Adrian felt so emotional on hearing Katherine''s cry. He wanted to hug her and shout that whatever he was doing was for their future. He wanted to kiss every inch of her face, to scoop her up and spin around the room with her, to make everything better. He wanted to fix their wrong misunderstanding, and he wanted to start afresh. He wanted to do anything, be everything, to make her happy. He wanted to go back in time and not blink, not say anything that would change anything so that he could hold her and never let her go. Instead, he remained frozen, his heart pounding against his chest, his vision blurring with tears. He felt so lost and alone, heartbroken and terrified that he would never feel this way again, and the worst part was knowing that she would never know just how much he loved her and desired her and needed her. He felt like such a failure.
He wanted to tell her everything, but he didn''t know where to begin, or if she didn''t like the idea of his n. He couldn''t bear the thought of telling her if she refuses toe with her. And on the other side, he doesn''t want her to think he was a failure as a man, a husband, or a partner. Instead, he said nothing, just stood in the room, tears rolling silently down his face, his mind racing and his body feeling numb. He didn''t move or say anything for what felt like an eternity, just allowing her to cry and sob and rant and rave, his heartbreaking all over again with every sob and whimper, with every heartfelt apology and heartfelt promise to make it up to her. He wanted to tell her that it was okay, that he still loved her and would always love her, that nothing could ever change that, but he knew that if shees to know that he is risking his life in the n, she never allow to go to herpany, and the thought of lying to her again broke his heart all over again.
But he knew that would make things even worse, so he remained frozen, his heartbreaking into a million pieces, his mind screaming out for him to do something, anything, but his body unable to move or say anything, his head spinning and his vision blurring with tears, his entire world darkening and fading away into nothingness.
Making his heart like a stone, he wiped his silent tears and called her name, " Kathie…." His voice was hoarse. " We are gettingte. Please wear your dress. I will be with our son, Sam. I want to spend some time with him before boarding the ne. " He informed in a calm tone. Her grip loosened with his words. He took her hands off from his suit and headed back into the bedroom, his stomach churning and his mind racing. He wanted to go back to before when he didn''t feel like this when he knew who he was, what he was doing and it was for the best. But he knew that already it''s toote, so before he reached the ce, the n was executed. His eyes were burning and his throat constricted as he realised that the rtionship between both would never be the same again.
Katherine stood speechless as he left the ce taking her hands from him. As he was keeping his distance from her, she felt that he was losing her husband forever but she doesn''t want it to happen in any case. Already she experienced life without him for six years. How lonely is her life without him? She knew it was like this but never thought that it would be this bad. Already she missed his warmth, his touch, his love for many years. She wanted to reach out and hug him and tell him he is the only one in her heart, but she knew he was in the mood to trust her words. Instead, she stood in the changing ce, her chest tight, her heart aching, her world darkening, her tears silently flowing.
A few minutes, she heard a knock on the door. She wiped her tears then she quickly wore the dress and came out of the changing room. As soon as she came out, she found the nurse giving an injection to her son whereas her husband was inquiring about Sam''s health condition.
" Don''t worry, Mrs. Wilson. There is improvement in his health. You and Mr. Wilson no need to get worried about his health " the nurse informed Katherine.
Until now, she was restless thinking about her husband but this news brightened her mood. Relief was written all over her face, but there was a hint of disappointment in her eyes. It was as if she expected him to say something, anything, to reassure her that everything would be all right, but he didn''t. He simply thanked the nurse and turned to leave. Katherine felt like she had been pped in the face. She wanted to say something, to ask him where he was going, why he wasn''t saying anything, what he had done with her husband, but she held herself back. She knew if she said anything, she would probably start crying, and she didn''t have time for that. She needed to be strong for Sam and their son already missed his father.
" Kathie…Stay a few more minutes with our Sam and thene to the dining hall. Everyone is waiting for us. Come fast …" saying he walked out of the room and closed the door behind him.
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" This man became like a puzzle for me. When I want to talk, he ignores me. When I want to yell at him, he listens to myints. When I want to hug, he pushes me away. When I want to fight, hepromises with me. This man is making me mad…" she thought.. She sighed looking at Sam and said, " Is your father still in love with me still? " in a sad tone.