Chapter 156: She’s just a substitute who has to atone for her sins (1:
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Ah ning
This form of address struck ning Qing’s heart.
It was so painful that he was numb.
She widened her eyes, as if she was unwilling to recall the few times Nian lie had muttered to her affectionately.
He had also called her ah ning.
It turned out that it really came from this.
“......”
After the diary, there were another dozen or so nk pages.
The was another heartbreaking record.
October 30th, cloudy
“He has been missing for half a month.
Just now, he called me and told me that he wanted to break up with me.
I’m thinking, what does breaking up mean?
Do you mean that you don’t want me and the child, and you want us to die?
Perhaps it was.
But I didn’t have the courage to admit it.
She said,”I’m in love with him.”
Hehe.”
—
31st of October, light rain
“Last night, I cried all night.
She said that it was not good for the child and the body, but I couldn’t control myself.
The feeling of wanting to die came back again. It was as if it had just been buried in my body for a while, and now it wasing back.
She couldn’t stand it anymore and wanted to take me to him.
I clearly felt that I should preserve myst bit of dignity, but I was moved by her suggestion.
I want to try onest time.
It was as if I had to admit that I had already fallen in love with him.
I deserve to die.
Damn it. ”
Page after page.
Page after page of love and hate.
Ning Qing had seen all of ning SU’s past and feelings with him from beginning to end, and her face waspletely pale.
She looked at the contents of the notebook in a daze, her tears flowing non-stop.
Her soul seemed to have flown out, but the scene at that time clearly appeared in her mind.
How her sister had gone from sadness and despair to slowly epting Nian lie, and how heartbroken she had been when they had broken up.
Every scene of heartache, and every night of despair.
It was so painful that ning Qing felt dizzy.
She was clearly screaming, but she was crying so hard that she couldn’t make a sound.
His clenched palm was already covered in blood.
Her hands trembled as she flipped to thest page.
There was only one sentence.
“I’ve decided, I’m going to find him.”
The date was the day of their car ident.
From then on, all the love, hate, stubbornness, and obsession returned to silence with her death.
“Idiot, why are you so stupid? why do you have to do this to yourself?”
Ning Qing muttered this sentence silently as she hugged the diary.
“I should die, I should die instead,”
So that was the reason for the car ident.
Why did she bring her to Nian lie back then?!
If I don’t go, I won’t die,
There was a metallic taste in his throat.
Guilt and regret prated her limbs. Her entire body went numb, and her legs went limp, unable to stand up.
She leaned against the foot of the bed and covered her mouth, tears running away like crazy.
Their past was so unbearable and entangled.
He loved his sister, and her sister loved him.
What about her?
The role she yed in this was just a substitute who had to atone for killing ning su.
“Haha!”
Tears fell on ning Qing’s face, and she suddenly smiled.
He was so sad that he stopped breathing.
His eyes were as red as blood, as if he was about to shed tears of blood.
“Funny Gu is too funny!”
Even though she knew that his warmth was fake, she still fell in love with this man who loved her sister deeply.
Everything that happened in the past yed like a slideshow in her mind.
She suddenly felt nauseated and vomited all over the floor.
Her tears flowed uncontrobly.
The suffocating pain was like vines, wrapping around her body.
“......”
The surroundings slowly fell silent.
The womany on the ground powerlessly.
The diary was ced on her chest, so heavy that she wanted to die immediately.
Despair continued.
Ning Qing closed her eyes.
From a distance, it looked as if it had already died.