《I Will Disappear, Grand Duke》


 Prologue

    Prologue


    The Duchess has escaped. It happened while the Grand Duke was on an expedition.


    "Your Highness, the servants say that the only thing that disappeared from her residence was her clothes."


    "Precious items or essories."


    "They seemed to remain untouched."


    At the aide''s words, Therge mans brow wrinkled, one side of his mouth lifted.


    She took only a few clothes with her on her escape.


    His wife ran away, leaving everything he had given her. He knew intuitively what this meant.


    She was trying to erase the time she lived here as his wife. She dared to hope that he would forget her forever.


    The Grand Duke opened his mouth in a cool, quiet voice.


    "Have you heard anything from the knights yet?


    "We received a message that they are continuing to track Her Highness'' carriage. It looks like they will be able to sessfully siege it soon."


    "If she resists, tell them to bring her in, even if it''s by force."


    The Grand Duke''s stern gaze reached the wedding ring on his ring finger.


    His wife had been on the run for five days,pletely outrunning the castle servants, but the Grand Duke had managed to locate her within half a day of his return to the castle.


    She would soon be back in her original position. There was no reason to be nervous.


    But the impatienceing up from his chest kept bothering him.


    She should never have run away like this. Now that she was his wife, she had to feel the pain beside him even if she was sick. Even if it was painful, she had to suffer in his eyes.


    Julia Caesar, if ever died, had to die in his territory.


    He closed his bloodshot eyes loosely. The Grand Duke did his best to suppress his raging emotions.


    "Your Highness!


    At that moment, one of the knights stomped in the office. The knight, who was out of breath, continued sluggishly.


    "Ah, Your HighnessShes gone!


    "What do you mean?"


    The Grand Duke asked in a sharp tone.


    " We clearly confirmed that she was in the carriage many times, but after we surrounded the carriage, the Duchess was not there.


    We have no idea what was going onAh!


    In the blink of an eye, the Grand Duke approached and drew his sword from his waist. A sharp gaze fell on the knight, as if he was about to cut off his head.


    "Dont talk nonsense. Tell me where did she disappear to?"


    "Ah, we''ve been searching the neighborhood with the garrison, but there''s no witness, no trace.


    "You b*st*rds.


    Throwing the sword on the floor, the Grand Duke roughly swept his ck hair.


    "I''ll go myself. Prepare the horses."


    "Yes, sir!"


    The Grand Duke gritted his teeth. He shouldn''t have left the job to those ipetent people. He didn''t think it would be easy for them to get Julia back immediately, if he didn''t act directly.


    "Your Highness, I believe that Her Highness has a helper. How could she have disappeared by herself with that many knights chasing her?


    The aide who was following the Grand Duke opened his mouth cautiously. Then, at that moment, it suddenly came to the Grand Duke''s mind.


    There was a priest who hade a few months ago to bless the Grand Duke''s castle. His wife seemed to be quite close to him.


    "Lloyd, you go to the temple of Ilion and find the priest who blessed the castle. She may be hiding there. Search every corner.


    "Yes, sir!"


    If that priest was helping Julia escape, he must have used his holy power.


    If he was using his holy power, it would not be difficult for him to hide her presence or distract the Grand Dukes attention for a while.


    The blue veins appeared on the back of the Grand Duke''s hand as he held the reins. The mere thought that Julia might be with another man filled him with unspeakable rage.


    But underneath it all, he felt disgusted with himself for being so heartless towards her all these years.


    He knew. He knew that Julia''s departure was ultimately his own fault.


    "Search everywhere, don''t miss a single thing."


    The Grand Duke searched every building in the city.


    Some knights were deployed to search even the small private houses.


    The Grand Duke escaped the city walls with the other knights. As they entered the vicinity of the carriage station, there was a rush of people heading for other areas.


    When the road was blocked, the Grand Dukes procession came to a halt.


    "Your Highness, pleasee around"


    "Wait.


    His gaze stopped near the crowded ticket booth, or more precisely on one of the women in the crowd.


    For a brief moment, he could see Julia''s face. Sure enough, it was her.


    "Your Highness.


    The Grand Duke, dismounting from his horse, rushed into the crowd. He hurried to his feet, ring at the back of the woman in a hooded robe.


    "Julia!"


    Perhaps unaware of his shout, the woman did not turn around and continued walking. He caught up with her at once, grabbed her by the shoulders and turned her around.


    As he flipped her hood back, the woman revealed a panicked face, widened her eyes. It was not Julia.


    "Damn it!


    The hesitant woman slowly backed away as he said the abusivenguage with an angry face.


    Then, just as the woman was about to turn awaypletely, the pendant that was on her neck caught his eye unexpectedly.


    Before he had time to remember what it was, his body moved first. The Grand Duke grabbed the woman''s arm and cut off the string of the pendant that was on her neck at once.


    "!"


    The string of the metallic pendant broke into pieces. The woman shook off the Grand Duke''s hand with startled eyes.


    At the same time, a strong light shone around her.


    Soon the unfamiliar face gradually changed into the face of the woman he knew so well.


    Pale face. Light brown hair. Frightened blue eyes.


    This woman looking at him with a stiff face was his wife Julia.


    Ha.


    He smiled faintly with aplicated expression. The panicked look on his wife''s face made him feel miserable instead of angry.


    With what kind of eyes should he face his wife who even dared to disguise to escape from him?


    "Oh, how did you know?"


    Julia muttered with a disappointed look on her face. She didn''t have the slightest idea that she would be caught so vainly either.


    He gripped the pendant in his hand tightly as if he was crushing it, and said,


    "This pendant, I could feel its faint power.


    "Oh .


    Julia bit her lower lip in dismay. The Grand Duke pulled her by the hand.


    "Now go back. That''s enough trouble for me."


    Before Julia knew it, the approaching knights had surrounded the two of them tightly. There was nowhere to run.


    With her eyes squeezed shut, Julia was gently dragged away by him. There was nothing more she could do when the pendant was taken away.


    Moving to where he had tied the horse, he picked her up in one fluid motion over the saddle. Naturally, he climbed in behind her and pulled her close into his arms.


    "Julia."


    ""


    The Grand Duke watched her for a moment without getting a reply, then quickly tugged on the reins.


    Her light brown hair fluttered and tickled his neck. They ran for a while without a word of conversation.


    Julia was already in his arms. There was no need to be anxious anymore. But his anxiety was not going to disappear any time soon.


    It seemed as if she would dissipate like smoke at any moment.


    Having escaped safely from the city, they entered the forest path. A procession of knights moved forward, protecting the Grand Duke and his wife.


    The Grand Duke stared at Julia''s small back. He wanted to know what expression she had on her face. Whatever it was, he wanted to hear her voice confirm her presence.


    "Your Highness."


    At that moment she called him in a quiet voice. The end of her voice was cracked.


    The Grand Duke slowed his hurried pace and listened to her. Julia turned and looked at him.


    ".. I dont feel good. Lets take a break.


    He could see a hint of tiredness on her face. He was troubled for a while, but soon stopped running. The knights who were riding nearby also stopped.


    They had to run more for a few more hours in order to reach the castle. It would definitely be too much for her physical strength.


    The Grand Duke said something to the approaching knight. With a silent bow, the knight disappeared immediately to the other side.


    "I told him to bring the wagon. It won''t take long."


    "Yes.


    Julia dismounted from the horse and passed him numbly, then sat down on the grass far away from him.


    The Grand Duke shooed away the knights who were following him and approached her.


    Julia crouched down and patted the hem of her robe meaninglessly. He looked at her delicate hands with prominent joints and murmured.


    "You seem to be thinner.


    ""


    Where have you been staying the whole time?"


    Julia made no reply, but lowered her head deeper. The Grand Duke did not give in and continued to throw questions.


    "Did you see the priest of Ilion?"


    "And the pendant, I''m sure he gave it to you."


    Julias hand flinched at the muttering words. The Grand Duke, who did not miss the sight, continued in a cool tone.


    "If you don''t want to answer, then do so. I can just catch him and ask.


    "Please don''t hurt an innocent person. That man has nothing to do with me.


    When Julia, who had been silent, unexpectedly replied, the Grand Duke wrinkled his brow. She faced her husband squarely with a downward nce.


    "Why are you looking for me?"


    She had this look on her face that said she couldn''t understand the situation. She even looked a little angry. The Grand Duke spoke in a cold tone with a sultry feeling in his heart.


    "Are there any men who could sit still while their wives are gone?"


    "Was I a wife to Your Highness?"


    Julia lifted her lips weakly. The Grand Duke''s lips moved in aplicated expression, but he quickly gulped it down. His heart throbbed as if it was stabbed with something.


    Julia, who was staring at him, raised herself up. Then she walked along the woond path.


    He understood that Julia meant that she wanted to be alone. But he couldnt let her be. The Grand Duke followed her at some distance.


    Julia, who had been walking for a long time without saying a word, stopped. The Grand Duke stopped with her, and his brow furrowed at the open sight.


    Beneath a sheer cliff, a strong river was flowing. She didnt know there was such a ce in this forest.


    "Julia,e here.


    Just as the Grand Duke called out to her with an ominous premonition, she turned around and pulled something out of her pocket.


    "You."


    The Grand Duke stared at her with a slightly perplexed look in his eyes. Julia pointed a knife at him.


    Her hands trembled finely as she grasped the hilt of the knife. The Grand Duke, who paused for a moment as if in shock, immediately killed his expression and approached her. Julia stepped back.


    "Don''te any closer. If you get any closer, I''m really going to stab you"


    Do as you please."


    She would never stab him. Good-natured Julia Caesar could never do anything to hurt others.


    That was his wife, as he had seen her so far.


    The Grand Duke took a fewrge steps forward, and Julia moved back with a jittery movement.


    If he got stabbed by that knife here, she would be sorry ande back to his side. Then she could hit him as many times as she wanted, with a sword or a gun.


    "Wait, Julia."


    His nonchnt face cracked at the moment the de turned in an aborted direction.


    The knife that had been aimed at him was now pointed at herself.


    "Damn it, put that knife down!"


    Julia plunged the knife further into her neck when her husband approached closer.


    Red fresh blood flowed down from her white neck. In that state, she slowly backed away. The Grand Duke was shaking frantically as he came to a stop. He knew that if he came any closer, Julia was really going to cut her throat.


    "Darn it don''t move anymore! It was my fault, Im sorry"


    The more she retreated, the more the Grand Duke looked as if he was dying and prayed fervently.


    The longer he lingered, unable to approach, the closer Julia got to the edge of the cliff.


    "Please, don''t. Its all my fault. I will do as you wish. Julia."


    The Grand Duke shuddered, unable to hide his reddened eyes. It was hard to believe that he was such a cold and heartless husband.


    Julia smiled bitterly. That look in his eyes, his words.at one time he was all she had. Days when she was deflected dozens of times and crumbled in a single nce.


    These are the times she loved him while she was in loneliness.


    Standing on the edge of the cliff, Julia slowly carving the face of the husband who had once been her world into her eyes.


    " It''s toote."


    If not now, she would never be able to leave him forever. She woulde to love him again.


    "The unhappiness I have experienced is enough for me."


    She wanted to be happy now.


    "Julia!"


    Staring at her desperate husband, Julia threw herself down the cliff.

 Chapter 1

    Chapter 1


    Julia sat on the opposite side of the table and nced at the man tilting his ss.


    Fernan Caesar, the man who at the age of twenty-six had led the imperial wars to victory and inherited the Grand Dukedom.


    He was a man of splendid beauty and solid outward appearance befitting his dignity, and even his light shirt shone.


    He was a man that one could not help but had to steal a nce. The fact that this man, who looked so perfect, was her husband, was something unbelievable to Julia.


    "Why don''t you stop looking and eat?"


    The sudden sound of his low voice startled Julia and she dropped her fork.


    Fernan looked up and stared at her numbly.


    "Yes, yes"


    Julia blushed and picked up a small piece of bread on her te. She couldn''t look up, embarrassed that she had been caught stealing a nce.


    While she was squirreling away the bread and stirring the stale soup around, the servant brought our new dishes.


    Julia, who was quietly cutting the steak, nced up to check on him. He was only emptying his champagne ss, as if this time was boring him.


    <i>Should we continue our conversation? What kind of conversations do normal couples have at mealtime?</i>


    While Julia was thinking, Fernan got up from his seat.


    "Ill leave first."


    With a few words he left the dining room. He did not look at her for even a moment.


    Julia gazed nkly at his empty seat and put down the tableware. She didn''t want to eat more.


    Julia stood up, unable to eat half of her food, and walked briskly to her room.


    In spite of the fact that they had been married for several months, she had never been able to carry on any kind of dialogue with Fernan.


    In fact, with the exception of the asional mealtime, she rarely even saw him.


    He had always been away for as short as three days and as long as a month.


    So naturally she hadnt had time to get to know him.


    Somehow, she felt like they were worse off than others.


    "Your Highness, are you here? Did you enjoy your meal?"


    As Julia entered the bedroom, the maidservant who was tidying the bedding weed her with a smile. It was Melissa, who had been assigned as her full-time servant.


    "Yes.


    Julia entered the dressing room and Melissa, who had followed her, helped her get dressed. After putting on a thin slip dress and a gown, Julia came out of the bedroom again.


    "Oh, I received a letter at noon, but I forgot to tell you about it."


    Melissa pulled the letter out of her pocket. Julia''s expression darkened slightly. She felt as if she didn''t need to see the letter to know who it came from.


    After Melissa had left, Julia opened the envelope and checked the contents. Naturally, the sender was her father.


    [Julia, to my daughter.


    You haven''t answered the letter I sent youst time. I''m worried, so I wrote a new letter and sent it to you. I hope you are settled in your new home. I am looking forward to hearing good news from you every day. I will try to visit you at the castle soon.]


    The letter was brief, containing only its purpose. Julia sighed heavily after plunging the letter into the letter storage box.


    Her father, Marquis Elody, had gained the most through this marriage.


    He had used Fernans fame as a war hero to expand his business and maintain close ties with the imperial family, thus increasing the prestige of the family line.


    Still, he couldn''t get enough, and now he was forcing Julia to have a child with the Grand Duke by sending her letters periodically and putting pressure on her to do so.


    The reasoning was that with an heir, this marriage would flow in a more stable direction. Julia had a subtle expression on her face as she pondered. She hadn''t even had her wedding night with Fernan yet.


    Children and heirs or something like that still seemed a long way away, but there was a need to develop a rtionship with him.


    <i>We wont stay this way forever.</i>


    <i>Don''t be too impatient.</i>


    Now that they were husband and wife, they had many days together. Juliay down on the bed and slowly drew a picture of her husband.


    From a long time ago until now, he has always been a beautiful and wonderful man.


    It had been nine years since Julia first saw him. Julia, who was reminiscing about the past, fell asleep at some point.


    As she slept, a gentle smile was drawn on her lips.


    ***


    Nine years ago, it was the summer when she was 13. It was also the day Julia visited the Imperial Pce for the first time in her life.


    "How can a lowlife enter a banquet hall?"


    But before she could set foot in the banquet hall, Julia was thrown by a rough hand into a small room deep inside the Imperial Pce.


    It was the habitual abuse of the Marquis, who did not recognize Julia as his daughter.


    "You stay here and be quiet. Ill call you when the banquet is over.


    "Oh, father!


    Boom! Julia quickly withdrew her outstretched hand as she looked at the door, which closed with a loud bang. Looking around with trembling eyes, she saw nothing but a dimly lit interior hanging in the air. As she stood there frightened, she heard a loud ying sound announcing the banquet.


    Gasp.


    Crouching down, Julia began to sob aloud.


    The distant noise of the banquet hall made the young Julia even sadder.


    <i>Was it wrong for me to be excited for the first time in a pretty dress and riding in a fancy carriage?</i>


    Her vision was blurred by tears that trickled from her eyes.


    It was then that she saw a long shadow above her.


    She looked up and saw a tall man looking down at her with a nk expression on his face. The man slowly bent his knees as he stared at Julia, who shook in surprise.


    When their eyes were all at the same level, she could finally see the man''s face clearly.


    "Why are you crying?


    ck hair covered by the darkness. Golden eyes that shine alone even in a pitch-ck room.


    For a man, his face was so beautiful that it caught Julias gaze.


    To the frightened Julia, the man gently held out his hand.


    ""


    Julia''s eyes widened.


    <i>Why would he offer his hand to a girl like me?</i>


    Confused, but Julia couldn''t ignore his hand.


    Fidgeting and gently grasping his fingertips, he eventually led her to a small door on one wall.


    There was a terrace.


    Unlike the pitch-ck room, the light of the sunset was just emerging over the terrace.


    "Don''t cry, I''ll stay with you."


    He was gorgeously dressed, and it looked as if he should be in the banquet hall, not in this secluded little room.


    Strangely enough, however, he seemed quite ustomed to sitting here alone.


    He didn''t ask her anything, nor did he say anything to her.


    He just held her hand for a while.


    Strangely enough, her sad and sorrowful heart gradually disappeared while she was with the man.


    As such, he didn''t leave his seat until the sunset hadpletely faded and the moonlight began to leak out.


    Holding hisrge, linked hands tightly, Julia realized for the first time how warm someone''s hands were.


    It was the first time. It was the first time someone had held her hand like this without hesitation.


    When she finally heard the sound of the music announcing the end of the banquet, Julia hesitated and asked him for the first time.


    Can you tell me your name?


    At the small question, he silently lowered his eyelids and then slowly lifted them up again.


    The golden eyes that appeared at that moment were brighter and more beautiful to the young Julia''s eyes than the moon in the sky.


    "Fernan."


    ""


    "If we meet again someday, I''ll tell you my name then.


    That was thest conversation she had with the man.


    After that day, Julia saw him again at the ceremony two dayster.


    The man was at the very front of the imperial army leaving for the war of conquest.


    That would be Fernan Seyrev Formene. The emperor''s only nephew and themander of the imperial army in this war.


    The man, whom she met in an old small room, was such an incredible man. Julia learned btedly that the day of the banquet where she met him was actually a ceremony for the safe return of the Imperial troops going to war.


    Without even having a chance to meet again, the mysterious man left for the battlefield.


    But even after that, Julia could not easily forget that day.


    Even after a long time, Fernan returned as a war hero.


    And for a long time after he returned, Julia would watch him from afar.


    The man who was no longer the boy in her memories, had be the most famous person in the empire.


    A year after that.


    Surprisingly, it was at the meeting where the matchmaking took ce that Julia met him face to face. On that day, her father said to her,


    "Julia, you will be married to the Grand Duke.


    After the war, that man, Fernan, was given the Northern Caesar''s territory and inherited the Grand Dukedom.


    That gentleman in her memory, who seemed too noble and distant, was the very man she was to marry.


    ****


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 Chapter 2

    Chapter 2


    The next day, Julia woke up earlier than usual and hurriedly prepared to go out.


    Dressed in a frilly white dress, she stared at her reflection in the mirror.


    She still wasn''t used to the sight of three maids helping her dress up.


    Before this marriage happened, she didnt have any maids helping her. Julia was not a Young Lady, but a daughter of the Marquiss mistress.


    Since her mother was amoner, she could not officially be the second wife of the Marquis. So ording to the procedure, Julia wasnt the Marquiss daughter either.


    However, after giving birth to her first son, the Marquises wife was diagnosed as infertile and could not have any more children.


    That was why the Marquis had Julia formally admitted to his family while concealing the fact that she was his illegitimate daughter.


    "Julia, you are the bestmodity for valuable work.


    As can be seen from the wordmodity'', it means a political marriage, something of value'', which the Marquis was always in the habit of saying.


    A father who wanted to make a profit by putting his daughter on the line.


    To him, Julia was just a tool to sell to a good ce and increase his position.


    Julia was well aware that for aristocrats, marriage was mostly a political tool, but she still wanted to have a marriage thatbined love.


    Having grown up in an environment where there was no family love, she wanted a home filled with love.


    So when this marriage was arranged, Julia began to believe in the existence of God for the first time.


    That man who she had never forgotten. He was now her husband.


    "Duchess, are you going to see His Highness off?"


    At the sound of the servant''s voice awakening her thoughts, Julia finally snapped out of the long standing memory that hadsted sincest night. Looking up, she saw the servants smiling at her as they finished her makeup. Julia felt somewhat embarrassed.


    Stroking her hair, Julia replied.


    "Yes. I don''t get to see him very often, so I just wanted to say hello."


    "I''m sure His Highness will be very pleased."


    Julia smiled awkwardly and stood up from her seat. I was a little embarrassed that her attempt at a light greeting seemed to be interpreted as a big deal.


    <i>But if I make a little effort like this, I can get closer to him, right?</i>


    <i>I hope His Highness wishes to be closer to me, too.</i>


    Unlike Julia, who had never forgotten him, Fernan did not seem to remember her.


    But she kept the promise she made to him that day, to meet him again like this, to let him know her name.


    Julia came out of her bedroom and immediately went downstairs to the lobby. She saw the servants lined up in front of the entrance.


    When the servants spotted Julia, they all bowed to her at once. She nodded lightly. Shortly after, Fernan entered the central staircase through a long corridor.


    ""


    He entered the hall with a leisurely gait, dressed in a ck uniform decorated with gold thread. Julia gazed at the figure in a daze.


    The splendid conquest, masterfully woven over his broad shoulders and a strong body, suited him very well. He was a beautiful man that Julia had always admired since she first saw him a long time ago.


    "Grand Duke."


    Fernan walked casually past the servants, spotted Julia, and suddenly stopped. His cold gaze sank still on her.


    What are you doing here?"


    Julia flinched as he asked in a tone that was colder than his gaze.


    It was because the eyes looking down at her at the tall height felt somehow intimidating.


    Julia looked up at him, who seemed to be cold, and replied with a puzzled look on her face.


    "UhI wanted to give Your Highness my morning greetings."


    Morning greetings?


    Immediately a twisted sneer broke out on his sculpted face.


    "I don''t know what you are expecting.


    Julia froze in ce, her eyes wide open.


    Did he think that she was expecting something? Julia hurriedly opened her mouth to clear up the misunderstanding.


    "Um, there is no other meaning. I just wanted to see His Highness off


    "Well, I guess you''re starting to want to be a hostess."


    At the obviously sarcastic remark, Julia fell silent, her ears turning red.


    <i>I shouldnt have done this.</i>


    Her heart began to tremble madly in confusion, which was also in her head.


    She could feel the servants watching her. Julia bowed deeply.


    Fernan, who was looking down at her, continued to speak in a slightly calmer, but emotionless tone.


    "If there''s anything you want, you can have it. Whether it''s remodeling the castle, buying jewels, or throwing a party, I don''t care which."


    ""


    But I do not want to see you in the morning, so please refrain from doing this.


    His expressionless face told all. Dont expect anything from me. There will be no affection or warmth between us.


    Fernan thus walked straight past the frozen Julia.


    The servants who had been watching her scattered to other ces, and Julia was left alone in the lobby.


    <i>Did I do something wrong?</i>


    The number of times she had seen and interacted with Fernan after their marriage was too few to count. He was always busy and not always very talkative.


    In the meantime, she couldn''t think of what mistake she had made.


    Fernan left the castle on their wedding night, leaving the bride behind, saying he had business to attend to. But Julia was content with all that, even that.


    That was, until he looked down at her with cold eyes earlier.


    ""


    She stood there for a moment in a daze, her expression deliberately set. But she just couldn''t hide her sinking heart.


    While she forced herself to walk, Fernans cold voice echoed in her ear. It seemed to chill her to the core.


    ***


    Marquis Elody slowly looked around the parlor and savored the tea.


    It was a deste and dreary interior. Like Fernan, the lord of the castle.


    After lightly clicking his tongue, he snapped at his daughter.


    "What does your husband do and not show up?


    "he has a lot of political work."


    Julia replied distantly and grabbed her teacup. Her father, whom she had not seen in a long time, remained only difficult and inconvenient.


    The Marquis looked disgruntled and berated Fernan, then quickly changed the subject.


    "Why are you so thin? There is nothing more ugly than a skinny girl.


    Well, that''s just because I have no appetite.


    The Marquis then looked her up and down and asked,


    "Are you pregnant?


    "What?


    Startled, Julia hastily put down her teacup.


    "No, Im not."


    "Why are you so surprised if you''re not? You should be ashamed.


    Julias body shook out of habit at the Marquis''s light rebuke. She didn''t want to talk about the subject anymore, but he didn''t seem to n on stopping.


    "Do you get intimate regrly?"


    It wasn''t the best conversation to have with her father, but Julia nodded, not showing any displeasure.


    She couldnt tell him the truth. Her father would probably go ballistic if he knew that she didn''t even have her wedding night.


    She didn''t even have a chance to get close to Fernan. He was as busy as ever, and the only dinners they had together often ended without a word.


    "I said it many times. It is only when you have children that this marriage will be perfect."


    ""


    "When you have children, your ce is secured. Hes an arrogant man. I dont know what hes thinking.


    Julia kept her gaze down and grabbed her hand. Every time the Marquis spoke in a critical tone about Fernan, she did not know how to react.


    Fortunately you have a face. What would you do if you only looked like woodtsk.


    """


    "So hold on to him tightly now so he doesn''t go out."


    Julia nodded hesitantly and hoped that this tough time would end soon.


    The Marquis looked at her with a very unreliable look and took something out of his pocket. It was a small medicine bottle filled with liquid.


    "Take it. Men use it often to improve their drive. Just one sip will do the trick, so you have to use a small amount."


    Julia blinked curiously. She didn''t know why her father gave her a medicine that was good for men.


    The Marquis furrowed his brow in frustration, and then quickly said in a meaningful tone,


    "The Grand Duke has a lot of work with no time to rest. Then hes likely to lose his stamina."


    ""


    "Before you and him be intimate, give it to him secretly. He won''t notice it if you put it in water or wine."


    Julia inadvertently epted the medicine bottle. The Marquis realized that she still didn''t understand the meaning of this potion, but he didn''t open his mouth anymore.


    Julia felt somewhat abhorrent, but since she was in front of the Marquis, she had no choice but to put the medicine away. However, she was still concerned about giving it to him secretly, so she nned to call the pharmacistter to make sure that the medicine was safe.


    After a while, the Marquis left the castle, saying that he would go see Fernan in person.


    Sigh.


    Returning to her bedroom, Julia put the medicine bottle in her drawer and closed it tightly with a sigh.


    After dealing with her difficult and dour father, all her energy left her body.


    ***


    Fernan was conducting his political affairs in his other mansion in the northern part of Caesar. The mansion was rtively small in size and was private, with only a few servants and lieutenants having ess to it.


    With the main castleparable to the Imperial Pce, the reason for having a separate residence was simple. He needed a private space that no one could invade.


    And now, Fernan was facing an uninvited guest who had invaded his space without permission.


    "Hahahaha, no matter how long I waited at the castle, you didn''t show up, so I came here directly. I hope it wasn''t too rude."


    Marquis Elody entered the office with a nice smile. Then he saw Fernan staring at him coldly and he was bbergasted.


    After Fernan put down the document he was reading, he gestured with his chin. It meant to sit down. The Marquis'' smile was distorted by his attitude as if Fernan was treating his subordinates.


    "I''m busy, so just keep it simple."


    Fernan stared at the Marquis, his legs arrogantly crossed. The Marquis put on his good-natured face again and pulled out a letter from his pocket.


    I understand that you have work to handle, but you should not treat the person who came with a message from His Majesty like this.


    The Marquis put the letter on the table and smiled triumphantly. Fernan twisted up one side of his lips.


    "His Majesty is so casual about it. How could he send the decrepit from far away to deliver a mere letter? That''s right. Now that I look at you, the job suits you well.


    The Marquis''s face instantly turned red and blue. Perhaps his self-esteem got hurt, the Marquis, who was silent for a while, forced his lips to bend.


    "Hahahawhat shall I do? His Majesty''s only nephew is not loyal to the imperial family, so he wants to correct the discipline even if he has to use this old man."


    "Loyalty"


    Fernan chuckled as he lowered his eyes halfway. The more powerful Fernan became, the more the Emperor tried to oppress him in this way.


    Tilting his head slowly in disgust, Fernan stared at the Marquis''s face.


    Dark brown hair and blue eyes. He naturally reminded him of his wife, Julia.


    Just marrying the Marquis''s daughter was too much loyalty for me.


    Because of that loyalty, ording to the emperor, Fernan became amander at the age of seventeen and fought in the imperial war.


    After several years of fighting for the empire relentlessly, the result was an unwanted marriage.


    To the Emperor''s dog, Marquis Elody''s daughter.

 Chapter 3

    Chapter 3


    "What more do I have to do to satisfy His Majesty. Do you know the way Marquis?


    The Marquis replied in a gentle tone at Fernans sarcastic question.


    "Yes, I do. If you have a child with my daughter as soon as possible and produce an heir, His Majesty may recognize the Grand Duke''s loyalty.


    Fernand''s handsome forehead wrinkled.


    That meant that he had to produce an heir and put down his title as soon as possible.


    Once he retired himself, he would take the opportunity to dismantle the Grand Duke''s private army and try to make his sessor do as he wished.


    The Marquis took the opportunity of Fernans bad mood to begin to wrap things up nicely.


    "After giving birth to the heir, the Grand Duke can take a distant rest with my daughter. Wouldnt it be nice to no longer be tormented by His Majesty?


    ""


    "Think about it. I''m not asking you to make a stranger your sessor. Is it so unfair to hand down the title to the Grand Duke''s biological child?"


    Fernan raised his deep somber eyes and red at the Marquis. The Marquis'' face, full of greed and ambition, was more sickening than filth.


    Fernan, who had been silent for a while with his brows furrowed, spoke slowly.


    "If His Majesty''s intentions are true, I can''t disobey him, can I?"


    <i>I finally got through to him.</i>


    It was when the Marquis was about to say something more, Fernan spoke in an arsened tone.


    "I''m sure he wont mind any child as long as it came from my blood.


    The Marquis was startled out of his wits by these words. He raised his trembling hand and pointed at Fernan.


    "What do you mean by that? Are you saying you''re gonna have an illegitimate child?


    It was very entertaining to see the Marquis shouting angrily and sluggishly. Fernan leaned back against the sofa and smiled.


    "No matter how I try, I dont think I can have children with the Marquiss daughter. Every time I look at her, I see the image of her father, and my body wont cooperate. So, what can I do?


    "You!


    The Marquiss anger soared and he felt like he was about to copse.


    The Marquis grabbed the back of his neck and clung to it as if he was about to fall. Fernan watched the scene satisfactorily for a moment, then got up from his seat.


    "It seems that you have finished everything you wanted to say, so Ill go now.


    Leaving the shivering Marquis behind, Fernan stepped out of the office.


    "Ugh, that cheeky!"


    After being left alone, he mmed on the table roughly. He knew Fernan was difficult, but he didnt expect he would go this far.


    He was right, the emperor would be satisfied with anything as long as Fernan dropped his title as soon as possible. It didn''t matter if the heir was his wife''s child or not.


    If Fernan had indeed an illegitimate child, it would be a disaster for him (the Marquis). All the hopes he had for this marriage would be in vain.


    The Marquis gritted his teeth, unable to control his anger for a moment.


    It seemed that he would have to find some other ways that would ensure that Fernan would be tamed.


    ***


    "Grand Duchess.


    The chambein bowed deeply and opened the door. Julia entered the dining room with a feeling of nervousness in her heart.


    An uncharacteristically quiet atmosphere greeted her. Fernan did not look at her as she entered, but fixed his gaze on the document in his hand.


    "Good evening, Your Highness."


    Julia greeted him in a low voice, but as usual, Fernan didn''t reply.


    Maybe her voice was too low to be heard. Comforting herself like that, Julia sat quietly in her seat.


    Soon hot soup, fresh sd and well-donemb steaks were ced on the table in turn.


    Grand Duchess, would you like me to pour you a ss of wine?"


    "Im fine.


    Shaking her head with a small smile, Julia immediately began to eat. Only the asional tter of dishes filled the dining room.


    It was Fernan who first broke the awkward silence.


    "I will be going to the capital to see His Majesty soon."


    Julia, who was about to eat her sd, looked at Fernan with her fork in the void. He continued to talk without taking his eyes off the document.


    "Youe too."


    Julia blinked in disbelief for a moment.


    Oh, can Ie with you?"


    "Yes."


    Her heart pounded. It was the first time Fernan had suggested doing something first.


    "Yes, yesI will.


    Fernan didn''t continue the conversation as if that was his only purpose. Julia couldnt believe she was going to the capital with him and have an audience with the Emperor. Julia was so excited that she didnt notice Fernans mood was more subdued than usual.


    Still, Julia couldn''t help the twitch on her lips.


    Now she felt like she was really married to him, and her heart began to flutter.


    The carriage carrying the Grand Duke and his wife left early in the morning, just as the sun began to rise.


    Julia, who was so nervousst night that she didnt sleep at all, intended to get some sleep in the carriage.


    However, when she saw Fernan sitting in front of her, a certain sleepiness seemed to vanish.


    ""


    He was still examining the document as they traveled in the carriage. It was a little disappointing to see his eyes covered by his downcast eyelids.


    Fernan has beautiful golden eyes that seem to melt in the sunlight. It was a warm color that eased the sharpness of his eyes.


    In contrast, his dark ebony-ck hair gave off a somewhat cold feeling.


    Today, his hair was neatly swept to reveal a clean forehead, but thanks to it, his sculpted face was clearly visible.


    It seemed that she could look at just his face all day and never get tired of it.


    "Why don''t you stop looking and go to sleep if you have nothing better to do?


    Fernan murmured in a low voice, not taking his eyes off the document. Julia was startled and replied quickly.


    "I''m sorry. I didn''t think"


    Fernan stared at her reddened cheeks, holding her gaze, and wrinkled his brow.


    Whenever they were face to face, Julia showed such an innocent expression again.


    He had no idea if she was shy or pretending to be. She was unpleasant in a different way from the Marquis.


    If it hadn''t been for the emperor''s message, he wouldn''t have gone to the capital with her in the first ce.


    The Emperor''s letter that the Marquis brought him said,


    <b><i>[I will be gathering the members of the imperial family for a dinner banquet in the near future, and you must attend. Please be sure toe with Julia.]</i></b>


    Normally, he would not attend, but it was clear that if he refused the emperor''s order any longer, he would try to pressure him again, expressing his deep sorrow.


    The whole thing was annoying and troublesome. Even that woman who was still flirting with him.


    Fernan, who had once again glued his gaze on the document,pletely blocked her vision with it.


    It was already dark when they arrived at the Imperial Pce.


    While the attendants carried their luggage inside, the two were led to their assigned ces. As soon as Julia stepped out of the carriage, she felt a sudden surge of fatigue.


    As much as she wanted to jump into bed, her first priority was to meet and greet His Majesty the Emperor.


    "I''m here to see you, Your Majesty. How have you been?


    "All right,e on in. I''m sure you''ve had a lot of troubleing a long way."


    The Emperor''s warm reception continued. After exchanging a few formal reassurances with Fernan, the emperor quickly cast a nce at Julia.


    "I haven''t seen you since the wedding. I''m d to see you looking healthy.


    Julia replied politely, hiding the tension that was surging through her.


    "Yes, thanks to Your Majesty''s concern, I''ve been fine."


    "I''m d to hear that. Grand Duke is such a blunt man that I had an umon fear that the Grand Duchess would be neglected.


    The emperor was joking, and Julia took the ce of an answer by softly facing him.


    The emperor was quite a friendly and impressionable person, but he was someone with whom she somehow felt ufortable.


    It was somehow simr to how she felt when she saw her father.


    "Now, don''t just stand there, sit down."


    The dining table prepared inside the banquet hall was spacious enough for fifteen people to sitfortably.


    Seated at the table were the Empress, the Crown Prince and his wife, and several princes and princesses.


    Julia listened to the emperor''s words as she tried to adjust to the unfamiliar atmosphere.


    "My heart feels so full to see you all here after such a long time."


    "Yes, Your Majesty. It''s thanks to the neer to the imperial family."


    The Empress looked at Julia with apassionate smile. With her red hair elegantly cropped, the Empress was a gentle woman.


    Yes, the Empress is rightIts very fortunate that the Grand Duke has such a virtuous wife.


    That Emperor smiled and continued.


    Marquis Elody raised her well. She grew up with a loyal father, and she must also be loyal to the imperial family. I believe that the Grand Duchess will bring great blessings to the imperial family."


    The emperor''s words drew everyone''s attention to Julia. She felt the pressure for a moment, but then calmed down and spoke.


    "I will do my best to meet Your Majesty''s expectations."


    "Thank you."


    Julia thought that the emperor seemed to overly tter her. She should be grateful for thepliment, but somehow she felt more awkward.


    She gulped a sigh, then nced at Fernan, who sat across from her. His expression was oddly twisted.


    Just as she was about to question his appearance, he opened his mouth.


    "I didn''t know Your Majesty was so fond of my wife.

 Chapter 4

    Chapter 4


    Fernans eyes were cold, and only the edges of his mouth were softly curved. It was an eerie feeling.


    "Why did you give me the woman you liked so much? Your Majesty could have her.


    The tone was light as he passed by, but a thin ice silence flowed inside the banquet hall. Everyone was looking at Fernan with bewilderment.


    He continued his words, as if he didn''t care a bit.


    If Your Majesty wishes, I will step down from this marriage.


    His golden eyes reached Julia on the other side.


    What do you think?"


    Julia looked at him with a pale face. Her mind froze nk.


    <i>What is he saying now?</i>


    Her hands, which had quickly lost their warmth, began to tremble. She couldn''t make sense of this situation.


    She couldn''t understand a word he was saying.


    " Grand Duke, you joke too much."


    It was the Empress who broke the stifling silence. She kept a calm expression among the hardened ones.


    The emperor, who had a dumbfounded look on his face, finally spoke.


    Yeah, that kind of joke doesn''t fit the situation. You didn''t mean to humiliate me, did you?


    The emperor''s lips quivered. He didn''t know whether to be angry or justugh it off.


    Fernan smiled, keeping a single, coquettish look on his face. He didn''t look like the man who had thrown the bomb into the middle of a friendly dinner party.


    "Theres no way I have such impure intentions toward His Majesty. You are mistaken.


    Julia stared at him nkly. Her heart was beating as if it was about to jump out of her chest, but her mind was still and quiet.


    "Your Majesty. In a moment. I would like to speak with you about an international matter"


    Thanks to the Crown Prince''s hasty change of subject, the dinner continued in a strange atmosphere.


    asionally, the Empress managed to talk to Julia, who was stunned throughout, and Julia gave suitable answers.


    However, when the dinner was over and she left the banquet hall, she could not remember what she had said at all.


    While moving to return to her designated ce, Julia touched her cold hands.


    Fernan, who was walking ahead, was talking to the Crown Prince about something.


    Her legs faltered and she paused for a moment, her lips clenched and she had a tight grip on the hem of her dress.


    All the while, he moved further and further away, never once looking back.


    Julia held onto the wall and lowered her head. The air was so cold that it stung her lungs.


    She looked for a moment at the end of the corridor where Fernan had disappeared. She was the only one left in the empty hallway.


    ***


    The next day, Julia slept through the whole morning.


    asionally, a maid came to wake her up and offered her food, but she never felt like eating anything.


    However, she had to force herself to wake up because the Empress had a tea party in the afternoon.


    "Duchess, you''re looking very pale. Are you sure you don''t want me to call the doctor?"


    To the maids concerned question, Julia nodded, meaning that she was fine.


    Her face, bloodless and pale, looked exactly like the patient. It was no wonder that her maid was constantly worried about her.


    During the three days stay in the capital, Julia''s official itinerary was only the tea parties and dinners hosted by the Empress.


    After dressing up, she dragged her tired body to the Central Pce.


    It was there that she encountered apletely unexpected person.


    "Julia! Why didnt you call me when you came to the capital!"


    Marchioness Elody Was happy and embraced Julia as soon as she got close. Julia''s face gradually hardened.


    There was no way that the Marchioness would miss the tea party where the capital''s nobledies gathered, but she was too preupied to overlook it.


    Julia sighed quietly and forced her lips to part.


    "How have you been, mother?"


    "That mansion got lonely without you. I dont know how much your father misses you too."


    "Yes


    "How have you been? Are you feeling well?


    The Marchioness took Julia''s hand in hers and caressed her affectionately. She seemed to be a kind mother who was concerned about her daughter''s well-being.


    The sight of the Marchioness, whom Julia hadn''t seen in a long time, made her feel horrified. Julia finally answered with a smile that did note out.


    "Yes, please don''t worry.


    She felt the same way about herself as she replied to the Marchionesss performance. Julia sat down in front of the tea table, mocking herself helplessly.


    The gazes of the nobledies poured in like a burden. She was the wife of Grand Duke Caesar, the most powerful man in the empire today. She was enough to be the focus of many people''s attention.


    "Um, how long is the Grand Duchess nning to stay in the capital?"


    "I will be here for about three days, including today."


    "It''s a pity, I was expecting her to stay all the way until National Day. The Grand Duke has always been a very busy man, so I suppose it can''t be helped."


    The noblewomen were tantly kind in order to curry Julia''s favor.


    She felt a bit bitter even though she felt Fernan''s presence was great.


    <i>It won''t do any good to look good to me.</i>


    Julia listened and half-listened to the formal conversation. When the tea party was over, Julia stood up to hurry back. But the Marchionesss gentle voice caught her feet.


    "Julia, how would you like to stop by the house before you leave the capital?"


    As Julia faltered and did not answer easily, a meaningful smile appeared on the Marchionesss face.


    "I heard from the Empress that you are free for the entire four days, with the exception of the evening party the day after tomorrow?"


    " Yes."


    Julia could not help but agree, and the Marchioness smiled and raised herself up. She took Julia gently by the arm and said.


    "Come with the Grand Duke. All right?"


    "I''ll go alone. He has a lot of work"


    "Julia."


    The marchioness held Julia''s wrists with great effort. There was a familiar rejection in her tight touch.


    "Be sure to take the Duke with you. You can do that much, can''t you?"


    Julia remained silent and avoided replying, and soon gave a weary sigh.


    She was no match for the marchioness anyway. The Marchioness was a great woman who would not give in until Julia gave her the answer she wanted.


    "Ill ask him."


    "Yes, I''ll make arrangements, expecting you''lle with him."


    The Marchioness smiled brightly as if nothing had happened and patted the back of Julia''s hand.


    Julia walked out of the parlor, stroking her forehead. A deep sigh escaped from her naturally.


    "His Highness will be out for a while. Why don''t youe inside and wait for him?


    As she was loitering in front of Fernans bedroom door for a while, one of the servants approached and spoke to Julia.


    Do you know when he will be back?"


    "I don''t know that much. But he went out early this morning, so he will probably be back soon."


    Julia nodded. It seemed to be a good thing that she hade to visit him in thete afternoon on purpose.


    Still, it seemed impolite to enter a room where the master was not present, so she stood still, and the servant, who understood what she meant, opened the door with a polite gesture.


    Julia stood at the door, inadvertently stepping inside.


    She was worried that Fernan would be angry that she hade in without permission. Julia thought sadly, but the servant who had just opened the door came into the room with tea and refreshments.


    "It''s chamomile tea. It has the effect of stabilizing the mind and body. I know it''s rude, but Your Highness looks a little tired."


    The servant put the teacup down on the table. With her little consideration, the feeling of being stuck in the mud seemed to be getting a little better.


    "Thank you. I''ll take it."


    The servant blushed when Julia showed her a small smile, and after a quick greeting, she disappeared.


    Julia drank the offered tea and looked at the disy cab on the wall. Fernan did not appear even after the teacup was empty.


    Julia looked out the window. It was early evening and quite dark outside.


    She wondered when he woulde back.


    She thought she was used to sitting still, but today she felt more tired than usual.


    In the meantime, Fernan was having a meeting in the Crown Prince''s audience room.


    He wanted Fernand to take charge of the defense of the entire capital for this National Day festival.


    In other words, he wanted him to guard that area while the Emperor made his way around the square for the parade.


    "I don''t know why you would ask me to do this for the Imperial Guard."


    Fernan stared at the Crown Prince with an expressionless face. The deception that was in full view in front of him was not a simple matter.


    Their intention was for the war hero, Grand Duke Caesar, to take the initiative to protect the Emperor.


    In this way, they could build a solid image of the imperial family.

 Chapter 5

    Chapter 5


    "Isn''t the Grand Duke also a member of the Imperial Family? We can''t leave the protection of His Majesty''s safety to a single knightly order."


    Fernan looked pityingly at the Crown Prince who was insistently persuading him. It was the same for both the emperor and his son to try to put pressure on him in this way. Being annoying seemed to be hereditary, too.


    Well, then, please consider it positively, Grand Duke.


    Fernan left the reception room, ignoring the Crown Prince''sst words. He felt bad because the meeting had gone longer than expected.


    Returning home, he immediately took off his uniform and strode to the dressing room.


    Then he suddenly felt a strange presence and stopped and turned his head. A small person lying on the couch came straight into his field of vision.


    Fernan squinted and approached the sofa. Through her disheveled light brown hair, he could see the face of a woman who was asleep.


    Ha.


    Fernan, who confirmed that the woman was Julia, let out a smallugh.


    What on earth was she up to in a room without the master? He stared down at Julia, his brow furrowed.


    Seeing her sleeping peacefully, he felt annoyed for a moment, but also distracted.


    Clicking his tongue lightly, Fernan took a quick look around the room. He didn''t see anything particrly disruptive.


    As he was prowling around, his gaze fell on the teacup on the table. He was getting even more speechless seeing that she even drank tea in that situation.


    Fernan crossed his arms and stared at Julias pale face for a while.


    Then, suddenly, he tilted his head lightly with a questionable look.


    He didn''t notice at first because of her shallow breathing, but her breathing was rather irregr. A cold sweat on her white forehead caught his eyes.


    She was not just asleep. She was sick.


    Fernan, who was pondering with an expressionless face, quickly slipped out of the bedroom.


    ****


    Julia woke up slowly with a throbbing headache. Her blue eyes, half open, were dazed and wet.


    She rolled over and crawled under the covers, her dazed eyes fluttering.


    Then suddenly her eyes opened wide and she sat up quickly. It was because she realized that this was not her ce.


    "Are you up?"


    A low voice sounded in her ears. Julia looked in the direction of the sound and opened her mouth slightly.


    " Your Highness?


    She caught sight of Fernan sitting in the recliner in front of the firece, looking at her.


    She tried to remember what happened with a puzzled look on her face. Obviously, she was sitting on the couch, waiting for him to return. Then, she got a little sleepy and.


    <i>Did I just crawl into his bed in my sleep? </i>Julia''s lips quivered in panic.


    "Your Highness, it''s"


    "The physician said youre sick.


    Intercepting her words, Fernan ced the papers in his hand on the table. His silent eyes, not a speck of light, slowly swept through her.


    "Physician?"


    It was then that Julia was taken aback when she discovered the medicine on the small table.


    She had been feeling sluggish for a long time, but she didn''t think she was sick. Julia parted her lips cautiously.


    "Um, thank you His Highness called for the physician, didn''t he?"


    Fernan didn''t reply, just thumped the handle on the side of his chair. Unsure of the meaning of the silence, Julia fidgeted awkwardly with the bed sheets.


    Soon Fernan got up and walked to the bed. Standing with his back to the moonlight, he stared at Julia''s face.


    "Now tell me. What was your reason for sneaking into my room?"


    "what?"


    "I''m sure you didn''te here to demonstrate that you''re sick.


    His shadow hung heavily over the bed. He frowned as if he was trying to see through Julia''s intentions.


    Julia flinched briefly at the chill and replied hesitatingly.


    "Your Highness, I''ve been waiting to tell you something"


    Slurring her words, Julia immediately held her gaze which was being shaken.


    She didnt know why Fernan was being so cold to her, but she didn''t want to shrink and be afraid of him.


    Fernan lifted one eyebrow at the quiet voice. Julia sped her hands tightly and continued speaking.


    "I''m sorry I came in here without permission. But Your Highness and I are married.


    ""


    "I don''t think you need to be so wary of me."


    Her voice trembled slightly. Julia looked up at Fernan with a nervous face.


    His face seemed to be slowly distorting, and soon a light sneer ran across his lips.


    Yes, you''re right


    " Ah!"


    He lightly pushed Julia''s shoulders andid her down on the bed. Leaning over the bed, Fernan whispered as he stared at her frozen body beneath him.


    "Come to think of it, we haven''t had our wedding night yet, have we?"


    His long fingers grazed her hair and soon touched the front of her messy dress.


    If you wish, I can do it now.


    He slowly untied the silk ribbon at Julia''s chest. His gaze remained fixed on her.


    Julia held her breath and stared up at him as he got closer.


    But she could not see any heat or desire in his face.


    He wasnt showing any momentary lust now, nor was he trying to do his duty as a husband.


    It was just the obvious attitude of trying to find out her reaction.


    Fernan, who was staring at the stiffened Julia, twisted one side of his mouth.


    "I don''t understand why you have that look. Isn''t this what you wanted when you talked to me about being married?"


    His cool voice, feigning kindness, seeped into Julia''s ears.


    His coldness chilled her all the way to the inside of her head.


    "I just wanted to say something, that''s all. I didn''te here hoping for something like this.."


    Julia, who was murmuring embarrassingly, breathed out. Suddenly, a stabbing pain came in her head.


    Her long eyshes trembled as she gasped for breath.


    Julia continued to speak through the pain.


    If you have time.. I want to ask if His Highness would like to visit my parents'' house with me. From my mother, please."


    Her vision was blurry for a moment. The Fernan in her gaze was greatly perturbed.


    Julia, who was looking up at him with blurry eyes, immediately pushed his solid chest out weakly.


    Contrary to her expectation that he would not move slightly, he simply stood up. Soon the huge shadow that had surrounded her disappeared.


    "Ill be on my way"


    After lifting herself up and getting out of bed, Julia stumbled and fell on the carpet. It was difficult to keep her bnce because of the headache.


    She sighed heavily as she held her head up, and then she pushed with her hands on th floor to stand up.


    Fernan, who had been staring at her up and down several times, frustratedly swept his hair.


    Then he picked up Julia, who was sitting on the floor, at once.


    "You stay here. I''ll leave.


    In a somber voice, Fernan put Julia down on the bed, then stepped toward the door. Perhaps it was because her mind was wandering. Fernans face seemed somehow more subtle.


    It was as if he had made a mistake.


    Julia gazed nkly at his back as he moved away, and soon closed her eyes.


    ***


    The next afternoon, a rattling carriage pulled out of the pce.


    Entering the city center, the carriage traveled along the square and soon entered the Mare district where the mansions were clustered. Julia looked out the window, basking in the warmth of the sun, and then turned her gaze to the other side.


    In the seat in front of her, Fernan was sitting with his arms crossed and his eyes closed.


    Julia looked at him for a moment with a confused expression.


    In the morning, when she woke up in his bed, Julia remembered the previous day''s troubles and was in a mixed mood.


    When she came out of his bedroom in such a depressed mood, she heard Fernans words through his servant.


    <b><i>Grand Duchess, His Highness said he would apany you to see the Marquis after he finished his morning work.</i></b>


    <b><i>His Highness said that?</i></b>


    Julia couldn''t help but be surprised. She didnt expect him to do what she asked. She was forced to ask under pressure from the Marchioness, but unlike herself, Fernan had a tightly packed schedule. She was told that he had no time to rest during his stay in the capital due to the many meetings for the approaching Founding Day celebration Festival but most importantly, he was so cold towards her yesterday.


    She was even a little confused why such a man made his time for her. Julia looked at him as if she were observing him, unable to hide her wonder.


    At that moment, his eyes, which had been closed, slowly opened.


    "Oh, I''m sorry."


    Thinking that she had snooped, she apologized reflexively, but Fernan didn''t say anything. After already making eye contact with her, he opened his mouth in a low voice.


    "Is your body okay now?"


    Julia, whose eyes widened, nodded nkly.


    " Yes, I''m fine."


    Fernan''s gaze immediately dropped at her reply. The figure beside him, turning his head to look out the window, was as insensitive as usual.


    But was it an illusion? Fernan seemed to care a little about her.


    Julia lowered her head with a subtle expression and bit her lips slightly. She felt a little strange.

 Chapter 6

    Chapter 6


    "Your Highness, I''m so touched to see you here when youre so busy.


    Marquis Elody greeted the Grand Duke and his wife with a bright smile. The servants also formed a long line and bowed to them.


    "We cannot stay long, as we have an itinerary. Please understand."


    Fernan replied in a superior but polite manner and then entered the mansion.


    The Marchioness came out into the main hallte and greeted Fernan.


    "Wee, Grand Duke. I''m afraid Ive bothered the busy man.


    "And yet, you still asked me toe, knowing that I am busy."


    When Fernan replied without sincerity, the Marchionesss face distorted slightly. However, she immediately regained her unconcerned smile, and continued to speak smoothly.


    "It''s a shame that we can''t provide you with a meal when you''re here. How would you like to enjoy a tea party under our patronage instead?"


    Due to the itinerary, they had to be back at the Imperial Pce before the evening was over.


    The Marquis stroked his goatee as he continued to speak.


    "My knights are in the middle of field training, it would be an honor for them if the Grand Duke could attend."


    After he finished speaking, he turned his gaze to Julia, who stood beside Fernan.


    "Julia, show the Grand Duke around the mansion. We''ll call for you when the tea party is ready."


    At her fathers suggestion, Julia nced at Fernan. He was standing there uninterested, but nodded as if to tell her to take the lead.


    As she walked up the stairs with him, Julia felt a little strange.


    This mansion was the ce of her childhood, riddled with pain and scars.


    It was a ce she never wanted to return to again, but being with Fernan made her feel secure somehow.


    Perhaps it was because she was a little excited that he gave up his time for her.


    "This is a collection of portraits."


    Julia led him into the gallery and looked around at the paintings on the walls in turn.


    This was where the portraits of the Marquis and his family hang. It was the most borately decorated gallery in the mansion by the Marquis.


    It was also a ce where Julia had never been allowed to set foot in as a child.


    She turned her head away, as it seemed to bring back bad memories, and found Fernan stopped in front of one of the paintings.


    Ah, thats


    The painting he was looking at was a portrait of the young Julia. She was sitting expressionlessly.


    Despite the Marchionesss objection, Julias portrait had been hanging here for a long time. It was for the purpose of staging it to show to the guests visiting the mansion. Fernan stared at Julia''s portrait for a long time, not even looking at the other paintings.


    Julia looked at his profile suspiciously, and before she knew it, she was in a delicate mood.


    The Julia depicted in the portrait was around thirteen years old. It was around that time that she had first met Fernan.


    <i>Could it be that he remembers me?</i>


    A faint feeling of anticipation swelled in Julia''s heart. But Fernan didn''t say anything, he just stared at the picture. Julia kept her mouth tightly shut and remained silent.


    "Very well. Let''s leave now."


    "I heard that there are some works by famous artists in the other rooms. Would you like to see them?"


    At her words, Fernan finally took off his gaze from the painting and stared at Julia.


    He immediately exited the gallery, as if he had no more business there. Hastily following him, Julia touched her cheek, which for some reason had be hot.


    When they returned to the main hall, the servant told them that the tea party was ready. On their way to the patronage together, Julia opened her mouth cautiously.


    "Your Highness, thank you for taking time out of your busy schedule toe with me today."


    Fernan nodded without replying. There was an unusual soft glow in his eyes as they caught the sunlight.


    Julia gave a small lift to both ends of her mouth and moved her floating feet lightly.


    "There you are. Please have a seat.


    When they arrived at the patronage, the Marquis, who had arrived earlier, led them to their seats.


    In a corner of the vast garden, a dozen knights were training.


    After talking about the training methods of the knights for a while, the Marquis quickly changed the subject by talking about his own business.


    "So, I''ve expanded my business for a while now. If the Grand Duke is interested


    Fernan kept his face rudely uninterested the whole time.


    The Marquis was always an overbearing and scary father to Julia, but this was the only moment he seemed insignificant.


    It was frustrating for the Marquis to not be able to talk to Fernan when there was hardly any responseing back.


    Surprised at herself for thinking so, Julia fell silent.


    After a while, the Marquis suddenly turned to her and asked,


    "Oh, Julia. Will you follow me for a moment? I bought some essories and dresses for you. I don''t know if you''ll like them."


    The Marquis made a gentle smile and nced at Fernans direction.


    Fernan didn''t show any reaction and just watched the knights training.


    With his approval, the Marquis stepped out of his patronage and led Julia in a small, secluded room.


    He looked around and immediately got to the point.


    "How has the Grand Duke beentely? Have you noticed any signs of suspicious behavior?"


    Suspicious?"


    When Julia did not understand the meaning of the question, the Marquis added, frowning in frustration.


    "In particr, does he seem to be wandering around outside or meeting with women from the outside?


    Julia''s eyes gradually widened. She had never thought about it that way before. But when she heard the Marquiss words, she thought it wasnt impossible.


    Even though they had been married for many moons, he still seemed unwilling to spend their wedding night.


    Julia fell silent with aplicated look on her face and continued to speak as the Marquis urged her on.


    "Why havent you answered?"


    Julia finally shook her head.


    "I don''t know much about that. I only know that hes busy. ."


    "Ha, what the hell are you doing at the mansion? You should know where your husband is and what he''s doing."


    The Marquis frowned and shouted. Julia flinched and fell silent.


    The Marquis, who clicked his tongue as if he didn''t even like the sight of her, continued to speak.


    "Did you use the medicine I gave youst time?"


    ""


    Julia thought of the medicine the Marquis had given her the day he visited the Grand Duke''s castle. It was somehow suspicious, so she put it on the shelf and forgot all about it since then.


    "Not yet"


    "Why in the world are you waiting so long? Do I have to shove it directly into the Grand Duke''s mouth? You don''t know what you can do by yourself, do you?


    The Marquis''s loud voice continued for a while. Julia endured her father''s words silently.


    The Marquis, who had finally managed to calm down, sighed for a long time and then opened his mouth.


    "Julia, listen to me carefully.


    He was at a loss as to where to begin teaching and telling this innocent and dim-witted girl.


    The Marquis decided it would work better to threaten her as he always did.


    "You have not forgotten what I had told you many times, have you? If your marriage to the Grand Duke does not work out, you will no longer be my daughter.


    The Marquis continued to speak with a tone of sneer.


    "If you don''t want to rot for the rest of your life, abandoned like your own mother, you will have a child by any means necessary!


    Julia''s hands flinched. Not because she was frightened by the Marquis'' threatening words, but because of the difort that filled her heart.


    Every time she was told to have children somehow, she felt like she was a livestock, and she was distressed. She wanted to cover her ears right away, but there was nothing she could do but lower her head.


    "I know very well that the Grand Duke is not a kind man to you. Even in front of His Majesty.


    The Marquis clicked his tongue in annoyance. He had already experienced a few times what a terrible man Fernan was.


    Long before the wedding with Julia was decided, by order of the Emperor, a woman was secretly sent to Fernan''s bed.


    The woman was a countess. She was a well-known woman who remained a widow after losing her husband.


    If it was revealed that he had slept with such a woman, no matter how tough he might have been, his impable reputation was bound to be damaged.

 Chapter 7

    Chapter 7


    Of course, rumors were just rumors. The Marquis was well aware of how messy the beautiful Countess was living.


    That was why she epted the crazy proposal.


    Moreover, Fernan had just returned from the war, and the Marquis was sure that he would not be able to control his desire.


    But how did he react?


    That night was the day of the victory party, and Fernan had drunk a lot of alcohol to match the mood of the party.


    At midnight, he returned to his bedroom and saw the Countess lying naked on the bed and immediately grabbed the servants in charge of his room.


    They were all fired for letting an outsider into the residence of the Grand Duke, and when it became known, the Countess put an end to her social life altogether.


    Well, in the end, it was a good thing for the Marquis, because the job was never done and he was able to get Julia married to the Grand Duke.


    However, the Marquis was terribly worried because that disproportionately solid man seemed to be putting up walls even to his wife Julia.


    <b><i>I don''t think I''ll ever have a baby with the Marquis''sdaughter. Every time I look at her, I see her fathers image and I can''t function. So what can I do?</i></b>


    The Marquis frowned darkly as he thought of the words Fernan had said to him that day.


    If Fernan threw Julia out and got a second wife.


    The Marquis gritted his teeth and recited, as if he was dizzy just thinking about it.


    "If he can''t move his body, I can use drugs to force him to perform his duty like a man.


    At such a murmur from the Marquis, Julia quietly raised her downward gaze. Her face grew paler and paler.


    "No matter how stone-like a man he is, if he drinks that potion, he''ll turn into a beast."


    "What.?


    Only then did Julias mouth slowly open as she realized what the medicine was.


    She couldn''t believe that her father had given such a horrible thing to her without a second thought.


    Julia''s hands began to tremble faintly. It made her extremely anxious to think that such a drug was in her room.


    Noticing her uneasy feelings, the Marquis whispered quietly.


    "Don''t think about it and follow my words. That''s how you, me, and our family will live."


    The Marquis''s unpleasant voice continued.


    "I''ll get you all the medicine you need. All you have to do is use it to coax the Grand Duke. Do you understand?"


    The Marquis put his hands to Julia''s shoulders and squeezed her as if to force her to respond.


    Facing her father''s vicious face straight on, she closed her eyes tightly and bowed her head.


    The Marquis satisfied with her inaudible answer and took his hand away sufficiently.


    Yes, now that is my daughter.


    After lightly tapping Julia''s shoulder, the Marquis turned around and added.


    "You should return to the patronage. If you''re away for too long, he might think it''s strange.


    After the Marquis disappeared, Julia stood still, holding her trembling hands. The shock just wouldnt go away.


    She couldnt believe she had to give her husband drugs to make him a beast.


    Julia forced her trembling steps to return to the patronage.


    When she appeared, Fernan, who had been sitting at the tea table watching the knights train, averted his gaze. Her nervousness only grew as her eyes met his. Julia let out a long sigh inwardly.


    She was raised to be a dutiful daughter. The person who had the most direct influence on her life was the Marquis; he was the one who controlled her life with a single word.


    But this time, for once, she couldn''t follow her father''s words. She didn''t want to hurt Fernan.


    She wanted to have a rtionship with him where they cared for each other, not one where she had to force to have it.


    "Shall we leave now?


    Fernan asked in a low voice. Her heart ached greatly at the sight of his insensitive appearance as always.


    ***


    Theirst day at the Imperial Pce went smoothly.


    It took them half a day to reach the Grand Ducal Pce in the evening, when the sun was beginning to set.


    Julia refused the steward who offered her dinner and immediately went to her room.


    The maid, Melissa, who was waiting near the room, weed her with a bright smile.


    "Grand Duchess, how was your trip? Are you tired?"


    "Yes, have you been well?


    "Of course. Would you like to change your dress first?"


    "Please."


    After changing into her indoor dress with Melissa''s help, Julia came out to the bedroom and checked the shelf. She looked for a storage box that she put at the bottom of the shelf. The box contained the medicine bottle and the letters from the Marquis.


    "What?"


    Julia''s face turned pale for a moment as she hurriedly took out the storage box. It was because the storage box, which was locked tightly with a key, was open.


    She urgently checked inside, but it was empty. There was nothing inside.


    "Um, Melissa Did you sort out the stuff in here?"


    Julia asked in a shaky voice, and Melissa, who was making her bed, tilted her head.


    No, I didn''t touch that locker. What''s going on? Did something go missing?


    If Melissa didnt touch it, one of the other maids might have.


    After calmly closing her locker, Julia turned to Melissa and asked.


    Melissa, could you please go get the maids who cleaned this room?


    Oh, yes! I''ll be right back.


    When Melissa left, Julia paced back and forth in the same ce anxiously.


    The Marquis''s letters were mostly just about her well-being, so there was no particr problem if anyone read it. The medicine, however, was.


    She sighed loudly and tried to calm herself down.


    Soon after, Melisa came back into the room with some maids.


    Your Highness, I have brought the maids who have been cleaning your bedchamber for the past few days.


    The maids looked at Julia and bowed their heads. They looked puzzled as if they didn''t know why they were called.


    "Have any of you organized the locker under the shelf while cleaning my room?"


    Julia said in a calm tone. She didn''t want to be unnecessarily suspicious in a situation where she wasn''t sure.


    The servants shook their heads and quickly answered one by one.


    "There''s no way servants like us dare to touch your things


    "Ive seen the locker when I cleaned the shelf, but I didnt organize the contents."


    The faces of the servants looked uniformly innocent. After pondering for a while, Julia nodded and dismissed them.


    There were jewels and gold that they could steal, so there was no way they would steal an unidentified medicine bottle, or just some letters.


    So who would have done it?


    "Your Highness.


    The maids who had just slipped out of Julias room bowed in surprise. Turning her head, Julias eyes widened when she saw Fernan standing at the door.


    "Your Highness


    Fernan walked past the maids and entered the room. The servants closed the door with some concern and then disappeared elsewhere.


    As he approached Julia, he asked her with an expressionless face.


    What were you doing?"


    Oh, I asked the maids about something"


    A hint of bewilderment shed across Julia''s face. She had no idea why he suddenly came to visit her.


    Fernan looked around the room slowly, then turned his gaze to Julia again.


    "I think you were looking for something.


    "what?"


    Are you, by any chance, looking for this?"


    Julia''s mouth slowly opened. What was in Fernans hand was that medicine bottle she had been looking for all along.


    "Why


    Julia''s eyes wavered aimlessly as she stared at the medicine bottle. Fernan stared at her and frowned coldly.


    "That''s what you wanted to ask them.


    He moved closer to Julia.


    "Why did you have this?"


    Julia''s lips quivered. She had to tell him. She didn''t know what kind of medicine it was and she was going to throw it away.


    But the words didn''te out. They just lingered in her mouth.


    She couldn''t say anything easily because everything she said now would sound like an excuse.


    Most of all, the look in Fernans eyes was frightening.


    "You always act so innocently as if you dont know anything.


    A calm, yet cold, angry voice descended.


    "I didn''t realize that you had ess to an aphrodisiac for your husband.


    A cold smile passed over Fernans lips.


    It was only for a brief moment, but his mood was terribly tainted by being swept away by this woman.

 Chapter 9

    Chapter 9


    Fernan did not return to the castle much any more.


    He was away often but always came back. However, this time, he stayed out longer. The servants began to whisper that Julia was the reason he had not returned.


    Julia''s heart fell endlessly amidst all the negativity surrounding her.


    She felt like everything was going awry with her.


    But she had no idea how to untangle the intricate knot between Fernan and her.


    Grand Duchess, you said you were going out today?"


    Melissa looked around at the clothes in the dressing room while all Julia could do was sigh.


    "Yes, I''m going to look around the garden in the backyard."


    Julia replied cheerfully, and Melissa continued in a lively voice.


    "Then itd be better to wear a dress that is a little shorter in length. There''s always the possibility of getting dirt on your dress!"


    "Yes. I''ll do that."


    Julia looked at Melissa and struggled to lift her lips. Melissa was the only person in this castle who was kind to her.


    Whenever she was feeling down, Melissa would act lively and relieve her mood.


    If it hadn''t been for Melissa, there would have been no one to force her tough or interact with in this big castle.


    "Well, have a nice day!


    Julia nodded and headed for the backyard of the main castle. Lately she had been trying to work up to a busy routine of her own.


    Sitting still was causing her to feel endlessly depressed, so she was desperately trying to find something to do.


    Eventually, Julia arrived at the garden and looked around.


    Thend was barren in this garden, which had no fixed manager, and it was hard to see with weeds growing everywhere.


    Winter was approaching soon, so it was somewhat impossible to nt new nts and trees. Preupied, Julia returned to the castle and called her butler, Bet.


    "What do you think about repairing thend and building a greenhouse?


    Until now, Bet had been in charge of all the internal and external affairs of the Grand Duke''s castle. This was because they didnt have a Grand Duchess then.


    Fernan was not very interested in the management of the castle, so he left all the authority to Bet.


    But now that he had a wife, that authority naturally had to revert to Julia.


    But for some reason, Bet hadnt given her the power of internal affairs.


    However, Julia was going to fulfill her duty as a hostess. She wanted to do her part in whatever way she could.


    "Well, the cost of the repair that''s going to go in right now, and it''ll cost a lot of money to hire people."


    However, a disapproving voice flowed from Bet.


    He, who had been managing the castle with his own iron rules, seemed unhappy with Julia''s words.


    Julia continued speaking in a calm voice.


    "I checked the books just in case. The cost of maintaining the castle is very high every year."


    The garden is sometimes used as a training ground for knights. You can''t just repair it, Your Highness.


    Julia couldn''t hide her panicked eyes as he cut her off at once.


    However, she quickly gave a sharp look and nodded her head.


    However, her expression quickly changed and she nodded honestly.


    I didn''t know that.Then the ground is too barren to look at, we can work on ttening and organizing it to make it easier for training.."


    Huhdid you get permission from His Highness the Grand Duke?"


    Bet interrupted her, lifting his sses without hesitation. It was somewhat disrespectful for a superior.


    In the end, Julia blinked, and was speechless for a while.


    Even if she was not in favor, Julia was still the master of this castle.


    Just because Fernan had been cold to her, it didn''t mean that her position would disappear.


    "I''ve heard that you''ve been in charge of the entire integrity of the castle. That''s why I thought I''d discuss it with you, but do I need to mention it separately to Your Highness as well?"


    If she was another noblewoman, she would punch him in the face right now, but Julia tried to cate Bet in a calm tone.


    He was the one who had managed this castle for a long time. So it was right to respect him.


    However, Bet seemed to have no intention of respecting her.


    As you said, the management of the castle is under my jurisdiction, but His Highness said youre stubborn so youll need his permission.


    Julia couldn''t even blink her eyes at his harsh reply and mumbled in a daze.


    "Stubborn? What do you mean.


    "I''m sorry, Your Grace. I''m afraid I''ll have to discuss this separately with His Highness at ater date. I''ll leave you to it then, as Im behind on other tasks.


    Bet greeted her politely and then disappeared elsewhere. Julia watched Bet''s back with a puzzled expression.


    She wasn''t hurt by Bet''s attitude, but she was certain he was rude. In fact, it wasnt just Bet.


    The attitudes of the other servants also began to change significantly from one moment to the next.


    To be precise, it was when Fernan began to tantly ignore her.


    Julia left the garden and entered the main hall. The servants who were looking down at her from the parapet on the second floor began to whisper quietly.


    "Shes been pretty busytely. I hope His Highness will notice.


    Shes desperate to do anything, I guess.


    "Whats the use? It''s already been half a month since His Highness'' return. I don''t know if it''s her fault but she walks around so shamelessly ."


    The whispering continued endlessly, as if they thought Julia couldn''t hear them.


    "But why does His Highness hate her so much?"


    Well, maybe he has a mistress that hes hiding from her.


    The word mistress prated her ears. The giggling and every word spewed out maliciously continued to stab at her heart.


    At this moment, the chaotic atmosphere surrounding her reminded her of her past. It was a lonely ce where not a single person was on her side. It was a ce full of people who condemned her no matter what she did.


    Julia kept her mouth shut and walked in silence. She was used to being treated like this. But still, she couldn''t help but feel choked up.


    ***


    "Your Highness, its been a while. Why don''t you go back to the castle now?"


    Lloyd carefully opened his mouth, reading Fernan''s countenance. Due to Fernan, who has been working too hard recently, the eyes of his subordinates who suffered from overwork were also dark.


    "Don''t talk to me. I''ve got a lot of work to do."


    Fernan was annoyed as he spoke, keeping his eyes on the documents.


    Along with the preparations for the National festival, the demon invasion at the border had taken up much time.


    Recently, even the security in the territory had be hideous, so there were many things to pay attention to.


    Turning away with an embarrassed look on his face, Lloyd returned to his seat. Another long night was waiting.


    What happened to the traffickers we talked aboutst time?"


    Fernan looked up suddenly and asked Lloyd.


    "Oh, yes. We are still investigating. It''s going to take some time, but we should be able to work out a list and breakdown of the transactions soon."


    Marquis Elody and the others involved will be traced, and we will find everything behind them.


    "Yes."


    The drug found in Julia''s room recently was distributed through illegal trade.


    An organization that traffic in strong aphrodisiacs that circte in the Red Lantern District, along with hallucinogenic drugs.


    Many aristocrats secretly used the organization, including, of course, Marquis Elody.


    Fernan intended to root out the traffickers altogether. So the Marquis wouldnt be able to get away with it.


    "The Marquis seemed to be in quite a hurry. How in the world could he be so confident that he wont be caught?


    "He knows very well for himself that hes a card that can be discarded at any time."


    Fernand gave an insignificant answer. As he said, the Marquis was just one of the many cards the Emperor had.


    It was a card that the emperor had attached to Fernan in order to pressure him. However, if the Marquis was not careful, the Emperor would discard him and bring in another one. So the Marquis will have no choice but to do such crazy things without any hesitation. If this marriage goes wrong, it would be a great dismay to his family.


    It seems that His Majesty is also cooperating with the Marquis, so it would be better to keep a close eye on her.


    When Lloyd mentioned Julia, Fernans numb face turned cold in a sh.


    So far she had tried desperately to engage Fernan in a conversation to soothe the situation. His nerves only grew worse every time he saw her constantly hovering near him, whether she was there or not.


    Distracted from his thoughts, Fernan lowered his eyes to the documents again. But the woman''s face, once it flooded his mind, did not disappear as quickly as he would have liked.


    As Julias watery blue eyes came to mind, Fernan eventually put down the document aloud.


    He did not deny that he was momentarily shaken by the woman. He was clearly swept away by the pity, sympathy, and maybe even more trivial emotions he felt when he looked at her.


    This made him even angrier. He felt such ridiculous emotions for a woman who had nothing to fear since she had the Marquis and Emperor on her back.


    And the funny thing was that those subtle feelings were still stuck in a corner of his nerves. The delicate hand that held him wistfully as he left the castle the other day. The look in her eyes as she looked at him as if to say, "Please understand me.


    It was always hard for him to ept it whenever he thought of it.


    Fernan ruffled his neatly trimmed hair. Then his expression hardened even more coldly, as if he had been forced to block out all thoughts.

 Chapter 10

    Chapter 10


    "Melissa, tell me when will he be back?"


    Julia asked Melissa nonchntly as she was working on her hair. Melissa was silent with a troubled look on her face.


    I guess he has a lot of work to do. He always returnste when hes busy."


    "Is that so?"


    Julia let out a small sigh. It''s been almost two months since he left. No matter how much she thought about it, Julia couldn''t get rid of the idea that the reason he hadn''te back for such a long time was because of her.


    "UmYour Grace, what''s the schedule for today?"


    I think I''ll read some books in the study.


    Julia replied grimly. After Bet''s quick rejection of the garden repair, she was unable to find anything more to do.


    And there was no one to invite to tea parties and social gatherings.


    This was because Julia never went to social gatherings before her marriage, and none of them were close to her.


    Most of all, she felt that Fernan might not like it if she spent money to organize a social party without permission.


    So all she could do was to read a book in the study or take a walk around the castle.


    Instead of doing that, why don''t you go out with me to the city? You''ve never been around the territory before."


    Melissa suggested carefully, and a small light appeared in Julia''s eyes.


    True to Melissa''s word, Julia had never properly walked around the estate since they were married.


    "I like it, but Melissa, don''t you have a lot of work to do?"


    "Eh, serving the Grand Duchess is more important than anything else.


    Melissa finished grooming Julias hair with a bright smile. Her hair, loosely braided on both sides and gathered into a single bun, looked good on Julia.


    "Then I''ll call the carriage, I''ll assume you''reing."


    Julia gave a small smile as she watched Melissa leave the room. She was grateful to Melissa for trying to make her feel better.


    It was the first time Julia had ever left the castle. The carriage was headed for the biggest shopping district in the territory.


    Eventually, the carriage came to a stop. As she slowly stepped outside, the first thing she saw was the clock tower in the center.


    Arge fountain was ced around it, and the city was crowded with people sitting on benches and waves of moving people.


    Julia took a deep breath. Just going out like this made her feel lighter.


    "Your Grace, where do you want to go first?"


    Julia pondered for a while, then pointed to a street lined with markets.


    "Shall we go over there?"


    Okay!


    Melissa grabbed her hand. Julia''s eyes filled with warmth as she stared at her linked hands. She had never gone out with a friend before, but this way she felt like she was hanging out with a friend. After walking around for a while, Julia saw a small flower shop. She paused for a moment. Then she stared at the neatly arranged flowers in front of the store.


    She smiled a little as she kept looking at the lilies on one side.


    Her biological mother was the daughter of a merchant who owned a flower shop. Perhaps that was why she was particrly fond of flowers from an early age.


    She lived with her mother until she was about seven years old, but she could hardly remember anything from that time anymore. The one thing she did remember clearly was this lily flower.


    <b><i>"Someday, when you get married, I will make you a bouquet of lilies.</i></b>


    All the other memories were dim, but the words whispered to her in a gentle voice remained clear even after a long time.


    Melissa, who had been watching the pensive Julia, asked her carefully.


    "Since were here, should we buy a bunch of flowers?"


    "No, that''s not necessary"


    But I want to buy them. Come on, let''s go in!"


    Melissa''s momentum pushed Julia into the flower shop, and Julia eventually came out with an armful of flowers.


    It was a beautiful bouquet of white lilies mixed with pink roses.


    "Wow! Let''s go there too!"


    Not stopping there, Melissa quickly led Julia to the other ces. When she saw Melissa enjoying herself like a child, she naturally burst intoughter.


    Every time she walked past a street vendor, the words of the merchants touting their goods were difficult to pass. After purchasing this and that under the influence of words, there were no hands left. Melissa, with her hands full of bags, sighed andined.


    "HuhI should have brought one of the porters with me."


    Here. I''ll carry more.


    "Oh, no, no!


    While she was struggling with Melissa, a wagon approached from the front.


    They hastily ducked inside, but the merchant standing next to the wagon tantly bumped Melissa, who was standing outside.


    "Ah!"


    Dropping all of her bags, Melissa hugged her shoulder. She frowned as if she got hit hard.


    Melissa! Are you okay?"


    "Yes, but the goods are .."


    Melissa whimpered as she saw the items on the floor. Julia carefully raised Melissa''s arm.


    "Don''t worry about it. Are you hurt anywhere?"


    She looked all over Melissa''s body, and before she knew it, the merchant approached.


    Oh, what should I do? Everything is broken.


    The merchantughed as he patted the back of his neck. A terrible smell of alcohol wafted from him.


    The approaching merchant gave Julia and Melissa a creepy look.


    While Julia, sensing resistance, retreated to the side, the merchant popped the wall that was ced behind her.


    The merchant, who had forcibly blocked the way, continued deftly.


    "I''ll make it up to you, will you follow me? Just walk through this alley and you''ll find our store."


    No, there is no need."


    Just as Julia was about to run the other way, the merchant grabbed her wrist firmly with force.


    "Don''t say that, follow me. I think they''re quite expensive."


    The merchant, who scanned Julia up and down,ughed.


    "Hey, let go of this."


    Julia''s face turned pale from the smell of alcohol, and she shook off the merchant''s arm with all her strength, but to no avail.


    Melissa, who had been scared even from a short distance away, gritted her teeth and grabbed the merchant''s arm.


    Somebody help me here!


    A loud noise caused the people who finally noticed the coercive atmosphere and turned their attention to them with a buzz. The merchant, conscious of their gaze, carelessly threw out Julias hand. As a result, Julia fell to the floor.


    "Is it wrong to ignore people when they are trying to show their sincerity with a good heart?"


    The merchant clicked his tongue and staggered away, approaching the wagon.


    And at that moment, a person of the security forces, who rushed to the scene after finding themotion, stood in front of the merchant.


    "What is it! What''s going on!"


    After confirming it was a knight, Julia''s nerves were released and she gasped for breath, holding her shaking hands.


    As she did so, someone kicked the merchant and made him kneel down. The merchant''s head hit the floor as he moaned.


    "Kuh-hah!"


    Julia''s eyes gradually grew bigger as she saw an intimidating man with a sword pointed at the merchant''s neck.


    "Your Highness?"


    Fernan stared at Julia, his eyes narrowed.


    He threw down the messed up merchant and strode towards Julia.


    "What are you doing here?"


    His second-inmand, Lloyd, hurried closer while Fernan looked down at Julia with narrowed eyes.


    Lloyd, who was about to report something, opened his eyes wide when he saw the fallen Julia.


    "Uh Your Highness, I''ll send him to the security."


    Fernan didn''t respond to Lloyd''s words, but kept his eyes on Julia.


    "I asked you what you were doing here?


    "It wasI went out for a while


    Julia answered honestly as she tried to sit up. Her ankle was sprained and she couldnt stand up.


    Fernan red dryly at her.


    "I thought I told you to stay in the bedroom quietly.


    His gaze swept through the objects that had fallen on the floor.


    "Seeing you enjoyed shopping, I guess my words didnt matter.

 Chapter 11

    Chapter 11


    Julia looked up at him withnguid eyes.


    She was still hurt from the fall, but seeing his face she felt relieved.


    Julia opened her mouth in a quiet voice.


    Your Highness, why do you not return to the castle?"


    Fernans eyes narrowed at her words. Julia slumped her shoulders, but continued her words to the end.


    "I know it''s presumptuous of me, but I''m worried about you."


    Fernan, who looked down at her without answering, eventually gave out a smallugh.


    Not only she said she was worried, she also had a painful look in her eyes in this whirlwind.


    Fernan, his forehead crumbled clearly, tried to say something more, but he closed his mouth softly.


    Then he looked at Julia for a moment, and then coldly turned away.


    Returning to the knights ce, Lloyd, who was quietly watching at his side, held out his hand to Julia.


    Are you all right, Grand Duchess?


    "Oh, thank you."


    Julia limped as she barely stood up after Lloyd''s help.


    What is it that makes him leave a fallen person behind like this? Lloyd clicked his tongue at the cruelty of his master.


    Julia, who was hesitating at the sight of Lloyd, asked cautiously.


    Um, Hows His Highness?"


    "Oh, that''s the thing


    Lloyd, who pondered for a while, replied in a roundabout way.


    "Don''t worry, he''s in good health. Hes been busy with his duties, so his return has been dyed."


    I see


    Seeing her sullen, Lloyd somehow felt guilty. He gave an awkward nod, scratching his cheek.


    Now, if you''ll excuse me.


    With those words, Lloyd hurried after Fernan.


    Once themotion died down, the town became quiet again.


    "Your Grace, are you alright? Let me see.


    Melissa, who had been looking at Julia from afar, finally approached her in a hurry. She hurriedly rolled up Julia''s sleeves, revealing her red, swollen wrist.


    "Oh, what should I do? You will surely get bruised Is your ankle okay? Can you walk?"


    I''m sorry. I don''t think I can walk by myself.


    With Melissas support, Julia suddenly turned around.


    All of the items she bought in her excitement a while ago were lying on the floor.


    Melissa hurriedly picked up the fallen items. Julia limped over to pick up a bouquet of flowers, but at that moment, people walked past her, stepping on the flowers in vain.


    Staring at the crumpled petals, Julia retreated her outstretched hand.


    Then she averted her gaze, unable to hide her sad face.


    ***


    Julia sighed as she looked at the bandages wrapped around her ankle. Not only her ankle, but her wrist was bruised with blue color.


    It had been a few days since they went downtown, and these wounds had gotten deeper and deeper.


    There was no decent ce for both hands and feet, so it was impossible to move.


    Julia sat in her chair and looked out the window in a daze. Her mind felt empty.


    How long did she sit like that?


    Suddenly someone opened the door and hurried inside. It was Melissa.


    "Your Grace, His Highness has returned!"


    With her eyes wide opened, Julia rose from her seat.


    Slightly relieved that Fernan had returned, she stepped out into the hallway, assisted by Melissa.


    As she stood on the railing and looked down at the hall, she saw Fernan entering the entrance.


    He walked quickly past the hall and climbed the stairs in a single bound. Julia stood at the end of the stairs and greeted him.


    "Your Highness.


    Fernans gaze rested on her for a moment, then dropped quickly.


    He walked past Julia without a second thought. It was as if she was invisible.


    Julia bit her lips and limped along.


    However, her injured leg could hardly keep up with his stride.


    In the meantime, he went into his room.


    After a while, Julia finally arrived at his room and hesitantly knocked on the door.


    Your Highness, I have something to say.


    She knocked several times, but after a while, she did not hear any response from inside.


    Eventually, Julia let out a small sigh as she slowly backed away.


    "Ha"


    The pain came rushing in all at once, probably because she had forced herself to use her ankle.


    She leaned against the wall and crouched down, gently patting her ankle.


    She didn''t have the strength to stand up. Julia sat like that for a while, with her head resting against the wall.


    After some time like that, she finally heard the sound of the door opening.


    Julia leaned her head back and her eyes met Fernans, who was staring at her.


    "Um, Your Highness.


    Julia hurriedly stood up. She grabbed Fernans hand, afraid that he would leave again.


    "don''t go. I''d like to talk to you for a moment."


    Fernans eyes looking at her were unfathomably deep and dark.


    The momentum was a little frightening, but Julia couldn''t let go of his hand.


    Eventually, Fernan shook off her wrist.


    At that moment, the pain that prated her wrist made Julia scream involuntarily.


    "Ah!"


    Frowning, Fernan reflexively averted his gaze. Then he stared at the bright blue bruise on her wrist.


    His eyes flinched subtly for a moment, but they didn''tst long.


    Immediately he relentlessly turned away again and walked down the hallway.


    Er, wait a minute.


    Julia tried to keep up with him as he moved away, but soon fell down.


    A sobbing sound escaped her as she forced herself to walk and her ankle seemed to break.


    "Hichic.


    She couldn''t move any further because of the pain. She was so sad that she had to follow him but things weren''t going the way she wanted them to.


    Her tears were about to burst out, but Julia put pressure on her brow and tried to hold back her tears.


    At that moment, the sound of distant footsteps approached again.


    "you''re doing all sorts of things."


    She heard a muffled whisper. Lifting her head, Fernan was back before she knew it, standing there biting his lip.


    He bent toward her, who was slumped over. He stiffly picked her up.


    The position of his embrace brought his face closer to hers. Julia looked at him, her eyes moistening.


    Fernan began to walk silently without looking at her.


    A, thank you .."


    Muttering softly, Julia looked up at him nkly, wondering.


    She thought he left her mercilessly, so she couldn''t help but wonder why he came back again.


    As usual, his expression was cold without a trace of warmth.


    But his touch was warmer than she expected, and the hands that held her were careful. The close gap between them was unfamiliar but pleasing without speed.


    Your Highness, I''mI''m"


    Julia opened her mouth again as her heart raced and she caught her breath.


    "I have never once thought of harming Your Highness. I''m sure I never will."


    ""


    "That aphrodisiac back thenIts my mistake. Your Highness was right to misunderstand


    "You seem to be mistaken."


    A voice that sank indifferently interrupted her words.


    "I''m not misunderstanding you."


    ""


    "If you want to know the reason for my attitude, Ill tell you."


    Fernand looked at her with emotionless eyes.


    "I did not want to have you as my wife from the beginning. That''s my reason.


    Fernan''s words pierced her heart. Julia, who was staring at him endlessly, eventually dropped her eyes.


    His words were painful, and nothing could hurt more.


    The pain was worse than when she was beaten and cursed.


    Julia said in a trembling voice, her reddened eyes shook.


    Still, I think that His Highness is ."


    ""


    I liked you from the beginning."


    Fernan looked down at her as he stopped walking.


    Julia raised her eyes again and made eye contact with him. Her tearful voice continued.


    "I love you and I don''t want to be far away. I don''t want to get hurt."


    A trickle of tears fell from her blue eyes.


    Julia raised a trembling hand and brought it to his face. However, the hand that failed to reach him hovered vaguely in the air.


    She always wanted to touch him. She wanted to look him in the eye at such a close distance and talk softly to him.


    She liked this man from the beginning.


    He was the kind man who held out his hand to her like a light in a dark room long ago. The gentle voice that told her not to cry because he would be with her.


    For Julia, this man remained such a warm memory.


    From the moment she met him again, she fell in love with him all over again, vainly.


    She loved this strong man who seemed to fear nothing. She liked that he seemed to be from a world so different from hers.


    And even though he hurt her so much, Julia couldn''t hate him very much. Even if it was stupid and pathetic, she couldn''t help but fell for him.


    Fernan looked down at her for a moment with an unknown expression. Then he quickly shifted his gaze and trudged on.


    Fernan walked past the hallway and into her room, where he set her down on the bed and quickly turned away.


    A tremendous voice came from him.


    Your heart is of no use to me, not even an inch.


    Again he moved away.


    Her heart ached again at the sight of his back, which she had seen enough of.

 Chapter 12

    Chapter 12


    Julia sat alone in therge carriage and looked out the window.


    The celebration of the Nation Establishment would be held in three days, and Julia was on her way to the capital early at the call of the Empress.


    Lately, the Grand Duchy has been cumbersome due to the demons that have invaded its borders.


    Fernan''s journey to the capital was somewhat dyed, and Julia could not go with him.


    Julia''s eyes gleamed sadly as she stared at the empty seat in front of her.


    After such a long time, Julia arrived at the Imperial Pce and was led inside by a servant.


    When she entered the reception room of the Central Pce, the Empress, who was sitting there beforehand, greeted her with a bright smile.


    "Wee, you must be tired from the long travel.


    Empress. Don''t worry, I had afortable journey.


    Julia sat down at the tea table and faced the Empress. Unlike the emperor, who seemed somewhat ufortable, the Empress was a person who made others feel at ease.


