Chapter 14


    Amber


    Jake moves to get up from the bed in order to grab my clothes. Did he actually just call me a motionless ragdoll? A wave of embarrassment rushes through me, and I can feel my eyes tearing up.


    ‘That’s not fair,’ I whisper softly. I''m trying very hard not to cry, as I stare up at the ceiling.


    ‘What?’


    ‘I said, that’s not fair,’ I say, a little bit louder. I quickly wipe away the single tear that’s escaped. This is so humiliating! ‘I’ve never done this before. You know I have no experience. I’m not… I don’t mean to be a… a motionless ragdoll.’


    ‘Fuck… Oh fuck, fuck, fuck!’ Jake groans.


    He jumps back on the bed, straddling my waist and hovering over me, caging me in with his arms. He looks at me inquisitively, but I can’t meet his eyes. I feel too embarrassed.


    ‘Look at me, Poppins,’ he orders urgently. ‘Are you telling me you were just being still, because you don’t know what to do?’


    ‘Well, yeah!’ I admit flustered and, if I''m honest, a little bit annoyed. ‘What you were doing felt good. I didn’t want to do anything wrong that would make you stop!’


    I''m met with Jake’s spontaneous laughter. The blood immediately rushes to my cheeks and I wish I could just die on the spot. I try to scramble away from him, but Jake holds me down and kisses me.


    ‘No, no, I’m sorry, don’t go, don’t go,’ he mumbles, keeping his lips firmly pressed against mine. He lifts his head and looks at me again. ‘I’m not making fun of you, I promise. I was just laughing at the situation. You were worried I would stop if you were doing something wrong, and I felt like I should stop because you weren’t doing anything.’


    ‘I just don’t really know how this is supposed to go,’ I sigh nervously. I gesture awkwardly with my hand. ‘I mean, I’m not completely clueless, I''m aware of the logistics, but–’


    Jake kisses me again, before I can finish my sentence. He stretches his legs and lowers himself on top of me, grinding his body against mine. I let out an involuntary moan, because it immediately sends a bolt of pleasure to the intimate spot between my legs.


    ‘You keep doing that,’ Jake says to me when he releases my lips. ‘The more you respond to what I’m doing, the easier I can figure out what you like, and the better it will be for both of us. If I do something that doesn’t feel good, you just tell me, alright?’ He smiles at me. ‘And you can do whatever the hell you want. Just do anything you feel like doing. If I don’t like it, I’ll let you know and then you can just try doing something else. Deal?’


    ‘Deal,’ I say, relieved. I bring my hands up and grab his waist.


    ‘Good girl,’ Jake smirks at me.


    He kisses me again, and this time I slide my hand up to run my fingers through his hair. My movements are still a bit hesitant, but the sound of approval Jake makes as he gently bites my bottom lip encourages me to continue exploring his body. Jake moves down to my breasts again. The moment he starts sucking on my nipples, a wave of pleasure rolls through my underbelly. Now that I’m not actively trying to lie still anymore, I jerk my hips against his body. I’m frantically rubbing my thighs together, bumping them against Jake''s legs, desperately trying to get some friction.


    ‘Do you need some attention down there?’ Jake asks me with a twinkle in his eyes.


    ‘Yes, please,’ I let out a longing sigh.


    ‘I’ve got you, Poppins,’ Jake mutters obligingly. He gives my nipple a short, sharp bite that makes me gasp, before he moves on to kiss down my stomach. He presses a few fluttering kisses above the waistband of my jeans while his hands work to undo the button and zipper.  ‘Lift your hips off the bed,’ he instructs me.


    I quickly use my feet to kick off my sneakers, before I lift my hips to help Jake slide off my jeans and underwear. Jake tosses them to the side without taking his eyes off me. He places his hands on my ankles and slowly starts sliding his palms up my legs. He holds my gaze and raises his eyebrows inquisitively as he pauses. In response I part my legs for him.


    A wide grin appears on Jake''s face. He ducks his head between my legs and traces his tongue along my inner thigh in an upward motion. Jake uses his hands to push my legs even further apart and wedges himself between them. He traces one finger between my folds. I let out a slight moan, as I try to push my hips against his hand. I need more! Jake isn’t at all fazed by my movements and takes his time exploring my inner lips with his fingers.


    ‘I guess this makes it definitively clear that you are into this,’ he smirks. He lifts his head to get my attention and shows me his glistening wet finger.


    ‘Told you I was,’ I grumbly impatiently.


