---- How my heart thuds when he is close.


    How my body betrays me to dance on his tunes.


    This has never happened before.


    My controls have never been so easy to infiltrate.


    Yet this man? He snaps them with a touch.


    And there could be just one reason behind it.


    He is my chosen.


    T groan tossing around on my bed.


    Hugging my favourite pillow I try to find some sleep but whenever I close my eyes? All I see are those green eyes looking back at me.


    Those wet dreams which I had when I first met him have started again.


    I wake up in the middle of the night, wet in my pajamas, sweating like a pig and my face all flushed.


    Thest three nights have been the same and I end up only more frustrated than I was the previous night T never find a closure or rather orgasm as they call it.


    ---- ee = All I do is senseless poking and rubbing with no avail Tired I drop my arms above my head and look up at the ceiling.


    Why is my body behaving like this? I thought I knew myself well.


    Whats wrong with me? I am behaving like a bitch in heat.


    My gaze travels to the full moon peeping inside through the window and the realisation stuck me like thunder.


    The full moon.


    Could this be.....


    Heat.


    They say that after you meet your soulmate, your first heates three full moonster.


    The first two full moons are preparatory, and are known to increase a wolves sexual desire Today is the second full moon....


    Fifteen days ago...


    it was my first.


    And that''s why I am having these dreams and thoughts around those days.


    Shit! ---- How am I going to cope with my first heat? I have no idea of how strong could it be? I jolt up in my bed and breathe heavily.


    I only have fifteen days.


    Damn it.


    Why didn''t I think about it earlier? Of course.


    [had no idea he is my mate.


    Why would I have thought about it? Should I ask someone? Fiza? Ari? No...


    they will doubt me.


    I cant trust anyone with this right now.


    Or they will know Damian is my mate.


    Think Zariyan think! Yes! The Library! Tam sure I heard Fiza saying that there were all kinds of books in our library.


    It must be there Picking up an oil handmp and wrapping a shawl around my night dress, I make my way downstairs.


    It was dark and silent.


    Everyone was deep asleep and I bite my lip to push open the huge library door.


    ---- eee = The door creaks and then closes on its own ord Resting themp on the table I look up at the countless books lined in front of me.


    I knew most of the sections, owing to how much I spent my time here as a kid.


    Yet there was a part I didn''t dared to venture into.


    The third shelf in the twelfth row.


    The words eighteen plus were written in bold at the top.


    T feel my palm turning mmy and my mind racing.


    Am I doing the right thing? I never...


    You are 25 stupid.


    Its eighteen plus.


    If course its alright.


    Dont be a coward now.


    My conscience snaps at me and IT bring the nightmp closer to me.


    cing it on the floor, I trace my fingers along the red books at the top when by mistake a book topples over and snacks on the floor.


    Shit! T crouch down to pick it up but when I look at the