    The Crown Princess, who was also present, was a honest andpassionate person, so Julia quickly adapted to the asion.


    "By the way, I am concerned that the Grand Duchess seems to be thinner than thest time I saw her."


    Veronica, the Crown Princess, opened her mouth cautiously. Julia tried her best to smile.


    "My health hasn''t been goodtely. But It''s nothing to worry about.


    "I see. I hope this is not too much for you.


    Veronica smiled softly. She was wearing a loose maternity dress with her dazzling blonde hair hanging to one side.


    She was in her fifth month of pregnancy, and her face was bright and full of happy spirit.


    "How about you and Veronica join me for evening mass? At present, there are priests staying at the Imperial Pce to pray for pregnant women.


    The Empress spoke softly, and Veronica nodded, pping her hands.


    "Do so! I will ask the priest to bless the Grand Duchess'' health.


    "No, I can''t bother the priests who came for the Crown Princess.


    "Don''t even think about it. You are also a member of our imperial family."


    The Empress smiled benevolently and rmended it again. Eventually, Julia nodded and thanked her. The small tea party continued in a peaceful and harmonious atmosphere.


    This was the only time that Julia, who had fallen into a serious depression at the Dukes mansion, was able to put her mind at ease.


    In the evening, Julia went with Veronica to the temple for mass. Once they were inside, the priests were seen kneeling on the podium.


    They were glowing from the sunlight permeated through the stained ss windows .


    "Priest Matheus.


    Veronica quietly called the priest. The man sitting in the middle of the priests slowly turned his head. He had silver hair, almost white.


    Wee, Princess Veronica!


    He looked at Veronica for a moment, then quickly turned his gaze toward Julia.


    His quiet eyes wavered calmly.


    "This is Grand Duchess Caesar. I brought her here to attend Mass with me."


    "I see.


    He looked at Julia with a deep gaze and quickly changed his words lightly.


    "Mass will be starting soon, so please take afortable seat."


    Sitting in a long row of seats, Julia watched the priests draw the cross sign. Soon the priests stood in front of the altar and proceeded with the beginning ritual.


    Julia stared quietly at Matheus as he delivered the lecture. His voice was gentle and serious, soothing.


    When Matheus recited a prayer for the rite, a priest brought a silverware containing holy water.


    May peace and stability be with the mother and unborn child.


    Matheus raised his hand over Veronica''s head and sprinkled the holy water.


    He recited the congrattory text in a quiet tone, and slowly opened his eyes. He then nodded to Julia to tell her toe forward.


    Julia stood in front of the altar and closed her eyes.


    May the blessings of God be with you always.


    The holy water flowed down along Julia''s hair. Apparently, his voice seemed to seep slowly into her heart.


    Have we meet before?


    He asked in a quiet tone. Julia blinked her round eyes absentmindedly.


    Oh, no this is the first time I''ve seen you"


    "I see. I made a slip of the tongue."


    Smiling softly, Matheus wrapped up the blessing ceremony.


    Somehow Matheus seemed to know her. But no matter how much Julia thought about it, her encounter with him did not exist in her memory.


    Julia felt strange and looked back at him.


    ***


    Fernan arrived in the capital in time for the day of the festival.


    The Emperor''s parade in the morning was eventually escorted by the Imperial Knights.


    After the parade was safely over, the attendants hurriedly prepared for the banquet in the Central Pce. Hearing the news that Fernan had arrived, Julia hurried down to the main hall on the first floor.


    She was dressed in a dark green dress, and the people kept ncing at her.


    The elegant dress with dark goldce decorating the neckline


    made her look even more stunning than usual.


    Your Grace, you''re here.


    While Julia was loitering in the hall for a while, someone called out to her. She met him downtown the other day.


    It was Fernans aide.


    "I''vee to deliver His Highness'' message. He said you can go to the banquet hall first as hes runningte.


    Oh I see.


    It was customary for a couple to enter the banquet hall together. Julia, who had naturally expected to enter with Fernan, felt a little lost.


    She thought about waiting, but he certainly would not want her to wait.


    Thank you for telling me. Hmmm ."


    Julia hesitated for a moment . This was because she did not know the name of the aide.


    Noticing this, Lloyd btedly made a formal greeting and politely introduced himself.


    "My name is Lloyd Allen. Please feel free to call me Lloyd.


    "Thank you, Lloyd."


    Smiling softly, Julia quickly made her way to the pce where the banquet hall was located.


    Following an attendant''s directions, Julia entered the banquet hall alone and stood in front of an empty table.


    Some of thedies who found her approached with a friendly smile.


    Grand Duchess, how are you? I haven''t seen you since thest tea party."


    Yes, how are you?


    Formal greetings were exchanged and after a short pause, the Crown Prince and his wife entered the banquet hall.


    Veronica gently held her swollen belly as she was escorted by the Crown Prince.


    "Those two are always so close.


    "I heard the Crown Prince is very sweet. They were like that since the beginning of thier marriage.


    "Oh, what are you talking about? You husband is as sweet as honey.


    As thedies began to joke about their husbands, Julia had nothing to say. She wondered how they could be so close to each other when they had all met in political marriages. Far from being intimate with Fernan, they had never had a friendly conversation.


    "What about the Grand Duchess?"


    "Eh?"


    Julia''splexion stiffened a bit when question was directed at her.


    Everyone is very curious to know what Grand Duke Caesar is like.


    Both of you don''te the capital often, so I''m really curious to know how you''re doing.


    The noblewomen looked at her with curiosity. Smiling awkwardly, Julia spoke carefully.


    His Highness is very busy. And I''m a little lonely because there aren''t anydies in the estate to hang out with. But I''m doing well in my own way."


    She replied in a roundabout way, and fortunately the noblewomen nodded and chimed in.


    That''s right. It must be hard to invite all the people you know in the capital.


    But you''ll invite us at least once, right? I''d be very happy if the Grand Dcuhess would call me."


    "Yes, I will.


    The conversation quickly returned to a different direction. Only then did Julia, who was taking part in the conversation at ease, turned her head at the buzzing voices.


    From a distance, she could see Fernan entering the banquet hall. All the people''s gazes focused on him at once.


    Apparently, his appearance attracted more attention than the Crown Prince.


    Julia, who was wondering what to do, approached him cautiously after greeting thedies.


    "Your Highness."


    Fernan turned at the sound of a small voice. Julia looked up at him, gently tugging at the hem of her dress.


    When she finally called out to him, Julia felt very frightened. She was afraid that he would ignore her and go elsewhere.


    But perhaps because all the people were looking at him, he did not show his usual cruelty.


    "Let''s go to our seats."


    Fernan opened his mouth dryly and reached out his arm to her. Staring at him with surprised eyes for a moment, Julia folded her arm around him.


    Looking at his reluctant face, she felt that he had no choice but to act.


    It was a bit bitter, but she didn''t feel so bad about being escorted by him. As she headed to the empty table with him, the Crown Prince, who found them, approached with a bright smile.

 Chapter 13

    Chapter 13


    "I''m sure you''re very busy, but fortunately you had time to attend the banquet."


    Fernans brows narrowed faintly, but he quickly smiled.


    "Of course. How could I not participate in such a glorious asion?"


    Good. I was worried since you didn''t participate in the parade.


    Fernan, who looked at the Crown Prince quietly, soon gave a tant smile.


    It was funny to see the Crown Prince so ufortable now because he had refused to escort the emperor in the parade.


    The Crown Prince, noticing Fernans smile, raised his eyebrows and immediately turned his attention to Julia.


    "Ah, the Grand Duchess is here as well, I see."


    The Crown Prince once again disyed his good natured smile.


    "I was told by Veronica that the Grand Duchess was not in good health. I heard you were blessed by a priest, are you okay now?"


    Julia nodded with a smile on her face.


    "Yes, thanks to your concern, Your Majesty, Im fine now."


    While Julia was having a more formal conversation with the Crown Prince, Fernans secretly gazed at her ankle.


    Then he looked at her slender wrist, and soon looked away as if nothing had happened.


    Ah, it looks like the dance will be starting soon.


    The orchestra, which had been ying fancy tunes, soon began to y a light waltz.


    The Crown Prince asked for said goodbye and disappeared to the side of the Crown Princess.


    Soon the banquet hall was divided into two groups: those who went out on stage to dance and those who sat quietly at tables to listen to the music.


    Julia nced at Fernan. He was not interested in dancing, and was epting a ss of wine from his attendant.


    While Julia was struggling to think of something to say to him, several socialites approached Fernan.


    ""


    Julia gently touched the ss on the table, keeping her mouth tightly closed as she watched Fernan respond to the people with a casual exin.


    After dealing with the constant stream of nobles, Fernan entered the terrace. There was less barking and his head finally felt a little morefortable. After a few moments of being exposed to the cold breeze while holding onto the railing, he suddenly turned his head at the sound of the door opening.


    A woman in a dark green dress appeared. It was Julia, who came to see him.


    Your Highness, are you alright?"


    Julia approached him with a worried look on her face. Fernan did not reply but looked forward.


    There were many eyes watching him in the banquet hall, but now, out here, things were different. He didn''t want to pretend to be close to her.


    "I got a nice tea for a hangover from the chambein."


    Julia held out the cup in her hand. She watched him continue to drink the wine and wondered if he had a hangover.


    When Fernan didn''t pick up the ss, Julia bowed her head a little sullen.


    You don''t have to drink it but I''ll leave it here just in case."


    Setting the teacup down on the parapet, Julia hesitated for a moment, not turning away immediately.


    The faint expression of her desire to be with him showed itself. Fernan blinked his eyes slowly, as if suppressing something, and quickly turned his gaze toward her.


    "Is it your hobby to be intrusive?"


    His somber voice dropped to the terrace. Julia''s eyes fluttered with a panicked look.


    At the sight of her, Fernan found it hard to bear this emotion that was somehow welling up in him. But he ignored it.


    It would be better if he didn''t have to deal with it, but at this moment, this woman was bothering him badly.


    He felt dizzy again when Julia appeared in his mind that he had been trying to empty.


    I''m just worried about Your Highness .."


    Julia opened her mouth hesitantly, and Fernan scoffed lightly.


    "I don''t see why you should be worried about me.


    ""


    Julia raised her clear eyes and looked at him pitifully. He unknowingly gritted his teeth. Her eyes were always the problem.


    The more he acted badly, the more she would get hurt, but those eyes, always shining, scratched his nerves.


    She had just that look in her eyes when she haunted him again with the words I love you. Julias face went nk at his sharp words.


    "Why don''t you worry more about your future than mine? Do you think this marriage willst forever?"


    Her lips trembled as she dropped her gaze with a hurt look on her face, as she was greatly shocked by his words. Her eyes reddened slightly as sheid them down. For some reason, Fernan felt his heart tingle at the sight of her.


    He knew his words were harsh. There was no need for him to go to such lengths. But Fernan looked even colder, as if he was trying to hide his upset heart tightly. Meanwhile, a quiet voice came from Julia, who had her mouth clenched shut.


    "I''m sorry. I won''t bother you any more."


    Julia turned around without even looking at him. The way she was walking with her eyes down was unstable as if she would copse at any moment.


    Fernan, who flinched unknowingly, tapped his forehead as Juliapletely disappeared.


    " d*mn it."


    Themotion that he thought would end when she disappeared was still racking his brain.


    He couldn''t get her out of his mind as she looked down with teary eyes.


    He didn''t even think about the throbbing heart that continued to pound.


    He gripped the railing tightly and sighed heavily. It was not good to act so emotionally.


    He had never been one to show his emotions.


    After so many years of war, and so many deaths, he was getting better at hiding his true feelings.


    It was not difficult for him to hide his true intentions and smiled in front of the Emperor and Crown Prince, or the nobles who were vigntly trying to attack him.


    But at some point it became difficult.


    When did it start? .


    Fernan was in distress when someone suddenly showed signs of being there.


    "Oh, Im sorry. I wasn''t trying to eavesdrop on purpose."


    The woman who had been hiding behind a pir emerged with an embarrassed smile on her face.


    Fernan looked at the woman for a moment, and then averted his gaze again, uninterested.


    He knew someone was in there since he first came out the terrace. It wasn''t worth paying attention to, so he just ignored it.


    "It''s been a while, hasn''t it?"


    The woman smiled brightly and approached him. Fernan''s brows furrowed.


    "Do you know me?"


    Um I guess you dont remember me.


    Fernan took a quick look at the woman''s appearance. He had never met her before, and even if he did, he wouldnt want to remember her.


    "Oh, you may not remember because you were young. Well, we haven''t met very often."


    "So what is it you want to tell me?"


    Fernan asked back without sincerity, and the slightly faltering woman soon smiled brightly.


    "Im Cornelia of the House of ir. Do you not remember? Before His Highness went off to war, there was talk of an engagement.


    It was only when he heard the name of the family that Fernan remembered. The ir was one of the families that had once made a match with him.


    Originally, the engagement ceremony would have been held after hising-of-age ceremony, but since he had to leave for war suddenly by order of the emperor, the marriage was naturally canceled. It was just that. The woman, however, had a sentimental look in her eyes, as if it was some kind of fate.


    I''m really d to see you after all these years. In fact, I''ve been thinking about Your Highness from time to timetely."


    There was no reply, but Cornelia continued to speak earnestly.


    "By the way, you must hate your wife very much."


    Fernan passed Cornelia by without answering her probing question.


    He didn''t know why he had to engage in this conversation. It was all a waste of time.


    At that moment, Cornelia stopped him imminently.


    "My father wants to help His Highness.


    Stopping, Fernan looked back at her, his eyes narrowed.


    From what I heard, it sounds like you and the Grand Duchess will be divorced someday.


    Cornelia brushed a strand of hair behind her ear, her serpentine eyes glinting. A greedy look. It was a gaze he was very familiar with.


    What do you think? After your divorce, you should make a connection with my family."


    It was only then that Fernan finally frowned indifferently and gave a small sneer, as if he had heard a dog barking.


    "Are you out of your mind?


    "Huh?"


    "Otherwise, I''m afraid I''m missing something."


    Cornelia''s eyes wavered. She seemed to doubt what she heard.


    Fernan stared at her for a moment, as if he was looking at something worthless, then he left the terrace.


    It must be a big deal for the woman to sell out even her father for saying something like that.


    There had been many women who had approached him like that. All of them did not care whether he was married or not.


    They seemed to take it for granted, since it was amon urrence among the nobility of the capital.


    However, Fernan was the one who despised such people terribly.


    It was not because he was moral or faithful. It was just that such people instinctively made him want to vomit.


    As he stepped out into the banquet hall again, the sound of boisterous music ying scratched his nerves. At the same time, he could see Julia leaving the banquet hall in the far distance.


    "Ha."


    Fernan was dumbfounded for a while by the fact that she was the first person he saw out of all these people.

 Chapter 14

    Chapter 14


    Julia came out of the banquet hall and walked along the long hallway.


    Her body and mind were all exhausted. Walking weakly, she paused at the sudden pain.


    Perhaps because of the high shoes, her ankle, which she thought was fully recovered, suddenly throbbed.


    She was standing still sighing, then she heard footsteps in the hallway that followed,


    "Uh."


    Julia raised her head and opened her eyes wide. A priest was walking slowly across the corridor.


    He was a priest named Matheus whom she met when she went to Mass with Veronica not long ago.


    "Your Highness.


    Matheus, who stopped and talked to Julia, soon stared at her swollen ankle.


    "You must have been hurt.


    "Oh, yes."


    Julia stared at him with curious eyes. Seeing him in a priest''s uniform at the central pce, where the banquet was in full swing, somehow felt a little strange.


    Matheus smiled faintly, as if he had noticed the gaze.


    "I got lost while I was walking. The pce is so spacious andplicated."


    "Oh, I see.


    The priest gets lost tooAs she blinked her eyes curiously, Matheus gently knelt down on one knee.


    May I take a look for a moment?


    "Oh, no, no, Im fine..


    Julia was perplexed when he suddenly knelt down. Matheus spoke calmly to reassure her.


    "I can use my power to heal your injured ankle. I''m confident I can heal you, so you don''t have to worry."


    Matheus gentle tone somehow aroused trust. Julia nodded slightly.


    "Then please.


    Matheus held her ankle lightly in one hand. Soon a blue light leaked out and hovered around his hand.


    It felt as if she had dipped her foot in cold water. She could vividly feel the power stinging her ankle.


    Can you try moving it once?"


    Julia moved her ankle a little, and to her surprise, she felt no pain. Julia let out an exmation with her eyes wide open.


    How could it heal all at once when he just gently squeezed it? After all this time, Matheus in front of her looked like an amazing man.


    "Thank you very much. It doesn''t hurt anymore".


    I''m d I could help.


    Matheus, who was slowly raising his body, gave a small smile and then bowed his head.


    I''ll be going now.


    Julia suddenly caught him as he was about to turn around as if he had finished his work.


    "Um, may I ask you something, priest?"


    "Yes, go ahead.


    Stopping, Matheus leisurely waited for her to speak. Hesitantly, Julia opened her mouth cautiously.


    "Is it possible that we''ve met before?"


    "Ah


    It had been bothering her that he asked her if she knew him during the massst time. If she had met such an amazing person in the past, there was no way she wouldn''t remember him. Matheus paused for a moment and then nodded.


    "Yes, but it''s no surprise that you don''t know me."


    "Why is that?"


    He smiled meaningfully as he looked at Julias curious eyes. When Julia remained silent and waited for a reply, Matheus continued in a soft tone.


    Because at that time, you are a newborn baby."


    "Huh?"


    Julia froze in ce. Her eyes hovered vaguely around his face.


    By all appearances, he looked to be of a simr age to herself, or even younger. How could he remember her baby self?


    Looking at her stiffly, Matheus let out a smallugh. His gentle voice soon followed.


    Some priests, when their divine powers are overloaded, may cease to age in appearance.


    ..


    Julia''s eyes were filled with doubt.


    "I was fifteen when I first saw you. I hope that was the answer."


    Julia nodded with a puzzled face. He wasn''t as old as she thought, but he didnt look his age.


    Julia, who was watching his face absentmindedly, soon came to her senses.


    "Where did you see me, by the way? And how on earth did you notice me.?


    Her curiosity grew and grew. Julias hands fidgeted impatiently.


    Matheus smiledzily. And at that moment, there was amotion from the end of the corridor.


    Several people could be seen exiting the banquet hall.


    I''m sure you''re wondering what''s going on, but I have to go."


    "Ah, yes"


    Julia nodded with lingering eyes. Looking at her gently, Matheus whispered quietly.


    "I will tell you one thing. You are a very special person to me. I will always wish you the best of luck."


    His voice was so warm that it made her chest heave. The sincerity oozed from his words that he wished her happiness.


    I''m sure we''ll meet again soon."


    Her heart felt empty, as if a bright light had briefly wrapped around her and disappeared.


    Finally, smiling lightly, Matheus disappeared across the hallway.


    ***


    The chaotic festival was over, and there was only silence on the road back to the estate.


    Julia looked out the window in a pensive mood. She couldn''t get the encounter with Matheus out of her mind.


    She couldn''t believe he met her when she was just a baby.


    <i>Then perhaps the priest knows my mother?</i>


    Julia hadn''t seen her mother since she left her when she was seven. She had no idea where her mother lived or even what she did for a living.


    The Marquis would asionally mention her mother and threaten her to "listen very carefully," but he didn''t seem to know exactly where she was living either.


    It was very confusing in her head.


    Matheus said he would see her again soon, but she had no idea when that would be


    <i>I should have asked which temple he belongs to.''</i>


    Julia gave a small, bted sigh.


    Julia took her gaze off the window and stared at her ankle in a daze. As she lifted her head, moving her foot for no apparent reason, her eyes met Fernans.


    He quickly averted his gaze. His senseless profile was quiet.


    Julia moved her lips, trying to say something. But she quickly closed her lips. If she tried to speak to him, she would hear that she was annoying again.


    Except for the intermittent rumbling, the carriage was silent.


    It took half a day to reach the castle that way.


    Julia got out of the carriage in the dim darkness and immediately went to her bedroom.


    There she found a vase of flowers on the table that she had never seen before.


    The clear ss vase was filled with white lily flowers.


    While wondering, Julia approached the table and put her face close to the vase.


    The pleasant scentpletely prated her mind.


    "Oh, Your Grace? Are you here?


    She turned her head to the side and Melissa, who had juste out of cleaning the dressing room, approached her.


    "Melissa, you brought these flowers, didn''t you?"


    Julia asked, and Melissa nodded with a shy smile.


    You seem to like the flowers, but you couldn''t bring them home that day. It bothers me so much


    Julias eyes widened as she looked at Melissa. She couldn''t believe that she bought flowers again because she cared about that.


    The feeling was gratifying and her heart filled with joy at the moment, but on the other hand, she felt a littleplicated.


    "Ummmdon''t you like it?"


    Melissa asked, and Julia quickly shook her head.


    "No, I appreciated it. But I have nothing to give back to you."


    Oh, I didn''t wish for anything! Please don''t mind me."


    From the beginning until now, Melissa had been uniformly warm. Julia didn''t know how to respond to such a favor.


    "Thank you for treating me so well, Melissa."


    It bothered her that she could only say thank you at best. Melissa patted her on the shoulder.


    She patted her gently.


    Melissa didn''t say anything, but she seemed to beforting her with her warm hand. The hand seemed to make Julia feel a little better, even though she was exhausted.


    ***


    Time passed quickly after the period of the National Day celebration was over.


    The territory, where summer had ended, was chillier than before.


    On a morning that was no different from any other, a gilded letter brought by a servant was ced on the table in front of Julia. The origin of the letter was, of course, Marquis Elody.


    "Hmm.


    Julia, who sighed heavily, opened the envelope with an unwilling face.


    The content was obvious even without reading it. It contained words asking if there was any news of her pregnancy, and words pressuring her to have a child as soon as possible.


    The aphrodisiac he gave her the other day hadpletely disrupted her rtionship with Fernan. How could she have a child in this situation?


    And aside from all that, Julia didn''t feel like having a baby yet.


    <i>If he hates me so much, how can he possibly like me with a child?</i>

 Chapter 15

    Chapter 15


    The situation might be different if she had a child because it was a matter of session, but she still had to be afraid. It would be unbearable if those cold and heartless eyes of Fernan directed at the child.


    <i>His Highness doesn''t even want to share a room with me let alone have a baby</i>


    Julia, who was stroking the stiff paper absentmindedly, immediately rose from her seat. Trying to call Melissa out of habit, Julia quickly remembered that Melissa had left for vacation today. She felt very lonely without Melissa, who was the only person she could talk to by her side.


    As it was, Julia came out of the bedroom and walked slowly to the end of the hallway.


    She was going to spend some time in the study today.


    There were a total of five study rooms here in the Grand Ducal Pce of Caesar. Julia''s favorite study was located on the fourth floor.


    It was a quiet ce where no one came and went except when the servants were cleaning.


    Good morning, Your Highness.


    The two servants who had juste out from cleaning the study bowed to her.


    As Julia nodded and turned to go inside, she heard the servants talking quietly behind her.


    She already knew that the servants have been mocking her andughing at her behind her back.


    Being treated poorly by the master and even ignored by the servants was something she had experienced many times during her time at the Marquis'' mansion.


    They were well aware of the fact that their master would not take any action even though they bullied her.


    Julia also didn''t want to cause any unnecessary noise, so she put up with their whispers as usual.


    With a deep sigh, she chose any book from the bookshelf and sat down at the table. Immersing herself in the book allowed her to forget all about the reality surrounding her. Today, Julia was desperately absorbed in the book to calm her emotions.


    Time passed quickly. It was around morning when she came to the study, and before she knew it, the study was dimly lit. Julia got up from her seat, left her books in their original positions, and approached the door.


    Click.


    Julia, who turned the doorknob, froze for a moment. It was because the door didn''t open.  Could it be that the door was locked from the outside? For some reason, Julia had a bad premonition, and she quickly turned the handle and shouted.


    "Is there anyone there? The door is locked!"


    She shouted loudly as she pounded the door harder and harder, but it was quiet outside.


    "No one?"


    After screaming for a long time, she soon sank into ce. Her heart began to beat like crazy.


    In the morning, the servants had clearly seen her enter the study.


    Moreover, it was still far from lights out, so there was no need to lock the door at this hour.


    So the maid deliberately locked the door knowing she was inside.


    Julia bit down on her trembling lip and looked out the window, which waspletely dark before she knew it.


    If no one came after all the screaming and pounding, they either didnt really hear her or they heard her but pretended not knowing.


    Melissa wasn''t here, so there was no one to look for her, knowing that she was gone.


    "Ha


    A wry smile escaped her lips.


    <i>Why on earth would they do this to me?</i>


    Julia, who curled up with her knees up, held her trembling hands together. The inside of the study without a firece quickly became chilly as the sun set.


    After looking at the floor in a daze for a while, a faint expectation suddenly arose from her.


    <i>Perhaps His Highness will notice that I''m gone. .</i>


    "No, of course not."


    Julia quickly mumbled to herself. Fernan couldnt care less about her.


    He wouldn''t care if she disappeared or escaped, and even if he knew he was a man who wouldn''t do anything about it.


    For a moment, her heart went cold.


    Julia nuzzled her face into herp and let out shaky breaths. Her mind was spinning with countless thoughts.


    After crouching for a long time, Julia raised herself up again. Then she approached the door and pounded on it until her hand crushed.


    But no matter how hard she pounded, no one came.


    Julia lowered her red and swollen hand weakly.


    It was hard to ept the fact that out of all the people in the castle, no one would listen to her cries.


    <i>What have I done so wrong to deserve this?</i>


    Her eyes started to get wet. She didn''t want to cry, but she couldn''t help it.


    After a long time she was locked in and scared, Julia suddenly feltfortable and cozy.


    Then her breathing became more and morebored.


    When she finally opened her heavy eyelids, the first thing Julia saw was a tall man.


    Even in her blurred vision she could recognize him immediately. The man was Fernan.


    "She needs to get plenty of rest. Her body has been injured a lot, but I think its the mental stress thats the underlying cause.


    There was a mixture of a doctor speaking in a serious tone and Fernan''s voice answering in between.


    Julia closed her eyes again. She did not want to get up.


    When will she regain consciousness?"


    Fernans somber voice burned in her ears.


    It was casual, but that voice, which she had always thought was good to hear, did not sound so pleasant now. Julia closed her eyes and let sleep take over. Her body felt heavy as if it was being sucked into the bed. Sleep came quickly.


    When she woke up again, Julia couldn''t help but be surprised.


    Fernan was still by her side. He was sitting on the chair next to her bed, staring at her.


    "Are you awake?"


    His voice sounded heavy. After watching him for a while, Julia turned away to the other side without answering.


    Despite her clear intention to turn her back on him, he continued to speak without faltering.


    The servants in charge of the study are locked in the basement."


    ""


    "They insisted that the door was locked by mistake.


    Julia lifted her lips helplessly. She didn''t have the strength to resent the tant lie of a mistake. She had less and less energy to pursue and question him.


    "I''ll do whatever you want." (Fernan)


    "I hope it doesn''t end up just kicking them out."( Fernan)


    Im not going to do anything about it.


    "What?"


    Fernand lifted one eyebrow. Julia turned away, but murmured blithely,


    "As a matter of fact, it seems that Your Highness wishes it to be so."


    "What do you mean by that?"


    "That I may disappearYou want it more than anyone else, don''t you? Then you must be grateful to those servants.


    Was it because of the medicine? The words began to flow by themselves.


    Julia wasn''t trying to say this, but it sounded as if she was questioning him.


    "Don''t you know why the servants did this to me?"


    If it was a normal day, she would have said thank you for your concern first, but she couldn''t quite get those words out.


    Because she didnt feel grateful, not even a little bit.


    Fernan just kept staring at her in silence. Julia couldn''t tell if he was silent because he understood her words or because he couldn''t.


    Julia didn''t speak anymore either.


    After a long silence, Fernan lifted the bowl on the small table.


    "Why don''t you eat something first?"


    He presented a soup made of oatmeal. It was freshly made and warm to the touch.


    Julia opened her eyes slowly as she epted the bowl. Suddenly, the situation seemed unfamiliar to her.


    She turned her gaze and faced Fernan straight on.


    He was expressionless, as usual, but there was no sign of the coldness that he always had.


    He suddenly seemed strange to her.


    Call a doctor, treated her, and stayed by her side until she woke up. She didn''t know why he did all this.


    "I don''t understand Your Highness behavior."


    Julia gripped the bowl tightly and murmured softly.


    You said that this marriage will notst forever, and that my heart would not be of the slightest use to you.


    ""


    You don''t like me, but what are you doing now? Why are you so generous?


    Fernan was heartless and cruel every moment, but the next moment he was strangely not cold to her. He kept changing.


    Like when she was in his room, or when she chased him down the hall, and now


    Fernans expression tightened at her words, and he said slowly, as if suppressing something.


    "I''m still thinking about the end of this marriage. Still, your heart is of no use to me."


    His brows narrowed gently, and he continued somewhat hesitantly.


    And I don''t know why, either. I don''t know why I''m bing more vulnerable to you every moment."


    His face saying so was unfamiliar. He looked confused as if he didn''t understand his own feelings.


    Julia felt mixed feelings too, but she didn''t speak to him any further. Without saying a word, she drank the soup and even took the medicine. Afterwards, Julia finally fell asleep again. Fernan watched her face for a while as she slept soundly.


    The emotions and difort that had red up like a me whenever he saw her were gone.


    For this moment, his mind was strangely quiet.


    A whileter, he came out of the room and called Lloyd, who was standing at the door.


    "Lloyd.


    "Yes, Your Highness.


    His face turned cold as usual as he walked along the corridor.


    "Those servants in the basement, deal with them."


    "Yes."


    Understanding his words immediately, Lloyd bowed silently and disappeared.


    Julia had told him that no action would be taken against the servants, but he had no intention of listening to her from the start.


    A furry who mocked his master had to pay for it.


    Locked in her study all night, Julia was found the next morning. It was Melissa, her exclusive maid who returned from her vacation that found Julia.


    No one would have looked for Julia if it weren''t for Melissa.


    Fernan pursued Melissa and arrested all of the servants, not only the maids who had caused the incident, but also some of the servants who usually bullied and belittled Julia.


    In spite of this, he still felt inexplicable.


    <b><i>"Don''t you know why the servants did this to me?</i></b>


    Julia''s small voice rang in his ears. Then, as if something was holding him down, his chest became heavy.


    Fernan frowned nervously. He didn''t know what he wanted to do with himself.

 Chapter 16

    Chapter 16


    The atmosphere of the castle was clearly different from before.


    Julia''s eyes fluttered when she saw the servants bowing politely to her. They were all new faces.


    "His Highness has ordered all the servants to be reced."


    Melissa whispered quietly beside her. Julia looked at Melissa with a slightly puzzled look on her face.


    <i>Don''t tell me it''s because of this time?''</i>


    Pensive, Julia quickly shook her head.


    Fernan was probably just trying to wrap up the hectic atmosphere. It wasnt for her.


    <i>"But aren''t you cold, Your Grace? I''m not sure if you''re wearing too thin.</i>


    <i>"It''s alright. It''s cool and perfect."</i>


    Melissa didn''t want to leave Julia''s side for a long time, ming herself for what happened because of her absence.


    Thanks to Melissa''s sincerity, Julia was able to recover quickly.


    While walking in the backyard, Julia nced at the workers gathered in the garden.


    Bet, the butler, who was standing near them, spotted her and bowed his head.


    It was strange. The butler told her that she had to get Fernans permission to repair the garden, but now he was working on it.


    Julia looked at him for a moment and then averted her gaze, unimpressed.


    I can''t wait to see the garden filled with flowers when springes.


    Melissa added with a bright smile.


    When springes, we can garden together! You can nt lots of lily flowers, your favorite."


    Yes, lets do that."


    Julia''s face, which was smiling quietly, gradually darkened.


    She wasn''t sure. She wondered if she could stay here until next spring.


    She had no idea when Fernan would end this marriage.


    <b><i>Do you think this marriage willst forever?</i></b>


    Thinking of his indifferent eyes when Fernan said that, Julia was once again immersed in depression.


    She had long known that he hated her, but she didn''t know he was setting an end. Julia quietly lowered her gaze. This marriage, which may end at any time, felt like a life with a time limit.


    Suddenly, the words that her father used to say came to mind.


    <b><i>If your marriage with the Grand Duke is broken, you will no longer be my daughter."</i></b>


    The Marquis thought that Yulia would be frightened by those words, but it was Julia who rather didn''t want to live as his daughter.


    However, she had nothing at all if she lived on her own without the support of the Marquis family.


    Of course, there was no way the Marquis would send her off nicely before that.


    Sighing heavily, Julia quickly turned.


    "Eh? It seems that His Highness has returned."


    As Julia raised her head at Melissa''s words, she heard the sound of bells announcing the return of the Lord.


    She felt a twinge of reluctance, for he had never returned so early in the day.


    Fernan would not be pleased, but she could not be ignorant of his return, so Julia turned around and went back to the castle.


    Entering the lobby at a slow pace, Julia stood still and waited for Fernan.


    Shortly after, a servant opened therge door.


    Fernan, who was staring at the front when he walked in, suddenly felt a presence and turned his gaze to Julia, who was standing to one side.


    "Your Highness, you''re here early."


    At Julia''s quiet greeting, Fernan paused.


    He stared at her without reply, then nced at her clothes.


    "Where were you going?"


    "Oh I''m sorry. It''s a little stuffy to stay in the room."


    Fernan looked at Julia with an odd expression. He was about to ask her what on earth she was sorry for, when he stopped for a moment.


    For suddenly the words he had said to her came to mind.


    <b><i>"I told you to stay in the bedroom. Seeing as how you''re walking around happily, it seems that my words didnt matter.</i></b>


    Fernans expression tightened for a moment, and then he stopped talking.


    He was silent for a moment, and then quickly walked past Julia.


    Julia watched his back with a wry smile.


    Fernan, who was climbing the main staircase, stopped at the stairs and frowned.


    It was because he didn''t understand why he avoided her as if he was running away a while ago.


    He looked down at the lobby at the bottom of the stairs.


    Julia, who had been standing still, walked out the doorway again with her servant.


    Fernan couldn''t help but catch thest of her back in his eyes.


    Then he soon flinched between his eyebrows.


    He couldn''t figure out what on earth he was feeling now.


    Why did it make him anxious and his heart throb?


    Fernan turned around with a confused mind and climbed the remaining stairs.


    ***


    The strange atmosphere continued.


    Not only the servants, but also the attitude of Bet, the butler, hadpletely changed.


    Um, Your Highness.


    It was around afternoon when Julia, who was heading for the dining room, stopped.


    Looking back, she saw Bet bowing to her politely.


    Lately, Bet had been talking to her and asking her permission, even though it wasn''t a big deal.


    "The garden renovation you mentioned the other day. I think it''ll be done in a month."


    "I see."


    Her response was vague, so Bet did not hide his impatience.


    "The greenhouse will be built soon. You have to choose what to nt, and I think it would be better for you to choose..


    "Well, go ahead and take care of it yourself.


    Julia replied expressionlessly, and took another step forward. She wasn''t interested in managing the castle anymore.


    Perhaps it was the fact that she was locked in the study, the castle itself seemed to have caused an instinctive repulsion.


    A restless Bet hurried to follow Julia.


    Your Highness, I''m sorry for being so rude to you.


    Julia stopped again and looked back at Bet with a curious face.


    "I will ept any punishment for my past rudeness. Please forgive me.


    Bet lowered his head deeply as if he was about to hit the floor. Julia blinked in panic. She felt like he would just fall over if she left him alone, so Julia answered simply.


    "I see. I forgive you. Get up."


    Bet finally raised his head. His face was tinged with relief and fear.


    Actually, on the day Julia was locked in the study, Bet was out for a while.


    He was told of the situation btedly and felt very guilty.


    Bet had ignored his Masters wife without a second thought in the past, but he didnt expect the other servants to do the same.


    Of course, that didnt mean his fault would go away, so there was no excuse.


    Besides, Fernan seemed to be terribly angry.


    He was a master who was not interested in domestic affairs, especially about his wife.


    However, with an expressionless face as usual, Fernan ordered a punishment that Bet thought was a bit excessive.


    All the servants involved in the incident were purged, and even the other servants who had so tantly bullied Julia so far disappeared without any words.


    "May I ask why the sudden change in attitude?"


    Julia asked quietly as Bet stood there apologetically.


    Bet then bowed his head again with a puzzled look on his face.


    "The incident that happened to you a few days ago was entirely my fault for failing to properly educate my servants. The attitude Ive disyed, Im sure I encouraged them


    ""


    "I''m sorry, Your Grace. If you wish to punish me, you can do it."


    Julia looked at Bet with surprised eyes at his unexpectedly frank answer.


    She did not feel so badly about Bet.


    Of course, his tone was sometimes rude, but basically he never deliberately tried to bully her.


    Besides, Bet was the first person who confessed his mistakes and asked for forgiveness, so she didn''t want to punish him now.


    No, she just didn''t want to care about anything now.


    Thats enough. Let''s get going."


    Yes, yes. Have a nice meal."


    Leaving Bet with his head bowed behind, Julia retraced her steps.


    As she entered the dining room slowly, Julia unexpectedly saw Fernan was already sitting there.


    Holding the document in his hand, he raised his head and looked at Julia.


    "Good evening, Your Highness."


    Julia, who greeted him like a habit, sat down across from him. It had been quite a while since she had dined with Fernan.


    Immediately the servant ced an appetizer on the table. Holding the tableware, Julia nced at Fernan on the other side.


    He was always working, whether he was eating or moving. Come to think of it, she had never seen him rest.


    "Aren''t you tired?"


    Turning away from the document at her quiet question, Fernan asked back.


    "Why do you ask that?"


    "It''s justI thought youd be tired."


    Actually, she asked out of concern, but she knew the man would not like it if she answered that way.


    He didnt like her talking to him in the first ce.


    Fernan didn''t reply, so Julia gave up and silently absorbed herself in her meal. The silencested a long time.


    Fernan, who was reading a part of the document, clicked his tongue. It was hard to concentrate when there were so many things to consider.


    It wasn''t until Julia appeared in the dining room that he wasnt able to concentrate.


    Fernan had to admit that she cared so much about him.


    Rather than feeling unpleasant about the fact, his confusion was even greater.

 Chapter 17

    Chapter 17


    "Your Highness."


    At that moment, Julia suddenly opened her mouth again.


    "I''m sorry to keep bothering you, but I really want to ask you something."


    Julia hesitated for a moment. It was something she had to ask at some point, but it didn''t just feel good to let it out.


    When are you going to divorce me?"


    Fernans expression hardened for a moment at her words, but slowly returned to normal.


    "Why, do you intend to inform the Marquis?"


    No, I didn''t ask you with that intention. ."


    Well, I don''t trust you, after all, youre your fathers obedient daughter.


    Julia''s face turned pale as Fernan recited in a low voice.


    She had always been soft and reluctant, but when the Marquis was mentioned, she would freeze.


    Fernan couldn''t understand why. Because the Marquis he had seen was a father who truly cared only for his daughter.


    From the very beginning, when the marriage was first arranged, the Marquis used to praise Julia to the point where he was repulsed.


    Not only the Marquis, but also the Emperor and Empress were extremely fond of Julia.


    She would have grown up to be quite arrogant, but she didn''t seem to have that side.


    So at first he thought she was pretending to be quiet.


    Then again, who knows if she''ll get some drugs and try to make him drink.


    Fernan gave a small mocking smile. The reminder that she was the daughter of Marquis Elody seemed to soften his increasingly confused feelings.


    Weak or timid, she was the daughter of the Marquis after all. That fact alone has not changed.


    ""


    Julia bowed her head in silence. She didn''t look as hurt as she usually did. It was just a face that showed signs of being tired of everything.


    "I''m sorry. I won''t bother you any more."


    She didn''t get the answer she wanted from Fernan, but she could tell that he hadn''t changed his mind about divorcing her with his usual cold words.


    Her heart swelled for a moment. Not wanting to continue eating anymore, Julia slowly got up from her seat.


    With her head low, Julia crossed the spacious dining room.


    When the servant opened the door, Julia left without hesitation. She didnt look back to see thest of Fernans expression.


    *******


    It was in the afternoon when early autumn arrived.


    When Julia was sitting on the sofa in front of the firece, reading a book, she raised her head at the sound of a knock on the door.


    Melissa, who was arranging her bedding, hurriedly opened the door and found Bet standing in front of it.


    "Your Grace, you have a visitor from the pce."


    "A visitor?"


    Julia tilted her head. She followed Bet curiously to the reception room, where the attendant standing inside greeted her politely.


    "Grand Duchess. I am the immediate attendant to Her Imperial Highness the Crown Princess.


    The servant held out something. It was an envelope with an imperial pattern on it.


    Bet held out the letter opener he had prepared in advance. Julia opened the envelope, took out the contents, and immediately read the letter.


    The sender was Veronica, the Crown Princess. The letter contained a question about her safety.


    And the words that an important guest would be arriving at the Grand Duke''s castle shortly were added. It did not say who the precious guest was, perhaps as a deliberate attempt to arouse curiosity. Julia thought of Veronica''s kind face for a while.


    Veronica was in thest trimester of her pregnancy and was concentrating on her prenatal care. She looked very happy as she held her swollen belly by the Crown Princes side.


    Julia gave a small smile, but the end of it transformed into a somewhat sad one. It was because her current circumstances werepletely opposite from Veronicas.


    Julia tried her best to shake off her thoughts. Then she concentrated on worrying about who was the guest Veronica was referring to.


    But her worries faded, and the guest came to visit the very next day.


    ***


    It was a littlete afternoon and Julia was staring nkly at the man in the main hall.


    "How have you been?"


    A tall man in a white priest''s uniform greeted her with a friendly smile.


    It was Matheus, the priest she had met at the National Celebration Day.


    "The guest the Crown Princess mentioned in the letter is you, priest?


    Murmuring, Julia slowly approached Matheus.


    She never thought shed see Matheus again like this.


    Matheus smiled as she looked at him with a mixture of surprise and happiness.


    "After the prayer for Princess Veronica, I stopped by on my way back to the temple."


    Matheus took a leisurely look around. Some of the servants who were standing in the lobby nced at him, for his holy appearance seemed somewhat alien to the dark and heavy airiness of the temple.


    May I see His Highness first and say hello?"


    "Ah, His Highness is currently not at the castle. Hes out for some political affairs, but I am not sure when he will be back.."


    Fernans return times were differenttely, so Julia couldn''t be sure when he would arrive.


    Julia first led Matheus to the parlor.


    The servant who opened the door disappeared to go prepare some refreshments, and then Julia opened her mouth.


    "There were many words I wanted to hear from you, priest. I did not expect to see you like this.


    "The Crown Princess is very worried about you. She was concerned about your paleplexion the other day. So she asked me to stop by the castle and pray for Lady Julia."


    "I see.


    Veronica''s warmth was fully felt, and Julia had a faint smile appear on her lips.


    "You said you had many questions for me. I will answer everything sincerely."


    Matheus rxed voice descended. Julia asked one question at a time, feeling his rxed demeanor calm her down as well.


    "To which temple do you belong, priest?"


    "The Temple of Ilion. Its not too far from Caesar''s territory."


    The Temple of Ilion was not a temple belonging to the Empire.


    Matheus traveled throughout the empire and was asked by the imperial family to stay at the imperial pce for a while. He was a capable and trusted priest.


    Julia calmly organized her thoughts. She wasnt sure what to ask first.


    Matheus, who had been staring at her, spoke up first.


    "You are very much like your mother."


    Julia stared nkly at him. Her clear eyes began to shake.


    "Do you know my mother?"


    "Yes, because I was there when you were born."


    Julia''s hands began to tremble slightly. Her heart began to beat fast.


    Matheus reached out his hand to her. Julia looked at his hand absentmindedly and held it as if possessed.


    She could instinctively feel his divine power flowing through her hand.


    "I''ve told you before that I''m confident in my healing."


    Julia took a deep breath as she felt the power flowing along her entire body. My wild heart slowly began to return to its normal speed.


    You were the first life I saved with this holy power.


    Once upon a time, Matheus, a novice priest in a small temple, saw a young woman who came alone to pray every night.


    She was always crying, and sometimes she wouldugh with her hand wrapped around her stomach.


    Young Matheus watched her every day, and from a certain moment he would wait for her toe.


    Day by day her belly grew fuller and fuller.


    One day, a midwife and a doctor rushed to visit the temple. They said the pregnant woman had fainted and there was nothing they could do to help her."


    They visited the priest as ast resort, but of all people, only a young novice priest was in the monastery that day. Matheus rushed to her house, but was unable to give any help.


    "All I could do was pray, so I prayed with all my heart. Please help the woman inbor and the child."


    After Matheus took a moment to catch his breath, he continued his story.


    And that day, God made me realize the holy power that wastent in me."


    Matheus transferred some of the enlightened power into the woman''s belly, and she woke up safely and gave birth to a child.


    The heart of the newborn child was filled with the holy power of Matheus.


    The first blessing I gave as a priest was that the child would grow up happier than anyone else.


    Matheus stared at Julia and asked,


    Are you happy now?"


    Julia stared at him nkly, but quickly turned away.


    She raised her hand and brought it to her chest, feeling her heart pounding as she answered,


    I


    She wasn''t happy. So she couldn''t continue to answer.


    Gazing at Julia''splicated face, Matheus whispered quietly,


    If youre not happy, it''s my fault.


    He averted his gaze and looked at the window. Then he slowly opened his mouth again.


    "You are still as special to me as ever."


    ""


    "So, whenever you need help, you cane to me."


    Julia raised her head and looked at Matheus.


    His story was so so amazing that it was hard to believe, but unlike theplexity of her mind, her heart was calm.


    She could instinctively know. That thanks to the holy power that resides in her heart, she could regain stability if he was by her side.


    I


    Just as Julia was about to open her mouth, someone opened the door without knocking. When she turned to look, she saw Fernan was standing there, having just returned to the castle.

 Chapter 18

    Chapter 18


    Fernan looked at Julia with an expressionless face and then quickly turned his attention to Matheus. Matheus rose from his seat and greeted him.


    "Its a pleasure to meet you, My Lord. I am Matheus, priest of the Temple of Ilion."


    I was told that the Crown Princess sent you. What is it for?


    Approaching them without hesitation, Fernan took a seat and tilted his head. Matheus smiled lightly and replied.


    The Crown Princess, concerned for the safety of Lady Julia, asked me to visit the Duke''s castle.


    Fernans gaze turned to Julia. She was staring into space like someone lost in thought.


    "And with your permission, I would like to bless the castle.


    Fernan, who had been staring at Julia, opened his mouth without hesitation.


    "Do so."


    As Fernans reply fell, Julia suddenly looked at him. Their eyes met, but she did not react much and spoke to Matheus.


    "I will show you the room where you will stay after dinner."


    "Thank you."


    Matheus smiled softly. Julia also looked at him, her lips raised faintly.


    A faint ripple urred in Fernans eyes as he watched the scene.


    ***


    After Matheus had left the castle, Julia was often absent-minded.


    Sitting at the table, she stared at the pendant in her hand.


    The pendant, engraved with a blue gemstone, was given to her by Matheus before he left.


    The pendant contained part of Matheus power. Julia put the pendant in a drawer.


    She checked her pocket watch and quickly left the bedroom. Then she stood in front of the railing and looked down at the main hall on the first floor.


    Fernan was always passing by, walking towards the doorway.


    Julia always gets up at the time of Fernans departure.


    Otherwise, there was no chance to see him to her heart''s content.


    She had long ago stopped standing by the servants to see him off in person. She didn''t want to get a scornful look from him again.


    So she was content to look at him, even if it was just for a moment.


    <i>Im a fool.</i>


    The end between them was already decided.


    For a time she thought they would have many days together and she tried to change his mind, but it was useless now.


    <i>I love him, but I know that I can''t keep this heart for long.</i>


    However, Julia was not ready to give up on even seeing him from afar.


    "Oh, Your Grace.


    Walking down the corridor with a weak gait, Julia turned around at the sound of a voice calling her.


    Melissa, who had brought one of the letters with her, stopped in front of her.


    A letter was sent from Marquis Elody.


    Julia stared at the letter Melissa held out to her, and immediately epted it.


    Returning to her bedroom, she sat down in front of the table and left the letter unopened.


    Even if she didnt open it and read it, the contents were already known. For the Marquis sent her letters with the same content every day.


    <i> What am I supposed to do?''</i>


    Julia sighed deeply as she clutched her eyes with her slender hands.


    Fernan said he didn''t want her heart. He never wanted her as a wife. He thought about ending this marriage and kept pushing her away.


    However, her father told her to keep Fernan around somehow. He urged her to make babies and make this marriage more solid.


    Julia bit her soft lip and bowed her head. She felt like her head was going to crack.


    ***


    In the end, Julia didn''t answer the Marquis''s letter as she always did.


    Since then, all the letters that arrived every day piled up on one side, and she pretended not to see them. If no reply from her, the Marquis mighte to the castle and get mad at her.


    But Julia didn''t want to bother with these letters any longer.


    She turned off her thoughts and tried to read a book, then she suddenly looked out the window. Autumn was almost over already.


    As time went on, she had no idea when she would be driven out of this castle. Fernan didn''t say anything. He was just busy as usual, and it was hard to even see him. So Julia decided to make the best of the situation and take it easy.


    It was just after noon when she took a walk around the castle.


    After looking up at the sky for a while in the faint sunlight, she suddenly heard a loud noise.


    "We have to leave right now. Hurry up.


    As she turned, Julia saw Bet fumbling around near the stable.


    Julia was just passing by the road, so without thinking she spoke to Bet.


    "What''s going on?"


    "Oh, Grand Duchess.


    Bet replied hesitantly as he bowed his head.


    "I received a letter addressed to His Highness the Grand Duke, and it seems to be urgent."


    Julia''s eyes grew wide as she stared at the letter in Bet''s hands.


    It was because the front of the envelope was sealed with the pattern of the Marquis of Elody.


    "Do you know what it is, by any chance?"


    "I don''t know, but the servant who brought the letter said it was urgent and said to give it to His Highness immediately.


    Julia had a bad feeling. She looked serious and averted her gaze, then quickly held out her hand.


    "I''ll give it to him.


    You want to give it to His Highness personally?


    Bet seemed to hesitate for a moment, but then gave her the letter.


    Soon the horseman, whom Bet had called, was pulling the carriage over.


    Since she was already dressed in her outdoor clothes, Julia made no special preparations and got into the carriage immediately.


    Have a safe trip, Your Grace.


    Bet saw her off, and the carriage began to drive away.


    Julia stared at the window with anxious eyes. She couldn''t sit still seeing the letter was sent to Fernan from her father.


    Julia hadnt replied to any of the Marquis letters, and now he sent it to Fernan instead


    Julia sped her hands together. She didnt know what exactly, but she had a feeling that it definitely wasn''t a good thing.


    It may be a groundless fear, but Julia couldn''t trust her father.


    She worried that her father might try to give Fernan the drug like he gave herst time.


    She thought she would feel better if she went directly to Fernan and asked him about the letter. She didn''t want to create any more misunderstandings with him.


    Your Grace, we have arrived at the mansion.


    Before she knew it, she reached the destination and the horseman opened the door.


    Julia got out of the carriage and briefly scanned the exterior of therge mansion.


    It was only today that she learned that Fernan had a separate mansion. She was dubious about it, but she needed to speak to him first.


    The moment she reached the gate, Julia bumped into someone who was walking out of the mansion.


    "Ah!"


    "Oh, I''m sorry"


    Julia was about to apologize, but paused. The person who came out of Fernans private mansion was someone she knew.


    A woman with her red hair down gracefully. It was Cornelia, Duke irs daughter.


    Julia remembered her from the day of the banquet, when she talked to the nobledies and they greeted each other briefly.


    "Eh, Grand Duchess?


    Cornelia looked at Julia with her big eyes.


    Julia froze in ce and stared at the gate of the mansion Cornelia just walked out. Why would Lady ire out of Fernans mansion? When Julia herself only found out today that Fernan had a separate residence


    Julia''s mind froze nk for a moment.


    "Um, Your Grace, you cant go in now.


    Cornelia smiled beautifully as she looked at the frozen Julia.


    "It''s probably best if you don''t go in."


    " What do you mean?"


    Julia asked back in a hard tone, and Cornelia leaned her back against therge gate.


    She stared at Julia, her gaze filled with interest and mockery.


    "On the day of the Founding Festival banquet, I heard the conversation between His Highness and the Grand Duchess."


    At the leisurely reply, Julias face darkened as she remembered that day.


    Cornelia, who was looking at Julia closely, continued with amusement.


    "It seems that His Highness is thinking of divorcing you"


    Cornelia''s eyes narrowed as if she felt sorry.


    Poor thing.


    Cornelia smiled with satisfaction as she watched Julia''s expression change from time to time.


    Why don''t you find someone to soothe your loneliness too?


    ""


    "After the divorce, youll have someone to reconsider."


    Was this what the sudden ominous premonition was about? Cornelia didn''t speak any of it directly, but Julia could see the meaning of her words at once. It was about the possibility that Fernan might have another woman in his life.


    And at the same time, rumors around her suddenly danced in her head.


    Julia stared with shaky eyes at the mansion where Cornelia was blocking the entrance.


    She wanted to ask Fernan the truth, but she was immediately afraid. Because Fernan had already told her about the end of this marriage, and most of all, he hated her.


    What difference would it make if he told her the truth when he didnt even think of her as his wife from the beginning?


    Julia pictured him in her mind, looking down at her with his usual cold eyes and hurting her with even colder words.

 Chapter 19

    Chapter 19


    The Duke of ir visited Fernans private mansion about an hour before Julia arrived.


    His daughter, Cornelia, was standing beside him.


    "I didnt expect your daughter toe with you."


    Despite the numbness in his voice, Fernan''s eyes showed signs of annoyance.


    Duke ir has been requesting a face-to-face meeting since the founding festival.


    Since he expressed his willingness to visit the Grand Duchy in person, Fernan had no reason to refuse and epted the request without hesitation, but he didn''t know Duke ir woulde with his daughter.


    "I havee to see Your Highness once more. It seems that you misunderstood me on the day of the banquet."


    Cornelia smiled lightly. After seeing that serpentine smile, the memory of running into that woman on the terrace on the day of the banquet came vaguely to Fernans mind.


    This made him feel ufortable, but at the same time, he understood why the father and daughter visited him.


    "Let''s sit down first."


    Fernan, who had been staring at them, nodded and led them to their seats.


    As soon as they were seated, the Duke of ir opened his mouth with a respectful smile.


    "Marquis Elody must be on fire by now. I don''t know how he knew I wasing here, but he went on a mad rampage."


    Marquis Elody was a savvy man, pacing from ce to ce and gathering information. So he was well informed about the Duke of irs business.


    "It''s easier to deal with it if you know it in advance."


    Fernan narrowed his brows dourly. He pictured the Marquis rushing to the Emperor to report the situation.


    It was supposed to offend the Emperor if the Grand Duke was in contact with another family with an evil heart.


    "Well, by the way. I heard from my daughter the other day that Your Highness is already thinking about divorce.


    Duke irs condescending words brought back another memory of the day of the banquet to Fernans mind, when he was annoyed by Julia''s constant approach.


    <b><i>Do you think this marriage willst forever?</i></b>


    Remembering that moment, Fernan, who was somehow in a depressed mood, looked at Duke ir and answered in a cold voice.


    "Your daughter seems to have a light mouth. I didnt expect she would pass on the dialogue she overheard.


    Cornelia visibly flinched at the cold words. Without even looking at her, Fernan went on without feeling guilty.


    So, the reason you came this far was not because you were curious about whether I was getting divorced or not, was it?


    "Of course not."


    Duke ir, perplexed for a moment by the tense atmosphere, quickly cleared his throat and began to get to the point.


    The reason Duke ir approached Fernan was to ensure that he would be drawn into the aristocracy. Currently, Fernan was in a neutral position, but his shell belonged to the imperialist faction. Along with the fact that he was the emperor''s nephew, the main reason was that he married Marquis Elodys daughter.


    "Although youre currently in a rtionship with the Grand Duchess Well, divorce is something you can do any time.


    ""


    "Of course, moving rashly will arouse His Majesty''s suspicion. But that is when there is no reason to do so."


    Duke ir added in a meaningful tone.


    "It would be a different story if the Grand Duchess had a major w that made divorce unavoidable."


    Duke ir continued to speak smoothly.


    "Even if she doesnt have any ws, you can make it up. Yes, you can spread a few fatal ugly stories about a young and beautiful noblewoman."


    The Duke''s words followed, and Fernan clenched his fists unknowingly. Blood ran down the back of his hand. Fernan, who had been staring at the Duke with a seething gaze, quickly returned to his expressionless face again.


    "I''m ttered that you even made your own ns for my divorce."


    Even though Fernan was being sarcastic to the fullest, Duke ir skillfully passed on his words.


    The Grand Duke''s divorce is an essential element of the n I''m proposing.


    The Dukes lips lifted straight up as Fernan tilted his head as if to say, "Tell me your great n once.


    "After the divorce, let''s make a connection with my family."


    ""


    "Do you not know. If you carry my family on your back, His Majesty will not be angry with you for very long."


    Fernan, who was silently listening to the Duke''s words, let out a small sneer.


    That was the reason Duke ir came to see him.


    He wanted to force his daughter on Fernan. Duke ir wasn''t any different from the Marquis Elody.


    "This is your chance to get out from under the shadows of the royal family. Wasn''t this a marriage that the Grand Duke never wanted from the beginning, and was unreasonable in many ways?"


    The Duke''s words were not wrong. Fernan never wanted this marriage and could have ended it whenever he had the chance.


    But, why does the question Julia askede to his mind at this moment?


    <b><i>When are you going to divorce me?"</i></b>


    He thought of her face as he listened to her quiet voice, and for a moment his feelings fellpletely to the bottom.


    For some reason, he felt his heart sink heavily.


    In fact, whenever he thought of hertely, he was always surrounded by this feeling.


    <i>Why on earth.</i>


    Fernans brows narrowed as he pondered in front of the Duke. The rootless afterimage of Juliapletely eroded his mind.


    She was a woman who was constantly bothering him even when he tried to ignore her.


    A strange woman who wouldnt care about his rude words and cold treatment. She didnt even show anger when she was being bullied by the servants.


    He had been desperately pushing her away because he was bothered by the way she looked at him with clear eyes, but she was always the same.


    She got on his mind like that. He didn''t know when or why.


    He could never quite acknowledge that fact and ignored it, but her face always came up suddenly and stirred his mind endlessly.


    <i>Have I finally gone mad?</i>


    <i>Yes, I must have gone crazy.</i>


    "Your Highness?


    Fernan finally raised his head at the voice calling him. He stared at the Duke and Cornelia, who were looking at him.


    He knew that joining forces with the Duke of ir would be convenient in many ways. But he didn''t have the slightest desire to do so.


    Rather, he was with Julia.


    Fernan, who flinched with confusion, raised his eyes and opened his mouth.


    Duke ir.


    His expression tightening as he left his tangled mind behind him, Fernan continued to speak with a stern voice.


    "I don''t intend to divorce. So, don''t look for me for this anymore."


    The Duke, who sent Cornelia out, tried to persuade Fernan for a long time.


    However, when Fernan refused to the end, the Duke returned to the capital and promised toe back in the near future.


    Fernan knew that the Duke wouldnt give up easily, but that didnt matter. Because he (Fernan) was not going to change what he decided.


    He still didn''t know what this anxious feeling was every time he thought of Julia.


    If he could see her face and hear her voice, would he be able to understand what this unsettling feeling was? Fernan, who returned to his castle earlier than usual, headed for Julia''s room, passing all the servants who greeted him.


    Stopping in front of the door of therge room, he knocked on it without hesitation.


    Soon the door opened and Julia appeared.


    Julia looked up at him without saying a word. Her pale face was expressionless, and he did not hear the usual greeting asking if he was back.


    Fernan stared at her warily, and then opened his mouth.


    "What have you been up to?"


    Julia, who had dropped her gaze, made a small movement of her lips.


    "I was just sitting."


    Her voice was subtle and faint. Fernan examined her secretly, wondering if she was hurting, but at that moment, she pulled out something.


    This letter was sent to Your Highness. I was going to deliver it to you in person, but something came up.."


    Receiving the letter, Fernan nced at the sender and shoved it roughly into his pocket. He didn''t even need to read it, seeing that it was a letter from the Marquis.


    Fernan hesitated for a moment, then spoke casually.


    Have you eaten yet?"


    "No."


    "Then let''s go down together now."


    Julia looked up at him quietly and immediately dropped her gaze on his outdoor clothes.


    When she saw that he was still dressed in his morning clothes, Julia spoke calmly.


    "I think itd better if you change your clothes first. I''ll go down first and wait."


    With those words, Julia walked past him. For some reason, the back of her as she carried her feet felt different from her normal appearance.


    Fernan watched the distant Julia for a while before turning away.

 Chapter 20

    Chapter 20


    When Fernan, dressed in casual clothes, arrived in the dining room, Julia did not look at him as she usually did.


    This was because Julia''s mind was now filled with the voice of Cornelia, whom she came across in front of Fernans private mansion.


    Until he sat down and the attendants served him food, Julia only looked at the table in a daze.


    "Are you not feeling well again?


    The sudden sound of Fernans voice brought her out of her reverie.


    Turning her gaze to him, Julia shook her head as she looked at him sitting across from her.


    "Then why don''t you try some?


    At this moment, Julia bit her lips with Fernans unusually soft voice.


    She wanted to remove her heart, which pounded like a habit even in this situation.


    She already knew very well that he would divorce her one day. But she was trying to ept it in her own way.


    Still, she felt lonely and sad at the same time that he was already nning to leave me. Even though she knew that she didn''t deserve that.


    After making an effort to change her expression, Julia started eating like it was nothing.


    Meanwhile, her wounded heart was endlessly quieted.


    ***


    Before she knew it, early winter was approaching. In the meantime, the garden was repaired and a greenhouse was built in the vacant lot.


    Julia walked into the greenhouse and stared at the snowkes dancing through the transparent ss.


    "Are you sure you just want to order these?"


    Bet, standing next to her, checked the order list and asked with a questionable face. Julia nodded silently.


    She was going to fill this greenhouse with nothing but lilies.


    There was no deep meaning to it. She just wanted to leave at least one trace of her in this castle.


    "Ah, Grand Duke."


    As Julia turned at Bet''s words, she saw Fernan entering the greenhouse.


    He took a quick step forward and sat down casually on the other side of Julia.


    Julia watched him in silence, but then quietly opened her mouth.


    Are you here to see the greenhouse?"


    "No.


    "Then"


    Fernan looked through the window pane without replying. Julia carved such a profile into her eyes.


    Recently, Fernan started to be quite gentle with her.


    He would casually visit her and sit in silence, or even suggest that they have dinner together once in a while.


    Julia attributed the reason for his attitude to onest act of kindness on his part.


    He was not a man who fit the word kind.but it felt good to think that way.


    Julia decided to just enjoy the moment.


    She didn''t want to waste herst moment with him, crying, hurting, and resenting.


    I''m going to nt a lot of lilies in this greenhouse.


    "."


    It''s my my favorite flower."


    Fernan wouldnt be interested in this nonsense, but there was nothing Julia could do because it was herst time.


    Julia continued to talk in an unfittingly cheerful tone.


    It''s nice to have a lot of snow here. When I lived in the capital, I had to wear thin dresses in the winter because of the high temperatures."


    Fernan stared at her. She blinked her long eyshes slowly, a small smile on her face.


    I don''t think it''s been long since I''ve been here, but time has already passed so quickly."


    So much had happened in that time. So many things had changed, but the only thing that remained the same was her heart.


    There had been times she resented him, but she had always loved him. It was still as true now as ever.


    Julia smiled quietly, making eye contact with him. The corners of the eyes curved gently, and the sea-blue eyes shone softly.


    Fernans eyes widened for a moment as he gazed at her. He quickly averted his gaze.


    " You talk a lot today.


    "I guess it''s because it''s snowing, and I''m excited."


    Fernans mouth lifted in a small smile at her gentle voice.


    .like a child."


    They looked at different ces. Each with a smile that meant something different.


    Loneliness oozed from Julia''s lips. She felt as if they were an ordinary couple, sitting together like this, having a conversation.


    Julia knew it was a meaningless time for Fernan, but this time was so precious to her, even just for a moment.


    ****


    "Your Highness, why did you do that? It could have been a good opportunity."


    When Lloyd learned that Fernan had turned down Duke ir''s proposal, he couldnt understand his decision.


    Unable to hide the questionable expression on his face, Lloyd continued to speak.


    Even if you don''t want to do it now, you should take your time to decide.


    Duke ir was also the head of the aristocratic faction. But he came in with his pride bent, so did Fernan have to refuse so bluntly?


    "It wouldn''t be a bad idea to have an insurance policy beforehand, just in case things go wrong.


    "Shut your mouth.


    Fernan answered as if he was annoyed. Lloyd kept his mouth shut, but still couldn''t understand his Lord.


    Fernan had said long ago that he would end this marriage with the Grand Duchess when the time was right.


    It was only natural. The marriage was forced without a single word of Fernans will.


    But, what kind of a change of heart would cause him to suddenly decide not to divorce her?


    "but I don''t think the Duke of ir will give up easily."


    Lloyd gave a small mumble. He was going to ask Fernan if he should consider it again, but Fernan turned over one document and intercepted the words.


    "I just refuse, that''s it."


    ""


    Lloyd looked at Fernan, and shook his head in disbelief.


    For what it''s worth, Fernan was very strange right now. How could he not divorce the daughter of the Marquis he despised so much when the chance was handed to him?


    His lord was not a man who changed his mind so quickly.


    He was a man who always made urate judgments, who nned with certainty, and who never changed his mind, no matter what.


    <i>Don''t tell me hes got a crush on her or something.</i>


    Your Highness, could it be that ?"


    Lloyd, who opened his mouth carefully, soon stared at Fernan with a puzzled face.


    It was because Fernan was looking out the window and smiling.


    Just a slight one, but not a sneer or a cynical smile, but one that came from the heart .


    Lloyd blinked in dismay as he followed his gaze and looked out the window.


    Why are you smiling so much while watching the snow fall?


    "Huh?"


    Lloyd''splexion changed terribly. His lord was now like a man half obsessed with something. Be very firm about that too.


    Fernan continued to stare out the window until Lloyd shook his head with a shocked look on his face, and eventually dropped his gaze at the documents on the table.


    A report on the demon invasion that urred at the border was intensified.


    He didnt know for sure, but it seemed strange. It seemed like someone was releasing arge amount of demons.


    Fernan signed the document saying that he would be visiting the border in the near future, and handed it to Lloyd.


    At the same time, Julia was weing the Marquis, who made a sudden visit to the Grand Dukes castle.


    She was flustered when she saw her father, who came to visit her without saying a word, but hurriedly showed him to the reception room.


    The Marquis, who acted no differently than usual, suddenly pped Julia when the surroundings became quiet.


    Julia, who stumbled greatly, grabbed her hot cheek and looked up at the Marquis in a daze. The frowning Marquis, who had lost his good looks, shouted in an angry voice. Julia''s lips trembled.


    "What on earth have you been doing? What did you do that made the Grand Duke do such a crazy thing!"


    "What do you mean"


    Unable to finish her words, she stopped speaking. She hadn''t seen the Marquis this angry in a long time. Her hands began to tremble.


    After struggling for a long time, the Marquis soon cleared his breath and spat out word by word.


    "The Grand Duke met with another family. Do you know what that means?"


    ""


    It means that he is looking for a new marriage partner to break up this marriage."


    When Julia didnt seem surprised, the Marquis shouted again with his eyes wide open.


    "You knew about this? Yes, there''s no way you didn''t know. This is all because of your misbehavior!"


    The loud voice hurt her ears. She could taste the fishy taste of blood as if her mouth was ripped open, but Julia kept her gaze down and remained silent.


    The Marquis red at her as if he was about to devour her and continued to speak.


    "I told you many times"


    ""


    If this marriage is ruined, you will no longer be my daughter!"


    "Its up to you.


    Julia muttered quietly. The Marquis couldn''t believe his ears and asked back.


    "What?"


    You can throw me out, or you can kill me. Do as you please."


    Julia''s blue eyes lost their light and became dimmed.


    She really didn''t want to think about anything right now.

 Chapter 21

    Chapter 21


    The Marquis, who was staring threateningly at Julia, opened his mouth in a hideous tone.


    "You''re you''re really out of your mind, aren''t you?"


    It was the first time Julia had tried to defy him in such a way. The Marquis''s eyes angrily distorted. The more he thought about it, the more he was disgusted.


    "You dare to make such threats against me without knowing the benefits I have given you.


    Julia stared at her father with unfocused eyes.


    It all didn''t matter anymore. Whether her father was going to beat her to death or kick her out of the family.


    She couldnt think of anything, her head was as empty as a nket.


    "Julia, listen carefully to what I say."


    The Marquis, who managed to contain the anger that was building up to the top of his head, calmly opened his mouth.


    "It''s not like you dont have a chance to make up for it. You can have an heir before the Grand Duke deres a divorce. Then you can keep him in your grasp. ."


    "I don''t want to."


    Julia muttered quietly, and the Marquis immediately frowned.


    Unable to contain his rising anger, the Marquis lifted his sturdy hand once more, but someone knocked on the door at that moment.


    Excuse me.


    Bet, who came in with refreshments, sensed an unusual atmosphere and paused for a moment.


    Um, I''ve brought tea"


    Frowning, Bet nced at Julia, who remained motionless.


    Meanwhile, the Marquis, who had finally managed to hold back his anger, sat down as if nothing had happened and said to Bet.


    "Leave the tea."


    "Oh, yes"


    Bet ced the tea on the table and carefully observed Julia, who was standing still.


    When the Marquis noticed Bet''s look, he opened his mouth in a caring tone.


    "Julia, father is wrong. Don''t just stand there, sit down. There are people under you, so you have to set an example."


    There was no trace of the fiery anger he had shown earlier.


    Seeing the Marquis''s attitude, which seemed to be simply cating his sulking daughter, Bet tilted his head and walked out of the parlor.


    As soon as Bet left, his expression tightened again, and he looked at Julia''s swollen, red cheek and said,


    "You have to take care of the matter no matter what. Stop being rebellious.


    ""


    "Tsk, how can you face the Duke with a face like that?


    The Marquis red at Julia for a moment and continued speaking.


    "No matter how much the Grand Duke says he''s like a wooden stone, in the end he''s just a man. If you make up your mind and jump at him, he won''t be able to refuse."


    ""


    "So, do whatever you have to do, you must have a child with him.


    Julia looked at the Marquis with a subdued gaze. His father''s eyes, filled with greed as always, were the same color as her own.


    It was so humiliating that she couldn''t bear the fact now.


    "This is yourst chance. It won''t happen again. Don''t think that I can''t do anything about a girl like you.


    Julia didn''t even blink at the Marquis'' continued threats.


    Her dimly locked face showed no signs of life.


    ***


    Oh my god, what is this?


    Melissa was astonished when she saw Julia''s swollen cheek.


    After some time, her face, with its broken capiries, became so red and hot that it hurt just to look at it.


    Julia just passed by Melissa without any reaction and sat on the bed.


    "Your Grace are you alright?"


    Julia nodded lightly. Melissa, who was watching her with concern, went outside to bring her a cold cloth.


    Left alone, Julia stared into the air.


    After sitting for a while without moving slightly, she suddenly stood up and approached the drawer. There was a pendant in it and Julia quickly took it out.


    It was the pendant that Matheus had given her. Light shone on the blue jewel, which was filled with his holy power. When she put it to her heart, she could feel the power of the pendant resonating with the power of her heart. It calmed her mind gently.


    <b><i>Are you happy now?</i></b>


    Suddenly Matheus'' voice came to mind, asking me if she was happy.


    Julia went back in her memory. Has there ever been a time when she was happy, even just once? She was pensive and dropped her gaze helplessly. She had never been happy in the past, and she wasnt happy now.


    She didn''t even know what to do to make her situation better.


    Closing her heavy eyelids, Julia put the pendant back in. She walked to the bed without strength andid her tired body down, and her eyes closed by themselves.


    At that moment, Melissa, who had gone to get the cloth, knocked on the door and went inside.


    But Julia was so exhausted that she didn''t even notice.


    Melissa rushed to her side, and gently ced the cool cloth on Julias swollen cheek. But Julia couldn''t feel any sensation.


    She could only stare and think.


    Even if she couldn''t be happy, she already knew how to avoid this misery.


    ****


    During his visit to the border, Fernan deployed more private troops to strengthen the defenses.


    As a result of his investigation, it became clear that the numerous demons that had invaded the border were the work of the Kingdom of Renev, one of the defeated nations in thest Imperial War.


    There were no major problems in defeating the demons themselves, but the evacuation of the permanent residents living near the border wasplicated.


    They set up temporary shelters for the people, and then spent several days just raiding the areas.


    It was early in the morning when Fernan returned to the castle after four days.


    Fernan, who had stopped his horse and was heading for the rear gate of the castle, paused for a moment.


    He saw someone walking slowly around the garden, which was covered with a thinyer of snow.


    Gazing at the figure with squinted eyes, Fernan approached without hesitation.


    The figure was hidden from a dark view, but he could recognize her at a nce.


    That woman walking alone was Julia.


    She was wearing a thin slip dress and a shawl, even though the dawn breeze was cold. Fernan called her gently.


    "Julia."


    It was the first time he had called her name aloud. While she was still feeling unfamiliar with this fact, Julia slowly turned around.


    "Why are you out here.?"


    Fernans face hardened for a moment as he spoke. It was because he saw the white gauze covering one of Julia''s cheeks.


    His brows contracted, and Fernan reached out to her face without hesitation.


    Are you hurt?


    He asked quietly as he lightly swept her cheek.


    "Why, why did you get injured?"


    Julia looked sullenly at his serious face, then changed the subject.


    "Yourete."


    Fernan wasn''t usually one to pass on the lore of beingte for any reason separately.


    This time, as usual, he left without saying a word to her.


    Therefore, Julia did not know why he had note back to the castle for four days, and she just waited endlessly for him to return.


    Because there was something she wanted to say to him.


    "Please tell me. What has happened?"


    Fernan asked in a somber tone. He wanted to remove this gauze now and check the wound, but he had to listen to her first.


    But Julia just stood still without replying.


    "Why aren''t you talking? Don''t tell me again."


    Fernan stopped speaking. Because Julia gently took hisrge hand in hers.


    Julia removed his hand from her cheek and let go without hesitation. Fernan stared down at his hand.


    His teeth were chattering somehow.


    "Tell me who did this?"


    "Your Highness.


    Is it a servant? Or"


    You said you''d end this marriage one day."


    Fernans face crumbled slowly. He didn''t know why Julia suddenly brought it up in this situation. Her calm voice followed as he carefully examined Julia''s expression.


    "Let''s end it now."


    "What?"


    Fernans eyes wavered slightly. Julia said, looking into his eyes.


    "We''re getting divorce."


    For the four days that Fernan was out, she agonized countless times.


    A husband who hated her. A father who forced her to have children with such a husband.


    So, to end this misery, she had to end this marriage.


    Her love for him was still the same. However, she couldn''t endure this hell with her heart alone.


    Love alone can ovee all trials and tribtions, and that is the story of a fairy tale hero.


    Such a beautiful fairy tale where the story proceeds on the premise that the two protagonists love each other deeply.


    But Julia was in a situation where she couldn''t even qualify as a protagonist.


    Her love was always one-sided. She was even more unhappy because she loved Fernan. Surprisingly, that fact hardened her heart.

 Chapter 22

    Chapter 22


    Fernans clear face slowly became distorted. A hunch that something was very wrong shed through him.


    Julia now had a look on her face that he had never seen before, and she was spewing out unexpected words.


    Fernan was immediately perturbed, as he was trying to figure out what was going on.


    He slowly depressed his brain as he revealed a numb face.


    I will be the one to decide whether or not to end this marriage.


    His quiet eyes stared at Julia.


    Unfortunately, you do not have a choice.


    ""


    In a response different from what was expected, Julia''s calm face gradually cracked.


    She didn''t have the slightest idea why he was suddenly doing this. Her mind waspletely covered with questions.


    "You''re going to divorce me someday. Then it doesn''t matter when, does it?"


    Facing Fernans eyes, Julia tried her best to grasp what was going through his mind.


    But there was nothing to see in the cold face.


    Fernan quickly took off his own jacket and slowly wrapped around Julias shoulders.


    While she was flinching, a low voice descended her ear.


    "What''s the reason for this?"


    "That''s That''s what I want to ask you."


    Touching therge jacket on her shoulders without familiarity, Julia tried her best to keep her voice as calm as possible.


    "You always said I bother you.


    No matter how she tried to get close to him and how hard she tried to resolve the misunderstanding, he didn''t give her a single piece of his heart.


    She no longer had the strength to handle his cold gaze. Being hurt has been enough so far.


    Julia, who had lowered her deep-set gaze, continued to speak.


    "So I will do as Your Highness wishes. I will divorce you and leave this castle"


    At that moment, Fernan reached out to her face.


    Julia, who swallowed the rest of her words as his hand lightly peeled off the gauze on her cheek, hurriedly covered her face.


    Fernan grabbed her hand and pulled her towards him.


    "Ah!


    The distance between them narrowed in an instant, Fernans eyes shook slightly as he stared at her face.


    The red wound on her cheek showed the marks of someones hand.


    Sweeping her face still with a sad re, Fernan muttered low.


    "Tell me, who did this to you?


    Julia averted her gaze with a bewildered expression.


    "that''s not what''s important now, is it?


    If you don''t want to tell me, I''ll look into it myself.


    Fernan quickly got to his feet.


    He was going to find out what kind of bloody b*st*rd had done this, even if he had to interrogate every single person in the castle.


    Julia stared nkly at him for a moment as he moved away, and then followed.


    Fernan finally stopped when a delicate hand grabbed his arm.


    "Dont do it. The servants didnt do it.


    "Then tell me who did.


    Fernan had no expression on his face, but a vein popped up on his powerful chib.


    Julia didn''t notice it, and just asked him back with aplicated look in her eyes.


    "What are you going to do if I say it?


    Julia mumbled quietly, biting her lip.


    What''s so important to Your Highness that I''m hurt?"


    Julia couldn''t possibly understand this situation. She couldn''t understand why Fernan avoided talking about the divorce, or why he was acting so sensitive.


    It was strange that he was so concerned about such a mere thing.


    He hated her.


    He said he would give her what she wanted, but now she was ready to break up with himpletely.


    Julia was a little angry at the situation, not being able to do what she wanted even in a moment like this.


    "You


    Fernan stopped speaking for a moment, as if holding something back, and opened his mouth again.


    "I''m angry that you''re hurt.


    "Why?"


    Julia''s eyes were as clear as ever as she asked this question. The dawn sun began to rise behind her.


    Fernans eyes were filled with the faint light she was bathed in.


    At this moment, he was angry with her, but at the same time he wanted to hold her.


    Fernan lowered his gaze, narrowing his brows as he couldn''t control the emotions that were building up.


    "What the hell?


    In a small recitation, he took off his steps as if he was running away. Julia looked confused at his distant back.


    She stood still for a moment, stroking his jacket that was left on her shoulders.


    ***


    "Fortunately, the wound is healed now."


    Melissa sighed in relief. The scar on Julia''s cheek now remained faint.


    Julia tried to pass it off as a scratch from bumping into somewhere, but Melissa didn''t seem to believe her.


    Your Grace, do you have anything more to take with you?


    "No, this is all I need."


    Julia lifted the pendant around her neck.


    She was going to visit the temple of Ilion where Matheus stayed today.


    She was worried that she would bother him, but Matheus was the only person she could ask for help at the moment.


    She trusted that Matheus would be able to help her through this confusing andplicated situation. It was an instinctive trust.


    Julia visited Fernan several more times after that day. But she only received a firm answer from him.


    <b><i>I''m not going to divorce you, so youd better give up.</i></b>


    He was the one who wanted to divorce her from the beginning, but why did he change his mind now?


    He already has another woman. He even met with her to talk about their marriage.


    <i>How much are you trying to fool me?</i>


    Julia came out of the room with a somber expression, and for some reason she nced at the knight who was guarding the door.


    "What''s going on?"


    Her question was answered by the knight with a polite silent bow.


    His Highness has ordered me to stand by the Grand Duchesss door.


    Julia, who was looking at the knight in a daze, asked suspiciously.


    "Why such an order all of a sudden"


    The order was that if anyone tried to harm the Grand Duchess, they were to be dealt with immediately.


    Julia stood there with a suspicious look on her face and quickly walked past the knight silently. As she stepped outside, the carriage was already there waiting for her.


    Julia, who was about to get into the carriage, turned around with a sigh. It was because of the inconvenience and difort of the knight behind her.


    "Do you intend to keep following me?"


    Yes, Your Grace.


    Julia''s expression tightened at the decisive reply, and she climbed into the carriage without a word.


    When the carriage departed in such a manner and some time had passed, Julia gently opened the window. She could immediately see the knight running near the carriage with his horse.


    It was hard to breathe, feeling like she was being watched, but she couldnt ask him, because he was just following orders.


    Julia slid down the cover on one side of the window.


    She had never had an escort before. So she had no idea how exhausting it felt to have someone following her around.


    ***


    In the office of the mansion, Fernan stood still behind his desk, his papers in disarray.


    <b><i>"Marquis Elody was the only visitor to the Grand Ducal Castle that day.</i></b>


    Remembering Bet''s words, Fernan broke the pen he was holding.


    Under the circumstances, the wound on Julia''s face was likely caused by the Marquis.


    It didnt take much to find out, but it didn''t solve the question of why the Marquis had done that to his daughter.


    Surely the Marquis was a father who truly cared for Julia. At least that was how he always acted in front of Fernans eyes.


    As Fernan covered his forehead and sank into his thoughts, Julia''s voice naturally came to mind.


    <b><i>"Were getting divorced.</i></b>


    At the same time, Julias red, swollen cheek came to his vision vividly, and he felt an uncontroble anger rising in him.


    D*mn it d*mn it"


    Filled with anger, Fernan raised his head at the sound of the door opening.


    Entering the office, Lloyd bowed silently and then reported.


    Your Highness, as you ordered, I have found several employers who used to work at the Marquis'' residence


    Lloyd slurred his words somewhat hesitantly.


    I met the daughter of the attending physician who worked at the Marquiss residence long ago, and ording to her Apparently, the Grand Duchess is the Marquiss illegitimate daughter.

 Chapter 23

    Chapter 23


    Fernan asked, narrowing his eyes.


    "Illegitimate?"


    "Apparently so. The physicians daughter said the Marchioness never had a second child."


    Lloyd also added that the physician had died a long time ago, and it appeared that he was murdered.


    Fernan, who had been silent for a while, suddenly clenched his fists. Lloyd nced at him with a pale face.


    "Your Highness, if you will allow me, I will secure witnesses and written testimony.


    ""


    Please send a formalint to Marquis Elody to hold him ountable."


    It wasn''t very umon for nobles to have illegitimate children. There were even times when the mistress and the child would be given separate ces to stay.


    But it was in other cases that the illegitimate child was taken directly into the family.


    Among the aristocracy of the empire, where bloodline was important, it was a deception and fraud against the other party to proceed with the marriage with the illegitimate child.


    "This is a fraudulent marriage, Your Highness.


    Lloyd spoke with force. Fernan was a member of the royal family, a Grand Duke of the empire at the center of the political world.


    The Marquis dared him to deceive him into this marriage with his illegitimate daughter; with this fact, the Emperor would not be able to say a word about this if Fernan wanted a divorce.


    However, despite Lloyd''s ensuing words, Fernan remained silent for a long time.


    His face remained so quiet that it was hard to tell what on earth he was thinking.


    In his mind all the words and behaviors that Julia had shown him, one after another passed by.


    The aphrodisiac was found in her room earlier and the words that had insisted on her innocence.


    Even the look of contemtion and the soft, reluctant attitude when the Marquis was mentioned.


    Of course, due to the nature of "he" the Marquis, there was no way he would care for an illegitimate child.


    Fernan now could guess how the Marquis usually treated Julia, just by seeing how he tantly pped Julia in the Grand Dukes castle.


    That must be why Julia reacted the way she did whenever the Marquis was mentioned.


    Everything added up.


    Fernan was as quiet as ever, and for a moment there was an indescribable anger in the depths of his eyes.


    Lloyd opened his mouth again.


    Your Highness, of course, this was done by the Marquis, but it is a self-evident fact that the Grand Duchess also remained silent and watched from the sidelines.


    The words caused Fernans brows to twitch, and then slowly return to normal.


    Lloyd was right. Regardless of the situation before and after, the fact that Fernan had been deceived by her was self-evident.


    And Fernan felt an obvious shiver of rage at the situation.


    But it wasnt because of the fact that Julia was an illegitimate child, nor the fact that he was deceived by her.


    It was directed at the Marquis who had treated Julia so badly.


    Fernan, who had been silent for so long, finally opened his mouth.


    "Lloyd.


    "Yes, Your Highness."


    His face quickly turned cold.


    "Nothing of what was said today cane out.


    "Eh?"


    Burn all the documents that can be considered as evidence.


    Fernan stood up from his seat, leaving Lloyd with a surprised look on his face.


    There was a sense of nervousness as Fernan left the office.


    ***


    Getting down from the carriage, Julia looked around the area for a while.


    Surrounded by arge wall, the Temple of Ilion had an open entrance for anyone to enter and exit freely.


    Julia, who was walking up the stairs, suddenly turned around.


    She saw Fernans knight following a few steps behind her.


    "I''ll go on my own from here."


    When she hinted, the knight looked at her with an expression of difficulty.


    Sighing soundlessly, Julia opened her mouth again.


    "This is a safe ce, I don''t need an escort."


    The knight was troubled for a while, and then he quickly bowed.


    Yes, then, I will wait outside."


    Nodding with relief, Julia retraced her steps.


    When she finally climbed the high stairs and passed through the doorway, she found the garden straight ahead.


    In the garden, the temple visitors were spending their time. In the peaceful and rxed atmosphere, her frustrated heart gradually began to fade away.


    Shortly after, Julia entered the main building and walked along the corridor.


    It must have been a long walk. From the other side, a child was seen running.


    The child stopped in front of Julia and greeted her in a crisp voice.


    Hello.


    "EhHello."


    Julia replied and smiled faintly. The child, who wore a priest uniform that wasrger than his body, looked like a young priest.


    The child suddenly grabbed her hand without saying a word, and walked confidently forward.


    Where are you going?"


    Julia asked with a panicked look on her face, and the child in front of her smiled as he turned his head around.


    "Master Matheus asked me to take you. I heard a very precious guest hase.


    Julia''s eyes grew wide and round. How did Matheus know that she was going to visit him when she had never told him?


    She followed the child cautiously and saw arge arched door at the end of the corridor.


    The child opened the door with a bang and jumped inside.


    "Master Matheus!"


    Once inside, a vast space was revealed.


    Matheus, who was standing on the tform, turned around. He spotted Julia and smiled softly, just like in the past.


    "Wee."


    Julia, who was staring at Matheus as he approached, hesitantly opened her mouth.


    "Did you know that I wasing?"


    "Yes, I knew."


    Matheus''s calm gazended on the pendant around her neck


    Thanks to the fact that the pendant has my power, I can feel your presence even from a far distance."


    "Ah"


    Julia gently stroked the pendant. Matheus, who was staring at her, asked.


    "Do you need help?"


    Julia nodded without reply. Matheus seemed to have the ability to see into her mind.


    Although she hadn''t known him very long, Julia felt an unexinable trust in him.


    She had a feeling that he would be able to teach her how to be happy.


    "Let''s move to a quiet ce first."


    Nodding, Julia followed Matheus'' lead into the next room. The small room, which appeared to be a prayer room, was peaceful and serene.


    After taking a seat, Julia opened her mouth after a few moments of pondering.


    I


    Julia was overwhelmed. After catching her breath, she continued slowly.


    "I want to get out of this situation."


    Matheus listened to her silently. In his warm and careful gaze, Julias thoughts and feelings naturally came out.


    I want to be happy, but I can''t, so I hope I can avoid this misery."


    ""


    I don''t want tolove my husband. It seems like I can really do that, but it has to be now but that person keeps me from moving forward."


    As she confided this, the faint resentment towards Fernan began to build up again. Julia gathered her gaze with a deep sigh.


    "What should I do?"


    Her voice began to tremble. Matheus was lost in thoughts with his head down.


    After a while, Matheus slowly raised his head and opened his mouth in a cautious voice.


    "I don''t dare to understand what you''ve been through."


    ""


    A sad light came into Matheus'' eyes.


    "With myck of power, I will never be able to fully resolve the situation you are facing."


    Julia gave a small smile. She felt a little lighter when she confided her heart to Matheus.


    Matheus stared at her and quietly spoke again.


    But I can provide you thest resort.


    Matheus'' face was a little dark as he said this.


    That was when Julia realized that thisst resort wasn''t a good thing for her.


    Julia stared at him and nodded, meaning that it was okay.


    She felt like nothing was matter. As long as she could get away from this misery.


    And so it was early evening when she returned to the castle after her long meeting with Matheus.


    Entering the bedroom, Julia found an uninvited guest in her room.


    Fernan was standing in the middle of the room waiting for her.


    It was the first time he came to Julia''s room like this since the aphrodisiac was found in her room a while ago.


    "Why are you here?"


    Julia mumbled in a perplexed voice.


    However, Fernan, who had entered her room at will, only asked with a nk face.