    ‘Yes, you did,’ Jake chuckles. He makes a big show of putting his finger in his mouth to lick off my juices. I have to admit that it’s a very arousing view. Another small moan escapes my lips. Jake turns his gaze back down and runs his fingers through my fine, curly hairs.


    ‘Oh!’ I jerk up and lean on my elbows, sending him a worried glance. ‘Should I have done something with that? I know that–’


    ‘There’s nothing wrong with going authentic, Poppins,’ Jake interrupts me, shaking his head reassuringly. ‘I already pegged you for a natural girl. Now lie down and let me taste you.’


    Before Jake has even finished his sentence, I’m already flat on my back again. I hear him chuckle, but a second later the sound is muffled when he runs his tongue along the full length of my slit.


    I gasp at the wonderful sensation. I grab hold of Jake’s hair when his tongue starts exploring every inch of my most intimate place. He goes very slowly and it’s driving me absolutely crazy, so when he finally flicks his tongue over my clit I cry out from pleasure. Jake’s head immediately snaps up.


    ‘Good or stop?’ he checks in with me.


    ‘No, do that again!’ I order him with an eager groan.


    Jake happily obliges and starts flicking my clit with his tongue over and over again. I writhe against him, trying to push myself closer against his tongue, desperate for all the friction I can get down there. In response, Jake places his left arm across my stomach to hold me steady, and he increases the pressure of his tongue. Suddenly, he takes my clit between his lips and starts sucking, and I think I might be going insane. When Jake uses his right hand to slide two fingers inside of me next, my entire body starts to tingle.


    A string of indiscernible moans escapes from my lips. The beckoning motions he makes send lightning bolts straight to my core and I can’t help but cry out again. Jake goes on to alternate between flicking and sucking on my clit, while his fingers continue their steady beckoning motions. The tingling sensations in my body keep building up, until I suddenly cry out. I grab the sheets with my fists and arch my back off the bed, when I''m flushed with wave after wave of the most incredible sensation thus far. It takes over my entire body and mind. I can''t do anything but buck my hips against Jake, until the intensity of my climax slowly starts to subside.


    Jake continues sliding his fingers in and out of me in a gentle rhythm. He slows the movements of his tongue down to a leisurely licking, letting me ride out my orgasm until I collapse back on the bed. I let out an internal cheer.


    I just had my first orgasm!


    ‘A good experience?’ Jake asks me with a soft smile, already knowing the answer from the look of pure bliss that must be on my face. He lies down beside me on his bed, propped up on one elbow. He playfully continues to caress my breasts with his fingertips.If you stumble upon this narrative on Amazon, be aware that it has been stolen from Royal Road. Please report it.


    ‘A great one,’ I confirm with a smile. I’m still slightly panting, but I glance sideways to meet Jake’s gaze. ‘Except that you didn’t take all your clothes off. That''s a bit of a bummer, if I’m honest. I was looking forward to seeing you. All of you,’ I confess.


    I''m truly a little disappointed about that part. I guess it shows on my face, because Jake bursts out laughing. He leans forward to kiss me and firmly cups my breast to massage my nipple with his palm again.


    ‘I was just giving you a moment to catch your breath, Poppins,’ he promises cheerfully. ‘I’m more than happy to get naked. I just wanted to check first whether you want to continue now, or if you prefer to spread out your experiences a bit. We could just call it quits for today and continue another time, if you want,’ he offers.


    ‘I want to continue now,’ I reply quickly.


    ‘Alright then,’ Jake smiles. He leans forward and playfully bites my nipple, before he pushes himself up from the mattress.


    I sit up and watch with great interest as he takes off his jeans. I’ve never actually seen a naked man in real life before, only on my laptop screen. Jake raises an eyebrow at me as he lowers his boxers next, clearly aware of my gaze. His rigid member jumps straight ahead, now that it’s freed from its previous confinements. It has thick veins across the shaft and the tip is a deep purple-red, swollen and glistening. I find it completely fascinating.


    I glance up to meet Jake’s gaze. ‘Can I…?’ I ask him shyly.


    ‘Go ahead,’ he nods with an indulgent smile.


    I reach out and curiously trace the thick veins on his shaft with the tip of my index finger. I realize that I can feel it throbbing against my skin. I carefully explore every inch of his shaft and balls with my fingers and palm. There’s no hair on there, but the tiny hairs at the base of his member are a lighter shade than the hair on his head. As far as I can tell, from what I have seen in pictures, Jake is not small.


    I try to fit my hand around his shaft and rub it up and down. I’m kind of concerned he may not fit inside me, since he seems rather large. I move my hand all the way up and gently rub my thumb over the head of his hard member. It’s very wet.


