"When I woke up the following day, you weren''t there. But you had left a note on the table. It was a three-page note… or rather… a love letter. You mentioned many things I had no idea about.


    After reading the note, I got dressed and left the room, hoping I would find you in the lounge or somewhere in the hotel. On my way, I ran into the manager, who told me you left early in the morning.


    I tried to call your phone, but it was unavable. It took me a few minutes to realize that the letter was a farewell letter too. You had finally moved on. You never returned after that.


    When I visited Hel after a few weeks, I saw a few cars outside your house. I thought you hade to visit. I rang the doorbell, but it wasn''t you who answered the door. It was a man in his early thirties.


    He asked me if I needed something, and I asked about you. And then he said that they bought the house. You had left the state, or so I thought, but Iter heard from mom that you had moved overseas for forever.


    We never saw each other again. Even when I had an ident and was paralyzed, neither you nor Erika came to visit me. Eric always came once in a while whenever he returned to the state.


    Oh well, I understand why you didn''te, and that''s okay. I never took it to heart. I had no right to be selfish at that time. But… when I was dying… I mean, when I was in the forest, taking myst breaths… I suddenly remembered many things.


    My life shed before my eyes, and… well, I had so many regrets. I wished I had lived my life differently, but now… I think even if I had lived my life to the fullest, I would still have regrets.


    That''s the nature of every living being in this universe. They will never be satisfied with what they have and always seek more, which is okay since that works as a motivation and an incentive to do more… do better.


    Anyway, out of all my regrets… there was one thing I regretted the most… which was me cheating on Elise. Till myst breath… I kept wondering if I truly deserved her.


    You know, when I got into the ident and was guaranteed to stay my life on the bed, or worse…. die, Elise was with me. She was ready to leave her job and life behind to be with me, but I asked her to break up with me.


    She was with me, even at times like this. And yet… I… I had cheated on her when she was getting treated."


    Eleanor ced her hand on Rudy''s thigh and calmly said, "It wasn''t your fault. You had a high sex drive, and you haven''t had sex with Elise for months. You were depressed and lonely, and you wanted someone to support you. And that bitch took advantage of your situation and seduced you!"


    "You can''t me everything on her, Elena. Even if that was Eleanor''s n, I got seduced because I wanted to. She didn''t mix anything in my drink or use any tricks. I fucked her because I wanted to.


    It''s just like when someone puts a fresh dish in front of a starving person. Just because the food is unprotected and put in front of you doesn''t give you a right to eat that food. And if one eats it, it''s their fault, not the food''s fault."


    Eleanor frowned her face and uttered, "By that logic, the person who ced the food in front of the hungry is at fault. If there had been no food, he wouldn''t have eaten it. If there was no Eleanor, you wouldn''t have had sex with her."


    "Look, I am not doubting Eleanor''s intention. Maybe you are right about everything, but I slept with her because I wanted to. I was hoping something like that would happen. I cheated on Elise because I couldn''t… because I wanted to."


    Rudy let out a weary sigh.<novelsnext></novelsnext>


    "Let''s not talk about who is right and who is wrong. It truly doesn''t matter, like… seriously. And I wasn''t even that Rudy. I didn''t cheat on Elise, that Rudy did. So there is literally no point in finding out the culprit."


    "We are having sex right now. Do any of you harem members know about our rtionship? If they don''t, shouldn''t it be considered a type of cheating?" Eleanor asked curiously.


    "I think everyone knows. Nyxia might know as well."


    "I expected Reba and Jessica to know about it… but I never thought you would tell everyone…"


    "What, you are embarrassed?"


    "No but… wait…" Eleanor''s eyes widened as she asked, "Does… Alice knows.. as well?"


    "I didn''t tell her in detail, but yes, she is aware."


    Eleanor''s face turned pale after hearing that. She hid her face with her hands and muttered, "I can''t show her my face now. What is she going to think?"


    "Don''t worry about that. You should rather worry about what Eric and Erika would think if we need to tell them one day."


    "I will try my best not to let that happen. And please, don''t bring Alice to me for some time. I need time. I don''t think I will even meet Reba for a while. And I know you are going to tell her everything once you meet her.


    It''s so much easier for you. You just have to tell them without being anxious, while I will be judged for that."


    "Elena… if you realize how little people care about the dead and their deeds… you will stop living your life to impress others. Stop caring about people''s opinions unless you are doing anything wrong."


    "Excuse me, you are speaking about your other harem members. They are my sister wives, and obviously, I should care about what they think of me."


    "Well, they all have weird fetishes, so I don''t think they would want to judge someone else," he responded with a grin.


    Suddenly, Rudy''s ears twitched as they heard the sound of tires screeching near the house.


    ''Looks like Eric''s back.''