    "You. Are you the Marquiss illegitimate daughter?


    There was no exnation as Julia''s eyes gradually grew wide. Her face turned pale.


    Julia, who couldn''t answer immediately and only trembled with her gaze, murmured in bewilderment.


    "I


    "I guess its true.


    Fernan swept his hair roughly. His face was slightly distorted.


    Julia, who was silent, approached him.


    Until now, the Marquis had thoroughly concealed the fact that Julia was his illegitimate daughter.


    However, no matter how hard he tried to hide it, it was impossible for the Marchioness, who had never been pregnant with her second child, topletely deceive everyone pretending to have given birth.


    The Marchioness physician, the young errand boy.. Many people were sacrificed in the hands of the Marquis only to cover up the secret.


    The reason being that Julia''s value as amodity would be diminished if it was revealed that she was an illegitimate child.

 Chapter 24

    Chapter 24


    "Now you have one more reason to divorce me.


    The past which she wanted to forget came back to her at Fernans question, and Julia said with a tired voice.


    Fernans forehead wrinkled gently as he stared at Julia, who was mumbling in resignation.


    Julia did not give in and continued.


    "My origin will be a legitimate reason for divorce. Your Highness deserves hugepensation from my family."


    A deep sense of emptiness washed over her face.


    She didn''t want him to find out that she was illegitimate. Because she was afraid that he would reject her even more.


    But it was meaningless to worry now. No, it might be a good thing.


    A woman who secured the position of the Grand Princess while hiding her status. That noble man would never ept that.


    It was natural that he had never wanted her as his wife from the beginning.


    "So, if you decide to divorce me again, I will ept it withoutint."


    Fernans face was stained with twisted emotions as he watched Julia continue talking about divorce.


    Julia lowered her gaze, not noticing Fernans expression.


    Seeing no response from Fernan, Julia looked up and met his gaze. Her shoulders shook slightly.


    The way he looked at her was a little different than usual. His eyes were always calm and cold, but now there was something boiling in them.


    "If you get a divorce.


    ""


    "Where would you go?"


    Unlike his intense gaze, Julia had a hard time answering the question, which he asked with a calm voice.


    Because she hadn''t yet nned where she would go, how she would live, or anything like that.


    "That"


    When Julia slurred her words, Fernan approached her.


    Your identity is discovered and if you return to your family, is there any guarantee that you will be better than you are now?"


    Fernan suddenly reached out and brushed Julia''s cheek.


    Startled by the suddenness of the encounter, Julia''s eyes fluttered.


    Meanwhile, his passing hand gently touched a strand of her disheveled silver hair.


    The touch was light. But the voice that flowed out was increasingly hot and obsessive.


    Even if it''s the same hell, you might start to wish you were by my side."


    At that, Julia''s gaze began to shake aimlessly.


    Hell while she chewed on his words, the hand that had been circling her hair came down to her frail jawline.


    You''re not getting a divorce.


    Gazing at her trembling lips, Fernan put more pressure on the hand that was holding her chin.


    So stay here and pay the price for daring to deceive me.


    With her chin slightly lifted, Julia stared at him. Veins on her neck started pulsating.


    The sound seemed to be heard in her ears.


    His eyes, flickering like fire, held a strange emotion that Julia couldn''t quite measure.


    Julia bit her lip and moved her chin.


    He told her to stay here quietly, even in hell.


    To pay the price for deceiving him.


    Looking back at his words, Julia murmured in a faint voice.


    "Why on earth are you doing this?"


    She was finally ready to move on, but this man blocked her way so easily like this.


    Julia put a little more force into her gentle voice.


    "You said you didnt like me and I bother you.


    Even with her clear voice, there was no reply from Fernan.


    He just looked at her for a long time in silence.


    Eventually, Fernan stroked her cheek once more with his hand.


    Didn''t you tell me you liked me?"


    The words sank her heart, which was barely holding on.


    Then don''t ask me why and stay quietly by my side.


    His low voice kept entering her ears as the distance grew closer and closer.


    If it''s love you want, there''s nothing I can''t give you."


    His long fingers slowly stroked her lower lip. Julia held her breath involuntarily as the hot touch made her body jittery.


    Lifting her disordered gaze, she saw a faint heat in his eyes that she had never seen before.


    It was the kind of heat that didn''t quite fit this situation.


    Eventually, he lowered his head deeply and stared at her, their distance was now too close.


    Julia, who came to her senses btedly,


    regained consciousness, faltered and tried to turn her face, but the hand grasping her cheek forced her to fix her face on his.


    Then their eyes met again.


    Let me go"


    Julia tried to push him away with a faint voice, but he just lowered his lips. Her body froze as it was.


    The rest of her words were swallowedpletely by the colliding lips.


    Julia felt the unfamiliar touch of his lips, unable to grasp the situation.


    <i>What is this''</i>


    The feeling of his hard tongue parting her lips without time to push it out continued.


    Julia flinched and tried to turn her head away, but was quickly stopped by a firm hand grabbing her chin.


    Julia froze, unable to even close her eyes, as the hot sensation raked through her mouth.


    The sound of saliva sloshing in her mouth was apanied by the sound of her breathing getting heavier and heavier.


    Julia''s neck began to tremble. Fernans lips peeled back slightly, as if he was giving her time to breathe. It was only then that she finally gasped for air.


    But the lips that eventually collided with hers made her choke again. She pushed his chest away with all her might, but his hard body did not budge.


    Her legs lost their strength. The arms around her waist supported her wobbling body firmly.


    Through her increasingly fuzzy and wet vision, she could see Fernans face, which was a different temperature than usual. Julia flinched and grabbed his neck tightly.


    As she did so, she felt her body flutter upwards. Their lips didn''t even part at that moment.


    Before she knew it, her back was touching a soft spot. She didn''t need to check to know that she was on a bed. The kissing, which had been going on for a while, finally stopped.


    They were closer than ever, and she could feel their hot breaths. Suddenly, the ribbons tied behind her back were untied at once by his hands. The cold air touched her exposed shoulders.


    Julia gasped for breath and pushed on his shoulders when her dress was halfway down.


    "Thats enough."


    This man, who had refused to do so even on their wedding night, was now revealing a fervor she could not understand. She didn''t know what to make of this sudden act.


    The love that he said he would give her Is it just an act of mixing their bodies like this?


    Julia covered her mouth with one hand, and pushed his chest away with the other.


    At this moment, she was sure of one thing.


    Her feelings and opinions were of no value to him. He was never going to respect her.


    Biting her lips tightly, Julia held back the tears that were threatening to drop. Even so, the water that gradually came out began to moisten her eyes.


    Fernan stared down at Julia. Like a person who came to his senseste. Having said nothing for a long time, he soon lowered his hand and touched her eyelids.


    It couldn''t be, but his touch was gentle as if he was touching something precious. The hand that was wiping away all of her endless tears eventually fell away.


    At the same time, the shadow surrounding her gradually lifted. A bulky nket was ced on her body.


    ""


    Fernan got up from the bed silently, turned away and crossed the room.


    Julia closed her eyes with the sound of the door closing.


    Only the vibration of her heart beating violently echoed through the room. Her heart seemed to copse.


    ***


    After that day, Fernan increased the number of knights he had stationed around Julia.


    It was obvious that it was not only for the apparent reason of guarding her, but also for the purpose of surveince.


    It was as if he expected Julia to run away.


    "Your Grace, its Melissa. May Ie in?"


    Julia, who was sitting on the bed, did not respond to the voice calling her outside.


    She just buried her head more deeply into her knees.


    She stared only at her feet through the far distance of her vision.


    Her disheveled hair blocked her view, but she didn''t feel like she needed to fix it.


    Fernan no longer visited her. He just seemed to be getting reports on how she was doing.


    Julia didn''t bother to leave the bedroom either.


    She used to lock herself in the bedroom all day and sat still like this.


    <b><i>If I divorce you, where will you go?</i></b>


    As she buried her head in her knees, Fernans voice suddenly appeared in her vacant mind.


    <b><i>Even if it''s the same hell, you might start to wish that you''re better by my side.</i></b>


    The voice that had led to the dryness of justying out certain facts cut into Julia''s heart with ease.


    He was right. If she divorced him when her identity was discovered, she would never be safe.


    Perhaps she would really prefer to stay here as the apparent Grand Duchess.


    Julia gingerly touched her lips, which were still swollen.


    The damp air seemed to choke her again, as it had that day.


    She still had no idea what Fernans reason was for not divorcing her.


    He certainly didn''t like her. He even said she bothered him.


    <i>There must be a reason for him to want to keep this marriage</i>


    Julia concluded after being lost in her thoughts for a while.


    For the sake of something to be gained by maintaining this marriage, he kissed her, whom he hated with all his heart.


    There was no need to get hurt now. The man had always been cruel to her, and had never shown her any respect.


    But no matter how hard she tried to be calm, there was no way to soothe this miserable heart that had hit rock bottom.

 Chapter 25

    Chapter 25


    As the surveince in the vicinity increased, Julia remained quietly in her ce for a while.


    The more time she spent alone, the more her mind sank endlessly.


    At dawn, after what might have been days, Julia paced by the door, unable to sleep.


    After a short hesitation, she opened the door and saw a dark and deste hallway. Fortunately, the hallway appeared to be empty.


    While she was stepping out in such a cautious manner, someone suddenly stood in front of her.


    Your Grace.


    Surprised, Julia looked up and saw a knight bowing to her.


    "It''s dawn. May I ask where you are going?"


    I''m just going for a walk.


    When Julia calmly replied, the knight bowed and continued.


    "I will apany you."


    No, I want to go alone. You don''t have to follow me.


    She tried to sound as nonchnt as possible. Fortunately, the knight stepped out of her way.


    "Yes, Your Grace.


    Feeling relieved by the unexpected obedient answer, Julia immediately walked past the knight.


    She left the castle and headed for the garden. She walked down the long garden path and soon stopped in front of arge fountain.


    In her hand was a pendant.


    As she held the pendant close to her heart, Julia remembered Matheus'' quiet voice.


    <b><i>The reason I gave you this pendant is because I hoped it would give you peace.</i></b>


    On a recent visit to the temple, Matheus said, infusing the pendant with a stronger and denser holy power.


    <b><i>But now, you have a situation, I will help you to use my power contained in this.</i></b>


    That day, Matheus said something incredible. Julia could use the power herself.


    He said it was because of the holy power that was in her heart since birth.


    <b><i>If you put the pendant close to her heart and make it resonate, you will be able to exert your power for a short time.</i></b>


    This meant that the power of the heart could be used for a short time using the pendant as a medium.


    He added that the act of using the power in such a way alwayses with a price.


    He said that her body was not in a stable state to use power and if she were to use it randomly, her body would not be able to handle it.


    <b><i>Please consider this power as ast resort.</i></b>


    Julia finished her recollection of Matheus'' words and put the pendant back in its ce. Then she took a long look around. It was dawn and no one was passing around. She tightened her robe and hurried away.


    She continued walking in a rash manner.


    The gate of the castle would certainly be guarded by knights, so Julia deliberately headed towards the direction where no knight patrolled.


    Looking up at the high wall, Julia showed a determined face.


    <b><i>If you use your power to hide your presence, you might be able to escape safely."</i></b>


    There was no way to escape unless it was dawn like now.


    Just as she was about to take the pendant out of her pocket, someone grabbed her wrist.


    Her spinning body mmed hard into someone''s chest.


    "!"


    She raised her head, and to her surprise, Fernan was standing there.


    Below his messy ck hair, glistening golden eyes turned to her. While Julia froze for a moment, Fernan spoke with a frighteningly cold voice.


    "What are you doing here?"


    Julia didn''t answer, biting her trembling lip, so he asked again.


    "Where do you intend to go at this dawn?"


    ""


    "Tell me. Were you trying to run away?"


    Julia''s expression tightened and she tried to shake him off, but the firm hand that grabbed her wrist was too strong. She was afraid of his gaze that seemed to swallow her all up. Julia lowered her shaky eyes.


    Obviously, the knight earlier let her go. But did he secretly follow her?


    Or there were eyes watching her from elsewhere.


    While Julia was silent with a gloomy face, her body was suddenly lifted up.


    "Ah!"


    Fernan embraced her in his arms and began to walk leisurely.


    Julia could not hide her confusion when she looked closely at his face.


    When she lowered her gaze, she saw the cor of his shirt was loose. It looked as if he had jumped out of bed as soon as he heard


    Julia went out.


    His hands held below her knees and around her waist with persistent force.


    Julia was submissively held by him without rebellion. However, her mind was tangled with many thoughts and they stirred wildly.


    Without even taking a nce at Julia, he stepped relentlessly.


    As he did so, he reached the castle in the blink of an eye. There was amotion while Julia left the castle to escape, and servants were gathering in the lobby left and right.


    Once inside, the servants who spotted him huffed and bowed.


    "please let me down."


    Julia mumbled quietly, not wanting people to see her being held like this.


    But Fernan didn''t even pretend to hear her, he just walked up the stairs.


    He wasnt headed for the hallway where Julia''s bedroom was located. It was the other side, the hallway where his bedroom was.


    He opened the door a little urgently and ced Julia immediately on the bed.


    As Julia tried to get up, Fernans feeble efforts quickly put her back on the bed.


    Stay here from now on.


    "What do you mean?


    "You will stay here, in my bedroom only. Dont go anywhere."


    Julia shrank at the cold words.


    She thought he was going to kiss her again likest time.


    But Fernan turned away, leaving her untouched.


    Then he sat down on the sofa a little further away and just stared at her.


    Julia, who was staring at him nkly, slowly straightened up. Holding the nket tightly, she asked in a small voice.


    " Why are you doing this?


    ""


    Tell me what it is that you want from me.


    She thought after he discovered her fake identity he would divorce her in a heartbeat, but


    Fernans brows furrowed. His lips moved as if he were about to say something, and then closed them again.


    In the end, there was no answer that came back. Thus, only silence lingered between them for a long time. Julia felt a distant feeling and clenched her hands.


    Her head felt dizzy. Julia, who had been sitting firmly, eventually buried her head in her knees. Fernan was still watching her.


    He never took his eyes off her, not even for a moment. Time passed without dy as she sat like that with aplicated mind.


    It was around morning when the sun rose that Julia opened her eyes. When she raised her body, a thick nket fell down.


    <i>When did I sleep?</i>


    She remembered she was sitting up, but before she knew it, she was lying in bed asleep.


    Julia hurriedly checked the surroundings and did not see Fernan. With a small sigh of relief, Julia got out of bed.


    While doing so, she crossed the room and suddenly the door to the dressing room on one wall shed open.


    Standing in front of the door, Fernan stared at her quietly.


    "Where do you think you are going?"


    A voice with no highs or lows addressed Julia. Hesitantly, but not averting his gaze, Julia replied,


    "I''m going back to my bedroom."


    "What for?"


    Julia bit her lip at the cold voice that immediately struck back.


    She thought that in the morning he would change his mind about her staying only in his bedroom.


    But it didn''t seem to be the case. Julia tightened her grip on the skirt of her dress.


    "Are you going to keep me locked up?"


    "If you keep trying to run away, you will be.


    Hearing the reply without hesitation, Julia remained speechless for a while and looked up at him as he approached.


    As usual, his face was expressionless. He was a man who just gave orders without any exnation.


    Julia rxed her grip on her dress and bowed her head. Her pale eyes grew redder.


    Fernand flinched without realizing it, but it was just that.


    All that flowed out was an indifferent voice that swallowed all emotions.


    "Tell me you will stay with me and don''t bring up the divorce or anything else."


    ""


    "Then I won''t lock you up or monitor you anymore."


    Julia gave a small faintugh, looking like she was about to cry.


    It was obvious what he wanted from her. He wanted her to live as the obedient Grand Duchess like she had been.


    me to live on the apparent great public expense as before. Even if she was hated and treated coldly, even if this was hell, just be quiet and stay by his side.


    Julia''s deep voice flowed from between her dry lips.


    Until when


    ""


    "Are you going to be harsh to me, to the very end?"


    The faint glimmer of light in Julia''s eyes disappearedpletely.


    This man, who had said with all his might that he hated her, was now suddenly telling her to stay by his side. He didnt even tell her a convincing reason.


    He just ordered her to do so, as if her heart was nothing to him.


    Julia became more and more frustrated. The bank of emotions that she had barely been able to containpletely copsed.


    She didn''t want to understand this man any more.

 Chapter 26

    Chapter 26


    It''s been weeks since Julia took a step out of the bedroom.


    There was more surveince around the castle, and Fernan guarded her every move on a daily basis.


    He would not give her even the slightest chance to escape.


    It didn''t take long for Julia''s will to be broken by this. There was no way she could find a way out of this situation.


    The days passed in such a stifling manner.


    Late in the afternoon, Julia sat huddled in her bed.


    The look in her eyes was one of resignation.


    A whileter, she heard the sound of someone opening the door. Julia closed her eyes from the start and put her head down.


    Because there was only one person who coulde in this room.


    "Julia.


    With a muffled voice, steps approached. While Julia was silent with her head buried in her knees, one side of the bed caved in.


    Fernan, sitting beside her, reached out and touched her shoulder. Still Julia did not look up.


    Fernan kept her still and looked around the bedroom. The meal he had brought her a few hours ago was left untouched.


    Some books and neatly folded clothes on the table were also untouched.


    Fernan, his brow narrowed gently, opened his mouth.


    "I dont know about everything else, but eat."


    ""


    "Will you listen to me if I force you then?"


    Fernan continued to speak to Julia, who gave no answer.


    Hiding his frustration, he eventually grabbed Julia''s cheek and made her look at him.


    It was only then that Julia''s pale face finally turned to him, but she did not meet his gaze.


    Fernan stared at her longshes, then reached out to her and forcibly lifted her up. He stepped over to the table and sat Julia down.


    He then took the tray, which waspletely cold, and ordered the attendant to bring him a new one.


    While Fernan was at the door, Julia immediately got up and went back to bed.


    "Julia."


    When Fernan grabbed her hand, Julia shook him off with a feeble effort. The eyes looking back at him were empty. While Fernan looked far away for a moment at the sight, the attendant brought a new meal in.


    "Eat."


    Fernan, who had finally regained his senses, once again led Julia to sit in front of the table.


    Julia quickly turned her head to the side, and he gently grabbed her frail chin and turned her to him.


    He picked up a spoonful of food and held it out to her mouth. When Julia didn''t open her mouth, Fernan recited in a quiet voice.


    "If you want to do this long all day, do so."


    ""


    It was only then that Julia, who had finally turned her gaze to look at him, moved her lips for the first time.


    "I''ll eat on my own.


    Fernans expression softened faintly.


    He gave Julia the silverware and held hand directly over the dishes before finally sitting down on the other side of her.


    Julia stared down at the warm, freshly prepared food and then nced at Fernan on the other side.


    She was sure that Fernan would sit there until she was finished with it.


    In the end, Julia slowly moved the fork around and scooped up some of the food.


    However, with no appetite and no feelings, Julia put down the fork before she could even eat half of it.


    As she got up and walked back to bed, Fernan gently cleaned up the meal tray without saying anything else. Julia slowlyy down on the bed. The fact that this was Fernans bedroom didn''t give her any more cause for concern.


    She just wanted to sleep like this.


    But soon she had to force her eyes open by a hand supporting her body.


    "Didn''t you sleep enough already?"


    Julia tried to lie down again without reply, but was prevented again.


    Gently grabbing her shoulders, Fernan made eye contact with her . But Julia turned her gaze without looking at him.


    "Stop being so stubborn."


    ""


    "It''ll be over if you say you''ll stay by my side."


    Julia''s quiet gaze finally turned to Fernan. But time passed, and nothing came out of her mouth.


    Her lips were still closed, and her stare at him was filled with the will not to say what he wanted.


    Fernans face gradually hardened.


    Staring at her closed lips, he reached out and raised her soft chin. He lowered his head as if he was going to kiss her, but stopped just before their lips touched. Julia didn''tply, didn''t rebel, just averted her gaze.


    ""


    Fernan watched her for a moment, then slowly raised his head and let go of her face. Julia stared at him as he turned away and let go of the hem of the dress she was holding. She lied down and closed her eyes again, but Fernan didnt say anything this time.


    Julia erased all kinds of thoughts that shook her mind.


    ***


    Since that day, Julia has been suffering from a fever.


    Her doctor visited again and again, but she showed no sign of improvement, even after taking her medicine. Julia gasped for air as shey buried in bed. She heard someone talking in the background.


    Her Highness is weaker than before.


    ""


    "She needs to move her body, even if it''s just a light walk. She must also increase her food intake. Most of allno more mental pressure."


    When Julia opened her eyes gently, she saw Fernan silently listening to the doctor''s firm words. Then, Julia closed her eyes again and immediately fell asleep.


    While Julia slept, the sky quickly darkened. After a while, a faint moonlight leaked into the room, which had turned into a dense night. Fernan stood still beside Julia, who was deeply asleep. Hisrge hand touched her forehead.


    The cool,fortable touch gently rxed Julia''s eyes. The hand that had stayed for a while as if measuring her temperature quickly fell from her forehead to her cheek. The cold touch gradually cooled her heated cheeks. A quiet voice descended.


    "Julia."


    Fernan continued to mumble, even though there was no way she could hear him.


    Don''t think about leaving."


    "Even if it hurts, hurt by my side."


    ""


    Fernan gently grabbed her hand. He knew it was his fault that she was this sick.


    He kept her locked up and prevented her from going anywhere, so her weak body must have been under a lot of pressure.


    But he didn''t know what else he could do to keep her here.


    He felt more and more unsure of everything.


    The surge of emotion he always felt whenever he looked at Julia crumbled while she was constantly trying to get away from him.


    He didn''t want to hurt her, but he wanted to keep her by his side, even if it hurt.


    He could give her anything she wanted if she would just stay by his side.


    But why does she keep trying to escape?


    Why doesn''t she look at him the way she used to?


    Julia, who always expressed her love for him with her eyes, was no longer there. That fact twisted and stimted his mind. The more she tried to escape, the more he couldn''t let go.


    An uneasy look that even he couldn''t help himself gave way to her sleeping eyes.


    Then suddenly, as she was moving her hands in her sleep, she gently grasped his hand.


    The faint touch of her skin shook his heart. He swept Julia''s forehead, which broke out in a cold sweat.


    He hoped that she would never let go of his hand for the rest of her life. He sincerely hoped that she would remain only within his realm forever.


    ***


    Julia came out of her long fever on a day when the snow began to fall slowly after a long absence.


    The dawn was as dark as ever. Julia sat up, feeling light-headed.


    When she blinked her eyes in a daze, she saw Fernan sitting on the sofa with the moonlight shining at him through the window.


    Julia stared at him with a quiet gaze. Perhaps fell asleep while sitting, because he did not move a muscle.


    Come to think of it, she had never seen Fernan sleep before.


    It was only natural since they barely even saw each other, let alone seeing him sleep.


    Julia quietly moved away from the bed, feeling iprehensible.


    Fernan did not open his eyes, even as she stepped and moved on the floor. She approached him with the utmost breathlessness.


    His closed eyelids did not move at all slightly. Watching his face carefully, Julia nced at the door.


    Suddenly, the thought urred to her that she might be able to get out of here now.

 Chapter 27

    Chapter 27


    Of course, there would be knights around the castle, but she had a feeling she could make it somehow as long as she avoided Fernans eyes.


    Julia, who was about to take off her steps, reached out to him just in case. She waved her hand cautiously towards his eyes, but Fernan didn''t open his eyes.


    But even before she could straighten her body, a firm hand grabbed her and pulled her back.


    "Ah!"


    In a sh, Julia was held in his arms. Before she knew it, his half-open golden eyes were staring at her.


    His hand wrapped around her waist pulled her closer to him. She had to look at him helplessly as she sat on the hard thighs.


    "Where are you going?"


    A somewhat faint voice sounded in her ear. Julia tried to sit up, but his firm hands did not budge.


    Fernan murmured, lowered his head slightly.


    Lets go together tomorrow.


    With those words, he gently held Julias and leaned her against his chest. Julia could feel his heartbeat through their colliding bodies.


    Fernan just slumped down and gently put his forehead on Julia''s shoulder.


    He didn''t say anything else.


    Julia tried to push him out, but the big hands wrapped around her waist did not easily fall off.


    <i>Did he fall sleep?</i>


    Staring at him with a perplexed expression, Julia eventually let go.


    It was an ufortable position, but it was useless to try to move.


    Giving up and letting out a small sigh, Julia rxed her rigid body.


    After gazing over his shoulder for a while with a dazed expression, Julia lowered her eyelids lightly.


    Perhaps it was because of warmthing from him. Her eyes grew heavier.


    At some point, Julia, who was leaning on his chest, closed her eyespletely.


    ***


    The next day, Julia was able to go outside the castle for the first time in a very long time.


    It was thanks to the many times her doctor had told her to move her body as much as possible.


    As if it were natural, Fernan held her hand, but Julia was unusually obedient.


    The path he led was to the rear garden of the castle.


    As soon as she took a step outside, Julia felt dizzy for a while in the subtle sunlight.


    After all this time, Julia realized how long she had been trapped. With a buzzing sound, she turned her gaze and arrived in front of the ss greenhouse.


    As she entered, the first thing she saw was a flower bed full of lilies.


    For a while, Julia was transfixed by the white expanse of the flower bed.


    As you said, this whole ce is filled with white flowers.


    At Fernans quiet words, Julia blinked slowly.


    Only then did she remember saying that she would fill this greenhouse with only lilies.


    It had been a long time since she visited the greenhouse, so today was the first time she saw so many flowers nted like this.


    "If there''s anything else you want to do, feel free to do it."


    Fernan looked at her. He was calm as usual, but there was a hint of nervousness in his voice.


    You can do everything as you please.


    <i>So, don''t try to run away anymore.</i>


    Julia could fully anticipate that he had not spoken.


    Perhap Fernan thought that she would be satisfied if he give her material things.


    But that wasn''t what Julia wanted.


    She wished for a life of loving and being loved in peace, without hurting and without worrying.


    But now she was too tired to wish for such love from Fernan.


    <b><i>If it''s love you want from me, then there''s nothing I can''t give you.</i></b>


    He had said that but Julia knew better. The love he said he could give and the love she wanted werepletely different concepts.


    At one time, just one nce from him was enough.


    There was a time when she selfishly thought that Fernan was her only hope.


    She thought that this man was the only one who could protect her in this hellish life.


    Because he was her first love, and at the same time, he was the first family she had ever had after escaping the shadows of the Marquis family.


    Familyyes, funny enough, she thought they could be a family.


    Julia took a step forward, then she bent down and looked at the beautifully nted white flowers around the small fountain.


    With a snap, she tore off a petal. It was something she would never have done in her normal life.


    As she looked at the petals in her hand, Julia opened her mouth for the first time.


    I''ll stay by Your Highness'' side.


    She stood up and turned around. When she raised her head, her eyes met Fernans immediately.


    He seemed inwardly surprised and his eyes wavered slightly. But the look in his eyes, which soon narrowed again, seemed to indicate that he was trying to figure out if she was sincere.


    It still didnt look like she meant it. So she was going to make him believe it from now on.


    All Fernan wanted was for her to remain here. Then she would do as he wished and he would loosen his security.


    I won''t think of divorce any more."


    She would not upset him with any more useless pride. After he believed her words and removed all surveince, when he wouldnt give her his full attention anymore. She could escape then.


    .


    At first nce everything seemed to have returned to its original position.


    Julia no longer spent her time just buried in bed. She ate at appropriate times, exercised, and regained her health.


    From then on, Fernan no longer locked her in his bedroom. She escaped the confinement with a single phrase: I wont think of divorce anymore.


    As such, Julia was once again free to roam the castle, but that didn''t mean the watchful eyes disappeared.


    There were still knights staying around her, and she had to be followed wherever she went, even inside the castle.


    <i>I already expected this, so it''s okay.''</i>


    Julia did nothing. She didn''t even try to get out of the castle.


    Yes, the day continued to look ncingly peaceful.


    When evening came, Julia slowly made her way to the dining room.


    When she was confined, she always ate by force in the bedroom,


    but now she naturally ate in the dining room, facing Fernan.


    "Good evening, Your Highness."


    Julia greeted, sounding as friendly as she once had. Fernan stared at her.


    Good evening.


    The man, who had always failed to respond to her greetings, now gave a short reply.


    Fernan stared at Julia until she sat down and only after he saw her take the fork and put the food in her mouth did he begin to eat.


    Julia continued to eat quietly and nced at him.


    Fernan still didn''t seem to believe her sincerity. However, he didn''t particrly question or confirm it.


    Feeling her gaze on him, Fernan suddenly looked at her. Julia opened her mouth slightly avoiding the gaze.


    "Your Highness."


    Then she turned to him again, her eyes serene.


    "After dinner, lets go for a walk together."


    ""


    I want to walk with you.


    A cautious color appeared on her face. It was because she was nervous that it might have sounded contrived.


    But instead, it peeled back Fernans caution, and she heard a more soothing voice than usual from him.


    "Yes, let''s go together."


    Julia felt an unfamiliar emotion for a while, but just nodded.


    After finishing the meal, they left the dining room side by side and headed straight toward the back gate.


    The snow-covered path was clean and tidy, having been diligently cleared by the servants for several days.


    When Julia first arrived here, thendscaping of the Grand Duke''s castle garden wasnt pleasing to the eye.


    However, ever since Julia showed her will to repair the garden one day, finally the ground was changed and a greenhouse was built, and now thendscape was especially beautiful.


    In the spring, it became even more beautiful with flowers.


    <i>Maybe I wont be here then, </i>Julia mumbled with a subtle look on her face as she walked silently.


    No words were exchanged between them, except for the sound of footsteps.


    She nced at Fernan, but his face was obscured by the dimness of the sky.


    <i>How long would it take to fool that man perfectly and escape?</i>


    She wanted to leave here before this winter was over, at least.


    Before the will to escape waspletely gone.


    After being lost in her thoughts for a while, Julia impulsively grabbed his fingers.


    The feel of his hand wrapped around hers made Fernan stop.

 Chapter 28

    Chapter 28


    Ah..


    Surprised by her unexpected action, Julias eyes widened.


    She took a step back and tried to pull her hand away, but Fernan grabbed her hand again.


    He sped her hand and looked down at Julia. Then, silently, they started walking again. Julia looked at him as he walked a little ahead of her, and dropped her gaze with their linked hands. Even in the cold air, his hand was warm all by itself.


    As she felt the warmth from him, Julia suddenly remembered what he said to her.


    <b><i>Didn''t you tell me that you liked me?''</i></b>


    <b><i>"Then don''t ask me why and just stay by my side.</i></b>


    Perhaps this man had been taken for granted.


    She had always been a blind and passive wife to him. She was a foolish woman who loved him desperately, no matter how much it hurts.


    She must have been such a woman to him.


    Maybe this marriage didn''t be necessary for him, but he was stubborn after she told him she wanted to divorce.


    That was probably why he tried to lock her up in an obsessive way that she had never seen before.


    Julia''s face became determined. If that was the case, she could pretend to love him blindly like she used to.


    It wouldn''t be difficult to act like that, since the thought of him still shone faintly in a corner of her mind.


    <i>Even at this point</i>


    Julia''s lips tightened in self-mockery, and she approached him with her expression tightly held.


    As they walked side by side, Fernan looked at Julia again.


    In that state, Julia grasped his hand tightly.


    Fernans eyes shimmered faintly in the moonlight. Julia looked up at him like that and lifted her lips faintly.


    As if she wished this time wouldst forever, like that.


    ***


    Since then, Julia remained faithful and never left Fernans side.


    As before, she spoke to him meaninglessly and made an effort to spend time with him.


    Still, Fernan still seemed unwilling to remove the knights around her.


    The knights were ostensibly there to protect her, and she had no reason to ask him to remove them.


    As a result, she couldn''t help but feel impatient.


    After a few vague days of this, Julia suddenly received an invitation from the Imperial Pce. The event was to gather the noblewomen together as the due date of the Crown Princess was approaching. Since Julia was also a member of the imperial family, it became inevitable that she would have to go to the capital.


    <i>I don''t want to go.</i>


    Julia let out a small sigh as she was tended by the maids.


    If she goes to the capital, shell have to meet someone she doesnt want to see.


    Marchioness Elody. Because she had never fallen into such a position.


    However, since she had told Fernan that she would not divorce him, she had to fulfill her duty as the Grand Duchess first. And so, as she finished her preparations and descended the central staircase, the knights who were assigned to escort her bowed their heads.


    The number of knights increased by two. She was going to the capital, so Fernan increased the surveince.


    Julia stepped out of the doorway with a faint sigh.


    As she got into the carriage, the knights followed, escorting her around the carriage as it was natural.


    Sitting alone in such a huge carriage, Julia suddenly remembered the past.


    The memory of going to the capital with Fernan. He was that heartless man who only paid attention to his papers without ever looking at her.


    She remembered peeking at him secretly every chance she could.


    Julia closed her eyes as she leaned her head against the window to get rid of her thoughts.


    Meanwhile, the rattling carriage ran constantly.


    It took half a day to arrive at the Imperial Pce, which, as usual, boasted a gorgeous and magnificentndscape.


    "Wee Grand Duchess. Let me show you where you will be staying.


    Julia entered the vi ording to the guidance of her servant.


    The schedule was quite long this time and she had to stay alone in the capital for four days.


    She made her way to her assigned bedroom and after putting on her banquet dress, she headed to the reception room just in time.


    The first person to greet Julia was, unfortunately, the Marchioness.


    "Julia, it''s been a long time!"


    The Marchioness rushed over with her arms wide open and hugged her daughter.


    In the eyes of others, Julia was the lovely daughter of the Marchioness, who was a gentle mother as always.


    Julia greeted her with a somber face.


    "It''s been a long time, Mother."


    But her voice was as stiff as it had always been.


    It was because the fear of the Marchioness that she had umted since she was a child still lingered in her mind like a scar.


    Now, all thedies are here. Lets go to our seats.


    The Marchioness, holding Julia''s hand gently, headed for their reserved seats.


    The Crown Princess, the main character of this ce, had not yete.


    Julia''s reserved seat was the one closest to the upper seat. As she say down, the nobledies who were already seated nced at her.


    Some of them were familiar faces, but unlike before, the way they looked at Julia was somewhat subtle.


    "It''s been a long time since I''ve seen you, Grand Duchess. How have you been?


    "Yes, have you been well?"


    Even as they exchanged passing greetings, they were silently exchanging nces with each other.


    Julia noticed a mixture of curiosity and mockery in the way they stared at her. Just as she felt her heart sink looking at them, an attendant informed her that the Crown Princess had arrived.


    "Her Royal Highness the Crown Princess is entering."


    All thedies rose from their seats to greet her. Veronica nodded benevolently and took her seat at the top.


    Veronica was distinctly fuller than she had been when they met at the Founding Festival.


    Thus the small banquet began with tea time.


    When the atmosphere was ripe with ritualistic conversation, Julia had a short conversation with Veronica.


    "I''m sorry you had to travel so far to be here. But Im so d that youre here.


    "I''m grateful.


    Veronica, who was somewhat hesitant, quietly opened her mouth when Julia showed her a small smile.


    "Did you know that theres a rumor in the capital, by any chance?"


    "A rumor?"


    Julia tilted her head with her eyes wide open. Realizing that she knew nothing about it, Veronica quickly shook her head.


    "I shouldn''t have brought it up. Its a small rumor, so don''t worry about it. Now, the priests of the Temple of Ilion will be arriving at the Imperial Pce soon. Priest Matheus wille too."


    Julia was still concerned about the rumor, but she answered as Veronica changed the subject.


    I see. Ill visit him at Mass."


    "Let''s do that. We''ll go togetherter.


    Veronica smiled and continued her conversation.


    Meanwhile, the eyes of thedies seated at the other tables were fixed on Julia.


    It was in the afternoon when the small party ended. It was only after dinner that Julia could get out of the banquet hall.


    Just as she was about to head back to her designated room with a servant, someone gently grabbed her wrist. It was the Marchioness.


    "Julia, in which pce are you staying?"


    Before Julia could answer, the Marchioness quickly continued.


    "It''s a pity we have to part ways like this. Lets talk some more. Come on, show the way.


    Julia sighed silently as she looked at the Marchioness standing by her side as if it was natural.


    So as they walked together to Julias ce, the stares around them disappeared. It was then that the Marchioness finally took off herpassionate mask.


    "Do you know what rumors have been circting in the capital?


    As soon as they arrived at the assigned residence, the Marchioness asked in a harsh voice.


    It sounded like the rumor Veronica mentioned earlier.


    "Is it about me?"


    Julia tried to guess what kind of rumor it might be, but nothing came to mind.


    She was not a frequent visitor to the capital, nor did she have a close rtionship with thedies.


    "You dont know?


    ""


    I knew that the Grand Duke was not very pleased with you, but I did not know that he got a private mansion. From what I''ve heard, he''s even thinking about divorcing you.


    The Marchioness red at Julia, pouting and clicking her tongue.


    It was only then that Julia realized what the rumor was and how it started.


    It was probably because of Cornelia, the Duke of ir''s daughter Julia had run into at Fernans private residence a few months ago.

 Chapter 29

    Chapter 29


    Cornelia said that she heard the conversation between Julia and Fernan on the day of the national banquet.


    <b><i>"Why don''t you find someone in advance? Whether it''s someone to soothe loneliness or someone to go to after divorce.</i></b>


    Julia remembered the elegant voice that said this while staring at her in front of Fernans private residence.


    Julia''s face gradually darkened.


    If Fernan was close to Cornelia, and if the matchmaking was exchanged, it would not be surprising if she deliberately spread such rumors.


    "It''s already been a year and there''s been no news from you, so I had a rough idea but you are, and always have been a fool.


    The Marchioness murmured with an expression that made it hard to tell whether she was angry or mocking.


    It was a dual emotion. She was angry at Julia for bringing disgrace to the Elody family, but at the same time she felt slight satisfaction at seeing her treated as befitting her lowly birth.


    Julia didn''t panic, she just closed her eyes slowly as if she was numb.


    Even if such rumors were circting, it didn''t matter now. There was no more reason to be hurt.


    Anyway, she intended to somehow get out of the position of the Grand Duchess before winter ended. When Julia didn''t show any reaction, the Marchioness frowned heavily.


    "How I have lost face in front of the nobledies because of you"


    "Mother."


    Julia raised her quiet eyes and stared at the Marchioness.


    The Marchioness eyes narrowed for a moment as her gaze was devoid of any emotion.


    Julia spoke in an uninterested voice.


    "Why don''t you go home now?"


    "What?


    It''s getting quitete. I''m a little tired too."


    The Marchioness stood up and raised her voice.


    "How dare you kick me out.


    Shedding her gentle mask, the Marchioness could not contain her anger. Julia just avoided looking at her as she raised her hand in the same way the Marquis did the other day.


    But the difference between the Marquis and his wife was that the Marchioness sense was a little more sensitive.


    Seeing the expression that everything was annoying and exhausting of Julia, the Marchioness lowered her hand and red at Julia.


    "You have an ulterior motive, don''t you?"


    The Marchioness had never seen Julia look like this before.


    She had only seen her shrugging, shaking, and just meekly doing as she was told.


    At the Marchioness words, Julia squeezed her soft palms, but her expression was as calm as she could be. The Marchioness stared at her for a long time and spoke in a rxed tone.


    "When you step out of the shadow of our family, a woman like you is just a lowborn on the street.


    Julia will never be free from her oppressive life, that was what the Marchioness meant.


    So don''t dare to climb up blindly, and just do what you''re told to do for the rest of your usefulness.""


    Julia gradually unfolded her hand, which had been tightened. She felt the pain of hitting her heart violently, but her expression hardened.


    "It doesnt matter what you say.


    "What?"


    "You need to leave now."


    Julia was ready to do anything to avoid this misfortune. Therefore, those ursed words could no longer bind her to this hell.


    Julia walked to the door, opened it, and looked back at the Marchioness. As the Marchioness paused with a look of dismay on her face, Julia quickly called out to a chambermaid who was passing by over the corridor.


    "The Marchioness Elody is leaving, can you show her the way?


    Yes, Your Grace. Ill do so.


    Julia looked at the Marchioness again. When the gaze of the servant reached her, the Marchioness had no choice but to move her feet.


    However, even as she walked out of the room in a bad mood, the Marchioness didn''t forget to re at Julia. And so the Marchioness disappeared across the corridor, and Julia closed the door without hesitation.


    ***


    The first thing on the agenda for the next day was a meeting of the women of the imperial family.


    It was a meeting regarding the banquet and charity events that would be held after the Crown Princess''s birth. The Empress asked Julia to travel to the capital often in the future. She was of the opinion that since the Grand Duke was not deeply involved in the affairs of the capital, it would be preferable for her to maintain a close rtionship with the Imperial Pce even with the Grand Duke.


    To her words, Julia answered honestly that she would do that. But it was a promise she wouldnt be able to keep.


    After that, with some time to spare before the next schedule, Julia went alone to the side garden of the Pce. In the center of the vast garden was a maze garden of ash trees. Julia emptied her head as she slowly walked through the maze.


    There were three days left on the schedule.


    "ha


    Julia sighed deeply. Even though it had only been one day, she already felt exhausted. Returning to the Grand Duchy wouldn''t change that, but it was better than this unfamiliar Imperial Pce.


    When she turned at the corner with a gloomy face, Julia unexpectedly met someone walking from the opposite side of the path. It was a boy of about ten years old, wearing a white priest''s uniform.


    The boy who spotted Julia smiled at her. The boy had a familiar face. Julia then remembered she had met him in the temple of Ilion.


    It was the young priest who took her to see Matheus that day.


    How are you?


    The child greeted her in the same cute voice as then. It seemed that this young priest was included among the priests who were supposed toe from the temple of Ilion.


    Julia smiled and bent her knees.


    We meet again, priest.


    Seeing that the child was here, Matheus must have arrived at the Imperial Pce as well. Before Julia could ask anything, the child spoke as if he could read her mind.


    "Master Matheus has gone to the Central Pce. He has some things to prepare for the Mass that will be held in the afternoon.


    I see. So the priest is alone?"


    Julia asked gently, meeting the child''s gaze, and gave him a little tap on the head.


    "Yes, Master Matheus said I could look around the garden.


    The child replied with a soft look in his eyes. Julia smiled gently at how cute he looked and suddenly held out her hand.


    This garden isplicated and you might get lost. Would you like to walk with me?"


    Looking at the offered hand, the boys eyes widened for a moment. Then, he smiled and took Julias hand.


    Yes.


    With the little hand in hers, they walked through the maze garden together.


    The boy talked about many things. The reason Julia was here was for the Crown Princess'' birth mass, and she would only stay for a week, but Matheus had to stay for over a month.


    He then said that he was Matheus'' only disciple and said something cute about being older than he looked.


    May I ask how old you are?"


    Julia asked curiously, and the child seemed hesitant and shook his head.


    "It''s not a good time to ask, but I''ll definitely tell youter."


    The child who spoke like an adult was cute, and Julia stroked his hair without realizing it.


    The wavy brown hair curled in her hand. The boy with his eyes widened blushed a little in embarrassment.


    Then, when they reached the fountain, the entrance of the maze garden, the boy suddenly raised his head and looked at Julia.


    "My name is Cedric."


    Then, he asked cautiously, his green eyes shining.


    "If I ask your name, would it be impolite?"


    Julia ummmed for a moment, then answered slowly.


    "Im fine, but it might be rude to others."


    She spoke politely, worried that the child might ask the other nobles their names, then bent her knees again and made eye contact.


    "My name is Julia."


    "Julia."


    The child mumbled her name as if imprinting it in his head. Then, immediately, he smiled brightly.


    Julia, can we take another walk together tomorrow?"


    "Of course."


    Since she had to stay in the imperial pce for the next three days anyway, she had a lot of time to meet the boy and take a walk with the free time in between schedules.


    "Priest, then I will see you here again tomorrow at this time."


    "Yes.


    Cedric was a lively child, reminiscent of grass and trees.


    The tight, stuffy feeling seemed to have eased a bit while Julia was with the boy. Julia grabbed his hand again and left the maze garden.


    The garden, bathed in winter sunshine, had a peaceful atmosphere.

 Chapter 30

    Chapter 30


    It was the next day that Julia met Matheus at the mass.


    Knowing in advance the fact that all the women of the imperial family had gathered, Matheus was not surprised to see Julia.


    After the mass was over, Matheus quietly approached her.


    "Julia, how have you been?"


    Facing her for the first time since her visit to the temple, Matheus had a uniformlypassionate look on his face. There were many implications to his question.


    Do you still have the same desire to escape, or is there any problem with your future ns?


    Julia couldnt answer easily.


    "That.


    There were many eyes around to exin everything. Julia eventually gave a normal answer.


    "Yes, thanks to you. And you, Matheus, have you been well?"


    "Of course."


    But Matheus, who had already noticed Julia''s dark expression, seemed to have grasped the situation to some extent.


    The fact that she was here at the Imperial Pce was proof that her ns were not going well.


    Matheus spoke quietly.


    Julia, I will be staying at the pce for a month.


    "Yes, Priest Cedric told me.


    Matheus nodded, looking slightly surprised at her reply.


    "I see youve already met Cedric.


    Lifting his lips gently, Matheus said in a hushed voice.


    "He''s going to help Julia while I''m away."


    "Ohthe boy?"


    While Julia was nodding her head, a tall man came near them. He was a young priest with auburn hair and light green eyes.


    He sat down as he looked at Julia. For some reason, the smile on the man''s face was familiar for some reason.


    "Master Matheus, may I exin the rest?"


    The man asked Matheus for permission. Matheus nodded without hesitation.


    Julia looked puzzled, alternating between the man and Matheus, while the man smiled, just as he had earlier.


    Your Grace, it is now the appointed time, shall we go together to the garden?"


    If it is the appointed time.


    Indeed Julia had an appointment with priest Cedric in the afternoon after mass. Perhaps that was what the man meant.


    Julia nodded gently, thinking that the boy had told the man about his meeting with her.


    "Yes, that''s right. Priest Cedric is waiting for you."


    ""


    Matheus, who was listening to their conversation, had a strange look on his face, but said nothing.


    After the mass, it was time to perform the blessing ceremony for Veronica, so Matheus greeted Julia first.


    Well then, Julia, I will see you again at the next Mass.


    Nodding, Julia walked out of the mass room with the man.


    Julia nced at him delicately as they walked to the garden.


    It was because the man looked an awful lot like that boy yesterday.


    "Are you Priest Cedrics brother?"


    And for some reason the man startedughing with a pleasant face.


    Staring back at her, the man shrugged .


    We''re not siblings, but we''re rted in a simr way.


    "Ahso maybe you have power?"


    The man looked very young, but the question contained a reasonable guess that he, like Matheus, could change their age and appearance.


    Immediately the man began tough aloud, covering his mouth. She could see the round curve of his eyes.


    While Julia looked at him with a slightly puzzled face, they soon reached yesterday''s maze garden.


    "Your Grace is very observant.


    As they rounded a corner in the middle of the maze, a man suddenly stopped.


    Julia stopped and stared at him. He smiled and gently touched the ring on his finger.


    "I remember you asked about my age. Im 22 this year."


    "..what?


    Julia blinked at the unexpected words. At that moment, a green light began to glimmer momentarily from his ring.


    While Julia opened her eyes wide and stared at the figure, the bright light blocked her vision.


    When she closed her eyes reflexively and raised her eyelids slowly, the man standing in front of her disappeared without a trace.


    Instead, standing in front of her was the boy she had met yesterday, Cedric.


    "Huh?"


    Julia''s mouth opened as she finally began to grasp the situation a little more.


    The child''s delicate features were a perfect match the mans from earlier. Their eyes and the color of their hair were the same.


    Even the smile was the same.


    "So, the priest is now, um"


    As Julia stammered and opened her mouth, Cedric, who had a smile, nodded his head.


    "Yes, I can change my appearance. What I looked like a while ago is my true form."


    Julias eyes went wide as she covered her mouth with her hand.


    So, it meant that this child was the same person as the man from earlier.


    That was why the child said he was older than he looked. That was also why he had a mature manner


    While Julia could not hide her surprise, Cedric walked up to her.


    Did I startle you? I wasn''t trying to deceive you, so take it with a grain of salt."


    The child who resembled a nt chuckled like it was yesterday.


    Julia nodded with a possessed look on her face. It was a moment when she realized once again the mystery of divine power.


    How is this possible? It was difficult to calm down the pounding heart.


    "I am not as great a priest as Matheus, but I will be enough to help Julia."


    "Oh, yes. I heard youre going to help me. ."


    Julia finally came to her senses and opened her mouth. Matheus was sure that this child would help her.


    "Master Matheus is the leader of the temple, so it''s difficult for him to leave his seat except for official business. So"


    Stopping speaking, Cedric suddenly held out his hand. The child flicked his hand lightly as if spreading something, and a bright light spread over his small hand.


    The green divine power spread in his hand, mixing with the wind.


    A small bead appeared on the palm of the hand where the light hadpletely dissipated.


    The child held it out to Julia, who was standing there in a daze.


    "This is my property. Please ce the bead with the pendant.


    Julia listened to Cedric while receiving the transparent bead.


    "I''ve ced the detailed message inside the bead. Because there are a lot of ears in here."


    Cedric''s voice trailed off and he flicked his hand lightly again. This time, a white daffodil formed from the light. It was a magical sight. While Julia watched the gesture with an possessed look on her face, Cedric held out the flower to her.


    "Do you know what it is? Holy power is not a power that can be given to just anyone."


    ""


    "Those who have holy power are also those who are loved by God."


    A faint, gentle voice drifted into Julias ear.


    "So you are also loved by God, Julia."


    She wondered if Cedric could see the weariness in her eyes. Julia realized that this boy wasforting her. As she held the daffodil still, Cedric continued to speak slowly.


    "Everything will be fine."


    Julia nodded, remaining silent. The words somehow soothed her tired heart. Cedric''s warm gaze made her feel like everything was going to be alright at this moment.


    ***


    It was thest day at the Imperial Pce.


    On the carriage ride back to the estate, Julia took out the bead that Cedric had given her.


    As soon as she returned home, she would try to find out what message he had for her right away.


    The other day, Matheus had told her how to use the holy power, but Julia wasn''t sure if she could handle it properly.


    But if Cedric, a skilled priest, could help her, things shall be better now.


    <b><i>"Everything will be fine.</i></b>


    Julia closed her eyes as she recalled Cedric''s words as they quietly descended.


    As she leaned back against the rattling carriage and emptied her mind, she gradually began to feel sleepy.


    After a long time in this way, it was midnight when they arrived at the castle.


    The horseman hurriedly opened the door and waited for Julia toe out. However, after a long time, there was no movement inside.


    The horseman straightened his bent back and nced inside. Then he saw Julia who was sleeping deeply leaning against the window.


    Um, Your Grace.


    While he was cautiously trying to wake her, someone blocked him.


    Fernan, who had an expressionless face, sent the horseman away with his chin gesture.


    After the horseman disappeared, Fernan bent down and stepped into the carriage. He then looked for a moment at Julia, who was sleeping soundly.


    Perhaps she was tired, she was breathing ever so softly.


    Even when Fernan picked her up and stepped out of the carriage, Julia didnt even open her eyes.


    His arms werepletely covered with her warmth. Fernan quietly strode into the castle with a brighter face.


    The anxiety that filled his mind gradually disappeared when he saw Julia safely back home.

 Chapter 31

    Chapter 31


    When Fernan returned to his office, the knight who was waiting at the door gave a silent bow.


    While he was inside and seated, the knight immediately reported on the surveince so far.


    Your Highness, the Grand Duchess did not make any special movements, except for the four-day banquet schedule."


    Even in the pce, the knights secretly followed Julias every movement.


    Fernan, who unfolded the documents he was viewing again, nodded as if to say continue.


    It doesn''t seem to be something to worry about again, but she apanied a priest twice on her walks.


    "A priest?


    Fernan covered the document and stared at the knight. Nodding, the knight continued.


    "Yes, they were the priests who came for the Crown Princess''s birth mass. One was a young priest and the other was an older priest. The terrain was difficult to get close to, so I couldn''t eavesdrop on their conversation."


    Fernan nodded casually and made a chin gesture to tell the knight to leave. So far, there was nothing special about the report.


    The knight, with a modest silent bow, quickly left the office.


    After the knight disappeared, Fernans gaze once again cast his eyes on his papers, reviewing the dyed report for some time.


    After a while, he raised his head just after he had examined all the documents. His eyes closed slowly. Fernan leaned back and pondered for a moment.


    <b><i>I''ll stay by your side, Your Highness.</i></b>


    <b><i>"I won''t think about divorce again.</i></b>


    As he remembered what Julia had said to him the other day, a subtle expression appeared on his face.


    Her words shook him for a moment, but he didn''t think that was what she really meant. Because she might be determined to escape the situation and try to deceive him. Fernan lightly brushed his face with hisrge hand.


    Not yet. He still wasn''t sure that she waspletely by his side. So he had no choice but to keep an eye on her from an invisible ce until he was sure. Fernan closed his heavy eyelids slowly.


    He hadn''t slept well for days, and his eyes were blurry.


    ****


    Julia finally woke up the next morning.


    She heard that Fernan had carried her in from the carriagest night, but she did not show any reaction.


    After letting Melissa out for a while and being left alone, Julia brought out a pendant that she had kept in a drawer.


    She then ced the pendant on top of the bead she had hidden in her chest. It was to confirm Cedric''s message.


    Just as Cedric had said, as the two holy objects met each other, the light gradually began to spread from the bead.


    There was a cracking sound and the bead cracked into pieces. At the same time, small pieces of ss scattered in the air.


    A small piece of paper remained in the remaining ce.


    Julia opened the note nervously.


    [Monastery in the Ladel district, near the western part of the Grand Duchy''s central square.]


    The letter said that after his stay at the Imperial Pce, Cedric would be staying at that monastery for a long time.


    So she could see him whenever she went there.


    It was added that if she seeded getting out of the Dukes castle, then Cedric would apany her directly from then on.


    [I will dly wait for you no matter how long it takes, so please don''t be in a hurry.]


    Julia revealed her warm eyes. It was as if she was at the Imperial Pce, and she could hear the gentle, young voice.


    After folding the letter neatly for safekeeping, Julia organized her future ns for a while.


    She still had knights attached to her as her bodyguards.


    Far from running away, even if she leaves the castle in the name of going out, they will surely follow her.


    <i>What should I do?</i>


    She had been trying her best so far, but Fernan still didn''t seem to trust her.


    She had no idea what more should do here.


    Cedric said he woulde to the Ladel monastery in a week.


    Julia stared into the air with a stiff face. All she could do now was to give Fernan trust.


    She had to create a situation where he wouldn''t suspect her even without the knights.


    Julia stroked the pendant on the table.


    But if that didn''t work, she was willing to risk her reason this time.


    It was early in the evening when the snow began to fall heavily on the estate.


    Julia, who had finished her meal and was walking up the stairs, was distracted for a while by the snow falling outside the window.


    Eventually, she heard the sound of someone''s footsteps.


    "Your Grace, how have you been?


    Julia turned her head and saw a white-haired man. It was the Grand Duke''s long-time doctor, Lockman.


    "What brings you here at this hour?"


    Julia asked with a nod, and Lockman replied politely.


    "I was summoned by His Highness to his chambers.


    Julia opened her eyes wide. No wonder he didnt show up in the dining room earlier.


    <i>Is he sick?</i>


    "I''ll be leaving now. Please take care.


    When she was no longer talking, Lockman said goodbye politely and then disappeared.


    Julia walked up the stairs and was about to enter the hallway where her bedroom was located, then she stopped.


    Somewhat hesitantly, she unexpectedly changed direction to where Fernans bedroom was. Julia stood still in front of his bedroom, which she had arrived at with an iprehensible feeling.


    <i>What am I doing now?</i>


    She mumbled and turned her body again, shaking her head. It was none of her business whether he was sick or not.


    Just as she calmly walked away like that, I heard a sound like something breaking from inside.


    Startled to a halt, Julia turned around.


    "Your Highness?


    She hurried to the door and called for Fernan, but there was no answer from inside.


    Hesitantly, Julia slowly opened the door. Cautiously stepping inside, she was greeted by a dimly lit room.


    Because of her suddenly darkened vision, she couldn''t distinguish things well.


    Julia groped her way closer to the bed. Then she touched something under the small table next to the bed.


    Upon closer inspection, it seemed to be a broken water cup. This was probably the source of the noise she had heard earlier.


    Turning her gaze again, Julia looked at Fernan, who was lying on the bed. He was lying on his side with his eyes closed.


    Your Highness, are you all right?"


    She did not hear a reply from him. Julia hesitated and reached out. His hair, which had not been long since he washed up, was slightly wet. She touched his forehead, but there didn''t seem to be any fever.


    But looking at his closed eyes, there was a hint of fatigue on his face.


    " What should I do?


    Just as she was wondering if she should call his doctor again, just in case, Fernan tossed and turned in his sleep.


    Julia lowered her head slightly to check his breathing. Hearing the sound of breathing evenly, he was probably sleeping deeply.


    seemed he


    Julia nodded and checked his breathing. Looking at his easily flowing sleep, it seemed that he had slept soundly.


    Then Julia looked at the shards of ss scattered on the floor and thought it needed to be cleaned up.


    Julia, who was about to call a maid, stopped abruptly. Then she turned again and looked at Fernan.


    He was lying wearing only a gown and looked a little disheveled, unlike usual. At the same time, he looked somewhat helpless.


    After looking at him for a while, Julia touched his eyebrows. The hand that had been gently pressing his brows naturally descended to his cheek and quickly fell off.


    Julia sighed soundlessly.


    Then, at that moment, arge hand pulled her towards him.


    "Ah!"


    Julia froze for a moment as she was held against his chest.


    She looked up carefully at his face, wondering if perhaps he had woken up, but he still had his eyes closed. Julia made a small struggle to get up. But the firm arm that wrapped around her waist did not falter.


    "Your Highness?


    She called him carefully, but there was no slightest movement in his closed eyelids.


    Something simr happenedst time. Could this be this man''s sleeping habit? Julia tried to move her body again with a troubled face. As expected, she couldnt get up easily.


    Ha.


    With a small sigh, Julia eventually rxed her body.


    When she naturally leaned her head against his chest, she could feel his heartbeat through their attached bodies. For some reason, it seemed to be shaking erratically.


    Looking up at him intently, she quickly opened her mouth in a quiet voice.


    "Your Highness."


    He still did not reply. Julia caught her breath and opened her mouth again.


    "Fernan."


    The first time she said the name out loud, it sounded very unfamiliar.


    It suddenly brought back many memories. From the first day she met him as a child to the day of their wedding.


    He would never know what that first meeting meant to Julia, which would not fade with age.


    Or how happy she was to see that warm man in her memory again. The moment she walked down the marriage road with him, she was happy.


    So, although this man''s cruelty was more painful than anything else, she could not easily forget, even if it was stupid.


    Her feelings for him were a treasure that she cherished since childhood.


    So she had to leave this man even more.


    She wanted topletely get rid of these feelings that were nailing her down, and just livefortably, even if it was just for a day. It was a futile hope, but dreaming of such a life made the present bearable.


    Closing her eyes, Julia said over and over again that everything would be fine.

 Chapter 32

    Chapter 32


    Fernan, who fell asleep after taking some sleeping pills, woke up when Julia touched his eyebrows.


    All the while, he couldn''t open his eyes for some reason, even when Julias soft hand roamed his face. The sun was rising at dawn, and Julia was asleep, leaning against his chest.


    He had thought about it before, but Julia seemed to fall asleep as soon as she leaned her head against him. Fernan suddenly patted the back of her head. Her soft hair frayed in hisrge hand.


    Looking down at her, who waspletely leaning against him, gave him a sense of satisfaction as if something was being filled at this moment.


    It was an unfamiliar feeling, but it wasn''t bad.


    <b><i>"Fernan</i></b>


    The gentle voice that called his name kept ringing in his ears.


    With only that soft voice, he felt like all the boundaries were breaking down.


    The fact was funny, Fernan thought to himself, and then he stared at the ceiling. The time Julia had spent trying so hard to escape again became a little empty.


    Fernan closed his eyes slowly, his lips lifting slightly without him even knowing it. At least for that night, they both slept peacefully.


    ***


    The seemingly peaceful days continued for some time.


    It was during this time that Fernan removed all the knights around Julia. They were following her around everywhere she went, and it annoyed her.


    Of course, the knights werent removed from the start. They were secretly watching Julia in in sight.


    This short-lived peace was broken by the arrival of his aide at the Grand Duke''s castle.


    An urgent telegram was delivered from the border.


    "Your Highness!"


    Lloyd, who had rushed into the office, reported breathlessly.


    The demons have appeared on the border.


    Fernan, who was reviewing the documents, immediately left his seat upon hearing Lloyd''s words.


    The demons that had caused the border guards so much trouble over the past few months had reappeared.


    To add to the headache, even the enemy soldiers have joined in.


    Howrge is the scale?"


    Lloyd''s serious voice followed as Fernan took his steps.


    "It is difficult to ascertain the size of the force. It seems that the knights are not moving easily because they cannot urately grasp the base."


    Fernan clicked his tongue lightly. It was troublesome for the demons to appear as a swarm, but if even the enemy army joined in, the situation would be much moreplicated.


    Apparently, the remnants of the enemy army, the Renev Kingdom, had moved on arger scale than expected.


    Perhaps there was someone in the enemy army who could control demons.


    Fernan mounted his horse without dy. He pulled on the reins and the horse started to run at a fast speed.


    And at that moment, Fernan looked around the castle.


    Eventually, after a while, Fernan stopped speaking and changed direction again.


    "Your Highness, whats wrong?


    This caused Lloyd, who had stopped, to look up at him curiously, and after Fernan nodded as if to tell him to go ahead, he headed back to the castle.


    After dismounting from his horse, Fernan quickly entered the lobby.


    Julia, who was just descending the stairs, spotted him and tilted her head.


    "Your Highness?"


    Stopping in front of Julia, Fernan hesitated, which was unlike him. Eventually, he spoke with nervous voice.


    "I''m going to be away for a while. It might take a long time.


    Since Fernan had never once given an exnation for his absence, Julia looked at him with a little surprise.


    "What''s going on?"


    "Something happened on the border. Its urgent.


    Julia blinked without saying anything, but soon answered with a worried look on her face.


    "Have a safe trip."


    Even at the honest reply, Fernan stood still, as if he was stuck.


    He had a busy day ahead of him, but when he saw her, it was hard to keep his feet moving.


    If he left the castle today, he wasn''t sure when he would be back.


    He would try his best to handle it as soon as possible, but the date and time could change depending on the size of the enemy army.


    He couldn''t be sure that Julia would stay put in the castle while he was gone.


    Of course, several knights would be secretly guarding her, he couldnt rx easily. Then Julia smiled softly and spoke at his silence.


    "Ill be waiting."


    In the clear eyes that looked at him, his appearance was captured.


    Was it true? Fernan wish it was true. There was no way that the transparent eyes that looked at him were not sincere.


    He suddenly remembered her fromst night. The way she called his name in her quiet, gentle voice. Fernan, who was standing still in a dazed mood, stared at her face.


    "Okay.


    There was so much he wanted to say, but he didn''t have time or room to get it all out.


    Fernan then turned away with a heavy step. And he gradually let go of the anxiety that had been weighing on him the whole time.


    He decided to believe her. Julias clear eyes and quiet voice were all sincere.


    But that was his mistake.


    ***


    Fernan has left for an expedition.


    Kingdom Renev, one of the defeated countries in thest Imperial War. Their remnants coborated with other nations and invaded their borders.


    As Fernan left with his knights to the border, the castle became somewhat deserted.


    After he left, Julia, who had note out of her bedroom for half a day, emerged in the afternoon. Passing through the hallway, she headed for arge door with delicately crafted patterns. This was a bedroom designed for the use of the Grand Duke and his wife together.


    Opening the door and stepping inside, Julia stared around the bedroom.


    It was a gorgeous and dignified bedroom. However, the interior, which had never been used, had a quiet and cold atmosphere.


    Julia looked at the bed nkly and retraced her steps.


    As she crossed the bedroom, she stopped in front of the door that led to the next room. It was where the wedding gifts and other bridal items were kept.


    Fernan and Julia were the only ones who had keys to this door, so no one could enter without permission.


    When the door opened, the inside was revealed.


    Julia approached one of the disy cabs and opened a dusty jewelry box.


    Inside, there were two rings. They were their wedding rings.


    Julia took out her ring and put it on her ring finger.


    The ring didn''t fit her hand perfectly, but it wasn''t so loose that it would fall out.


    Your Grace, you are here.


    When she came out again with the ring on, Melissa was standing outside.


    Julia looked at Melissa with aplicated expression.


    She gave Melissa a few days off, as she had told the head maid the other day.


    It was because she was worried about the trouble Melisa would be in if she ran away.


    "This is the first time I''ve taken such a long vacation. It''s nice to have this kind of privilege to work for the Grand Duchess.


    Melissa giggled. Julia tried to lift her lips slightly.


    Thinking that today was thest day with Melissa, even though she tried to endure it, her heart hurt.


    "Have a nice trip, Melissa."


    Julia squeezed Melissa''s hand and didn''t let go for a while, feelingplicated.


    Melissa tilted her head and patted the back of her hand gently.


    "I''ll be back. Your Grace needs to eat properly and go for walks. Dont stay in your room too much."


    "Yes, I will.


    With that, she walked Melissa out of the castle and watched the carriage move away until the end.


    The warmth that remained in her hands made her feel empty.


    With her numb chest finally in order, Julia returned to her bedroom and began to pack.


    She didnt pack much, just some spare clothes.


    She decided to leave all the other items behind. Everything else in the castle belonged to Fernan.


    Finally, Julia gently touched the ring on her finger.


    But she was going to take this ring with her.


    It wasn''t because of her unrequited love for Fernan. Rather, Julia wanted to get rid of everything, even the very small ones, before she left.


    That was why she was going to sell the ring that symbolized her marriage with Fernan.


    After all, this ring was a kind of constion prize for her.


    It was now or never.


    She didnt know why, but Fernan had removed all the knights around her for the past few days.


    So the only chance to escape was now, when Fernan was not around.


    Julia approached the window and stared at the sky as it slowly began to darken. She was going to leave tomorrow morning.

 Chapter 33

    Chapter 33


    Julia chose the morning when everyone was awake so that it would look like a normal day out.


    So she left the castle and headed for the square, the center of the city.


    There she changed to her private carriage. It was her intention not to leave any clues.


    Then she headed for the monastery where Cedric was.


    "You''re here. I''ve been expecting you."


    Once inside the small monastery, a tall man greeted her as if he had been waiting for her.


    It was Cedric, not in child form, but in his true form.


    Julia nodded and stepped towards him. The green eyes looked at her gently.


    "Julia, the people who were with you are not yourpanions, are they?"


    "What?"


    Julias eyes widened at the sudden question. Cedric then nodded as if he understood the situation.


    There are people who have followed you here. I think theyre armed knights."


    Still widened eyes, Julia looked back at Cedric. Could it be that the knights whom she thought disappeared was still there?


    Innocently, she thought Fernan really removed his surveince.


    How could she not have realized that there was a possibility of surveince behind her back? Julia touched her lips in annoyance, and Cedric gave her a small smile, as if it was okay.


    "Don''t worry too much. Master Matheus sent me here just in case something like this happens."


    Eventually, Cedric gestured for her to follow him. Julia nervously followed. It waste in the evening when the knights noticed strange signs.


    After some time, Julia did note out of the monastery. As the evening deepened, the knights eventually entered the monastery.


    A priest, who was tidying one side of the chapel, approached a knight who was looking around with a serious face.


    "Excuse me, sir. How may I help you?"


    The knight answered the priest''s question quickly.


    I understand the Grand Duchess of Caesar visited here, where is she now?


    What is your rtionship with her?"


    "I am the knight whos in charge of guarding the Grand Duchess. The time is veryte and she has to go back. Where is she?"


    The priest stared at the knight with suspicious eyes, then spoke.


    "The Grand Duchess left the monastery before the evening came, sir.


    "What?"


    The knight, who was blinking dumbly for a moment, gradually turned pale.


    Eventually, the knights asked for the priest''s approval, and then looked around the monastery for Julia. They even checked the every single priest''s face just to be sure, but Julia was nowhere to be seen. In the end, the knights left the monastery without any sess, and they scattered and began to search the area.


    ***


    Two days have passed since Julia disappeared.


    The servants at the Grand Duke''s castle were in a panic due to the hostess not returning.


    Bet hurriedly contacted the border regions, but as they were in a battle, no information could reach Fernan.


    Two more days passed without any progress. It was around that time thatmunication reached Fernan. After several all-out wars, the soldiers under Fernan seeded in invading the enemy''s base.


    As they returned to their base and were finishing up border maintenance, Lloyd rushed into Fernans barracks.


    "Your Highness!"


    Fernan, who was wiping his bloody sword, casually turned around. Lloyd, who was catching his breath, struggled to open his mouth.


    We received a message from the castle, the Grand Duchess.


    Before Lloyd could continue, Fernan snatched the letter in his hand. His eyes gradually hardened as he read the contents. The letter stated that Julia had gone out two days ago and had not been seen since.


    "the letter arrived two days ago, so the Grand Duchess has been missing for four days."


    Fernan fixed his gaze only on the letter, as if he couldnt figure out the situation. He couldnt believe Julia disappeared.


    After standing motionless for a while, Fernan handed the letter Lloyd. His dim eyes revealed, Fernan strode out, speechless.


    "Your Highness?"


    Lloyd, who was urgently trying to catch Fernan, paused. It was because he realized that his lord was unusual.


    ''Lloyd, I''ll leave the rest to you.


    With thosest words, Fernan left the barracks and headed for the ce where his horse was kept. With a lean gesture, he mounted the horse and took off.


    Fernan had a calm face, as if he didnt realize the situation. Suddenly, thest time he saw Julia''s face came to his mind.


    <b><i>Ill be waiting."</i></b>


    The blue eyes that smiled and looked at him clearly contained no lies.


    <i>She said she would wait. Im sure she''ll be waiting.</i>


    Fernan had no choice but to think like that and tighten his grip on the reins. The road from the border to the estate took at least half a day.


    He made his way through the unlit wastnd at an unusual speed.


    The anxiety that came at once filled his heart. His heart began to beat like crazy.


    ***


    Fernan finally arrived at the estate in the morning. As soon as he returned, he began to search the estate.


    He summoned the knights who had lost Julia at the monastery and interrogated them.


    "Tell me the details of the situation, where and how you lost her."


    The knights opened their stammering mouths under Fernand''s momentum.


    "I''m sorry, Your Highness, but we didn''t take our eyes off the Grand Duchess for a moment. So i dont know when Her Grace disappeared"


    I asked you how and where you lost her! You dare to make excuses!


    Fernan shouted with a look as if he was about to pull out his sword. The knights, who shrank, urgently answered.


    "It''s.its a monastery in the Ladel district."


    "Ladel district?"


    "Yes, I saw definitely Her Grace enter the monastery, but strangely enough, she didnte out when the evening passed. I went in directly to check, but the priest said she left the monastery long ago."


    Fernan replied slowly, ring at the mumbling knights with murderous eyes.


    "The priests of the monastery may be involved, so find traces even if you have to arrest them.


    "Yes, yes!"


    The knights left for the monastery again and Fernan headed to Julia''s room.


    The undisturbed and tidy room had a slight chill in it, probably because it had been empty for several days.


    Fernan went through everything, from the bedroom to the dressing room to the bathroom. However, there was no way to know what disappeared.


    Because he didn''t know anything about Julia.


    He thought that Julia could not have escaped on her own, but that was just another unsure judgment.


    Biting his lip inplication, Fernan suddenly remembered Julias personal maid.


    He immediately went outside and called Bet to inquire about the whereabouts of the maid, to which Bet replied with a somewhat troubled look.


    "That''s the thing the maid is currently on vacation at her parents'' house.


    Fernans brow furrowed. She took a leave of absence at this point, of all times.


    Fernan, who was hold the railing with the momentum of breaking it, tried to calmly order.


    Find the maid. Right now.


    "Yes, yes."


    Bet, who hurriedly bowed, disappeared downstairs, and Fernan began to quietly sort out the situation.


    Everything was dubious. The servant who went on vacation as if to amodate Julia''s disappearance. The knights who foolishly lost Julia, who was in front of their eyes.


    However, it was Julia herself who disappeared during his absence that was the most difficult to exin. As such, Melissa''s return came not more than a few hourster.


    Melissa shivered and bowed her head before Fernan.


    "Did you know your master disappeared?"


    Oh, no I just heard.


    Melissa''s face went pale, as if in shock. She returned to the castle as soon as she got the news from Bet, throwing away what she was doing.


    Fernan opened his mouth in a gruff tone.


    "Tell me all you know. Did you notice any strange signs in Julia?"


    That, that


    Melissa forced her white, annihted head to remember. She was afraid of Fernan in front of her, and she was very worried about Julia, who disappeared.


    Melissa''s lips quivered in thought, but she soon answered with a stammer.


    Actually, I was a little curious when she suddenly gave me a vacation


    And.


    "And"


    Melissa, who closed her eyes, suddenly remembered something and slowly continued.


    "The day I left I saw here out of the bedroom on the second floor. I have never seen her go in there before.


    Fernan''s eyes narrowed. The bedroom on the second floor was built for them to share.


    It was also a ce he had never used before. After passing Melissa, Fernan headed straight for the second floor. Then he saw that the door was locked and swore wildly.


    Breaking the locked with a single kick, he quickly entered.


    His cold gaze roamed every corner of the room.


    He quickly entered the next room, searching madly for storage boxes and shelves. Inside a gorgeously decorated jewelry box, one of the grooves was empty.


    Fernan took out a ring that was iid in the remaining groove. It was his wedding ring, with a gem in the middle.

 Chapter 34

    Chapter 34


    It was only half a day after Fernans return that Julia''s trail was found.


    It was near the border to anothernd. It was there that the knights, who were confirming the identities of the territory people, recognized her face.


    Due to the crowds of people, Julia escaped, but some knights soon caught up with her and seeded in tracking down the carriage in which she was riding.


    The news was immediately conveyed to Fernan.


    "Yes, she ran away on her own.


    Fernan murmured with a strange expression.


    Now it was certain that Julia had escaped on her own.


    <i>You said youll stay by my side, smiling and talking, said youll be waiting for me, but you ran away.</i>


    With her eyes clear and transparent as always, and her face innocent as if she knew nothing.


    Like that, she deceived him and left.


    Fernan stared into space with an unfocused gaze and soon clenched his fists. He felt a burning sensation in his chest.


    His mind began to teeter between betrayal and rage.


    He stood silently for a long time, then turned at the sound of the door opening.


    Lloyd, who entered, opened his mouth with a slightlyplicated look on his face.


    "Your Highness, ording to the servant''s words. the only thing that disappeared in the Grand Duchesss room was a few pieces of clothing."


    Fernans quiet gaze turned to Lloyd.


    "The valuables and essories"


    "They seem to have been left untouched."


    Fernan gave a small twist of one side of his mouth.


    He ordered the servants to check Julia''s room, but he had no idea that she only took a few clothes with her when she fled


    Julia left him in his castle, leaving behind all that he had offered her.


    He intuitively knew what this meant.


    She was trying to erase the time she had lived here as his wife. She dared to hope that she would be forgotten by him forever.


    Fernans sharp gaze reached the wedding ring in his hand.


    With a turbulent gaze, Fernan stared out the window. Before he knew it, it was snowing outside. He looked out the window for a while and thought. Julia would be back to her ce soon.


    The knights would continue to track her, and as long as she could not leave the territory, she had no choice but to be caught.


    But the impatience that kept rising continued to scratch his nerves.


    Even though he tried her best to stay calm, he just couldn''t calm this feeling down.


    Julia should never have run away like this.


    As his wife, she had to be by his side and feel his pain even when she was sick. Even if it was painful, she had to suffer in front of his eyes.


    Julia Caesar, even if she died, had to die in his territory.


    "Your Highness!"


    At that moment, a knight stormed in the office.


    "HerHer Highness.shes gone!


    "What kind of nonsense is this?"


    Fernan asked back in a sharp tone, and the knight, who had been panting for a long time, continued to speak gibberish.


    "We have confirmed that Her Highness was indeed in the carriage, but after we surrounded the carriage, we checked again and she wasnt there. We had no idea what was going onah!


    In the blink of an eye, Fernan pulled out his sword as he approached the knight. A sharp look fell on his face, as if he was about to cut off his head.


    "Don''t say nonsense and say it right. Where did she disappear?"


    "We are continuing to search nearby, but there are no witnesses and no whereabouts"


    "You b*st*rds."


    Throwing the sword randomly, Fernan swept his hair roughly.


    "I''ll go there myself. Prepare the horse."


    "Yes, sir!"


    He clenched his teeth. He should never have entrusted the job to those ipetents in the first ce.


    "Your Highness, I''m sure Her Highness has helpers. It doesnt make sense how she was able to escape in the presence of that many knights.


    Lloyd, who was following Fernan, spoke cautiously. At that moment, a scene unexpectedly shed through Fernans mind.


    A few months ago, the priest of Ilion, who came to bless the castle, seemed quite close with Julia.


    He didnt know why the priest suddenly came to mind at this moment, but before Fernan could think deeply about anything else, he immediately gave an order.


    "Lloyd, go to the Temple of Ilion and find the priest, who blessed the castle. She might be hiding there, so search carefully.


    "Yes, sir!


    If the priest had helped Julia escape, he surely would have used his holy power.


    If he used his power, Julia would be able to her presence and distract his (Fernan) eyes for a while.


    A blue vein appeared on the back of his hand as he held the reins. The mere thought that Julia might be with someone filled him with an indescribable anger.


    But underneath was a hatred for himself, because he had been so cruel to her all this time.


    <b><i>Why are you doing all this? Are you just being cruel to me to the end?</i></b>


    Julias tearful voice grazed his ears. Fernan bit his lip.


    He knew. He knew that Julia''s leaving was ultimately something he brought on himself.


    ***


    Wearing a robe, Julia moved quickly with her head down.


    She managed to get rid of the knights, but it was still too early to be relieved.


    Ha


    Entering a deserted alley, Julia grabbed her chest and breathed heavily.


    Her appearance, inside the hood, had now changed into apletely different person. With Cedric''s help, he temporarily changed her appearance, but she probably wouldn''t be able to maintain this state for long.


    <b><i>"You''ve already used your power quite a bit, so if you use more strength, your body won''t be able to handle it.</i></b>


    In the carriage, surrounded by knights, Cedric quietly tried to convince Julia.


    <b><i>"Perhaps we should cooperate with them honestly and then try again for ater date.</i></b>


    <b><i>"..No, if not now, I won''t be able to escape forever.</i></b>


    Despite Cedric''s dissuasion, Julia replied in a calm tone.


    <b><i>"I can do anything. I''ve been prepared from the start that things could get dangerous."</i></b>


    Seeing the earnest look on her face, Cedric was silent for a while. After a long silence, he eventually nodded.


    <b><i>"Julia, if you cross the southern border here, you will find a ce there called Helios Monastery.</i></b>


    Cedric held Julia''s hand tightly and infused her with his power, transforming her appearance.


    <b><i>If you can escape them, go there. Ill be waiting for you.</i></b>


    That was thest time she was with Cedric.


    After catching her breath, Julia began move her feet again. The pendant on her neck made a small rustling sound.


    Perhaps it was because she had used so much energy, her heart has been throbbing and hurting since earlier.


    Using holy poweres with its own price, so her body may have already begun to go wrong.


    She could guess her condition by her face, which was rapidly bing paler than before.


    Jukia went out into the street again, looked around, and froze in ce.


    "I cant believe it"


    In the distance, Fernan was seen like an illusion.


    He had been riding fast on his horse and stopped for a moment at the surging crowd. Julia hurriedly walked with her head down.


    Her heart began to beat faster. How could he be back so soon after he went on the expedition?


    Julia walked along the crowd, her hood pulled up tightly over her head. He wouldn''t be able to notice her, but still her anxious steps elerated as if being chased.


    The first thing she had to do was get on the carriage and leave the area.


    "Julia!


    At that moment, unbelievably, Fernans voice could be heard.


    Surprised, Julia hesitated and hurried to her feet.


    There was no way he could recognize her. She looked like apletely different person How on earth Julia was unconcerned and at the same time quickly headed for the carriage station. But soon after, he grabbed her by the shoulders.


    Fernan, who turned her around, pulled back her hood.


    "!"


    She had to face him still, unable to avoid his gaze. Goosebumps broke out all over her body.


    Fernan, who was staring at her as if he was devouring her, quietly recited.


    "What the


    He frowned as he realized he was mistaken, and let go of her shoulders. Taking advantage of the gap, Julia faltered and stepped back. She felt like her mind had gone nk.


    For a moment, Fernan certainly recognized her. How on earth


    It was the moment when she was about to turn awaypletely, the shocked expression was still on her face, Fernan suddenly grabbeb her arm.


    Staring at the pendant ne on her neck with a fluttering gaze, he cut the string without mercy.

 Chapter 35

    Chapter 35


    "Ah.


    The pendant string fell into pieces, leaving only the jewel in his hand.


    Soon, a light filled with holy power spread around Julia. At the same time, her appearance gradually returned to its original state.


    Fernans face gradually became distorted as he gazed at her.


    Ha..


    He gave a faintugh with aplicated expression. He looked somewhat miserable.


    He kept staring at her, unable to speak so easily.


    "How did you know?"


    Julia murmured with a puzzled look on her face. How in the world he was able to recognize her?


    Now she was even more frightened of this man. She felt like no matter what she did, she could not escape him.


    Fernan gripped the pendant in his hand tightly as if to break it, and opened his mouth gently.


    "This pendant, I could feel a faint power."


    The pendant had lost its light. Matheus didnt tell her about this when the pendant was cut off, but she knew instinctively.


    That the remaining power in the pendant was absorbed into her heart.


    Maybe that was why her heart felt hot and tingling as if it was burning. The over-absorbed power began to rampage as if it wanted to escape from this narrow space.


    "Let''s go home now. Youve put me in enough trouble.


    Fernan pulled Julias hand roughly. She bit her lip as she stared at the knights surrounding her.


    There was nothing more she could do. Without saying anything, she was led by Fernans hand.


    He picked her up in one fluid motion on the saddle, then naturally climbed in behind her.


    "Julia.


    His low voice sank. The hand pulled her waist closer was somewhat persistent.


    Julia stared at hisrge hands for a moment, then quickly averted her gaze.


    Fernan pulled the reins as he watched her stiffen back.


    Soon the horse began to run at a fast pace.


    They left the city center and entered the forest leading to the city walls.


    Julia looked around, clearing herplicated mind. The trees were thick around the snow covered path.


    Through the trees, she could see different paths.


    Julia nced at Fernans locked arms around her.


    "Your Highness."


    Quickly opening her mouth in a quiet voice, Julia turned her face sideways and looked at him.


    Im tired. Lets take a break.


    The words were meant to catch him off guard, but her face was pale at first nce.


    It was because the pain in her heart had suddenly be much worse after the pendant was cut off.


    Fernan watched her without saying a word, but gradually slowed down. Then, having stoppedpletely, he said something to the approaching knight.


    "I ordered them to bring the carriage. It won''t take long."


    Julia gave a small nod. As she turned to get off the horse, Fernan, who had gotten off first, gave her a light hug.


    It was a careful touch.


    Stepping onto the ground, Julia staggered for a moment. Her otherwise tired body was even less strong after the long ride on the horse.


    She moved her eyes and looked around. It was to find a way to escape.


    "Where did you stay all this time?""


    At that moment, a low voice fell. Julia remained silent.


    Were you with the priest of the Temple of Ilion?"


    Her hands flinched. How on earth could he know that much? Julia dropped her gaze and hid her puzzled face.


    He must have given you the pendant.


    ""


    If you don''t want to answer, do so. Because I can arrest all of them and ask.


    As his harsh voice descended, Julia could no longer remain silent.


    Dont hurt an innocent person. He has nothing to do with me."


    This time, it was Cedric, not Matheus, who had helped her, but if Fernan dug deeper, Matheus would be harmed.


    She couldn''t do harm to those who helped her out of pure goodwill.


    Fernan looked down at her with narrowed brows. Julia faced him straight on and began to speak.


    Why did you look for me?


    Until now, she still did not understand why he would go to such lengths to get her back. Fernan was silent for a while, and then spoke coldly.


    "Are there men who would sit still when their wives disappeared?"


    Julia lost her words. It was because the word "wife" he uttered felt stranger than any other word at this moment.


    "Were I a wife to Your Highness?"


    Fernan closed his lips in aplicated expression at the question.


    He couldnt answer easily because he had never considered her his wife.


    Julia struggled to get up. Then she walked along the road, ignoring Fernan who followed behind her.


    She didn''t want to dy the time any longer.


    After a while, she came to a stop on a cliff with an open view.


    There was a fierce river flowing beneath it. Her eyes became determined as she looked over the cliff. Perhaps this was the most certain way out.


    "Julia,e here.


    As she continued walking, Fernan called out to her in a faint voice. Julia didn''t answer and searched her pocket. A small de appeared in her hand.


    She had hidden it in her robe all this time just in case, but she didnt expect to use it like this. Julia turned around and pulled out a knife with a firm face.


    She wouldnt scare him with a mere thing like this, but she could stall him for a while.


    You


    Fernan couldn''t help but stare at her with slightly puzzled expression..


    "Don''te any closer. If you get any closer, I''m really going to stab you"


    Fernans face was cold even with her threat.


    Do whatever you want.


    As if he was sure that she wouldnt stab him, Fernan took a fewrge steps forward, and Julia flinched and stepped back.


    Biting her lip, Julia red at him as he approached and changed the direction of her de. The knife that had been aimed at him was now aimed at herself.


    "What are you doing now .?"


    Fernan paused, ring at her with a cold face. Julia stepped backwards nonchntly.


    As expected, it seemed to be more effective this way.


    "D*mn it, put down that knife!"


    His face cracked at once. With his immediate impetus to pounce, Julia pressed the knife further into her neck.


    Red blood flowed down from her neck because she didnt adjust her strength. But strangely enough, she didn''t feel any pain at all.


    Fernans face distorted as Julia slowly backed away in that state.


    No don''t move any further! I''m sorry


    While he was unable to approach hastily, Julia''s steps gradually approached the end of the cliff.


    Fernan slowly stepped back, as if he was not going to get any closer.


    Still, Julia did not stop.


    Fernan stared at her with a pale face and immediately opened his mouth in a cracked voice.


    "Please don''t do this. Its my fault. Ill do whatever you want.


    He was trembling. It was hard to believe that he was such a cold and heartless husband.


    As Julia stared at him, she felt her sense of reality fading.


    The de on her neck, the footsteps on the edge of the cliff, and Fernans pleading cries were all unfamiliar.


    But one thing was clear: she had to end it here.


    At that moment, the scattered snow began to intensify. Julia heard footsteps. Behind Fernan, knights were seen running.


    Julia, who were watching them absentmindedly, slowly engraved his face in her eyes for thest time. She knew that if it was not now, she would never be able to escape from him forever. Maybe she would start to love him again.


    " What Ive experienced so far is enough."


    She didn''t want to be tied to him any longer.


    Julia stepped back a little. Her body, which was already halfway to the edge of the cliff, lost its bnce and slowly copsed.


    "Julia!"


    Looking at Fernan rushing in desperately, Julia jumped off the cliff. At thest minute, she could see the knights holding on to Fernan as he jumped after her.


    Julia slowly closed her eyes. Her body, which was falling at a fast speed, sank deep into the cold river.


    At the same time, the divine power that flowed out of her heart began to envelop her body slowly.

 Chapter 36

    Chapter 36


    "Your Highness! What are you doing! Hurry up and grab him!"


    About four knights grabbed Fernan, who had lost his reason, and pulled him over from the edge of the cliff.


    Even then, he was unruly, so it was only when several more people pulled him that they were finally able to bring him to a safe zone.


    "Let me go! Ah!


    As Fernan, who had thrown the knights violently, tried to jump off the cliff again, the knights shouted as they blocked him with their whole bodies.


    "Your Highness, please calm down!"


    Fernan, who was caught by the knights, stared down the cliff with a mad gaze.


    Water current, roughened by the winter wind, in a dark river with no visible bottom.


    There was no sign of Julia anywhere.


    It was difficult for anyone to survive a crash from such a height. Even if they had barely survived, they would not be able to swim in this strong current, and there was a high probability that they would die of hypothermia after a while.


    But Fernan was in no condition to make such a calm decision.


    Unable to control his soaring emotions, he hurried past the knights and mounted his horse.


    The knights rushed after him, who was riding without hesitation.


    "Julia, please."


    From the moment Julia pointed the knife at her neck, Fernan could not keep hisposure.


    He had to stop her. He was too scared to make a decision.


    He didn''t think for a minute that she would throw herself off the cliff.


    No, he was scared. He saw the blood flowing from her neck, and he was afraid that if he got too close, she would pierce that thin neck


    So he stopped. He thought it''d be okay if he didn''t get closer. She would stop then


    But Julia defied his expectations and threw herself down without hesitation.


    The figure was painted before his eyes one after the other like afterimages.


    Fernan stared ahead like someone who had lost half of his mind. His lips began to tremble. He lost all sense of reality. He couldn''t turn his head as if it was frozen in ce.


    It all seemed like a dream. The sight of Julia falling in front of him, and the faint smile on her face at the end.


