<h4>Chapter 1093: It Would Be Hard for Her to Be Pregnant Again</h4>


    He Xiyan smiled wryly and shook her head.


    She was not overthinking things but these were the cold, hard facts.


    “Jiahang...” He Xiyan said as she stared into his eyes. Then, she gently took his hands in hers and paused for a moment before she said, “Promise me that you’ll find someone else who would be more suited to be your partner and start life anew. You may even consider her ex-girlfriend Lin Ziya. She loves you very much and she did not date again during the nine years that you had gone missing. This shows how much she loves you. There are so many better women out there, so you shouldn’t be pining after me, do you understand? I really hope that you’d be happy... then, I’d feel better.”


    She sighed and no matter how hard she tried, tears still rolled down her cheeks.


    “Yan Yan...” Chen Jiahang had not expected to hear these words from her. He pulled her into his embrace and hugged her tightly.


    She did not push him away but continued, “Jiahang, you’re as important to me as my own family. I hope that you’d be able to live happily and have your own wife and children. You shouldn’t be pining after me. You might not know this but it would be very hard for me to be pregnant again. I was diagnosed infertile many years ago and although I was healed from this, resulting in the birth of Yuan Yuan and Xi Xi, this also damaged my womb because they were born one year apart. Later, I suffered a miscarriage and fell into the ocean which resulted in me losing huge amounts of blood. Currently, my womb is so thin that the doctor said that it would be very hard for me to be pregnant and even if I did, there is a high chance that I might not be able to keep the baby.”


    She told him the truth and this was also the main reason why she was so insistent on leaving him.


    Chen Jiahang pursed his lips and gently stroked her back. The tenderness in his eyes was clearly reflected under themplight and his heart ached at the thought of how much suffering she had been through.


    “I don’t care about that, Yan Yan,” he said. He would leave it up to Fate to decide whether they would have a child. Besides, in this modern society, there were many ways to have their own child.


    He Xiyan said, “But I do. I hope you’d be able to start anew with a simple and pure woman. As for me, all I want to do is to be with my two children and watch them grow up happy and healthy. Jiahang, do you understand?”


    He Xiyan suddenly looked up at him. This was the Jiahang she used to know, she even recognized the look in his eyes. This was how he used to look when he only had eyes for her.


    Chen Jiahang took a deep breath and squeezed his eyes shut.


    His heart clenched in pain and there was this dull ache in his heart that made it hard for him to breathe.


    He understood what Yan Yan was trying to tell him but he was still worried about her.


    He knew her life story and how much she had suffered.


    He Xiyan bit her pale lips and herplexion paled even further under themplight. There was also a look of resignation in her eyes.


    When Jiahang opened his eyes, tears were swimming in his eyes and his eyes were slightly red.


    “Yan Yan, I know what you’re trying to say,” he said gravely and felt as though his heart was being torn into pieces.


    He Xiyan burst into tears once again. She wiped her tears and said hoarsely, ” I only hope that you’ll live well. I want you to have a loving wife, adorable children, and a happy family. Then, I’d be able to rest easy.”


    She took a deep breath and her make-up had smeared because of her tears, so she looked even more haggard.


    Then, she smiled and patted his shoulder.