Chapter 393: : Time


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    I frown and just stare at him. If I told him I wanted to back out, what would his reaction be?


    I smile reassuringly at him and shake my head. "I am already decided, Mister Sewell. So, you don''t have to worry. I won''t regret it, and I''m sure of that."n/o/vel/b//in dot c//om


    It''s no use. No matter how much they convince Csille to change her mind, her destiny will never change. She was meant to be the viiness.


    So, I don''t understand why he would suggest to me to think it all over. There is no use giving me time to think because Csille''s destiny will not change.


    Also, as far as I remember, we only had a short time before the war started. So, I don''t understand why he would give me time to think if we don''t have much time left?


    Does this man really want to go against the Kingdom? Or does he wants me to give up my n to do something against Prince Fraser?


    Mister Sewell shakes his head and takes my hand to hold it. "I understand you''ve decided, but I think we should take it slow, Csille. Give yourself some time and think thoroughly. What we are nning to do is something that will change your life forever. Even if you want to forget it in the future, it will always hunt you and be your shadow. So, don''t rush it."


    I almost raised my eyebrow at him. Don''t rush? If I took a year time to decide, can he still wait for me? I don''t think so.


    But I know I couldn''t say that to him, so I just nod my head and take my teacup. If that is what he wants to do, then I will follow what he wants.


    I nod my head at him and give him a reassuring smile. "You are right. I should think about it thoroughly. Thank you for being concerned about me, Mister Sewell."


    Mister Sewell just smiled at me, and the both of us enjoyed our tea for a couple of minutes. After finishing our tea, the two of us talk about almost everything, from our embarrassing experiences to unforgettable ones.


    "Dame Csille, if you were given another chance of life. Will you still love Prince Fraser?"


    If I was given another chance to live as Csille? I will probably do the same thing because I am tied to the storyline, and I don''t have a choice but to follow it.


    But if I were given a chance to live Csille the way I want to be? I would probably not love Prince Fraser. After all the things I have experienced from him? I think loving him will only bring me pain. So, I would rather live my life in peace than be with him.


    "Csille?"


    I smile bitterly and nod my head. But the person Mister Sewell is asking is the real Csille and not me. So, it doesn''t really matter if I would like or wouldn''t like to fall for Prince Fraser again. After all, it is just a hypothetical question because there is no way Csille can have rebirth again.


    "All I ever know was love him. I don''t think it will change even if I had the chance of rebirth. I''m sure I will still end up loving him just like how I did right now."


    And because I know that in Csille''s eyes, Prince Fraser is the only person who is a match for her.


    Mister Sewell turns his head at me. "If that is the case, then why would you want to do something against Prince Fraser?"


    I smile bitterly. "Yes, I love him, but it doesn''t mean that I will just forget all the things he did to me. I am done being a martyr."


    Mister Sewell nods his head in satisfaction. "And I''m d you''re done being a martyr. Because you deserve someone who is better than Prince Fraser, so don''t worry, Dame Csille. I am sure that in the near future you will find someone who is way better than him. Someone who will love you despite everything you have done."


    I look at him for a moment before I turn my head at the Sakura tree that is in full bloom.


    Csille will find someone? I don''t think so. Who will love someone who betrays her own Kingdom just because of love? I don''t think there is no person in this world who is dumb enough to fall for such a person.


    Even I, the writer of the story, couldn''t help but hate what Csille is doing. Ruining not only her life but also the lives of other people.


    What a despicable person she is...


    Because Mister Sewell decided to give me some time to think, I didn''te out of my house for two days. I just lock myself inside my room and don''t see anyone. Not because I am mad at them. But because I''m afraid I''ll change my mind when I see the pain in my parent''s eyes. So, I did my best to iste myself from everyone.


    I feel bad for doing this, but I don''t have a choice. I need to follow the script if I still want to save everyone and if I still want to return to the real world.


    I look at the closed door and heave a sigh. Two days have passed already, and I need to see Mister Sewell again to tell him my decision. The decision that was already written before I even arrived in this world.


    I stand up and freshen myself up before I leave my room. I was about to open the front door when I heard Brother Pascal speak behind me.


    "You finally decided to get out of your room. I almost forgot that you were still living with


    us."


    I look back and heave a sigh. "I will be leaving today." I was about to open the door, but what Brother Pascal''s said stopped me.


    "You were gone the whole day two days ago, and after that, you decided to iste yourself in your room for two days. And here you are, going out again? So you still think of us, your family, Csille? What will Aunt and Uncle feel if they know that after your istion, you will leave the house again?"