    *


    From then on, the search continued, day and night.


    They searched all over the forests and towns leading downstream from the river, and even in the nearby areas. However, Julia was nowhere to be found.


    The severe cold weather continued, and even a blizzard began to blow over the territory.


    Julia would freeze painfully even if she was in it for only a short while in that river.


    And so half a month, a long time, passed.


    At that time, a robe presumably belonging to Julia was found onnd.


    ***


    Fernan looked down at the damp robe for a long time. There was no light in his eyes.


    He stood tall as if he was left alone in a world far away.


    "Your Highness, we will search the remaining areas. So please take a break even if it''s just a little bit.


    Fernan did not respond to the repeated requests of the knights.


    He had a look on his face that made it impossible to tell what he was thinking.


    The hem of Julia''s robe as he looked at it was torn in ces and was in a bad condition. Perhaps Julias condition was even more terrible, but no one could bring it up.


    "Your highness, if you''re going to continue your search, you have to take care of yourself first. Don''t you know?"


    Eventually, Lloyd, Fernans aide, approached and spoke as calmly as he could.


    Everyone was tired from the day and night of continuous searching, but Fernans condition was the most serious of all.


    He had been searching for Julia for half a month without taking any rest.


    Fernan took off his steps without answering. Lloyd sighed as he watched him return to where the horse was tied.


    Lloyd was also concerned about this situation.


    Because it was Lloyd who had realized the most that his lord''s feelings for Julia had changed.


    Fernan who had never once been shaken by anything, so the small changes were much more visible.


    The fact that he had taken his wife into his heart one stepter was clear to Lloyd. Despite the fact that she was the daughter of the Marquis of Elody, whom he despised so much.


    It was probably Fernans first surge of emotion.


    He had lost her before he was even aware of those confused emotions, so it wasn''t as if he couldn''t understand how his lord felt. But


    Lloyd sighed deeply in mncholy.


    The look of Fernans back was firm and unshakable. However, in Lloyd''s eyes, it only looked dangerous.


    ***


    A month had passed, and there was no trace of Julia anywhere.


    They searched the entire territory. It was time to find at least a body.


    However, Julia disappeared without leaving any trace, as if she had evaporated on the spot.


    Fernan, who had been searching like a madman for almost a month without a pause, was in a critical condition just by looking at him.


    The knights continued to worry, but he didn''t budge an inch.


    "Master Lloyd, do we have to force His Highness toe with us?"


    As if he hadpletely blocked out the assumption that Julia was dead, Fernan roamed the whole area like a madman. A knight approached Lloyd and asked. Lloyd, who was agonizing over it, shook his head.


    "Let''s wait and see first. His Highness is also a human being, so he will not be able to ovee the fatigue of his body at this point."


    But even as he said this, days passed and Fernans persistence was as firm as ever. Lloyd let out a heavy sigh that made the ground cave in as he watched Fernan ride his horse in a dangerous manner. Lloyd eventually called out to Fernan, who had gotten off his horse and was checking the search area.


    "Your Highness."


    Lloyd spoke stoutly to Fernan, who did not even turn around.


    "It''s been a month since we searched for Her Highness. We have searched all the forests around the city walls and even the nearby viges.


    ""


    "We must now prepare to ept. The Grand Duchess chances of survival are.. ."


    "Unless you want to die in silence"


    Then, Fernan, who had finally turned his head, pulled out his sword.


    Lloyd squeezed his eyes shut when he saw the sword pointed at his neck, but he didn''t stop speaking.


    "The knights are exhausted. If we are going to continue the search, please give them enough rest first."


    In any case, the knights were taking turns in the search, so it wasn''t actually too much for them.


    But the problem was Fernans condition.


    So to make him rest, Lloyd had to mention the knights because it was useless to convince him at this moment.


    Fernan was silent with dark eyes and soon opened his mouth.


    "Take everyone back with you. I''ll do the search alone.


    "What? No, Your Highness!"


    Fernan, having put away his sword, stepped forward again. Lloyd, looking dazed, put his hand to his forehead and quickly followed.


    Fernan looked fine at first nce, but Lloyd''s eyes could clearly see that he was walking dangerously differently than before.


    It was at that moment that Lloyd, who was following him, stopped in an instant.


    Fernan, who was moving forward without hesitation, suddenly stumbled.


    "Your Highness!"


    While the startled Lloyd was running quickly, Fernans body copsed.


    It was less than half a dayter when Fernan woke up.


    He woke up slowly and looked around in a daze.


    His blurry gaze stared at the ceiling and then quickly went to the small fragrant incense that was ced beside him. It was an incense used to induce sleep.


    As he raised his body at once, he realized that this was his bedroom.


    "Your Highness, are you awake?


    The attending physician, Lockman, approached and examined Fernansplexion. Even in the midst of being drowsy on sleeping incense and dazed, Fernan muttered calmly.


    Why am I here?


    "Your Highness was exhausted during the search. You havent been eating properly for a long time, andck sleep, so youre not feeling well.


    "Julia."


    Fernan recited Julia''s name in a half-crazed manner. Lockman, who was looking at him in aplicated way, opened his mouth calmly.


    "Your Highness, you must first get some rest. Leave the rest of the search to the knights, even if it''s only for a few days"


    Ignoring Lockman''s words, Fernan got out of the bed and staggered across the room.


    Lockman couldn''t stop him, and all he could do was sigh.


    It was amazing that he could walk so normally when he was drowsy on medicinal sleeping incense. Perhaps it was only his obsession to find his wife that made him endure.


    Despite Lockmans concerns, Fernan entered the hallway.


    Bet, the butler, and the servants bowed their heads as he descended the stairs without wavering and entered the lobby.


    He did not look at anyone, and opened the door without hesitation.

 Chapter 37

    Chapter 37


    Your Highness, where are you going?"


    Lloyd, who was waiting outside the castle, stood in front of Fernan.


    As Fernan silently walked past him, Lloyd stopped him again.


    "Didn''t you hear what the doctor said? Rest first. Knights are continuing to search thend, so don''t be too anxious.


    "Have you tried to find the priest of the Temple of Ilion?"


    Fernan suddenly opened his mouth. He had forgotten about it for a while, as he had been so absorbed in his search that he became distracted.


    There was a good chance that that priest in the temple was involved in Julia''s escape.


    Lloyd gave a quick answer as if he had remembered it only then.


    "Yes, but priest Matheus stayed in the imperial pce at the time of the Grand Duchesss disappearance. Perhaps he was not directly involved in her escape.


    "Julia was carrying a pendant. It''s filled with holy power."


    Fernan muttered in a fading voice.


    "I''m sure she had helpers. It''s possible that they have Julia with them."


    "Yes, I''ll look into that matter again. So Your Highness, go back in and.


    "No, I''ll go there myself.


    Fernan moved quickly to his feet. If he pursued the priest, he might be able to get a clue to Julia''s whereabouts. At once Fernan jumped on his horse. His vision blurred for a while due to the residual effects of the sleeping potion, but he just pulled the reins. He couldn''t waste a second. He had to go find Julia right now to make up for the time he lied down in a daze. He had to look for her.


    <b><i>What Ive experienced so far is enough.</i></b>


    Fernan suddenly stopped the running horse.


    He couldn''t breathe for a while as he thought of Julia''s face as she told him about her misery.


    He lowered his head for a long time and exhaled.


    ***


    Inside the Temple of Ilion.


    Matheus was kneeling on a small tform with his eyes closed.


    In the absence of Mass, he generally performed blessing ceremonies at the request of outsiders. But for the past few weeks, Matheus had been spending his time praying for others.


    <i>What happened to Julia?</i>


    Julia had left everything behind and fled, and Matheus had no idea where she was now or what she was doing. Cedric, who directly assisted Julia in her escape, reported that he sent her alone because the situation was not favorable on the way.


    What happened to her after that, Cedric said, he did not know.


    She may have returned to the castle, or she may have seeded in escaping safely.


    He could only hope that she was safe wherever she was.


    Master Matheus, you have a visitor.


    At that moment, he heard a quiet voice along with a pounding on the door.


    By the time Matheus, half awake, turned around, someone opened the door and revealed himself.


    "Your Highness.


    Matheus slowly stood up and slightly bowed at the unexpected visitor.


    Inside, Fernan strode up to Matheus.


    In contrast to his unstoppable steps, Fernans face looked like he was about to copse.


    Why did youe all the way here?


    Seeing his appearance, Matheus could guess that Julia had seeded in escaping.


    Because there was no reason for him toe this far.


    "Tell me everything you know about Julia''s whereabouts."


    Matheus looked at him strangely as Fernan spat out his purpose ofing here without further exnation.


    "May I ask why you are asking me where she is?


    "I came here knowing that you were the one who gave Julia the pendant, it would be best if you didn''t make any excuses."


    Fernan frowned.


    "Or any idea of where Julia is."


    ""


    "If you know anything, please tell me."


    "I''m sorry, Your Highness."


    Matheus replied in a quiet, somber voice.


    "It is true that I gave Lady Julia the pendant filled with holy power, but I do not know where she is either.


    "You don''t know?


    Fernan looked at him sharply, as if trying to grasp his true intentions.


    But Matheus was really innocent, so he just faced Fernan with serenity. Soon Fernan continued in a fierce tone.


    "Julia jumped off the cliff."


    ""


    "There must have been some part of her that believed. A belief that she could somehow survive.


    ""


    "Otherwise, she wouldnt have jumped without hesitation"


    Fernan bowed his distorted face slowly. Yes, Julia wouldnt have tried to kill herself.


    She must have been sure that she would survive, whether it was holy power or not.


    However, unlike his thoughts, an emotion appeared on Matheus'' face.


    Matheus, who had been thinking about something while looking at the sky for a while, opened his mouth with a serious expression.


    Did Lady Julia have the pendant?"


    Fernan''s brow wrinkled. He took the pendant from Julia at the time he first found her.


    Matheus''s face grew darker as he read the reply from Fernans expression.


    If she had kept it close to her heart, she might have somehow survived by using the power"


    ""


    Otherwise, I can''t be sure.


    Julia was able to use holy power thanks to the holy power of Matheus, which resided in her heart from birth.


    The pendant was a medium of sorts, and it was only when it was ced near her heart and resonated with the power of her voice that she was able to use it.


    Since Matheus could not be with her every moment, he gave her a medium to help her use her own holy power.


    Still, he couldnt rx, so he sent Cedric to help her, and after leaving Cedric, she must have acted on her own judgment about the situation.


    "Of course, but Julia is .."


    Fernan murmured in a fading voice.


    Matheus turned away from him and answered in a heavy voice.


    "Maybe maybe she was willing to give up her life."


    ""


    "Whatever it was, Julia only wanted one thing."


    ""


    To avoid misery and to be happier.


    When he finished speaking, Matheus looked at Fernan, who froze.


    There was actually one thing Matheus didnt tell him.


    If Julia had really lost her life, the holy power that resided in her heart would have returned to its original owner, Matheus himself.


    He hadn''t seen any sign of that until now, so Julia was probably still alive.


    However he didnt know how she survived without the pendant.


    I''ll wait until I have a better idea."


    Looking at Fernan, who was standing there without a single movement, Matheus quietly examined him.


    He had no intention of letting him know this fact. It would be more useful for Julia, who was still alive somewhere.


    Immediately after Fernan left the temple, Matheus was lost in thought with a dark expression. He tried to think of a ce where Julia might be, but he couldn''te up with a clear answer.


    Looking at the sunset through a small window gap, he soon opened his eyes wide.


    A white messenger bird flew in from the distance andnded at the window.


    "Cedric must have sent you.


    Matheus, who looked brighter, slowly untied the cloth from the bird''s leg.


    When he unfolded the cloth, he saw the short sentence "I have found Julia" written in an urgent handwriting.


    ***


    It felt like she had a long dream after being submerged in the river.


    It was a hopeless dream, drowning in a sea of darkness all around, struggling helplessly.


    She felt like she couldn''t get out of it, sinking deep into the endless deep sea.


    At that moment, a ray of light fell on her. At the same time, a strange sensation enveloped her body, and her choked breath quickly subsided.


    This was how the dream ended. Julia''s eyelids began to slowly open.


    "Julia, are you awake?"


    At the faint voice, Julia struggled to turn her gaze.


    Through her blurry vision, she saw green eyes.


    "Priest Cedric.


    When she murmured quietly, Cedric finally breathed a sigh of relief and nodded.


    Julia slowly blinked and looked around. It was an unfamiliar ce, an unfamiliar bed.


    She was in a daze for a while, but soon asked in a faint voice.


    Where am I?"

 Chapter 38

    Chapter 38


    Cedric''s face darkened for a moment as he watched Julia mumble.


    "This is Helios Monastery. Julia came all the way here.


    ""


    You don''t remember?"


    <i>I came all the way here </i>Julia, tracing her memories vaguely, slowly raised herself up.


    At the same time, a shattering pain came over her entire body.


    "Ah.!"


    Julia curled her body up and started shaking heavily.


    Starting from her heart and spreading throughout her body, the pain made it hard for her to even breathe.


    It was as if something hot was spreading in her chest.


    Julia barely breathed as she grabbed her chest, which was shaking violently as if it was boiling. Cedric took her hand and hurriedly using his healing power.


    But her pain did not subside.


    Seeing her shivering, Cedric murmured in frustration.


    "What the hell happened during that time?"


    Cedric''s gaze touched her body. So far, there were no visible injuries. If there were internal injuries, his healing power should be able to treat them, but even that was useless.


    Something terrible must have happened to her on the way here.


    Cedric recalled the memory just before they parted.


    After he told her how to get to Helios Monastery, they parted and Cedric spent the day trying to distract the knights.


    After that, he arrived safely at the monastery and waited for Julia, but she did not show up even after a long time.


    So a long time passed, a month. Cedric guessed that she might have been caught by them and returned to her original position.


    However, contrary to his spection, Julia was found copsed in the front yard of the monastery the very next day.


    "Ha


    Cedric, who had erased his recollections, bit his lip as he stared at Julia moaning.


    There was nothing he could do, so he just held her trembling hands.


    Ah.ah.


    Julia, who was in agony, slowly lifted her tear-stained gaze.


    The pain began to lessen little by little, and her eyes, which had been dim, gradually lit up. Cedric waited until Julia''s breathing calmed down, and then he asked with concern.


    "Julia, what happened?"


    At his question, Julia struggled to recall her past memories.


    Thest thing she remembered was a deep immersion in the cold river after throwing herself down the cliff.


    The cold water current hit her body, and she fainted right after.


    There was no memory left after that.


    "I tried to escape and jumped off the cliff. I don''t even know how I got here"


    Julia, who was exining in a faltering voice, put her hand on her forehead.


    That was a territory that bordered the Grand Duke''s domain. However, it was a long way from the cliff to the river, near the castle walls.


    Cedric listened intently to her interminable speech and dropped his gaze as if he had an idea of what she was talking about.


    Then, suddenly, he asked,


    Did you lose the pendant?"


    "Yes."


    Technically, she didnt lose it, Fernan had taken it from her, but Julia didn''t add that.


    Only after hearing her answer did Cedric open his mouth with a hint of hesitation.


    "My opinion is that I think that Julia instinctively used your power-saving ability when you fell off the cliff."


    ""


    "You used the power directly without the pendant."


    That was, if she used her healing power to protect herself and then used her movement ability to move from ce to ce at once.


    Assuming that, it could exin this whole situation.


    The question was how she was able to use her holy power without a medium, but now was not the time to think about that.


    She had used enough holy power to save her life, so her body must be severely damaged now.


    "Yulia, did you do this because you thought you could live?


    ""


    "It has to be that"


    Julias pale lips quivered as Cedric, who had asked with a worried look, was unable to continue.


    "That.


    Julia''s eyes fluttered in the middle of her reply.


    In fact, she thought she might die. She thought it didnt matter if she died like this.


    It would be a hell of a lot worse for her to be taken back to Fernan and live as an abandoned Grand Duchess.


    She didn''t want to go back to being the daughter of the Marquis, which she hated more than death.


    Reading the reply out of the silence, Cedric hastily opened his mouth.


    "Get some more rest first, Julia. When you have recovered sufficiently, you must leave the Empire."


    ording to Matheus'' messenger bird that arrived yesterday, the Grand Duke was currently searching for Julia in all directions.


    This ce was not too far from the Grand Duke''s territory, so for now, the first priority was to leave the Empire as soon as possible.


    ***


    Even after visiting the temple, Fernan didn''t stop searching for Julia.


    Matheus said that he could not be sure if she was alive or dead. His words included the assumption that Julia might be dead.


    Fernan, however, blocked out all negative thoughts and immersed himself only in the search for traces of Julia.


    Meanwhile, spring soon arrived.


    It was then that the news of Julia''s disappearance was brought to the capital.


    The first person who heard the news was her father, the Marquis of Elody.


    "What nonsense is this? My daughter Why did she suddenly disappear?!"


    Aftering to the grand duke''s castle, the Marquis shouted loudly with a startled look on his face.


    So far, no details were known, and Julia was simply missing.


    Exhausted, Lloyd calmly dealt with the Marquis.


    "I know you''re surprised, but please calm down first. Currently, the Grand Duchy''s knights are searching all the territories for Her Highness.


    "Grand Duke! Did the Grand Duke deliberately hide my daughter? Otherwise, that quiet girl wouldnt just disappear.


    The Marquis was shouting so loudly that his neck turned bright red. Then he immediately caught Lloyd by the chest and shouted threateningly.


    "Go get the Grand Duke right now! Now!"


    His Highness is looking for the Grand Duchess every day. Please calm down and wait a little longer."


    "My daughter is gone and you tell me to calm down!


    The Marquis gasped, unable to hold back his anger. His red face, which seemed to burst, soon returned to its original state.


    After nervously shoving Lloyd away, he began to search the castle like a madman.


    In the Marquis'' head now, there was an assumption that Fernan had hidden Julia on purpose.


    No, she wasn''t hidden, but she might have been removed without anyone knowing.


    Fernan himself was the one who hadined so much about this marriage from the start!


    "No!"


    After a few moments of searching, he angrily began to throw at random the artifacts that decorated one side of the lobby.


    The startled servants fled in terror, and Lloyd hastily stopped the Marquis.


    Finally, he led the Marquis to the parlor and locked the door.


    The servants hurriedly cleaning up the lobby, which was in disarray after a rough storm. It was the next day when Fernan returned from receiving amunication.


    "Your Highness, let''s go to the parlor."


    Lloyd, who seemed to have aged in a day, reported without energy. Fernan opened the parlor door immediately without reply.


    Did you just show up now? My daughter is..!


    The Marquis, who jumped up and tried to shout, paused for a moment.


    It was because Fernans condition seemed unusual to the extent that he forgot his anger at the moment.


    Fernan, who had taken a seat, looked at the Marquis with an empty gaze. The Marquis narrowed his eyes and slowly sat down.


    "So, did you find Julia? Shes been missing for 2 months now. Don''t you think you should at least pretend to be looking for her?


    Fernan only stared at the Marquis as if he couldn''t hear anything. At the empty gaze, the Marquis frowned and shouted loudly.


    "Answer me! Did you deliberately drive my daughter away? Are you trying to destroy this marriage and confront His Majesty?"


    ""


    "I will inform His Majesty of the details! You seem to be under the impression that His Majesty might abandon me if this marriage is broken!"


    Fernan raised his dark eyes and stared at the Marquis.


    The Marquis didn''t show the slightest bit of concern for Julia. He was just angry at the situation and afraid that his position would be narrowed.


    A murderous intent slowly began to seep into Fernans nk face.


    <i>Why didn''t I kill him earlier?</i>


    When he found out that Julia was an illegitimate child of the Marquis No, when he found out that the Marquis dared to hit Julia, he should have killed him immediately.


    Even though he had fully guessed how much Julia had suffered from her father, he was distracted by the divorce and forgot the order.


    <i>That''s right, I have to kill him first.</i>

 Chapter 39

    Chapter 39


    Fernan kicked his seat and stood up, approaching the other side.


    "What are you going to do now!"


    The Marquis, sensing the danger, stepped back.


    Fernan grabbed the Marquis by the cor and threw him to the stone floor.


    "Ah!


    Blood began to pool around the Marquis'' head.


    He couldn''t even get up, and only painful grunts spread through the parlor.


    Fernan looked down at the Marquis with eyes full of murderous intent.


    He had to kill this man and make sure he would never talk with that dirty mouth again.


    "Your Highness!


    Lloyd, who came inside after hearing a scream, shouted in shock. He hurriedly grabbed Fernan to stop him, but it was useless.


    "Now, please calm down!"


    Lloyd blocked Fernan with his whole body, but Fernan pulled out his sword after removing Lloyd roughly.


    As such, it was the moment when he was about to cut the Marquis'' head with a single strike.


    Suddenly, his mind recalled thest image of Julia.


    The image of her standing on the edge of the cliff, holding the knife to her thin neck, filled his eyes for a moment.


    Blood flowed from her white neck, but her face was so nonchnt, as if she didn''t feel the pain.


    The image of her smiling faintly and throwing herself down the cliff without hesitation was so vivid that it was painful to watch.


    Fernans lips began to tremble faintly. At this moment, he had no choice but to realize.


    He realized that he too was no different from the Marquis.


    He had hurt Julia, he drove her to the edge of a cliff when she tried to escape. Even though he was like that, he was disgusted to the point of losing his mind at this moment, himself trying to kill the Marquis for her.


    <i>I guess I''m just the same bug to Julia.</i>


    "Ugh! Your Highness!"


    Taking advantage of the opportunity when Fernans movements stopped, Lloyd managed to push his body away.


    The Marquis, who was writhing in pain, was finally able to get out of his grasp, but his face on the floor was horribly bloody.


    After crouching down trembling, he crawled on the floor and left the parlor bloodily.


    He held onto the railing with his trembling hands. The waiting servants were surprised to see the Marquis, whose face had turned pale and bloody, and their mouths dropped open. The Marquis walked down the stairs in a dazed manner, as if he didn''t even have the energy to feel shame.


    Your Highness"


    Lloyd called Fernan in a distracted voice. Then he checked his expression and fell silent.


    Fernan was trembling with his lips clenched.


    Lloyd turned his head like a man who had never seen anything, in the weak appearance of the lord he had never seen.


    Clink.


    The sword in Fernans hand eventually fell randomly to the floor.


    As such, the Marquis left as if to flee, and for a while there was a gloomy silence in the Grand Ducal Castle. It was not until some time after the Marquis had left that Fernan came out of the parlor.


    Heading off somewhere with precarious steps, Fernan stopped at the end of the corridor. The ce where he stopped was in front of Julia''s bedroom. Creak, Fernan opened the door and stared into the cold, empty room.


    Even though the room had been empty for quite a while, it was not much different from before Julia disappeared. On the table there were some books that Julia had read and an empty vase.


    Fernan just stood there, not touching anything, not taking any action. For such a long time, he stared dimly at one wall. Only the memories wrapped around his empty head.


    <b><i>Your Highness..</i></b>


    The trembling voice, the watery blue eyes that looked up at him.


    It was the day that he thought Julia tried to give him an aphrodisiac.


    He stared at Julia, who was frightened and saying she was innocent, while he poured the potion on her dress in a threatening manner.


    He did not listen to her that day, even though he could see the reddening of her eyes as she cried.


    There was no expression on his face, and a moment of vexation appeared on his face.


    Whenever he tried to remember Julia in this way, he only remembered her hurt face.


    He couldn''t remember a single good memory during this short marriage.


    He only gave her raw impression that he wanted to get rid of her and how to get away from her.


    He could already see why she was trying to get away from him, Fernan was already losing his mind.


    <b><i>"..Was I a wife to Your Highness?"</i></b>


    Until the end Julia asked as if she expected nothing.


    She must have asked knowing that he couldn''t answer. Because he had never once treated Julia as his wife.


    Every time her beautiful shining blue eyes turned to him, he pushed her away and said harsh words.


    He desperately rejected her, for she kept trying to get close to him.


    Despite pushing him so hard, Julia calmly entered his heart without his knowledge.


    At some point he began to chase her, whom he treated so coldly.


    The realization came toote. When he thought that he wanted to keep Julia by his side, it was because she did not want him any more.


    There was no Julia to tell him she loved him.


    He didn''t know what to do, he didn''t know how to get her to stay with him, so he chose to keep her under surveince and force her to stay in the castle.


    <i>Actually, I should have said I was sorry and asked for her forgiveness. I should have been gentle and kind to her for the pain she was in.</i>


    <i>I shouldnt have held on to her but let her go freely</i>


    Fernan buried his face in his trembling hands. He realized everything, but there was no Julia now.


    No matter how hard he struggled, he couldn''t even find a trace of Julia.


    ****


    After a long time, Julia finally stepped on the soil of another country.


    Normally, the process of crossing the border was tough, but thanks to the rtively loose inspection, she was able to escape the Empire without difficulty.


    It was also thanks to the fact that Cedric had secured her new identity in advance.


    Their final destination was the Holy Land, located in the southern part of the continent. It was also the home country of Matheus and Cedric.


    It was a rather closed country with little interaction with other countries.


    Julia was going to prepare to ride alone and stay at a monastery there.


    "Get some sleep, Julia.


    Cedric approached Julia, who was sitting in the lobby, absentmindedly looking out the window.


    It was going to take them a long time to get to the Holy Land and they were currently staying at an inn.


    Julia replied with a faint smile.


    "I can''t sleep. So many things on my mind


    "There has been too much going on. I understand. Cedric said.


    Nodding, Julia murmured.


    "I can''t really feel it. I don''t know if I''m really free, if I''m really done with all this"


    She was more confused than thrilled or happy. She was also a little anxious.


    She didnt think there were any unresolved feelings left, but the painful memories probably wouldnt disappear with time.


    The faces of the people she didn''t want to remember anymore wouldn''t disappear for a while either.


    Suddenly, she remembered thest time she saw Fernan. The desperate figure that tried desperately to catch her was unexpected.


    Instead of feeling relieved when she thought of that figure, her heart sank.


    Shaking her head to erase her thoughts, Julia stared at the window again.


    Cedric, who followed her gaze, suddenly opened his mouth.


    "Why don''t you think about what you are going to do in the future?"


    Julia averted her gaze and looked at Cedric. He continued with a light shrug.


    "Isn''t there something you''ve always wanted to do? Even a small thing would be fine."


    Julia''s eyes lit up as she remembered something that had been bothering her for a while.


    I want to grow a garden. I want to make this and that with flowers."


    "That''s a good idea."


    I''d like to make some friends, if I can. I would like to go to private festivals. I''ve never enjoyed a festival before."


    She thought about it and new things came to her mind incessantly. There were many things she wanted to do, even if it wasn''t something grand.


    Cedric smiled at Julia, who was seriously contemting.


    "If there is anything you need, just let me know. That''s why I''ve been following you, Julia."


    "No, I''m just grateful that you came with me this far."


    "No"


    She could no longer cause trouble to Cedric, who helped her only with Matheus request.


    She felt sorry for taking up too much of his time, because he must have his own life to live.

 Chapter 40

    Chapter 40


    Are you ufortable with me?"


    When Cedric asked, Julia shook her head in surprise.


    "Not at all. I just feel like Cedric is having a hard time because of me"


    "If it''s just for that reason, I''d be happy to stay with you forever.


    "But"


    Julia looked at him a little puzzled. She had no idea why he would go this far for her.


    "Let me watch over Julia until you adjust to your new life."


    ""


    "I know it might sound ridiculous, but Julia reminds me of my old self."


    He has helped Julia so far not only because of Matheus request. Julia, who tried to escape the past and live somehow, kept ovepping with himself in the past.


    Cedric was a ve from a small country. A ve, born with a rare and mysterious holy power, exploited from an early age by his master.


    It was Matheus, his current master, who helped him escape from the pitch-ck agony of seeing no way forward.


    He felt a deep solidarity with Julia from the very beginning, though he could not see her situation and his aspletely the same.


    Just as he had been saved by Matheus and found a life as a priest, so he hoped that Julia would be happy with his meager help.


    Cedric looked at her with a gentle smile.


    "So I hope you will not be ufortable by my helping Julia.


    Tapping his chin, Cedric huffed and continued to speak.


    "You said you wanted to make friends. Will you make me your first friend?"


    ""


    Julia stared at him with wide open eyes, then smiled softly.


    "Yes."


    From the beginning, Julia also felt an unfamiliar familiarity with Cedric.


    Perhaps it was because she first met him in his child form. He was as fresh as a de of grass. She had always thought that talking with him made her feel at peace.


    Cedric smiled gently as he gazed at Julia . And finally, she too lifted her lipsfortably.


    ***


    The Holy Land they arrived at after a long time was an archaic yet contributed country. The history of the country serving God was felt in the styles of buildings everywhere.


    Gazing nkly at the monotonous streets, Julia felt her heart tingle for a moment. In fact, her body hadn''t been feeling very well throughout the entire trip.


    She had rested for quite a long time at the monastery, but it didn''t seem to be getting much better.


    As she exhaled slowly and pulled her mind together, the carriage passed through the forest and entered the castle grounds.


    Its arrival point was a vige that had a rural feel to it.


    Here and there, they could see farms raising flocks of sheep and shallow flowing streams.


    Most of all, what caught Julia''s gaze at once was the endless grasnds far away.


    Julia''s eyes, which had been gazing nkly at the window, forgetting her pain, began to shine before she knew it.


    She had never seen such a peaceful and beautifulndscape in her life.


    The carriage drove for a while along the grassy field, and soon stopped in front of arge stone building.


    It was the Helios Monastery, their destination. The first thing she saw was a group of children ying in the small front yard.


    "Julia, you can get out now.


    Cedric opened the door and gave her a small smile. Julia got out of the carriage with a trembling heart.


    As soon as they were out of the carriage, a middle-aged woman standing in the yard greeted them warmly.


    "Oh, you must have had a hard timeing here"


    "Long time no see, Gabrielle. How have you been?"


    Cedric shook her hand with a look of happiness on his face. Gabrielle was an administrator who had worked at the monastery for a long time.


    Basically, a monastery was a ce for priests to gather and spend time together, but this ce also served as an orphanage.


    Gabrielle was the one who brought in the children who had nowhere else to go and took care of them, acting as their guardian.


    From what she heard when she came, she was like a parent to Cedric as well.


    Um, hello.


    Hesitantly, Julia greeted her cautiously, and Gabrielle said, "Oh dear! as she btedly grabbed Julias hand.


    Youre Julia, right? I heard about you from Master Matheus."


    "Yes, I will be indebted to you for the time being."


    What are you talking about? It''s your home, you should feel at ease. Youve worked hard.


    Warm eyes, warm voice. Julia couldn''t help but bow her head at Gabrielle''s gentle gaze. It was because she felt like she was about to cry.


    "Yes, I know everything. You don''t have to say it.


    Gabriel patted her lightly on the back of Julias small hand.


    Most of the children in this monastery were abandoned or abused.


    Gabrielle, who had taken care of such children, could clearly see someone''s scars.


    Julia was another child who was too young and scarred in her eyes.


    There will only be good days now. Huh? Just think about being happy."


    Julia nodded with her red eyes. Gabrielle''s words spread through her mind like magic.


    There would be only good days from now on. She thought she would be able to be happy. It was the first time she could be sure of something in her heart that had been unstable for so long.


    "Who is it?"


    At that time, a child pulled Gabrielles sleeve and asked. A curious but wary expression came to Julia''s face.


    "This is the sister who will be staying with Theo. Come on, let''s say hello to your sister."


    ""


    The child named Theo winced and hid behind Gabrielle.


    "The children here are still having trouble with strangers."


    Gabrielle whispered. Julia bent her knees as she looked at Theo, who was peeking.


    "Hello. Theo. I''m Julia."


    "."


    "Let''s be good friends from now on."


    When Julia smiled, Theo, who was blinking his big eyes, pped his small lips andpletely hid behind Gabrielle.


    Julia slowly got up. She knew that she and the children needed time to get used to each other. Moving to a different location, Julia asked Gabrielle for more information about life in the monastery. The monastery was divided into two buildings, one with a chapel and the other for for amodation and lodging.


    Julia was shown to an empty room, unpacked, and sat down on the bed.


    It was a cozy room, small butrge enough for one person to use.


    From the window, she could see a small rear garden behind the building. A flower bed ced in the corner was beautifully blooming with spring flowers.


    Julia approached the window and looked at the flower bed with a slightly excited expression on her face. The center of the flower bed was full of white lilies, her favorite flower. The flowers swayed in the breeze, as if weing her to a new beginning.


    Life at the monastery was going smoothly.


    The vige where Julia stayed was one of the most secluded and quiet territories in the Holy Land.


    It was a small territory covered with wide grasnds to the south and surrounded by mountains bordering other countries to the north.


    It was a ce where there was very little interaction with the rest of the world, and a peaceful and rxed atmosphere prevailed.


    It was an unfamiliar peace that she had never felt while living in the Empire, but it came every day.


    It didn''t take long for Julia to fall in love with the vige.


    She decided to help Gabrielle and take care of the children of the monastery. At first, the children were unfamiliar with her, but they gradually began to open up to her kind attitude.


    "Wow!"


    Julia let out a smallugh as she watched the children running around among the swaying grass.


    It was the greenest, most peaceful day of the year, the end of spring.


    "Julia!"


    At that moment, a child with her hair tied up in a pretty bun ran over to Julia. It was a little girl named Rosemary.


    Rosemary was a lively girl who was particrly easygoing with Julia since their first meeting.


    "I''m giving this to Julia!"


    Rosemary squeezed Julia''s hand and tugged.


    She put a flower ring on Julias finger, which she had woven with her little hands. The ring was a mess in her tiny hands, but Julia patted Rosemary''s head happily.


    Thank you, Rose. It''s beautiful.


    "Hehe!"


    Rosemary''s eyes lit up as she looked at Julia, who was pleasantly looking at the pretty flower ring.


    You know, Rose is going to marry a princeter, right? I want a big pce, a pretty dress, an entrance, and a sparkly jewelry ring!"


    "Yes, I do. Rose can be a princess."


    Julia responded by sweeping over the disorganized child''s hair. Rosemary stared at Julia and asked.


    "Who is Julia going to marry?"


    Julias eyes opened wide at the sudden question, and she couldn''t reply for a while.


    Julia esitated for a moment then replied casually.


    HmmI dont know. Who should I marry?


    "Julia should marry a prince, too! Be a princess like Rose!"


    Julia just gave a smallugh when she saw Rosemary smiling brightly. Rosemary stayed next to her, chatting for a while, and then quickly ran off to join the other children.


    Julia stared at her and lowered her gaze with a subtle expression. Sometimes she didn''t know how she should feel when a moment like this came to remind her of the past.


    Even though only one season had passed, it somehow felt like too old a memory. Was it because she was satisfied with her life here?


    Or was it because of the desperate desire to forget the past?


    However, after inevitably recalling the memories of that time, it opened the door and brought out other memories.


    The first thing that came to her mind was Fernan.


    <i>I''ll probably think of him for a while.''</i>


    She loved him with all her heart and she wouldnt be able to forget him for a long time.


    After spacing out for a while, Julia averted her gaze and looked over the meadow. This was her home now, this was her life.


    One day, she hoped, she would not have to worry about remembering the past like this.

 Chapter 41

    Chapter 41


    He felt like the back of his neck was going to be torn off. Fernan, who opened his eyes, picked up a ss of water on the side table.


    But his dangerously shaking hand quickly dropped the ss.


    The sound of a sharp crack filled the room. Fernan, fully awake, pped his forehead with a hand full of raised blood vessels.


    Looking around, I saw for the first time the unfamiliar bedroom. He couldn''t remember when he had been in this ce.


    Perhaps the knights brought his fallen self here again. Fernan had no idea how many days he hadn''t slept.


    It had been months since he had been looking for Julia, just like an insane person. He could only faintly feel that spring was already over.


    It had been half a year since Julia disappeared. Summer has now arrived on the continent.


    But Fernans time was still stuck in that winter when Julia disappeared. He stood up, biting his pale lips.


    It was just dark, and as if he didn''t feel pain, he stepped on the shards of broken ss at random.


    Opening the door, he could see a small lobby through the railing across the corridor. It appeared to be the vige inn where they were conducting their search.


    "Your Highness, you''re awake. How are you feeling?"


    The knight standing in front of the door suddenly approached him. Then his eyes widened in surprise when he saw the blood marks where Fernan stepped.


    "Um, Your Highness, the wound on your foot


    "How many days did I sleep?"


    Fernan asked, interrupting the knight. The hesitant knight quickly answered with his head down.


    "Three days. But, Your Highness, even that is not enough. You need to get some more rest."


    Fernan closed his eyes softly and put his hands on the wall. He felt hurt, as if someone had thrown a stone at his head. With a deep sigh, he issued an order in a rough voice.


    "Bring me my clothes. We''ll be leaving soon."


    "But sir"


    The knight tried to speak but Fernan turned around and closed the door. Eventually, with a soundless sigh, the knight disappeared across the corridor.


    It was less than two hourster that Fernan left the inn. He swept past the knights who tried to stop him and headed for the stable.


    He went straight out, galloping his horse as fast as he could. Despite his skinny jawline and darkened eyes, his still intimidating body could barely support his spirit.


    He left first, and the knights were quick to catch up with him. Soon the procession turned onto a mountain road. It was a ridge leading to another country.


    Fernan drove on for a while, keeping his eyes only on the front. There was nothing contained in his empty vision.


    <b><i>Your Highness</i></b>


    Then suddenly, someone''s voice appeared in his empty brain. As if to hasten him to a standstill, a faint voice continued to whisper in his ear.


    <b><i>My name is Julia.</i></b>


    For the first time, Fernans dark gaze came back into focus.


    It was Julia''s voice. He tried to remember when he heard that voice.


    Yes, it was the banquet room of the Imperial Pce where he had first met her.


    A luncheon where he first met his marriage partner.


    <b><i>"Do you remember me? We met a long time ago </i></b>


    Julia asked me as they were leaving after lunch, and Fernan just stared at her, as if looking at something worthless, and quietly brushed her off.


    He didnt remember. It had been a long time since he erased all trivial memories before the war.


    It had been eight years of standing on a hill strewn with dead, dying, bloody graves. Because during those years, he had abandoned all humanity.


    And at that moment, Julia, who had dropped her gaze bitterly, lifted her lips slightly as if to say, "Still, it''s okay. He thought that little smile was annoying.


    He knew that it would bother him to see that smile as he lived with that woman for the rest of his life. Fernan tightened his grip on the reins again.


    He hurt Julia so much. He didn''t want to see her smile. He wanted to get away from her. As if to dere that she was nothing to him and that she shouldnt want anything from him as a husband.


    "Ha.


    Fernan was silent at once . All the mistakes of the past that filled his head made it impossible for him to move forward.


    His lips began to quiver. Finally, he looked up and grasped the reins, but something white suddenly came into his gaze.


    Wildflowers bloomed under the shade of a tree in a corner. It was white and faint and fragile. It was lily flowers that Julia said she liked.


    "D*mn it.


    Fernan swore. There was no time for this. He had to move quickly.


    But as Julia''s voice and face filled his mind, he couldn''t move his body very fast. Every moment that passed, every single one of them held him in a vexing grip.


    He began to choke up with overflowing emotions. It was as if someone was mercilessly strangling him.


    ***


    Around that time.


    For what could be described as a long time and a short time, Julia adapted perfectly to her new life.


    Unlike in the past when she had to hold on to each day, now she had peace and quiet every day. At the monastery, Julia''s daily routine was monotonous.


    In the mornings, she would spend time with the children. Then she would help Cedric give afternoon mass and after mass she would help Gabrielle prepare the meal.


    But only by lending a hand from the side.


    You dont have to help me every time."


    Gabrielle said as she looked at Julia, who was diligently chopping onions. Julia replied with a narrowed frown in her spicy eyes.


    "I''m fine. I don''t have anything to do in the afternoon anyway."


    It wasrgely with Gabrielles help that Julia was able to adjust so easily to monastic life. Gabrielle treated Julia like her daughter and showed her generous affection.


    Julia melted into that warmth surprisingly quickly. When she was with her, she feltfortable for no particr reason.


    "I heard that you made the flower decoration of the chapel".


    Gabrielle asked as she boiled down the stew, suddenly remembering. Julia nodded without stopping the knife.


    "Yes, I made it once before, and Cedric said it would be a good decoration for the chapel."


    Recently, Julia developed a hobby. It was to make ornaments out of flowers from the garden.


    Originally, she only helped the gardener with the flower beds, but the flowers were left behind and it was a waste. The branches were broken, but the flowers were in good shape, so she thought she could make use of them.


    So, with their permission, she brought the discarded flowers and tried to make this and that. They were things like wreaths, corsages, and bouquets.


    She made various things as her hands wandered, but the finished products were better than she expected.


    "The dark chapel became very bright. I didn''t know you had that talent."


    "Thank you. I''ll try to make it often in the future."


    Julia spoke in embarrassment, but she felt proud nheless. It was fun to find out what she wanted to do little by little.


    Sometimes her hand got injured, but it was all good. After helping Gabrielle with dinner, she always went for a walk around the monastery.


    This was because the meadow at sunset was very beautiful. Knowing that she enjoyed walking as a habit, Cedric would always follow her at the same time.


    As if they had promised, the two spent every evening together.


    "I think I''ll have to be away for a long time soon."


    In the middle of their trivial conversation, Cedric suddenly changed the subject. Julia asked,


    "Why?


    "The High Priest is visiting the Temple of Ilion soon. Its an important event that all the priests of the Temple must attend, so its unavoidable."


    Cedric, who said he would stay with Julia until she adapted to this ce, had been staying at the monastery for months as if to keep his word.


    However, he was still a priest of the Temple of Ilion, and thus could not be absent for such a long time.


    "Yes, I see. Have a good trip. Will you give my regards to Master Matheus?"


    Julia asked, staring at him. The Temple of Ilion was located in close proximity to the Empire, so it had been quite some time since she had seen Matheus.


    He didn''t want anyone to recognize his face if he went to visit Julia unnecessarily.


    "Yes, I will.


    Cedric nodded meekly. So they walked in silence for a while. The front yard, bright with the setting sun, was dark and sleepy before they knew it.


    So, after their short walk, they returned to their rooms. They had just entered the front door when Cedric unexpectedly opened his mouth again.


    "Julia, and if you don''t mind"


    Cedric paused for a moment as he was about to ask something.


    Turning around, he saw Julia standing a few steps behind him, her brow creased and her chest heaving.


    "Julia?"


    At the same time as Cedric called, Julia sat down as if she was copsing.


    "What, what is it? Are you hurting somewhere?"


    Startled, Cedric approached and helped Julia to her feet. But Julia, frowning, could not answer and was shaking uncontrobly. Suddenly, her heart began to ache as if it were being torn apart.


    "Ah


    Julia crouched down as if she could not breathe. The holy power was beating her heart violently.


    Her mind went nk for a moment and Cedric caught her by the shoulders. He tried to heal her with his power but it was no good.


    It didn''t seep into Julia''s body, and the light that bounced straight out disappeared into the air. In the meantime, Julia''s pain grew worse.


    She involuntarily grabbed Cedric''s cor tightly. She couldn''t bear the feeling of something hot welling up in her chest.


    Ah.


    Julia hung her head, covering her mouth from the feeling of something suddenly surging from her throat.


    Red blood flowed through the gap of her fingers.

 Chapter 42

    Chapter 42


    After throwing up blood, Julia immediately lost consciousness.


    Several months had passed since staying here, but Julia had never copsed like this.


    She sometimes said that she felt a throbbing pain in her heart, but this was the first time she coughed up blood with such intense pain.


    After fainted, Julia didnt wake up until the next day.


    "Julia, are you okay?"


    Julia turned to Cedric, who sat next to her with a worried look in his eyes. Cedric, who had been watching her all night, had a look of guilt on his face. Julia closed her eyes and gently nodded her head in reply.


    "I''m sorry. I should have paid more attention. I didn''t realize how serious your condition was getting"


    Cedric dropped his gaze with an embarrassed expression. Julia struggled to open her mouth at his remorseful words.


    "Please don''t say that. I''m fine."


    But as soon as she spoke, her heart began to palpitate again.


    Julia bit her lip as trying to catch her breath, her hands trembling.


    "I could endure this before, but why all of a sudden"


    Suddenly, the words that Matheus had said a long time ago came to Julia''s mind as she endured the pain.


    He said if she used the holy power randomly, her body would not be able to hold on.


    Of course she knew it well, but she didnt have any serious problems during that time, so she thought it was okay.


    As soon as she was relieved, her body started to break down little by little.


    "I''ll try to find a cure somehow ."


    ""


    "If we go to the temple and search through all the old documents, I''m sure we can find out more about Julia''s condition."


    Cedric opened his mouth decisively, as if to reassure her. But he couldn''t be sure, and his expression was gloomy.


    Julia nodded lightly,cking the energy to reply. Cedric looked at her worriedly as she struggled.


    "Julia, sleep some more. I''ll be by your side.


    Julia slowly closed her eyes at the quiet voice. Her whole body was heavy as if she was drowning in the water.


    ***


    Cedric left the monastery as nned.


    In the meantime, Julia''s body had made some improvement, but she was still not ready to return to her daily routine.


    So her routine at the monastery became lighter than before. She moved at afortable pace for her body and then had longer rest periods.


    One fine morning, Julia opened the window and sat down in front of the woodworking table.


    On the table were branches of colorful flowers and a half-finished flower crown.


    She was making a crown and a bouquet for the bride, as there was going to be a wedding at the monastery in a few days.


    "Julia, have a snack and take a rest.


    Gabrielle, who visited her in her room, said as she ced the tray on the table.


    Oh, thank you.


    Julia looked up after letting her flower crown down for a while.


    With her hair tied loosely, Julia smiled brightly. She looked the mostfortable she hadtely, but she was a little thinner than before.


    Gabrielle pushed the te with the madeleines towards Julia with a worried look on her face.


    "If it''s too much work, you don''t have to do it. I''m always worried that you''ll copse again.


    "Don''t worry. Im just sitting.


    After answering bravely, Julia stopped working and began to eat madeleines.


    Gabrielle looked at her pitifully.


    But Julia was calm, and the others seemed rather anxious about her condition.


    Despite Gabrielles concern, Julia''s appetite had returned after a long time, and she ate more than half of the madeleines.


    The sweet and soft texture spread in her mouth, making her feel even better.


    But I''m relieved that youre eating well."


    Gabrielle gave a small sigh. Julia chuckled as she watched Gabrielle.


    "It''s thanks to Gabrielle''s cooking skills.


    "Ill bring you more, so eat slowly."


    Gabrielle eventually smiled and talked in a better mood.


    All of a sudden she heard a cute voice interrupting the conversation.


    "Julia."


    Julia turned her head with her eyes wide open. Through the gap in the door, she could see a small child standing there.


    "Oh, it''s Rose.


    Rosemary, her hair tied up in pigtails, was standing there, her big eyes fluttering.


    Julia hurried over and opened the door. She could also see Theo hiding behind Rosemary.


    "Hey, Theo wanted to see Julia. And so do I.


    Rosemary spoke loudly, and Theo, who was standing behind her, shook his head wildly.


    "No, no, no! I was just following Rosemary"


    Theo, who was mumbling with his red face, bowed his head.


    Julia smiled at the cute sight and bent her knees to meet the childrens eye level.


    She had purposely not seen the children for the past few days.


    She was worried that she might suddenly copse again and shock the children.


    Julia couldn''t hide the smile that naturally appeared on her face when she saw the children running around like this, saying that they hadn''t been able to y with her for a few days.


    While Julia held the children''s hands and sat them down in front of the wooden table, Gabrielle said she would bring more snacks and left the room.


    "Julia, does it hurt anymore?


    Theo watched Julia as she hesitated.


    Julia gently stroked the child''s hair.


    "It doesn''t hurt anymore. I''m better now.


    Anytime she was with the children, she felt at peace.


    In a way, it was because of the children that she was able to love this small town so quickly.


    They were the ones who sought affection and gave her so much love.


    It was here, exchanging unconditional love, that Julia was able to heal the wounds she had suffered.


    "Come on, guys. Hurry up and eat."


    A few momentster, Gabrielle came in with a tray piled high with snacks.


    The worries that filled a corner of Julia''s mind gradually faded away while she spent time with the people she cared about.


    ***


    Fernan was still madly frantic searching for Julia.


    He searched the entire continent without a break, but there was still no trace of Julia. He looked like a corpse, acting as if all his feelings and thoughts were gone. In his nk stare, only the recurring despair was submerged.


    Time was flying by when, to his surprise, he was able to find a clue about Julia.


    <b><i>[I have learned of a sighting in the Elemion territory of a woman of simr appearance to Her Highness]</i></b>


    The message was sent by a knight who was searching in other regions. Elemion was a small territory in the south bordering the Grand Duke''s domain.


    Strangely enough, he only searched around other countries even with clues right near him.


    <b><i>[About six months ago, a young woman they had never seen before was lying on the outskirts of the vige. She was unconscious.</i></b>


    <b><i>A viger took care of the woman for about a month at a nearby clinic.]</i></b>


    And it was reported that as soon as the woman woke up, she asked the viger to take her to a certain monastery.


    Fernan immediately sought out the monastery in question.


    He pursued all the priests there and found out that they had a woman, presumed to be Julia, with them for some time.


    The description, the clothes, and the time of the disappearance were exactly the same as when Julia disappeared.


    The priests would not open their mouths further, but it was not difficult to force them to speak out. As a result, Fernan learned that someone had taken her with him to another country.


    Matheus, who had given Julia the pendant, did not fall under this category.


    This was because of the circumstances that Matheus had remained in the imperial pce at the time she disappeared.


    In the end, it meant that there was a third person.


    When he had made that assumption, a thought urred to Fernan.


    It was the report of the knight who had returned from watching Julia at the Imperial Pce a while ago.


    <b><i>"It doesnt seem to be any to pay much attention to, but Her Highness was apanied by 2 priests on her walks. One was a young priest and the other was an older priest.</i></b>


    All of the priests who visited the Imperial Pce that day belonged to the Temple of Ilion. Fernan quickly checked the entire list of priests from the temple.


    There were not one or two young priests. However, there were no priests who could be considered very young.


    After questioning and digging deeper, it was found that there was a priest who could take the shape of a "young child."


    It was not a private list that could be confirmed externally, but information obtained from military documents.


    The military documents contained the numerical value and utilization of holy power of priests that could be deployed in times of war.


    From the documents, he found a priest who could change his "appearance" with holy power.


    In other words, he could also change his age at will.


    And there was only one priest in the Temple of Ilion with such ability.


    It was a priest named Cedric Lapheod.


    It was said that he had been away from the temple sincest winter.


    All the circumstances were in ce.


    "Your Highness, in a week''s time, on the day of the High Priests tour, that young priest will surely appear.

 Chapter 43

    Chapter 43


    Lloyd, who had been following Fernan, spoke quietly.


    They were now lurking near the temple, as the temple was the only clue to finding Julia''s whereabouts.


    However, they were not putting any direct pressure on the temple.


    It was to make them not notice that they were under Fernans surveince.


    If the missing priest was truly rted to Julia, the more reliable way was to find out who was behind it secretly.


    So, please, be patient a little longer.


    Lloyd continued to talk, looking at the back of Fernans hand with blood vessels popping up.


    Fernan was now struggling to suppress the urge to turn the temple upside down.


    It was the first time in six months that he had a clue about Julia. It was natural that he wanted to find her right away.


    But there was no way the priests would be honest enough to tell him about her if he tried to visit the temple recklessly.


    Yes, I know.


    Fernand''s empty eyes lit up with a faint glow as he recited in a low voice.


    He had been out of his mind all this time, and now he was showing his human face.


    He held his trembling hands harder.


    Julia''s trail was approaching. Julia must be alive


    ***


    In the meantime, Cedric arrived safely at the Temple of Ilion.


    This was the first time he had been away from his position for such a long period of time during his time at the Temple.


    "It''s also been a very long time since I''ve seen myself like this.


    Before stepping out of the carriage, Cedric used his power and changed his appearance. As the green light faintly spread, he quickly transformed into a ten years old boy.


    Prior to his stay in the Holy Land, Cedric had always lived in his child form unless there was something special. This was because it was only by reducing his outward age and minimizing his bodily functions that he would be able to maintain his power in the most stable manner.


    <b><i>"Cedric, are you not changing into a child anymore?</i></b>


    As he dismounted from the carriage and walked up the stairs, Cedric remembered what Julia had asked him sometime ago. It seemed that the memory of the first time they had met was very strong in her mind. Julia was alone in her conviction before he could make any reply.


    Look again at the children attached to her, and look at him again.


    <b><i>"Hmmm, sure it would be a bit troubling if you turned into a child here."</i></b>


    A gentle smile spread across his face as he thought of Julias face as sheughed while muttering. It wasn''t actually because he was embarrassed or troubled as she thought.


    He just didn''t want to spend the rest of his time in front of her as a child. Smiling subtly, Cedric crossed the yard and entered the hall. It was two dayster when the High Priest decided toe.


    Before that, Cedric intended to visit the study on the top floor of the temple first. In the library were numerous history books from ancient times to the present.


    Starting from the origins of the holy power, many information and examples of the existing holy power were recorded. If he searched through them one by one, he might be able to find a way to alleviate Julia''s condition. Cedric walked along the corridor that led to the central staircase.


    Along the way, he briefly exchanged greetings with a few priests who noticed him and greeted him.


    "Priest Cedric, you''vee just in time for the day."


    Yes, its an important day so I cant be absent.


    After a short conversation with the priests he hadn''t seen in a while, Cedric took his steps again. Perhaps it was because of the news of the High Priests visit, but the temple hall was especially crowded with more people than usual.


    After weaving his way through the crowds and up the stairs, Cedric eventually made his way to the study.


    And a man who had been blending in with the crowd was watching Cedric carefully.


    It was Fernans second-inmand, who had infiltrated the interior of the temple in ce of the known face of Fernan. Pretending to be a visitor, the knight followed Cedric and observed him for a while. He was a young priest from outside. The way he talked with the existing priests without hesitation. Above all, his name was Cedric.


    Surely, this priest was the one his lord was looking for.


    ***


    "Julia, when will Cedric return?"


    A small voice echoed in the front yard of the monastery.


    Julia, who was inserting flowers into the wooden arch, lowered her head to Rosemary, who stood next to her.


    "Well, hell be back soon. Do you miss Cedric?"


    Julia asked affectionately, and Rosemary made a sulky face.


    "Other priests are scary. Cedric is nice to us.


    The priests here were older and all very stern. It was just a little difficult for the children.


    Cedric was the only one among them who would help her and y well with the children.


    Rosemary seemed to miss him very much, because he was not there to y with her.


    It had been exactly three weeks since he left the monastery. She knew that the day of the High Priests visit had already passed.


    But it took a long time toe and go and she did not know exactly when he would return.


    Julia smiled and ruffled Rosemary''s hair.


    "Rose, isn''t it boring to y with me?"


    At her mischievous question, Rosemary shook her head.


    No! It''s good to y with Julia. It''s fun.


    Rosemarygged behind, clinging to her arm and rubbing her cheek. Smiling brightly, Julia gently tugged at the childs cheek.


    The wedding was scheduled to take ce at the monastery in the afternoon.


    So Julia worked with the children to decorate the wedding arch with flowers.


    The wedding arch, after finishing with care, was finely decorated with white flowers, making the garden glow.


    When the noon sun went down in the afternoon, a wedding ceremony was held in the monastery.


    Julia handed the bride the light pink rose bouquet that she had made with all her sincerity.


    "Wow, what a surprise! I love it. Thank you very much!


    Seeing the bride smiling brightly with happiness filled Julia''s heart with a little happiness as well.


    The ceremony was officiated by the head priest of the monastery.


    It was a simply decorated wedding, but the sight of the young couple smiling at each other was as beautiful as any gorgeous wedding.


    Julias lips lifted faintly as she watched the bride and groom exchange rings.


    Then, suddenly, she remembered her own wedding day.


    That day was in early spring.


    The ceremony, held at the Imperial Pce, was as morous as any royal family. The memories of exchanging vows and rings in front of the priest came to mind one after another.


    Blinking her eyes with an expressionless face, Julia suddenly looked down at her hand. Then she remembered her own wedding ring, which she had long forgotten. It was the only thing she had selfishly brought with her as a constion prize.


    <b><i>Ive never seen a ring crafted with such precious gems before. Where did you get this?</i></b>


    When she just arrived at the monastery, Julia went to a jeweler to sell the ring.


    The merchant said the ring was worth a lot of money, but she returned without selling it.


    She didn''t need the money right away, but somehow she still didn''t have the courage to sell it.


    She didn''t know if maybe it was because it was the only thing that reminded her of her past. It was a past she wanted to forget, but perhaps she wasn''t ready to let it gopletely.


    Deliberately brushing her thoughts away, Julia turned her gaze again.


    As she smiled again, gazing at the bride and groom as they kissed each other, someone ced a light hand on her shoulder.


    "Julia."


    Julia looked back at the familiar voice. Cedric was standing behind her with a small smile on his face.


    Julia looked up at him with a happy expression on her face.


    "Cedric, when did you get here?"


    She talked about him with Rosemary this morning, but she didn''t expect him to be back so soon.


    "I just arrived."


    Cedric continued to speak as she came up beside her quietly.


    "How have you been feeling?"


    Julia''splexion was better than before. Smiling, Julia replied.


    "I''m feeling much better."


    She hadn''t coughed up any more blood since that time. The pain that had been intermittently hitting her heart had also subsided.


    Julia shrugged her shoulders faintly. Cedric finally smiled.


    The end of that smile, however, was somewhatplicated and soaring.


    So far, Cedric had searched all the ancient books that were outdated in the temple. But still he found nothing.


    What upset him more than anything were the words Matheus had told him.


    <b><i>"I can feel that Julia''s power is slowly returning to me.</i></b>


    <b><i>"You mean.</i></b>


    <b><i>"Yes if this continues, Julia''s health will be at risk.</i></b>


    Julia''s holy power originally belonged to Matheus.


    Once the holy power that resided within her was gone, it was supposed to return to its original owner, Matheus.


    It was presumed that Julia''s throwing up blood was also because her power was disappearing. However, even Matheus said he could not guess why such symptoms happened.

 Chapter 44

    Chapter 44


    "Cedric, what''s wrong?"


    Julia stared in wonder at the silent Cedric for a moment. Then, finally, Cedric looked up and answered.


    "No, it''s nothing."


    Cedric smiled faintly again. It would be better not to inform Julia about this yet.


    However, Julia had a vague idea why he was doing so.


    Probably because he couldnt find a cure at the temple.


    "Thank you for trying so hard. And I''m really okay now.


    Looking at Julia as if she was trying tofort him, Cedric bit his lip.


    Nodding with aplicated and apologetic expression, Cedric was silent for a moment.


    After his expression changed again, he turned his gaze to the bride standing in the wedding archway.


    "Did Julia make that bouquet for the bride?"


    Nodding, Julia smiled brightly again.


    "I also decorated that wedding arch with the children."


    The wedding arch was ced in the direction she pointed, its white flowers and greenery glowing beautifully in the sun.


    "You must have had a hard time. Please don''t overwork yourself."


    "Don''t worry. It was rather fun.


    Looking at her peaceful face, Cedric finally rxed his lips. At this moment, he could only hope earnestly. He hoped that this would be uneventful. May she be as peaceful as she was now, without further pain.


    "They look really happy together, don''t they?"


    Julias blue eyes were shining as she asked. Even though it was a simple wedding, she seemed to be very happy to see it.


    Cedric was sure her wedding was much more morous and extravagant than this.


    When he had first brought Julia here, Cedric was inwardly worried that she would not be able to adapt to the simplicity of life.


    However, contrary to his fears, Julia blended into the life here in her own way.


    However, he couldn''t be sure that she was really satisfied with her current life.


    Cedric knew very well that she sometimes looked lonely.


    "I heard that tomorrow is the festival."


    Julia unexpectedly opened her mouth again. She had just heard the news from Gabrielle earlier this morning.


    Cedric, with a small tilt of his head, answered quickly,


    "Yes. The birthday of Hecate, the god who rules the continent, is this summer."


    This was also the reason why the High Priest traveled all over the continent. Every year around this time, there were longsting celebrations in the Holy Land.


    Julia looked somewhat expectant at his words.


    This is the first time in my life that Ill go to a festival."


    Among Julia''s modest dreams was to go out into the city and enjoy the festivals.


    For even the mundane things of blending in the crowd and watching the festivals in the streets were not allowed in her old days.


    Seeing her, Cedric spoke in an even brighter voice.


    "It''s going to be fun. During the festival, foreigners are also allowed to enter freely."


    "I see."


    "There will be street ys and night markets. There will also be a lot of merchants."


    Hearing this, a sense of anticipation welled up in Julia''s heart even more. Gazing into her sparkling eyes, Cedric made a suggestion.


    Shall we go out together tomorrow? Well bring the children too."


    "Yes, of course."


    Julia lowered her eyes softly, hiding her childish exuberance.


    Her hair fluttered lightly in the breeze.


    ***


    It was afternoon, the first day of the festival.


    The streets of the downtown area were gorgeously decorated with colorfulnterns and decorations.


    The white lights illuminating the slowly fading dusk.


    The scene, which created a deep and mysterious atmosphere, attracted Julia.


    "Wow!"


    The children held her hands and swam through the crowds. As Cedric said, there were numerous shops on the street.


    The children took her on an enthusiastic tour of the streets, and before she knew it, they were in the middle of a square.


    There, a street y was actively in progress.


    They sat on the stairs in one corner of the square to watch the y. After seating the children in the empty seats, Julia sat down next to Cedric. The noisy children quickly became quiet as the y proceeded with great interest.


    And Julia, who had finally sighed, immediately began to immerse herself in the y.


    "How''s the festival? Is it as fun as you think?"


    After some time, Cedric unexpectedly spoke to her. Julia nodded without taking her eyes off the y.


    "Yes, if only for the noisy atmosphere I feel really good."


    Cedric, who was silent for a moment at her reply, asked again.


    "Can I assume that Julia is a little happier now?"


    Finally, Julia turned her head. Cedric looked nervous.


    She blinked slowly and looked at him, and Julia soon smiled gorgeously.


    "Of course.


    The clear smile, without a trace of selfishness, spoke volumes. She was already happy.


    Cedric looked at Julia as if he was obsessed and grabbed her hand for no apparent reason.


    The tips of his ears were slightly red.


    Julia''s eyes were tinged with peace as she turned her attention to the y again.


    It was a night when everything unfolded perfectly.


    And at the same time, Fernan had just entered the festival street.


    The Holy Land strictly controlled theings and goings of people from other countries.


    Coincidentally, however, from the day after his arrival, the Holy Land entered the festival period.


    Thanks to this, permission was obtained earlier than expected.


    "Your Highness, we''ve already lost the priest. What should we do?


    Within a day, the priest quickly disappeared. But it no longer mattered.


    If Julia was in this country, it wouldnt be hard to find her no matter where she was.


    "Divide the area and conduct a secret search. I need to look at this street."


    Fernan led only two or three knights into the downtown area. The lights that lined throughout the square brightened their dark vision.


    The white banners connecting the pirs were painted with the patterns of the gods in gorgeous colors.


    Fernan, however, did not look at any of them. He just nced at the crowd with his crazy eyes.


    He thought a lot the whole time he was here. At the same time, he was surrounded by endless emotions.


    The emotion that filled his heart the most was hope.


    It was the thought that Julia might be dead that suddenly rose up and drove him crazy.


    He couldn''t quite contain the emotions that were welling up in him at the current situation that proved that idea to be wrong.


    His gaze, which had been wandering the streets like a madman, soonnded on a corner of the square.


    People were gathered in a circle, looking at the central open space, perhaps it was a sightseeing spot.


    Fernan, who was watching the crowd carefully, quickly averted his gaze.


    Then, he suddenly threw his gaze to pierce the middle of the crowd.


    His shimmering golden eyes caught sight of a woman.


    In the midst of all the people, only one person came into his eyes.


    "Julia."


    Fernan murmured as if he was strangled.


    She was a petite woman sitting on the step. Her light silver hair in a bun, her face delicate and hollow.


    Even herke-like eyes, which still shine as brightly as ever even after such a long time.


    The image of Julia, which he had drawn thousands of times in his mind, was clearly in front of his eyes.


    "Your Highness?"


    His second-inmand spoke to Fernan, who stood still. It was because Fernand was the only one who recognized Julia among the people.


    He soon beckoned the knights silently.


    Immediately, all the knights who followed him scattered to other ces.


    A light gradually began to shine in his eyes, which had been quiet, as if he didn''t know this situation was reality or a dream.


    Julia, the woman he had been searching endlessly for, was now in his field of vision.


    With his lips quivering slightly, Fernan stepped forward. His golden gaze remained fixed on Julia, staring at her relentlessly.


    Instantly, the sound of all the strings of reason being cut at once could be heard.


    <i>Julia would be surprised. Wouldn''t she be angry and wonder why I hade? Then how could I soothe and calm her?</i>


    There was no room for such normal thoughts.


    The next strides that followed were fast approaching Julia.


    At that moment, a wave of people parading in front of him passed by.


    He stopped when he began to see Julia again, who had been hidden by the crowd.


    His crazy eyes suddenly hardened.


    Fernan froze, looking down at his feet in a daze, slowly raising his gaze.


    Then he looked again. He looked at Julia''s face, which was smiling like sunlight.


    Then Julia wasughing. He had never seen a face like that before.


    "Why?"


    The first thought that popped into his head was such a silly question.

 Chapter 45

    Chapter 45


    Julia''s smile appeared one after another in his vision as he began to sway slightly. For some reason, at this moment, he couldn''t move, as if his feet were tied to the ground.


    Fernan didn''t even think of approaching her, he just kept staring at her. Eventually, Julia got up from her seat and started taking care of the children next to her.


    Then a man was seen helping her and holding the children. It was the priest whom Fernan lost while following.


    She wandered around the crowded streets, looking happy and content.


    Fernan, like a somewhat insane person, just followed her like that.


    Every now and then she bent her knees and looked at the children, whispering something to them with her gentle gaze. A few times she looked up at the priest next to her andughed at the words that came and went.


    The whole scene made Fernan feel as if someone was squeezing his heart again and again.


    He had never seen her like this before. It was the kind of face Julia had never shown him before.


    Even if he drew Julia thousands of times, all he could picture was a face that was always hurt and tearful, immersed in misery, but now Julia was not the woman he remembered.


    She was just an ordinary, happy woman.


    <b><i>Lady Julia wanted one thing: to get out of her misery and be happy.</i></b>


    Just then, someone''s voice tapped him on the ear. Fernans steps came to a halt. Following the voice, thest image of Julia in his memory appeared in front of him.


    <b><i>I''ve had enough misery in my life.</i></b>


    Standing on the edge of the cliff, muttering those quiet words. He had thought of it thousands of times before, and it began to hold him down again at this moment.


    Fernan, who bowed his head as if breaking down, held his trembling hand tightly. Blood oozed from the palm of his hand as a strong force entered it.


    Fernan, who slowly raised his head in that state, caught sight of Julia again.


    She was looking up at the night sky.


    A flurry of fireworks embroidered the night sky. Julia gazed at the scene, her eyes shining like a child''s. She was a woman whoughed with joy at such a small thing.


    Now he finally knew that fact. An invisible wall was erected in front of Julia, perfectly assimted into the peaceful scene.


    It was a solid wall that he could not possibly break down or destroy. "It was a solid wall that he would never be able to break down or break down, and a sense of reality gradually came over Fernan, who was half out of his mind.


    <i>At first what did you try to do?</i>


    <i>That''s right. I was going to ask Julia for forgiveness first thing when I saw her.</i>


    <i>I would never hurt her again. I will try to promise. And I am going to put into her hands every precious and good thing I had ever failed to give.</i>


    <i>I want to untie the intricate knot and rekindle my rtionship with her.</i>


    <i>That''s how I''m going to start all over again.</i>


    Fernan lowered the hand that had been covering his mouth. His lips quivered.


    The funny thing was that while he was having such apparent thoughts, only one thing that came to mind.


    That Julia would live happily ever after, after she forgot everything.


    That all the elements of unhappiness, including him, might be buried and she might be with new people.


    Before he knew it, the night of the festival was drawing to a close.


    Fernan just stood there quietly even until people started to leave.


    When Julia was out of sight in the crowd, a small, almost vanishing voice fell into the street.


    "How can I.


    <i>How do I grab hold of you? How can I bring her to my side again?</i>


    For Julia, he was the end of her misery. He was the one who drove her to the edge of the cliff until the very end.


    He didnt give her anything. He had never made herugh. He couldn''t even make her feel at least a littlefortable at home.


    All he had given Julia was wounds and pain.


    But how could he break her peace now?


    Fernan closed his eyes, which had grown dim with the loss of light. Soon the knights approached him.


    The knights could not easily open their mouths as they looked at their lord, who bowed his head with a dangerous look on his face. Fernand slowly opened his mouth in a voice with unknown emotions.


    Stop searching.


    This short order was the end of a long time of madly searching for Julia so far.


    ***


    It was half a month after Fernan returned to the castle.


    It was his first return in half a year, but the Grand Duke went to his office without looking at anyone.


    He did not speak to anyone. Not even the butler who rmended meals to him, or the adjutant who gave him papers, or the servant who came to deliver the letters that had been piling up.


    He just went about his business one by one.


    He forced himself to cram only the political matters into his head and handed over the documents like a machine with only a pen.


    He did that for a month.


    "Your Highness, it''s Lloyd. I''ll be in in a moment."


    Lloyd walked through the door and looked a little darker.


    Fernan was in the same position Lloyd had seen him in yesterday, examining the documents.


    He couldn''t tell if his lord had eaten or slept.


    His eyes were dazed and his face was paler than before. His body was as intimidating as ever, but his jawline was noticeably thinner.


    Lloyd carefully held out the letter in his hand.


    As ordered, the knight you sent out found some information about Her Highness.


    Fernans hand holding the pen stopped for a moment. His face, which had been expressionless, gradually began to show emotion.


    He took the letter without looking at Lloyd.


    His eyes shook slightly as he read the contents.


    The letter contained detailed information about Julia''s life.


    It said that she was staying at a monastery in a small vige.


    There she took care of the children and became a fully established member of the monastery.


    What is the size of the monastery?"


    "It''s not a big one. It''s a monastery in a very small vige, so there arent many people."


    Fernan lowered his gaze. His golden eyes were quiet, as if he was thinking about something. It was not long before he opened his mouth again.


    "We''ll have to wait and see."


    ""


    ", yes. A little more."


    If it was unkempt, it was unkempt. And it was a terrible, ugly regret.


    He knew now that Julia wont need him.


    But maybe, just maybe, something will happen in her life that she would need him for, even if it''s just a small part.


    Such a sneaky desire to be a part of her life, even a small part, filled a corner of his mind.


    "I will do so, Your Highness. Oh, yes, Your Highness. ."


    Lloyd, who was about to say, "Please, rest," as was his custom, immediately fell silent.


    He knew very well that his lord was not a person who listened even when he spoke a few thousand times.


    It might be better to cling to political affairs all the time, like this, to somehow kill the emotions.


    "Well, I''ll be going now."


    With a small sigh, Lloyd bowed silently and turned away.


    The door mmed shut, and silence fell over the office once more.


    ***


    Winter was soon upon the Holy Land.


    Along with the seasons that have passed so quickly, several changes have urred in the monastery.


    Last fall, an unidentified anonymous sponsor donated a huge sum of money to the monastery. This caused the monastery to go through many busy days for three months.


    The interior facilities have been renovated and the old exterior has been beautified.


    The monastery''s finances, which were not rich, now have an untenable margin, which made it possible to live a more convenient life.


    The donor didnt reveal his identity. It''s so frustrating that I can''t even say thank you.


    Julia crouched in front of the firece and remembered what Gabrielle had said.


    The ce where millionaires and nobles donated their money was the Great Temple with a high reputation.


    Also, they normally wouldnt hide their identities when they donated.


    She knew this because when she was a child she saw Marquis Elody donate to the Great Temple with all kinds of fuss.


    How did the donore to know this little monastery and donate? Julias faint curiosity was aroused.


    Crackling, the sound of wood burning filled the bedroom.


    Julia put the book she had just brought from the study on herp.


    During internal repairs, a study had been installed at the end of the first floor.


    So these days, she would sit in front of the firece and read books before going to sleep.


    The gentle warmth of the fire melted her body. Julia flipped through her book with a slight tilt of her head.

 Chapter 46

    Chapter 46


    Such a peaceful day continued for a while.


    It was a winter when everything was in perfect order. Likewise, Julia thought that her body was gradually getting better.


    However, one morning, which was no different from usual, Julia woke up coughing up blood.


    Her lips quivered as she looked at the blood that had moistened her palms.


    A trickle of blood stained the bedding red.


    Julia couldn''t hide her confusion at the sudden hemoptysis that hadn''te for a while.


    After hurriedly bringing a cloth and wiping off her mouth and hands, Julia touched her chest.


    Thump, thump, a faintly running beat, she could faintly feel the power inside her shaking. At the same time, she could feel that her power was fading more than before.


    No one told her, but Julia could predict it to some extent. The more her power faded, the more and more the life inside her was disappearing, Julia immediately sat up with a pale face.


    "Should I tell Cedric? But.


    Cedric was still traveling to and fro, searching for a cure.


    However, he had yet to find any results.


    If he found out that her condition had gotten worse, he might feel overwhelmed.


    " It''s okay."


    Julia mumbled to herself.


    Then she went straight to the closet and changed her clothes. She tucked the bloodstained bedding to one side first.


    While she was doing that, someone knocked on the door.


    Julia walked up to the door and opened it, and Gabrielle looked at her in surprise.


    "Hey, you look really pale, are you okay?"


    Her cheeks had turned white, and by all ounts she definitely looked like a patient.


    Julia just shook her head, not wanting to cause any unnecessary worry.


    I''m fine. I guess I didn''t sleep well."


    She smiled faintly, but Gabrielle was already worried.


    Gabrielle, who reached out her wrinkled hand and touched Julia''s forehead, yelled in surprise.


    "What do you mean youre fine? Your forehead is on fire!"


    Gabrielle grabbed her hand and hurriedly sat Julia down on the bed.


    "Please wait. I''ll bring a doctor soon.


    Before Julia could respond, Gabrielle rushed out of the room.


    The door closed and Julia, who had been blinking her eyes loosely, but her lip.


    Even if she met with the doctor, it wouldn''t change much, because her condition was not something that could be made better by the normal medical techniques.


    After sitting like that for a while in a daze, Gabrielle entered the room with a town doctor.


    He was the only doctor in this vige. He had met Julia a few times.


    The doctor examined her condition and diagnosed her as sickly with fever. They gave her a fever reducer and a restorative.


    Knowing that it was useless, Julia took the medicine without fail for several weeks. It was Gabrielles way of being stubborn.


    However, taking the pills did not make Julia feel any better.


    After all that time without sess, suddenly a certain doctor, who said he was from anothernd, visited the monastery.


    He was a well known and prominent doctor. In short, it meant that he was an expensive doctor in the noble family.


    Julia couldn''t help but be suspicious, even as she received the medical treatment.


    "Um


    The doctor, who had been carefully monitoring Julia''s pulse, slowly withdrew his hand.


    Then he began to speak in a very polite manner.


    "There seems to be a problem with your heart. The flow of the acupuncture points touching your heart is not smooth, so your body is cold, but your head is hot and you may feel chest pains asionally."


    Julia couldn''t help but open her eyes wide at the surprisingly urate diagnosis.


    The doctor in town who visited a few weeks ago had dismissed her condition as a simple fever.


    "I''ll prescribe you some medicine for your heart condition. I will give you a stabilizer that will temporarily help your cirction. If you take it when you feel chest pain, you will feel better.


    Julia nodded vaguely as the words continued smoothly.


    In addition, the doctor provided her with a basket of herbs that were good for restoring her energy.


    The tea made from the roots was said to be good for improving physical strength and stabilizing nerves.


    I''lle back when you finish all the medicines I prescribed. If your body gets sick again before then, you can always contact me."


    "Ah yes, thank you."


    With thosest words, the doctor stepped out of the bedroom, bowing in a polite gesture.


    After he was gone, Julia spoke to Gabrielle.


    "Um, Gabrielle, how was that doctor here?"


    Such a famous doctor rarely visited private homes, no matter how much money was paid.


    Gabrielle answered quickly with a small smile.


    "One of the followers introduced us to him. He said hes a very famous and capable doctor.


    "Did the doctor just agree easily ande here like that?


    "Well, yes. Actually, I was going to take you to visit him there, but he told me that he would visit in person. In any case, we are fortunate. Now, let''s start eating quickly so you can take your medicine."


    Still wondering, Julia nodded obediently.


    The doctor had pinpointed her symptoms specifically. That alone was enough to convince her that he was an excellent doctor.


    However, it was not known whether the prescription drug would work.


    So after finishing her meal, Julia took the medicine the doctor gave her. After that, she even drank the tea which was brought by Gabrielle.


    It made her feel like a child to be taken care of like this.


    Julia hadn''t been able to get enough sleep in the past few days. Because her body was constantly feeling ufortable and tingling.


    Today, however, she felt much better. She thought it might be because of the medicine she took.


    Julia gradually closed her eyes, feeling more at ease than she had in a very long time.


    That night, for the first time in a long time, Julia was able to sleep soundly.


    After taking the medicine for a few days, she found that the prescribed medicine had a definite effect on the symptoms that appeared on the surface.


    Most of the physical diforts such as increased fever and fast beating heart have disappeared. The quality of her sleep has also be better than before.


    Looking at it that way, her condition seemed to be getting better little by little. That''s what the doctor who came to visit her periodically said.


    Ironically, however, the power within her remained unsteady.


    "Cedric."


    As the evening wore on, Julia looked over at Cedric, who was walking alongside her, and called his name.


    They were on their evening walk, as usual.


    "Yes?"


    Cedric looked at her gently. Julia quietly lowered her gaze.


    "I wonder how much power I have left in me."


    At the quiet statement, Cedric paused, his face frozen for a moment.


    He looked bewildered. It was because Julia had never asked specifically about her condition before.


    But she already seemed to know that the power in her was slowly disappearing.


    "Actually, I''ve been feeling it for a while. The power in my heart fading little by little."


    Julia exined calmly as she looked up at him. Finally, the bewildered Cedric nodded.


    Yes, that''s right. It''s Julia''s body, so there was no way you couldn''t feel it yourself"


    He muttered a sigh, and continued with his next words.


    "I can''t feel Julia''s power. But Im sure Matheus knows. Hes the original owner of the holy power.


    Since his visit to the temple of Ilion a few months ago, Matheus hadn''t had muchmunication.


    So, Cedric still didn''t know exactly what Julias current situation was.


    "For now, Julia''s best treatment is to not use your holy power."


    Even so, the power would faintly fade, but as long as she didn''t use an enormous amount of power all at once, there would be no sudden abnormalities in her body.


    Cedric spoke to her in his usual gentle voice.


    "Don''t worry. You will be fine. Julia is loved by God."


    Julia managed to raise the edge of her lips.


    "Yes, I''m sure Ill get better too."


    Itd be lying if she said she wasn''t anxious. But she didn''t want to ruin her current peace of mind with such anxiety.


    She was finally able to find some happiness now. One day at a time was very important to her.


    <i>When will I faint again? What if I don''t wake up? </i>She didn''t want to waste precious moments with such meaningless thoughts.


    There would be no change in the pain if she did. So she just had to go about her daily life as usual and be at peace.


    "Yes.."


    Julia took a deep breath. She then turned to Cedric and gave him a small smile as if to say that she was really okay now.

 Chapter 47

    Chapter 47


    "Your Highness, I apologize for the early hour. The Kingdom of Caria has sent a proposal for a trade merger. It seems that you need to consider it as soon as possible."


    Inside the Grand Duke''s castle. Lloyd, who had hurried into the office, approached the desk and held out a letter.


    Without looking at Lloyd, Fernan took the letter.


    "Your Highness, on a different note, what are your ns for the Empress'' birthday banquet this time?"


    Lloyd looked at him and asked cautiously.


    So far, Fernan had not participated in any of the major events held in the capital.


    However, since this banquet was only for the royal family''s birthday celebration, it was necessary for him to attend.


    As Lloyd swallowed his spit, Fernan replied by writing his signature on the letter.


    "Tell them I will be there.


    "Yes, yes!"


    It was a surprisingly straightforward reply. Lloyd breathed a sigh of relief.


    After finding out about Julia''s whereabouts, Fernan began to dabble in political affairs outside the estate.


    That was a relief, but


    Six months had passed since he had found Julia and left her there.


    However, Fernan was still spending his time as if he was missing something.


    So far, the castle has been piled high with marriage proposals from all over the world.


    If he didn''t bring Julia back with him, he would have rather considered a new marriage partner.


    But Fernan simply ordered all the marriage proposals to be burned without touching a single one.


    He even went so far as to officially dere that he would not ept any more marriage proposals.


    Lloyd looked at Fernan, whose eyes were fixed on the papers, and posed a question to him.


    Your Highness, are you really not nning to see Her Highness?


    Fernan, who had been madly searching for Julia, did not even try to go to her now.


    If he had abandoned his feelings for her, he would not have said anything.


    However, his nerves were still entirely focused on her.


    For half a year, he had been distributing donations to the small monastery where Julia lived.


    He even went so far as to impersonate his second-inmand as a member of the congregation there to receive regr updates on her condition.


    The other day, he just received the news that she was sick, and he sent a doctor directly to her there.


    ".. Your Highness, we can''t leave the position of Grand Duchess vacant forever. Wouldn''t it be better to bring back Her Highness now?


    To be honest, there were enough good reasons for him to bring Julia back.


    The Grand Duchess ran away and abandoned her duties, that fact alone was enough to force her back to where she belonged.


    It was certainly the right thing to do to meet and talk to her first before doing so.


    However, it was just frustrating for the aide as he was just watching out of sight. As Lloyd sighed faintly, Fernan handed him one of the documents with an unknown expression.


    "Leave."


    Lloyd stood hesitatingly even when Fernan ordered him to leave coldly.


    But as soon as the cold gaze touched him, he had no choice but to bow silently and leave. And so, when Lloyd was gone, Fernan just looked at the papers for a long time.


    It wasn''t until dawn, when the moon was shining, that he suddenly looked up. The snow that had not fallen for a while was scattering.


    He stared at the snow, which only made him feel depressed. Then he got up from his seat and slowly approached the window.


    It reminded him of Julia, a natural thing to do after a crazy day of work.


    <b><i>"I''m continuing my visit to the monastery as you said. She''s been better since taking the prescription medicine, so don''t worry too much.</i></b>


    Not long ago, hemunicated with the doctor whom he sent to Julia at the Holy Land.


    He was d Julia was getting better, but he was still concerned. The doctor said her heart was not good.


    He wondered how long it had been that way. Maybemaybe it started when she was living in this castle?


    Fernan lowered his gaze and let out a heavy breath. Then he threw his gaze to the window again.


    <b><i>It''s nice to have a lot of snow here.</i></b>


    Julia''s voice sank like a phantom. Winter, snow, and Julia disappeared.


    Still, he had no intention of breaking her routine.


    But he couldn''t help but feel the urge to go see her sometimes. Just not executing it was a task he couldn''t handle.


    That was because he didn''t want to be Julia''s misery again.


    The only thing he could do was just pretend not to see her and hold his breath.


    Fernan held his hand still as it began to shake out of habit.


    The tremors in his hands that had formed after the loss of Julia still hadn''t gone away.


    His life was still like thin ice. Without Julia, there was only a chill in the air every day here.


    Now he deeply realized the true nature of his feelings for Julia.


    And that heart grew helplessly even in this time when he couldn''t see her.


    ***


    Gabrielle, I''m going to the Lords residence tomorrow.


    Julia opened her mouth in a crisp voice.


    Not long ago, Julia had just gotten a small job at the Lords residence in the vige.


    It was because the wife of the lord, who visited the monastery to see the people of the estate, saw the flowers that decorated the chapel and asked Julia to decorate the reception room of the mansion.


    Although she was not an expert, her unique and quaint decorations seemed to be very much to the liking of the lord''s wife.


    Gabrielle looked worried that Julia was overworked, but eventually nodded.


    Yes, the Lords wife is a nice person, so spending time with her will be good.


    The distance between the lord and the people of thend here was not far.


    It was a smallnd, and the lord was not too concerned about high and low status.


    "I''m looking forward to it. I''ve heard the mansion is very nice."


    Julia smiled. She had been making an effort to keep things the sametely.


    So she didn''t avoid taking on new jobs and meeting new people.


    The children had been spending time with her every day, and she hadn''t missed her evening walks with Cedric.


    Not long ago, Cedric had been away. So in the evening, Julia walked by herself. As the chillier weather permeated her skin, she realized that winter hade again.


    <i>Winter. Another year has passed since I came here.</i>


    As she walked along, lost in thought, Julia suddenly looked up and stopped.


    Its snowing..


    Julia stared at the snow falling like petals on her head. It was the first snowfall that greeted her here. She reached out and the snowkes fell coldly into her palm.


    She stood there for a long time, like a child looking at the snow. Suddenly, someone''s voice went faintly to her ear.


    <b><i>There is a legend that if you see the first snowfall with someone you love, your love wille true. Have you ever heard of it?</i></b>


    It was someone''s voice, familiar and gentle. Then, just like the reply, a young voice also came to her mind.


    <b><i>"Mother, how do you know what love is?</i></b>


    <b><i>"Hmmm."</i></b>


    The little girls words were long and troubled, her gentle gaze looking at her mother. The warm chest that hugged the child whose ear tips were red from the cold.


    <b><i>"I want to protect you, I want to be with you, thats what love is.</i></b>


    <b><i>"Then, does mother love me?"</i></b>


    It was a memory of a childhood day under the falling snow, being held in her mothers arms.


    <b><i>"Of course I do. Mother will always love you, Julia.</i></b>


    Without warning, Julia''s mouth lifted faintly as she remembered that day.


    Why did she forget about it all this time? Those precious days she spent with her mother, that loving voice she used to tell her she loved her.


    Julia stayed with her mother until she was seven years old. Until the age of seven, when her biological father suddenly appeared and took her away.


    Perhaps it was because she thought her mother had abandoned her at a very young age. Maybe that was why she forgot all the good memories that she had.


    Julia looked quietly at the snow piled shallow on the floor.


    After recalling her mother after a long time, even the faces she didn''t want to remember came to her as an extension of her memory.


    The Marquis and his wife, steeped in greed and evil. She wondered how they were doing now.


    It was certain that they had suffered no small amount of damage since she disappeared.


    Julia''s eyes fluttered expressionlessly.


    She didn''t want to curse them, but at least she hoped they wouldn''t live as luxuriously as they had before.


    ***


    "This is different. This is not what it looks like. Your Majesty, you can''t do this to me. ."


    Marquis Elody threw the bottle of liquor in his hand on the floor. At the sound, the servants who were standing by the door, looking at each other, bowed their heads, shaking.


    A year has passed since Julia''s disappearance. The Emperor had withdrawn the Marquis from his hand and foot position and had never called him in.


    Up until six months ago, he was called in several times to investigate Fernans current situation, but since he couldn''t get any useful information, the Emperor considered the Marquis useless.


    The Marquis, who had enjoyed the wealth and honor of having Julia as the Grand Duchess, could not fully enjoy everything without her.


    In the meantime, the power that the Marquis had built up was quickly crumbling.


    "Julia, that ungrateful girl must have run away. Yes, definitely."


    "Didn''t you say earlier that she''s dead?"


    Grayson, sitting across from the Marquis, replied in a calm tone.


    Grayson Elody, the eldest son of Marquis Elodie, who had recently moved to the capital.


    "No, shes not dead. She ran away and made me suffer. How dare she repay me for the grace and nurturing I had shown her so far with this.!

 Chapter 48

    Chapter 48


    Instantly, the angry Marquis swept all the decorations off the table.


    This caused amotion once, but Grayson just stared at his father like he was deaf.


    "What should I do? WellGrayson, you can beg His Majesty. No, no. The Emperor is setting distance, so you''d better hold on to the Crown Prince!"


    Watching the Marquis babbling nonsense, Grayson got up from his seat as if he was sick of it. It had been a full two days since he had to deal with her father like this. Grayson took a step, leaving behind the Marquis, who was muttering like a maniac.


    "I''ll be leaving now. Please give my regards to mother."


    As soon as the Marquis saw his son leave, he got drunk on his misfortune and grabbed the wine bottle again. Grayson walked out of the parlor without looking back.


    "Young Master, the Marquis is in a very bad mood. Why don''t you stay a little longer with him before going home?"


    As he walked away, the butler hurried to follow. It was a plea for help. The anger of the Marquis at the loss of his honor was directed at the servants of the mansion.


    Every day the Marquis got drunk and rampaged through the mansion, destroying it. Many of the servants were unexpectedly badly hurt by him.


    The Marchioness also released all her sensitive nerves to those under hermand.


    The other day, after all the invitations to tea parties were refused, she threw a vase of flowers at them, causing serious injuries to the maid who was near her.


    As these days were repeated day after day, the number of servants resigning increased.


    In this desperate situation, the only person who could reestablish the family was the eldest son, Grayson.


    However, Grayson just kept walking without ever looking at the butler.


    "Young Master!"


    Grayson''s eyes didn''t even change when he called out in an urgent tone.


    From the beginning, he had no love or respect for his parents, much less for the butler and servants of this rotten house.


    One day, he should seed his father and take over the title of Marquis, but he didn''t have the slightest sense of mission to start a family.