    I curiously bring my thumb to my lips, before I move my head closer to his cock. I use my tongue to lick some of the moisture off the tip, exploring how he tastes. It’s a funny flavor, really. The thickish substance is saltier than I expected. It’s not gross, though, like I had feared. I take him in deeper. I want to see if I can still circle my tongue around the head when he’s all the way in my mouth, but then Jake makes a strangled noise and grabs my hair, so I look up at him.


    ‘Sorry! Did I do something wrong?’ I ask worriedly, but Jake smiles down at me and emphatically shakes his head.


    ‘No, that feels fucking fantastic, Poppins,’ he groans, ‘but if you’re going to continue like this, I will last about as long as a snowflake in August.’


    ‘I want to feel you,’ I tell him confidently. ‘Inside me,’ I add to clarify.


    Jake groans again. He cups my face and crashes his lips against mine for a kiss. ‘Why don’t you lie down on the bed,’ he suggests in between kisses, before he lets me go.


    I quickly do as he says, while Jake goes into his tiny bathroom and grabs a towel.


    ‘The first time there can be a bit of blood,’ he explains when he sees the wonder in my eyes.


    Right, I knew that. I lift up my hips and let him spread out the towel underneath me. Then Jake grabs his jeans from the floor and pulls a condom out of the back pocket.


    ‘I have an implant,’ I inform him, blushing.


    I actually just got it. My mother never allowed me to be on birth control, because she strongly believes it provokes improper behavior in unmarried women. Since that kind of improper behavior was definitely one of the things I was hoping to accomplish here, I asked Hailey to drive me to a local clinic during my first week on the ranch, where they gave me the implant.


    ‘Doesn’t matter,’ Jake says, briefly shaking his head. He tears open the silvery package and rolls the condom on with ease. ‘Hugo has drilled two rules into me as soon as I was old enough to be interested in girls.’ He gets back on the bed and hovers over me again, caging me in with his arms. ‘Always make damn sure she wants it,’ he says, kissing me again. ‘And always–always–use a condom, to protect you both.’


    ‘Those seem like good rules,’ I mumble in agreement during our kisses, even though I have no idea who Hugo is. Probably his dad, although it seems weird to me that Jake would refer to his father by his first name.


    Those thoughts are effectively pushed aside when I feel the weight of his body lowering on top of mine, as it sends a fresh round of lightning bolts to my center. I slide my hands towards Jake’s back and enjoy the feeling of his strong muscles against my palms.


    Jake moves in between my legs and I instinctively spread my thighs to give him better access. He slides his hand between our bodies and gently circles his middle finger around my clit a few times. The strong sensation this causes in my core has me buck up my hips against his hand. Finally, Jake moves to position his cock against my entrance. I hold my breath when he gently nudges the head inside a little bit.


    ‘The first time can hurt a bit, yeah?’ Jake says softly, placing another kiss on my lips. ‘But it’ll pass soon, and after that it will get better,’ he promises.


    I’ve read enough about this to know that it will probably be painful the first time, but I trust Jake. He clearly knows what he’s doing. So far, he’s made me feel really good. I spread my legs a little further and bring my hands to his shoulders, bracing myself. I give him a nod, encouraging him to go on.


    Jake kisses me again and then he decisively thrusts his entire length inside me in one swift motion. I inadvertently let out a whimper from the sharp sting, but honestly, it’s not as bad as I had feared. I mostly feel stretched, and full.


    ‘Are you okay?’ Jake checks in with me, a concerned look on his face. He’s holding perfectly still inside me, so I can get used to the feeling.


    ‘Yes,’ I squeak.


    ‘Take your time, alright?’ Jake says reassuringly. He brushes my hair out of my face and patiently waits for me to give him the go ahead.


    After a few seconds the pain already starts to subside. I meet Jake’s gaze and give him a nod.


    ‘I think you can move now,’ I whisper.


    Jake smiles and slowly starts to move inside me, pulling back a little and pushing back in at a calm pace, giving me time to adjust to his girth. The tractions of his movements cause the tingling sensation in my core to increase again, and a small moan escapes my lips.


    ‘How are you doing, Poppins?’ Jake asks, panting slightly as he starts moving a little faster.


    ‘This feels so good!’ I let out another moan. The tiny bit of pain I experienced when he entered me is already gone, and pleasure has taken over again.


    ‘Fuck, you feel amazing. You’re so fucking tight!’ Jake lets out a strained groan. ‘I don’t know how long I’m gonna be able to hold back anymore,’ he warns me apologetically.