    I look back at Brother Pascal and heave a sigh. "I wasn''t gone the whole day. I return homete at night. You''re just not here to see that."


    Brother Pascal raises his eyebrow. "I wasn''t here because I was busy doing my work. How about you? You were gone the whole day, but when I checked the Foundation, they told me you didn''t even show yourself to them." He then changes the tone of his voice. "Where did you go, Csille?"


    I shrug my shoulders and nonchntly answer him. "Do I need to report to all of you where I have been? What? Am I really a prisoner of this house?" I rolled my eyes. "If you really want to know where I have been, I just stroll around because staying here suffocates me. You all suffocate me. Is that enough for you? Did I answer your question already?"


    I was lying. My family will always be the important people in my life. After all, I never had a family in the real world.


    If I only had any other choice, I would never do this thing to my family. But I need to do this.


    Brother Pascal res at me. I can also see him breathing heavily. A sign that he is controlling his anger. "What is happening to you, Csille? Why did you disrespect Aunt and Uncle thest time? Why are you talking like this? I know you were hurt because of what happened with Prince Fraser, but it doesn''t give you any right to hurt your family too. We are not your enemy. We are here to help you."


    I scoff and look at him. "Oh, really? But why do I feel the opposite? You keep saying you are not my enemy, but you keep stopping me from doing things I like. You don''t allow me to decide on my own, and now you are trapping me inside of this house? And here you are, expecting me to believe that you are here to help? You didn''t even bother to ask me how I was. The first thing you did was to scold me." I smile bitterly. "So, please stop talking like I am the only one who is at fault here. You were all the reasons why I am like this."


    I take a deep breath and look at him. "I will be leaving for today, and don''t wait for me."


    I was about to open the door, but I heard Brother Pascal call my name. "Csille, what is happening to you? Do you need to lose yourself just because you lose him? What about us? What about all of the people who care about you? If you only know how worried Aunt and Uncle are about you. They couldn''t even focus on their work and barely slept for days now. When will the old Csille return?"


    I smile bitterly and open the door, but before I step my foot outside, I make sure to make him hear what I want to say. "When will the old Csille return?" I scoff. "She won''t be returning because she is already gone."


    After I said those words, I left the house without even waiting for Brother Pascal''s return.


    I''m sorry, Brother.


    Mister Sewell put his teacup down and looked at me. "Dame Csille, are you here to tell me about your decision? That''s a short time for making such a big decision."


    Short time? What is he talking about? It''s as if we still have a few months before the war starts. Does he really want me to take time in making decisions?


    I take a deep breath and look back at him. Then I nod my head. "Yes, I am already decided, Mister Sewell. I—"


    He raised his hand to stop me from talking. "Before you tell me about your decision. I want to ask you one more time. Are you sure you want to revenge on Prince Fraser?"


    I frown. Why does this guy seem like he doesn''t want me to side with them?


    I stare at him with a strong determination in my eyes. "I am already decided, Mister Sewell. I want to revenge on him. All these years, I have suffered because of him. I think it''s only right for me to return all the pain he has caused me."


    Mister Sewell heave a deep sigh. Then he took my hand and gently squeezed it. "I have told


    you before that I don''t want you to make something you will regret in the future, right? And I will tell you this again. Do you really want to go against Prince Fraser? Do you want to hurt him? Take everything away from him?"


    I frowned and pretended that I was confused by what he said. We have talked about Csille''s petty n to revenge on Csille, and none of them includes taking away everything from him. So, I need to pretend that I was shocked by what Mister Sewell said.


    He probably saw the confusion in my eyes. "Yes, Csille. Remember how I rejected the ns you mentioned before? That is because I don''t think that is enough to get even with Prince


    Fraser."


    I frown. "That is not enough? What do you mean by that?"


    He just shakes his head. "Your n can really ruin Prince Fraser''s reputation, but it will soon


    be forgotten once he bes the King and you know him. He was born to be the ruler of the Kingdom. If the people realize his skills, I''m sure they will forget about that issue. If you want to get back at him, you need to do something worst. Remember, Csille. He breaks your heart, ruined your reputation and your future. It wouldn''t be enough to do those things. You need to ruin his everything too. His heart, his reputation, and his future. That is the only way you can get back at him. So, I am asking you, do you still want to get revenge?"


    I feel my hand tremble a little. This is the start of everything. Once I said yes to him, it would


    be the end for me.


    I stare at Mister Sewell''s eyes and heave a sigh. But what can I do? The future was already written, and I didn''t have a choice but to follow it.