    "Lets go"


    Soon, the carriage carrying Grayson began to rattle off. He nced at the mansion over the window.


    Then, naturally, he remembered his half-sister, Julia, who disappeared a year ago.


    He wasn''t close to his sister, and he thought she was living well since she became Grand Duchess.


    But it seemed that was not the case.


    He guessed it was not easy for her to live a prosperous life because his parents were like trash.


    Leaning his back against the seat, Grayson smiled. He didnt have to guess how much fortune they got from Julia, who became Grand Duchess


    Even for Grayson, his parents were not decent people. His father pretended to be a soldier, but in reality he was a bellicose and violent man, and his mother unleashed her resentment of such a father on her young son.


    The daily torment was transferred to Julia when she appeared.


    A suitable and appropriate target appeared to take it all out on her.


    Maybe she didn''t go missing, maybe she escaped on her own.


    That was what Grayson thought about Julia. She escaped on her own.


    It was also amazing how the young girl had endured so far.


    Unlike him, who left home to live and ran away in the name of studying abroad around the age of twelve.


    That was why he and Julia weren''t close as they spent only a couple of years together when they were young.


    Grayson kept his eyes closed and swept his hair in a intive manner.


    At best, the daughter they had built to be the Grand Duchess was gone, and their heir son had grown up to be a ruffian with not a shred of heart to make the house prosperous.


    So in the end, the Marquis and his wife were doing as well as they had sown.


    ***


    Julia had been spending time at the lords mansion twice a week these days.


    This was because thedy of the mansion, who was satisfied with the reception room Julia decoratedst time, continued to entrust Julia with other chores.


    It took about an hour by carriage from the monastery to the mansion.


    She dozed off during the ride, and before she knew it, the carriage was at the entrance of the mansion.


    While Julia opened her eyes and checked the window, the coachman opened the door of the carriage.


    Julia, wee back!


    The wife of the lord, Marianne, who was just out in the front yard, rushed over to greet Julia.


    Good morning, madam"


    Oh my god, your face is frozen red! Come in quickly. I''ll tell the servant to make some hot tea."


    Marianne chatted amicably and led Julia into the mansion.


    Marianne was three years older than Julia, but her two children were boys who were already five years old.


    Marianne, who had married at a very young age and had been lonely while living in an unconnected estate, had been very fond of Julia from the beginning.


    Thanks to Marianne, who did not care about status, Julia soon becamefortable with her.


    As soon as they entered the reception room and sat down in front of the tea table, a servant brought them refreshments.


    Marianne grabbed her teacup and opened her mouth.


    The children have gone hunting with my husband for a while. I''m sure they''ll be backter this evening, so you can chat with me today."


    "I see. So you have a hunting ground in your domain?"


    "Yes. There is one forest. Sometimes small animalse down there. Rabbits, foxes, and deer. I don''t understand why he brings the children to hunt when it''s so cold."


    Marianneined in a grumbling voice. Her tone was closer to that of a simple country woman than a noblewoman. Because of that, the present time was morefortable and enjoyable for Julia.


    While actively engaged in all kinds of conversation, Marianne suddenly looked at her servant.


    Then she began to whisper softly to Julia.


    "Julia, don''t get married. No, if you do, let''s have all the fun you can before you do it. I wish I had married him a littleter. When I was a little girl, I thought I couldn''t live without that man, and now I want to squeak and punch him, just him breathing next to me!"


    Julia couldn''t help but let out a smallugh at the lively voice.


    Oh, that said, the lord and his wife were a close couple.


    ording to the rumors, they were a rare case of a love marriage.


    "Hmm, but when I think about it, it''s kind of strange. Why Julia isnt married yet?


    Marianne abruptly changed the subject to her, Julia opened her eyes wide and soon smiled awkwardly.


    "Um, I''m actually married. We''re in a state of separation right now.."


    Sometimes, like Marianne, people would ask why she wasn''t married, and Julia would give them a straightforward answer.


    She didn''t feel the need to hide it too much, since no one here knew her background anyway.


    "Oh my goodness, oh my goodness! Is it true? Why did you break up? Oh, it''s not polite to ask these things, is it?"


    Marianne, who had been listening excitedly, suddenly stopped talking. Julia kept her eyes downcast and replied quietly.


    "Just We didn''t get along. My husband didn''t love me."


    Thinking that spitting out the words would make the atmosphere somewhat heavy, Julia smiled, meaning that it was nothing to worry about anymore.


    Marianne, who had been listening with a serious face, nodded and replied.


    "I''m sorry to hear that. It must have been hard for you. I don''t know who it was, but I''d like to see his face to see what kind of an idiot he is."


    At Marianne''s crisp words, Julia eventuallyughed out loud.


    She had been trying so hard to be fine, and now it didn''t hurt that much when she thought of Fernan. At first, whenever her feelings for him grew, she had to frantically remind myself of the bad moments with him. For example, his cold words and stares, or the painful things she experienced at the castle.


    As she did so, her mind gradually calmed down.


    "Yes, Julia. I''m nning to have a garden party in the greenhouse soon, will youe then?"


    Marianne, who had been fiddling with the cookies, changed the subject again.


    "You know. I don''t have anyone close to me, and I don''t have many people to invite. So Julia muste. Yes?"


    Marianne looked at Julia with sparkling eyes, and Julia nodded pleasantly.


    "I''ll be grateful if you invite me. I''ll definitely be there."


    "Thank you! I was just getting angry because my husband was scolding me to throw a party that no one wasing to anymore."


    As she listened to Marianne''s continuous chatter, the evening was quickly approaching.


    Marianne kept asking her to stay for dinner, and Julia ended up sitting at the table with her.


    Meanwhile, the lord and his children, who had left on a hunting trip, returned. The lord, who put the children down from his arms, spoke to Marianne in a serious tone and left the mansion again.


    When Marianne returned to the dining room after seeing her husband off, she looked a little pale.


    "Ma''am, is something wrong?"


    Julia asked with concern, and Marianne nodded and sighed.


    "It seems that some of the knights who went out on border patrol have gone missing. We couldnt reach them at all. I guess my husband needs to go investigate it himself.


    "I see. I hope everything is fine.


    The mountains surrounding the territory also bordered the border, and the thought that something terrible might have happened suddenly worried her.


    Marianne suggested that Julia should stay overnight since it waste.


    However, Julia politely declined as she didnt want to feel indebted.


    Julia went out of the mansion and looked up at the sky for a while, then hurriedly got into the carriage.


    The sky was all dark due to the shortening of the day.

 Chapter 49

    Chapter 49


    A weekter, the garden party that Marianne had invited her to was just around the corner.


    Julia had spent the evening arranging the flowers to make a bouquet to take to the party tomorrow.


    While she was working with cloth and ribbon, she heard someone''s voice through the door.


    "Thats strange. I''m sure he said hed be back by this morning. Or maybe there was something wrong.


    It was Gabrielles voice. Julia listened to the voice without stopping her hands.


    "Don''t worry. It just takes a little longer to patrol than usual. Jeremy, who catches wild boars with his bare hands, what could happen?


    The voice that followed was that of Paul, the gardener. The conversation between the two continued in Julia''s ear.


    If it really bothers you, I''ll go to the entrance of the mountain early tomorrow morning.


    Yes, yes, that would be better.


    The converter, which was going on for some time, disappeared from the corridor while they were on their way.


    Julia tied the ribbon tightly and thought of a man named Jeremy in their conversation.


    Jeremy was one of the knights who guarded the monastery. He had just left a few days ago when he was put in charge of guarding the entrance to the mountain on the border.


    <b><i>'' Come to think of it, I heard that some knights went missing in the mountains.</i></b>


    Julia suddenly remembered what Marianne had said at the lord''s mansion.


    She wondered if Jeremy''s noting back had anything to do with that, which made her worry even more. Holy Land was a country that had almost no conflicts with other countries. In the name of being a country blessed by God, she heard that evenmon looting was almost nonexistent.


    However, Gabrielle said long ago that there were demons that often came up the mountain.


    Many people were injured by them, and ever since then, they have been devoting more and more to guarding the border.


    It was hard to believe that such a thing had happened in such a peaceful and tranquil ce.


    Julia managed to suppress the faint worry that was rising in her heart, and finally finished the bouquet.


    The next morning, Julia headed to the kitchen.


    She remembered that Marianne loved cookies, and she was going to bake a few.


    As she slowly walked into the kitchen, Julia spotted Gabrielle at the stove.


    "Gabrielle, you''re up early."


    "Oh, Julia. Youre here just in time."


    Gabrielle ced freshly baked madeleines and various cookies on the table. The fragrant and sweet smell filled the kitchen.


    "I baked them for you to take to the party. It''s the first party youve been invited to so you have to bring something in return."


    Julia looked down at the freshly baked cookies with her eyes wide open.


    Apparently, she and Gabrielle had the same idea.


    "I was going to make it, but you must have had a hard time because of me since dawn."


    "Go ahead and ask this old woman to do this sort of thing for you. It''s not like I don''t know that you''re not talented in cooking."


    Gabrielle smiled mischievously, folding the edges of her wrinkled eyes. Julia followed her and replied with a smile.


    "Thank you. I''m sure madam will be very pleased."


    "Go and have a good time. Don''t worry about this ce, you can stay there for as long as you want."


    Julia nodded. She was grateful to Gabrielle for always taking care of her like a daughter.


    Gabrielle wrapped the cookies and bread in a clean, dry white cloth and ced them in the basket.


    After the basket was handed to her, Julia went back to her room and put on a bright colored winter dress that would look good for the party.


    Finally, after putting on a long coat, she left the monastery with her hands full of luggage.


    Julia, who was soon in the carriage, smiled brightly.


    "Ill be back.


    She waved at Gabrielle, who came out to see her off.


    Soon the carriage slipped out of the gate and rattled on.


    There was a quieter than usual atmosphere in the monastery after Julia left.


    The priests had just left for the central temple for their annual event, and all that was left in the monastery were a few workers, Gabrielle, and the children.


    After lunch, Gabrielle headed to her room to put the children to bed. Naps were essential for growing children.


    Time was of the essence.


    After a hearty meal, the children soon fell asleep.


    Gabrielle, who had been watching over the children for a while, sat up immediately.


    She checked her pocket watch and before she knew it, it was past two o''clock.


    Wanting to do some embroidery, Gabrielle went back to her room and rummaged through the basket that was ced in the corner.


    At that moment, someone''s high-pitched scream rang out outside.


    "Oh my God!"


    Startled by the high-pitched voice, Gabrielle turned her head quickly.


    She hurried over to the door and grabbed the railing, but someone else mmed the door open before her.


    Standing at the gate was Paul, who had left the monastery earlier in the morning at Gabrielle''s request.


    "We have to run away! The demons, the demons are attacking us!"


    Paul shouted with a pale face.


    Riding his horse to the foot of the mountain early in the morning, Paul found that the knights that stayed at the entrance of the mountain had beenpletely wiped out.


    There were huge demons that were brutally tearing the soldiers to pieces and killing them.


    Paul saw the scene and immediately returned to the monastery, but only after the demons that had already crossed the mountain swept out the entire vige.


    "Uh,e on! Take the kids and run away-!"


    Paul, who had been speaking in a hurry, suddenly fell over.


    Behind Paul, who had already copsed, a man dressed in ck wasughing with his mouth wide open. Red and ck blood sttered Paul''s body as he fell.


    ***


    The carriage carrying Julia turned into a wide, well-traveled road.


    It was then that the snow suddenly started to fall.


    The snow, which had been fluttering thinly like snowkes, intensified in the middle of the ride.


    From a small space in front of her, she could hear the mumbling voice of the horseman.


    Now, now, it''s not good if the road freezes over.


    Julia looked out the window with the same worried look on her face.


    They still had quite a while of driving to do to get to the mansion. The carriage was driving slowly along the slippery road, and soon enough it entered the entrance of a certain street.


    The carriage, which was running in full swing, stopped at some point, shaking dangerously.


    Julia, who hit her head on the window, raised her head, groaning faintly.


    "Ugh, what''s going on"


    Julia looked forward and was about to ask about the situation, when she suddenly covered her mouth with her hand.


    "Oh, ah..


    It was because a strange beast appeared out of nowhere and immediately rushed towards the horseman.


    Boom!


    The windowpanes of the carriage that had been vibrating so loudly from the rushing beast broke at once.


    Julia looked at the broken pieces of ss for a moment, then turned her gaze back to the horseman.


    "Please help me!"


    The old man let out a desperate scream and copsed.


    The sight that met Julia''s eyes was that of a monstrous beast that grabbed the old man by the neck and drove its teeth into him.


    No, it was not a beast, but a demon. It was a huge monster that she had never seen before in her life, and it was roaring with blood-red eyes.


    "Oh, oh


    Julia checked outside with her trembling body down. She could see another demon running around in a simr shape, roaming the streets.


    And in the meantime, a white-haired man in pitch-ck robes was carrying on his steps with ease.


    Julia bent down more deeply, unable to make a sound of breath. The fear that took over her entire body seemed to havepletely stopped her thought process.


    Then, in a sh, she heard a man''s voiceing from very close by.


    "I can smell what you bought. It smells so sweet and delicious.


    A creepy voice stuck on Julia''s ears.


    And then, with a tter and a turn of the handle, the carriage door was instantly torn open.


    A strange looking man stared at Julia with shiny eyes.


    You''ve been hiding in here?


    Seeing the man with a terrifying smile with his mouth wide open, Julia couldn''t even scream.


    She trembled like a tree leaf as she slowly stepped back, a shard of broken ss clutched in Julia''s hand.


    Without time to think of anything, her body moved first.


    "Kiyaaaaah!"


    Soon, the man''s loud scream filled the entire town.


    Julia jumped out of the carriage, desperately, still holding the piece of ss that had cut the man''s face.


    A shard of ss that was swung haphazardly seemed to cut deep into the man''s eyes.


    "Ah!"


    However, unable to go far, Julia stopped.


    The demon that had brutally killed the horseman earlier surrounded her.


    Julia stared at the demon with a gaze filled with fear.


    The demon, which bared its huge fangs, looked as if it was about to spring at her.


    A shard of ss dugpletely into her palm. Blood was oozing out, but Julia had no time to feel pain.


    The demon circled around her as if in rm.


    It was a somewhat hesitant gesture, unlike the one that had just attacked the horseman all at once.


    Julia didn''t move a finger and faced the red eyes that were ring at her.


    The demon, which had been slowly circling around her, immediately opened its mouth and leaped quickly at her.


    "Ah!


    Julia screamed with her face buried in her arms as the fear reached its limit. With that, she instinctively drew her holy power up to my fingertips. Gah! Along with the sound of vibration, something loud and revolting could be heard. Julia slowly lowered her arm, panting for a moment.


    "How?"


    In her shaking vision, the demon engulfed in mes came into view.

 Chapter 50

    Chapter 50


    Although Julia was trembling, she captured the scene clearly in her eyes. The demonic creatures engulfed in blue mes were burning.


    The fire that spread in an instant to the ground and spread to the beasts that were rampaging on both sides. Julia looked at the scene with her dazed eyes for a moment, then suddenly came to her senses.


    Now it was time to run away.


    Julia, who had fallen down several times with her shaky legs, struggling to get up.


    She forcibly pulled her hardened footsteps, and, not knowing where she was going, she just ran recklessly.


    But she couldn''t run away for long as someone grabbed her by the hair.


    "Ah!"


    Jukia looked up with terrified eyes as she fell down.


    The white-haired man, whose eyes were stained with bright red blood, was staring at her with her angry expression.


    Where are you running away to, huh?


    Let go of me!


    The man easily dragged the struggling Julia away.


    Despite her trembling, Julia revived her previous feelings and raised her power once more.


    But this time there was no spark.


    "Ah!"


    At that moment, the grip on her hair grew stronger.


    As Julia yelled painfully, the manughed and continued to talk like a crazy person.


    You dared to rip my eyes apart, so I would have to tear your limbs apart.


    Ahh


    But you have quite a strange power, so Ill take you without killing you in particr. Well, whether you die now or dieter, the sacrifice is the same."


    The man continued to mumble in a creepy voice.


    Julia couldn''t even listen to the man properly, and she struggled desperately.


    Julia, who was trying to raise her power again several times, felt something gushing out of her body at that moment.


    At the same time, she vomited blood.


    After being dragged for a while in that state, she was thrown hard into a carriage.


    Bang, Julia groaned softly as she bumped into the window. She endured the pain and tried to open her eyes, but her eyelids kept getting heavy.


    She bowed her head and exhaled. At the same time, the carriage shook slightly.


    Perhaps he was trying to drag the carriage, the man in the seat in front of her threw the limp coachman at random.


    Then there was the sound of a strange incantation.


    Hearing the sound of the spell, hordes of creatures from all directions ran and surrounded the carriage.


    And with a rattle, the carriage began to move slowly.


    At this moment, the first thought that came to Julias mind was her concern for the people of the monastery. Will Gabrielle and the children be safe?


    Now, of all the times, the priests were absent and there was no one to protect the children.


    <i>Is this the reason the knights disappeared?</i>


    Julia, who began to grasp the situation at that moment in her blinking mind, exhaled heavily.


    The strength of her whole body drained out in a hurry. With her droopy body leaning against the seat, Julia struggled to lift her eyes and looked out the open space in the carriage.


    A while ago, the manpletely ripped off the door, leaving arge hole in one side of the carriage.


    She could see monsters with hideous appearances running frantically following the carriage.


    What would happen if she was dragged by them like this? Earlier, she seemed to have heard the word sacrifice from the man.


    "no"


    Julia muttered in a dying voice. As her mind wandered, the thought arose that she didn''t want to die helplessly like this.


    She was once very tired of living, but now she was not.


    She wanted to live longer, happier, and safer than anyone else.


    That was the moment. Along with the hilt of a sword that flew from somewhere, the monsters that were close to the carriage turned around.


    "What is that!"


    She heard the man shouting in astonishment.


    Soon, someone rode on a horse and started shing nearby monsters.


    Aaaah! Ahhhhh!"


    Looking at the monsters that fell easily, the man began to scream.


    The angry man shook the carriage precariously to and fro.


    With that recoil, Julia''s body fell helplessly out of the carriage.


    Suddenly, the cold air permeated her skin.


    But what touched her body was not the hard frozen ground, but someone''s arms.


    Hisrge arms gently embraced her. In that state, her body slowly began to rise.


    Julia looked at her own two legs floating helplessly in the air, and then she raised her head to the person holding her.


    Her gaze, which had been copsing without focus, shook greatly for a moment.


    <i>Am I seeing nonsense? Am I dreaming?</i>


    There was a man in front of her who shouldn''t have been there. Distorted eyebrows visible through dark ck hair. Beneath them, his golden eyes gleaming under the dim sunlight.


    The man she had been trying to forget for a year was right in front of her.


    " Julia."


    Julia stared nkly at Fernan''s face through the blurred vision.


    He was saying something to her, but Julia couldn''t understand it properly.


    In her ears, the sound around her was humming heavily, and her vision was getting darker.


    Looking at Fernans moving lips for thest time, Julia slowly lowered her eyelids. Her body immediately shriveled up.


    As if all senses were cut off for a moment, she fell into a deep sleep.


    ***


    It was quite an impulsive step towards the Holy Land.


    Deep in the dawn, Fernan couldn''t stand sane and swallowed his medicine. It was because he hadn''t slept for a week.


    The doctor said he would fall asleep quickly if he took the medicine because it had a strong effect, but there was no effect on Fernan.


    Far from being able to sleep, the drugs only stimted the urge that was hard to suppress. Despite the time he had endured for half a year, Fernan led the castle with a hazy mind. He wanted to meet Julia. He wanted to capture Julia in his eyes once more.


    Even if he couldn''t bring her back, he wanted to meet her. He wanted to hear her voice. He wanted her eyes to reach him.


    A dark, snowy morning. So Fernan left for the Holy Land.


    However, after taking a long time to arrive, thend was suddenly in a state of chaos.


    Your Majesty, we annihted all the demons that attacked the monastery. However, the Grand Duchess"


    His lieutenant, who had been nted in the Holy Kingdom under the pretext of checking Julia''s current situation, was btedly escorting the monastery.


    However, many had already died, and Julia was not even there.


    After that, Fernan couldnt even remember what kind of spirit he went to find Julia with.


    Frantically shing the demons that had taken over the entire vige, Fernan searched for Julia''s whereabouts like a person who lost his reason.


    It didn''t take long to find Julia. She had not gone very far from the monastery.


    After holding Julia, who had fallen from her carriage without strength, Fernan''s head flickered for an instant. Julia, whose lips were all wet with blood, was exhaling as if she would break at any moment.


    Her blue eyes, which were always clear, lost their light and quickly closed.


    Holding her tightly in his arms, Fernan regretted his decision that day.


    The day he let Julia go like that.


    Had he known it was going to be like this, he wouldn''t have put her in a ce like this.


    Fernan, who looked down at her, who had lost her consciousness, vainly stared at the man who had made her to this point.


    He cut the man who was using magic to summon the demons in two with a single strike of his sword.


    It was so cruel that even the screams of the man could not be uttered.


    Do not allow anything to enter.


    Fernan, who gave themand in a hoarse voice, drove his horse while holding Julia deeply in his arms.


    A horde of monsters that appeared again from somewhere copsed one after another by the hands of only three knights.


    The whole street was stained with blood.


    ***


    Julia couldn''t open her eyes for a long time.


    Since they could not afford to cross the empire with the wounded Julia, they were temporarily staying in the Principality adjacent to the Holy Kingdom.


    Several doctors came and went to treat Julia.


    They said the injuries were not serious. However, the problem was the traces of bleeding and the consciousness that did not return.


    "Um, so, this is"


    The doctor, who had been holding Julia''s wrist for a long time to find out the cause of the bleeding, could not easily speak.


    After a while, the doctor, who shook his head, looked at Fernan.


    "I can''t feel the pulse. Something blocked the flow of blood."


    All the doctors said the same thing. Because her pulse wasnt working, it was impossible to pinpoint her condition.

 Chapter 51

    Chapter 51


    Right now, she is most likely to have internal injuries, so it would be best to take the medicine and wait for consciousness to return


    Fernan, who put his hand on his forehead, nodded his head to signify to get out.


    The doctor bowed his head and left the room, and then a deep silence fell into the room.


    Juliay neatly without a single color. Quietly, barely making a sound of breathing.


    Fernan, who was sitting on the side of the bed next to her, looked at her unmoving eyelids. They had been staying here for three days, and Julia showed no sign of waking up.


    Julia had a heart disease. If that was the case, there''d be no reason why the doctor couldn''t get a hold of her pulse. Fernan involuntarily grabbed her slender hand.


    But he couldn''t feel any warmth in her icy hands.


    Julia.


    Meaninglessly, he uttered her name several times. There was a mixed feeling in the falling voice.


    Julia, who was lying within his reach, did not look at him with her bright eyes as before. It was so close he couldn''t even make eye contact.


    Fernan reached out slowly to her face. Hisrge hand gently stroked her cold cheek.


    At that time, Julia suddenly started coughing.


    The first time he saw her fine movements aftering here, Fernan''s eyes saw a difference in her eyes for the first time. The dry cough followed several more times.


    Fernan, looking at her chapped lips, took a cup of water on the side table in his hand.


    Then he supported her shoulder with one hand, lifted her up, and tilted the ss of water to the corner of her dry mouth.


    But a stream of water she couldn''t swallow ran down her chin and wet the sheet.


    Fernan, who was watching the scene, without hesitation, raised the ss of water to his lips.


    After taking the water in his mouth, he lowered his head to Julia, and the lips of the two touched softly.


    He opened a gap in her tightly closed lips to let the water through, and her white neck moved slightly. Fernan repeated it a few more times and then raised her head.


    He gently wiped her wet lips with his thumb. The hand that had been wandering around the corner of her lips for a while soon returned to its ce.


    As soon as Julia''s droopy body wasid down, the sound of coughing stopped.


    The sound of her breathing began toe out clearly for the first time.


    Then, slightly relieved, he looked around her eyes. Then he raised his hand and touched Julia''s cheek again.


    At the end of his careful touch stood a feeble tenacity that had been gone for a while.


    I may not be able to let you go anymore."


    "It''s not toote now Wake up, Julia.


    He muttered as if to notify an unconscious woman, and he kept muttering helplessly.


    Acting like an inappropriately nice person was enough once.


    Even if Julia pushed him away and resented him, he couldn''t help it.


    It''d be better than having her out of his sight and being in danger.


    No, even that was just an excuse.


    He just didnt want to let Julia go anymore.


    Even though he didnt even deserve to have her by his side, he just wanted to hold her in his eyes like this and put her within his reach.


    Julia.


    Fernan continued to repeat her name meaninglessly and endlessly.


    He hoped that her clear and transparent eyes would open and look at him just once like before.


    ***


    After that, Julia''s condition gradually improved. Her breathing and body temperature all returned to normal.


    But she still hadn''te back to her consciousness.


    Only then did Fernan leave for the Empire with Julia.


    She was moved to his vi, not his castle, so that the news of her return alive would not leak to the outside.


    It was an old vi at the southern end of the Grand Duchy, which had hardly been visited.


    Why did His Highness bring her here?


    Adrian, one of Fernan''s lieutenants, murmured, staring nkly over the vi.


    Lloyd, who was standing next to him, answered with a gentle tone.


    "He must have considered it after the waking of Her Highness."


    The vi was located in a quiet mountain vige away from the city center.


    A clear and transparentndscape suitable for a winter cottage with a vast field and blueke beyond the vi.


    Perhaps, the atmosphere was very simr to the small town in the Holy Land where Julia lived.


    Adrian, how has Her Highness been in the Holy Land?


    Lloyd, who had his elbow on the railing, suddenly asked a question.


    Adrian was one of Fernan''s pawns nted in the Holy Kingdom.


    It was Adrian who had been faithfully reporting the current situation of Julia, and it was also Adrian who escorted her monastery this time.


    It is exactly what it says in the report. She had a very monotonous life.


    The monastery where Julia lived was easy to ess, so Adrian didn''t have to hide.


    Pretending to be a believer and attending Mass, it wasn''t difficult for Adrian to get to know her.


    "Do you know anything about her personal life?"


    Lloyd asked cautiously. He was wondering if there might be a story that could be of some help to his lord.


    The biggest issue right now was after Julia woke up.


    Will she be able to ept this situation?


    Even if it was trivial, it would be better off getting information that would change her mind.


    Adrian narrowed his eyes slowly and traced his memory.


    Her personal life Oh, its not a big deal, but Her Highness seemed to be good with her hands.


    "Handcrafts?"


    Yes, there were things like wreaths made of flowers in front of the monastery. She made them all.


    "Really?"


    Lloyd listened carefully to Adrian''s words.


    He thought it would be good to let his lord know to make a separate flower garden for her.


    "Um, and theres something I didn''t report to His Highness"


    Adrian tapped his chin, trying to relive his memories, and whispered, muffled his voice.


    "In fact, I heard that the rtionship between the priest and Her Highness is unusual".


    "What?


    As Lloyd shrieked with a startled look, Adrian continued to speak as if he was trying to catch up.


    Hey, I was just picking up what people were saying! It was not reported due to doubts about its credibility.


    Adrian closed his mouthte, perhaps because he thought he shouldn''t have said it. However, Lloyd was already struggling with a serious face.


    <i>Should I tell His Highness about this? It''s just a rumor, but they wouldnt talk if it was nothing</i>


    But even before his troubles could be over, Lloyd felt an unexpected presence.


    When he nced back with a hardened face, he saw Fernan, who had been silently standing behind them for some time.


    Lloyd, who had almost screamed in surprise, but his lip.


    "I, Your Highness, since when"


    "What?"


    Only then did Adrian realize Fernan''s existence and btedly shouted Ahhh!


    Unlike the two people who were surprised as if they had seen a ghost, Fernan had an expressionless face.


    However, as soon as they saw that the bright forehead gradually narrowed, they realized that Fernan had been listening to their conversation from the beginning.


    "Keep going."


    Soon, Fernan nodded and stared at Adrian.


    Although his voice was indifferent, his deep feelings were revealed in his slightly distorted eyes.


    How was the rtionship between the priest and Julia?


    Oh, thats


    Frowning, Adrian looked at Lloyd as if asking for help, but Lloyd only shrugged her shoulders, avoiding her gaze.


    Adrian had no choice but to calmly answer the lord''s questions that followed as if being interrogated while crying.


    ***


    Tock, tock.


    The intermittent sound of water drops tickled her ears.


    Julia lifted her eyes slowly, feeling the faint sense of finding her ce.


    Between her half-opened eyelids, her blue eyes gleamed dryly.


    Julia''s gaze stared nkly at the ceiling, and then she turned to the familiar face sitting next to her.


    Your Grace?


    The woman who was soaking the towels in water by the bed got up in surprise. Julia''s eyes, staring at her nkly, slowly began to widen.


    Melissa..?"


    It was Melissa. Her hair was a little longer than what Julia remembered, but herrge features and brown eyes were definitely the Melissa she knew.


    Julia thought for a moment and wondered if she was dreaming.


    "Your Grace. Oh my God. I thought youd never wake up


    Melissa wept and grabbed Julias hand.


    However, Julia did not understand her situation, and stared nkly at Melissa.


    <i>Why is Melissa here? Where the hell am I .?</i>


    Trying to catch up with her hazy mind, Julia traced herst memories.


    She was obviously on her way to the lords mansion for a garden party.


    Julia''s eyes, which had been immersed in her thoughts for a while, began to tremble greatly.


    Because she had no memory of what happened to her after that.


    Riding on a carriage to the Lords mansion while watching the snowkes fall through the window was herst memory.

 Chapter 52

    Chapter 52


    "I''ll call someone first. When Your Grace wakes up, I should call the doctor right away"


    "Wait, wait."


    Julia hurriedly caught Melissa who was about to leave.


    Then, after arranging her thoughts for a while, she opened her mouth in confusion.


    Melissa. Where am I?"


    "Yes? Ah, this is the Grand Duke''s vi in the southern part of the Grand Duchy."


    As soon as she heard her answer, Julia, whoseplexion became white, squeezed Melissa''s sleeve tightly and let out a trembling voice.


    "Why? Why did I ..His Highness.


    Julia, who stuttered and muttered, covered her mouth with her hand.


    <i>Did Fernan find me and bring me all the way here?</i>


    <i>I can''t believe it. How</i>


    Julia lowered her trembling hands and nced around.


    She couldnt remember anything.


    How did she encounter Fernan and how did she get to this ce?


    This situation was just too sudden for her.


    As Julia began to tremble anxiously, Melissa, surprised, grabbed her hand tightly.


    Your Grace, are you okay? I need to call the doctor first."


    After hearing Melissa''s flustered words, Julia lowered her gaze to her body.


    Her outfit wasn''t the dress she had in herst memory. And for some reason, her palms were bandaged.


    Stuttering and hugging her arm, Julia opened her mouth again.


    Melissa, I Why am I here?"


    "I really. I can''t remember anything"


    To the desperate question, Melissa could not easilye up with an answer.


    It was because Melissa did not know the details of the situation either.


    She was just doing her chores at the castle as always.


    Then one of the knights came and took her somewhere saying it was His Highness orders.


    It was at this vi that she followed the knight with her bewildered heart.


    And unbelievably, Julia was here. Julia, whom Melissa had missed so much, was lying on her deathbed.


    "I only heard orders from the Grand Duke to take care of the Grand Duchess. How did youe to this ce, I dont know"


    Your Grace, yourplexion is too pale. Once again, lie down and Ill get the doctor.


    Even before Melissa''s words were over, Julia rose up urgently.


    At this moment, all she had in her mind was to get out of this ce immediately.


    Huh, Your Grace, where are you going!


    Julia stepped on the floor, leaving Melissa behind, who was trying to stop her.


    Julia stumbled across the room in a thin chemise.


    Not even conscious of her bare feet, there was no hesitation in her steps through the hallway.


    Your Grace, wait.


    As Melissa, who had followed her helplessly, tried to grab her by force, someone appeared from beyond her hallway.


    It was Fernan who came back after talking with the doctor for a while.


    Julia?


    At the soft voice calling her, Julia raised her head in an instant.


    And she found Fernan standing a little further away.


    Fernan strode closer to her with his unusual startled face.


    Julia, as if she couldn''t believe what she saw, slowly backed away from him.


    How .."


    While Julia was muttering in the distance, Fernan, who approached, looked carefully at herplexion.


    When did you wake up? Is your body okay?"


    "Wait. I''ll call the doctor .


    He said so and grabbed her trembling hand. Julia, who flinched, reflexively shook off his hand.


    Fernan, who looked at his fallen hand for a moment, turned to look at Julia again.


    It was only after seeing the frightened appearance that he noticed that Julia''s condition was unusual.


    Now, why .


    Julia murmured continuously with a cracked voice. Her legs were shaking and she couldn''t even stand properly. She felt nauseous and her head was about to break. Her nerves were breaking off one by one.


    Julia, calm down.


    Fernan stared at her with a calm face. But Julia stepped back again when his words sounded like he was trying to lock her up.


    Julia has been living peacefully so far, thinking she waspletely freed from the past.


    She never thought for any reason that she would ever see Fernan again.


    "No. I''ll go, I''ll go"


    Unable to control her trembling lips, Julia passed him with a precarious step.


    But soon after, she had to turn around after being held by a firm hand.


    "Where are you going?


    Are you nning to go to the ruined monastery?


    Fernan, who held her wrist lightly, asked calmly, and Julia looked up at him with an exasperated face.


    "No way Did you do any harm to the monastery?


    Hey, let me go! II


    Julia twisted her shaky hands, but Fernans big hand didn''t budge. And at this moment, Fernan was feeling that there was something oddly wrong with her words.


    "Julia."


    Looking at Julia, who could hardly regain her reason, Fernan spoke with a clear voice.


    "Can''t you remember what happened?"


    At his question, Julia stopped her struggling movements and lifted her gaze. Fernan, who read her reply from her silence, gradually released the strength from his hand that had held her.


    After a while, Fernan looked at her with a slightly more subtle face and lightly touched her forehead.


    Bring the doctor right away.


    "Yes. Yes!"


    Melissa, who had stood at a distance and fidgeted, gave a quick reply, and then disappeared.


    Julia looked up at Fernan with her unwavering gaze, and then she took her steps again.


    Fernan, who had let her walk staggeringly for some time, sighed heavily and caught up with her at once.


    Then he gently grabbed her slender waist and picked her up.


    Let me down!"


    Ignoring Julia, who was hanging like a load of luggage, Fernan hurriedly walked back to the bedroom.


    Bang! Unlike the tightly closed door, the hand that put Julia down on her bed was careful.


    Julia didn''t even have the strength to make any sound, she just looked at him as she squirmed.


    Her eyes filled with tears. The hem of her dress was pushed up from the struggle. Below that, the ankles with only bones left.


    Fernan, who was staring at her ankles, soon bent one knee slowly to meet her eye level.


    "Julia, how far do you remember?"


    He calmly waited for Julia, who could not answer right away.


    After a while, Julia opened her mouth with a slightly awakened face.


    I was in a carriage.


    I was going to the Lords house.


    Julia sporadically continued her words and tried to bring back her memories, but still couldn''t think of anything after that.


    Did she fall asleep in the carriage? But she didnt even remember falling asleep.


    Julia nervously grabbed the nket and she couldn''t continue her words anymore.


    "okay Is that so?


    Fernan, who understood the situation to some extent, lowered his gaze and narrowed his brow.


    Perhaps Julia only remembered the situation before she encountered the monsters.


    Fernan contemted for a long time in silence.


    Even if he told the truth, he was not sure if Julia would be able to handle it.


    Perhaps Julia didnt know she had lost her memory for a moment because of the horror she had experienced for the first time in her life.


    "Your Highness, its Lockman."


    Meanwhile, someone''s voice was heard.


    The doctor, Lockman, who hurriedly opened the door and came in, looked surprised as he saw Julia awake.


    Your Grace, you are conscious! I am very happy.


    Lockman was also very familiar to Julia. She was treated by him a few times at the Grand Dukes mansion.


    But now she couldn''t afford to face him. Her head felt like it was going to explode.


    "Ah.


    She tried to bring back her memories somehow, but the more she did it, the more her breathing became urgent.


    Even though she had no memory of it, her body had not forgotten the horror of that time.


    Julia looked down at her hands, which did not stop trembling.


    She had to know what happened, but she had a strange feeling that she shouldn''t know.


    For a moment, it seemed as if a loud roar was heard from somewhere.


    Julia closed her eyes tightly and covered her ears. She crouched down and started sobbing involuntarily.


    Ah


    As she was closing her eyes for a while, someone gently wrapped her shoulders. Julia, who felt the touch, raised her eyes at that moment.


    Her face, wet with tears, turned to Fernan.


    Julia, why.


    In her tearful eyes, Fernan had an expression that seemed to be somewhat bewildered and helpless.


    Reaching out, he gently caressed Julia''s wet eyes.


    As he wiped her tears with his bewildered face, he then pulled her into his arms tightly.


    Julia felt his hand stroking her back with a dazed face.


    Her head, which had been engulfed by her fear, was gradually turned white by the sudden great warmth. It was strange.


    She had to push this man away, but somewhere a clumsy hand seemed to loosen her tension.


    Julia slowly lowered her hand, as her trembling gradually subsided.


    She blinked a few times, then slowly lowered her eyelids.


    Her stiff body gradually loosened up.

 Chapter 53

    Chapter 53


    "No, I don''t want to."


    "Let me go! Let me go!"


    Julia suffered from nightmares all night long.


    Looking at her cold sweaty forehead and trembling lips, 50,000 thoughts went through his mind that night.


    At first, he had a strong desire to revive the monsters that had already been brutally killed and chopped them off painfully again.


    Next, he agonized over how to exin the current situation to Julia, who was so traumatized.


    He thought that some of her memories have been lost due to the severe shock. In this case, if he forcefully injected memories, she might go crazy.


    <i>Then what should I do?</i>


    <i>It would be better to wait until the memory is automatically recalled. Until then, it''s best not to touch her memory as much as possible.''</i>


    Fernan, who remembered the doctor''s words, tapped the table anxiously.


    In the meantime, he couldn''t fathom Julia''s fear.


    It must have been a great shock because she had never seen such a monster in her life, and she almost got kidnapped.


    It was not at all unreasonable to lose memory.


    .D*mn it."


    He murmured lowly.


    ording to the knight who went out to the Monastery, the ce had already be a wastnd.


    The Pdins of the temple rushed out, but the wartime situation with the monsters would continue for a very long time. Naturally, Julia couldnt go back there anymore.


    No, after all that happened, Fernan could no longer let her go.


    Most of those who remained in the monastery died. His lieutenant rescued only a woman and a dozen children.


    So it might be better to just let her misunderstand the situation like this. That the man, who had been looking for her like crazy, caught her and forced her to this ce.


    That way, it would be better than recalling the painful memories that came upon her. Fernan lowered his subdued gaze.


    Meanwhile, the sky, which had been dark, gradually began to shine with the dawn of the morning. Julia, who opened her eyes onlyte in the morning, had a more organized face.


    Sitting alone in her empty bedroom, she gathered her thoughts for a while.


    Vaguely, she remembered what happened yesterday.


    So, she was now at Fernans vi in the Grand Duchy. She didnt remember how she got here.


    Raising her body, she approached the window with the curtains and opened the door. The cold winter wind blew hard on her face.


    An unfamiliarndscape could be seen through the window. A wide open in and ake.


    Her mind was all confused, but one thing was clear.


    <i>All this timehes been looking for me.''</i>


    Julia bit the inside of her tender mouth. She couldn''t even fathom how Fernan had found her. But if she stayed like this, she would be dragged back to his castle.


    When she had finished her thoughts, Julia turned and walked towards the door.


    When she opened the door, the hallway was empty.


    Thinking that she had no chance but now, Julia rushed to her steps.


    She went down the stairs and when she reached hernding, she encountered Fernan, who was going up the stairs. As she looked at him with her eyes wide open, Julia immediately revealed her hardened face.


    Fernan also stared at her quietly without saying a word.


    "Please let me go. Im going back.


    With a voice that was clearer than yesterday, Julia opened her mouth.


    Fernan, who heard her voice and realized that her condition had calmed down to some extent, answered.


    Where are you going in that outfit?


    Fernan blocked her front and briefly nced at her, who was not even wearing a shawl.


    Julia did not lose, and she immediately responded.


    "I''m going back to where I used to live."


    You can''t go there.


    "Im going."


    Julia, who passed him silently, quickly went down the stairs.


    Fernan just slowly followed behind, not holding her back.


    After she entered the lobby on the first floor, Julia looked around for a moment and then opened the door.


    As the winter wind blew hard through the door and squinted her eyes for a moment, something heavy rested on her shoulders.


    Looking back, Fernan was putting his coat over her shoulders.


    Julia took off the coat with a firm expression on her face. She then staggered out of the door as she threw it at him.


    As she was about to go down the stairs in front of the entrance, Fernan suddenly grabbed her wrist.


    Fernan turned her around and firmly put the coat on her again.


    He gave her a tight grip to keep his big clothes that didn''t fit her from falling.


    "It''s fine wherever you go."


    A low voice fell over her head.


    "But, you can''t go to the Holy Land."


    Julia narrowed her brow. And then she brought up her questions that filled her head.


    How did you know that I was in the Holy Land?"


    A year has passed since Julia left him. Julia didn''t just run away, she even threw herself off a cliff. But how he found her, she could not understand at all. Fernan, who looked down at her calmly, gave her answer meekly.


    The priest who lived with you in the Holy Kingdom.


    We followed him.


    Julia''s eyes began to flutter. The priest he was talking about was definitely Cedric.


    How the hell does this man know of Cedric''s existence? Did he know Cedric helped her to escape.?


    Julia''s lips twitched slightly in confusion. After painstakingly capturing her expression, she opened her mouth again.


    Even if that were the case, there would be no reason for you to bring me back.


    Am I still useful?


    There was no way he could find me if she was useless, Julia had a face that was very sure.


    Fernan, who slightly wiggled her eyes at her question, answered in a calm tone.


    You are still my wife


    Julia let out a smallugh. To anyone who heard it, they would have thought that she and this man were a normal couple.


    Suddenly, the cold wind gave her a chill, her body crumpled slightly as she looked up at him.


    "Your Highness, did you forget?"


    .


    "You didn''t treat me as your wife."


    Fernan was a man who never had any respect for her.


    No, he always said harsh words, far from being respectful.


    Does he remember what he said? And does he even know how much scars those words left her?


    I didn''t forget. Not even a minute.


    Fernan looked at Julia with his darkened eyes. And he continued to speak in a voice somewhere unrefined.


    "I know. I''m not even qualified to be a husband."


    "Because I regretted all the many mistakes I''ve made to you and I''ve regretted it again and again."


    He muttered softly, not avoiding her eyes.


    I was all wrong.


    At those words, Julia''s eyes flickered once.


    <i>Does he regret it?</i>


    After bowing her head for a moment and then lifting it up again, Julia showed her firm face.


    ..I don''t believe you.


    <i>What he is saying now is just a lie to cover up this situation.</i>


    For her, the man named Fernan was always hardened like a propositional word.


    A man who hated her. A cold-hearted husband who couldnt be nice to her for no reason.


    He didnt mind hurting her


    Julia raised her lips coldly for an instant and stared straight at him.


    Now that you say that, nothing will change.


    Julia opened her intertwined lips and let out a quiet voice.


    I dont need any regrets or apologies.


    .


    I am no longer your wife.


    Yes, she once loved this man. Her heart trembled at the sight of his gaze on her, and her heart melted helplessly at the generous attitude he showed her from time to time.


    But not now. The heart that loved him left behind when she left the castle a year ago.


    After she abandoned the love that had always tormented her, she became happier than ever before.


    "If you''re really sorry for me, just let me go."


    I hope you dont even remember that there was a person like me. I will also forget Your Highness and live."


    Julia lifted her calmer face. She could see his eyes shaking aimlessly.


    Fernan didn''t say anything for a long time.


    She avoided his gaze and looked down at her feet, then turned around.


    I was when she took only a few steps.


    As she was about to move away, Fernan grabbed her and pulled her closer to him.


    !


    In the narrow distance, Julia opened her eyes wide and looked at him. His eyes, which had shimmered slightly until a moment ago, had lost their light.


    With an empty face that hadpletely killed his expression, he muttered as if he was engraving word by word.


    I know you dont even want to see me.


    But, Julia I can''t let you go anymore."


    Fernan desperately pressed her hand, which had been grabbed unterally. Like never to let go again. He could no longer see Julia moving away again.


    Wishing her happiness, he respected her new life, which he himself could not possibly intervene.


    He no longer had the option of letting go for such a good reason.


    Even if Julia became unhappy again by his sidehe couldn''t help it.


    Her misfortune, pain, and resentment were all his. Every emotion and every thought of her had to be his own.


    "Why"


    Julia, who blinked her eyes at his unusual momentum, suddenly pushed his chest away with her other hand.


    But even that hand was soon seized by him.


    Fernan stared at her with her darkened gaze.


    "Dont leave"


    "Stay here, please."


    At this moment, in her vision, Fernan looked like a broken person. Julia looked up at him, not thinking that she would shake her hand any longer.


    As she stared into his deep, distant eyes, as if he was about to swallow her.


    "I."


    Before she could finish her words, Fernan leaned down. For a moment, surprised by his approaching face, her body suddenly lifted upwards.


    Fernan, holding her in his arms, began to walk silently.

 Chapter 54

    Chapter 54


    Julia only looked up at him as he entered the doorway.


    He hated it and had to struggle to let it go, but strangely, his body did not have any strength.


    As they went up the stairs and passed the hallway, Melissa, who was just standing in front of the bedroom, was startled and bowed her head.


    Without looking at Melissa for a moment, Fernan entered the bedroom.


    At that moment, Yulia, who suddenly came to her senses, struggled in his arms.


    Despite the hand that pushed him forcefully, Fernan steadfastly crossed the room and approached the bed.


    As she was ced on the bed, Julia opened her mouth unsteadily again.


    Are you going to lock me up like this again? Again, take me to this hell."


    At the word hell, Fernan''s dark eyes fell deeply.


    For Julia, he was hell. It was just a prison where she couldnt livefortably.


    "even if it''s hell"


    Fernan, who muttered dangerously, then bowed his head.


    "But please stay here."


    He took a step back and turned around slowly. Julia looked at his overbearing back as he walked away and touched her forehead.


    Click, as the door closed, her head began to ache.


    Thump-thump, feeling her precariously beating heart, she lowered her gaze. Her vision was gradually blurring.


    ***


    A day passed like that.


    In the morning after not being able to sleep all night, the attending physician, Lockman, came to visit Julia.


    It was only then that Julia learned that she had been unconscious for 10 days since she was taken to Fernan.


    It was the first time she had been unconscious for so long, since she fell off a cliff a year ago.


    Lockman grabbed her wrist and felt her pulse for a while. He was gauging something with his gaze down, and soon raised his head.


    Fortunately, I can feel your blood vessels beating a little now. But.


    Lockman spoke to Fernan, who was standing next to him.


    As if hesitating, he urged him as he watched Lockman dragging his words.


    Are there any other problems?


    that, the blood flow is still not smooth. The blood flow to her heart is blocked."


    Lockman nced at Julia, who was sitting there with her expressionless face.


    Your Grace, do you not feel any pain?


    Julia had a paleplexion and a quiet face as if she had no pain.


    She lowered her gaze without answering Lockman''s question.


    It wasn''t that she didn''t feel the pain.


    However, she was mentally concentrated and only trying to forget her pain.


    Julia was noticing that at this moment, her power had faded a lot more than before.


    Previously, it had felt like a mist in my heart, but now it was barely felt.


    So, that meant that her vitality was greatly reduced.


    Looking at Julia, who had an empty expression, Fernan wrapped his chin with nervousness.


    He already knew that she had heart disease.


    He heard reports from the doctor whom he had sent to Holy Land the other day that she was gradually getting better.


    But contrary to reports, she recently lost her consciousness for a long time.


    In the end, it was self-evident that her current condition must have been worse than it had been.


    First of all, it is better to take pain reliever along with the drug that helps blood cirction.


    Lockman replied, bowing his head.


    Her condition was somewhat subtle for amon heart disease, but for now it was for the best.


    After taking the prescribed medicine, we will monitor the progress. Then, I''ll get going now."


    As Fernan nodded his head, Lockman bowed deeply, then turned around.


    Click, the door closed and only the two of them were left in the bedroom. Fernan opened his mouth in an unsuitably cautious voice.


    Julia, if you feel any pain, tell me immediately.


    Are there any other ufortable ces? The heat.."


    As he reached out and touched her forehead, Julia quickly turned her head to avoid his touch.


    Her cold, dry eyespletely turned away from him.


    Fernan lower his outstretched hand and looked at her quietly.


    "Rest. I''ll sent your maid."


    Fernan stared at her, who never looked at him for a moment, then turned away.


    Perhaps he thought that putting Melissa by her side would make her more stable.


    However, Julia has not yet finished her understanding of this situation. It was the same with Melissa.


    Soon after, a cold voice fell from her.


    "Even if you keep me, I won''t get anything from you.


    Fernan, who stood tall, turned his head again.


    Julia looked at him for the first time with her sullen face.


    Whatever you want, I have nothing more to offer.


    Fernan caught her in his eyes. An expression that didn''t want to stay with him for a moment. She looked like she was embarrassed to even face him.


    Julia, who looked at him like that, approached her like a dagger, but Fernan was just silently muttering.


    I know, something like that.


    His eyes dimmed like darkness. He knew that no word could change her mind.


    For Julia, he would be an object of disgust just to face him.


    Julia looked straight at the man standing in front of her with her eyes narrowed.


    All kinds of desperate emotions were on his face, which was always handsome.


    Just as she was suddenly puzzled by the sight, she heard a still voice from him that killed all his emotions.


    As much as I hurt you, you can give it all back.


    Even if it hurts worse than that, I will dly ept it.


    While Julia looked at him with an expression that was difficult to understand, the low voice continued.


    but stay by my side. Do not leave."


    As always, a one-sided coercion. But the voice sounded like a beg.


    Julia held the bedsheet tightly and lowered her head.


    Begging or coercion, in the end this man was going to lock her up again.


    He means that he will lock her in his cage and let him enjoy everything only in it. As before.


    You havent changed a bit.


    Really, not even a little


    There was hatred towards him in her scornful voice. Julia lowered her gaze.


    Even if she had no choice but to be imprisoned like this, she would never behave the way he wanted.


    Not a single nce, not a single heart, not a single word.


    Julia swallowed her heavy breath and bit her lip.


    Fernan was willing to see her even that way. He wanted to ept all her hate, resentment, and anger.


    ***


    15 days has passed like that.


    Meanwhile, Julia didn''t even have the energy to run away, so she had to stay in her bedroom all day.


    She wasn''t feeling well. As the days passed, she lost her strength.


    What''s more, she found outter that this ce was lying on the side of a mountain.


    It meant that trying to run away from the frozen mountains in winter was tantamount to suicide.


    She was lost in thought for a while, and after a while she heard a knock on the door.


    Julia neither looked back nor approached and opened the door. It was because she knew who it was without checking.


    Suddenly, the door opened and someone stepped inside.


    "Julia.


    A familiar voice could be heard, but Julia did not turn her head.


    She then heard the sound of himying down the tray on the table.


    You can''t take medicine on an empty stomach."


    When she didn''t answer, the sound of footsteps got closer behind her.


    "Julia."


    Julia reflexively pushed him away as he gently touched her shoulder.


    Then she slowly turned her head. Fernan, standing close to her, was quietly looking down at her.


    "I''m not going to eat it."


    "Eat."


    It was a firm, but not coercive voice. Julia looked at him while biting her lower lip.


    Whatever it was, she didn''t want to do what he asked.


    Fernando look over her skinny body silently. A thinner body than a week ago. He could only see Julia standing in his eyes.


    Fernan, whose expression hardened, opened his mouth.


    "Hold your anger only on me. Don''t abuse yourself in this way"


    Julia flinched. He was right. This was an act of gnawing at herself.


    However, she couldn''t break her weak pride. If she did even the smallest thing as he wanted, it would make her feel like sheplied to this situation.


    Looking at her clenching her hand tightly, Fernan whispered to her softly.


    "I''ll send your maid, so eat."


    "If you want, I won''t show up for a while."


    Then he stared at her as if he was carving her in his eyes for a moment, then turned around.


    Julia turned back without even looking at him as he was moving away.


    Through the window, she could see the sky with the sun rising. But her heart was dim without a single ray of light.

 Chapter 55

    Chapter 55


    That night, an old memory appeared in a dream.


    <b><i>I didn''t want you to be my wife from the beginning. That''s my reason.</i></b>


    It was a memory of the day when she confessed her heart to Fernan.


    That day, Fernan had said so in a voice without a single hint of warmth.


    His cold expression, which made her heart ache, was vividly portrayed as if it had happened yesterday.


    After waking up from her sleep, Julia slowly opened her eyes and slowly got up.


    When she looked out the window, it was dawn.


    However, her long-standing memories, which were brought out unconsciously, made her mind shattered and she could not fall asleep again.


    Julia got up from the bed with an empty face.


    After she put on a thick shawl that was hung to one side, she walked towards the door.


    She opened the door and saw an empty hallway. Julia, who had been walking along the hallway like that, finally stood in front of the stairs.


    At dawn like this, whether she thought there was no way she could escape, or whether she was being watched from behind, no one was seen in the hall.


    She went down the stairs slowly, and soon passed through the door.


    She just walked down the street slowly.


    As if it was snowing, she could feel her feet sinking with every step she took.


    When she lifted her head, at first nce, the tall trees were visible under the moonlight.


    After walking for a while through the trees, Julia soon stopped on a long bridge across theke.


    The winterke she had been looking through the window the whole time. But it was the first time she came out and saw it in person like this.


    Theke shimmering in the moonlight was covered with thin ice.


    Julia leaned against the railing, keeping the shiningke in her sight for a long time.


    Then, someone grabbed her by the waist and pulled her back.


    Ah."


    With a firm touch, her back touched someone''s arms.


    At that moment, focus returned to Julia''s eyes, which had been empty the whole time. When she raised her head to check behind her, Fernan, with a surprised look on his face as if he had been running in a hurry, immediately came into view.


    What are you doing here at this hour?


    Fernan tightened his grip around her waist.


    He looked like he was very confused.


    Locked in his big arms, Julia blinked nkly.


    She didnt not know why she came out here.


    Was she trying to run away from him? Or was she unconsciously wanting to get some wind?


    Julia couldn''t answer her own questions and tried to take his hand off. However, Fernan wrapped his arms around her shoulders and hugged her with a more tenacious strength.


    It was only then that Julia realized that his breathing was trembling.


    Dont surprise me. I, you again.


    He thought she was going to throw herself into such deep water. He took herpletely into his arms with a desperate touch.


    Julia could feel his stiff body rising and falling slowly behind her back.


    She gently lowered her hand which was pushing him away. He was shaking so badly that she couldn''t shake it any longer.


    What is it that makes him tremble like this? His appearance was strange and unfamiliar.


    With her mouth shut, Julia tried not to be conscious of the warmth she felt behind her back.


    After a while, Fernan''s breathing gradually calmed down. His hands that were holding her in his grip loosened.


    Taking advantage of the gap, Julia escaped from his arms and slowly turned around.


    As he raised his gaze from a distance, he was met with twinkling golden eyes.


    His eyes now were not the cold ones she saw in her dreams. His temperature waspletely different from that time.


    Julia.


    After staring at her for a long time, Fernan reached out.


    Hisrge hands wrapped around her cheeks and began to gently caress her. As if he still couldnt trust his vision of her standing in front of him like this.


    Despite the cold winter wind, his hands were very warm.


    Julia, who looked into his eyes under the moonlight, quickly regained consciousness and turned her head.


    His hand, which had stayed in the air for a moment, was then removed.


    "You must have been frustrated because you''ve been in the bedroom all this time."


    A low, calm voice descended.


    Ill take you anywhere, so dont disappear alone.


    Julia then lifted her head up and looked up at him, who looked friendly.


    " Weren''t you trying to lock me up?


    I had no intention of doing that from the beginning. As long as you stay in my sight, you can go anywhere.


    Julia looked back slowly at his words. At first nce it sounds like he was going to set her free, but in the end it meant that she had to be apanied by him wherever she went.


    She didn''t even have the energy to sigh, Julia just lowered her gaze. And she soon let out a quiet voice that contained her questions.


    I dont know what benefit you are getting for me to be here.


    An expression of iprehension appeared on Julia''s calm face.


    She had lost consciousness for a long time and from the moment she opened her eyes, she had not been able to ept this situation.


    Fernan swallowed the distant emotions and calmly answered.


    I dont need any kind of benefits. As long as you stay by my side, that''s enough."


    Julia lowered her eyelids halfway and then she lifted them up again. She still couldn''t understand his words.


    But the way he looked at her was so unfamiliar that she had no choice but to keep her lips shut. The warmth this man was showing now was temporary.


    It would neverst long. Maybe Fernan was mistaken for a moment for wanting her now.


    The wife who ran away from his watch and hid for a year.


    He was a man who has never lost anything in his life, so it may have hurt his pride.


    Julia repeated this to herself for a long time. She would never be fooled by this man.


    And she slowly tightened her shawl as if to protect herself. Only then did she turn away from him.


    Fernan followed her quietly from a distance of one step away as she moved hurriedly.


    ***


    Cedric arrived at the monastery when ess to the outside of the temple was granted.


    It had been a month since the Holy Kingdom was invaded by monsters without notice.


    Monster. To be more precise, the day the demon magicians appeared was the time of the annual event at the Great Temple.


    They didn''t even know that the monsters were aiming for that day. As a result, many unprotected people suffered meaningless sacrifices.


    And still, they were pouring out demons all over the ce without end.


    In the end, in the Great Temple, it was dered that the war with the demons would continue for a long time.


    The vige where Cedric stayed was also difficult to ess due to ongoing battles, and he could not visit the monastery for a long time.


    About a monthter, he was told that the situation in the vige had calmed down to some extent.


    After that, Cedric was able to go straight to the vige with the pdins.


    He already knew that there was a sea of blood everywhere. But until he saw it with his own eyes, he could hardly believe it.


    After personally checking the ruined monastery, Cedric lowered his head as if he was breaking apart.


    A total of eight bodies were found here, and we had no choice but to burn them all for fear of an infectious disease.


    A knight approached and spoke quietly. The bodies found inside the monastery were quickly retrieved by knights who had arrived in advance.


    "Ah..l..


    Cedric trembled as he buried his face in his hands. Those who would have been killed in vain were all people who lived with him.


    <i>Why such a tragedy, why such a tragedy.''</i>


    For this moment, he couldn''t help but resent the God who was his life. Cedric longed for all this to be his dream.


    It appears that there are no survivors. Or, is it true that the number of those who remain in this monastery is eight?"


    The knight spoke in a subdued voice. Cedric took a deep breath and then slowly lifted his head.


    "no."


    Cedric, who gently twisted his eyes, murmured.


    Except for the priests, those who remained in the monastery were well over eight.


    "Have you recorded the age and gender of the corpse?"


    Cedric hurriedly grabbed the knight''s arm.


    Oh, yes. Of course."


    The knight, who nodded his head, gave an answer quickly. The bodies were so dposed that it was difficult to identify the faces, but it was possible to determine the genders and age.


    The knight took out a note stating the identity of the bodies and handed it to Cedric.


    Eight bodies have all been identified as adult males.


    His eyes began to tremble like crazy when he hurriedly checked the contents of the note.


    In fact, it was all just adult male records. There were no children or women.


    This meant that Gabrielle, Julia and the children were not found here.


    Cedric put his hand on his forehead, thinking of several possibilities.


    The reason the Holy Kingdom was invaded by demons this time was because the enemy had a clear purpose.


    The purpose of offering eternal life to their king by sacrificing those with divine powers.


    As a result, the priests who stayed in the Great Temple were also in danger.


    In other words, there was a possibility that Gabrielle and the children did not know, but Julia was taken away by them.


    Because her heart had holy power.


    Priest, the demons havent beenpletely wiped out yet. You never know when they will appear again in this town, so you must forget your sorrow for a moment.


    The knight said to Cedric, who was standing frozen, with a sad and determined face at the same time.


    War was cruel. Because it didnt even give people time to mourn someone''s death.


    Cedric didn''t know that before. And he couldn''t get his mind out of this horrendous situation.


    At that time, another pdin who came to check the vicinity of the monastery quickly approached them.


    Priest, look at this.


    The knight pounded something heavy on the floor. It was the corpse of a monster with several fragments.


    I looked around and found these corpses all over the outside of the monastery.


    "This."


    Yes, this is not the swordsmanship of the Pdins. Maybe someone else fought a battle here."


    When attacking demons with power, it would create a dense me.


    The demons that werepletely burned like that were supposed to disappear like blowing ashes.


    Not leaving corpses in this way.


    This meant that someone other than the pdins fought a battle here.


    It was the work of those who were ustomed to confrontation with demons, and who knew how to kill monsters without divine power.


    Cedric, who was speechless, approached the corpse that the knight hadid down.


    Holding onto his shing head, he thought of the possibilities again.


    Soon, his eyes slowly returned to focus. He didnt know why, but a man suddenly came to his mind.

 Chapter 56

    Chapter 56


    Grand Duke Caesar. The man who was Julia''s husband.


    It was a really random and unlikely idea. But at this moment, Cedric thought that that man might have been here He was caught up in such a vain intuition.


    Was this intuition? Or was it a revtion?


    Either way, if this lie-like premonition was correct, the missing people might be safe.


    Priest, what are you going to do now?


    Looking at the silent Cedric, the pdin asked carefully.


    Cedric pushed the despair that filled his heart to a corner for a moment.


    And he turned his head with a barely calm face.


    I am going to the Formene Empire. There is something I need to check there.


    For now, he had to focus on that possibility. At the slightest possibility that the Grand Duke might have taken Julia safely.


    Even if it was an absurd assumption, he had to hold onto the string of hope.


    Otherwise, he couldn''t stand this situation.


    ***


    And at the same time, Julia was sitting in front of her window, looking into space.


    It has been two months since she came here.


    The eyelids, which had no strength, soon fell slowly.


    She tried her best to recall her own absent memories so far, but she still hadn''t figured out anything.


    On the contrary, her head felt like it was going to break. As if in her subconscious, she herself denied her memory.


    The point where her memory was cut off was probably just before she met Fernan.


    However, Fernan didnt say anything about that time.


    It was as if he didn''t care what she thought.


    Julia suddenly spread her palms. A slight scar remained in the center.


    It seemed like it was caused by a sharp edge, but she couldn''t remember when this also happened.


    While looking down at her hand for a while, she felt her head throbbing again.


    . Ah."


    She lowered her head as she was, and took a small breath.


    She kept getting headaches like this over and over again, and she couldn''t keep up with her thoughts for a long time.


    Her hand on her window sill was trembling.


    She stumbled her way to the bed andid her exhausted body down.


    <i>Its hurt </i>


    She had headaches like this before. But aftering here, the same pain seemed toe more painfully.


    Her forehead was covered in cold sweat. The sound of shallow breathing echoed through the bedroom. After moaning like that for a while, she suddenly lost her mind.


    Then again, faintly, someone touched her forehead. The hand, which was neither hot nor cold, with moderate warmth, stayed on her for a long time.


    Her head was still confused, but Julia left the hand to stay as it was. Then the back of the firm hand gently pressed against her cheek.


    It was a delicate touch that seemed to measure heat. As she gently lifted her hazy eyelids, a figure of someone entered her vision.


    Cedric?


    The hand that had been roaming her cheek stopped for a moment.


    I am fine."


    There was warmth in her faint muttering words. What was now in her mind was a memory of one day.


    She remembered Cedric, who was by her side and nursed her all night the day she copsed after the first bleeding.


    When no answer came back, Julia''s eyes closed again. As she quickly fell asleep again, the stiff hand slowly retreated.


    <i> Cedric.</i>


    Even though her voice was not clear, Fernan clearly understood her words.


    Suddenly, in the corner of his memory, a gloomy man''s face was drawn.


    A young priest with green eyes. The man who helped Julia escape and took her to the Holy Land to stay with him. Fernans face grew an unprecedented sullenness.


    There was warmth in Julia''s voice, who called the person''s name in her sleep.


    It was a voice that he had never heard of since she came here.


    Fernan briefly recalled the day he headed to the Holy Land. That day, the priest named Cedric was not in the monastery.


    If he''s alive, he''d be looking for Julia by now.


    Fernan''s gaze with a faint murderous intent stared out the window for a moment.


    And in the eyes that looked down again and looked at Julia, there was a strong focus instead. He reached out and touched her disheveled, light hair again, stroking her cheeks with his fingers.


    Anyway, Julia was by his side. He would never let her go again.


    However Julia wouldn''t want that.


    She would want to go back to them. Again, back to that priest.. .


    Fernan''s gaze faded like darkness. Contrary to the gentle touch that caressed her, cruel thoughts ran through his mind.


    <i>Should I kill him?''</i>


    Does he have to kill each and every one of them one by one so that there was no more ce for Julia to go back to, will Julia look at him again, even just once?


    Will she shine her warm eyes on him just once like before?


    <i>no. No way.''</i>


    Fernan wildly self-helped, leaving the thoughts that flowed haphazardly.


    He already knew that no matter what he did, Julia''s heart would note to him. Rather, if he killed Cedric, Julia would hate and resent him even more than she does now.


    He wiped his face with his big hand. It felt like something hot was welling up in his chest.


    Killing the many emotions that came to mind, he stayed by the sleeping Julias side for a long time. By the time he got out of her bedroom, it was dawn without a single light.


    ***


    It took a long time to cross from the Holy Land to the Empire. Before heading to the Formene Empire, Cedric went through the Temple of Ilion.


    It was because of the thought that if Julia had reallye here, she would have sentmunication to the temple.


    So when he entered the temple, Matheus, who was just out of the garden, greeted him. Having sent a telegram ahead of time on his way, Matheus took Cedric to the priest''s office without any other regards.


    I havent received any othermunication from Julia.


    Cedric sped his hands tightly as he looked at Matheus who was talking straight away.


    "But as you guessed, it seems that Julia is in the realm of the Grand Duke."


    "Really?"


    Cedric''s gaze suddenly lit up.


    Matheus held out a letter from inside his pocket. Cedric checked the source of the letter and covered his mouth with a trembling hand.


    "Gabrielle."


    Surprisingly, it was a letter from Gabrielle. Cedric, who hurriedly took out the content, carefully scanned the letter.


    To summarize, it was said that Gabrielle was currently staying with the children in the southern part of the Empire, the Richel estate. She said the man who protected them from the Holy Land and brought them there, so that they could stay there for the time being.


    Richel is a territory located in the southern part of the Empire. Its owner is Grand Duke Caesar."


    It seems that he found Julia.


    Cedric gently crumpled the letter. The battle in the monastery. It was now clear that it was the Grand Dukes work.


    Cedric slowly removed his gaze from the letter and answered.


    Yes, Julia is definitely with the Grand Duke.


    Then there was nothing they could do now.


    Breaking into the realm of the Grand Duke anding to rescue Julia was close to impossible right now.


    Seeing Cedric with his face distorted anxiously, Matheus reassured him in a calm tone.


    Dont worry. Given that Gabrielle and the children were protected separately, the Grand Duke will not harm Julia.


    "but Julia doesn''t want to be there."


    It was Julia who risked her life to escape him.


    Just being by his side would be a great deal of trouble for her.


    Julia was getting happier little by little."


    Evening of the festival, Cedric never forgot her face that smiled brightly at him.


    That day, she said she was definitely happy.


    Cedric.


    Matheus called for Cedric as if urging him. He felt that Cedrics feelings for Julia were unusual.


    A priest who worshipped and served the gods should never be caught up in personal emotions.


    As he knew, Cedric had been patient. For a priest, the feeling of love was like a shackle.


    But Julia broke his shackles too easily.


    All the ordinary moments with her were always new to him.


    Julia was a person whom he could not help but be drawn to her.


    Matheus sighed faintly as he looked at Cedric, who lowered his head without answering.


    If emotions were something people could control themselves, no one would make a mistake.


    But some emotions came unexpectedly and made everything useless.


    Does Julia feel the same way as you?


    "no. She is not."


    That much was known for sure. Julia was kind to everyone and she shared the same heart with everyone.


    It was always Cedric alone who followed her with such a young gaze.

 Chapter 57

    Chapter 57


    "Don''t worry. This mind will be cleared up soon."


    Cedric raised hisbored face and looked at his master.


    He wasn''t expecting anything from her in the first ce. It was good enough that he could just be by her side.


    I am concerned about the anguish shes going through.


    Matheuss heavy voice descended. Cedric just kept his lips shut.


    For now, just think that Julia is safe. If she needs our help, she will definitely contact here."


    As if Matheus evoked, he changed the direction of the conversation. There was a depth that could not be hidden in the words that followed.


    The only thing I am worried about isher health."


    Currently, Julia''s condition was very precarious.


    For some reason, a significant amount of her power returned to him.


    He could feel it. Because the holy power in her heart was originally his.


    It seemed like she used her power for some reason. Or it was just time for the lights to go out.


    Since she survived under that cliff, her vitality was like a burning embers. It was weak enough to be easily extinguished by even the slightest rain and wind Now he wasn''t quite sure when and how the rain and wind would blow her outpletely.


    Matheus, I will go to the estate where Gabrielle and the children are.


    While Matteus was worried, Cedric calmly asked for permission. He was nning to go there and check their safety in person.


    And if possible, he also wanted to find out where Julia was.


    Matheus held Cedric''s shoulder lightly with his hand.


    Yes, be careful.


    At that moment, Cedric, who slightly curved his lips, nodded helplessly.


    ***


    Winter was long over. The full spring has arrived.


    Julia, who had not been outside her for a while, went for her first daytime walk aftering here.


    She walked for a while along the promenade in front of the vi. With each step she took, the pleasant sound of the rustling grass was pleasantly heard.


    As the day dawned, the wide fields that had been buried in the snow were also filled with green.


    It was the warmth of spring that melted Julia''s frozen heart, even for a brief moment. Julia briefly looked back on her past two months.


    During those long days, Fernan didn''t ask her for anything.


    He didn''t even try to take her to his castle, and he didn''t force anything, not even the slightest. Indeed, as if to prove his words that being by her side was all he wanted. He was also reluctant to see her, and he never came to visit her as meaningless as before.


    Instead, at night, he would disappear after watching her sleep for a long time.


    When Julia woke up from time to time with a hand caressing her cheek, she would hear him murmured in a quiet voice.


    She was asleep, so she didnt understand what he was saying.


    It was a series of unfamiliar behavior that she couldn''t understand and didn''t want to understand.


    Julia shook her head slightly, clearing the thoughts from her head.


    At that time, Melissa, who had been following her, suddenly spoke to her.


    Your Grace, arent you cold?


    Then Julia looked back at Melissa and shook her head lightly.


    "No, I''m fine."


    Now she didn''t have to wear thick winter shawls.


    As she continued to walk, Julia looked at the wild flowers that filled both sides of the promenade.


    Then, with a sudden thought, she opened her mouth again.


    "Melissa."


    Yes?


    Melissa came closer. Melissa has been by her side for the past two months.


    As before, Melissa was the only reliable person for Julia.


    Although they parted one year, her thoughts were still there.


    So she thought that maybe Melissa could help her send a letter to the monastery.


    Has your Highness evermanded the servants not to leave the vi?


    No, he didnt give me such an order. But we will probably need permission to go out.


    Melissa gave a quick reply. After contemting for a while, Julia spoke again.


    Actually, I want to send a letter to the ce where I used to live If you leave the vi, can you send it?


    She couldn''t get out of here. Of course, the other day Fernan said she could go anywhere, but that didnt mean she could interact with the Holy Land.


    If she sent the letter herself, it was clear that it would fall into his hands before the letter even left.


    Yes, yes. It''s easy."


    Thank you, Melissa.


    It was only then that Julia slowly opened her mouth as if she was relieved.


    Even if she was safe, she wanted to tell the monastery. Everyone must be very worried about her by now.


    She had no intention of asking them for help. Because it might hurt them too.


    By the way, do you n on going back there again someday?


    Melissa looked into her eyes and asked cautiously.


    Julia, who was seen through Melissa''s eyes, was still coldly closing her heart to Fernan.


    She didn''t even look at him when he came, and when he spoke to her, she barely responded. Watching her hardened expression as if it was ufortable for Julia even being with him.


    Having only seen her like that for two months, Melissa had no choice but to worry about whether Julia was okay to be here.


    Yes..I can''t stay here."


    Julia meekly answered.


    She had a ce she had to go back to. Now, although she was being obedient because she didnt have a chance, her thoughts had not changed.


    Julia looked at Melissa, who looked at her worriedly, and remembered other faces.


    Gabrielle and the children, Cedric, and everyone who lived with her in the monastery.


    Strangely, when she thought about whether they were doing well, her heart would pound and beat dangerously. As if somewhere in her heart was uneasy.


    <i>why?''</i>


    Julia, who had been walking with a confused face, turned around.


    When she returned to the vi, Julia''s expression gradually hardened.


    Because Fernan, standing near the doorway, was watching her from afar.


    While avoiding his gaze, Julia moved her steps firmly.


    She tried to walk past him, but Fernan followed her straight inside.


    I heard you sent the doctor back this morning.


    A calm voice came from behind her. Julia climbed the stairs without stopping her steps.


    You are still not feeling well. The heat is the same."


    I called another doctor, I think it would be better to check again and get a new medication.


    Julia, who was walking quickly down the hallway, stopped for a moment.


    Suddenly, Fernan was close to a distance away.


    She did not look back at him, but replied sternly.


    I dont want to receive treatment anymore. Just keep giving me the medicine Im taking now."


    She continued to take the medicine because it prevented the apparent symptoms to some extent. But seeing doctors was no longer meaningful.


    After reciting as if to notify, Julia moved her feet again. Normally if she cut him off like this, he wouldnt follow her anymore.


    But today, for some reason, his footsteps did not stop.


    His big hand grabbed the doorknob before Julia. His arms touched slightly behind her back.


    "Julia."


    Fernan, who narrowed their distance as if imprisoning her in his arms, opened his mouth slightly.


    I will do as you wish.


    It was a voice that descended nervously. Julia stiffened her body for a moment.


    His low voice continued to flow over her head while she couldn''t even look behind her because of the close distance.


    "So, please look at me just once."


    His hand, holding the doorknob as if suppressing something, gained strength.


    Julia avoided him every day and pushed him away. She never gave him a long nce.


    She did not know that it crushed Fernan''s heart every day. Julia, who was silently looking at the back of his hand, did not look back, but slowly moved her lips.


    "Let me go."


    At the same time, she gently touched the back of his hand as she grabbed the doorknob. She felt the back of his firm hand twitch.


    At Julia''s touch, Fernan gently removed his hand. At that moment, Julia, who grabbed the doorknob and turned it, slowly entered the bedroom.


    Without looking back at him even once, she closed the door behind her.

 Chapter 58

    Chapter 58


    Standing in front of the tightly closed door, Fernan dropped his gaze.


    Julia was still so far away.


    If she could just look at him with her gentle glowing eyes, that would be enough, but her warmth didn''t turn toward him no matter what.


    After staring at the door where Julia had disappeared for a long time, Fernan turned around.


    His heavy footsteps headed for his office on the first floor.


    Oh, Your Highness.


    Lloyd, who was standing in front of him, bowed in silence and then suddenly approached. Then he held out the letter and reported.


    This is a letter from the Imperial Pce. It is said that the emperor''s servants visited the castle twice.


    Currently, Fernan has been away from the castle for a long time without revealing where he was. As a result, the imperial servant often went back in vain.


    As a result, the Emperor seemed to be angry.


    Fernan, who received the letter with an expressionless face, ripped open the envelope.


    It seems that the emperor was even more angry because you did not attend the Empresss birthday celebration.


    Lloyd sighed and continued. That day, Fernan found Julia and brought her back from the Holy Land, so there was no time for banquets or anything like that.


    Even so, the Emperor has been suffering from severe anxiety since the disappearance of Julia. Probably because he was afraid of not being able to keep Fernan on his side any longer.


    In the meantime, Fernan didn''t even attend the big ceremony of the imperial family, so an ufortable feeling must have risen to the top of his head by now.


    Fernan read the letter contents with a cold gaze.


    The letter said that he no longer wanted to doubt the Grand Duke''s true intentions, so he had to visit the Imperial Pce as soon as possible.


    He twisted one of his lips with a smirk. This kind of crude threat doesn''t seem to change over the years.


    From a very young age, Fernan rolled like a chess piece on the Emperor''s political board. Even then, the Emperor''s pattern was always the same.


    The Emperor told his young nephew, who had note of age, to show evidence of allegiance every day.


    Otherwise, he had no choice but to doubt Fernans sincerity.


    Even if it is cumbersome, I think it would be good to visit this time. After you leave, finish the mining industry and take a look around the local estates."


    Lloyd suggested implicitly. It was true that he hadn''t been to the capital for a long time, so he needed to visit at least once.


    The Emperor was an old man who was good at scheming. As his dissatisfaction grew more than this, he didn''t know what other schemes the Emperor would use to frame Fernan.


    Are you concerned about Grand Duchess?


    Lloyd asked cautiously, looking at Fernan, who was lost in thought for a moment.


    She was the only subject that had been upied with his nerves recently.


    It''s been almost two months since he left the castle and moved to this vi to stay with Julia.


    "Don''t worry too much. Adrian isn''t left. We''ve ced enough knights around."


    Despite Lloyd''s words, Fernan didn''t answer, he just tapped and tapped the desk.


    Fernan knew that the quiet Julia, who was full of thoughts of leaving him at any time.


    So he was still anxious.


    Fernan, who had been silent for a while, opened his mouth with his eyes organized.


    Tell them well visit the capital soon.


    ***


    While Fernan was away from the vi for the first time, Julia spent time alone.


    She told Melissa, who went to mail the letter, to take a few days off.


    When she returned to the vi after her walk, she saw someone standing in front of the entrance. It was Adrian, Fernans lieutenant.


    Grand Duchess.


    Adrian bowed his head towards her. At that moment, Julias eyes began to widen as she nced at his face.


    For some reason, it was an unfamiliar face.


    "Your Grace, is there anything you want me to do?"


    Adrian opened his mouth, straightening his posture. However, Julia just stared at him in silence.


    It was only when Adrian showed an embarrassed expression on his face that Julia took a step back.


    Oh, Im sorry.


    She was sure she had seen him before, but she couldnt remember exactly.


    How many times did she see him by Fernans side at the Grand Dukes castle?


    Julia, who was tilting her head as she felt something, took her steps. Adrian let out a sigh of relief as he saw Julia passing him.


    For a moment, he thought she recognized him.


    Adrian was a knight Fernan had nted in the Holy Kingdom a while back.


    He pretended to be a follower and stopped by the monastery several times to check on Julia''s current situation.


    She might remember him passing by, although they never really met each other.


    <b><i>No, I think it''s better for her not to remember. ?</i></b>


    Now Julia only knew that Fernan had brought her here by force.


    As Julia lost her memory, she had no choice but to misunderstand it like that, but Fernan just left her misunderstanding intact.


    Contrary to her misunderstanding, Fernan would have brought her if the Holy Kingdom had not been invaded by demons.


    As it was the case for half a year, he would want her to continue to live peacefully by protecting her from afar and helping her to live without anyck.


    So he must have been broken and withered day by day.


    Even now, he has been hiding her survival without letting anyone know.


    It meant that he would not force Julia back to her ce.


    Phew."


    Adrian sighed briefly. As Fernans long-time subordinate, this situation was only hopeless.


    ***


    Central pce.


    As he walked down the long hallway, the attendants bowed their heads in unison towards Fernan.


    Eventually, when he arrived in front of the Emperor''s reception room, the servant opened the door politely. Fernan, who entered the room slowly, bowed to the emperor with an expressionless face.


    Have you been well, Your Majesty?


    As always, he seemed polite, yet somehow arrogant. The emperor opened his mouth without hiding his displeasure.


    Have you finallye? Seeing that you made me wait so long, the Grand Duke must have been very busy.


    Despite the sarcastic remarks, Fernan responded without changing his expression.


    Yeah, many important things have happened.


    The Emperor frowned and shook his head in disapproval.


    Fernan was then seated in the seat opposite the emperor.


    Taking a deep breath, the emperor returned to his normal expression. The voice that came out was as kind as possible.


    Yes, I wont call you anymore. I am well aware of the many territories ruled by the Grand Duke, but I can''t help but feel disappointed about this."


    Its a relief to hear that you understand.


    The emperor, who was slowly stroking his beard as if examining Fernan''s expression, looked away only after someone knocked on the door.


    Your Majesty, I have brought the Young Lady.


    Yes,e in.


    The emperor, who immediately gave permission, looked at Fernan and smiled generously.


    "I''d like to introduce a precious guest to the Grand Duke today."


    As soon as the emperor finished speaking, the servant opened the door and went inside. Behind the servant, a woman cautiously appeared.


    When the emperor nodded happily, the woman quietly walked up to him and gracefully greeted the emperor.


    Were you tired of waiting?


    No, Your Majesty. I lost track of time talking to the maids.


    The woman with a gentle expression smiled at the emperor and then turned to Fernan.


    Fernan wrinkled his eyebrows softly as he looked at the woman who blinked her eyes shyly towards him. Because he knew at once what this sudden situation meant.


    The emperor smiled softly at Fernan and opened his mouth again.


    She is the famous daughter of Viscount Cerevis. Not long ago she went studying abroad, she recently moved to the Capital.


    The emperor looked at Fernan and the woman with a happy face and spoke.


    I heard you dered that you would not ept courtship, but you cant leave the position of the Grand Duchess vacant forever. The age when the Grand Duke was just too prosperous has passed.


    In the following words, Fernan made a harsh sneer.


    This must be the Emperors real purpose for sending people and annoying him so many times.


    I thought hard and agonized as it is my only nephews new marriage. Viscount Cerevis is one of my long-time vassals, and he will be a good partner with the Grand Duke."


    Seeing the emperor talking about his marriage as if it was natural, Fernan''s face changed cold.


    It was as if he (emperor) was convinced that he (Fernan) could not disobey his order.


    The emperor feared and restrained his powers, but at the same time treated him as nothing but his young nephew.


    He (emperor) still couldnt admit it. His nephew, who was thrown into the battlefield with no one by his side (Fernan), returned with power that threatened him.(emperor)

 Chapter 59

    Chapter 59


    Fernan tilted his head and stared at the emperor. And he nced at the daughter of Viscount Cerevis.


    At this moment, a memory shed through his mind.


    Cerevis. A family that had been pushed out of the capital for a long time due to misconnection two generations ago.


    However, they did not stand out only externally, and they were a family that was more active underground than anyone else.


    A drug dealer secretly favored by some filthy nobles.


    And a brothel operating illegally on the night streets outside the capital.


    Behind them was Viscount Cerevis.


    This was a fact that Fernan learned during the process of identifying the source of the potion that Marquis Elody once tried to give him through Julia.


    Fernan, who finished his thoughts in a brief moment, quickly made up a bright smile.


    I do not know what to do, Your Majesty, because you have spared no heart for this nephew.


    The emperor, whose eyes widened for a moment in response to the gentle reaction, nodded with satisfaction.


    You are like my son, so its only natural for me to use my heart.


    At those words, a smirk passed from Fernan''s sullen smile. Soon he let out a meaningful voice.


    However, I didnt know that the Viscount Cerevis was a family to Your Majesty.


    Saying so, he nced at the woman sitting quietly for a moment, and she replied shyly with a smile of hope.


    Fernan, who had a slight frown at the sight, turned his gaze to the emperor again.


    It was in an instant that the happy face of the emperor was broken.


    "Is it safe to assume that Your Majesty is behind the ck market managed by Viscount Cerevis?"


    As expected, the emperor began to falter with his mouth slightly open. He immediately tried to hide his shaking face.


    Fernan, who had been watching the funny thing for a while, continued to speak slowly.


    Im very curious. How can Viscount Cerevis, who was pushed out of the court, manage such arge-scale organization? Now that question is resolved."


    Unless there was someone behind him, the Viscount, who had no power, could not so secretly spread his powers underground.


    As long as the emperor supported and tolerated it, anything could happen.


    "I have absolutely no idea what the Grand Duke is talking about."


    The emperor opened his mouth as if to swear with a solemn voice.


    After Fernand straightened his tilted head, he responded as if he was sorry.


    Is that so? If not, I will make this matter public right now and reveal the real culprit behind it.


    The emperor''s face hardened at that moment. Viscount Cereviss daughter was also trembling anxiously with a frozen face.


    Staring at them in turn, Fernan stood up.


    If Your Majesty is still not convinced, I will send someone to the territory immediately and hand over the list of illegal transactions I found out to the Inspection Department directly.


    Come on, wait.


    The emperor grabbed the armrest of the throne anxiously and nodded his head toward the servant.


    At the unspokenmand to take the woman out, the attendant approached the woman who was sitting like a stone statue.


    The woman, who forcibly got up from her seat, looked back and walked out of the audience room as if being dragged away.


    Snap, as the door closed, the emperor cried out with a face that couldn''t contain his anger.


    Grand Duke, how can you be so arrogant? How dare you try to stigmatize me with such groundless words!"


    "stigma"


    Fernand stared coldly at the emperor with apletely cleared face.


    "Your Majesty, I am one of those who wish for peace in the Empire."


    Now, what do you mean by that?


    The Emperor red at Fernan with zing eyes. As if he had found the seeds of rebellion.


    Fernan did not avoid that tant gaze and continued to speak.


    Do you think that the stigma of Your Majesty that I have been silent about will end with this?


    Until now, the emperor''s misconduct had been unterally met without any countermeasures.


    Even if he acted like a solid saint, the emperor was an old man with a very bad background. Fernan had so many of the emperors ws in his hand.


    Exactly, for a day like this.


    So it would be beneficial to each other if you no longer get involved in my marriage.


    You, you !"


    Please, I ask for your cooperation so that I can remain loyal to the Empire until the end.


    As the words continued as if he was engraving each word, the emperor began to tremble. Although Fernan had not beenpliant with the imperial family until now, at least he did not do anything against the emperor''s will.


    For this reason, the emperor doubted his true intentions, but he knew implicitly that in the end everything would go his way.


    But now it was different. Fernan looked like he had nowhere to turn. After all, he was a madman with eyes that looked like he was willing to die for treason. The emperors lips quivered, unable to maintain his expression.


    When Fernan began to act like a madman, there was nothing good for the Emperor.


    Fernan, who escaped from the Emperor''s reception room, stepped forward without stopping.


    Even after the storm had passed, he was as expressionless as he did at first.


    He just wanted to get out of this imperial pce as soon as possible.


    The Imperial Pce was the ce where his childhood was contained. He stayed here until about fifteen.


    But he had no reason to get drunk on nostalgia because he had no good memories here.


    Ever since his father passed away by ident, Fernan has been a thorn in the eyes of everyone in this imperial pce.


    His uncle (the emperor is Fernans uncle), who suddenly ascended the throne after the death of his eldest brother (Fernans father), has been anxious since then to somehow take down his nephew.


    The emperor, who was terrified that his young nephew, who could not even make sense of it, might lose his ce.


    Every time there was a big event in the imperial family, Fernans position became more and more ambiguous. Much less the emperor was extremely reluctant to have his nephew in his entourage.


    He (emperor) sometimes put the young man (Fernan) in the middle of a banquet hall, venting his pressure in a clever way. His mother (Fernans mother), who could not see it, always took her son to a small closet before a banquet.


    <b><i>No one''s going to hurt you if you stay here.</i></b>


    Was that why? From some point on, it became a natural habit to enter the closet on the day of the banquet. Around the age of ten, even after his mother died.


    That shabby closet, where no one came, was the mostfortable ce for him as a child. Even the day before he was going to war, he went in the closet, predicting the future.


    In the distant banquet hall, a banquet was held to pray for the safe return of the Imperial Army was in full swing. Even though the war that sent them to death was clear, there was nock of pretentiousness.


    Recalling that day, Fernan''s steps paused for a moment. It was because something, a small memory stuck in a corner of his mind suddenly hit his brain and popped out.


    In that closet that day, he met someone.


    It was a child.. His golden eyes gradually narrowed as if measuring his memory. A shabby closet where no one enters except for him.


    It was the first time someone had appeared there.


    The door closed with a sharp broken voice, and the quiet cries filled the room, and the memories became clearer.


    At the sound of crying sadly, Fernans agony, which was estimated the day of his death, shattered in an instant.


    So he went to the little girl. She looked only about thirteen years old.


    Perhaps her appearance of crying alone ovepped with his childhood. So he reached out his hand unbingly and stayed with her until she stopped crying. In the end, he gave her his name.


    Fernan, who hadpletely stopped his steps, his eyes began to tremble.


    The old memory that he had never recalled in his life, the child to be exact, gradually took shape in his head.


    Two big eyes filled with tears. Wavy light hair. She nced at him, holding his hand tightly.


    <b><i>Can you tell me your name ?</i></b>


    <b><i>Fernan.</i></b>


    <b><i> </i></b>


    <b><i>If we meet again someday, I will tell you my name then.</i></b>


    The girl he met again after so many years definitely kept that promise.


    <b><i>My name is Julia.</i></b>


    <b><i>Do you remember me? We met a long time ago</i></b>


    On the day of the wedding, Julia asked if he remembered her, and she was talking about that day.


