Later in the night, Bai Xian was wearing a shirt and shorts and sitting on the sofa in his living room.


    His left thigh was wrapped in gauze and blood oozed out.


    He sat in silence.


    Every time he feels uncomfortable, he will scratch on his thigh. The sharp pain in his leg can alleviate the pain in his heart and make him a little more comfortable.


    When he first left, he was full of hostility.


    He never thought about going to Gu Chen again.


    I don''t deserve her. It''s blasphemy to look at her more. He would spare himself, but his heart would not.


    So many nights, the pain is unbearable, let him give birth to Jue Nian.


    Since I was a child in welfare hall, I have endured countless humiliations. I''m not going to kill myself for love, right?


    If the knife is cut on the leg, it will not hurt tendons, bones or life.


    He would write the word "Gu Chen" on the ground next to him with his bloody hand.


    There are different opinions about Gu pan Shenghui.


    In wartime Shanghai, the situation changed in the blink of an eye. Wealth was like floating clouds. It was easy to come and easy to go.


    He turned over within half a year and became a incense master from a pawn of Hongmen. In addition to being appreciated and supported by noble people, he also had his own hard work. In the past six months, he learned to read, which also provided him with a lot of convenience.


    In troubled times, people also become messy. They can''t control their own destiny. Their ups and downs are the same as family.


    Then he was too busy. Several times, he had a narrow escape, so he stopped thinking about Gu.


    He thought he had forgotten her.


    But it happened that I met her again.


    The dust on the heart was blown away by the storm, revealing its original trace. Everything never fades, it''s just buried.


    So the storm swept through him and destroyed all the defenses he had built.


    It was hard to come back at noon. When night fell, he couldn''t stand it again. He had a longing to hug and kiss her, like countless times in eight months.


    These thoughts, the devil''s vine, will strangle him. If he hadn''t given himself a knife in time and let the pain wake him up, he would have rushed to her house.


    If he did that, he would be really obscene, obscene and hopeless.


    "Master Bai." Someone knocked at the door and whispered outside.


    Bai Xian asked, "what''s up?"


    "Miss Sun''s money has been called." The humanity outside.


    Bai Xian said, "well, you go and have a rest."


    Then he turned and left.


    Miss sun was the girl who taught him to read, the little sun, the dancer in the song and dance hall.


    People at the bottom live a particularly hard life. Gu is also bitter, but it''s not the bitter method of their lower class people.


    He broke with haoxue that day and left the song and dance hall. Later, Xiao Sun begged the manager to find him.


    The manager thought he was nice, found him and led him to Zhang Xinmei.


    Zhang Xinmei said, "you have to speak. You say you want to make progress and make a difference in Hongmen. If you want to ask me for help, I will help you. But you have to speak and do what you say."


    He knelt down to Zhang Xinmei.


    He said, Ninth master, you give me a way out. I will be your slave all my life and let you drive me.


    Zhang Xinmei does not need him to be a slave. He only needs an eyeliner over there. He introduced Bai Xian to one of his uncles and asked him to take Bai Xian with him.


    That uncle is the deputy leader of Hongmen. He is Bai Xian''s noble man.


    Bai Xian later did it step by step. It sounds good to rely on himself. In fact, he just made every step of his promotion a little persuasive.


    With Zhang Xinmei coming forward, his success is doomed. He will be given it anyway.


    It''s not humiliating to persuade him. It''s not humiliating.


    He has always been loyal to Zhang Xinmei.


    Hongmen people find haoxue and say that she and Bai Xian have broken up. Please don''t go to him again.


    Haoxue didn''t dare to listen. As expected, she didn''t look for it.


    Sun Zexiao often meets him.


    She hugged him, cried in front of him and wanted to be with him.


    He refused.


    Although he didn''t want to be husband and wife with Xiao Sun, he often helped each other.


    Xiao Sun''s father owed a lot of debt. She worked very hard to support her family and pay off the debt. Later, she told him, "my brother is a little promising. He works in the factory and knows to take the money home. My life will be better in the future."


    Three days after she said this, her family was smashed by the people in the casino.


    Her brother didn''t make progress, but became addicted to gambling. After she owed a lot of money, her brother ran away by himself.


    Her dilapidated home is even worse.


    In order to support the surviving children of the family, Xiao Sun went down completely from a dancer to a Geisha.


    At that time, Bai Xian was busy receiving a batch of goods. Day and night, he didn''t know about it.


    When he knew, it was already late.


    He got the first money to redeem Xiao Sun. Then every month, I will give her some money.


    She is not good at anything else. She still goes back to be a dancer. She will still meet him, teach him to read and recommend books to him.


    She even asked him, "brother Bai, who is Gu Yun?"


    Bai Xian was surprised.


    Xiao Sun said, "the first time you asked me to teach you to read, I learned those two words. I think she must be the reason why you want to read and the person who gave you your scarf."


    He bowed his head deeply.


    He said, "she''s a nice girl..."


    Xiao Sun sighed: "I really hate the men in my family, my father and my brother. If it weren''t for them, I would also be a good girl. You would like me too."


    Bai Xian smiled.


    "No, I don''t like her because she is a nice girl." Bai Xian said, "the first time I saw her, I knew there were so beautiful people in the world."


    He always remembers the day when he was sent to follow Gu Chen.


    The first time he saw her, she was wearing a cheongsam with white dots on a blue background and a snow-white sweater. She always knew that someone was following her and kept running and looking back.


    The wind scattered her hair and several strands fell on her snow-white face. Every time she looked back, his heart moved inexplicably.


    In the chaos, a flower came out.


    He lost a lot of blood. After languishing all night, he was finally able to lie down.


    He still remembered that Gu Zhen was in Zhang Xinmei''s study. Zhang Xinmei asked her if she was going back to the countryside.


    She''s leaving


    This life is a thousand miles. I can''t go this life.


    Last time Bai Xian disappeared, he was ready to disappear in this life and endured the pain.


    It''s like his opium.


    After giving up her for the first time, she was naturally skinned, and the pain was difficult to describe in words; Meeting again is like picking up a cigarette gun again.


    This time, I have no determination and courage to quit. When he got up early the next day, he went to the bank and went to find Zhang Xinmei.