    ‘Then don’t hold back,’ I encourage him, grabbing his shoulders tightly. I have the inexplicable urge to feel him as deep inside me as I can.


    That encouragement is all Jake needs, and he no longer takes it slow. With one arm he holds me in place, making sure my head doesn''t hit the headboard, while he uses the other to support himself. Jake starts thrusting into me rapidly.


    I slide my hands underneath his arms to his lower back and pull him close against me with each thrust. Jake lets out another loud groan and I see beads of sweat appearing on his forehead. I try to keep up with his pace, but the increasing build-up of sensations between my legs is becoming very distracting. Suddenly Jake’s arm is gone from my shoulder and his hand slides between our bodies. The second he starts rubbing my clit again, I detonate with a loud scream. My body explodes with pleasure. I can feel myself clench around Jake’s cock, but he keeps thrusting into me relentlessly.


    ‘Oh fuck, you are so fucking sexy when you come like that, Amber. Fuck. Fuck!’ Jake shouts. He throws his head back in his neck and I feel his member swell up inside me, again and again, as he unloads himself inside the condom. When he is finished Jake rolls over and lies next to me, working to catch his breath.


    ‘That was really amazing,’ I pant softly.


    ‘Definitely,’ Jake agrees to my great relief.


    I glance at him sideways. ‘Thank you, for a really great first time.’


    ‘You don’t have to thank me, Poppins. It wasn’t exactly a punishment for me,’ Jake chuckles.


    ‘Still, it was a lot better than I thought it would be.’


    ‘Yeah?’


    ‘I expected more pain,’ I admit. I smile at Jake. ‘But there was only a little bit. It felt mostly good. Really good.’


    ‘I’m glad.’ Jake gives me a brief kiss, before he lazily sits up. ‘Give me a second,’ he says.


    Jake gets up from the bed and disposes of his condom. I notice there’s some blood on him, when he walks towards his bathroom. I hear him wash up and I sit up to look around for something to clean myself with, but before I find something, Jake already comes back out holding a wet cloth. I reach for it, but Jake motions for me to lie back on the bed.


    ‘There’s only a little. I’ll do it,’ he says kindly. He quickly cleans the blood of my thighs and pulls the towel from underneath me. Then he rolls them up together and tosses the bundle heedlessly in the shower. When he returns, I’m already sliding towards the edge of the bed to grab my clothes.


    ‘What are you doing?’ Jake asks me, surprised.


    ‘You have to work in the morning, right? I know it’s already getting kind of late,’ I say a bit shyly. ‘I assumed you wanted to go to bed now.’


    ‘Right, yeah… I should probably get some sleep, I guess,’ Jake says, glancing at the clock. It’s already past midnight. He frowns as he watches me put my clothes back on. ‘I don’t want you to feel like I’m kicking you out, though. I don’t want this to be awkward.’


    ‘It’s not,’ I assure Jake, glancing up at him as I put my sneakers back on. Honestly, I would love to stay, but I need to respect Jake’s boundary of not wanting a girlfriend. Spending the night may be too much of a girlfriend thing, and I don’t want to chase Jake off. I enjoyed this experience a lot, and I would very much like to do it again. Preferably with him.


    ‘Alright, if you’re sure…’ Jake seems hesitant. ‘Are you good?’ he checks.


    ‘I’m good. We’re good,’ I assure him. I grab my coat from the couch and turn to face Jake. I only hesitate for a second, before I decide that a kiss goodbye is probably not too clingy. We did just have sex after all. I stand on my toes and briefly press my lips against his. ‘I had a really good time tonight,’ I smile.


    ‘Me too, Poppins,’ Jake chuckles. ‘Want me to walk you back?’ he inquires.


    ‘No need, I’ll be fine,’ I say, briefly shaking my head. ‘Just go to bed. You have an early morning.’


    ‘Alright, if you’re sure.’ Jake walks me to his door. He gives me a final peck on the lip before he releases me. ‘I’m glad you chose me to share this experience with you,’ he says with a cheeky smirk.


    ‘Me too,’ I chuckle truthfully. I wave my hand in a gesture of goodbye and turn around to head towards my own quarters in the main house.


    I''m definitely glad I got to have this experience with Jake. I never expected my first time to be as good as this. But tonight has also cleared one thing straight up for me: I definitely do want to have a boyfriend. And I definitely wish that boyfriend could be Jake. It’s too bad that he’s already made it very clear that’s never going to happen.