    Fernan touched his forehead as if he was far away, like someone who didn''t know what expression to make. Julia had remembered him from the beginning.


    Even though it was only a small memory that he had buried somewhere in his head and never brought it out.


    With his forehead distorted, Fernan looked down with an empty gaze. Was the memory so precious to her, that she couldn''t say anything to the man who only hurt her so much?


    Like a fool, he closed his heart from the beginning


    At this moment, he felt like his heart plummeted hard somewhere.


    From the moment he found out that she was the illegitimate child, he could understand to some extent the reason for Julias fragile nature.


    But more than he alone could have guessed, Julia had more wounds.


    He also didn''t know that she had to hold her breath and cried because she was born as an illegitimate child and had to be trapped in the small room without even attending the banquet.


    His distant and deep emotions boiled in his stomach. His heart beat violently.


    Fernan narrowed his forehead painfully and grabbed his cor tightly.

 Chapter 60

    Chapter 60


    It was a very sunny day. The surface of theke, which she saw everyday, was more shiny today.


    Julia quietly walked around it as usual.


    Her hair fluttered lightly in the cool breeze from the forest.


    Crossing the bridge, stopping in a grassy field, she bent her knees slightly.


    She reached out and lightly touched the purplevender flowers, and a fragrance drifted from the tip of her nose.


    Just as she was distracted by the flowers for a while, the sound of footsteps approached from afar.


    The moment Julia felt a presence and turned around, someone hugged her tightly.


    !


    Surprised by the sudden approach, Julia opened her eyes wide.


    A bodyrge enough to cover all of her. They were solid arms. Fernan.


    Julia couldn''t open her mouth for a while due to the sudden situation. The man holding her tightly didn''t say anything either.


    Julia, who had been in his arms for a while, suddenly came to her senses.


    As she raised her hand and gently pushed his chest away, his familiar voicended in her ear.


    just a little longer."


    Her arms that held her grew even stronger.


    Just for a moment.don''t push me away.


    At the sound of his trembling voice, Julia stopped her movements.


    She could hear his irregr heartbeat from his chest.


    . Why are you doing this?


    Julia, who had been quiet for a while, opened her mouth. She intended to speak coldly, but it was a voice full of embarrassment that came out.


    Fernan left for the capital three days ago, so she thought maybe he would be away for a week. So she couldn''t help but be embarrassed by this man who came back so quickly and hugged her so suddenly.


    As Julia tried to raise her head, Fernans firm hand wrapped the back of her head slightly, and she stopped her movement.


    Julia, who had her face still in his arms, closed her eyes as she let it be.


    Fernan looked at Julia, who waspletely in his arms.


    A soft body with the heartbeat transmitted from the body to which they were facing each other. A shallow but clear breath.


    Suddenly, Julia in his arms felt like a fantasy.


    Her light hair shimmered in the sunlight. He lowered his head and buried his face in her hair. She had the scent of spring.


    "Your Highness."


    Julia pushed his body again. Fernan, who had not yet moved, rxed his arms.


    However, the hands wrapped around her back, preventing her from moving further away, loosen.


    Thanks to the gap, Julia raised her head, and there was a look of wonder in her eyes.


    Because Fernans appearance was unusual.


    As she was wondering, Fernan reached out to her face. Her pale cheeks werepletely wrapped in hisrge hands.


    His eyes contained many words. Awkward words lingered in his mouth, but only a single word came out.


    Sorry."


    At the apology that he quietly spat out, Julia had a confused look on her face.


    Fernan looked up at her as he bowed his head slightly.


    A young girl who held his hand a long time ago was painted over Julia.


    At the same time, a warm and beautiful season, warmer than ever, hung behind her.


    He was suddenly blinded. He couldn''t see her properly, and he lowered his gaze again.


    He had so many things he wanted to say, but he couldnt utter a single word. Even though he couldnt express all these feelings with just a single word sorry.


    In the end, Fernan swallowed all the words that filled his heart and bowed his head.


    Julia looked up at him with her dazed eyes.


    Even though she couldn''t make eye contact with him, she didn''t pull her hand away from his weak embrace.


    ***


    In the afternoon, Melissa, who was making the bed, stared intently at Julia, who was sitting at her table.


    Her book, which she opened, stayed on the same page for an hour.


    Melissa tried to talk to her, but she seemed to be deep in thought.


    <i>What should I do?</i>


    Melissa bit her lip with her nervous look. Just today, at Julia''s request, Melissa was on her way to deliver her letter.


    But in the process, she heard a shocking story.


    <b><i>You can''t send letters to the Holy Kingdom. Don''t you know? There''s been a war there for months.</i></b>


    That was, the Holy Land that Julia had been living in was at war.


    But Julia didn''t seem to know this. Perhaps that was why she wanted to send her letter there.


    While Melissa was busy cleaning the bedding, she agonized over and over whether she should let Julia know.


    No one had informed her of this; perhaps there was a good reason.


    While Melissa was anxious, Julia was looking dazed as if she was far away.


    In her head, the face of Fernan which she saw during the day continued to be drawn. She didn''t want to think about it, but she remembered.


    It was unfamiliar. It was strange to see him with a face she had never seen before. Julia, who muttered quietly, turned to the next page.


    Meanwhile, Melissa, who finished organizing the bedding, spoke to her.


    Your Grace, I changed to light bedding in time for spring.


    Yes, thank you.


    And"


    Julia nced at Melissa, whose words were blurred as if she wanted to say something.


    "What''s wrong?"


    Melissa bit her lips, looking at Julias gentle gaze.


    Oh, no. Its nothing."


    Melissa, who tried hard to lift her, shook her head.


    These days, Julia''s heart was not at ease. But if she found out that there was a war in the ce where she used to live, she might be hurting even more from worrying.


    Melissa, who hade to the conclusion, nodded her head.


    Your Grace, then have a good night. Call me anytime if you need anything."


    Yes, good night.


    Melissa nodded and slowly left the bedroom.


    The door closed, and then Julia looked down to focus on her book again. But again, the words did not catch her eye.


    Eventually, she closed her book, got up, and approached the window. The door swung open and the night breeze blew in.


    Julia knew well that this feeling she felt was never right for this situation.


    She thought about Fernans behavior and somehow her heart seemed to shake.


    Then she needed to remind herself again. She knew she didn''te here because she wanted to.


    That Fernan was preventing her from going back to where she was.


    Other than that, of course, he didn''t force her. He was also showing an unusual attitude unlike before.


    But that didn''t mean she could justify the situation.


    She had already crossed a long way to ept him, who said sorry and regret.


    "Yes.


    After organizing her confusion, Julia closed the window. Her expression instantly became determined.


    ***


    Around morning, there was someone who visited Fernans bedroom.


    While buttoning his cuff, Fernan approached the door and opened it, thinking it was one of his lieutenants who came to deliver a report.


    But, surprisingly, Julia was standing in front of the door.


    It was the first time she hade to see him since she came here.


    Fernan, whose eye widened for a moment in surprise, looked at Julia in front of him.


    "Your Highness."


    Julia, who faced him with an expressionless face, quietly opened her mouth.


    I want to go out.


    It sounded like she was asking for his permission. When he lowered his gaze a little further, Julia was already dressed in her outdoor clothes.


    While Fernan was speechless for a moment, Julia spoke again.


    You said I could go anywhere.


    At those words, Fernan captured the bted gaze. Then came ate reply.


    "Okay."


    It was also the first time that Julia said she wanted to do something, so at this moment, he felt an indescribable joy.


    Of course, she could go anywhere.


    "Will you not allow me to go out alone?"


    The blue eyes turned towards him.


    Fernan looked away from her for a moment, and then he made eye contact with her again.


    He wanted to give her everything she wanted, but it was still difficult for him to let her go alone.


    It is dangerous to be alone. Your identity is not yet known to the Empire.


    Come with me.


    When Julia lowered her head without answering, Fernan hurriedly added.


    It doesnt matter if you think of me as an escort, I wont disturb you.


    With those words, Julia looked up at him with her puzzled face. Thinking of him as an escort seems a bit strange.


    But then, without saying anything else, she gently nodded.


    Yes, then Ill wait until youre ready.


    Julia took a step back from the door and turned around.


    Seeing her slowly disappearing beyond the hallway, Fernan''s eyes began to shake again.

 Chapter 61

    Chapter 61


    The carriage, which had left the vi, rattled down the mountain road.


    They were heading to a small town near the border. It was a city where squares and downtown areas were properly arranged and there were not many people.


    Julia carefully looked out of her window through the slightly tilted curtains.


    It was to find out exactly where this vi was and what road to take to get out of the mountain.


    While Julia was staring outside like that for a while, Fernan suddenly spoke to her.


    If you feel ufortable, tell me right away.


    At that moment, Julia, who turned her gaze to the other side, nodded his head without answering.


    Then, suddenly, she realized that it was the first time she and Fernan went out like this.


    They left a few times together to go to the Imperial Pce, but that was only for official events.


    It felt a little funny, and at the same time, it felt futile.


    She had never been alone in her marriage, and it was strange that it hade to this point.


    If she was the Julia of the past, she would be beyond happy that she could apany Fernan on an outing.


    Because she was simple and foolish.


    But she just doesn''t like being with him right now.


    Julia lowered her gaze and silently waited to arrive in the downtown area.


    After such a long time, the carriage entered the city.


    The first thing that caught her eyes was the river that ran across the street.


    A small boat floated on the surface of the water, and people were sitting huddled together. After watching the boatman rowing for a moment, the carriage stopped nearby.


    Fernan got out first and held out his hand to her. Julia hesitated for a moment, but soon held his hand.


    As she stepped on her feet, the bright sunlight poured over her head. Looking around, she saw a za with a rxed atmosphere.


    <i>I dide, but</i>


    The reason she wanted to go out was just to find an escape route and to figure out the exact location of the vi.


    So there were no other ns.


    She nced at Fernan, and as soon as their eyes met, she averted her gaze.


    At first, she thought it would be better to walk as far as her feet could reach.


    So, as she entered the street, various shops were lined up. From clothing stores to jewelers to stalls selling misceneous goods.


    Julia looked at the crowded street without much meaning.


    As she tried not to be conscious of Fernan who was following her from behind.


    After wandering the streets for a long time, her gaze was suddenly fixed somewhere. It was a jewelry shop.


    Brilliant essories were piled up in a ss showcase.


    Among them, what caught Julia''s attention was the blue diamond earrings.


    Without realizing it, she stopped and looked at the disy case.


    She wasnt very interested in jewelry, but the bright colors automatically caught her eyes.


    The gaze did not linger for long. Julia quickly turned and made her way back into the street.


    From one moment on, she became unconscious of Fernan who was following her.


    He didn''t say anything as if he was really an escort, and he was following Julia at a reasonable distance.


    So she walked the streets with a rxed mind without much thinking.


    After that, time flew by, and as she reached the end of the street, a nearby flower shop caught her eyes.


    When she saw the flowers, she naturally thought of the monastery.


    She wondered if they were doing okay. Gabrielle, the kids, and Cedric


    Julia looked at the flowers for a moment and thought of them, but then she turned around.


    As soon as she entered the street, Julia took a small breath.


    In the first ce, the purpose of going out had already been aplished, so it was meaningless to spend more time here.


    Lets go back.


    Julia, who looked back at Fernan for the first time, spoke to him.


    He was still following her at a reasonable distance.


    After she saw Fernan nod and was about to turn around again, a man suddenly ran out of the street next door.


    Before the man ran into Julia, Fernan pulled her towards him.


    Hey, be careful


    The man, who jumped out suddenly lost his temper, found Fernan standing behind her and withdrew in surprise.


    Looking at Fernan with a ferocious expression like he was about to pull out his sword, the man apologized incessantly.


    Im sorry! Im sorry!


    Then he ran away in a sh.


    Julia, who had been staring nkly at the running man, looked up at Fernan, who wrapped his arms around her.


    As if when her life hade to an end, he looked at her with refined eyes.


    thank you.


    After a bted murmur, Julia escaped from his arms.


    With her mouth shut, she turned around and hurried her steps.


    To return to the square, the two walked slowly across the bridge over the river. A slight breeze blew through her hair.


    Fernan stood still at that moment, without even looking elsewhere, he engraved each figure of her into his eyes.


    As he wandered around this downtown area, of course, Julia was the only ce he focused his attention on.


    After a while, Julia looked quietly somewhere over the bridge. Her gaze turned to the stable.


    Unwittingly stopped, she stared intently at the white horse tied to the end of the stable.


    Do you like that horse?


    Fernan asked quietly. Then, looking back at him, Julia shook her head.


    Rather than liking it, its appearance looked mysterious, so it caught her attention right away. It was the first time she had ever seen such a white and shiny horse.


    Julia didn''t know how to ride horses. One of the qualities of a noblewoman, however, was because she was not given an opportunity to learn.


    Julia turned her head away from the horse.


    Meanwhile, arge and colorful carriage arrived in front of them.


    The carriage arrived at the vi at sunset.


    She went straight to her bedroom, and Julias eyes went wide as soon as she stepped inside.


    Above and below the table, there were a few boxes that she hadnt seen before.


    Your Grace, did you have a good trip?


    Melissa rushed to the news that Julia had returned and bowed her head.


    Nodding her head, Julia asked, pointing to her table.


    Melissa, but where did thise from?


    Didn''t you buy them? It came from the carriage that arrived before you.


    At those words, Julia felt puzzled as she opened one of jewelry boxes.


    Inside was a pair of earrings studded with blue jewels.


    Julia''s eyes gradually widened. Obviously, it was the earrings she saw in the ss case at the market.


    Melissa spoke quietly to her.


    I guess His Highness bought it for you.


    But Julia didn''t see him buying anything.


    To be precise, she didn''t know because she never looked back at Fernan, who was following her the whole time.


    While Julia, who had an unknown expression on her face, closed the jewelry box, someone knocked on the door. Melissa opened it, and there was a servant in front of the door.


    And in his arms was arge bouquet of flowers.


    Grand Duchess, His Highness told me to deliver this flower.


    Julia took the bouquet from the servant with both hands, and unexpectedly epted it.


    It was a beautiful bouquet of blue forget-me-nots and white daffodils.


    The fragrance of flowers approached the tip of her nose. Julia looked down at the bouquet nkly.


    Why are you like this


    Those earrings and this flower.


    They were all the things she had her eye on while wandering around downtown.


    <i> Has he been watching?</i>


    Fernan followed her silently, keeping his promise not to disturb her.


    However, it seemed that he was watching everything that Julia looked at.


    At this moment, for the first time, Julia wondered about Fernan''s true intentions.


    <i>What in the world is this beneficial to him?</i>


    Of course, he said he didn''t need any profit, but Julia didn''t believe it.


    What does His Highness want?


    Julia muttered quietly as if she was talking to herself, and Melissa, who looked at her with a strange expression, answered.


    I think he just wants to give something to Your Grace.


    Because His Highness


    Melissa stopped at mid sentence and hit her lip.


    She thought it was presumptuous for a maid like her to talk about the owner''s heart.


    But, at least in Melissa''s eyes, it was clear that Fernan hade to love Julia.


    Fernan has been anxious about Julia, who was colder, and she was the only one who filled his gaze and nerves.


    Their situationpletely reversed from before.


    He wants to give me everything


    Julia muttered. Even so, she had never wanted anything like this.


    She didn''t want anything from him. However.


    Julia felt confused and she looked at the flower bouquet again. The fresh scent of the beautiful flowers gently shook her heart.


    Without realizing it, Julia embraced the bouquet in her arms.

 Chapter 62

    Chapter 62


    Cedric, who left for Richel''s estate, was reunited with Gabrielle in a mansion there.


    After confirming that both the children and Gabrielle were unharmed, he was able to rx.


    They were livingfortably. The mansion was spacious, and there were helpers.


    He thought they would have simply found a ce to live, but the Grand Duke seemed to be more attentive to their convenience than expected.


    Cedric. Is it true that the person who helped us was Julia''s husband ?


    Gabrielle whispered in a low voice. She was very quick-witted as she got older.


    Cedric nodded his head with aplicated expression.


    Yes, I think so.


    Yes.


    Gabrielle spoke with a worried look on her face.


    Since hes treating us so generously, you must believe that hes also taking good care of Julia.


    However, her health is what Im most worried about.


    Cedric nodded his head with a grim expression.


    If her mind was ufortable, her body would also be ufortable. So, he hoped she was at ease there.


    <i> It might be difficult.</i>


    Cedric sighed and lifted his lips.


    Gabrielle, if you happen to know Yulia''s location, please send me a message."


    Okay, dont worry and go back. Ill write you a letter.


    There was nothing Cedric could do for now. He just has to wait for Julia to contact him first.


    At this time, Cedric was so miserable because he felt ipetent.


    At the same time, He felt a sense of shame that filled a part of his heart.


    Feelings that should have been enough just to worry about Julia were mixed with something that was not at all pleasant.


    He was jealous lest she be shaken by the Grand Duke. He was afraid and anxious that she would nevere back.


    Of course, Julia could not have wanted to stay with the Grand Duke now.


    It must be so, but he couldn''t figure out why he had such a vague feeling.


    Cedric, who came out of the mansion, briefly captured the world in spring.


    Even on such a beautiful day, his heart was just hopeless.


    He missed the days walking with Julia. The times when theyughed and talked about little things in the evening breeze at the monastery.


    His heart throbbed greatly. Cedric took a deep breath and lowered his gaze.


    ***


    For a while, Julia had been living with chaotic emotions.


    She made up her mind to leave this ce somehow, but her firmness kept crumbling down for some reason.


    Julia, who was walking on the in, looked at the distant forest.


    If running for a long time along that forest, she would see a steep mountain foot. If she went down there, she would find a road leading to the vige.


    The way to escape has already been memorized. If she went down the mountain entrance with the excuse of going out, maybe she could run away.


    However.


    When Julia lowered her gaze with a somewhatplicated face, she suddenly felt a strange presence.


    ?


    Julia, who flinched at the rustling sound, looked back.


    Her eyes gradually grew bigger. Because a white horse was walking slowly towards her.


    Ah."


    At this moment, there was a scene that passed Julia''s head. A few days ago, she was a white horse downtown.


    Then, a soft voice fell over her head.


    Hes a gentle guy, hell listen to you.


    When she turned around in surprise, Fernan was standing there.


    He spoke calmly.


    Its a horse for riding, so it should be suitable for you.


    Julia turned her gaze to the white horse again with a bewildered expression.


    The horse with its head down was quietly grazing.


    Is that the horse I saw in the downtown area that day?


    As she murmured in the distance, Fernan, who came a little closer to her, swept the horse.


    At that time, the white horse was not of good breed, so I got it from another ce.


    Then, when she looked closely at the horse, the color of its eyes was indeed different.


    Contrary to that horse back then, this white horse had pale green eyes.


    The horse with its soft, white hair made a pleasant rustling sound.


    Julia, who was briefly distracted by the mysterious figure, soon came to her senses and looked at Fernan.


    " I can''t ride horses. So youd better bring it back.


    Then she quietly turned her gaze away from the horse.


    Julia has already received a lot from him. Excessive luxury that she didnt even want.


    It wouldn''t be hers if she left anyway. Moreover, she didn''t want to receive anything from him anymore.


    Just as she was about to turn around like that, a low voice came from Fernan again.


    Ive have already given it to you, so there is no need to return it.


    "If you don''t know how to ride, you can learn."


    Julia, who stopped his feet, looked back at him. Fernan was approaching with the reins of the white horse.


    "If you don''t use it, this horse will be useless and will be kept in the stable."


    Julia looked up at him. She couldn''t tell if he was threatening her or just saying it.


    Meanwhile, the white horse, who came close to her, looked at her clearly.


    It then gently pushed its snout as if it wanted to be stroked.


    Julias shoulders flinched and she closed his eyes slowly, then she reached out without realizing it.


    Carefully sweeping the white hair, the horse neighed again. It was as if it was saying that it felt good.


    As Fernan said, it seemed to be a gentle and friendly horse.


    Julia''s blue eyes began to twinkle slightly.


    Lets try it once.


    Fernan, who was watching her closely, suggested.


    "That


    Julia hesitated and blurred the end of her words. Fernan, who took one step closer to her, looked down at her as if inviting her again.


    When she bit her lip as if she was agonizing without letting go of her hand from the horse, Fernan leaned down.


    She looked at his approaching face, and before she could panic, her body suddenly lifted up. As Julia looked down at him from afar, she already sat on the saddle in an instant.


    Fernan took her arm and helped her straighten her tilted posture. Julia suddenly grabbed the reins in her hands.


    It was her first time riding the horse alone. She was just frozen, holding the reins tightly.


    Fernan, who was looking at her frightened figure, climbed on the back lightly.


    His tight arms supported her unstable body in an instant.


    Its okay, kick the horse on the waist a bit.


    Said Fernan, with the reins over her hand.


    Julia, who flinched her hand for no reason, hesitated and kicked her foot gently as he said.


    Soon after, the horse began to walk slowly.


    Julia straightened her bent posture and looked in front of her. Fernansrge body supporting her back gave her more stability.


    Perhaps because of her increased visibility, the familiar scenery looked different.


    Her tension was gradually released from her stiffened body in the open air.


    Fernan felt her body more softly, spoke gently.


    Horseback riding is not difficult, you will learn it quickly.


    If you want, Ill teach you often.


    Unsurprisingly, Julia thought that the voiceing from behind her was unfamiliar.


    It was soft and warm. She couldn''t deny that it wasnt.


    Biting her lip, Julia looked down at Fernansrge hand thatpletely wrapped around hers.


    His hands were long and gracefully outstretched, seemingly rough with calluses. It was the first time she had looked so closely.


    As she looked at his hand for a while, she remembered her old memories a long time ago.


    The day she and him first met. She remembered holding his hand for a long time.


    Julia suddenly wondered if he still didn''t remember that day.


    So without realizing it, she opened her mouth.


    "Your Highness."


    At her little call, Fernan lowered his head slightly towards her.


    "Do you remember? In the past, Your Highness held my hand like this"


    But in the end, her blurred speech did not continue any longer. It was because when she opened her mouth, I thought it was pointless to ask.


    There was no need for her to recall the memory of that day, and it was far less necessary for her to mention the day to Fernan.


    As she closed her mouth as she thought so, Fernan wrapped her hands more tightly.


    I remember. Everything.


    Julia blinked her eyes with her slightly startled face. Meanwhile, Fernan''s voice continued.


    You were going to tell me your name when we meet again.


    At the sound of his low voice whispering into her ear, Julia''s shoulders flinched slightly.


    <b><i>If we meet again someday, I will say my name then.</i></b>


    Julia lowered her head slightly with a subtle expression.


    But when they met again, he said he didnt remember her.


    So, there were times when she wasn''t sure if the boy she met was really Fernan.


    Because when they reunited, he was not the man she had imagined and painted, but a heartless person with ayer of ice around him.


    For sure now, it was this man she met at that time.


    She had no intention of attaching any meaning to the events of now and then. But she felt a little strange.


    While Julia bowed her head lower, Fernan didn''t speak any more, but only held her hands tightly.


    And Julia did not shook him off like usual. Instead, she whispered in a quiet voice.


    I want to run a little faster.


    She didn''t want to be engulfed in this feeling that started tickling her heart. If she ran a little faster, perhaps she would be able to forget this feeling.


    An answer came straight from Fernan.


    "Okay."


    Fernan swung the reins lightly. The horse that changed direction soon began to speed up.


    Julia felt the wind blowing on her face while his arms supported her body stably.


    The wind was cool, and the body temperature of the man behind her was warm.


    They ran for a long time like that. However, the trembling feeling never seemed to subside.

 Chapter 63

    Chapter 63


    The next day, Julia asked Melissa to run an errand. She was going to send her letter once again.


    This time, it was not a letter to the Holy Land, but to the Temple of Ilion, where Matheus was located.


    It was also a response to firmly grasp her shaking heart.


    Julia knew that she was being swayed by Fernan. Seeing Fernan''s changed appearance, without realizing it, she was getting used to it.


    So now she was really going to make a n to get out of here.


    Before the will to escape wouldpletely disappear.


    Originally, she was going to try to escape by herself somehow by using her remaining power.


    However, she instinctively felt that her body would not be able to withstand it if she used more of her power.


    Julia had no intention of harming herself any longer.


    Because she wanted to live happily for a long time.


    But it wouldnt be with Fernan.


    Julia leaned against the window sill and looked at the now familiar scenery.


    Fernan was different from before. It was also true that his warmth shook her heart easily.


    But it was only a fleeting warmth.


    She couldnt rely on such things and set foot into the hellish past again.


    In order to erase the face that had filled up in her mind, Julia stared at the distant in again.


    That evening, Melissa, who had sent the letter, arrived at the vi.


    Melissa told her that she sent the letter safely to the temple.


    Thank you, Melissa.


    Oh, no. If there is anything else you want me to do, please tell me.


    Melissa, who replied in a good manner, avoided her gaze for some reason. She looked a bit worried.


    What happened?


    When Julia tilted her head and asked, Melissa, startled, hurriedly shook her head.


    Oh, nothing is wrong. Dont worry."


    You dont look good.


    Melissa tried to raise her lips as if she was okay.


    However, seeing Julia worrying about her, her face seemed to have be more and more ufortable.


    In fact, when she went to send the letter this time, Melissa hade to ask the postman again about what happened to the Holy Land.


    And of course, the reply came that the ce was still in full swing with the demons.


    <i>Grand Duchess is probably trying to go back there</i>


    Melissa was btedly worried that something would happen to Julia if she left without knowing the truth. Besides, she felt as if she was fooling Julia, so she didnt feelfortable all this time.


    Your Grace. Actually, I have something to tell you.


    Melissa also felt that she could not continue to deceive Julia on her own will. Julia had a right to know, good or bad.


    Last time, I actually couldnt send the letter to the Holy Land.


    Julia''s eyes widened at Melissas confession.


    Why?"


    Melissa bit her lip while looking at Julia who asked her nkly and continued her words.


    Actually, Your GraceIn the Holy Land I heard theres a war.


    Julia''s face, who had been dazed as if she could not understand the situation, gradually turned pale.


    What does that mean war?


    I heard from the postman that theres a war that startedst winter. The demons have invaded.


    Melissa, who answered carefully, looked at herplexion, and Julia stiffened for a moment, as if she had received a lot of shock.


    Last winter


    Julia, who muttered in a daze, touched her lips. If it wasst winter, it intertwined with the time she came here. At this moment, the things that were on her mind in the past began toe to mind one by one.


    Her memory of the process that led her here in the first ce haspletely disappeared.


    Even Fernan''s words, which he said she could go anywhere but the Holy Land.


    Julia, who had not spoken for a long time while holding her lips, twitched her brows.


    She might remember something more, but she couldn''t keep up with her thoughts as her head was pounding.


    Your Grace, are you okay?


    Seeing her pale face, Melissa sped Julias arms.


    However, Julia did not answer, she only looked into the air nkly.


    At this moment, Julia could only be sure of one thing. The reason she came here must have something to do with the war.


    After removing her hand from her lips, Julia moved her feet. The ce she headed was Fernans office.


    Her mind was jumbled all the way down the stairs.


    <i>Why on earth did he hide from me the fact that the Holy Land was at war? And how did I lose my memory?</i>


    Julia knocked on the office door with her trembling hand. But no words came from the inside.


    Turning away, Julia wandered around the vi looking for Fernan.


    Then at the end, she headed to his bedroom.


    With her face turned white, Julia, who was in front of Fernans door, raised her hand.


    The moment she was about to knock, the door suddenly opened from inside.


    And Fernan appeared through the wide open door.


    Julia?


    He looked at her Julia with a slightly surprised face. He never thought she would be standing in front of him like this.


    His hair was damp, perhaps he just had a bath.


    Julia hesitated for a moment, then parted her lips.


    Your Highness, I came to ask you something.


    "What do you want to ask?"


    Fernan, who was muttering in the distance, moved aside btedly.


    At his gaze as if to ask her toe inside, Julia slowly took a step forward.


    Click, as the door closed, a familiar scent permeated. It was the smell of winter.


    The cool, cold scent that she always felt when she was next to Fernan


    Inconsistent with the situation, the scent calmed her head.


    While Julia hesitated, Fernan pulled her a chair.


    Julia, who sat down, immediately opened her mouth.


    Why havent you told me anything?


    Fernan, who sat across from her, stared at her silently. As if to gauge what she was saying, there was a slight twitch in his golden eyes.


    Julia spoke in a confused voice.


    I heard that the Holy Land is at war.


    Why didnt you tell me anything?


    At that moment, Fernan''s gaze began to waver slightly. After that, he asked quietly, who had not said anything for a long time.


    Did your memoriese back?


    no."


    Julia still had no memory of it. Because every time she vaguely thought of something, her head felt like it was going to crack.


    However, I can predict that the memories I forgot were war-rted.


    So, please tell me what happened.


    Fernan averted his gaze slightly as if struggling with Julia staring straight at him.


    In the meantime, he didn''t exin anything to Julia because he did not want to forcibly revive her memory.


    His luscious lips closed, then slowly opened.


    I hope you dont remember anything.


    why?"


    Fernan often recalled the sight of Julia crying with her ears covered. She also screamed and trembled all night long.


    He didn''t want to reveal the traumatic memories.


    He didn''t know which truth would be more painful for her, but he thought it would be better to let Julia think that she was forced by him toe here.


    Now that he was not letting her go anywhere like this, it wasnt really false to let her think like that.


    Looking at the silent Fernan, Julia immediately opened her lips and asked another question.


    What about the others? The people in the monastery


    Her heart, which had been trying so hard to calm down, began to pound again.


    Looking at Julia biting her lip anxiously, Fernan gave her an answer btedly.


    Not everything is safe.


    Julias eyes shook.


    You mean theyre dead?"


    Fernan nodded her head slightly at the question.


    Julia clenched her hands and bit her lips.


    The people who had been living with her for a year peacefully but she waspletely clueless all this time.


    While enjoying the things that Fernan gave her here, as if it was unavoidable.


    Looking at Julia, unable to say anything due to shock, Fernan spoke up.


    At least all the children and thedy are safe.


    A light gradually began to permeate her eyes, which were wet by the news.


    Are you serious?


    Fernan looked at her wet eyshes. As soon as a teardrop fell, he couldnt hold back and reached out.


    " dont cry."


    His hard fingers gently wiped the corners of her eyes. At some point, it became difficult for him to see Julia cry. Perhaps it was because he remembered the woman who cried because of him a long time ago.


    "I''ll let you meet them."


    So innocent words came out without him knowing. The truth was he actually didn''t want Julia to meet them.


    He was afraid that Julia would meet them and leave him again, but now he was more afraid of her crying than that.

 Chapter 64

    Chapter 64


    Gabrielle and the children were staying in Richel, one of Fernan''s estates.


    In the wagon going there, Julia felt nervous and sped her hands together.


    <i>Is everyone staying healthy without any injuries? Maybe the children suffered from the aftermath of the war</i>


    Many worries filled her mind.


    The carriage, which had been running for a long time, soon passed the checkpoint.


    After entering the outskirts of the vige, moving a little further, the entrance to the mansion began to be seen from afar. Fernan, who got off first, reached out to her.


    When she took his hand and stepped outside, a man rushed to them and bowed his head, seemingly the caretaker of the ce.


    Even before entering the mansion following the caretakers guidance, someone from the inside popped out.


    Julia!


    Small children rushed out and clinged to Julia.


    Excited, Julia bent her knees and made eye level with her children.


    "Guys


    For some reason, she felt like she was about to cry, so Julia, who was trying her best to hold back the tears, hugged her children tightly.


    Julia, why are you sote? Are you sick again?


    "No, Julia, I hate it when you get sick.


    The faces of the children, who looked up at her with whimper, were fortunately very healthy.


    Julia sighed in relief and stroked the hair of the child standing next to her.


    No, Im not hurt. Sorry foring sote.


    Julia, are you crying? Your eyes are red.


    Rosemary, hanging from her arm, reached out and touched her eyes. Julia smiled faintly and hugged Rosemary again.


    In the midst of unraveling the affair with the children, Gabrielle, who ran outte, said excitedly.


    Oh, I heard that you wereing, but I didnt expect to be this soon!


    Gabrielle.


    Julia stood up and took Gabrielles hand as she approached. Gabrielles eyes were teary as if she was worried a lot.


    Are you hurt? Are you all right, huh?


    Gabrielle looked over her body urgently and asked. Julia nodded.


    "Im okay. There are no injuries.


    Yes, yes. I''m so d to see you again safely


    Gabrielle, who wiped the tears with her wrinkled hands, looked behind Julia.


    By the way, the one who came with you a while ago.


    With those words, Julia looked behind her and her eyes widened.


    Because Fernan was nowhere to be seen.


    <i> Did he leave?</i>


    Julia looked at the empty yard withplicated eyes.


    Soon after turning her head again, she entered the mansion after a long reunion greeting.


    The mansion was bigger than she expected and the inside was very neat, Julia couldn''t help but be a little surprised.


    Weve been treated so well, I dont know what to do.


    Gabrielle, who was following Julia''s gaze looking around inside, hurriedly added her words.


    The gentleman who came with you was the one who helped us, right?


    Yes, that''s right."


    Julia answered with aplicated face as she finished climbing the stairs.


    As soon as she entered the parlor, a servant brought refreshments.


    Julia, who had been hesitating, slowly opened her mouth.


    Gabrielle, the others


    Gabrielle nodded her head slightly as she understood what Julia was asking.


    Yes, we are the only survivors.


    Gabrielle sighed in silence. Wrinkles were growing on her forehead, perhaps because she had a hard time.


    It turns out that not only our monastery, but the entire vige suffered a lot of damage. If it weren''t for the knights who saved us


    Julia, who had been quietly listening to her words, lowered her gaze slightly.


    The knights Gabrielle was talking about were probably referring to Fernan''s knights.


    Julia, are you okay?


    As Gabrielle asked carefully, Julia rubbed her lips with aplicated face.


    Actually, I cant remember at all what happened after I left the monastery .


    Oh my gosh, it seems like youve been in a lot of shock.


    Gabrielle, who patted the back of her hand with pity, took another deep breath and sighed.


    Yeah, its a disaster that it would be better to forget about it. How did such a thing happen to a country blessed by God?


    Gabrielle , who shook her head as if to shake off the misery, spoke again.


    Oh, I should tell Cedric about you too. He must be very worried right now.


    Is Cedric safe and sound?


    Yes, the priests were fortunately protected by the pdins in the central temple.


    At that moment, Julia, who was relieved, swept her chest.


    For a long time, they talked about many things.


    Gabrielle told Julia one by one how she had been doing here.


    She said that food, clothing, and food were provided abundantly, and members of the clinic visited regrly to take care of the children and Gabrielles health.


    In particr, the children yed with excitement every day, because it was their first time staying at such arge mansion.


    Julia, who silently listened to Gabrielle, showed a subtle expression as if she did not know what expression to make.


    Gabrielle noticed her nce at the door and hinted.


    Well, would you like to thank him? He''s my savior, but I haven''t had a chance to see him.


    "Ah Yes. Okay."


    Julia meekly nodded. Gabrielle said she had to go check on the children and get up first.


    Julia, who had been contemting after Gabrielle was gone, btedly stepped out of the parlor.


    Um, His Highness, where is he?


    Julia carefully asked the servant who was standing at the door. And the servant answered in a polite manner.


    "His Highness went to the study on the third floor. I will guide you.


    Following the leading servant, Julia slowly moved her steps.


    Her mind was in disarray the whole time she climbed the stairs. Because she didn''t know that Fernan cared for them this much.


    Since he saved Gabrielle and the children, he must have also saved her and brought her to the vi.


    All this time, she thought she was forced to go back by him and acted harshly, but when he saw her like that, why didn''t he say a word


    This is the library.


    In the meantime, the servant who guided Julia to the study bowed and turned around.


    Standing in front of the door, Julia hesitated for a moment, then turned the doorknob.


    As she entered, she saw the interior full of bookshelves. Julia looked around and found Fernan standing in front of the window and looking outside.


    Your Highness.


    Fernan turned his head at the quiet call.


    With his back to the sunlight, he looked at Julia with a gentle gaze.


    Julia approached him a little closer.


    "I."


    Julia, who opened her mouth, could not easily connect the words.


    She should say thank you, but for some reason it was hard to look at him.


    Fernan, who was staring at her, opened his mouth first.


    You can stay a few more days if you want.


    With a soft voice, he reached out and caressed Julia''s eyelids as she looked down. As if wiping away the tears like thest time.


    As soon as he touched her, Julia, who raised her head, made eye contact with him.


    For the first time, Julia, who always showed a lot of thorns when looking at him, had her eyes shining like before.


    thank you."


    Fernan''s lips drew a faint arc at the brief gratitude she barely uttered.


    Julia felt her heart pounding.


    ***


    After that, Julia stayed in the mansion for three more days.


    She spent a lot of time ying with the kids, and chatted a lot over refreshments with Gabrielle.


    It was a peaceful time, as if she had returned to her time at the monastery.


    On thest day, Gabrielle, who was seeing her off, quietly asked.


    Julia, what do you n to do in the future?


    Gabrielle said she intended to leave this ce as soon as she found a different ce to live, saying she couldnt be indebted too long without paying.


    I probably wont be there long either.


    Julia answered in her calm voice. The idea of leaving someday remained unchanged.


    However, her mind was more confused than before.


    Whatever decision you make, think about your heart first.


    Looking at theplicated-looking woman, Gabrielle said insinuatingly.


    For some reason, Gabrielles words seemed to be stuck in her ears.


    "Yes I will


    With a small smile and a nod, Julia soothed the sniffling children.


    After she hugged each one of them and promised toe back soon, Julia turned around.


    "Gabrielle, I''ll write to you as often as I can."


    "Yes, stay healthy. If anything happens, be sure to call me, okay?"


    Gabrielle hugged Julia tightly as if she couldn''t help it. And Julia hugged her back for a long time.

 Chapter 65

    Chapter 65


    So after returning to the vi, Julia quietly reviewed her future ns. Originally, she had nned to return to the Holy Land, but it was still at war with demons there.


    After all, she had nowhere else to go right now.


    "What should I do now? Where should I go?


    At the back of the vi, where the stable was, Julia looked at the white horse and thought. As she stared at the horse endlessly withplicated eyes, the horse held out its snout, as if it understood her. Finally, Julia slowly reached out.


    She patted the white hair, and the horse looked pleasantly pleased.


    The big horse, which seemed to be three times her size, behaved as if it were a small dog.


    Julia suddenly realized that she hadn''t let the horse loose in the stable since thest time she rode with Fernan.


    Distressed, she undid the ring on the small wooden door and opened it. As if the horse had been waiting, it walked out with ease.


    With the reins in her hands, Julia walked the horse toward the ins.


    She thought that the horse would be happier in the open ins than confined in a stable.


    Should I give it a name?


    Julia thought absentmindedly as she looked at the horse that was standing still and grazing.


    She didnt know if it was right to give the horse a name but she thought it would be nice if it had a name.


    "Laura.


    Julia mumbled, and before she knew it, a long shadow formed behind her.


    Startled by the shadowy vision, Julia turned around.


    How long has he been watching her? Fernan approached with a calm manner.


    With a serious look on her face, she quickly turned her gaze to the horse.


    "That''s a nice name."


    Julia''s ears turned slightly red with the embarrassment of being caught talking to herself.


    But he didn''t even show a hint of a smile, whether he really thought the name was good.


    You didn''t look for it for a while, so I thought you didn''t like it."


    "Oh, no. I like it."


    To his murmur, Julia quietly replied.


    In fact, she liked this white horse from the beginning. It was a a mysterious and gentle horse.


    She just didn''t look for it because she didn''t want anything from Fernan.


    <i>I''ve already received a lot just by spending time here</i>


    It was Fernan who conclusively helped her and provided her with food, clothing and shelter when she had nowhere else to go.


    So she was too ashamed to reject his things now that she didn''t want it.


    "I''ll teach you how to ride."


    Fernan interjected. Then he looked up at her and continued.


    "I said Id teach you often.


    Yes.


    Julia''s eyes fluttered. Yeah, he definitely said he''d teach her horseback riding.


    Actually, she wasn''t entirely without a desire to learn. When she was very young, she had seen her half brother, whose face was now a blur, learning to ride.


    It brought back memories of her childhood, when she gazed at him through the window and envied him inwardly.


    Julia bit her lip as she struggled. Eventually, she gave a positive answer.


    Yes, then Please teach me.


    A quiet light finally drifted into Fernans eyes.


    He gently held out his hand. Hesitating a little, Julia gently ced her hand in his.


    Since that day, Julia has learned to horseback riding from him almost every day.


    She was not ustomed to using her body, so it was difficult for her to improve her skills.


    Still, Fernan never once rushed her to do so.


    He supported Julia''s body as soon as she felt fear. When she began to concentrate, he waited for her silently.


    In the meantime, before long, Julia began to ride the horse slowly.


    "Oh, ."


    Julia, who had stopped as she''d been taught, hesitantly grabbed the reins.


    She was very skilled at straddling a horse and driving it slowly, but she was always blocked by being dismounted. As Julia blinked, staring down the blur, Fernan approached her.


    Julia hesitated a little and slowly grabbed his shoulders.


    Hisrge hands wrapped around her waist as he eased her off the horse.


    "Thank you."


    Muttering softly, Julia released her grip on his arm.


    Standing close to him, she was quite used to him by now.


    Spending time with him like this has be a part of her daily life.


    And before she knew it, Julia began to think that this time was peaceful and tranquil.


    The original n to get away from here was still in the back of her mind, but Julia couldn''t quite get it out of her mind anymore.


    Fernan had been teaching her to ride all morning, and she returned to the vi around afternoon.


    As she entered the bedroom, Melissa held out a letter as if she had been waiting for her return.


    "Your Grace, here is a letter from Richel."


    The other day, Julia began exchanging letters with Gabrielle, who was staying in Richel. When Melisa saw Julia receiving the letter, she smiled softly.


    Do you know? Yourplexion has been better than before.


    Julia''s face has been sporting a brighterplexiontely. It was different from the first time when she was anxious as if she was going to run away somewhere right away.


    Turning to look at Melissa, Julia tilted her head.


    "Do I look like that?"


    Yes, you''ve had very little fevertely and you''ve been sleeping very well.


    Melissa added, and Julia lowered her eyelids.


    True to Melissas words, she hadn''t been feeling sicktely, though she didn''t know why.


    Julia, who closed her lips tightly with a trembling heart, soon opened the envelope.


    While she was reading the letter, Melissa ced the flowers in a vase on the table.


    Julia read the letter smoothly, and stopped her gaze at thest line of the postscript.


    [If you have any trouble, contact the temple. Cedric is waiting to hear from you.]


    Julia looked into the void for a moment with a serious look on her face.


    She had already sent a letter to the temple as well.


    At that time, she wrote in the letter that she would contact them again in the near future.


    She had hoped to get their help on her way to the Holy Land after she had taken the opportunity to flee.


    But now her ns had gone awry and she couldn''t continue any further.


    "Look,Your Grace. Spring is reallying to an end already."


    At that moment, Melissa, who was standing by the window, looked back at Julia with an excited expression.


    Melissa pointed through the window. Julia got up from her seat and walked up to her.


    The greener forest appeared in her field of vision.


    Where the splendor of spring had passed, the signs of summer were gradually approaching.


    "The seasons have already changed three times, haven''t they?"


    Julia murmured absentmindedly. She didn''t think that time had passed so quickly.


    The first time she came here was in winter, then spring passed, and now summer is here. Julia tried to guess how long she would be able to stay here, a definite answer still eluded her.


    ****


    So while facing the end of spring, there was much happening in the Empire. First, there was a conflict with the Geranian Kingdom, with whom they had an alliance agreement.


    This was due to the fact that the distribution of responsibility between the two countries was not smooth in dealing with the demons who periodically invaded the frontier.


    The confrontation between the two countries was antagonistic due to the fact that armed force was once used in that process. The other reason was that there was a debate about national marriage in order to overhaul the agreement for the reasons mentioned above.


    National marriage was usually done on the basis of each country''s royal family or founding merit. Fernan was also at the center of the discussion. He was also superficially unmarried because the Grand Duchess was absent.


    Your Highness, can you bring Grand Duchess to the castle now?


    Lloyd cautiously asked Fernan, who was reading the letter. Lloyd was likewise in favor of the national marriage, but as of now there was no chance that Fernan would ept it at all.


    He was the one who acted like a lunatic and finally brought Julia here, saying he was looking for his wife who had run away from him.


    And before they knew it, three months had passed since Julia had stayed here.


    So now it was best to inform people of Julia''s return and show them that the Grand Duchess was alive and well.


    "Only the presence of Grand Duchess would give you a good reason to refuse the national marriage.


    In fact, this national marriage was not a very bad option for Fernan.


    The Grand Duchy was the northern territory of the Empire. And the Kingdom of Geranian, which bordered the western part of the Empire.


    If he allied with Geranian kingdom, he could easily check on the capital, the heart of the Empire. The emperor would no longer be able to do anything about Fernan.


    Therefore, Fernans aides were actively in favor of this national marriage. As a result, his desk is now full of letters from them.


    Fernan was in the middle of reading each letter in turn when he put it down. He didn''t need to read more because they all contained the same information.


    Lloyd opened his mouth again.


    "It''s been a long time I''m sure Grand Duchess will ept Your Highness now.


    Fernan made a subtle expression at the words.


    Julia certainly didnt reject him like the first time. She still didn''t smile at him as usual, but it was still different from when she was just gloomy.


    But Fernan didn''t think Julia epted him that much. There was still a distance between them.


    There was no way that solid gap could be crossed no matter how close he got to her. She would feel forced to do her duty and try to run away again.


    I can refuse the national marriage. I dont need a reason to do so.


    Fernan wasn''t going to bring Julia into his political life just because he needed a reason for his refusal. Right now, he was just content to have her in his sight.

 Chapter 66

    Chapter 66


    Lloyd, who was paying close attention to Fernan''s calm expression, continued with a sigh.


    Yes, even if you say you will refuse national marriage. Do you intend to keep the position of Grand Duchess empty? You must also consider the sessor issue, Your Highness.


    Of course, Fernan was still young and strong. However, considering his status as a Grand Duke, it was not the time to becent. Fernan loosened the cor of his shirt without answering.


    Heir. He hadn''t even thought about it.


    When an unavoidable situation came, it was not bad to bring one of the two from the outlying side. In the first ce, he didn''t put much importance on session. Lloyd, who was rather impatient as he looked at the peaceful Fernan, spoke again.


    "At least let the capital know the Grand Duchess is alive"


    "Stop."


    At Lloyd''s endlessly lengthening words, as always, a cold order was issued.


    At that moment, Lloyd shut his mouth, but the sadness he couldn''t swallow was reflected on his face.


    <i>Is this how it is ..Is he really thinking about just hanging around by Grand Duchess side without any promises?</i>


    It wouldnt be a surprise considering the attitude he''s shown so far


    Lloyd let out a long, silent sigh with a face half worried and half resigned.


    ***


    At the same time, the Emperors anger shook the Imperial Pce.


    So, you still havent found the Grand Dukes residence?


    Im sorry, Your Majesty. Hes such a thorough person


    The Emperor clicked his tongue at the knight, who couldnt find where Fernan was living for months.


    Unusually, the emperor, who took off his benevolent face, had a face full of anxiety. He had to nt a spy to check Fernan''s castle, because he couldn''t figure out where Fernan was staying.


    Currently, the Empire was in a state of exchange with the Geranian Kingdom about national marriage.


    And the national marriage opponent they wanted the most was Fernan.


    From the Emperor''s point of view, there was nothing more embarrassing than Fernans joining hands with them.


    Still, Fernans prestige was going to break through the sky, but it was self-evident that if he made a connection with another country, a huge blow woulde to the imperial forces.


    Find him. Is the Grand Duke not in contact with Geranian kingdom, or are there any other clues from his army? You must go through every detail.


    Yes, Your Majesty."


    The knightmander bowed politely and then turned around.


    The emperor with his fiery anger ordered the servant to bring water.


    Since Fernan visited the Imperial Pce a few months ago, the Emperor has been feeling more anxious than before.


    No, to be precise, the first period when the emperor''s unrest started was after Fernan came back alive from the war.


    If he (emperor) had known that Fernan woulde back and develop his own power from the war which he (emperor) sent him to die, he (emperor) would have dried up the seeds before that.


    Tsk!


    While the emperor wrinkled his brows in annoyance, the servant knocked on the office door.


    Your Majesty, Marquis Elody asks for an audience.


    The Emperor looked at the door, narrowing his eyes. Marquis Elody. It was a name he hadnt heard in a long time.


    It was because it had been half a year since he threw the Marquis away.


    He was displeased with the rudeness that came even when he had not been summoned, but the emperor beckoned to let him in first.


    "Your Majesty! How have you been?"


    When the door opened, the Marquis jumped in and greeted him with courtesy.


    The emperor, who frowned slightly, soon made a gentle voice.


    Yes, Marquis Elody. Long time no see. How did youe here withoutmunication?


    Haha, as a loyal subject of Your Majesty, isnt it natural for me to visit you often?


    The Marquis had a very casual attitude for a subject that had been abandoned and neglected. The emperor nodded, wondering if his attitude wasn''t too bad.


    The Marquis nced at the Emperor''splexion and hurriedly spoke his words.


    Actually, I heard that Your Majesty is monitoring the movements of the Grand Duke these days.


    The Marquis, who had been drunk for a while due to the shock of being abandoned by the emperor, only recently came to his senses and began to look for new opportunities.


    Since he was an expert in collecting information, the emperor''s actions were also quickly noticed.


    "Your Majesty, please entrust me with this task. The Grand Duke was once my son-inw. I had already been in and out of his house many times, so I''m used to it now."


    Are you talking about yourself?


    The emperor looked at the marquis as if he was not at all certain. Now, to talk about his son-inw, it was because more than a year had passed since the Grand Duchess disappeared.


    From the emperor''s point of view, the Marquis Elody was a handicapped hand.


    Even skilled knights struggle to find the Grand Dukes whereabouts, so what can the marquis do?


    Yes, this time I will serve Your Majestys deepest wishes.


    The Marquis quickly spoke to the emperor''s disapproving look on his face.


    I will find out everything about the Grand Duke and give you a n to bring him down.


    In the eyes of the Marquis, greed, which had been hidden for a while, was boiling again.


    After Julia disappeared, everything went awry, but he couldn''t just lose everything like this.


    So, the Marquis was determined not to shy away from rolling the mud and doing all sorts of dirty things. He has been such a human ever since.


    The emperor looked carefully at the marquis, then touched his chin.


    Well, if it was a discarded cardthere was no reason to refuse.


    Certainly, the Marquis will not hesitate to do anything to return to his position.


    After a short deliberation, the Emperor granted his permission.


    Yes, Ill leave it up to you.


    For now, the more power he (emperor) had to destroy Fernan, the better.


    ***


    From the time spring ended and summer began to approach, Fernan helped Julia to freely enter and exit Richel''s estate.


    Richel was his estate anyway, and it was a decision made under the judgment that there would be no danger if only escorting the way to and from it.


    So Julia stayed in Richel for three days.


    The children, who grew up day by day, overflowed with energy even after ying all day.


    So on thest day in the carriage returning to the vi, Julia fell asleep right away as soon as she put her head on the window.


    How much time had passed in that state? It was around the time when Julia woke up while being held in someone''s arms up the stairs.


    Julia, who had her head buried in his broad shoulders, raised her gaze slightly. A sharp jawline that appeared above the thick neckline. Familiar and elegant features.


    Fernan, who was looking straight ahead, was silently climbing the stairs. Julia was quietly hugging him without fussing.


    Perhaps it was because she got used to holding him whenever she learned how to horseback riding, his arms were familiar to her.


    Soon they arrived in the bedroom. The door opened and he gentlyid her down on her bed. In the meantime, Julia closed her eyes again and buried her face in the soft bedding.


    She was so tired that she thought she would go back to sleep soon.


    Fernan''s shadow, which had fallen on the bed, did not disappear for a long time after that.


    With only oneyer of mental cord remaining, Julia slowly opened her eyes.


    And she met those soft golden eyes that looked down at her.


    She still wasn''t used to those eyes. A warm and calm gaze, as if looking at something precious.


    So at this moment, Julia suddenly asked him.


    Your Highness."


    Fernan blinked slowly as if waiting.


    Julia looked at him like that for a moment, Fernans cold face suddenly ovepped.


    A long time agoWhy did you hate me?


    A soft voice caused a stir in his calm face in an instant.


    Then, staring at him hazyly, she continued.


    Why were you so harsh on me ?


    Fernan''s hand trembled. He remained silent for such a long time, his eyelids half lowered and he fell into a brief thought.


    The cold treatment and contempt for Julia, of course, remained as regrets for him.


    But as he heard it from her lips, a feeling more than regret came to him.


    Fernan clenched his hands and slowly raised his eyes.


    I did it because I was stupid.


    He took his anger out on her, who did not know anything.


    Because she was the daughter of the Marquis, because the emperor was behind her.


    With that thought, he misunderstood her and treated her coldly.


    But even in the midst of a time when he acted so meanly, he implicitly knew that in fact Julias eyes were sincere towards him.


    When her clear and transparent eyes touched him, his heart unexpectedly shook.


    So he had to push further. However, no matter how much he pushed and pushed, Julia continued to squeeze closer to him.


    It was the first time he had ever felt swayed by someone helplessly.


    He couldn''t admit that he was being shaken by everything about her.


    So he kept hurting Julia, and eventually made her run away because she couldn''t stand it any longer.


    I know I hurt you, and you wont forgive me.


    Seeing him muttering in a hoarse voice, Julia slowly lowered her eyelids. At this moment, for the first time, she had that thought. Maybe he had other reasons.


    Julia didn''t know much about Fernan during that time either.


    His childhood, his family, his life Nothing.


    So, maybe, he had some circumstances that she didn''t know about.


    "Of course.."


    Julia opened her mouth, but at the same time, her stamina waspletely exhausted and she fell asleep.


    Standing alone in the quiet bedroom, Fernan bent one knee to meet her eye level. Unlike Julia, who was sleeping peacefully, deep thoughts lingered on his face for a long time.

 Chapter 67

    Chapter 67


    Shortly thereafter, the summer sun came up.


    The smell of fresh grass lingered in the green vi.


    Your Grace, this is Lockman. May Ie in?"


    In the morning, the attending physician, Lockman, came for a routine check-up.


    When Julia nodded her head as a sign of permission, Melissa rushed to open the door.


    "Good morning. Did you have a good night?"


    Lockman''s face as he said hello was warm, as always.


    Julia nodded and held out her hand in a familiar way. Soon, Lockman began to check her pulse.


    Julia stared at Lockman who was concentrating.


    Lockman had been her doctor since she was at the Grand Dukes castle.


    Perhaps even before she married Fernan, Lockman had been with him.


    Your pulse is normal. The temperature is also appropriate. Your physical strength seems to have improved more than before.


    Lockman closed his wrinkled eyes and smiled. After a moment''s hesitation, Julia quietly opened her mouth.


    Lockman, since when did you work as His Highness doctor?


    Lockman''s eyes widened slightly at an unexpected question. It was because Julia had never asked him anything.


    It has been over twenty years. Ive been serving His Highness since he was staying in the Imperial Pce.


    "I see


    Lockman continued, noticing that Julia had something to ask.


    Do you have any questions about His Highness?


    Julia, who was hesitating, meekly nodded.


    In fact, she wanted to know about Fernans past some time ago.


    Because she wondered if there was another reason he hated her, unknown to her.


    I want to know what kind of life he has lived.


    All she knew was that Fernan was the emperor''s nephew.


    Even at a young age, he was an excellent knight who managed the battlefield and made a big contribution.


    Lockman was silent for a moment, as if contemting how far he could talk.


    Its hard to say that I know everything, but His Highness.He has lived a lonely life.


    The young Fernan, whom Lockman first saw twenty years ago, was a child who could not cry even if he was hurt and sick.


    He still vividly remembered what Fernan said before going to war.


    <b><i>Is there anyone who will be happy if Ie back alive?</i></b>


    He was not pessimistic or sad, he just had a calm face. Lockman continued quietly, erasing the shbacks.


    Hes not just as impable and strong as the world sees him.


    He didnt even have everything in the first ce.


    That was all Lockman could say.


    When he stopped speaking, Julia looked at him with a puzzled expression.


    A lonely person, notpletely impable, nor just strong.


    He doesn''t have everything


    All in all, it was the exact opposite of what Julia thought.


    Up until now, Julia had thought that Fernan was a man with nothing to fear. He was so noble, it made her look so humble he was such a man.


    Lockman slowly rose from his seat, staring at her in contemtion for a moment.


    Then, Your Grace. I''ll leave now. If you have any problems with your body, please call me anytime."


    "Oh Yes, thank you."


    After Lockman politely greeted her, he left the bedroom.


    Julia, who was left alone, was immersed in thought for a long time.


    ***


    The moonlight permeated through the cracks in the window.


    Early that morning, Julia felt pain and got up.


    Obviously, Lockman said her condition had improved the previous morning. In fact, her body was fine for a while.


    Howevershe felt strange now. Julia gently touched her forehead with a cold sweat.


    The sensation of something boiling in her chest began again.


    After taking a deep breath for a while, Julia got out of bed. She felt stuffy and wanted to get some cold air, even for a moment.


    Aftering out of the bedroom, she walked along the hallway.


    When she passed through the middle door leading to the annex, a small terrace appeared.


    As she entered the arched entrance without a separate door, she saw an open backyard.


    Julia sat on the bench there and cooled her body for a while.


    As she slowly closed her eyes, she could hear someone talking below her.


    The emperor is strange these days.


    Julia''s eyes opened slightly at the sound of small voices.


    It looks like he sent another person to the border. Not long ago, the defense knights caught those who looked like the emperor''s henchmen


    Since the terrace was quite high, their voices could be heard sporadically. But it wasn''t to the point where she couldn''t understand.


    Julia fully opened her eyes. The people who were talking seemed to be Fernan''s lieutenants.


    Perhaps they did not feel her presence, the sound of their conversation continued.


    Besides, it seems that Marquis Elody is again serving as the Emperors confidant.


    At the words of her father that came out of their mouths, Julia''s eyes widened.


    Not long ago, he sent someone to the castle to find out His Highness whereabouts.


    It''s not surprising. Just because the Grand Duchess is gone, doesnt mean the Marquis will stay quiet.


    Emperor. Marquis Elody. Julia didn''t know the circumstances before and after, but she could tell that the nuance of the words was negative.


    In an instant, her hazy mind was awakened. Julia listened a little more carefully to their conversation.


    Its obvious. The Emperor must have sent surveince to prevent the national marriage of His Highness.


    They chatted for a while longer and then entered the doorway.


    Until the sound of their conversationpletely disappeared, Julia sat still, not even breathing.


    <i> National marriage.</i>


    Julia looked back on the conversations the lieutenants had.


    She didn''t know exactly what was going on, but she could predict to some extent.


    A national marriage came to Fernan, and to prevent it It was said that the emperor sent the Marquis to spy on Fernan.


    Julia''s face hardened as she nkly looked down.


    In fact, it was not surprising that Fernan was offered a national marriage.


    It was known throughout the empire that the Grand Duchess was missing, so it was only natural for Fernan to wee a new wife


    Julia bit her lips involuntarily, and then she fell into deep thoughts again.


    Even if so, why is the emperor trying to stop Fernans national marriage?


    Julia realized once again that there was a story about Fernan that she didnt know.


    ording to his lieutenants, the emperor seemed hostile to Fernan. Why? Hes the Emperor''s only nephew


    Julia, who was worried with a serious face, narrowed her eyebrows.


    "Ah."


    It was because her heart began to beat violently.


    Julia, who curled up and endured the pain, held onto the armrest of the bench tightly. The body, which was hot with heat, soon cooled down.


    Her body began to tremble, and after a while, Julia, who barely managed to straighten her body, stood up calmly. Her mind was chaotic as many thoughts were pouring out at once.


    Your Grace, what are you thinking?


    Julia did nothing, she was just looking down at the table for hours.


    Melissa, who didnt know anything, asked carefully, but Julia didn''t hear anything.


    Now, various thoughts were tangled in her head.


    She thought and pondered for a long time, but there was a limit to what she could infer.


    But at least one thing was certain.


    The rtionship between the Emperor and Fernan was not good. Even the fact that her father was caught in the middle.


    If she thought about it It was something she could easily notice.


    The Marquis used to force her to have Fernans child, to the point of obsessiveness. Only then could this marriage be strong.


    And Fernan was tantly wary of her from the beginning.


    <i> It was because of my family.</i>


    After all, the reason he didn''t want her to be his wife in the first ce was probably because he was literally in an unwanted marriage.


    In the past, she was in such a hurry to control his heart that she had never thought deeply about his circumstances.


    In fact, the answer was so easy toe by.


    Julia''s hand on the table stiffened. The sudden sense of reality was rushing through her head.


    Just because she knew the reason didn''t mean she could understand Fernan''s harsh behavior towards her.


    However She knew that because of her disappearance, her father was even more hostile to Fernan.


    And at this moment, she had no choice but to question it. Still, why was Fernan looking for her? Why did he want her to stay with him now?


    Was it because he felt sorry and regretted it?


    <i>Even so</i>


    Anyway, she couldn''t return to the Grand Dukes castle anymore.


    Fernan didn''t even tell her to return to the position of Grand Duchess.


    Alright, so.


    Without realizing it, Julia clenched her hands tightly, then slowly released it.


    So, in this situation, she was determined what she could do.


    Leaving here as originally nned. That was the only answer to this situation.

 Chapter 68

    Chapter 68


    The emperor''s actions were in Fernan''s hands from the beginning.


    Your Highness, we have captured all the spies.


    A border zone knight from the northern part of the Grand Duchy came and reported.


    Fernan, who was scanning the border defense, put down the documents.


    Then, he grabbed his sword across the bookshelf and left the barracks.


    The outskirts of the wilderness where the sunset light sets. Behind the barracks where the garrison was located, a dozen knights were kneeling bound.


    They were all knights under the Emperor.


    As Fernan passed, he casually ordered while looking at the faces of the knights.


    Kill them all.


    They were all just dwarfs. If held on to them, they wouldnt be of any use.


    "Ah!"


    Those who were cut by the sharp de fell one by one with a flurry.


    Eventually, the sword was raised towards the trembling knight at the very end.


    At that moment, Fernan raised his hand and stopped the execution.


    Gasp.


    The surviving knight gasped and looked up at him.


    Fernan leaned towards the knight who was shaking like an aspen and met his eyes.


    Go and tell your master. I''m going to refuse the national marriage, so he doesnt have to mess around anymore."


    It was necessary to keep at least one alive as a warning to the emperor.


    The knight relentlessly nodded his head at the cold words.


    When Fernan, who straightened up, nodded, his knights began to clean up the blood-stained ground.


    A lot of time was dyed.


    It waste at night when Fernan returned to the vi afterpleting all border affairs.


    As usual, he was going in the direction of Julia''s bedroom, but he stopped.


    It was because he remembered that he was wearing clothes that smelled of blood.


    Fernan then turned and headed to his bedroom, taking off his clothes one by one.


    Suddenly, the jacket fell to the floor and someone knocked on the door as he began to unbutton his shirt.


    "Come in."


    Even with permission, the door did not open immediately.


    Meanwhile, Fernan, who took off his shirtpletely after undoing the cuff buttons, opened the window.


    Then the door opened. The sound of footsteps entering the room was somewhat cautious.


    Realizing that it wasn''t his lieutenant, Fernan slowly turned his head.


    A slender figure entered his gaze.


    Julia?


    "Ah.


    Surprised to see Fernans naked body, Julia quickly lowered her head.


    Fernan strode towards her, who had stopped.


    Why arent you sleeping at this hour, what happened?


    At this time, she was always asleep. He was thinking of going to watch her for a while after changing his clothes and washing his body clean.


    Julia answered quietly while still keeping her gaze on the ground.


    I have something to tell you I was waiting for you toe back.


    She lowered her head, so her face was hard to see. Fernan opened his mouth slowly, keeping his gaze on her forehead.


    Ill wash up soon, so sit back and rx.


    He was concerned that the smell of fishy blood would offend Julia.


    After confirming that Julia nodded calmly, Fernan headed to the bathroom.


    Then, raising her eyes, Julia looked at the back of the overbearing man who entered the bathroom.


    There was a long wound that ran across the back, which was covered with muscles, under the wide-open shoulders.


    When she entered the room a little while ago, traces of cruelty were engraved all over his body in the moonlight.


    She had no idea that he had so many scars on him. It was the first time she had seen his body.


    When did those wounds ur? Was it during war?


    For some reason, her heart started to pound. The image of him, whom she had only considered perfect and strong, gradually shifted from within her.


    Julia stood far away, unable to sit down, and looked down at the floor.


    After some time passed, Fernan reappeared.


    Julia.


    A low voice descended. At that moment, Julia raised her head and looked at his body covered by a thin shirt.


    Looking at her still standing, Fernan came closer and lightly held her hand.


    Julia, who was gently led by him, sat down at a table, and he sat down opposite her.


    Fernan stared intently at her face with a calm gaze as if waiting for her to open her mouth.


    Hiding theplicated emotions floating in her head, Julia opened her lips.


    Your Highness, do you still want me to be with you?


    She wanted to ask Fernan onest time. Was he willing to let her go?


    At this moment, Julia hoped that he would say no.


    Then, they would be able to go their separate waysfortably.


    But tearing her wish, Fernan answered without hesitation.


    "Yes."


    Its okay to do nothing. Just, stay by my side.


    Julia held her hand tightly ced on herp. Now hearing his answer, she couldn''t figure out what he was feeling.


    It was troublesome and heavy. Julia took a small deep breath and then she looked straight at him.


    What if I said I wanted to leave?


    Her blue eyes shone brightly. Fernan did not avert her gaze, and softly touched his lips.


    I will send you anywhere.


    After a moment''s hesitation, he said,


    If you want to leave just because you dont like being by my side, I cant listen to it.


    Julia lowered her eyelids with a distant expression for a moment.


    As expected, he didn''t seem willing to let her go.


    She slightly moistened her dry lips and changed the subject in a brief moment.


    Then send me somewhere else. I feel stuffy here.


    That seemed good. It may be a challenge wherever she went, but at least if it wasn''t this ce, it would be easier to leave.


    The reason why Julia wanted to leave Fernan was very different from the beginning.


    When she first came here, she thought he dragged her by force, so she tried to run away.


    After that, when she found out that there was a misunderstanding in her opinion, the truth was a little shaken.


    He was different from before, and he treated her so well that it was unfamiliar to her.


    But now, the shaking haspletely disappeared.


    When she saw the deep scar across his back a while ago, Julia felt the weight of the war he had gone through for the first time. Such a distinct pain was engraved on the back of this man who had led the many years of war to great victories.


    And maybe the painful wounds were only part of what he had been through. Now, Julia was able to fully understand beyond understanding. The reason why he treated her harshly in the past.


    He could never have seen her as good among those who had tortured and oppressed him. He must have felt repulsed and pushed out.


    Perhaps it was still the case today.


    She wasn''t sure that if she stayed by his side like this, such a situation would not be repeated again.


    As long as the Marquis was still holding out, her existence would still be a factor that suppressed Fernan. So, breaking up like this was best for both of them.


    After thinking about it, Julia asked him again.


    Will you listen?


    Fernan''s eyes gleamed as if examining her sincerity, and then calmly returned.


    Where do you want to go?


    Julia lowered her eyelids and pondered for a moment. Then she soon recalled that one of his estates was a coastal city.


    It was a long way from this Grand Duchy. There were plenty of ports there, so it might be easier to go somewhere else.


    .the sea.


    "Sea?"


    Yes, I want to go to a ce with a view of the ocean.


    In response to her answer, Fernan, who nodded, spoke without a single thought.


    There is an estate in the west called Seyref. Ill set up a mansion where you can see the sea."


    It was a gentle permission. Julia tried hard to maintain a calm face and expressed her gratitude.


    "Thank you."


    There was nothing more to say, so Julia, who was about to get up, suddenly stopped.


    And as she pondered for a moment, she lowered her gaze, and then opened her mouth again.


    If I go there Would you like to go see the ocean together?"


    It was meant to reassure him, but it wasn''t just a lie.


    She really wanted to walk on the beach with him before she left. Perhaps it would be thest time with him.


    At her quiet request, Fernan''s eyes engraved with moonlight flickered slightly.


    He looked at Julia''s face as if he was carving it into his eyes, and replied one stepter.


    "Yes, as much as you want.


    At that moment, Julia got up from her seat. In the meantime, the night deepened and the room got a little darker.


    Fernan also got up and apanied her on the short way back to her bedroom.


    The sound of footsteps echoing through the quiet hallway continued slowly.

 Chapter 69

    Chapter 69


    It took several days to prepare for the move.


    Meanwhile, Julia headed for Richel.


    In the midst of early summer, Richel estate was full of green energy.


    When the carriage stopped, the children rushed out to the front yard to wait for Julia toe down.


    "Julia!"


    Soon after she got off, five or six children clung together and hugged her.


    Smiling brightly, Julia took her children''s hands and entered her gate.


    "Wee, Julia."


    Gabrielle greeted her with a warm smile as always.


    Seeing that, Julia quickly feltfortable as usual.


    Gabrielle, I think I''ll be leaving a little farther away soon."


    When only the two of them were left in the parlor, Julia opened her mouth.


    "How far away is it?"


    "It''s a long way from here, so I don''t think I''ll stop by here anymore."


    The territory of Seyref, where Julia decided to stay, was located on the opposite side of the Grand Duchy.


    Gabrielle opened her eyes wide in surprise, soon asked calmly.


    Did you decide to stay with him?


    no."


    As Julia lifted her mouth with a sullen expression, Gabrielle looked at her anxiously.


    After you go there, you n to go to another ce again.


    Anywhere else .


    Its a foreign country. I''m going to a ce that''s very, very far from the Empire, where he can''t find me no matter how much he searches.


    This time, she will have to live alone without anyone''s help.


    It was a time when she had to stand alone without people who epted and cared for her unconditionally like when she was living in the Holy Land.


    Gabrielle asked with a worried face.


    Julia, when the Holy Land is stable, cant we just go back to the old days? Can you hang in there, then leave with me and the kids, huh?


    no. If I go to the Holy Land, I will be captured by that person again.


    Fernan already knew she was in Holy Land, so now she couldnt go there again.


    Julia, then Why don''t you go with Cedric? He will definitely go with you.


    At Gabrielles suggestion, Julia lowered her gaze as if contemting, and answered.


    "No. Cedric will have to continue his priesthood I cant cause him any more trouble.


    Then Gabrielle immediately shook her head. Cedric was still waiting eagerly for a call from Julia.


    How much he cared and wished for Julia, Gabrielle was actually aware of.


    If you dont like it, I cant help it, but hell be happy to follow you.


    So think about it. It''s because I''m so worried that you''re leaving alone."


    Julia nodded slightly.


    "Yes I will."


    She had to meet Cedric once before leaving. At the very least, she should exchange letters. If he offered to help, Julia had no reason to refuse.


    To escape from Fernan, her strength alone was not enough.


    If Cedric could use his powers to hide her presence or help her change her appearance for a moment, she couldnt be more grateful.


    Gabrielle.I really wanted to tell you this.


    Then, with a faint smile on her face, Julia spoke.


    Thank you for caring for me like a daughter and treating me with kindness. Gabrielle youre like a mother to me.


    Her one year at the small monastery in the Holy Land was the happiest time of Julia''s 20 years of life.


    At the center of it all was Gabrielle. Even though they were not blood rted, she was always a person who gave her infinite affection without a price.


    Julia hoped that her rtionship with Gabrielle would not end like this. She would be able to see her again when she left safely and settled somewhere.


    Gabrielle held Julia''s hand with a warm smile as always.


    Julia, you will always be my daughter.


    I want to see you again after you leave. Then we can spend more time together.


    Julia held Gabrielles wrinkled hand.


    She tried to keep a smile on her face, but somehow she felt like she was about to cry.


    ***


    It was herst day at Richel when she got in touch with Cedric.


    When Gabrielle sent a letter to the temple, she received a reply within just one day.


    [Im leaving for Seyref. There is a port there, so it will be easy to escape, as Julia said. Come with me.]


    As Gabrielle said, Cedric did not refuse to follow her..


    Even when she fled the Grand Dukes castle a long time ago, even in the Holy Land, Cedric was always happy to be with her.


    She decided to contact Cedric again as soon as a departure date was set.


    So Julia returned to the vi again.


    Your Grace, are you here?


    Melissa approached and spoke to her. Julia lightly nodded her head.


    The current vi was busy with workers carrying luggage.


    His Highness has been away for a while. He said when he returned, he was going to leave for Seyref in three days.


    Yes, thank you.


    Three dayster, the schedule was faster than expected. Julia went straight to the bedroom and prepared her stationery and her quill.


    She was ready to deliver the news to Cedric.


    Your Grace, do you have anything to bring with you?


    Julia, who was trying to answer Melissa''s question while writing her letter, paused for a moment.


    All of a sudden, a feeling of something hot inside rose up.


    Ha.


    Julia, who covered her mouth, then lowered her head. At the same time, red blood flowed out of her hand.


    Your Grace!


    Melissa was startled and ran to her, missing the vase she was holding.


    The sound of the vase breaking on the floor echoed through the bedroom.


    Your Grace..Oh no, I need to call the doctor right away


    Melissa, who was worried and flustered, took out her handkerchief first.


    Meanwhile, the blood dripped down to the hem of Julia''s dress.


    Julia hurriedly grabbed Melissa''s hand as she was about to leave the bedroom.


    No, dont call. .


    Julia, who was barely able to open her mouth, shook her head. Melissa''s eyes trembled as she looked at her red lips.


    What are you talking about! You need treatment right now


    Its okay, dont call anyone. Please."


    A painful pressure felt as if someone was strangling her throat, but Julia continued to stutter her words.


    Melissa, listen to me. Im really fine.


    Melissa couldn''t even blink her eyes, as if she didn''t understand, but soon approached Julia.


    Your Grace, why are you like this? You vomited blood like that, why


    Julia looked at Melissa, who was about to cry, slowly lowered her trembling hand.


    She lightly pressed her lips to the back of her hand, struggling to smile.


    Its incurable. Thisits not just a sickness.


    Isn''t it just a heart disease? What the hell is this


    As she felt her heart beating like crazy, Julia took a deep breath in.


    At this point, she felt a vibration that resonated throughout her body to the extent that her heart was about to burst.


    I cant exin it exactly, but its a symptom that neither a doctor nor a priest can cure.


    What .


    Melissa, dont tell anyone what you saw today. EspeciallyHis Highness.


    She barely lifted her eyelids. She had to leave soon, and she didn''t want to get caught up in her condition.


    Melissa barely blinked her eyes with her dazed face and then bit her lips.


    If you tell him, I''m sure hell find a way to cure Your Grace.


    Julia grabbed Melissa again and muttered in a more determined voice.


    "I won''t stay with His Highness for long, Melissa, you know that. So listen to me. Please."


    Melissa noticed that Julia was strangely calm. It seemed like it wasn''t the first time this kind of bleeding was happening.


    Eventually Melissa turned her bodypletely towards her, sniffling her nose and bowing her head. After confirming that Melissa had understood what she was saying, Julia took her handkerchief and slowly wiped her lips, soaked in blood.


    Melissa, who btedly pulled out her spare handkerchief and wiped both her hands and the hem of Julias dress, a crying voice came out at the same time.


    Are you really, really going to leave? When? You said you were going to Seyref, so you could run away from there


    "Yes."


    Julia, who answered meekly, touched Melissa''s hand.


    Stopping, Melissa looked at her with a sniffle. Julia smiled faintly as if to reassure her.


    It was as if she was saying thank you.


    Seeing that, Melissa bowed her head deeply with her eyes full of tears.


    Thanks to Melissa''s silence, the disturbance that urred once was organized like that.


    That evening, Fernan, who had been away, returned and three smooth days passed after that.


    The morning scheduled to leave for Seyref, Julia chose the dress that Fernan had bought for her the other day.


    It was a white frill dress with sapphire in the middle of the neckline.


    When she came out after dressing up, the bright sunlight of summer melted her body.


    Fernan, who was instructing a lieutenant in the front yard, felt a presence and looked back.


    "Your Highness."


    In a quiet call, Fernan came straight to her.


    His eyes touched Julia''s face and looked delicately at her tied hair and dress.


    Finally, looking into her eyes again, he opened his mouth quietly.


    "We''re going to leave soon.


    Julia, who nodded, made eye contact with him.


    She was still feeling throbbing all over, but she smiled quietly as if nothing had happened.


    Thinking that there was not much time left to spend with him, she feltfortable and ufortable.


    She wanted to treat him well for the rest of the time she had left.


    She didn''t want to run away because she didn''t like him like she used to.


    After she left, she hoped that he would live a better life than before.


    May he meet a new person and no longer suffer from someone hostile to him.


    <i>Like that, both of us. May you live a life that is no longer difficult.</i>


    For the first time, Julia looked at him with a sweet smile on her face, Fernans eyes also contained a soft light.


    Reaching out, Fernan wrapped her soft hand in his. The hand was strong and gentle just the same.

 Chapter 70

    Chapter 70


    The refreshing coastal city in summer boasted cool scenery just by looking at it.


    The mansion that Fernan had prepared was located on a high ground that could be seen beyond the sea to the horizon. In the distance, several ships were seen going to and from the port.


    Seyref, which took five days to arrive, was a beautifulnd.


    The interior is decorated arbitrarily.


    Passing through the colorful entrance door, Fernan spoke.


    With those words, Julia looked around the interior decorated in bright colors.


    Decorated statues everywhere andrge picture frames hanging in the hallway. Even the elegant tapestry of the dark series was made with attention to detail.


    If you dont like it, we can redecorate it.


    Julia shook her head and answered.


    "I like everything.


    She felt like her heart would be cleared up if she stayed in such an open ce.But she shouldn''t be too affectionate.


    Julia quickly climbed the stairs and looked at therge window hanging on thending wall.


    It felt as if the vast sea spread out through the window opened up to the depths of the blockage.


    Shall we go to the beach together in the evening?


    Fernan, who came closer to her, asked.


    Id like that.


    Fernan nodded as if he was satisfied with the gentle answer. Julia stared at him for a moment.


    His handsome face, which was no different from his usual, was not stained with tiredness, even though she had never seen him sleeping during the entire ride in the wagon.


    Your Highness, arent you tired?


    In response to the quiet question, Fernan looked at her clear eyes softly as if it contained the blue sea.


    Unexpectedly, at this moment, he thought that Julia and this coastal city go together very well.


    When there was no answer from him, Julia gently grabbed his hand.


    Go to the bedroom.


    Julia, who smiled slightly, led him up the stairs one step at a time.


    Fernan, who had taken his steps suddenly, was gently led by her.


    As they entered the long hallway on the third floor, the waiting attendant led them to the assigned bedroom.


    Julia, who opened his bedroom instead, released her hand.


    Ille and call you in the evening. Please rest well."


    Seeing how friendly Julia was today, Fernan''s eyes became subtle. As if conflicting whether to rejoice or have doubts.


    While he hesitated, Julia nodded her head as if she was telling him to go in.


    Seeing the small smile on the corner of her lips, Fernan eventually moved his feet.


    "See youter."


    okay."


    Only after Fernan, who answered softly, went inside, Julia turned away.


    Walking slowly in the wide hallway, Julia took a deep breath.


    Her bedroom was a little farther from Fernan''s bedroom. When therge door opened wide, a bedroom decorated with bright colors just like the lobby was revealed.


    Julia looked around the room for a moment. Each piece of furniture and decorations were ced with great care.


    She removed the silk canopy and sat down on the bed, her body quickly got tired.


    In fact, before she came here, she had already made an appointment with Cedric.


    The deadline was one weekter. She agreed to meet him at Lian, thergest port in Seyref.


    She didn''t know what would happen, so she didn''t set the exact time.


    <b><i>[I''ll wait forever, so don''t overdo it ande to me when you''re sure]</i></b>


    Cedric said he would stay at an inn near the port and wait for her.


    When she met him safely, she would take a ferry and leave the empire first. Cedric has said that her ticket and ID would be secured in advance.


    So, until then, she wanted to do whatever her heart wanted.


    Julia looked out the window. It was still a hot afternoon. She wanted to walk on the windy sea in the evening.


    It was around sunset when Julia, who had fallen asleep without realizing it, woke up.


    Not long after, her temporary assigned maid came to attend to her.


    What kind of evening dress would you like to wear?


    As she followed the maid into the dressing room, a space asrge as her bedroom was revealed.


    Julia looked at the clothes hanging on the hangers with a bewildered face. All of the summer clothes that had been mended to fit her body shape were brand new.


    <i>When did he prepare all these?</i>


    Having entrusted her body to the hands of her maid, Julia fell into a slightlyplicated mood. Because she didn''t know she would be so meticulously equipped.


    She wore a dress made of light material, and low-heeled shoes.


    After that, she left the bedroom to find Fernan as promised, and to her surprise, Fernan was standing in front of the door.


    Your Highness, when did youe?


    "A while ago.


    Fernan raised his lips slightly as he looked at her.


    He looked a little different than usual, not in his usual uniform, but in a matching white poet shirt.


    He was not the overwhelming and cold northern ruler, but a noble young master of a noble family.


    For the first time he looked like a young man his age.


    If he had been the heir of an ordinary aristocratic family, he would have looked like this.


    A handsome, calm, and somewhere cool but daring man.


    "Lets go. Lets eat first.


    At his calm voice, Julia erased her brief thoughts and nodded. She didnt know why, but her heart was pounding.


    Standing side by side, they slowly made their way through the hallway to the stairs.


    Eventually, when they arrived at the dining room, the smell of spices unique to the city hit the tip of her nose.


    Being a coastal city, the meal was mainly seafood.


    Then, have a good meal.


    The waitress, who was carrying the food to the table, politely bowed and turned around.


    So the meal time began with a gentle silence.


    It was the silver spoon that dropped to the floor with a clunking sound that broke the silence that had been going on for a while.


    Fernan raised his head and asked.


    Are you okay?


    As he looked to see if there were any other problems with Julia''s meal, an innocent voice came out.


    "Im okay. I just identally missed it.


    With a small smile, Julia lowered her trembling hand under the table. A cold sweat broke out on her back.


    The pain that seemed to twist her body started again.


    Meanwhile, the servant brought out new tableware. As if nothing had happened, Julia started eating again.


    Fernan, who had been watching her for a while longer, withdrew his attention as there seemed to be nothing wrong with her.


    As they left the dining room after finishing their meal, Julia spoke first.


    "Your Highness, let''s go see the sea tomorrow."


    Fernan looked down at her quietly. Herplexion was slightly paler than before.


    Before he could ask anything, Julia hurriedly added.


    I dont feel well, so I think I should go and rest.


    Is it very bad?


    Julia shook her head.


    Its not enough to worry about, Ill be fine with a little rest.


    There was a hint of concern in Fernan''s gaze, but she pretended not to know and spoke in a calm voice.


    Then, Ill go up first.


    Julia tried to climb the stairs slowly so as not to look urgent. She felt Fernans gaze was watching her, but she did not look back.


    She went straight to her bedroom, and as soon as she opened the door, she copsed on the bed.


    "ha


    Grasping her trembling hand tightly, she let out shallow breaths.


    For some time now, the cycle of pain has been increasing.


    Her hair was long and messy.


    Still, as long as she doesnt bleed in front of Fernan, it would be fine.


    Julia put her knees up and buried her head.


    She just hoped it wouldnt get any worse than this.


    ***


    The next day, Julia could not spend time with Fernan as nned.


    The maid came to wake her up several times, but Julia couldn''t get up.


    After sending the maid away using an excuse of tiredness, she continued to sleep.


    Hows Julia.


    Around the afternoon, Fernan, standing in front of her bedroom, asked the maid. The maid bowed her head and reported.


    Shes still sleeping. I tried to wake her up several times, but she seemed very tired.


    Fernan looked silently at the closed door, and then he turned the doorknob.


    As he opened the door, a small figure, lying on her back, buried in the bed, caught his eye.


    "Julia."


    He had visited her in the morning as well. Julia was sleeping then so he turned around. It was strange that she slept through the afternoon.


    Fernan walked closer to her bed and gently stroked her disheveled light hair.


    Julia, who had not moved, finally flinched her shoulders.


    Are you sick?


    As his quiet voice descended, Julia rustled and slowly rose up.


    The eyes looking back at him were wet. Her face was even more emaciated than yesterday.


    Fernan reached out and touched her forehead.


    You have a fever.


    it''s okay."


    Call the doctor.


    Ignoring her answer, Fernan ordered the maid.


    The maid bowed her head and walked out of the room, and Fernan lowered his hand from her forehead to her cheek.


    Her face was hot,pletely covered by hisrge hand.


    Why didnt you tell me you were sick?


    It doesnt hurt. It''s just that I''m tired from riding the carriage for too long yesterday."


    Her voice was shaky as it came out. Fernan looked at her with a piercing gaze, and then slowly removed his hand.


    Julia, even if its a small problem, see a doctor first from now on.


    "Okay."


    Julia''s eyes curved faintly as she answered softly. Still, Fernans face was stained with concern.

 Chapter 71

    Chapter 71


    Your Highness, this is Lockman. Iming in.


    Then, the attending physician, Lockman, entered the bedroom.


    Lockman, as always, measured Julia''s pulse first.


    After checking her pulse, he did some other tests, but her condition was not much different from before, except for her fever.


    Lockman prescribed medicine for fever and tea for energy recovery.


    There was a sleep-inducing ingredient in the tea, so Julia fell asleep quickly.


    Her Grace seems to have intermittent fever because the chronic heart disease has not been fully cured.


    When Lockman spoke in a low voice, Fernan, who had been watching Julia as she slept, answered in an anxious voice.


    It has already been several months since she took the manufactured medicine. But, why is it so difficult to recover?"


    It may be because her body is weak, or there may be other reasons There are no other causes identified as of now.


    Fernan, who was deep in thoughts, nodded, and Lockman politely bowed before leaving the bedroom.


    Fernan quietly looked at Julias face as if engraved into his eyes.


    As he lowered his gaze further, he saw the soft back of her handid neatly on the nket.


    In his gaze, Julia always looked infinitely small and delicate. She was so light that every time he held her, he wondered if she was okay.


    Should he feed her more? Or should he call a priest and perform a blessing ceremony?


    Fernan sat quietly in his chair with a serious expression. He looked at the sleeping Julia for a long time.


    It was only a few hourster that the sudden knocking sound was heard.


    Lloyd''s voice came from outside the door.


    Your Highness, are you inside? I have something urgent to report.


    Fernan nced at Julia, then slowly got up from his seat.


    While he opened the door and went outside, Julia''s eyes, which had been closed, were slowly opened.


    She had just woken up to the sound of the voice from outside her door a while ago.


    Her stomach was hot and throbbing. While Julia exhaled a long breath, the voice faintly leaked from the outside.


    I dont know if the location has been discovered. Marquis Elody, this time


    Her mind was nk and she didnt have energy to listen. Of course, she had no intention of eavesdropping.


    However, the words Marquis Elody were clearly lodged in her ears.


    Curiously, her ears turned to the outside of the door, but the only thing she could hear was a hum, and no more clear words could be heard.


    She let out a heavy sigh with weary eyes. Is her father making trouble for Fernan again?


    Obviously,st time too, she had heard that the Marquis was monitoring Fernan by the Emperor''s orders.


    Even when she thought she hadpletely abandoned her family name, her father''s name followed her like a shadow.


    Even though she no longer had any intention of returning to that house, when she heard the name, she had no choice but to pay attention.


    Julia closed her eyes tightly as if avoiding reality. Her head began to ring loudly.


    ***


    It was the morning two dayster when Julia woke up from her sickbed.


    After spending two days in the bedroom, her body was very sore, but not so much that she couldn''t move.


    Julia.


    When Julia just came out of the bedroom after changing, Fernan approached her as soon as she appeared.


    Isnt it better to rest more?


    "Im okay. The fever went down a lot.


    For the past two days, Fernan had been by her side, and every time she woke up in between, she remembered this man who was looking down at her with a steady posture.


    After taking a deep breath, Julia looked out the window.


    Your Highness, do you have time today?


    Her body suddenly deteriorated, and she couldn''t keep her promise to go to the sea with him.


    So, she thought it would be nice to spend time together today.


    It was a sunny day than usual. She felt like walking on the sand would open up the stuffiness.


    However, Fernan responded btedly with a somewhat troubled expression on his face.


    "I have to leave for a while today because I have urgent political affairs."


    "Oh"


    "Is there anything else you want to do?"


    Julia, who had a sad face without realizing it, shook her head.


    "No. Its okay to do it next time.


    It was okay because today was not the only day. She still had half a week until the meeting with Cedric.


    Wait for me, Ill be back soon.


    Fernan hastily answered. But even after saying that, he couldn''t easily take his steps.


    Julia looked up at him hesitantly and replied.


    "Go ahead. Don''t worry about me.


    Fernan, who seemed unwilling to leave her despite her goodbye, suddenly took one step closer to her.


    He held Julia''s hand, and then wrapped his other hand around her soft back and hugged her into his arms.


    Her cool, pleasant body scent tickled the tip of her nose. Julia suddenly froze for a moment as she buried her face in his shirt.


    It wasn''t the first time she''d been hugged by him, but it felt a bit strange to hold him face to face like this.


    Before long, she felt his hand brushing her hair away, a gentle touch she couldn''t even imagine before.


    Julia blinked, then impulsively raised her hands and hugged him back.


