to my head. I anxiously look at the guy. I am definitely sure it is something to rted to this guy, but who is he, and why is he doing this to me?"


    I feel shivers down my spine when the manughs all of a sudden. But it''s not the happy kind ofugh, but it sounded cold and sinister. It''s as if, at any moment, he will try to do something to me. I take a few deep breaths to calm myself. "Who are you? What do you want from me?"


    My eyes widen when I see the man taking a slow step towards me. "What do I want? I want your life. I want you to return the life that isn''t yours. You are not Csille Lauretré! So give me back that life." Every time he will say a word, he will take a step forward to me.


    Is started to panic when he started to get closer and closer to me. I close my eyes and shout. I was startled when my body jolted, and when I opened my eyes, I found myself sleeping on my office table.


    The door opened, and Li came in. "Dame Csille, is everything okay? I was just getting something in the kitchen when I suddenly heard you scream. Is everything okay, Dame Csille?"


    I look at the clock. It''s already nine in the evening. I heaved a sigh when I realized that everything that happened was just a dream. It was all a dream.


    "Dame Csille?"


    I look at Li and smile reassuringly at her. "I''m sorry for making you worried. I just had a bad nightmare. I am okay, Li. Thank you for worrying."


    Li looks at the clock and shakes her head. "Dame Csille, why don''t you take a break first? I think you needed it already."


    How can I sleep after that nightmare? I don''t think I could ever sleep again. However, there is something that is bothering me. What does that dream suppose to mean?