    Even though she spread her arms, she could not fully embrace him.


    As she hugged him as she clenched his shirt lightly, she felt hisrge body stiffen.


    Long ago, there was a time when she really longed for this hug.


    There were days when she wanted him to look at her just once and be kind to her.


    Julia slowly closed her eyes. But the days of longing for him were long gone.


    She had no intention of walking down the path of oppressing him and her at the same time again.


    Julia didn''t want to be swayed by her father anymore.


    She didn''t want to lose her freedom to be tied to the ranks of Grand Duchess or someone''s wife.


    And this man, too, didn''t want to be oppressed anymore because of her and her family.


    Julia quietly enjoyed the mysterious feeling of this moment. Maybe this moment will nevere back.


    ***


    Are you sure the Grand Duke is here?


    The sensitive voice of the Marquis Elody echoed through the inn room. The Marquis was secretly hiding on the outskirts of Seyref estate.


    The reason was, by far, to observe and monitor Fernan''s movements.


    Certainly, sir. Isnt it suspicious that the checkpoints were suddenly strengthened?


    The knight answered in a calm voice. It was as he said. Due to the sudden intensification of checkpoints, the Marquis was locked up in the inn without being able to pass through the territory.


    I''m sure hes hiding a woman there."


    At the next words of the knight, the Marquis narrowed his eyes and clicked his tongue in annoyance.


    The fact that he has a woman was doubtful. Rumors had already be established in the capital and had spread.


    For more than a year, the Grand Duke returned all the courtship letters that came to him. In addition, he even refused national marriage this time.


    Yes, there could be a woman. Otherwise, there was no way he could give up the national marriage offer.


    If this national marriage was aplished, it would be a good opportunity to easily break the emperor''s eternal pressure, so there was no way he would turn it down.


    He was mean to Julia. Hes such a gloomy person


    The Marquis suddenly gritted his teeth with a face full of anger.


    The days when the power of the Grand Duke, who was no different than the center of the empire, as his son-inw was equal, was now a thing of the past.


    The Marquis still had the light of that time in his eyes.


    The various businesses and investments that he started with the fame of the Grand Duke on his back were sessful, and the number of people who wanted to catch his eyes increased endlessly.


    Not to mention the emperor''s confidence. The marquis family was literally royalty. He was like a bookmaker who shared and nned all the affairs of the empire.


    The Marquis clenched his fists with an angry face.


    "If Julia had endured and listened well, things would not havee to this point.


    When the missing daughter came to mind, the direction of his anger changed at once.


    I asked her to give birth to his sessor, but how dare she disobey and disappear.


    bang! Then, with his clenched fist, the Marquis mmed the table hard.


    The ss of water on the table plummeted to the floor.


    If that damn girl had given birth to a child and then disappeared, I wouldnt have suffered so much!


    Yes, if there was a sessor with Elodys bloodline, he would have been able to show off his prestige to his heart''s content even if he didn''t have his daughter.


    It was for that reason that he had been harvesting and raising that lowly thing until this day, but after the girl disappeared, everything went wrong.


    The knight standing next to him nodded calmly, as if familiar with the Marquis''s moods.


    Sir, first calm down and think of a way to pass the checkpoint.


    Whew yes. There is something else that is important right now.


    The anger that boiled up easily subsided again. The Marquis was up and down with his mood several thousand times a day these days.


    The marquis abruptly got up from his seat and circled around the same spot.


    First of all, we need to find someone. We have to somehow get him into the mansion where the Grand Duke is staying, and check what he is doing.


    Yes, there may be a hidden woman.


    "Yes If its sure there''s a girl, she''ll be his weakness for now."


    The Marquis tapped my chin with a very serious face.


    "You go out and get a few useful men, and about three men who can act as drivers or porters."


    "Yes, sir."


    The knight gave a brief answer and went straight to the door. The Marquis sat down in front of the table and pulled out a cigar from his inner pocket.


    At that moment, someone mmed the door open before the knight could grab the doorknob.


    Grand..ah!


    At the same time, the knight fell on the floor with broken words. Astonished, the Marquis dropped his cigar and turned his head.


    Behind the knight, who was cut down by a single strike with a sword, stood a man with a stern expression. It was Fernan, who was the center of the conversation a while ago.

 Chapter 72

    Chapter 72


    "I knew you were stupid, but I didn''t expect it to be this much."


    Fernan threw something roughly with a sullen voice.


    What was thrown in front of the Marquis was the spy the Marquis had nted in the Grand Dukes Castle the other day.


    The spy, who was trembling and lying in front of the Marquis, murmured.


    "Ah, I''m sorry. Marquis"


    Realizing that the spy confessed everything, the Marquis jumped up with a pale face.


    <i>D*mn, what should I do? </i>The Marquis, who licked his tongue harshly, squealed first.


    What a rude thing to do! How dare you visit me out of the blue and be so violent!"


    As he reacted ignorantly and shouted loudly, Fernand approached the Marquis without changing his expression.


    Without hesitation, he lifted the sword in his hand, and the Marquis fell back with a squeal.


    Fernan muttered while rubbing the arm of the fallen Marquis.


    "If you had done it in moderation and stopped, I wouldn''t have thought of killing you."


    Fernan thrust his sword into the other arm of the Marquis. The Marquis screamed in pain.


    I cant keep you alive when I listen to that filthy mouth.


    Ah! Ah!


    Fernan, who looked down at the screaming Marquis with a dazzling gaze, pulled out the sword and put it back down again.


    At the de that dug deep into his thigh, the Marquis began to squirm and struggle.


    Fernan, who twisted the de, adding to the pain, tilted his head slowly.


    No need to tremble, Marquis, I wont kill you straight away.


    What the Marquis had done to Julia in the past could not bepared to a single pierce.


    Therefore, the marquis should die as slowly as possible, after repeated pain and suffering.


    So that he never put his shameless face in front of Julia in the name of her father again.


    Ah, save, save me.


    The following words were swallowed by the sharp knife that was thrust into his mouth.


    The floor was instantly stained with blood.


    It was concluded that the Marquis'' servants were killed with their possessions taken away by bandits.


    Since only the bodies of his subordinates were found, the Marquis was treated as missing. However, no one thought he was alive, as blood-stained belongings and clothes were found.


    The influence of the Marquis Elody had already weaned for a long time. This incident quickly passed without being a big topic of discussion in the capital.


    However, at the news of the Marquis, the Marchioness fainted, and his son, Grayson, did not shed a single tear.


    The Emperor seemed convinced that the Grand Duke was behind this, but he did not rush to speak of the possibility.


    It was because he knew very well that if he touched the Grand Duke with no proof would only harm himself.


    Meanwhile, the Marquis was imprisoned in a dungeon and tortured, and died on the third day.


    ***


    It had been four days since Fernan returned to the mansion.


    He told Julia that he would be back soon, but he felt nervous because it took longer than nned.


    He headed straight to Julia''s bedroom and knocked on the door. However, it was not Julia who came out from inside, but her maid.


    Where is Julia?


    The maid, who bowed her head to his question, answered quickly.


    In the morning, she went to the shore to see the ocean.


    She went alone?


    "No. The knight went with her.


    Fernan immediately turned and walked out of the mansion.


    The promise to go to the sea together was postponed due to various things, so it seemed like she was going to go alone.


    Fernan got on his horse and rode along the road leading to the shore.


    Now that he had removed the elements that would break Julia''s tranquility, she would now be able to livefortably here without any disturbance.


    She might be happy to settle in Richel.


    Thest time, she seemed very happy with the olddy and the children. She seemed to depend a lot on the olddy as well.


    If she visited them often, she mayugh more often than now.


    It was enough for him to see her smile as long as she was in his realm. Soon he entered a gravel road near the shore.


    With the horse tied up nearby, he loosened the cor of his shirt.


    Just as he was about to enter the beach road, a knight who was running madly from afar found him and suddenly stopped.


    Your Highness!


    From the voice of the knight shouting urgently, Fernan immediately felt an unusual momentum.


    Soon, words like thunder poured out from the knight.


    Her Grace is gone!


    ***


    On the second day when Fernan did not return, Julia went to the beach alone that evening. Unlike the daytime when the scorching heat continued, in the evening, the air was cool. So, after looking at the distant horizon for a long time, she returned to the mansion.


    Until the next day, Julia looked through her window and checked several times to see if Fernan had returned.


    She thought he would be back in a day or two, but he seemed very busy.


    Another day passed, and a week had passed since she came here, and the day she agreed to meet Cedric came.


    She thought she would leave after she saw Fernans face, but she knew the truth. Now his absence was her opportunity to escape.


    So she came to the beach again.


    After a long walk along the pebbly and sandy beach, Julia subtly hardened her lips.


    <i>The sea After all, we didn''t see it together.</i>


    Blue eyes mingled with various emotions shone faintly.


    She thought it was better. If she had spent more time with Fernan than this, her mind would be moreplicated.


    Julia looked at the blue summer sea for a long time. It was particrly sunny today, but slightly cool with the breeze.


    That evening.


    Right across from Lian Harbor, at the Peribel Inn, Julia and Cedric were reunited safely.


    Julia!


    Cedric looked at Julia, who had entered the inn without hiding his happy emotions.


    Cedric looked at her hastily and sighed in relief. Her condition didn''t look as bad as she thought.


    Cedric, how have you been?


    Julia asked with a smile as she looked at him. She finally met Cedric for the first time in two seasons.


    The winter when war broke out in the Holy Kingdom. Late winter and spring when she went to Fernan''s vi. And here in the coastal city, it was a perfect summer.


    Ive been doing well, but Julia Are you okay?


    Seeing Cedric''s worried gaze, Julia quietly nodded.


    The problem was that she was getting along with Fernan much better than she expected.


    I thought I would have to wait at least a few more weeks for Julia toe. Did he just let you go?


    Julia replied calmly with a low gaze.


    "I ran away while His Highness was away. I used my power to trick the knight. But I don''t think there''s a big strain on my body."


    "


    Cedrics green eyes looked at her with concern. Because she shouldn''t have used her powers anymore.


    Julia noticed his gaze and shrugged as if it was okay.


    "When should we leave?"


    To the question that changed the subject as if evoking, Cedric turned his gaze away at that moment and gave an answer.


    "We should leave as soon as possible."


    Not knowing when Julia woulde, Cedric bought tickets every evening.


    "It''d be better to leave right away this evening. That way, it''ll be easier to avoid the Grand Dukes search.


    Julia nodded resolutely. As Cedric said, the sooner she left this ce, the better.


    At least today the search would not extend to this port. She disappeared near the mansion, so Fernan would probably start searching the coast and surrounding viges.


    While Julia was organizing her thoughts, Cedric stared at her outfit.


    "Julia, you should change first. Itll be a long journey,fortable clothes will be better.


    At that, Julia looked down at her clothes for a moment. It was obvious that she would stand out wherever she went if she wore this gorgeous dress.


    As Julia nodded, Cedric soon borrowed a in robe from the innkeeper.


    After changing and packing necessary luggage, the sun began to set.


    It was around that time that the two left the inn.

 Chapter 73

    Chapter 73


    There were about two moored ships in the harbor. A crew member was checking the identity of the passengers to help them get on and off.


    Julia stood behind Cedric wearing a worn out robe.


    When it was his turn, Cedric showed the two IDs and tickets he had prepared in advance.


    The sailor looked at Cedric once and then stared at Julia.


    The sailor removed his long gaze and nodded as if saying it was okay to enter.


    The two of them safely entered the passenger ship and were able to rx for an hour.


    Julia, youre in the cabin.


    Cedric stopped in front of the reserved cabin.


    Im going to look at the deck for a moment. Just in case, Julia shouldn''te out.


    Julia nodded. So Cedric disappeared into the hallway, and she immediately went inside and closed the door.


    Looking through the window attached to the cabin wall, the outside was gradually getting dark.


    The ferry was going to depart in thirty minutes. After passing through the Ruth Territory as a stopover, it was a route that ended in a small principality called Edina.


    Once the ship leaves, everything will go as nned.


    Looking at the waving sea, Julia sat down on the cot. By now, the news that she disappeared would have reached Fernan. Btedly, she thought she should have left him a letter.


    <i>No</i>


    Slowly shaking her head, she took off the robe that she was wearing. There was no need for her to write a letter and leave regrets behind.


    Julia just wanted him to live well. She knew that the man who seemed perfect actually had a very difficult life she knew that now.


    Already within her, her long-standing hatred and resentment for Fernan had faded. It might be sudden for him, but it would be better for each other to end it like this.


    Julia took a deep breath and then brushed her disheveled hair behind her ear.


    "The passenger ship will depart soon, so please get away from the exit."


    Only after hearing the crew''s instructions did Cedric walk away. Perhaps it was because it was an evening ferry, there were not many people on the deck.


    As he crossed the deck with slight doubts, suddenly raindrops began to fall little by little.


    Cedric looked up at the sky for a moment and then lowered his head to the front again. At that moment, his whole body stiffened.


    It was because a man came into his view.


    ck hair engulfed in darkness and brightly golden eyes. A man who was different from others because of his overwhelming appearance.


    They had never met, but Cedric immediately knew who the man was.


    Julia''s husband, Grand Duke Caesar.


    <i>How.?''</i>


    As Cedric took a step back and was about to turn around, a couple of men blocked him.


    Judging from the fact that they were wearing swords, they were clearly knights.


    Ah."


    Cedric''s eyes began to waver.


    Did the Grand Duke know from the beginning that Julia was going to board this evening ferry?


    Hearing the sound of footstepsing closer behind him, Cedric fell to his knees as he was grabbed by the knights without even having time to resist.


    Meanwhile, the sound of footsteps stopped in front of Cedric.


    When he looked up, the Grand Duke was looking down at him with his eyes gleaming with madness.


    "okay It was you again.


    A cold voice descended.


    Cedric couldn''t help but look up at the handsome man in front of him.


    When and how did he know ? While Cedric''s head was pounding in chaos, an order was issued.


    Search all the rooms.


    "Yes, Your Highness!"


    The knights scattered all at once, and then Fernan headed for the cabin with a reckless pace.


    Fernan''s gaze, passing through the broken door, scanned the room thoroughly.


    His golden eyes, like the eve of the storm, were eroded by a frenzied obsession that had disappeared for a while.


    Julia ran away again. With her gentle smile and loving touch, she deceived him.


    Fernan''s lips trembled slightly, then hardened. He actually noticed. He knew that Julia was sending and receiving letters with the priest. That she was full of thoughts of leaving at any time.


    Even though he knew everything, he was deceived again.


    Bang, the door opened, each room was empty.


    Fernan, who had been randomly opening doors for a long time, stopped in front of a certain room.


    His hand with tight veins turned the doorknob without hesitation.


    Through the gap in the door, a familiar figure standing in front of the window caught his eye.


    Instead of the gorgeous dress he gave her, Julia, wearing shabby and worn-out clothes, was standing by the window.


    Her long, light hair fluttered slightly. Julia turned her head.


    Cedric, why the ship


    Unable to finish her words, Julia''s eyes widened in an instant. Realizing it wasnt Cedric, she slowly opened her mouth.


    Your Highness


    Fernan approached her slowly. As the distance narrowed, her gaze shifted upward little by little.


    His still voice, which suppressed his emotions, descended upon her.


    Lets go back, Julia.


    How do you know


    Before Julia could finish her words, Fernan took her delicate hand. Contrary to his eyes that seemed to have lost his reason, his hand holding her was not strong as if he didnt release his power.


    As he tried to get out, Julia shook off his hand.


    Fernan stared at her then he looked down at his empty hand.


    Your Highness, I am not going back.


    Why?"


    Because I dont want to stay by your side.


    Julia''s voice wasn''t as cold as when she first pushed him away. Rather, it was soft, as if she was trying to convince him.


    But they were sharp as dozens of sharp arrowheads to Fernan.


    I want to find my own life, not the life that belongs to anyone.


    So please let me go.


    Fernan, who was silently listening to the next words, moved his dry lips slowly.


    I will give you that life. I''ll give you everything you want.


    "no you cant.


    Julia raised her clear eyes and looked at him.


    Lockman once said Fernan wasn''tpletely indestructible from the start, saying he wasn''t the one who had it all, and he wasn''t as strong as everyone thought he was.


    Even so, his and Julia''s eyes were still very different.


    Julia wasn''t confident enough to climb with him on the high ground he had set on. She didn''t want to live by his side as his woman, as someones wife.


    She wanted to be free from all the bondages that held her down.


    I heard that you had many marriage proposals.


    Breaking the precarious silence, Julia spoke again.


    I hope that you will walk the path of the future with someone who really suits you, not me.


    I, I dont hate you anymore, I dont even resent you, so you can let go of all the guilt you have left.


    As she said that, her face was calm and peaceful. As if she didn''t really feel anything towards him anymore.


    I want you to be happy. I will, too.


    Her words pierced through Fernan''s heart. Julia''s voice, wishing for his happiness, was shing through his whole body like knives.


    "Happiness


    Fernan murmured in an empty voice. Happiness, happiness. Fernan, who had forced her beautiful words into his mind, took a step closer to her.


    Julia, without you I cant be happy at all.


    His piercing voice, as if he had lost his mind, threw a stone at Julia''s calm gaze.


    As he looked straight into her blue eyes, which began to tremble little by little, he continued to whisper.


    Therell be no other person who suits me, that option wont exist even if I die.


    "I only need you. As long as I have you, I dont need anything else.


    His graceful face was horribly distorted. He wasn''t in the slightest threatening. Rather, he was pouring out words with a desperate voice.


    But at this moment, Julia felt as if he would swallow everything in her.


    It seemed like she would never get out of it again.


    What should I do?


    How, how can I be your life?


    Fernan continued to ask as if he was talking to himself.


    Julia couldn''t help but look up at him with a puzzled face.


    Then she lifted her hardened lips and let out a more determined voice.


    No matter what you do, I will not go back.


    No matter what I do?


    Fernans lips trembled with a dark gaze. He slowly reached out and grabbed Julias face.


    A dangerous breathing sound came out of him as he lowered his head.


    "if I kill him"


    Then, a cold voice thatpletely killed the desperation poured out.


    "If I kill that priest, will youe back to me?"

 Chapter 74

    Chapter 74


    Fernan, who raised his head in that state, looked straight into her eyes.


    It was a broken gaze, with only darkness dwelling all over it, where the shaking disappeared.


    Julia opened her lips with an astonished expression.


    What


    Before she could even speak, Fernan straightened his body. Looking at the back of him who turned around and walked out without hesitation, Julia went nk. After Fernan left the room, only then did shee to her senses and followed him.


    "Your Highness!"


    Julia hurriedly tried to catch up to him, but Fernan did not look back and turned around the end of the hallway at once.


    As they entered the deck, heavy raindrops were pouring down mercilessly.


    Fernan walked through the rain and approached Cedric, who had been captured by the knights.


    There was no hesitation in the gesture of pulling the sword out of the sheath around his waist. A sharp de was pointed at the neck of Cedric, who was kneeling on his knees.


    no!


    At that moment, Julia, who ran out onto the deck, shouted.


    The moment Fernan raised his sword, she rushed to him and grabbed his arm.


    "Stop it! Why, why do you want to harm an innocent person!


    At her desperate words, Fernan stopped his movement. Taking advantage of the gap, Julia blocked him.


    There was a clear intent to kill in his darkened eyes. Indeed, he really was trying to kill Cedric.


    At this moment, Julia felt a distant emptiness.


    She thought this man had changed a little. She thought he might be thinking about her sincerely.


    So she held her feeble expectations.


    Even if she left without a word, maybe he would understand.


    Maybe he would notice her desire to be free from her family


    But now she knew. This man would never let her go for any reason.


    Julia raised her head and looked up at him, still holding her sword.


    I will go. I will be by your side.


    Leave Cedric alone. Dont hurt him.


    At the end of her voice, who muttered in despair, a cry was mixed.


    Fernan''s eyes, which had gone ck, began to tremble at the soft tears that welled up in the corners of her eyes.


    While he paused, Julia turned and approached Cedric.


    At that moment, Fernan slowly lowered his hand and dropped his sword on the floor.


    Im sorry, Cedric. because of me .


    Julia


    Julia, who tried hard to swallow her tears, began to loosen the rope that was tied to Cedric''s wrist. Cedric looked at her anxiously.


    Fernan couldn''t move, as if stuck in ce, putting her image in his eyes. Again, it was as if an invisible solid wall was built between Julia and him.


    Just like when he found her a long time ago. She had her back to him which was so far away.


    The difference from then was that he could no longer let Julia go.


    Julia.


    Fernan murmured to Yulia, who wasn''t even looking at him. But Julia did not look back. She was just struggling to free the man in front of her.


    A heavy rain fell on Julia. It was not known whether she was crying, or if the rain was pouring on her face.


    Julia''s hand slipped several times as the tightly bound rope could not be loosened easily. As he stared nkly at her, Fernan approached her with btedly focused eyes.


    He took off his jacket and put it on her shoulders, holding her struggling hand. Then, Julia raised her reddened eyes and looked up at him.


    "Release him."


    Fernan, whomanded the knight standing next to him, lowered his body to Julia. Holding her as she was, he slowly lifted her body up.


    Only after seeing the knight free Cedric did her stiff breathing begin to return to normal.


    Please send Cedric away right in front of me.


    Julia muttered in a weak voice. Her wet, droopy body felt no weight. It was as if he was holding something empty inside.


    Fernan nodded at the knight as if telling the knight to do as Julia asked.


    And he held Julia in his arms even deeper to the point of tenacity.


    As per Julia''s request, Cedric was released in front of her sight.


    Seeing Cedric who couldn''t leave his position even after the rope was loosened, Julia muttered as if crying.


    Im sorry, Cedric, Im fine, so you dont have to help me anymore


    Seeing Julia, who could only say sorry to him over and over again, Cedric stretched out his hand, but was immediately stopped by the knights.


    After Julia asked him to leave several times, Cedric finally turned around.


    Until the very end, it was only causing trouble for Cedric. In less than a day, the escape came to an end in vain.


    Julia returned to the mansion as she was.


    As she was held in Fernans arms, she barely opened her blinking eyelids.


    She didn''t say a word the whole time he was moving.


    The rain, which was thought was a shower, did not stop, and both entered the mansion soaking wet.


    The sound of heavy wet footsteps echoed through the quiet mansion. Fernan went up the stairs silently and headed straight to Julia''s bedroom.


    Squeak, the door opened and he entered and sat Julia down on her bed.


    While Julia stared helplessly at the floor, Fernan knelt down on one knee in front of her.


    The jacket, which she was wearing, fell to the floor. Then Fernan began to unbutton her blouse one by one.


    When the top was opened halfway, Julia raised her hand and stopped him.


    That''s okay."


    Fernan, whose eyes without a single light, looked up at her. Julia, who looked at him like that, sighed in the distance.


    It was her who was brought in, but on the contrary, this man had a face that looked like he was about to die.


    Julia endured the throbbing headache and took his hand off.


    Because she was wearing a robe, the underclothes were not wet. Rather, it was Fernan who got soaked from his clothes to his hair.


    Julia got up slowly, looking at the dripping rain from him, and came back with a cloth.


    As she ced the cloth on his face, who was still kneeling, Fernan''s eyes began to tremble violently.


    "Why


    He barely opened his mouth and grabbed Julia''s wrist. The recoil caused the cloth to fall to the floor. Fernan finally got up. With her gaze rising in an instant, Julia looked at him without a word.


    Then he lowered his head again and put her hand on his shirt.


    Fernans face began to contort as she unbuttoned his wet shirt one by one.


    Why are you doing this Huh?"


    Ill tell the servant to bring you new clothes.


    Julia, who lightly ignored his words, loosened thest button. The wet muscles were exposed through the open shirt.


    Turning around, Julia went out the door and told the servant to bring new towels and clothes.


    Fernan was just looking at her with bewildered eyes. It was like he was asking why she was notining.


    Why was she trying to take off his clothes and dry his body herself?


    Leaving behind all those questions, Julia, who had received the towels and clothes from the servant, approached him again. When she opened arge towel to wipe his body, Fernan immediately grabbed her hand and pulled her towards him.


    As he led her to the bed in that state, her soft bodyy helplessly on the bed.


    Fernan murmured in a trembling voice.


    Julia, curse me..


    Tell me to get lost, tell me to die. Tell me you dont want to see me, tell me to disappear. Tell me you hate me and resent me


    Julia looked up at him from afar.


    He seemed ready to receive all the resentment and hatred from her.


    Naturally, she couldn''t help but resent this man who blocked her path.


    She knew she had to get angry, and not ept him like this.


    However, Julia wanted to let go of all those painful feelings.


    To hate him again She didn''t even think about it because she was so exhausted both physically and mentally.


    Yes, she was really tired now. If she couldn''t leave no matter what she did, she would rather live inpliance.


    So, the thought of wanting to help drying this man without knowing was probably an extension of that mind.


    .Not wanting to leave this dangerous-looking man alone.


    Are you doing this for fear that I might take him back and kill him?


    Fernan painfully twisted his eyes. He seemed to think that she was doing this only to save Cedric.


    Julia slowly lowered her eyelids and murmured.


    Think however you want.


    After a brief pause, Julia raised her gaze again and spoke slowly.


    "I''ll stay still here until Your Highness wants me to."


    "I''ll do everything. That''s it."


    The voice that continued to flow was in.There wasn''t a single bit of hatred towards him.


    Fernan looked down at her and twisted his lips slightly. Julia was saying anything to save the priest.


    She simply stayed by his side to protect the priest. That was how Fernan interpreted Julias words. So those words once again brought deep despair to him.


    Julia stared at his eyes, which had begun to turn red, with an unrealistic expression.


    A stream of water that could not be wiped off flowed from his trembling chin.


    Staring at him, she implicitly stretched out her hand.


    After wiping away the water by stroking his chin with her soft hand, Julia slowly removed her hand.


    At that time, Fernan immediately grabbed her hand. He opened his mouth as he interlocked her fingers.


    .Do anything.


    Then dont leave me forever. Stay by my side until I die.


    A harsh deep voice and red, bloodshot eyes. Contrary to the fierce momentum, his expression was miserable.


    "No matter where you go, I''ll find you. I might really kill that man then."


    So, please


    Swallowing his words with misery, he looked at Julias sparkling blue eyes.


    After making eye contact with her for a long time, Julia averted her gaze.


    She saw his ripped muscles and the scars through the open shirt.


    Traces that would not disappear no matter how much time passed.


    She looked at his face, which seemed more painful than the traces of war, and finally looked into his eyes again.


    Fernan, who had been following her gaze tenaciously, finally met her eyes and kissed her as if rushing to her.


    Julia did not push him away even with a kiss as rough as if he would swallow her whole.

 Chapter 75

    Chapter 75


    It was a long night that she had never experienced before. Julia did not reject Fernan, who rushed to her as if he was pouring out everything he had. Everywhere he passed, the throbbing heat of passion remained like a mark.


    <b><i>I''ll give you everything, Julia.</i></b>


    <b><i>I''ll give you everything I have in this hand.</i></b>


    <b><i>So don''t run away again.</i></b>


    <b><i>I can never let you go</i></b>


    Thest memory was the voice that Fernan intermittently kissed and whispered as if begging.


    It was afternoon when Julia woke up.


    Fernan, sitting in front of the table, could be seen between the views with her heavy eyes.


    He was looking at her, neatly dressed.


    After Julia got her body up with a groaning sound, he immediately approached her with a gown on the table.


    As the quivering nket slid down her legs, Fernan draped the gown over her bare shoulders.


    He delicately tied theces of the well-covered gown, and his face was clearer than the day before.


    Lets eat first.


    His low-pitched voice was also sensitive. Julia put her feet on the floor without answering.


    At the same time, the strength in her legs was lost and she almost copsed, and Fernan caught her right away.


    Her waist and her knees were supported by him, and he held her in his arms.


    I can walk alone.


    Although Julia murmured without her aura, Fernan sat her down at the table without replying.


    Soon after, the servant knocked on the door saying that she had brought the meal. Fernan, who was handed the tray, put the te down on the table.


    Seeing him trying to feed her, Julia quietly blinked her eyes.


    Whether he was pretending that Julias escape never happened from the beginning, his attitude now was very calm.


    On the contrary, it seemed to be softer than before.


    Julia, still with a hazy face, quietly took the food he was offering and ate it.


    She didn''t feel like rejecting him like this.


    How is your body? Should I call the doctor?


    Julia shook her head. After the meal, Fernan did not leave and stayed by her side the whole time.


    Because of him staying with her all day until evening, Julia didnt have time to think alone.


    <i> Did Cedric go to the temple?</i>


    Her worries about Cedric quickly rose and she shook her head, but each time Fernan caught her nerves like a ghost.


    Looking out the window, Julia flinched as she felt his touch.


    Fernan hugged her from behind and pressed his lips to the nape of her neck.


    Ah."


    Her body, which was still sensitive fromst night, responded easily to even a small stimulus.


    As Julia flinched, Fernan lifted the lip that had touched the nape of her neck and kissed her delicate jawline.


    It was the first time Julia knew that he was a man who showed his desire so easily.


    She didn''t know the details of his feelings before, but at least he was a seemingly ascetic man.


    Butst night he Like a hungry beast, he longed for her and devoured her endlessly. A groaning voice that could not be suppressed and leaked out. Eyes looking down at her as if yearning for her.


    Julia bit her lip as she felt all her senses ofst night were revived.


    Was this what he wanted? If it was his purpose to get rid of her soul so she couldn''t think like this, he was perfectly sessful.


    Because right now, Julia couldn''t think of anything.


    ***


    Your Majesty, the priest wandered around the territory and returned to the Temple of Ilion onlyst night. Shall we keep watching?


    At dawn, Fernan, leaning back against the lobby pir, tried to cool down.


    He narrowed his brow and answered.


    Do that. If he shows any signs ofing here, report it immediately.


    Yes, my lord.


    Fernan, who climbed the stairs with the knight behind, recalled the scene of that day.


    Julia was blocking his way and trying to protect the priest. Her voice was tearful, saying, "I''ll be by your side, so let him go."


    Fernan, biting his lips, paused for a moment. His heart began to pound violently.


    Barely holding down his boiling heart, he headed to Julia''s bedroom.


    It was still early in the morning. The sky, which had just begun to dawn, was gradually getting brighter.


    When he entered the bedroom with as little noise as possible, he saw a woman sleeping soundly.


    He sat down on the chair next to her bed and stared at Julia.


    Long, thin eyshes set under the round, pretty forehead. A small high nose bridge and red lips.


    He put everything in his eyes one by one, then reached out and ruffled her hair. The day before he greedily touched and devoured her, he still felt something wasnt fulfilled.


    Maybe it was because Julia wasnt really with him.


    He couldn''t be sure of Julia''s heart at all now.


    Even if she did not reject him, even if she seemed to ept him, it was difficult to believe her sincerity. Because Julia always disappeared while he was careless.


    His anxious and restless mood did not go away in any way. Even if she was in his hand like this, she seemed far away.


    He knew that expecting Julia to open her heart to him was too greedy.


    Because he was blocking her path again, using the person she cherished.


    Then, Julia She was forcing herself to endure it.


    Probably, she hated him (Fernan) insanely, but she was worried about that priests safety, so she couldnt say hateful words or reject him.(Fernan)


    Do you love him?


    Fernan asked the sleeping woman. He knew the answer would nevere back. If Julia answered yes, he was not confident that he would not kill the priest.


    And if that happened, Julia wouldnt force herself to stay with him any longer. So it was a question he would never ask when she was awake.


    Fernan, who had been stroking her light hair, lowered her hand, and wiped her swollen lower lip.


    If I asked you to love me again, what would you say?


    Are you going to tell me youll do it, even if its empty words?


    He muttered endlessly, and for a moment raised his lips miserably.


    Then he took his hand from her lips and lowered his head deeply.


    Just before he kissed her, he looked at her closed eyelids for a moment, then he lowered his lips lightly.


    It was a simple kiss with only lips touching, but at the end there was a weak obsession that could not be hidden.


    The next day, standing in front of the terrace railing, Julia looked into the air and blinked her eyes.


    It seemed that her heart was empty, and that she was just calm.


    "Julia."


    Then a familiar voice was heard. When Julia turned, Fernan entered the terrace and approached her.


    He asked quietly, draping her thin cardigan over her shoulders.


    "How about going to the sea today?"


    We were supposed to go together the other day.


    At that moment, Julia turned her head and looked at the scenery beyond the terrace. The expansive blue sea immediately caught her eye.


    When Julia did not respond, he added


    "Or you can go to the meadow and ride your horse."


    "Your white horse was also brought here a while ago."


    Julia did not respond to the continued words.


    After looking only at the distant sea, she answered in a calm voice.


    Do whatever His Highness wants, because I dont care.


    She didn''t feel like doing anything right now.


    For the past few days, Julia followed his lead, and after a while, she quietly returned to her ce, repeating the same day.


    Fernan stood there with a distant look on his face, then took a step closer to her.


    Tell me what you want. It''s okay even if it''s trivial.


    Theres nothing.


    Then I will bring the children. Ill bring them to this area so you can meet often


    "No."


    At that moment, Julia, who hadpletely turned around, looked up at him.


    Even if you dont do anything, I wont leave. So don''t bring the children in."


    Julia turned to look out the window again, thinking that Cedric was enough for her to be a hostage.


    Fernan stood frozen for a moment and looked at her back.


    Then she stood there as if she would never look back at him again, and he grabbed her arm and turned her around. Looking into her empty blue eyes, he frowned as if he didn''t know what to say.


    If theres nothing you want to do, then tell me what you want.


    Whether its mines, estates, or wealth, Ill give you everything, so be extravagant.


    At his anxious words, Julia thought for a moment while avoiding his gaze. Does she have anything she wants?


    But it was concluded that there was nothing. She already had everything she needed in this mansion.


    "Just tell me what His Highness wants from me."


    Julia slowly lowered her eyelids.


    I just need to be calm and be trapped here.


    Having said that, Julia raised her gaze again, and she stared intently at the man who could hardly hide his expression.


    So, as you have done so far.


    Julia, who was muttering like a machine, stopped her speech for a moment. She then looked into the eyes of the man who was right in front of her nose.


    Her slightly gaping lips were swallowed as it was, along with the words she couldn''t connect.


    Fernan lowered his head to her deeply, covering her cheeks and the nape of her neckpletely.

 Chapter 76

    Chapter 76


    Julia''s shoulders trembled as she felt the heat in her mouth and his touch that was even hotter than that.


    Her body was pushed back and touched the railing, and his hands wrapped around her waist supported her center of gravity. The obscene sound of her saliva flowing back and forth, the reflex heating up of her body, was still unfamiliar.


    Julia closed her eyes tightly and held onto the hem of his dress.


    The kiss, which started hastily and continued for a long time, filled her head, which had only been blurry. Then her lips dropped slightly with the touch of his tongue passing over her lower lip.


    Ha."


    Julia exhaled through the gap.


    Julia''s face, which had been empty and pale, had regained her full color from the hot contact from a while ago. Caressing her blushing red ear, Fernan whispered in a warm voice.


    I dont think hugging and kissing you all day is enough.


    Do you really want me to do whatever I want?"


    As Julia closed her wet lips and lowered her swaying gaze, he pressed his lips against hers again as if he was urging her to answer.


    At the sensation of her head turning white, Julia finally pushed him away with all her might. Fernan, who had slipped away from her, looked down at her from a span of his distance.


    Alright, lets go.


    Lets go to the sea.


    Julia looked at him with a feeble resentment with her still hot face.


    Fernan, who finally drew an answer from her, finally straightened up.


    As if satisfied with her answer, Fernan gently stroked her wet lips.


    And, unable to hold back, he pressed his lips to Julia''s cheek, who continued to look at him with resentment.


    In the evening when the sun was setting, Julia obediently went out to the beach with him.


    The sky was a mixture of scarlet and pink, giving off a mysterious color. Julia quietly captured the beautiful scene in her eyes.


    When she ran away from Fernan, she thought she would never be able to see this sea again.


    Maybe that''s why the endless sea that stretched out before her felt even newer at this moment.


    Julia looked up at the man walking by her side while holding her handpletely.


    Then she lowered her gaze and stared at his feet, which were keeping pace with her slow pace.


    Deliberately emptying herplicated mind that was rising up and down, she looked at the sea again.


    The undting waves left a soot-like mark on the sand.


    This man was holding her hand just like the waves.


    Every time he passed, something remained. Whether it be pain or sorrow, anger or pleasure.


    Even now that she had forgotten all of her love for him, she could not always get away from him.


    If so, should she be willing to ept the marks he makes?


    <i>No, I</i>


    It wouldntst long. To the extent that these concerns were meaningless.


    Julia could feel it. She had been ignoring it for so long, but she knew that her body was already irreversibly damaged.


    <i>I wanted to live happily for a long time.''</i>


    Knowing it would nevere true, she continued to hold her hopes.


    Because if she had hope, like a miracle, everything would get better.


    But the reality was not like that, so in the end, she must have lived in a dream.


    <i>If today is thest, what should I do right now?</i> Julia looked at the distant horizon and then turned her gaze to Fernan.


    "Your Highness..


    She opened her mouth as if trying to tell him something, and suddenly stopped her steps.


    It was because of the sudden blur of vision in front of her eyes.


    Fernan, who had stopped with her, looked back at her, and Julia looked far away, clutching her chest.


    As if something from her strong energy was beating the pain all over her body, she sat down.


    Thump, Thump, Thump, Thump.


    She felt like her heart would burst. At the same time, a seething energy rose up to the nape of her neck.


    The sensation of heat filling up one after another from the stomach


    Julia!


    Fernan held Julia, who was trembling greatly. Julia, who had copsed in his firm arms, grabbed his arm tightly.


    But the power kept draining from her hands and feet.


    Julia, why


    Fernans urgent sound did not pass through her ears.


    At this moment, it seemed that the functions that made up her body were slowly paralyzing.


    Julia buried her head in his arms, cried and vomited blood.


    Looking at his white shirt dyed red, Juliapletely closed her eyes.


    ***


    Julia, who was carried to the mansion by Fernan, wasid neatly on her bed.


    Herplexion hadpletely disappeared, and not even the slightest movement.


    Lockman, who had been observing her condition for a long time, barely uttered the words, which he couldn''t get out.


    I can''t feel her pulse. She has stopped breathing.


    Julia, who suddenly vomited blood and copsed, had no foreshadowing symptoms.


    Her body was weak and she was suffering from a disease that made her stamina fluctuate, but it was never enough that she died suddenly.


    Her heart is weakly beating, but she probably wontst long.


    What nonsense is that?


    Fernan muttered as if he couldn''t grasp the situation.


    His clothes and hands were all stained with red blood.


    Obviously a little while ago.


    Not too long ago, Julia was holding his hand and looking at the sea.


    The warmth of her that had reached him still remained in his hand. The aftermath of the kiss that they shared deeply before going to the sea was still vivid and hot.


    Looking at Fernan, Lockman muttered with a face covered in guilt.


    "Im sorry. Everything is my fault It seems that the Grand Duchess heart disease has deteriorated rapidly, but I haven''t noticed any signs


    Lockman has been regrly checking Julias condition. Of course, he couldn''t say that her illness wasn''t serious, but at least it wasn''t so serious that it took her life.


    He obviously thought so. But, why is this happening


    Lockman tried hard to speak as he exhaled.


    Your Highness, I know Im being rude. But, please prepare your heart


    Lockman couldn''t help but bite his tongue.


    Her heart will stop soon, so prepare your heart, but he couldn''t say anything like that.


    Because it seemed like Fernan, who was standing and looking down at Julia, would die first.


    Fernan, who had a strange expressionless face, did not say anything for a long time.


    Then he eventually leaned over and felt Julia''s breath.


    When he realized that he could no longer hear even faint breaths, his eyes were ck as if struck by lightning.


    Fernan hastily brought his ear to her heart. Thump, thump, he could feel her heart beating slowly.


    The sound barely grasped his shrewd reason.


    Save her."


    He murmured, looking back at Lockman.


    Somehow, bring her breathing back.


    Your Highness, all I can do for now is


    Fernan grabbed Lockman''s cor. Contrary to his still expressionless face, his bloody hands were trembling frantically.


    "Don''t be ipetent, tell me what to do."


    .Your Highness."


    "How Julia can breathe, please, tell me."


    With his cor still being grabbed by Fernan, Lockman answered in the most calm voice possible.


    The functions of her whole body except the heart have already stopped. In this case, its considered as a moribund state. She won''tst long.


    After finishing his words, Lockman bowed his head. Fernan just released the power from his hand helplessly.


    "No."


    He looked at Julia again. Then, as he knelt down on the floor, desperately holding her hand.


    Fernan still had a hard time understanding the situation. He couldn''t believe her hand, which he held earlier, nowying cold.


    He reached out and hugged her body, unable to even breathe as he was strangled. Feeling her heart beating again in the bodies that were touched, he lowered his head to her. He repeatedly blew breaths into Julias mouth on and off several times. The blood that could not be wiped off from her mouth stained his lips red.


    Your Highness.


    Lockman muttered sadly, unable to stop him. Then he finally closed his eyes and turned his head.


    ha."


    After giving breaths for a while, Fernan felt the spirit gradually bing numb.


    Julia''s face, which was getting paler and paler, was captured in his dappled vision.


    He reached out and gently wiped the bloodstains from her lips.


    No, she wont die. I wont leave her like that.


    Fernan murmured nkly like a madman.


    Moribund state. Death. Those words could never correspond to Julia. Never.


    Blood vessels raised up on his neck. Standing up, he grabbed Julia and carefully lifted her up.


    Your Highness, where are you going !"


    Leaving Lockman''s cry behind, Fernan left the bedroom without hesitation.


    He went down the stairs quickly and gave the order to the servant who was standing restlessly.


    Prepare a carriage and go to the Temple of Ilion right now.

 Chapter 77

    Chapter 77


    "Matheus, all preparations for Mass have beenpleted."


    A priest approached Matheus as he was passing through the corridor.


    Nodding his head while holding the catechism in one arm, Matheus walked towards the chapel.


    There was no tremor in his silent, slow gait.


    However, in his head, the story he had heard from Cedric, who had recently returned to the temple, was circling.


    <b><i> In order to save me, Julia went back to the Grand Duke herself.</i></b>


    The choice waspulsory, but Matheus considered that it was also Julia''s decision. It was definitely a choice with her will.


    So he wasn''t too concerned about her current situation.


    But


    The only concern for now was her health.


    Julia''s power, which had returned to him like a set procedure for a while, had been cut off at some point.


    That meant she was holding up with little power left.


    It was not strange if she lost all her powers and died a long time ago, but she was holding on for a very long time.


    There were not many cases like Julia''s where the power in the body was directly connected to the life force, but it was not impossible.


    However, all of them were recorded to have lost their lives because they could not endure any amount of it. It was probably because after using the holy power only once, the power leaked out.


    However, ording to the information he has recently obtained, there has been only one exception.


    That was hundreds of years ago.


    There was a record that a person, who was on the verge of death because all of the stamina in his body had disappeared, miraculously survived.


    The holy water of High Priest Kalosa, who was one of the gods'' agents, absorbed it into his body just before his death, andpletely changed the function of the body.


    The high priests of hundreds of years ago in the records were those who had unparalleled power enough to be able tomunicate directly with God.


    In other words, they were divine beings that couldnt bepared with the current priests.


    ording to another record, it was said that the high priests, who had powers close to God, were all in because their powers were restrained.


    However, some priests had different opinions.


    There were those who thought that those with near-god powers would not have been killed so easily.


    They argued that there was a possibility that they were living in seclusion somewhere without revealing their power because they knew the fear of their existence.


    Matheus was also one of those who expected that.


    Life expectancy will also be different from that of ordinary people.


    So if any of God''s agents were alive It was a problem that could be easily solved without even thinking about it.


    The problem was that finding them would be as difficult as finding a tiny needle in the desert. Still, he had no choice but to ask around as much as he could.


    Matheus owed Julia a debt. He was obliged to do everything in his power to make sure she was happy.


    After taking a deep breath, Matheus finally reached the front of the chapel.


    While the servant opened the door, someone hurriedly grabbed him.


    Matheus!


    The young priest, who took hold of his arm, trembled as if frightened.


    Suddenly, unexpected words came from the priest.


    Grand Duke Caesar came to see Matheus


    Grand Duke?


    Matheus asked with his eyes wide open. Sensing that something unusual had happened instinctively, Matheus immediately turned around.


    The people in the chapel who had been waiting for him tilted their heads over the door, but leaving them behind, Matheus hurriedly moved forward.


    Matheus, who followed the young priest with a bad foreboding, eventually entered the corridor.


    And soon, over the corridor, he saw a tall man standing.


    Even the slender woman sped in a robe and cradled in his arms.


    Julia.


    It was then that Matheus faintly felt the energy of Julia. It was so faint that he didn''t notice right away.


    Hearing footsteps, Fernan turned and looked at him.


    He stood there in a disastrous state. The bloodstains on Fernans shirt and sleeve caught Matheus eyes. Matheus felt his heart sinking in the distance and ran to them.


    ***


    They moved to Matheus office.


    Fernan gentlyid Julia down on the cot.


    A pale face with no blood. A body with no breathing and no movements.


    Her faintly beating heart was the only evidence that he knew she was still alive.


    After she vomited her blood, she copsed. She hasn''t breathed since then. "


    Fernan, who looked like he was about to die, murmured. Matheus, who was listening to him silently, stared at her heart with a calm yet sober gaze.


    Precisely, her power was trying to protect her with a thin membrane around her heart.


    A very small and vague low energy that could only be felt by Matheus. It was barely supporting her heart.


    So even though her breathing stopped, only her heart was beating faintly.


    By your Holy Power, by your Holy Power Can you try anything?


    Matheus, who raised his gaze at the desperate whisper, looked at Fernan''s shaky eyes, losing its light.


    It was his eyes that had gone through hell thousands of times while he brought her here.


    With my own strength,plete healing is impossible.


    Matheus lowered his hand as if to prove it. A blue healing light from his hand fell on Julia.


    The light that flowed through her body disappeared into the air without prating into her.


    Fernan, who looked at him, bit his lips and grabbed Matheus shoulders.


    Then, is it possible with the power of another person?


    Tell me how. Whatever it is, I''ll do it all.


    Matheus white priest''s robe was crumpled in Fernans strong grasp. Seeing him with bloodshot eyes saying he would do anything, Matheus lowered his eyelids as if he was thinking something.


    For now, two requirements must be met.


    Eventually, Matheus raised his head and opened his mouth with a determined face.


    Then he looked down at Julia again and spoke slowly.


    First of all, Julia has to hold out as she is.


    Currently, the power surrounding Julia''s heart was probably not going to disappear easily.


    Because the flow and density must move to protect her.


    She will have to sleep in aa for a very long time.


    And the other thing, though, in fact, its almost impossible .


    Matheus stared at Fernan''s face, who was silently waiting for him to speak.


    A method that was close to impossible. However, given the position and great army the Grand Duke had, he could foretell the possibility.


    We must find the High Priest, the agent of God.


    God''s agent?"


    Fernan asked, as if forcing his words into his head.


    "Yes. They existed hundreds of years ago, but my guess is that they must be hiding somewhere on the continent.


    Matheus took a small breath and gently grabbed his hands. And he continued with a firm voice.


    With them, it is possible to regenerate the stopped functions of the body. Of course, they can also restore Julias condition.


    At those words, Fernan''s dead eyes lit up in an instant. While he looked at Julia, Matheus voice continued.


    However, it is unclear where they are.


    But, we can pick out where the possibilities are. Even so, it would still be broad


    Even if I have to search all over the continent, I will find him.


    Carefully holding Julias droopy hand, Fernan murmured.


    Matheus looked at him, then slowly lowered his eyelids.


    Yes, then what matters right now is time.


    The key was whether Julia could hold out until Fernan found the High Priest.


    Fernan raised his head and looked at Matheus. Their eyes met in the air.


    "Time will help Julia, because her god seems to be giving her herst chance for a long time."


    Matheus spoke resolutely.


    So, dont worry. I will protect her from anyone''s ess by putting up a protective shield with my power."


    okay"


    Fernan, who barely nodded his head, looked down at Julia again.


    Holding her hand tightly with an anxious gaze, then slowly releasing it, Fernan stood up. Still, everything was not clear. However, he did not have time to ponder and understand this situation for a long time.


    Now, he had to think only of saving Julia.

 Chapter 78

    Chapter 78


    While Fernan left, Julia was moved to a quiet room on the lowest floor of the temple.


    Matheus ced a barrier of holy power around it, preventing unauthorized people from entering.


    Julia.


    Seeing Julia lying neatly on the bed, Cedrics eyes widened.


    Julia looked like she was just sleeping, and it seemed that she had already turned into a cool corpse.


    He expected this would happen someday, but when he saw her lying there, his heart seemed to be more broken than he thought.


    Sighing heavily, Cedric slowly reached out and touched the back of her hand. Her hand, without a movement, was cold without a single warmth.


    The Grand Duke has left to find a way to save you.


    Cedric muttered quietly. Perhaps she was listening, thinking so, he kept talking to her.


    "I let him know why you became like this."


    .


    "It''s his fault that you''ve be like thisI wanted you to know.


    Cedric recalled the day Fernan left, revealing aplex face.


    In fact, he knew that the reason he had told the Grand Duke was a mixture of personal feelings. And the expression on the Grand Dukes face at that time hadn''t disappeared from his mind for several days.


    <i>At least, he should know why Julia has be like this, shouldn''t he?''</i>


    That day Cedric threw thorny words at the back of the Grand Duke who was leaving the temple.


    The gaze of the Grand Duke who stopped his hastily walking and looked back at him was already sufficiently damaged. Nevertheless, Cedric put another dagger in him.


    <b><i>The day Julia first ran away from you. She wouldn''t have been like this if she didnt jump off the cliff and used her powers.</i></b>


    <b><i> What do you mean?</i></b>


    The other day, the Grand Duke had tried to kill Cedric, but he didnt reveal any more trivial killing intent this time. That was probably because he couldn''t afford it.


    <b><i>It means that the more she uses her power, the more her body will be destroyed.</i></b>


    <b><i></i></b>


    <b><i>If you had let her go from the beginning, she wouldn''t have used her powers.</i></b>


    As he engraved Cedric''s words one by one, Fernans face was stained with despair that he couldn''t even notice.


    Because he probably didn''t know that he was the indirect cause of Julia''s bing this way.


    Cedric didn''t stop and put the wedge in.


    <b><i>Before that, do you know, Grand Duke? The reason why Julia threw herself down the cliff.</i></b>


    Even though he had already given him enough despair, Cedric threw another arrow.


    <b><i>At the time, Julia didnt know how to protect myself with her power.</i></b>


    The only application of her power was to cover her presence or to move a short distance in an instant.


    In other words, she wouldn''t have thought she would survive after she fell off the cliff.


    <b><i>So, Julia decided that she''d rather die than go back to the Grand Duke.</i></b>


    When Fernan looked up at Cedrics cold words, Cedric could clearly see the process in which the Grand Dukes face copsed at once.


    As a priest who should have his kindness, it was the first time he had pushed anyone so hard.


    He didn''t know that the Grand Duke would fall so easily with just a single word. But it wasn''t actually Cedric who brought down the overwhelming man. In the end, it was Julia.


    After recollecting, Cedric let out a long sigh. And he looked at Yulia again with hisplicated eyes.


    At least for now Hes the one you need the most, and I shouldn''t have said that.


    Wealth, power and fame, even the army. The Grand Duke was looking for a way to save Julia using everything he had.


    He (Cedric) couldnt do anything. It was self-evident that the Grand Duke could do more for Julia than Cedric could do for her.


    Cedric, raised his lips bitterly, continued.


    And, Julia.


    .


    Actually, in your face not long ago, I could tell theplex feelings you had for him.


    At one time, Cedric was proud that he was the only one who could be Julias important person. When she was with him, Julia always lookedfortable, and she often had a smile on her face. However, his thoughts were shattered when they encountered the Grand Duke not long ago on a passenger ship.


    <b><i>Im sorry, Cedric. I''m fine, so you don''t have to help me anymore.</i></b>


    That time he couldnt take his steps even though Julia told him to leave over and over again.


    Not long after, Cedric turned around and found Julia''s first expression.


    Blue eyes that fluttered while looking up at the Grand Duke holding her.


    Hatred and resentment. And it clearly existed somewhereaffection.


    Julia, she still loved him.


    That was when Cedric realized that there was an inessible line between him (Cedric) and Julia.


    The fact that the Grand Duke upied arger part in her than expected.


    If hees up with a way to save you


    Cedric paused and hesitated, then spoke slowly.


    Are you going to go back to him?


    Cedric gently grabbed her hand.


    He wanted to stay with Julia for a long time, even as a friend.


    But when he noticed Julias feelings for the Grand Duke, he felt a slight regret.


    <i>Should I have confessed my feelings to you at least once? Even if youre not going back to him.</i>


    Cedric bit his lips and let go of Julias hand.


    Wake me up safely, Julia.


    Now was not the time to think about his feelings.


    Cedric lowered his eyes and prayed that God would be with the Grand Duke who had gone a long way.


    ***


    A month has passed since Fernan left the empire.


    There were four representatives of God. They each stayed at the temples representing the four continents, and they served the role of providing oracles and protecting the whole country.


    Fernan, who was riding the horse, recalled what he heard from Matheus.


    <b><i>Even so, they won''t stay near the temple. Rather, it''s more likely that theyll be hiding in ces that arepletely unexpected.</i></b>


    A ce where no one dares to expect a divine priest to stay.


    It was probably the poorest, least noticeable, small ce.


    Fernan divided the district into three areas and assigned the knights.


    There was still an absurdck of clues, but there was no room for despair. For now, he just has to focus on the search.


    So, it was right to erase the voice that was constantly filling up his head.


    <b><i>It means that the more Julia uses her holy power, the more her body will be destroyed.</i></b>


    Still, at the voice that came to mind again, Fernan finally bit his pale lips.


    <b><i>So, Julia decided that it would be better for her to die than to return to the Grand Duke.</i></b>


    In the end, the hand holding the reins gained strength. Fernan bit his lips harshly.


    <i>So, what happened to Julia.. It was my fault. She wouldn''t have gotten to this point if I had let her go free from the start. If I didnt drive her to the edge of the cliff, she would have been living well.</i>


    Fernan was confirmed once again that he was Julias unhappiness and hellish until the end.


    Yes, till the end


    Ha."


    From the month before Fernan left the empire, he felt a constant urge to strangle himself. He felt like putting the knife in Julia''s hand and telling her to stab him several times.


    d*mn it."


    There was a sense of humiliation in the voice that recited profanity.


    Now was not the time to be eroded by this personal feeling. It was not toote to suffer and be punished after saving Julia. Fernan struggled to erase all his thoughts.


    Meanwhile, he finally reached the junction.


    "Your Highness, we have finished our search of the eastern vige."


    The knight who returned from searching the East hurriedly reported.


    "After checking the residents one by one, we even looked at the structure of the vige, but didn''t see anything unusual."


    "Okay, well done."


    Fernan nodded and beckoned him to move to the next section. The knights soon moved to another ce.


    The characteristics of the high priests heard from Matheus was not only that they would stay in the most invisible ce.


    They have mysterious powers enough to be called God''s representatives, so there was definitely a possibility that they could secretly use that power to take care of someone.


    For example, self-proiming the role of a member of the slums. So, if he inquires deeply, he will be able to find someone with something unusual. If they have the power close to God, it will be more difficult to go unnoticed no matter where they are or what they do.

 Chapter 79

    Chapter 79


    "okay The Grand Duke does not stay on his estate, right?


    At that time, the emperor was still following Fernan''s whereabouts and current circumstances.


    In the meantime, what he learned was that Fernan was currently leaving the Empire and traveling to various countries.


    "Have you found out what hes doing?"


    Yes, Your Majesty. It is difficult to pinpoint the exact whereabouts, but he seems to be looking for someone.


    The emperor, who had narrowed his eyes and assessed the situation, gave the order.


    Keep chasing. What is he looking for, and where does the movement lead?


    Yes, Your Majesty!


    Doubt crept on the emperor''s face. Since he was an emperor who had to get his hands on Fernan''s current status in the past, he could predict that something serious was involved in this recent situation.


    It was said he (Fernan) had an agent taking care of the Grand Duchy, and he was going to be away for a long time.


    <i>Strange. He even killed the marquis, and now he is looking for people?</i>


    The Emperor''s question began with the death of the Marquis.


    Fernan, of course, did not like the Marquis from the beginning. But he wasn''t an extreme enough man to do the ughter on his own.


    <i>Hed rather expose the evidence that he was spying on the Marquis to the world. He felt the need to kill him, leaving behind the seeds of doubt.</i>


    Of course, like a thorough man, he handled the matter without leaving a single piece of evidence. So no one was sure he killed the Marquis.


    But at least the Emperor was convinced that Fernan was the culprit.


    <i>After all, the Marquis has lost influence for a long time, so there is nothing I can do about it </i>


    Hmmm, the emperor, who coughed in vain, gently brushed his beard. It seemed like something was going on, but it was frustrating because he couldn''t know for sure.


    But, at least, this was the first time Fernan had ever looked disheveled. It was rare for him to be stepped on so easily.


    If he understood exactly what Fernan was away for There may be some excuse to take advantage of this opportunity to overpower the Grand Duke.


    ***


    Meanwhile, the Marchioness, who had not appeared in social circles for a while, attended a party for the first time in more than two months.


    Upon finding her in a small banquet room, thedies began to whisper all kinds of words.


    It is really sad. To lose her daughter and then her husband


    "I know, right. It seems like just yesterday that she had all sorts of prestige because her family produced a Grand Duchess. Thats why I think glory is only a moment.


    The sneers and gossips of thedies, who pretended to pity the Marchioness, were clearly embedded in her.


    Suppress her boiling anger, the Marchioness headed to her table.


    There was still hope for her. It was her eldest son, Grayson.


    Grayson, who decided to inherit the title earlier than expected due to the death of the Marquis, would surely be able to raise a family soon.


    The reason why the Marchioness came to the party today was to find a mate for Grayson.


    Even if it wasn''t a woman from a huge family, if she had either wealth or fame, it would be good for now.


    While the Marchioness, who had a casual expression on her face, moved from one table to another, the topic of the peoples conversation continued to change.


    Oh,e to think of it, the Grand Duke Caesar has been hiding a woman. Is she still in the dark?


    Thedies started talking about the new topic.


    "Yes. The Grand Duke doesn''t even set foot in the capital unless it''s an official event, so everything is unknown.


    Like a party where you can enjoy other people''s stories, various words surrounding the Grand Duke were pouring out.


    By the way, didn''t Young Lady ir once say she had a special rtionship with His Highness? She also said the rtionship between the Grand Duke and the Grand Duchess wasnt good.


    As someone ventured out, there was a moment of silence on the table.


    Like the hyenas that found their prey, thedies'' eyes gleamed.


    Do you want to say that the Grand Dukes hidden lover is Lady ir? But , she was engaged not long ago.


    Oh my gosh, thats why the Grand Duke is hiding more! Because his lover has another opponent!


    The Marchioness, who listened to the pouring words one by one, could not hide her difort. But thedies, already in their excitement, did not notice her displeasure. Then, someone else spoke.


    Its not Lady ir.


    The eyes of thedies suddenly focused on one ce.


    There sat a young woman who looked unfamiliar.


    Actually, I think I saw the Grand Duke not long ago. He was holding a woman..


    Oh my,. Is that a true story?


    Thedies inquired as if they were talking a child, and smirked.


    It was because they thought that youngdy just spoke whatever


    because she wanted to be involved in the conversation.


    Yes. Although he was wearing a robe, he was obviously simr to the Grand Duke.


    Didnt you just debut in the social world? But how did you immediately recognize the Grand Duke''s face? The Grand Duke does not often attend official banquets.


    In response to the words thrown at her, the youngdy stuttered and blushed.


    "That I know by looking at portraits while studying the royal genealogy..


    Oh my, is that so? Really, everyone. Rather, I bought new pottery a while ago


    They thought it was not worth listening to anymore, so the discussion of thedies quickly shifted elsewhere. As the youngdy lowered her head and disappeared to another ce, the Marchioness gaze became somewhat subtle.


    After a while when the party finished, the Marchioness approached the youngdy.


    Can you tell me the details of the story you told earlier?


    When asked suddenly, the youngdy blushed with embarrassment.


    "Yes Yes? The story earlier.oh do you mean the Grand Duke?


    As the youngdy stuttered, the Marchioness nodded as if frustrated.


    Tell me more. When and where did you see the Grand Duke?


    That was, maybe two months ago I followed my mother to the Temple of Ilion and got lost


    "Lost?"


    I happened to see the Grand Duke rushing through the corridor.


    "Do you remember the appearance of the woman he was holding?"


    uh.


    The youngdy, who raised her gaze upward as if searching her memories, shook her head.


    No, they both wore big robes I didn''t look closely at her appearance.


    Then do you know for sure that the man is the Grand Duke?


    "Yes? Yes, definitely.


    The Youngdy, who was intimidated by the interrogating voice and blurred the end of his speech, added in a quiet voice.


    "I''m sure it''s right. It''s a very memorable face. I couldn''t forget his face from the day I saw the portrait...


    Looking at the youngdy p, who blushed while talking, the Marchioness felt suspicious.


    Perhaps that youngdy was delusional and didnt know what she saw.


    But


    As she turned back and exited the party, the Marchioness thought for a while longer. For some reason, she kept feeling unsettled.


    Of course, even if what the youngdy saw was true, it had nothing to do with her family anymore.


    As she thought so and tried to get rid of her thoughts, a n suddenly appeared in her mind.


    <i>perhaps </i>


    If it was really true that the Grand Duke took someone to the temple, she had a gut feeling that she could make good use of this information.


    She knew from her husband, the dead Marquis, that the Emperor wanted to find fault in the Grand Duke in every way.


    He also wanted to get his hands on every move of the Grand Duke.


    So, on behalf of her deceased husband, if she gets this useful information to the emperor, she might be able to get her family back into the emperor''s eyes.


    Anyone out there?


    The Marchioness summoned her servants. And she gave her orders with eyes gleaming with scheming.


    Go to Temple of IIion right now.


    Of course, the temple would not be obedient to tell her the information, but if possible, she would have to buy a priest.

 Chapter 80

    Chapter 80


    It seems like someone is trying to figure out whats going on inside the temple.


    Matheus, who entered the bottom floor of the temple, inside the blue barrier, whispered quietly.


    At that, Cedric, who was sitting next to Julia, got up.


    Julia is here Did someone notice?"


    Cedric''s eyes began to shake.


    Until now, Julia had never been moved from one ce to another in this room. Besides, there were only two people in the temple who knew she was here.


    Cedric bit his lip with an anxious expression, and Matheus gave a calm answer.


    It wont be that. Perhaps someone happened to see the Grand Dukee here.


    Matheus, who lowered his gaze slightly, spoke slowly.


    A few months ago, a woman asked a priest if the Grand Duke was here with a woman.


    Fortunately, the question was blocked by the priest under Matheus.


    When he replied that there was no such thing, the woman who tried to figure out something went back without fussing.


    But we also need to pay close attention. If something happens while the Grand Duke is away, it will be difficult.


    Yes.


    Cedric looked down at Julia again and asked.


    Did the Grand Dukemunicate?


    It had been a long time since the Grand Duke left the Empire. Matheus was immediately sending a letter to him whenever major clues about the High Priests were found.


    After sending the records of Carnosia three weeks ago, there has been nomunication.


    Carnosia was a small territory in the Western Continent.


    As a result of interacting with various temples, Matheus discovered records of a priest with strange abilities appearing in Carnosia several decades ago.


    He will be busy with just the search, so he wont have time to report the situation.


    After calmly speaking, Matheus looked down at Julia, who was lying there without any change from three months ago.


    There was no change in her. All of her functions had stopped, except for her faintly beating heart.


    Of course, she was the same as her appearance. Without having to wash her body, get nutrients, or take care of the basics.


    It just seemed like she was sleeping for a very long time.


    It''s been quite a while, but fortunately her heart hasn''t stopped. Its fortunate, but I am afraid when this heart will stop.


    Cedric looked at her pale face and muttered anxiously.


    He was thankful that Julia endured well for three months, but at the same time, he was also worried about her.


    Cedric, you said once. Julia is loved by God."


    Matheus still voice fell, and Cedric raised his head and looked at him.


    "That''s right. I''m finally convinced."


    "Don''t worry. I''m sure everything will be fine."


    Matheus a kind person, but he wasn''t the kind of person who offered vague, unfounded constion. So now those words have createdplete trust in Cedric.


    ***


    At that time, Fernan had just entered the outskirts of Carnosia.


    He was in the process of figuring out the topography of Carnosia based on the information he had received from Matheus a few weeks ago.


    At that time, Lloyd, who had just returned from reconnaissance, ran into Fernans ce. He hurriedly reported to Fernan, who was examining the map.


    Your Highness, its exactly as you suspected. Someone is following us."


    Fernan then raised his head and looked at Lloyd.


    "It''s not knights under the emperor. They werent even wearing the seal of a noble family."


    Fernan, who thought briefly with his gaze down slightly, responded with a calm voice.


    "They must have sent them on purpose. It must be the Emperor''s work."


    The process of leaving the Grand Duchy was morex than usual, so the information must have leaked to the emperor who was following his every move.


    Until now, he did not have time to worry about the emperor, so he ignored it, but he could not leave it as it was.


    "How many?"


    "It seems that there are currently about a dozen or so found."


    Fernan raised his dim gaze and immediately gave the order.


    If you find them, kill them immediately.


    "Yes, Your Highness."


    For two months, Julia was holding up well, but he still couldn''t rx. So he had to find the high priest as soon as possible.


    It was more difficult than usual to findposure because the emperor was hanging around in such a sensitive situation.


    Each time, Fernan remembered Julia''s face.


    It was very faint, but the face of her who once looked at him and smiled.


    Relying on all his spirits with that little smile, Fernan regained hisposure. After that, Fernan, who folded the map, got on the horse without dy.


    Having checked all the terrain, it was his turn to scour the entire globe of Carnosia.


    *


    After dividing the sections and sending his knights, Fernan entered a small town.


    It was a foggy town.


    A dark and gloomy atmosphere greeted him as if a border had been drawn with another vige.


    "Your Highness, I feel the presence of armed soldiers."


    Lloyd, who was silent, opened his mouth. Fernan was already feeling the presence, so he just nodded his head without changing his expression.


    The number was more than ten, contrary to Lloyds expectations.


    It would be better to change ces for now.


    "Yes."


    This was a foreign country and a vige inhabited by civilians.


    Having a conflict in a ce like this was nothing short of a preemptive attack on this country.


    Fernan turned his horse with a still face. Since it was still the start of the vige, it was not difficult to move.


    As the fog cleared, the presence of the soldiers was felt closer.


    He led his knights and turned all the way to the mountain.


    The mountain they arrived at was difficult to move due to theplex terrain. However, Fernan and his knights had already finished figuring out the terrain of this ce.


    This was the best ce to drive out the enemy.


    It would be better to kill everyone here and start the search again.


    "Yes!"


    At hismand, the knights scattered all at once.


    As their movements stopped, the hidden emperor''s soldiers began to appear one by one.


    Fernan looked around with alert eyes. Judging by the shapes, it seemed that they were shadow knights. (Undercover knights)


    They kept their identities hidden and fought only for the imperial family.


    In other words, it meant that even if Fernan captured all of them, it was difficult to confirm their identity, so the emperor could not be held responsible.


    In the end, the emperor used these shadow knights to deal with Fernan.


    Perhaps he thought that the time Fernan had been away for a long time was an opportunity, but even so, it was foolish.


    Fernan stared at the fog that filled the surroundings with a sharp gaze. Then, someone threw a sword from the side.


    Fernan, who turned his head to avoid the de at once, got off his horse.


    Swoosh, his face was cold when he pulled out his sword.


    He didn''t have time to waste, so he couldnt let them follow him like this.


    The battle continued for a long time, kill or be killed, the soldiers came in endlessly.


    Meanwhile, a thick fog began to cover the view.


    Fernan clicked his tongue as he confronted the five soldiers who rushed at him. Strangely, he felt far beyond the fog that filled his eyes.


    Your Highness, are you okay?


    A knights voice was heard from afar, asking for his well-being. Fernan struck down the shadow soldier who rushed behind him without time to answer.


    Looking at the sky, which was bing more and more cloudy, Fernan fixed his sword. At the same time, he lightly dodged the de that flew from somewhere again and shed the soldier on the nk straight away.


    As soon as he stepped back in that state, Fernan noticed that half of thend he stepped on was empty.


    Fernan quickly looked back. Behind him was aplete cliff.


    He obviously moved ording to the terrain. The cliff of this mountain should not be in this direction.


    He narrowed his brow, stabbed another soldier who was running towards him, and drew his sword. Something was strange. It was as if something intangible had led him to this cliff.


    Fernan, who turned his body as it was, escaped from the edge of the cliff. But at that moment, the ce was shed.


    Fernan felt something like smoke grabbing him and pulling him down. His body was tilted as it was.

 Chapter 81

    Chapter 81


    A slum in southern Carnosia. The small town at the foot of the cliff was always foggy overhead.


    Therefore, the shape of the vige was not clearly visible from the top of the cliff.


    At first nce, the scene when the fog had lifted looked like a group of abandoned houses.


    So a rumor circted among those who climbed the mountain. It was said that the ce at the bottom of the cliff was the den of monsters.


    It was said that those monsters drag people down from the cliff, making it impossible to leave their vige forever.


    Its a den of demons, isnt it really funny? No one would have thought that a priest would be in a ce like this.


    The middle-aged man who had been reciting rumors grinned at the old man. An old man in shabby in clothes, healing the wounds of the child in front of him, clicked his tongue.


    Its better that way. Because of those childish rumors, no bandits have ever invaded this town.


    Contrary to the somewhat blunt voice, the hand that healed the child''s injured ankle was very kind. White light from the old man''s wrinkled fingertips covered her deeply scratched wounds and swollen ankles.


    Watching her scars disappear in an instant, the child who had just been whining about her pain just wiped away her tears and gleamed in her eyes.


    Grandfather, are you a wizard?


    (*kids call old people grandpa or grandma without being rted.)


    When the child, who hadpletely stopped crying, asked a question with bright eyes, a young man standing by her side on behalf of the old man answered.


    "No.This man is greater than a wizard.


    Wow !


    As the child eximed, the old man who was staring at her, finally finished the treatment. Seeing her clean ankles without a trace of injuries, the child jumped in excitement.


    "Thank you!"


    After the child nodded and ran outside, the old man got up.


    I dont know if youre overdoing it.


    As the old man straightened his back, the young man hurriedly brought water.


    How difficult is it to do something with the basics?


    The old man gulped and emptied his ss of water with a look of reassurance. The young man who took the empty ss from him responded.


    "Well, youre old now.


    The old man, Kalosa, was a priest over 300 years old. But his appearance only seemed to be an old man of about seventy.


    It was several decades ago that Kalosa began staying in this vige. It was a time when a gue began to circte in the vige.


    Since it was such a poor slum, it had no support from the state, and as a result they never sent help.


    Meanwhile, thanks to Kalosa, who appeared like a savior, the gue in the vige disappeared within a month.


    Since then, Kalosa has been a member of this vige without anypensation.


    Its very foggy today. As if anything would happen."


    The man who followed Kalosa out murmured. Fog, which was thicker than usual, covered the streets all over the ce.


    As Kalosa was walking down the street with his hand behind his back, he saw someone hurriedly running through the mist from afar.


    Priest!


    Someone who was sweating profusely shouted and hurriedly pointed in a certain direction.


    "Hey, its a dead man down the cliff over there!"


    The unconscious man, who was carried in by two young men who belonged to a strong family in the vige, had one of his armspletely crushed.


    Judging from the fact that he was found under the cliff, it seemed that there was a fall ident, but the man''s injuries were not that serious considering the height of the cliff, probably because he used some tricks during the fall.


    Kalosa murmured, scattering a healing light on the bloody man''s shoulder.


    "He''s not dead, he''s just unconscious. Stop the fuss and get out of here.


    In response to the order, which seemed to be annoying, the two men who were standing impatiently turned their feet.


    When his surroundings became quiet, Kalosa squinted his eyes, scanning the injured man''s whereabouts.


    Just by looking at him, Kalosa could tell that he was not an ordinary person.


    Not to mention the clothes he was wearing, he was different from ordinary people in his appearance.


    This was because there had been countless people for hundreds of years who used to threaten him and say nonsense, such as bing their doctor because they would give him millions of gold.


    Well, I cant just leave him


    Kalosa lowered his hand and ced it on the injured man''s shoulder, where the blood had stopped.


    After closing the gaping skin by suturing it with strong force, Kalosa finally removed his hand.


    It would take three or four days for the unconscious man to wake up, as it has a healing power with a temporary anesthetic effect. For a moment, Kalosa looked at the unconscious man''s body. There were many old-looking scars all over his strong, muscr body.


    How reckless the young man has been using his body.


    With a sigh, he shook his head and left the room.


    ***


    It was a sunny day.


    <i>Your Highness.</i>


    Fernan slowly opened his eyes to the clear voice calling him.


    Julia, who was walking in front of him who was standing idly, looked back and raised the corners of her lips, and the sunlight was reflected in her gently curved blue eyes.


    His heart throbbed greatly. Fernan slowly reached out to her.


    He took one step at a time and approached her, but for some reason, Julia did not reach his hand. Rather, she only moved further and further away.


    He wanted to tell her not to go, but his voice didn''te out.


    Meanwhile, the sun hadpletely disappeared, and a hazy mist obscured his vision. In an instant, Julia''s appearancepletely disappeared.


    He frantically pierced the fog and went looking for Julia.


    Where is Julia, where did she go..


    All that came out of his throat was a rough scratching moan. The pain increased as if someone had put a knife in his throat.


    As he leaned against the shapeless wall and scanned his surroundings with bloodshot eyes, the fog gradually cleared up.


    Through the cleared fog, he could see the back of Julia standing upright.


    In the snowy background she stood at the edge of a sheer cliff.


    A river of winter was flowing beneath it.


    <i>Your Highness.</i>


    Not a friendly voice, but a call of deep resignation stopped him.


    Dark blue eyes without a single ray of light turned towards Fernan.


    <i> Being with you was hell for me.</i>


    So, as if begging him to let her go, Julia bowed her exhausted face.


    <i>Unfortunately, what I''ve been through is enough.</i>


    Fernan hurriedly ran to her, muttering as if he had no expectations.


    But this time it was the same. No matter how hard he tried to take a step, his feet were dragged into deeper mud.


    <i>D*mn it, no, Julia</i>


    Fernan tried to get out of the mud with all his might despite the pain as if his legs were about to be ripped apart, but Julia leaned her body down the cliff.


    Watching her fall, Fernan rushed down the cliff.


    ha ha ha.


    When he opened his eyes again, he was standing in front of arge door.


    Not even the sheer cliff, Julia who was drowning in the river, nor the pouring snow were nowhere to be found.


    He opened the door urgently like a madman and stepped inside. This time, the chilly summer wind and the blue sea beyond were revealed.


    In his bloody gaze, Julia, walking slowly on the sand, entered. Her eyes looking at him were gloomy.


    <i>Are you satisfied now?</i>


    Eyes full of resentment and hatred stared at him.


    Fernan, who was unable to speak, took her hand. At that moment, the background changed again, and this time an all-white and quiet room greeted him.


    A woman, lying neatly in the reversed picture, came in. It was Julia, who showed her pale face with her eyes closed, showed no movement.The only lips that showed redness.


    Red blood flowed from her lips to her delicate chin.


    <b><i>It means that the more she uses her power, the more her body will be damaged.</i></b>


    At that moment, the words he had once heard suddenly poured into his ears.


    <b><i>If you had let her go from the beginning, she wouldn''t have used her powers.</i></b>


    At the same time, Julia cried again and threw up blood. Her slender body drooped and she copsed.


    No noFernan hurriedly ran to her side, knelt down and embraced her body.


    But there was nothing in his hand.


    He gasped for breath and struggled to lift his head, but again there was nothing in his arms.


    No slender body, no warmth, no body scent, nothing. Fernan, who had been trembling violently, stretched out his hand in the empty air.


    Did I kill Julia? I, I..


    Hey, hey!"


    A stubborn voice from somewhere broke his thoughtspletely.


    Fernan, who raised his eyelids, bounced off the bed. As he breathed heavily and touched his mouth, he trembled. A scream-like tinnitus poured into his ears.


    Panting in pain for a long time, he finally lifted his head and saw a small, shabby room. And there was an old man standing next to him.

 Chapter 82

    Chapter 82


    Did you have a nightmare?


    Kalosa asked with a wrinkled frown. Fernan, who had been observing the situation for a moment, found a bandage wrapped around his shoulder and all over his arm.


    It was then that pain filled his body as if he had been mutted.


    Fernan, biting his lip and lowering his hand, took a deep breath, and his former memory gradually became clearer.


    He was clearly facing off with his enemies. Then, without realizing it, he reached the edge of the cliff and stumbled on his foot.


    No, to be exact, something like fog grabbed his ankles and pulled him down.


    While Fernan groped for that sensation, Kalosa asked again.


    If you wake up now, the pain will be severe, are you okay?


    His arm was healed by Kalosa''s holy power, leaving no trace.


    However, due to the serious injury, the nerves would not fully heal, and the crushing pain was still felt.


    Besides, he should have been asleep for three or four days under anesthesia, but he woke up in less than two days.


    That would make his pain even worse, but he didn''t groan except for a frown on his forehead.


    After a while, Fernan stared at Kalosa with his slightly sharper eyes. Then he looked down at his arm again.


    A bandage tied without a single point of fraying. Pain as if one of his arms had been torn off.


    And the old man in front of him.


    For a moment, Fernan''s eyes shed weakly. It was because this situation suddenly felt strange.


    Was it purely a coincidence that he hade this far? Obviously, the fog that dragged him down from the cliff was not an illusion.


    Fernan narrowed his brow slightly. Then, almost reflexively, he untied the bandage on his arm.


    No, what are you doing?


    Fernan''s expression hardened as he looked down at his bare arm exposed outside as Kalosa mumbled absurdly.


    There was pain, but there were no scars.


    Seeing Fernans hardened face, Kalosa spoke.


    I used my powers. Fortunately, the injuries were not serious and they were treated quickly.


    Power. Then this old man was a priest.


    Fernan jumped out of bed and looked around. Then he looked at the small window in the wooden wall.


    The street was covered with fog. He saw old wooden houses and tents scattered about. It was a slum street.


    At this moment, he remembered what Matheus had said.


    <b><i>They are more likely to hide in ces no one expected. It will be the poorest, most inconspicuous, small ce.</i></b>


    A ce where no one dared to expect a divine agent to live in.


    Fernan turned around again and faced Kalosa, who was staring at him.


    He could sense it. All of this was by no means a coincidence.


    A priest with excellent healing powers living in such a small and shabby town.


    Fernan had been with priests famous for their healing powers during a long war.


    Even though he was a priest with excellent healing power, he had never seen him heal a wound of such pain without leaving a trace.


    So, the priest in front of him right now was ..


    Are you Gods agent?


    At the question without back and forth, Kalosa''s eyes widened slightly, then changed subtly.


    With his eyes raised and wide open, Kalosa stared at Fernan, then sighed.


    God''s agent. It had been 100 years since he had heard such a name.


    When Kalosa didn''t answer, Fernan rushed closer to him.


    I saw a record of a priest with strange powers appearing here in Carnosia hundred years ago.


    Perhaps the priest in the record is you.


    Contrary to the assumed tone, his expression was full of conviction.


    Kalosa seemed to gauge his intentions, and then let out a calm voice.


    "That''s possible. Because I''m a priest who is superior to ordinary ones.


    "Then.


    As Fernan was about to say something more, Kalosa raised his hand to interrupt him.


    But I dont know what kind of monstrous sound this is, because Im only that much of an agent of God.


    Before any further misunderstanding, when Kalosa gave a negative statement, Fernan replied in a calm yet confident voice.


    Just by looking at this arm, anyone can tell that you are beyond the realm of an ordinary priest.


    You are very stubborn. Yeah, it looks like you''ve been through some wars


    Kalosa waved his hand as if it was bothersome to talk to him, and gave an order.


    Anyway, I dont know about that, so go ahead. You look like a busy man, so go your own way."


    Then he got up slowly and walked across the room.


    Fernan, who followed him straight away, hurriedly stopped in front of him.


    Help me.


    With a voice that forcibly stopped his feet, Kalosa raised his head. Fernan, who hadpletely covered the front of the door, continued speaking in an anxious voice.


    My wife is suffering from a side effect of her power.


    What kind of trick is this?


    Fernan continued to speak firmly as he watched Kalosa squint his eyes.


    I heard that power and vitality are intertwined, and the more you use it, the more your life will be devoured.


    He raised his dangerously trembling eyes.


    If you are the priest, you know what it is.


    Kalosa blinked slowly without saying a word. In fact, there were very few diseases in the world that Kalosa was not aware of.


    The side effect of power that Fernan said was also a familiar illness to Kalosa. He had treated it with his holy water several times a long time ago.


    I was told that by drinking the Holy Water of the High Priest, he could renew every function of the body.


    Huh.


    Seeing that Fernan even knew that fact, it seemed that all the old records were outdated. While Kalosa showed an interesting gaze, Fernan continued to speak.


    And I am convinced that you are one of those high priests who are agents of God.


    Fernan, who said so, looked like he would do anything to save his wife. In other words, if Kalosa continued to take his feet off as he was, it would seem like he would be dragged away by force.


    Seeing Fernan''s eyes that began to sh, Kalosa slowly shook his head.


    This is very


    He felt like he was being threatened somehow. Kalosa, who was muttering, finally let out a shaky sigh and continued to speak quietly.


    Yes, Gods agent. There was a time when I was called by that name.


    Kalosa, who changed his tone in an instant, nodded with an expressionless face.


    Fernan looked desperate, and it was impossible to keep denying.


    As if he was ready to sit down and talk, Kalosa crossed his arms and walked into the room.


    I dont know where you found the record, but its true that I saved someone with holy water a long time ago.


    While he floundered on the old wooden chair, Fernan, who followed him, stood there anxiously waiting for him to speak.


    But now, the value of holy water has changed a lot from that time. Hundreds of years have passed, so the power of the holy water that I have has declined significantly.


    That means


    "I''m not sure if I''ll be able topletely heal all the functions.


    The high priest''s holy water meant blood.


    It was during the time when Kalosa saved people with holy water when his blood was filled with holy power without a single impurity.


    Hundreds of years have passed now, and he has aged that much, and since he has not been able to worship God himself for a while, his spiritual powers must be quite poor.


    Even if its not perfect, can you save her?


    Fernan clenched his trembling hand tightly. There was a tension that could not be hidden in the flowing voice.


    Kalosa shrugged his shoulders and replied calmly.


    "Yes. I can save her.


    However, he may not be able to fully restore all functions.


    Holy power was actually the closest to the brain. Therefore, there was a high possibility that Julia would lose all her memories. However, it was enough to save a person just before her death.


    Soon, Kalosa lifted his chin with a shaggy white beard.


    So If I give you my holy water, what will you give me?


    If there was something to give, there must be something to receive in return. To Kalosa''s stern question, Fernan answered without hesitation.


    I will give you anything.


    For now, the only person who could save Julia was this High Priest. Whatever he wanted, Fernan was willing to give it to him.


    Kalosa shrugged his shoulders and stood up.


    Well, dont worry, Im not going to ask for something so great to make such a wretched face.


    After passing Fernan, he approached the door again.


    And I mean. It would be good to know. You are lucky.


    He met one of the high priests who had been hiding from persecution for hundreds of years.


    Few would have ever thought that the high priests were still alive, but it was possible that God had pitied the defeated man who hade all the way here with unwavering faith.


    Yes, perhaps this was Gods arrangement. Kalosa muttered inwardly, then stepped outside.

 Chapter 83

    Chapter 83


    After Fernans sudden disappearance in battle, his knights calmly dealt with the emperor''s soldiers.


    Some were held hostage just in case, and a couple of soldiers who fled were left alone and the knights hurriedly searched for their missing Lord.


    However, it was around that time that Fernan appeared in the temporary barracks on his own feet after two days passed without even finding any traces of their Lord.


    Your Highness!


    Lloyd, who saw him running from afar on horseback, rushed out.


    Fernan was riding a horse with a face that seemed to have no serious injuries.


    However, Lloyd found that he was holding the reins with only one hand, unlike usual.


    Lloyd asked urgently, seeing him skillfully dismounting from his horse.


    "Your highness, what happened to you?"


    Fernan looked at the aligned knights, leaving Lloyd looking at him.


    Fortunately, there seemed to be only a few injuries or deaths.


    Even in his absence, it meant that the battle had ended sessfully.


    "Good job."


    As if nothing had happened, the knights silently bowed under the brief descent. But Lloyd made a loud voice as ifmenting.


    Effort is not a problem! Do you know how worried we were? That right arm is injured, isn''t it?"


    Lloyd poured out his rapid-fire cannons. It was a tone that had lost half of his politeness. Unlike Lloyd, who was panicking, Fernan gave orders straight away with a calmly organized face.


    Im injured, so hurry up and get ready.


    As he sat down calmly, Lloyd, who had just regained his sanity, replied with a frown on his forehead.


    "Yes? But


    Lloyd, who was about to ask if he couldn''t find the High Priest, suddenly found an old man standing leisurely behind him.


    The tall old man shrugged his shoulders at Lloyd, stroking the mane of his horse.


    No way, that person.


    As if to answer Lloyd''s doubts, Fernan continued to carry out his orders.


    End the search. Well return to the Temple of Ilion immediately.


    ***


    While Fernan led his knights on a frantic march, the Emperor faced his soldiers who had returned alive.


    So, during the battle, the Grand Duke just disappeared?


    The Emperor looked at the kneeling knight with his eyes wide open.


    He was the Emperor''s shadow knight who came back alive after confronting the Grand Dukes knights.


    Even though the Emperor had chosen and sentpetent knights, and he was far superior in numbers, only one returned alive.


    Another survivor died of an injury on the way back.


    But there was no time to check.


    Yes, I think he might have fallen off a cliff I''m sorry."


    There was fresh blood on the forehead of the knight who barely made it to the imperial pce after oveing his injuries.


    However, the Emperor was concentrating only on the topic of The Grand Duke who fell from the cliff, and did not pay attention to such trivial matters.


    Naturally, he did not feel any regret that all of the capable knights were ughtered.


    The Emperor, unable to hide his wriggling lips, gently covered his mouth,


    Then you''d better secretly send someone to see if the body has been found.


    Yes, I will.


    As the knight limped out of the audience room, the emperor who tapped the armrest of his throne finally put on a pleasant smile on his face.


    Just the assumption that Fernan might have died made him feel like all the congestion that had umted throughout his life disappeared.


    Staring at the golden tapestry hanging across from him, the emperor couldn''t stopughing for a long time.


    Of course, he knew very well that Fernan wasn''t going to die so easily.


    Expectations ahead of time were likely to lead to further disappointmentter.


    Still, he couldn''t help but get excited.


    <i>Even if he didnt die, it would be nice if he came back crippled at the very least.</i>


    While the emperor, unable to suppress his low expectations, someone knocked on the door of the audience room.


    "Your Majesty, this is Rochester."


    The Emperor lifted his gaze, and looked at the chief servant as he entered the open door.


    Seeing the emperor''s gaze as if he was wondering what was going on, the chambein bowed his head abruptly.


    Marchioness Elody hase again What should I do?


    "What?"


    The emperor frowned. It wasn''t until a few days ago that the Marchioness began to visit the imperial pce.


    She came every day and asked to see the Emperor, but she was turned down and was sent away several times. However, she came back again.


    Tsk, tell her no and kick her out.


    The Emperor leaned against the backrest as if he was bothered. It was obvious that she came to beg him to take care of her crumbling family.


    However, the emperor had no intention of forming any further ties with the Elody family. Because the Marquis died and there was no use for that family.


    Yes, I will send her out.


    The chambein, who bowed his head, hurriedly went out, and then the emperor rxed his expression.


    But less than five minutester, the chambein knocked on the door again.


    Your Majesty. The Marchioness begged me to deliver this letter instead


    In the end, the emperor frowned and shouted in annoyance.


    Didnt I tell you to kick her out! Do I have to check every single letter? Such a fool.. !"


    Im sorry. Your Majesty."


    His body trembled greatly, and the chambein bowed his head on the floor.


    The emperor, who was about to wave his hand to dismiss the chambein, suddenly turned his attention to the letter in his hand.


    "Wait."


    The chambein, who was about to turn around, stopped at the word of the Emperor.


    "Bring the letter.


    Frightened by the emperor''s gesture, the chambein turned his body and moved closer. The emperor, who had taken the letter, immediately ripped open the envelope.


    His intention was to check what kind of urgent matter it was that made the Marchioness acted so rude and persistent.


    The Emperor skimmed the contents with a frown. His head, looking at the letter for a long time, tilted.


    The muttering voice that followed was questionable.


    "What kind of nonsense is this? What does she mean I have to search the Temple of Ilion?"


    If it was the Ilion Temple, it had a deep connection with the Imperial Pce in its own way.


    Although it was not a temple belonging to the Empire, the priests there were widely known, so there were many asions when they were called to the imperial family''s big ceremonies.


    The emperor continued to read the letter, his eyes narrowed.


    Then, at a certain point, he stopped and slowly put his chin on his hand.


    ha."


    The Emperor''s eyes gleamed in an instant. He immediately gave the order to the chambein.


    Go and get the Marchioness. She probably still hasnt left the imperial pce yet.


    Not like someone who, until just a moment ago, thought it was not worth listening to what the Marchioness had to say, suddenly, interest in the emperor''s eyes grew.


    Unexpectedly, it was because the Marchioness had given him a great deal of information.


    ***


    It was early in the morning when Fernan crossed the border after a harsh march. Riding the horse incredibly fast, he recalled what he had heard from Kalosa.


    <b><i>Holy water means the blood of my divinity. When it is absorbed into the body, every blood vessel in the body changes itsponents. Then, the stopped function will start running again.</i></b>


    He averted his gaze and looked at the carriage following a little behind.


    Because of the long march, Kalosa was following him in a carriage.


    Having obtained the holy water of Kalosa, Julia can wake up again.


    But, as he warned the other day, she wont be able to fully awaken all her functions.


    <i>Divine power is usually connected to life force, but in fact, it is the closest force to the brain, so even if she wakes up, there is a high chance that she will lose all her memories.</i>


    Only after hearing those words, Fernan could understand a little bit of Julias behavior. Because Julia had already lost her memory once.


    Fernan raised his dark face and stared at the moonlit wilderness. Feeling impatient, he elerated.


    Thinking that Julia would lose all her memories, he had a hard time holding onto reason.


    But on the other hand, he thought it might be better for her. That way she''ll be able to forget all about her past when he made her suffer. Fernan, who struggled to put asideplicated thoughts, entered the outside of the temple after a while.


    And at that moment, he noticed that the streets were cluttered somehow.

 Chapter 84

    Chapter 84


    The dirt on the street was rough. It was a trace that dozens of horses had passed at once.


    All of a sudden he had a bad feeling. Fernan raised his hand and stopped his knights for a moment.


    Something strange. Some protect the high priest and defend the outside of the temple. The rest follow me in secret.


    "Yes, sir!"


    At hismand, the knights were scattered in all directions. Fernan ran through the streets again with only a few knights.


    He turned and headed towards the back of the temple rather than the front entrance. There was a small passage.


    It was a secret passage that Matheus had told him the other day in case of any unforeseen circumstances.


    After a while, Fernan, who stopped his horse, killed his presence and entered the interior.


    As he went a little deeper inside, the temple in the dawn light was as quiet as nothing had happened.


    However, Fernan sensed a strange atmosphere somewhere.


    "Your highness, I''ll be back after a secret examination of the internal situation."


    The knight standing next to him whispered softly. He immediately nodded his head.


    As he turned his steps, he headed towards the parlor. The dim parlor was also strangely quiet.


    Julia was on the lowest floor of the temple. The entrance to the temple was not inside the temple building.


    A small stone pagoda at the end of the parlor. It was a passageway leading to a stone staircase ced inside.


    Fernan, who was hastening his steps, stopped halfway.


    Narrowing his eyes, he looked at the guards at the tower.


    Two men were rolling their eyes hard in the dark as if they were watching a.


    Fernan''s eyes, who were looking at them carefully, suddenly shed coldly.


    Realizing that the uneasy atmosphere he felt here was from them.


    Soon, Fernan walked up to the tower without hiding the sound of his steps.


    What, who are you?


    The men, who felt the presence, prepared themselves as if they were wary of the armed man.


    Fernan pulled his hood back roughly, revealing the face he had been hiding. He pulled out the sword he had hidden behind his waist.


    Before they could pull out their weapons, Fernan swung his sword and shed them with a single strike.


    As he went inside, he saw several more men standing in front of the barrier leading to the stone stairs.


    And in front of them, there was a priest who was using his holy power to break the barrier. (*the priest who was bought by the Marchioness is breaking the barrier that was protecting Julia)


    Wait, there is an intruder!


    When Fernan was fully revealed, the eyes of the men who saw his face widened in surprise.


    The men seemed to know who Fernan was.


    After a moment of pondering, they hurriedly pulled out the swords they had hidden in their arms.


    Fernan''s gaze reached the hilt of the sword they had pulled out. The pattern engraved there was the emblem of the imperial family.


    As expected, they were the Emperor''s knights.


    There was no time to think deeply about why they were breaking the barrier of the tower where Julia was located.


    As he raised his sword so that the de could be seen, the men immediately ran towards him.


    Attack!


    The sound of metal shing like that echoed through the tower several times. However, the battle did notst long.


    Having killed four men without difficulty, Fernan thrust his sword into thest remaining one.


    Fernan, who passed the fallen knights without even screaming, looked at the priest with a gleaming gaze.


    The priest, who was breaking the barrier with his holy power, dropped his knees and trembled.


    Please, spare me. I, I just !


    Fernan pointed the sword at the priest''s neck and murmured dangerously.


    Speak.


    Inside the temple there was a priest who had been bribed. As a result, the emperor''s knights were able to infiltrate this tower.


    While Fernan raised his de, someone shouted from the stone steps beyond the barrier.


    Your Highness!


    Fernan stopped his movement and raised his head. Cedric, standing in the middle of the stairs, was looking at him with a surprised expression.


    While he drew the sword he was aiming, Cedric hurriedly broke the barrier.


    Fernan said, grabbing the cor of the trembling priest and handing him over to Cedric.


    Im going to take Julia and move her ce right away.


    The reason for keeping the priest alive was to get urate information about what the emperor ordered.


    Without speaking for a long time, Fernan passed the barrier right away. Then he quickly descended the stairs and reached the door at the end of the hallway.


    As soon as je opened the door and, Julia, who was lying neatly on the bed, immediately caught his eye.


    Looking unchanged from hisst memory, she wore a white dress and peacefully closed eyes.


    Fernan, who hurriedly approached, stopped breathing for a moment, capturing her pale face


    Then, carefully reaching out his hand, he held Julia in his arms.


    As soon as they left the tower without dy, Cedric, who had handed over the priest to Matheus, followed after him.


    They left the temple as it was, and got on the carriage that the knights had prepared in advance.


    In the carriage leaving for the Grand Duchy, Cedric spoke in a calm voice.


    They appeared in the temple just before the Grand Duke arrived.


    They visited the temple at dawn and knew that Julia was in the tower and tried to break the barrier. They even convinced Cedric, who was trying to stop them, that they would give him a big reward if he gave up the woman inside.


    If the Grand Duke hade a littleter, perhaps trouble would have happened.


    As the barrier began to break, Cedric rushed to take Julia with him and tried to use his power. If he took her with him and used his powers, he probably wouldn''t be able to go far, but he had no other option.


    Meanwhile, amotion suddenly broke out beyond the barrier, and when he hurriedlye out to check, Fernan was killing all the uninvited guests.


    Cedric took a small breath and continued.


    Actually, someone came to the temple the other day. She asked about the woman the Grand Duke had brought a few months ago and left.


    Cedric bit his lips.


    Since then, I have been careful not to leak information, but I didn''t know there was a traitor in the temple."


    The priest who leaked information and tried to break the barrier said that he had been bribed by the emperor.


    If that priest helped with this task, he would receive an offer to transfer his position to a priest in the Imperial Pce with a huge reward.


    as expected.


    Fernan murmured small without taking his gaze away from Julia, who was in his arms.


    The Emperor was always eager to destroy him, so he would never have looked for anything rted to Fernan, even if it was a trivial witness.


    Not only did he send assassins to Carnosia to kill him, he also targeted Julia.


    Fernan''s chin tensed up for an instant and then slowly subsided.


    Let Julia stay in my castle for the time being. The High Priest was also sent there.


    The carriage carrying Kalosa was heading towards the castle ahead of them.


    By now the emperor would have known that his attempt was in vain, but he would not easily break his attention to the temple.


    So, for now, it was best to take Julia back to his highly guarded territory.


    It would be the safest ce under the emperors watchful eyes.


    Fernan reached out and gently touched her closed eyelids.


    Afterwards, he touched her chest lightly, as if to make sure her heart was beating.


    He could feel a faint but still beating pulse.


    With the soft beating that seemed to break at any moment, Julia was holding up well.


    Fernan looked at her closed eyelids and pondered for a moment.


    If she loses her memory after drinking holy water, he will let her go.


    Obviously that would be right. However


    Fernan''s hand gripped her shoulder, and a slight power was applied for an instant.


    But he wasn''t really sure if he could really let Julia go.


    As long as she was in the eyes of the Emperor, she could not be safe anywhere. So, it would be better to protect her by his side.


    No, actually, this was also just an excuse.


    Because he just didn''t want to separate Julia from his side.


    Fernan closed his eyes slowly. While he was immersed in thought, there was only silence in the carriage.


    After a long time when no one spoke anymore, the sun began to rise gradually.


    By that time, the carriage safely crossed the border of the Grand Duchy and rushed to the castle.


    Your Highness.


    When the carriage finally stopped at the entrance of the castle, the servants who had heard the news in advance stood in line to greet him.


    Fernan got off the carriage and entered the castle without looking at them who were bowing down.


    Kalosa had arrived earlier and was escorted to his bedroom.


    Kalosa, who had been looking around the room slowly, looked back at the sound of the door being opened.


    I thought my throat was going to fall out from waiting.


    While Kalosa was muttering in a rxed voice, Fernan gentlyid Julia on the bed.


    Is she your wife?"


    Kalosa, who was looking at her with calm eyes, slowly approached her.


    He scanned her with his eyes as if examining Julia''s body, Kalosa narrowed her eyes.


    Right now, Julia was barely holding on with very little power.


    Ordinary people would not have been able to hold out for so long with such a small force.

 Chapter 85

    Chapter 85


    She must have been a woman with a strongmitment to life, didnt she?


    To the passing question, Fernan did not answer easily and lowered his eyes.


    Because it was Julia, who once threw her life away, he couldn''t tell if she had a strong obsession with life.


    As his countenance darkened, Kalosa moved a little closer to the bed.


    As Kalosa slowly reached out his hand, the mysterious power of color that flowed from his palm began to wrap around Julia''s body.


    First, lets start with the anesthesia ritual. If she drinks holy water and wakes up immediately, she may feel pain.


    At those words, Fernan, who raised his head just then, asked with a serious voice.


    Is it severe pain?


    "Well," said Kalosa, shrugging his shoulders.


    A long time ago, a man who had the same symptoms as her, and as soon as he woke up, he struggled with excruciating pain. So it won''t be an easy pain to bear."


    Kalosa, who was ncing at Fernan who was clenching his fist, calmly continued.


    So, if shes under anesthesia, at least she won''t feel any pain while shes asleep, so don''t worry too much."


    Kalosa slowly rolled up his sleeve.


    Soon after, the servant brought a small, neatly forged dagger.


    Before Fernan arrived, Kalosa had already told the servant to bring the knife in advance.


    Fernan watched as Kalosa cut his wrist.


    The blood from him dripped into the cup underneath.


    At the same time, the fallen drops of blood did not spread to the floor but hardened like beads.


    Blood with enormous power could not survive in a liquid state when it came out of the body. So it hardened like a jewel.


    It was a rare and bizarre sight, but no one in the room uttered anything like admiration.


    Soon, the sparkling red holy water filled the cup halfway.


    If you feed her one by one, the stopped breathing wille back.


    Kalosa gave the holy water to Fernan. As soon as he took the cup, Kalosa used his power to heal his wounded wrist at once.


    Fernan approached and sat on the edge of the bed, stretched out his arms and hugged Julia''s shoulders, her light long hair scattered beneath her.


    He slightly opened Julia''s lower lip and let her holy water flow through one by one.


    The holy water began to spread through her body through her motionless throat.


    Soon, the light surrounding her body gradually grew darker.


    I gave a strong anesthetic power, so she wont be able to wake up for about two weeks.


    While Fernany her body back down, Kalosa calmly spoke.


    He added that the pain Julia would feel when she woke up would be less if she slept well, at least for that period of time.


    Fernan, who nodded without answering, lowered his hand to measure Julias breathing. It was faint, but he could clearly feel the breath flowing out little by little.


    "Be prepared. When she wakes up, she may not remember you."


    Kalosa sat on the chair and watched her changing condition. As the holy water slowly permeated, Juliasplexion was gradually returning.


    After waking up, it was unknown how far and how much she would remember.


    She may lose all memories, or she may lose only fragments. Either way, it will be difficult to endure from the husband''s point of view.


    Fernan quietly opened his mouth without taking his gaze away from Julia.


    As promised, soon I will relocate the vigers to my estate.


    For giving out his holy water, Kalosa demanded that Fernan take responsibility for the vigers of the vige Kalosa stayed in.


    As much as he cared for them for decades, they were precious to Kalosa.


    Because he stayed in one vige for a longer time than nned, someone like Fernan came to find out his whereabouts.


    So, Kalosa was nning to move his residence to a new continent this time.


    "I will only stay here until your wife wakes up."


    He was going to watch Julias condition to the end just in case unexpectedplications happened.


    Since it had been a very long time since he treated someone with holy water, it would only be right to leave after she fully awake.


    In the meantime, Fernan constantly looked at and felt her breathing.


    As her breath was felt on his fingers, the tension that had stiffened his body gradually disappeared.


    Then Ill take a look around the castle for a moment.


    Perhaps he thought he should leave Fernan alone with his wife, Kalosa slowly rose from his chair.


    Kalosa slowly left the bedroom with his hands on his back.


    In the quiet room, Fernan stayed by Julias side without leaving even for a moment.


    ***


    A week passed like that.


    Kalosa, who had been observing Julia''s condition even up to that point, muttered softly as if satisfied with her condition, which was improving day by day.


    Hmm, now her blood flow is back to normal.


    Her recovery was faster than expected.


    The holy water hadpletely permeated her body, quickly waking up her frozen functions.


    The heartbeat, lung function, and blood flow were now fully functional.


    All that was left was to wait. Wake up from anesthesia and open her eyes.


    "Maybe her brain won''t be much damaged, given that she''s recovering so quickly."


    Perhaps there would be no ident in which she lost her memories altogether.


    Kalosa sat on the chair and looked out the window. It was an early autumn morning.


    The castle here was quiet. At first nce, everything seemed peaceful.


    At least, that was the nature of Julia lying down.


    However, on the other hand, the close movements of the emperor behind this incident were being made.


    Your Highness, I have imprisoned all of the Emperors shadow knights.


    Only after hearing that Julia''s condition was stabilizing did Fernan move his feet.


    Currently, he was holding the emperor''s three shadow knights hostage. They were the ones who tried to assassinate him in Carnosia.


    Existing only for the emperor, they had no identity. Naturally, there was no evidence of their background.


    However, Fernan had long been learning how to obtain their information.


    A very small but clearly engraved hawk pattern behind the left ear.


    It was a clear sign that they were the only knights of the emperor.


    In order to confirm the pattern, the area had to be burned with zing fire.


    When the red, ripe burn turned to a white scar, the hidden mark gradually appeared.


    It is as you said. Behind their ears was the mark of the hawk.


    While Fernan was moving to the basement without hesitation, the knight followed.


    In fact, the information about the mark was kept secret only to the emperor and his heirs. Fernan learned about it from his deceased father.


    At that time, it was because the person who was appointed as the Crown Prince was not the current emperor, but Fernans father, who was the eldest son of the king. (The current emperor is Fernans uncle)


    A long time ago, before the Crown Prince''s coronation ceremony, his father had given his young son (Fernan) information about the Shadow Knight.


    It was a word Fernan engraved as if passing by when he was very young.


    However, Fernan still clearly remembered his father''s words, even after twenty years had passed. And he had no idea that the information would be used like this.


    The ce where Fernan stopped at was the dungeon. The emperor''s knights, bound in chains, could be seen through the iron bars.


    The fact that the Emperor''s Shadow Knights tried to assassinate the Grand Duke made it possible to specte that the Emperor was behind them.


    However, it was difficult to definitively overthrow the emperor with that fact alone.


    There had to be a more decisive cause. A cause from which the Emperor could never escape.


    While Fernan was staring through the iron bars with a ferocious, subdued gaze, a knight approached.


    Your Highness, I have learned about what you ordered earlier.


    As he turned his head to look at the knight, the report followed.


    It seems that the first person to tell the emperor about the Temple of llion was the Elody family.


    Fernan''s eyes narrowed. If it was a member of the Elody family, it would be the wife of the Marquis or the son who would soon inherit the title.


    Also they dont seem to know that the Grand Duchess is at the center of this event.


    At the words of the knight that followed, Fernan was immersed in thought with his still eyes.


    Before the emperor''s knights could break the barrier on the tower, they were all ughtered.


    Maybe that was why they didn''t know that the woman hiding inside was Julia.


    Had they known that it was Julia, the Elody family would not have stayed this still.


    They would insist on putting Julia back to her original position. Fernan turned and walked out of the dungeon. As he climbed the stairs, the dark sky gradually became brighter.


    On the way back to the castle, a servant who was running looking for Fernan shouted.


    Your Highness!


    While Fernan raised his eyes and looked at the servant running, the news he had been waiting for the whole time came.


    The Grand Duchess just opened her eyes a little while ago!

 Chapter 86

    Chapter 86


    At the servant''s words, Fernan quickly hurried to his feet and headed for the castle.


    It had just been a week since Julia drank holy water. Kalosa had clearly said she wouldn''t wake up for two weeks.


    He said that she was recovering quickly, and it seemed that she woke up sooner than expected.


    He climbed the stairs across the lobby at once and entered the hallway where the bedroom was.


    The servant who was standing in front of the bedroom found him and hurriedly opened the door.


    Fernan passed the servant and strode through the open door.


    Then, Julia, who was leaning against the head of her bed, immediately caught his eye.


    As he appeared, Julia, who slowly raised her eyes, blinked slowly.


    Her blue eyes that shone in the dark reached him. Fernan swallowed his turbid breath and slowly approached her.


    Julia had a somewhat nk face. At the same time, questions gradually arose in her gaze as he approached her.


    Standing next to the bed, Fernan looked at her condition without saying a word.


    There seemed to be no pain thanks to Kalosa''s anesthesia, and she didn''t feel pain or ufortable.


    Her paleplexion was also noticeably improved.


    After a bted relief, he lifted his gaze again and looked directly into her eyes.


    When their gazes met, Julia''s eyes began to tremble slightly.


    Even before Fernan could say anything, Julia spoke first.


    "I.


    Julia, who muttered small, gently grabbed the hem of her nket that covered her body.


    She fell silent and wiggled her fingers slightly.


    Perhaps because of herck of memory, she seemed confused by the situation, precisely as she was feeling confused by Fernan who approached her.


    As Fernan contemted how he might exin the situation, Julia spoke again.


    Your Highness."


    Fernan''s eyes slowly widened at the new name that came out of her murmured lips.


    Why am I in your bedroom?"


    In her subsequent words, Fernan looked down at her with his perfectly hardened face.


    She called his title and she seemed to know that this was his bedroom.


    All of them pointed to one. Julia did not lose her memory.


    Fernan, who had been frozen in the unexpected situation, let out a small sigh, feeling relieved.


    He was nervous that she wouldn''t recognize him.


    Julia, whose gaze trembled while looking at him, spoke again with a restless expression.


    Im sorry. I must have mistaken the bedroom .


    At those words, Fernan slowly raised his gaze, which had been lowered slightly.


    His brows twitched and began to narrow slightly.


    What do you mean .


    Before he could finish his words, Julia closed her lips and gently crouched on her shoulders.


    It was as if she thought he was going to be angry, and she was nervous.


    Her stiff, slender shoulders and her gaze slightly deflected without making eye contact.


    Fernan, who was watching them one by one, tried to grasp the situation.


    Julia didn''tpletely lose her memory.


    But those words from a while ago. She thought she''d mistaken their bedroom


    Fernan, who had been silent for a moment, asked the question in a voice as calm as possible.


    Julia, do you not remember at all that you copsed?


    "Yes?"


    At that moment, Julia looked at him with her eyes wide open.


    Julia, who looked down at her body, muttered afterward.


    I dont remember at all


    In her confused voice, it was clear that she waspletely unaware of her situation.


    Fernan felt a sense of dwindling and opened his mouth again.


    Then, what is thest thing you remember?


    At least, it was self-evident that all of Julia''s memories had not disappeared. But it wasn''t perfect either.


    What was important for now was how far Julia remembered.


    She still didn''t seem to understand her situation, yet she slowly opened her lips.


    My father went to the castle during the day.


    He told me that he was going to see Your Highness


    As she continued her words, Julia tilted her head slightly as if she felt something strange.


    After a long silence, she spoke in a tone of uncertainty.


    After that, I think I fell asleep right away


    Her words were blurred as her memory was not clear.


    Fernan, who was listening to her calmly, slowly grabbed her hand.


    When the Marquis came in and out of the castle, it must be around the time they were recently married. In the end, what Julia remembered was the time before she ran away.


    In other words, everything after that has been forgotten.


    Fernan just stared at her silently, like someone who didn''t know what expression to make.


    Then he opened her mouth slowly.


    How long have you and I been married?


    There was a tension he couldn''t hide in his sped hands.


    Julia gave a puzzled look to his out of the blue question, but she gave an answer obediently.


    "Right now its been three months.


    three months.


    Mumbling along with her words, Fernan breathed a small sigh.


    Three months after marriage. It was much earlier than he expected. Julia''s memories went back to the beginning of their marriage.


    Fernan quietly touched his forehead. Confusion crept into his slightly narrowed brow.


    When he didn''t say anything, Julia nced at him with a hesitant expression on her face.


    thank you. Your Highness brought me here, didn''t you?"


    Fernan raised his gaze and looked at Julia.


    Julia, who conveyed her gratitude as if it was natural when she did not remember anything, had familiar and unfamiliar eyes at the same time.


    It waspletely different from the empty eyes she looked up at him for thest time before copsing.


    Now she was back to long ago when Fernan used to ignore her.


    No matter how much he hurt and pushed her away, her eyes were always shining transparently.


    Fernan looked at her like that without saying a word, and then lowered his gaze quietly.


    Among the numerous assumptions Fernan had made so far, there has been no current situation.


    Either Juliapletely forgot him or hated him to the end, he was prepared for only those two situations.


    There was never any assumption that Julia would look at him with the same face she used to have.


    Looking at him, who was silent, Julia grabbed her hands tightly.


    At the appearance as if she did something wrong, Fernan finally spoke.


    First, rest a little more.


    Before exining the situation to Julia, he thought it would be best to talk to Kalosa first.


    Is it that her memories are noting back at all, or is there another way to find her memories? When Fernan was about to turn away, Julia got up from the bed.


    Ill go back to my bedroom then.


    Julia, who put her feet on the floor, stumbled.


    It was difficult to bnce as she had been lying down for a long time.


    Fernan, who turned around, grabbed her trembling arm, and Julia, who straightened her body, raised her head.


    Im here. Its okay.


    At his soft touch and low, soft voice, Julia''s eyes widened slightly.


    It was because the appearance of her husband, who was always insensitive to her, came to her very unfamiliar at this moment.


    Just as the current situation was sudden for Fernan, Julia was also feeling that way implicitly at the moment.


    His appearance was subtly different from usual.


    The golden eyes that always looked at her without a single ray of light seemed to contain various emotions now.


    Fernan took the dazed Julia back to the bed. And he looked at her withplicated eyes then walked away.


    Julia stared at his back as he walked out of the bedroom, as if possessed.


    Her memory went back to two years ago.


    At the end of the hallway where his bedroom was, Kalosa''s muttering voice echoed softly.


    Kalosa, who had been pensive for a moment, continued speaking slowly.


    It''s notpletely unexpected. Because your wife has recovered fairly quickly from the start.


    ording to the original theory, holy water permeated into the user''s blood and flowed through the blood vessels throughout the body. In the process, holy water could not reach her brain, so it was difficult to recover her memory system.


    However, Julia''s resilience was superior to others. As a result, the holy water, which flowed faster than expected, seemed to flow a certain amount to the blood vessels where her memory organs were located.


    As a result, the memory of the past had been partially revived.


    Can the memory evere back?


    Fernan, who had been silently listening to his exnation, asked calmly.


    Kalosa shrugged his shoulders and looked at the closed bedroom door across from him.


    I can''t be sure, but it doesnt seem unlikely. First of all, it would be best to continue drinking holy water.


    Some of the memories that should have been all gone had returned, so there was no way the rest wouldn''te back.


    Of course, overusing holy water would be not good, but it would not be dangerous if taking an appropriate amount while monitoring the condition.


    With his arms crossed, Kalosa changed the subject abruptly after exhaled a long breath.


    "By the way, did you exin the situation to your wife?"


    At that, Fernan looked down without answering.


    He hadn''t said anything to Julia yet.


    However, the two-year gap that Julia had forgotten was too big, so she would soon realize the changes around her.


    For example, the changing seasons or the changing atmosphere of the castle.

 Chapter 87

    Chapter 87


    "I''m just going to tell my wife that she has been conscious for several months."


    Fernan was a bted reply. From the beginning, he had no intention of exining everything that had happened to Julia.


    She ran away from this castle, and she settled in a new ce, and for various reasons she returned to him Then it got to this point.


    Reminding her of everything she had done in the past two years was nothing good for Julia.


    Even if she wanted to leave him again after knowing everything about her, he had no choice now.


    Wherever she goes outside, the eyes of the emperor will reach her immediately. By now, he must be on high alert and watched the woman Fernan stole from the temple.


    Yeah, if you do, Ill make sure to match your words.


    Kalosa, who looked at his serious face, replied that he would graciously cooperate.


    Fernan nodded his head lightly. First of all, this was the best.


    ***


    I was unconscious for three months?


    It was the next morning that Julia found out about her condition.


    The maid, who bowed her head in front of her, answered with a quick nce.


    Yes. Thats why you have to meet the High Priest regrly to take your medicine.


    Julia let out a gasp as if she still couldn''t believe it.


    But she knew that the maid wasn''t lying.


    This was because, in her memory, the world that spanned spring and summer had turned into apletely reddish autumn in one day.


    Julia suddenly raised her gaze and looked at the maid in front of her. It was definitely the first time she had ever seen her. Not only this maid, but all the servants in the castle had changed.


    Moreover, Melissa, who was her full-time maid, said she had resigned a few months ago and had gone down to her hometown. For Julia, it felt like only a day had passed, but in the meantime, so many things had changed.


    Knock. Knock.


    Then someone knocked on the door.


    While Julia was clearing her messy head, her maid ran and opened the door.


    Grand Duchess, the priests havee.


    At that, Julia turned and looked at the door.


    An old man and a young man entered through the open door.


    It was the priests who had been treating her until now.


    How are you feeling?


    The old man who was walking to the table asked her.


    "You must have been surprised that the world suddenly changed, because you haven''t woken up for that long."


    Julia gave a small reply to the words that saw through my confusion.


    "Yes


    Its hard to say that youve been cured yet, so youll have to keep seeing me. You have to keep taking your medicine.


    The voice of the old man that followed was crude, yet strangely soft.


    About the time she thought that the voice was strangely unfamiliar, Julia made eye contact with the young man who came in with the old man.


    His pale green eyes faintly distorted as soon as they met hers.


    His expression seemed somehow distressed, so Julia tilted her head with a puzzled face.


    Come on, please sit down.


    At the call of the old man, Julia, who had finally removed her gaze from the young man, slowly sat down in front of the table.


    Can you give me her hand?


    As Julia meekly reached out her hand, the old man scattered a faint light from his fingers on her palm.


    Julia opened her mouth slightly for an instant at the strange sight.


    It was the first time she had ever seen the power she had only heard of right in front of her eyes.


    The old man, who nced at her twinkling eyes, even forgetting the confusion, opened his mouth to exin.


    It is to absorb power and sense the changes in your body.


    "Ah


    Perhaps because of the exnation, Julia could vaguely feel the energy of the holy power flowing through her body.


    She asked cautiously while the old man folded his arms and assessed Julia''s condition.


    By the way What caused me to copse?


    Julia has been thinking that she has no chronic disease.So it was very sudden for her that she couldn''t wake up for a long time, a whole season.


    The old man lowered his gaze slightly, then lifted it up again and responded indifferently.


    You had a heart problem. You can think of it as an acute attack or something like that.


    my heart?


    Julia asked back with her eyes wide open.


    It was surprising that she had a heart problem, and it was an acute attack, which was not expected at all. Of course, she could not say that she had good physical strength. When she was young, she was often sick.


    However, she could not see a doctor at will, except for severe symptoms that stood out. Because the Marquis would not allow it.


    She didn''t even know she had a proper medical checkup, so she didn''t even know she had a heart problem that she didn''t even know she had.


    While Julia narrowed her brow with a serious look, the old man''s words continued.


    It was pretty dangerous. You managed to survive because you met a capable priest.


    The old man shrugged his shoulders as he crossed his arms.


    Julia raised her distant gaze and looked at him.


    Although she still didnt feel real, that didnt mean she didn''t believe it. Her world changed overnight after waking up.


    And this priest in front of her saved her. As Julia was about to open her mouth, the old man raised his hand and stopped her from speaking.


    "Give thanks to your husband, not me. It''s the tenacious man who recklessly brought me here to save his wife."


    Julia''s eyes soon filled with doubts and twitched slowly.


    Fernan went looking for the priest to save her.


    It was such an unbelievable sentence that for a moment she felt like it didn''t make sense.


    Still, her heart instinctively began to tremble little by little.


    <i>His Highness, for me </i>


    Julia sped her hands while biting her trembling lips.


    Meanwhile, the young man, who had only been standing silently next to the old man, opened his mouth for the first time.


    Do you remember anything about what happened before you fell?


    Julia, who had her head slightly bowed, raised her eyes and looked at the young man.


    Just like when she first met his eyes, the man still had a somewhat anxious and distressed face.


    Perhaps it was her mood that caused Julia to feel that the man was somehow familiar.


    Then, Julia slowly opened her lips.


    No, not at all.


    I see.


    The young man, who lowered his eyes, murmured hopelessly.


    As she looked at him quietly, the old man spat out in an indifferent tone.


    When youre healedpletely, your memories will automaticallye back. Don''t worry too much."


    After saying those words, the old man took a small bottle out from his pocket and ced it on the table.


    It was filled with things like pearls of red color.


    First of all, take only one pill today. If you overdo it, you will get sick, so take this medicine only when I visit.


    She thought it was a strangely shaped drug, but Julia nodded her head obediently.


    Her maid, standing by her side, brought her a ss of water.


    After confirming that Julia had swallowed one of the pills, the old man slowly got up from his seat.


    If you have any problems, find me right away, and then Ill see youter.


    After moving his stiff shoulders a few times, the old man turned his body and crossed the bedroom.


    Julia, who got up at the same time, followed them together to see them off.


    As she approached the door, Julia met the young man''s eyes again.


    As she hesitated, the young man bowed to her with aplicated look.


    As they did, they walked down the hallway. Julia watched their backs as they left.


    Halfway through the hallway, the man suddenly looked back at her.


    But by that time, Julia had already entered the bedroom.


    ha."


    A gloomy energy descended over the green eyes.


    Cedric, who was unable to leave the castle due to concerns about Julia''s condition, felt as if he had been confirmed killed a while ago.


    Although he knew she lost her memory, Cedric was in fact unable to give up his feeble hope.


    He thought that if he made eye contact with her and talked to her, she would remember him, but again, Julia did not recognize him at all.


    <i> If I stayed here longer, there would be no benefit to Julia.''</i>


    Currently, the only thing Julia remembered was her husband, the Grand Duke. But Cedric couldn''t take his steps at ease. What was important was Julia''s heart.


    She may have lost her memory now, forgetting all her feelings, but he wasn''t sure if she would want to stay here if her memories returned.


    Cedric clenched his fists. So, he was going to wait even if she didn''t recognize him.


    May all her memoriese back.

 Chapter 88

    Chapter 88


    Julia met Kalosa twice a week to get her health checked and then take medicine.


    Every time she took the medicine he gave, Julia felt her body lighten up.


    There seemed to be a cool sensation spreading in her head somewhere.


    "Did you have any other abnormal symptoms? Whether you have confusion in your memory or have an unknown dream."


    As usual, Kalosa, who confirmed that she took the medicine, suddenly asked.


    Julia put her water cup down and pondered for a moment, then shook her head.


    "No. There''s no such symptoms. On the contrary, I sleep well, so I rarely dream these days.


    Hmmreally?"


    With a light nod of his head, Kalosa revealed a somewhat subtle expression.


    It''s just been two weeks since she took holy water regrly.


    There still seemed to be no improvement, so he thought it would be better to wait a little longer and see.


    Soon, Kalosa, who returned to his original nd expression, continued.


    "I''m d you sleepwell. What are you doing these days?


    Even after the treatment was over, Kalosa did not return immediately and chatted briefly.


    He was far from a friendly person, but as he often met young patients while living in Carnosia, he developed a habit of talking to them.


    In Kalosas eyes, Julia also looked just like a child, so he was trying to treat her with kindness.


    Julia was also very familiar with Kalosa by now.


    I am not doing anything special these days. He said it would be best not to overdo it until the treatment is over.


    When she finished her words, she wiggled her hands slightly. In fact, it was Fernan who told her not to overdo it.


    He said she didnt have to worry about internal or external affairs, and just focus on recovering her body.


    The look on her face, Julia, was faintly recalled.


    So these days, I just spend a lot of time in the castle.


    The corners of her lips curled slightly. Julia seemed to be dreaming every day these days.


    She slept and woke up and her world had changed, because her husband, who was indifferent to her, was taking care of her as if he had suddenly be a different person.


    The Fernan she knew was by no means a sympathetic husband.


    In the first ce, he was often absent from the castle, so it was often difficult to even see his face.


    Even when he had dinner with her, Fernan didn''t say a word to her. In a word, he was a husband who had no interest in his wife.


    But today he was different. He never left the castle, and he often talked to her first, whether it was at mealtime or teatime.


    Kalosa chuckled as Julia tried to suppress her rising smile.


    Okay, I should get going. You have a good time with your husband.


    Julia looked at Kalosa with her eyes wide open. Even though she didn''t talk about her husband at all, he seemed to know what she was thinking about.


    Perhaps she had something on her face, Julia thought with a puzzled face.


    Priest, then, please return carefully.


    Kalosa nodded lightly and walked across the bedroom. Then the maid opened the door.


    Only after seeing Kalosa out into the hallway did Julia turn her body.


    At that moment, a familiar low voice was heard.


    Is her treatment over?


    Julia, who stopped while going to her window, turned her head and looked at the door.


    Fernan stood between the gap in the open door. When she saw him, Julias face turned bright red instantly.


    There is no major improvement, but shes in very good shape.


    Fernan was seen asking Kalosa about the treatment.


    Julia slowly approached the door and waited for their conversation to end.


    No, shes already taken enough of the medicine, so she won''t have to take it for a while. From now on, I will only check if there are any changes in her body.


    After finishing his words, Kalosa disappeared through the hallway.


    At that moment, Fernan turned and looked at Julia, who was standing right in front of him.


    "Your Highness."


    With her calm face, she looked up at him with her lips raised slightly.


    Fernan''s gaze facing her was calm and soft.


    Still, his eyes were just unfamiliar to Julia.


    Its a nice day. Shall we go out for a walk?


    He rmended it with a voice that was as unfamiliar as his eyes.


    Julia nodded without even a brief thought.


    "Then I''ll just put on my coat and go out."


    With her blushing face, she hurried into her dressing room.


    Fernan, who was looking at her back, slowly looked around the bedroom.


    This bedroom hasn''t changed a bit since the day Julia disappeared.


    He even gave orders to prevent anyone from entering without permission, and even he himself would not set foot inside.


    So, looking at Julia standing in this bedroom, it seemed as if everything had really gone back to two years ago.


    It felt like everything in the past was a dream.


    click. At that moment, Julia, who opened the door and came out of the dressing room, approached him.


    The two eyes that looked up at him as if they were eager to go out with a shawl as white as her skin shone young and innocent.


    Every time Fernan saw her like that, he had to swallow his contradictory emotions that filled him.


    She was lovely, unable to hide her joy when he said let''s go for a walk.


    At the same time, he regretted it. If he had done this earlier, everything wouldnt have gone wrong.


    While they were walking through the lobby together while hiding their distant feelings, Julia suddenly spoke.


    "Your Highness."


    Fernan looked at her calmly as if he was waiting. Julia''s lips mumbled small.


    Arent you busy? I was wondering if you could stay in the castle like this


    Julia enjoyed spending time with him. Still, she was worried when this time would end.


    Fernan was still a busy husband'' in her mind, so it was because she thought that such a leisurely day would neverst long.


    "I''m not busy. Even if I''m busy, I''ll stay at the castle."


    A slow reply came from Fernan btedly.


    It was reassuring, as if he had understood her concerns.


    His words were quite unexpected to Julia, so she could not hide her surprised face.


    And she couldn''t hide the smile that was drawn on her lips following her surprise.


    So, will you continue to spend time with me like this?


    Julia looked up at him and asked quietly.


    Yeah, of course.


    After Fernan''s short answer without hesitation, he captured her face in his eyes for a moment.


    Over it, the resigned face he had seenst time began to ovep.


    The Julia of that day and the Julia of today werepletely different from the temperature in his eyes. At first nce, she seemed like a different person.


    <i>If all of Julia''s memoriese back, will she resent me again?</i>


    <i>Will she think that I have deceived and yed with her emotions because she can''t remember anything?</i>


    Even so, Fernan wanted to bury everything that happened in the past.


    He wanted to erase her long, twisted and tangled past, even if only until Julia found her memory.


    If he went back to the beginning, he would never treat her coldly again, and that was what he had been thinking about countless times when she left.


    And he didn''t even know that this was the time.


    A chance to make things right, even if the end was set.


    Before long, the servant opened therge door, and as soon as Julia took one step outside, the chill of autumn hit her.


    Fernan lightly held Julia''s hand, who was still looking up at the sky.


    Julia flinched and slowly raised her head. Her round blue eyes fluttered brightly.


    I will not make you feel lonely anymore.


    Fernan slowly wrapped his hand around hers and whispered small.


    Then, as if surprised, the eyes that looked at him soon began to gently curve with joy.


    Soon Julia slowly grabbed his hand as well.


    Fernan felt his chest throb at the soft touch that wrapped around his hand.

 Chapter 89

    Chapter 89


    Inside the Imperial Pce of the Formene Empire,


    On the fourth floor of the Imperial Pce, in the room where the office was located, the emperor''s dissatisfied voice resounded loudly.


    The Grand Duke strengthened the defense of his estate?


    The emperor''s knights, who were sent to the Temple of Ilion a month ago, returned with most of them killed.


    It was not enough that he had missed the goal, he even made it known to Fernan.


    Fernans woman, whom the emperor secretly tried to kidnap, was now in his realm.


    Fernan was back to his estate in a hurry, and his defense was strengthened, so there was no way the Emperors knights could break in.


    But the woman you were talking about. The Grand Duke hid her in the temple and then took her back.


    Crown Prince Javier, who was sitting opposite the Emperor, opened his mouth with a look of dissatisfaction with something.


    "In my opinion, she doesn''t belong to the temple.


    At that, the Emperor asked with a frown.


    Why do you think so?


    Javier put his hand under his chin, dying his answer for a moment.


    To Javier, his cousin Fernan has been living alone in the world since childhood. Even when he had power, reputation, Fernan never obeyed or bowed his head to anyone.


    He had not looked at any women before or after the war.


    No one had ever seen him give room to a woman or bring her into his territory at any time. It wasn''t just a physical story.


    <i>But.''</i>


    Only once, Javier had seen Fernan do something he wouldn''t do. It was around the time there was a woman who was the daughter of Marquis Elody.


    Javier also knew that Fernan at that time was very reluctant to his wife.


    But one day, on the day of the founding banquet, Javier saw Fernans gaze subtly following his wife.


    While conversing with others, while listening to the Emperor''s inaugural speech, he continued looking at her.


    Moreover, he rejected the Duke of ir''s offer of marriage at the time.


    There weren''t only one or two guards monitoring him, so Javier knew it well.


    Living with his wife made him fall in love, or because it was somehow unclear to attach such an obvious reason, Javier still kept the incident in his memory.


    Now that he came to think about it, he realized that there must be some kind of fuse. But above all else, the part that bothered Javier the most was what happened after the disappearance of the Grand Duchess.


    There were also rumors in the social circle that he hated his wife and killed her without anyone knowing it.


    But Javier knew that wasn''t the case.


    Because he knew Fernan had been acting like a madman for half a year trying to find his wife.


    His entourage tried to hide it, but they couldn''tpletely hide his track record as he traveled to other countries.


    Looking at it up to that point, Javier could only guess that Fernan did not just regard his wife as such a political opponent.


    And after that, rumors circted once again in the social circles.


    <i>It is said that Grand Duke Caesar has a lover he has hidden away.</i>


    The rumor was from Fernans refusal to marry, but it became a fact when Marquis Elody brought evidence to support the rumor.


    The Emperor and the Marquis were considering the woman he had hidden as a third party.


    But now, Javier could only think of one person.


    .The missing Grand Duchess, that woman must have returned.


    The Emperor''s eyes widened at the whispered words in a firm voice.


    Did you mean Marquis Elodys daughter?


    The Emperor, who gradually narrowed his wide-opened eyes, continued to speak curiously.


    Its a random idea, didnt the Grand Duke hate his wife very much? But how do you think so?"


    Javier raised one side of his lips slightly.


    Far from disliking her, it is possible that now the woman haspletely be his weakness.


    Trust me. The woman hes hiding in his estate is the Grand Duchess.


    The emperor looked at his confident son with a very curious look.


    The emperor, who had been tapping the table several times, nodded his head.


    If you do, you shoulde and check it this time. You must find a way to bring the woman who is hiding in the Grand Dukes estate before me."


    Javier straightened up the cor of his uniform and answered straight away.


    Yes, there are many ways. However, I think Marchioness Elody, the mother of the Grand Duchess, would be the best fit for this job.


    If they couldn''t break into the Grand Duchy, they had to make the Grand Duchess leave the territory on her own. It was the emperor''s idea that if he could not attack the Grand Duke, he would attack the woman, the Grand Dukes weakness. And Javier thought that if it were the Grand Duchesss mother, she would know the way.


    Javier got up from his seat and put on his lips a more intense greed than his father.


    He immediately called the servant and gave the order to bring Marchioness Elody.


    ***


    The rustle, the sound of footsteps treading on the leaves, continued softly.


    The tall trees above Julia''s head cast long shadows.


    Julia, who was walking while stepping on the fallen leaves, suddenly looked up to her side.


    Then Fernan, who was walking by her side, met her eyes immediately.


    Every time Julia looked at him like this, it was good that their eyes met as if it were natural.


    She also liked his big hand that held her hand tightly and wouldn''t let go.


    I feel like Im dreaming.


    Julia muttered. She still felt that way after walking with him every day and spending time together.


    She gently touched the back of his hand that she was holding with her thumb. Unlike hers, his rough skin was very firm.


    Why do you think like that?


    Fernan looked at her with a calm gaze as if he was genuinely curious.


    At the same time, a small leaf flew from somewhere andnded on her hair.


    Fernan naturally raised his hand and removed the leaf. Julia felt his delicate touch and closed her eyes.


    Like this. Because Your Highness is always by my side I feel like I keep dreaming.


    Today''s daily life was one of the simple lives that Julia had always dreamed of.


    Her husband and her leisurely stroll through the forest, looking at each other, and talking kindly.


    Fernan, no one else, was watching over her, the man she had never forgotten since she was young, so this moment felt even more like a dream.


    Fernan looked into her clear eyes and raised his lips slightly.


    Julia, who was looking at his smile as if possessed, muttered.


    Because I feel so happy  I am rather anxious.


    She was even more afraid because she couldn''t figure out where this anxiety wasing from.


    As if reassuring her, Fernan responded softly.


    No need to be anxious. We will always be together.


    Julia stared at his eyes filled with clear warmth, and then, like magic, the anxiety inside her gradually faded.


    She slightly tightened her grip on his hand.


    Do you promise?


    Fernan nodded willingly. After she confirmed the figure, Julia took her steps again.


    A soft smile appeared on the corners of her lips as she looked straight ahead.


    As she led, she stopped and repeated her walk again, but Fernan didn''t bother at all.


    Enjoying the cool wind together, they walked for a while longer.


    The forest they were walking in was a shallow forest located near the castle.


    The forest was just the right size for a walk, so theye here every day these days.


    Your Highness, well walk in the forest together even in winter.


    Julia, who was slightly ahead of him, stopped again, and she looked back at him.


    Fernan smiled slightly again, as Julia looked like an excited child.


    "Okay."


    Next spring  And even in summer."


    The end of his smile became bitter for a moment as he saw Julia making promises without knowing anything.


    He wanted to ask Julia. Until then, will you stay by my side?


    Even if the memoriese back, won''t you leave me?


    He was no longer confident of holding her at will.


    Because every time he held onto her, she got hurt. The more he tried to force her to stay with him, the farther away she became.


    So now if she told Fernan she was leaving, he had no choice but to let her go.


    So, Julia wasn''t the only one who felt like this time was a dream.

 Chapter 90

    Chapter 90


    Julia looked at him, who had no answer.


    At that moment, Fernan looked down again and pulled her closer instead of answering.


    As he hugged her soft shoulders, Julia''s bodypletely touched him.


    Julia, who was frozen for a moment with her eyes wide open, followed him and slowly raised her hands.


    Then, with her thin arms, she hugged his waist tightly.


    Somehow, it felt like her ears were getting hotter little by little.


    In order to hide her blushing face, Julia quietly buried her face in his arms.


    She thought that this was Fernans answer.


    At that moment, a cool breeze blew past them.


    Arge hand gently brushed her hair, which was ruffled by the wind.


    Julia felt his touch and gently raised her lips.


    The uneasiness that filled her heart without form disappeared little by little in his arms.


    Cedric looked out the window and saw the two of them walking together from afar. As the castle''s couple entered the doorway, the workers stood in line and bowed their heads.


    Julia, who still remembered nothing, has been spending time with the Grand Duke these days. In Cedric''s gaze, the two hands were naturally sped.


    Cedric, clenching his fists involuntarily, slowly loosened his hands only after their figures disappeared into the entrance.


    It was more bitter than he thought to watch that figure from afar every time.


    Sometimes he thought he was an uninvited guest here.


    It may be true. The fact that he looked at Julia with these eyes right now was something he doesn''t like at all.


    He decided to wait for her memory to return, but nothing came to her mind yet.


    Was it really that difficult to wait without promises?


    ha."


    Cedric felt ugly emotions slowly filling his heart.


    It was not the time to be jealous of the Grand Duke like this, but he was anxious about what if Julia didn''t want toe back.


    And on the other hand, he thought that it would be a better option for Julia to stay here as it was.


    Cedric turned around, staring endlessly at the now empty gate.


    As he left the guest room and walked along the hallway, he stopped for a moment on the stairs.


    Down two floors, there was Julia''s bedroom.


    In the meantime, whenever Kalosa visited her, Cedric also asionally joined him as an assistant.


    Yet, he had never met Julia alone. He didn''t even have long conversations with her.


    At least once he wanted to talk with her alone.


    Cedric made up his mind and went down the stairs.


    He stopped on the floor where Julias bedroom was, and stepped into the hallway.


    Can I see Her Grace for a moment?


    Cedric asked the maid who was standing near her bedroom.


    She confirmed that he was a guest staying in the castle, and she replied with a bow.


    Are you here for treatment? I''ll tell her right away, and I''lle back."


    She thought he had visited for Julias treatment, and the maid walked into the bedroom without hesitation.


    And it wasn''t long before he got permission toe in.


    As Cedric cautiously stepped into the room, he saw Julia sitting at the table, as she always did when receiving treatment.


    Wee, priest.


    Unlike when he saw her outside the window a long time ago, now Julia had her hair tied.


    When he saw it, he naturally remembered the time they spent in the monastery.


    There she always lived with her hair in a loose ponytail.


    And Cedric loved to see her hair fluttering behind her back.


    Priest?


    When Cedric stood silently and didn''t say anything, Julia opened her mouth again with a puzzled expression.


    Only then did hee to his senses, and btedly, he shouted ah.


    Im sorry. I was thinking about something else for a second.


    Then Cedric slowly approached the table and sat down.


    The woman opposite him tilted her head slightly.


    Didnt youe with Priest Kalosa today?


    Actually, Im not here for treatment, but because I have something to tell you.


    Although Julia was puzzled by this, she soon looked at him calmly.


    Cedric looked at her face for a moment.


    The pale face when she was in her long unconsciousness was nowhere to be seen.


    Since she woke up, her health has improved noticeably. Her face was also full of vitality.


    Perhaps, than when she was staying in the monastery, Julia seemed to be morefortable and happier now.


    Grand Duchess.


    Before he could say anything more, someone swung the door open.


    At about the same time, the faces of Julia and Cedric, who looked at the door, changed to contrast.


    "Your Highness."


    The one who opened the door was the Grand Duke, who was standing with his forehead slightly frowned.


    Seeing the maid standing behind him, it seemed that he knew Cedric came in alone and opened the door.


    Julia, who called Fernan with a pleasant voice, looked at him warmly as he approached.


    I dont think the treatment day is today.


    Fernan opened his mouth with a softer voice, unlike the narrowed brow.


    His gaze was on Julia, but the words he threw were directed at Cedric.


    Yes, I came here today because I have something to tell the Grand Duchess.


    But they werent able to talk any more when the Grand Duke arrived.


    Just as he came to visit Julia recklessly out of a rush, the Grand Duke also didnt want him to meet her alone.


    Cedric looked at the standing Grand Duke for a moment, then turned his gaze to Julia.


    She was facing the Grand Duke with a bright face unlike when she looked at him (Cedric).


    Staring at her, Cedric slowly sped his hands on hisp. Then he rxed and opened his mouth.


    The Grand Duke hase, so Ill say what I was going to say again next time.


    Do it now. In front of me.


    The Grand Duke let out a slightly cold voice, unlike a little while ago.


    It seemed like an unspoken pressure not to allow Julia and Cedric to meet alone.


    At that moment, as if sensing a strange atmosphere, Julia looked at Fernan with her eyes wide open.


    Any more quarrels here would only embarrass her, so Cedric slowly stood up.


    And he said with a firm expression, looking straight at Fernan.


    I wille back next time.


    Cedric bowed his head to the two with the words that fell as if dering.


    With a brief silence, Cedric immediately left the bedroom.


    Click, the door closed, and there was a brief silence in the bedroom.


    "Your Highness?"


    Julia called Fernan, who was standing there with an expression of suppressing something.


    At that moment, Fernan, who turned his gaze back to her, released his expression as if nothing happened.


    "Perhaps you dont want me to meet the priest alone?


    Unexpectedly, Julia threw out the correct words. Fernan looked at her like that and recited low.


    yes."


    Then a low, subdued voice followed.


    If you want to meet, I cant stop you.


    At this moment, Julia thought that Fernan looked a bit uneasy.


    As if there was another reason, not simply the priest from a while ago.


    Julia slowly got up from her seat and approached him who was standing still.


    And with her eyes lowered deeply, she looked up at him.


    Dont look like that.


    She didn''t feel good either because he seemed anxious.


    All the while, she thought it was just her who was worried about what to do if this dreamlike time was broken, but this man seemed to be even more so.


    Julia gently grabbed his firm hand and lifted the corners of her lips.


    Lets be together.


    .


    I want to be with you forever.


    Fernans eyes widened for a moment at Julias unexpected words.


    Then he grabbed her soft hand and held it tight again.


    So do I.


    More, he wanted to be with her. In his heart, he wanted Julia beyondparison.


    Fernan held the heavy emotions that filled his tightly held hands.


    He didn''t want to let Julia go. He wanted to keep her like this forever, making it impossible to remember anything and never leaving his side.


    Fernan put down those heavy emotions with all his might.


    Then he slowly released Julias hand and held it more gently so as not to hurt her.


    I will be with you. Forever."


    It was only then that Julia nodded with her lips lifted morefortably.

 Chapter 91

    Chapter 91


    That night, they sat on a small sofa on one side of the bedroom and talked endlessly.


    They just sat next to each other and chatted, but none of them fell asleep as if even that time was precious.


    YourHighness. Actually, I have known you for a long time.


    Julia carefully spoke. Looking at him with anxious eyes, he showed no sign of surprise.


    Rather, he just smiled and replied inly.


    "I know. That you were the little girl who was crying that day.


    Oh, did you know?


    Julia opened her eyes wide, looking at him slightly startled, Fernan slowly closed his eyes and then opened them.


    Julia will never remember her. That they had already talked about their first meeting.


    "But  you said you didn''t remember at first."


    Julia muttered with a puzzled look on her face.


    A while back, when they met to proceed with the wedding, she asked him if he remembered her. But he only answered coldly.


    <b><i>You must have seen the wrong person.</i></b>


    At that time, looking at the cold-looking man, she recognized that she was the only one who valued the memories.


    To her surprise, Julia thought that this friendly man in front of her now and the man at that time werepletely different.


    "How did youe to be remembered?"


    Julia opened her mouth again as if she was genuinely curious. Fernan thought for a moment to answer, and then gently looked at her.


    I went to the Imperial Pce and it suddenly came to mind. The girl who was sitting in the closet crying.


    In fact, even these days, Fernan sometimes recalled the child who was crying sadly in his dreams.


    And he ovepped the child with her who cried because of him one day. When he woke up like that, the remorse of the past would hit him again.


    "Did you always cry alone like that?"


    Fernan asked in a calm voice. He already knew that her past wasn''t morous and easy.


    But he had never heard the story directly from her mouth. Julia blinked her eyes slowly, and then she shook her head slightly.


    "No. I wasn''t the kind of kid who cried as often as I did back then."


    Of course, she was lonely because there was no one on her side, and she used to cringe at the harsh gazes and words that fell for no reason from the Marquis and his wife. But from some point on, she stopped crying so often.


    The hurt and loneliness were the same, but she remembered the friendly voice that whispered to her every time it happened.


    <b><i>Dont cry. I''ll stay with you.</i></b>


    Oddly enough, when she remembered that voice, tears woulde out, but it would stop right away. Julia looked at Fernan in front of her.


    She felt d to see this man again.


    "Your Highness was the first person to tell me not to cry and stay with me."


    To Julia, who was separated from her mother and was left alone with no one on her side in the world.


    The day they met was remembered as the only warmly shining past.


    "I guess that''s why. After that, I didn''t cry often."


    Fernan was silent for a long time as she smiled slightly. It was because he was the one who made Julia cry again, who had stopped crying often because of her memories of that day.


    He loved this time with Julia beyond words. But there were too many emotions that weighed him down to fully ept it.


    Julia, who lost her memory, often smiled next to him, and said that she was happy just to be with him.


    That fact inevitably gave him ambivalence.


    If it were her original self, she would never have smiled so wlessly.


    Julia looked at him silently for a long time, then slowly reached out her hand.


    And she held his hand on herp.


    Im d you remembered it, because its not just a memory I know.


    With a calm voice, Julia rested her shoulder on his shoulder.


    Then she slowly lowered her eyelids with an extremely rxed face.


    As if she was holding back her sleepiness, her eyes soon closedpletely.


    Fernan looked at her long, drooping eyshes and patted her sped hands.


    After all, it waste dawn. The inside of the room, where only the moonlight was dimly lit, gradually subsided.


    After a little while, Fernan picked her up and walked over to her bed.


    As he gentlyid her on the bed and covered her with a nket, her delicate body curled up a little.


    Fernan lightly stroked her cheek as he felt her breathinging from within the distance.


    ****


    After that, a few days went by without incident.


    However, some time ago, strange letters began to arrive at the castle.


    The sender was unknown. It was also unclear who the letter was referring to.


    [Please bring my daughter who lives in the castle to Vanosa.]


    Two letters had arrived in a week, and they were constantly looking for a daughter.


    However, since the sender did not write down her daughter''s name or information, the letter circted around the annex where the servants were staying.


    A shabby envelope, an unclear sender, and even the content.


    No matter how you look at it, it was not a letter addressed to the owner and his wife, so it was taken from the good of the servants.


    However, among the many servants who lived in the castle, the letters were seldom found.


    Hmm.


    The letter was also delivered to Judy, who recently became Julia''s exclusive maid.


    It was time for her to attend Julia''s bath, so Judy shoved the letter into her pocket without even reading it.


    So Judy headed to the second floor, where Julias bedroom was.


    Hello, Your Grace.


    As she greeted her brightly, Julia greeted Judy with a small smile as usual.


    She was a friendly owner. Although she was an exclusive maid, Julia has always treated Judy without fault, even though she was only a subordinate.


    So Judy was also doing her best to serve her.


    Is the water temperature okay?


    "Yes, Its fine."


    Judy wiped Julias body gently with a clean cloth.


    Judy was a maid who hadn''t been here long.


    So she heard that Julia had been missing for a long time and that she had only recently returned.


    Besides, she was ordered to act ordingly because Julia was now lost her memory.


    When Julia didn''t know anything about her, Judy was afraid Julia would ask questions, but luckily she didn''t.


    Julia was basically friendly, but she wasn''t a very talkative owner.


    Now Ill bring your gown.


    After attending her bath with sincerity, Judy brought her robe and put it on Julia.


    Just then, something fell from Judy''s pocket, who was tying theces of her gown behind her back.


    The piece of paper that fell silently on the floor was kicked by Judy''s busily moving feet and pushed to one side.


    Well, then, Ill leave. Call me anytime if you need anything.


    Yes, thank you.


    After serving, Judy bowed her head and walked out of the bedroom.


    As Julia was crossing the bedroom to open the window, she suddenly noticed something that had fallen in front of the mirror.


    She got closer and picked it up.


    Its like a letter..


    There was no envelope, only the contents wereid out on a piece of paper that had something written on it.


    Julia, who thought that Judy had dropped it and had to return it, suddenly caught the writing on the slightly opened paper.


    The words "Vanosa," clearly caught her eye.


    Julia, who gently flinched, opened the letter, knowing it was rude.


    [Please bring my daughter who lives in that castle to Vanosa.]


    After reading the brief content at once, she turned the letter back and forth. However, no matter how she looked at it, the sender was not listed.


    Julia soon lowered the letter in her hand slowly.


    Vanosa. It was a name that she knew well.


    This was because when she was young, she lived with her mother in a small town called Vanosa.


    She had lived with her mother, who worked as a florist in a downtown area there until she was seven years old.


    "no way."


    Julia''s hand trembled slightly. Julia, who had stood still for a moment, hurriedly ran out of her bedroom and called Judy back.

 Chapter 92

    Chapter 92


    Judy was called back, and when she saw the letter in Julia''s hand, she was surprised and said.


    Oh, that ! Im sorry. I must have dropped it without knowing it.


    Julia asked carefully, returning the letter to Judy, who politely held out her hands.


    Judy, this letter Who is it from?


    Apparently, the letter from Vanosa, Julias mother''s hometown, contained information about her search for her daughter. Perhaps it was a letter from her mother who was looking for her. Julia couldn''t help but feel anxious.


    Ah, thats. the letters keeping, we dont know where theye from.


    At Julia''s nervous-looking attitude, Judy answered curiously but calmly.


    Then the owner hasnt been found yet.


    Julia nervously sped her hands and looked at the letter in Judy''s hand.


    If there is another letter from Vanosa, could you tell me first?


    At her words, Judy widened his eyes and tilted his head slightly.


    It was because she could not understand why the Grand Duchess was concerned about such a shabby unknown letter.


    Still, Judy nodded her head sincerely.


    "Yes! If another letter arrives, I will bring it to Your Grace first.


    Thank you, Judy.


    Judy bowed her head and then left the bedroom.


    Julia, who was left alone, looked away from the closed door and bit her lips. There was no certainty that the letter was from her mother. Still, she was already impatient. Since her childhood she was taken to the capital by the Marquis, she has never had contact with her mother.


    The only time the Marquis mentioned her mother was when he threatened her to listen carefully, so there was no way to know where she was.


    So Julia had been thinking that she might be living a new life, hiding in a ce where no one knew about.


    After all, there was no way to know if her mother was still staying in Vanosa. Although Vanosa was a smallnd, there was no guarantee that there would be no workers from it.


    So, first she had to wait.


    Julia gently pressed down her anxiously swollen heart. If her mother was really looking for her, she would send her a letter again.


    After trying to erase her thoughts, she sat down at the table. Soon it was time for Kalosa to visit. Quietly waiting for him, Julia slowly released her nervously sped hand.


    At the same time, Lloyd approached Fernan, who was standing in front of the office window.


    Your Highness, the Emperor has yet to show any signs of anything.


    Thanks to the more thorough defense of the borders of the Grand Duchy, the area around the territory was peaceful without any turbulence.


    But Fernan asked with a disinterested face.


    How about the Elody family?


    "As the marquis session ceremony is ahead, no one shows any other movement outside.


    Due to the death of the Marquis, his eldest son, Grayson, assumed the title earlier than nned. Grayson was rarely seen in politics. He had no previously held business or title.


    It was said he had not been greatly involved in the affairs of the family because he was either incapable or unwilling to run the family.


    So it was most likely the Marchioness, not him, who gave the emperor the information.


    Naturally, getting rid of the Marquis does not mean that Julia canpletely escape from their shadow.


    Negotiations with Geranian are going smoothly, so it doesnt seem like there is much to worry about for now.


    As long as Julia continued to stay here safely, as Lloyd said, there was nothing to worry about right now.


    Now was the time to focus on negotiating with the Geranian.


    Until a few months ago, the Geranian Kingdom was a ce where the national marriage with the imperial family was exchanged.


    Those who were narrowed down to the candidates were the third and second son of the third Prince, a family contributing to the founding.


    However, neither of them was a satisfactory match for the royal family of the Geranian.


    The third son of the imperial family without power, the second son without even the right to be a head of state, was not worth matching to the one and only princess of Geranian.


    As a result, national marriage was postponed, and there was still a tight check between the two countries in the frontier.


    Fernan took advantage of the opportunity to contact the Prime Minister of Geranian.


    Geranian responded favorably to Fernan''s negotiation proposal, as the Geranian had a very bad rtionship with the Imperial Family.


    Fernan pledged to stand on the side of the Geranian on the matter of dealing with predators on the frontier. In addition, he gave the Geranian the right to trade at sea first.


    As a condition of that, Fernan offered to form a close alliance with himself, not the imperial family. By forming an alliance with the Gerranian, he could advantageously check the center of the capital controlled by the emperor.


    In order to finalize the negotiations with certainty, Your Highness will have to meet in person with the Prime Minister sooner orter.


    Lloyd added quietly. Fernan, who turned away from the window and raised his eyes.


    The deadline is two weeks.


    Fernan did not intend to turn a blind eye to the emperor''s tyranny any longer. He was determined to get his hands on one of the alternatives to get the Emperor.


    Crossing the office, he opened the door and went out.


    His cold, sunken eyes did not change as he climbed the stairs and passed the hallway. Eventually, when he stopped in front of Julia''s bedroom, his heavy momentum was temporarily lifted. Fernan lightly knocked on the door with the back of his hand. The door opened immediately.


    Oh, Your Highness.


    Julia, who appeared in front of the door, had a serious expression on her face, but as soon as she saw him, she slowly released her expression. Then, as always, her face was flushed as tenderly as ever.


    However, Fernan, who had clearly seen the worries that had passed on her face a moment ago, asked.


    What happened?


    Looking down, Julia hurriedly shook her head.


    "No. Nothing happened.


    Julia, who answered clearly, held his hand and led him inside.


    Fernan, who was meekly led by her, continued to look at herplexion. However, seeing Fernans serious face, Julia raised the corners of her lips slightly.


    The priests will be visiting soon.


    Hearing her words, Fernan then quietly nodded. That was the reason why he came to her at the right time.


    There was still no significant change in her memory, but Kalosa said that the stimtion her memory system was receiving was growing little by little.


    So, she was now more likely to recall the afterimage of her past.


    Perhaps because he felt impatient after hearing that, Fernan did not want to be separated from Julia for even a moment these days. He wanted to treasure their sweet moments as long as he could until Julias memories came back.


    "By the way, Your Highness.


    Julia, who sat down at the table, spoke.


    Did my family contact you by any chance?


    Fernan, who was sitting opposite her, caught her gaze. Before he could ask why she cared about that, Julia continued.


    My father often writes to me These days, no letterse.


    In the past, Julia had always been troubled by the reminder letters from the Marquis. However, his letters, which came to her at random, were cut off at some point.


    She wondered if the Marquis was asking for something directly from Fernan instead of her.


    There wasnt at all.


    Fernan immediately gave an answer. As if he knew she was worried, he added.


    And you are no longer involved with the Marquis family.


    So no need to worry.


    At those words, Julia''s eyes widened slightly. She lowered her eyes, and nodded.


    "No, I wont.


    The voice that followed was small, as if she was trying to hide her excitement somewhere.


    Even now, and perhaps even before she lost her memory, Julia was still in the shadow of the Marquis.


    Hearing or mentioning the story of that family made her flinch without realizing it.


    However, Fernans words a while ago threw away her greatest pressure, which had suppressed her unconsciously, at once.


    Because those words were the words that Julia wanted to hear from him the most.


    A reminder that her new family was this man, not the Marquis who was like hell.


    New family . Just by chewing on those words, Julia felt like she was being engulfed by her euphoric joy.


    Your Highness, the priests havee.


    Momentster, she heard the voice of the maid outside the door. Julia, who pressed her excited lips, answered immediately.


    "Yes, let them in."


    The door opened, and Kalosa, with his hands behind his back as usual, slowly stepped inside.


    Cedric was standing next to him as usual.


    Unlike Julia, who weed them, Fernan couldn''t hide his ufortable expression for a moment.


    It was because of Cedric, who followed Kalosa every time, trying to get Julias attention.

 Chapter 93

    Chapter 93


    Without avoiding Fernan''s gaze, Cedric silently bowed his head in greeting.


    In the meantime, Kalosa, who was sitting on his seat, immediately asked.


    Yeah, its boring to ask every time, but how are you these days?


    As usual, he asked if there was any confusion in her memory or if she had any bizarre dreams. Julia tried to shake her head at his familiar question, but then stopped.


    "Come to think of it I think she started dreaming some time ago.


    At those words, the eyes of the three men fell on her at the same time.


    Julia, who was deep in her thoughts with her eyes gently lowered, muttered afterward.


    I can''t remember exactly, but I think in my most recent dream I could see a glimmer of a cliff below, river orke That kind of background.


    As if silently listening, Kalosa nced at Fernan as if asking if he knew what Julia was talking about.


    But Fernan, not noticing Kalosas gaze, slowly grabbed his hand that was ced on his table.


    Kalosa, who was staring at him, looked at Julia again.


    Is that all?


    "Yes. Thats all for now.


    Kalosa, who had his arms crossed, nodded still.


    The reason he kept asking Julia about her dreams was because it was through her dreams that her memories began to revive.


    She seeded in recalling something, albeit vaguely, so she may be able to regain her memory little by little in the future.


    Is there something wrong with it?


    When Julia asked quietly, curiously, Kalosa shrugged his shoulders.


    Its not perfect, but Youre making a little bit of progress. I told you before you had a small abnormality not only in your heart, but also in your brain.


    Because it was a deception for the patient to do a check-up without giving any information, Kalosa was about to outline his reasons for continuing her examination.


    Some brain organs that had stopped functioning slightly are slowly returning to normal. So, in the future, keep your mind and body at ease. That way, your recovery will be faster.


    After finishing speaking, Kalosa stood up.


    Thinking that the check-up time was shorter than usual today, Julia also stood up. At that moment, Cedric, who had just stood there silently, suddenly opened his mouth.


    Im d youre getting better.


    Cedric''s gaze was on Julia, but the words he muttered were towards Fernan next to her.


    Fernan did not respond to those words and looked down quietly.


    Julia, who did not realize that his face was somehow dark, nodded her head.


    Its all thanks to the priests.


    I was just by your side. I hope that the Grand Duchess will familiarize herself with my face.


    At the words that came out somewhere meaningfully, Julia tilted her head slightly.


    In the meantime, Kalosa, who opened the door, stepped out from the bedroom, followed by Cedric politely lowering his head.


    Well then, see you next time.


    Cedric looked at her for a moment without leaving immediately.


    Then, when Julia looked at him with a puzzled face, he quietly walked out of the bedroom.


    Click. Julia only turned her body after seeing the door shut.


    At the same time, Fernan, who got up suddenly, grabbed her shoulders. His gaze looking down at her was slightly shaky.


    "Your Highness?"


    Then, realizing that his momentum was strange, Julia opened her eyes wide.


    Whats wrong?


    When Julia asked anxiously, Fernan hesitated and then answered.


    No, nothing.


    Fernan slowly lowered his hand that was holding her shoulder. He then spoke gently.


    Then shall we go out now?


    Julia felt that his expression was strange, but she nodded her head meekly for once.


    As they walked around the castle together, as always, Fernan behaved the same as usual. The look was so natural, Julia quickly forgot that he looked a bit strange.


    ***


    Around dawn, Julia dreamed again.


    She was dreaming sitting somewhere and watching the snow fall.


    Rattle.


    She could feel her body shaking. It looked like she was in a carriage. The carriage, which had been going for a long time, came to a sudden stop with a roar from somewhere.


    bang! The sound of something rushing could be heard vividly in her ears. And even the blood sttered in front of her..


    "Ugh!"


    With thest of the bright red bloodstains, Julia woke up abruptly.


    Julia crouched down on her body and exhaled heavily. Cold sweat was glistening on her white forehead.


    "ha.


    Julia slowly raised her hand and pressed her pounding chest, noticing that her hand was also trembling slightly.


    After breathing for a long time, Julia finally raised her head.


    <i>What kind of dream is this</i>


    Her dream cycle has been getting shorter these days.


    However, the dream that had always only seen vague scenes was so vivid today.


    A snowyndscape. Shaking of her body. Loud roars were heard from somewhere. Bright red blood was seen everywhere. A vivid dream scene continued to shake her heart.


    At that moment, a breeze blew through the slightly open window. The candle''s light flickered out.


    Looking around the darkened room in an instant, Julia grabbed the nket. Somehow she was afraid.


    It was stillte in the morning. But in this frightened state, it seemed that she could no longer sleep.


    Eventually, Julia got out of bed and put her feet on the floor. As she relied on the feeble moonlight, she stuttered as she walked across the bedroom.


    As she opened the door and stepped out into the hallway, the candles on the wall lit up brightly.


    "Ha


    At that moment, Julia was slightly relieved and swept her chest.


    Was the terrifying dream she had a while ago proof that she was recovering her memories as Kalosa said?


    With a small sigh, Julia suddenly looked down at her hands.


    <i> Why?</i>


    Her heart had calmed down, but only the trembling did not go away.


    Julia stared at her trembling hands for a long time, then clenched her hands several times.


    The hallway was empty and quiet. It was early in the morning, so there were no servants walking around.


    After hesitating, Julia slowly walked down the hallway. Thanks to the candles illuminating the hallway, visibility was not so dark.


    Her steps were heading towards the hallway on the right where Fernans bedroom was.


    It waste so Fernan was probably sleeping too, but her footsteps stopped in front of his bedroom.


    "Ummm"


    Julia, who was standing in one ce, approached the door.


    <i>If I tell him that I came to find him because I had a scary dream, would he consider me annoying?</i>


    Julia, who hesitated at her bted thoughts, eventually turned around. Also, she thought it was not polite to look for him at such ate hour.


    As she went back the way she came, Julia was suddenly a little surprised at herself.


    Just because she was afraid, she went looking for Fernan blindly.


    Thinking that she must have depended on him a lot without realizing it, Julia slowly walked through the hallway.


    At that moment, footsteps were heard from afar.


    While Julia, who was immersed in her thoughts, someone gently grabbed her wrist.


    Ah!"


    Julia, who was startled and screamed, turned her head quickly.


    Seeing Fernan behind her, her frightened face gradually spread with relief.


    Your Highness..


    Why are you out here at this hour?


    Because she had been hanging around in the hallway for a while, Fernan had felt the presence and came out.


    However, he did not know that the owner of the presence was Julia, so he had a slightly puzzled face.


    When she saw his face, Julia let out a small sigh as her tension was relieved. As she was, holding her hands tightly together, she replied softly.


    "That is


    <i>I had a dream, and I went to see you because I was afraid of the dream. Somehow she felt embarrassed to say that.</i>


    Fernan nced at her murmured lips, then pulled her closer.


    Then he asked again, stroking her slightly disheveled hair.


    Did you have a bad dream?


    Julia''s eyes widened in response to the question of exactly what happened. Julia finally nodded.


    Fernan came a little closer to her. Then, his face, which had been obscured by darkness, was revealed a little more clearly under the candlelight.


    Julia murmured softly, capturing his face in her eyes.


    Actually, the dream was a little scary


    At those words, Fernan had a serious expression on his face for an instant, and immediately asked.


    What kind of dream was it?


    After a moment''s silence, Julia slowly opened her mouth.


    It was a dream that I was riding a carriage on a snowy day. Then there were loud roars, and at the end bright red blood was sttered It was a very vivid dream .


    "Blood?"


    Fernan, who was examining her with slightly narrowed brows, lowered his gaze.


    After contemting somethin, he held out his hand.


    If youre afraid to be alone, Ill be by your side until you fall asleep.


    Lets go to my room.


    Julia nced at hisrge outstretched hand.


    At this moment, Julia felt as if she had be a pampered child, but still, Julia gently grabbed Fernans hand.


    He soon took Julia back to his bedroom.


    Guided by him and carefully stepping her feet into the room, Julia took a brief nce inside.


    In the quiet room, only the sound of footsteps from the two of them resounded.


    Julia was led by his hand and sat on the bed. When she nced at the bed, the bedding was neatly arranged without a trace of lying down.


    Why didnt you sleep?


    Fernan, as well as the tidy bedding, looked as organized as usual.


    Im always awake at this hour.


    Fernan answered in a low voice. At those words, Julia widened her eyes.


    As she knew, he always woke up early in the morning. Then it meant that he only slept three or four hours a night at most.


    Suddenly, Julia, worried about his sleeping habits, got on the bed and tapped the seat next to her.


    "Your Highness."


    She then hesitated and spoke slowly.


    "Then let''s sleep together."

 Chapter 94

    Chapter 94


    Julia tapped the bed as if saying,e and lie down.


    Fernan looked at the bed she touched with her hands and looked at her again.


    As usual, Julia had innocent, shining eyes. He stared at her.


    Fernan gently cleared his throat and sat down on the edge of the bed, just as she said.


    Only then did Julia lie down.


    Soon, the two of them, lying face to face in the middle of the spacious bed, stared at each other silently.


    <i>I feel strange.. </i>


    Julia mumbled and wiggled her fingers. She had been close to himtely, but it was the first time she lied side by side with him like this.


    Julia, who was lying on her side and holding her hands, lowered her gaze slowly without realizing it.


    Through Fernans slightly opened shirt, a thick raised neckline and solid muscles could be seen.


    A mans body. It was also the first time she had seen her husband''s body so closely. His body, which was big and firm with sharp lines, was far different from that of her small and soft body.


    Julia, who had been staring nkly between his shirt for such a long time, came to her senses btedly.


    She nced at him again, and met Fernan''s eyes straight away.


    "Ah


    Julia slightly opened her lips with embarrassment.


    She had never seen him with insidious thoughts, but for the moment she worried that he might misunderstand her.


    While Julia was thinking about making excuses, Fernan grabbed her waist and pulled her closer.


    !


    When Julia opened her eyes wide in surprise, he whispered softly in the narrow distance.


    Its fine if you look closely.


    At the touch that wrapped around her waist, Julia felt her face getting hot. Indeed he misunderstood her.


    Embarrassed, Julia muttered btedly.


    I didnt mean to look at it with strange intentions


    Fernans lips bent faintly as he looked at her with reddened cheeks. Then he reached out and touched her cheek, which was heated up.


    Sleep. Forget all your dreams.


    Then came a soft voice.


    At that moment, Julia nced at him again, and met his calm gaze towards her.


    Whether it was the warmth of his embrace, or the gentleness of his touch on her cheek, her hot face did not cool down easily.


    Julia struggled, pretending that she was okay, and muttered small.


    Your Highness, go to sleep too.


    As if Fernan was about to do that, he slowly lowered his eyes. With his hand still wrapped around her waist, Julia slowly closed her eyes. The big arms that hugged her quickly erased the cruel afterimage in her dream.


    ***


    Fernan looked at the morning sun that had risenpletely through the window.


    Then he lowered his gaze and stared at Julia in his arms.


    She was sleeping, holding his cor in her hand.


    Unlike him who couldn''t sleep all night, her sleepy face was calm.


    The woman in contact with him moved in her sleep. Each time she did, her tight lips gently brushed chest.


    Fernan flinched his hand, but his expression was as calm as usual.


    In fact, it was not easy for him to just look at her stillst night. Every time he looked at her, he struggled hard to suppress the desire that was filling up in him.


    Back then, what he couldn''t stand was the moments when Julia tried to run away from him. Because he wanted to have her even by coercion, to keep her from leaving somehow.


    But now, a different kind of desire was filling his insides. It was a selfish desire that she would ept him with her whole heart.


    Ummm.


    At that moment, Julia, who was muttering a little,pletely buried her face in his arms. Then she slowly raised her long eyshes.


    Along with her sleepy face, her hazy blue eyes eventually turned towards him.


    As if she was still not awake, Julia smiled slightly with her half-closed eyes.


    Your Highness."


    Julia, who called him in a subdued voice, slowly closed her eyes again.


    Her lips, moving as if they had something to say, stopped slightly gaping. Perhaps she could not ovee her sleepiness, so she fell asleep again.


    Fernan loosened his hand that was wrapped around Julia''s waist and brought it to her lips. He swept her lower lip gently with his hard fingers.


    At this moment, his hand, which caressed her lips, was filled with deep longing.


    Fernan lowered his head slightly, and narrowed the distance as if to kiss her. Then, just before his lips touched hers, he stopped moving, then stared at her longshes.


    He knew that if he kissed her like this, he wouldn''t be able to stop himself.


    And Julia would definitely not reject him because she didnt remember.


    Because she didn''t know anything. She forgot all her hatred and anger she had toward him.


    For that reason, there was a clear line drawn for Fernan that should not be crossed.


    Crossing that line was his greed.


    Eventually, he straightened his bent body with a deep sigh.


    Then, with his hands full of strength, he just rubbed his face, feeling exhausted.


    So, youre saying the two slept togetherst night?


    The whispers of the maids echoed from the corner at the end of the hallway.


    Yes. In the morning, His Highness suddenly ordered me to bring the Grand Duchess clothes. So


    The maid, who looked around while muffling her whisper, spoke with excitement.


    I went to the bedroom and saw the Grand Duchess was lying in His Highnesss bed.


    The maids chattered with excitement, saying, "Isn''t this the first time they slept together?


    And those words were clearly heard by Cedric, who was standing in the hallway close by.


    Frozen, Cedrics eyes widened.


    He stood still there until the voices of the maidspletely disappeared.


    <i>how</i>


    Cedric bit his lip, thinking about what he had just heard.


    <i>What the hell is the Grand Duke doing to Julia?</i>


    A month had passed since Julia had stayed here. In the meantime, peaceful time was passing as if nothing had happened in this castle.


    The couple became friendly as if Julia had forgotten everything he had done to her, the Grand Duke was pretending to be a caring husband


    Cedric clenched his fists tightly. All of this now was just a script designed to deceive Julia. From the Grand Duke to the servants, everyone deceived her.


    Taking a deep breath, Cedric slowly took his steps.


    As he continued walking along the hallway, he saw the Grand Duke talking with his subordinate in the lobby under the railing. Cedric''s gaze at the scene filled with anger. He walked down the stairs.


    Fernan turned his head at the approaching sight.


    Then, seeing Cedric standing determinedly, Fernan sent away the subordinate.


    Whats going on?


    The coldness in his eyes, different from when he looked at Julia, stared at Cedric.


    Not sumbing to the momentum, Cedric responded.


    Thats what I want to ask the Grand Duke.


    Cedric, who clenched his fists again, spoke straight away.


    What are you doing to Julia?


    At those words, Fernans eyes began to narrow gradually. Cedric continued as he stared at him.


    Knowing that Julia will get her memories back someday. But why


    Cedric lowered his head, unable to continue his words. Fernan looked at him calmly, then he asked coldly.


    What do you want to say?


    To that question, Cedric, who raised his head, answered in a broken voice.


    I mean, you shouldnt force Julia to stick with you.


    You must not have forgotten all the things you did to Julia.


    Fernans eyes were just calm in the words that followed.


    Soon, a quiet voice covered with a veil of perseverance descended.


    If I had intended to force Julia here, I would have killed you first.


    Dont you think so?


    Cedric slowly rxed his grip on his hand and looked at Fernan.


    He was right. If he really wanted to lock up Julia here, he wouldn''t have let Kalosa continue to treat Julia. Especially, he wouldnt have allowed Cedric to stay in his castle. Moreover, nowhere was safe right now with the Emperor watching.


    But in Cedric''s eyes, the Grand Duke seemed to have shaken Julias heart.


    If this continued, she wouldnt want to leave him even after she regained her memories.


    Cedric continued, even though he knew that the situation was inevitable.


    Then at least, dont deceive Julia, who knows nothing.


    At those words, the Grand Duke, who had been standing indifferent the whole time, muttered ordingly.


    deceive"


    A voice mixed withughter followed.


    Yes, I guess so.


    By deceiving Julia and pretending to be her good husband, this must be a clear deception.


    However, such a rtionship had a definite end. He was the one who knew it better than anyone.


    The moment her memories return, Julia will leave me anyway. (Fernan)


    .


    So, until then I just want Julia to be happy." (Fernan)


    Cedric looked into his eyes as he muttered in silence. His eyes were filled with unfathomableplex emotions.


    At this moment, Cedric could feel it. The Grand Duke also thought about the end of their rtionship and was anxious about every moment with her.


    Cedric lowered his gaze and gradually released the strength from his clenched hands. He couldn''t say anything more.


    Because he could see that this strong man in front of him was already fighting with enough painful emotions.

 Chapter 95

    Chapter 95


    That day, Julia woke upter than usual.


    When she woke up, she thought Fernan was beside her, but she didnt see him.


    Instead, the maid he had called was waiting to serve her.


    Where is His Highness?


    Julia asked the maid quietly as she was helping her get dressed. The maid who was tying theces around the back of her dress answered in a sh.


    I saw he went down to the lobby earlier.


    "Really?"


    A bright light shone on Julia''s face as she gently gathered her hands together.


    She woke up from a veryfortable sleepst night in Fernan''s arms.


    She wondered if he slept soundlyst night like she did.


    After Julia finished dressing up, she immediately left the bedroom. It was noon, and sunlight was pouring in from the window between the hallways.


    Julia felt refreshed and walked down the corridor.


    Oh, Grand Duchess.


    As she was about to go down the stairs, someone called her from behind.


    Julia stopped for a moment and looked behind her, she saw Judy holding a bunch of letters.


    Herere the letters you asked forst time!"


    "Letters?"


    As Julia tilted her head, Judy pulled out an old envelope from her arms and held it out.


    Yes, you asked me to bring you another letter from Vanosa. I got a letter from therest evening. I brought it before going to the other servants.


    A moment of tension was engraved on Julia''s face, who suddenly received the letter. It was because she hadpletely forgotten about it.


    Julia hurriedly opened the letter and read the contents on the spot.


    [From Vanosa. Please pass this on to my daughter. I can''t reveal the child''s name due to circumstances, but if she reads this, shell recognize me. I hope she will remember the time she spent with her mother at the flower shop at the end of the alley, the small downtown of Vanosa]


    The delicate hands holding the letter began to tremble slightly.


    Unable to take her gaze away from the letter, Julia remained frozen.


    A flower shop at the far end of the alley. It was obviously the flower shop that her mother owned.


    "Ah.


    Julia could now be sure. That this letter came from her mother.


    Covering her mouth with her hand, she gently leaned against the railing. Seeing her like that, Judy opened her mouth in surprise.


    Are you alright?


    Looking back at Judy, Julia btedly tried to hide her expression.


    "It''s nothing. I was just dizzy for a moment.."


    Of course, no one should ever find out that she was the owner of this letter.


    If that happened, the fact that she was an illegitimate child would be exposed.


    Thanks for bringing it to me, Judy.


    Julia returned the letter back to Judy, and tried to take her steps casually. But her head was already filled with her thoughts of her mother.


    <i>Shes still living in Vanosa</i>


    She had never been back there ever since she left with the Marquis at the age of seven.


    She could only guess that her mother had gone to another ce.


    Julia bit her lip as she felt her chest start to beat faster.


    Why is my mother looking for me? Maybe she heard from somewhere that I became Grand Duchess. Everything was confusing.


    The letter only said I hope she will remember.


    <i>Does mother want me toe to Vanosa?''</i>


    As she struggled to calmly clear her chaos-filled head, she soon reached the end of the stairs.


    As soon as she stepped into the lobby, someone blocked her.


    Julia then raised her head, which had been looking only at the ground.


    "Ah Priest.


    In front of her stood the priest staying in the castle, Cedric.


    Where are you going?


    To Cedrics question, Julia answered with a somewhatplicated face.


    Im going to see the Grand Duke for a while and then go up to the room.


    Julia quietly cast her gaze over Cedric. Perhaps Fernan had already gone, he was nowhere to be seen in the lobby.


    I think the Grand Duke went to his office.


    Cedric added, noticing that she was looking for Fernan, and Julia nodded and expressed her gratitude.


    "Thank you. Well then, I hope you have a good day.


    After her brief greeting, Julia passed Cedric.


    Cedric turned and continued to look at her, but Julia just kept walking without noticing.


    Julia, who was going to visit Fernan like that, abruptly stopped.


    As she was in aplicated mood, she wasn''t sure if she could hide her anxious expression when she went to see him.


    <i>He''ll definitely ask what''s going on, then</i>


    Julia sighed faintly. As with everyone else, Fernan was never to be told about her biological mother.


    <i>I don''t want to deceive him, but if he finds out that Im an illegitimate child, he might not treat me like he does now. Its a clear reason for divorce.</i>


    Julia turned back with a gloomy face. Regarding the letter, she thought it would be better to wait a little longer first.


    ***


    Was the letter delivered safely to the Grand Duchess?


    Marchioness Elody, who crossed her legs proudly, asked the maid, who bowed her head in front of her.


    "Of course, Madam, I made sure it arrived, so you don''t have to worry about it."


    Okay, well done.


    The Marchioness then threw the bag of gold coins at the maid. The maid, who took it swiftly, twisted the corners of her mouth and walked out of the parlor.


    The Marchioness, who was left alone, smiled in satisfaction.


    It was already the third time that she sent the letters to the Grand Dukes castle, so maybe by now, Julia was in confusion after reading her letters.


    That naive and dumb girl looked at the letters and would most likelythink of her mother.


    <i>Things are going well.</i>


    After sending letters several more times to confuse her, she could surely lure Julia to Vanosa.


    <i>If I kidnap her and give her to the emperor, my mission will bepleted. Its funny. I thought she was dead, but shes alive and flirting with the Grand Duke.</i>


    The Marchioness grinned as she picked up the teacup on the table.


    Who would have imagined Julia was still alive.


    Besides, that girl was the woman the Grand Duke loved and hid Who the hell could have predicted such a marvelous thing.


    "Hmm"


    The Marchioness, who gently tilted the teacup to her lips, savored the aroma of her tea.


    Aside from having a lot of fun, the Elody family would receive a huge reward.


    As long as Julia was safely caught in her grasp.


    And the Marchioness was sure that she was going to end this sessfully.


    Julia was a girl with a heart who could never turn a blind eye to letters from her real mother.


    If that was the case, the Elody family would be able to be the emperor''s right-hand man again. The family that had copsed because of the girl was resurrected also thanks to the girl.


    After that, her son, Grayson, would serve as a trusted subordinate at the Emperor''s side.


    Unlike her stupid husband, her son Grayson would be sessful.


    Grayson, of course, was wandering as he hadn''t yet adapted to a sudden session to the title, but he would at least stand out longer in the eyes of the Emperor than his father.


    <i>As a reward for him, how about pursuing marriage with the princess?''</i>


    The Marchioness greedily lifted her lips. If Grayson could marry one of the Princesses, her family''s path would be even more solid in the future.


    Besides, Grayson would soon make up his mind to lead the family.


    Hahaha ..


    The Marchioness, whoughed pleasantly, leaned against the sofa.


    Her red-painted fingernails patted the armrest with a popping sound.


    The Marquis, who hummed her pleasantly, leaned her back on her sofa.


    She tapped her armrest with the tingling of her red-painted nails.


    Currently, the Elody mansion was busy ahead of the session ceremony.


    Originally, it would have been a gloomy session ceremony, but it was clear that it would be a session ceremony full of joy as the Grand Duchess descended from the sky.


    Because of this, the Marchioness mood these days has reached its peak.


    Her joyous appearance made it seem like she was engulfed in madness.

 Chapter 96

    Chapter 96


    The time to leave for Geranian was just a week away.


    The ce where Fernan decided to contact them was a small territory in the middle of the empire.


    He was nning to leave with only a minimum number of personnel as he had to contact them secretly.


    The alliance agreement with the Geranian was also rted to Julia''s well-being. For this reason, it was an important event that Fernan had to attend.


    Leaving the castle for the negotiation was inevitable, so Fernan further strengthened the security inside and outside the castle. There shouldn''t be anything disturbing while he was away.


    Only after finishing his job did Fernan get out of his office.


    Entering the lobby, he asked the servant who was standing at the door.


    Did Julia go to the greenhouse?


    Yes, my lord. She just headed there a little while ago.


    Perhaps because of the chilly weather, Julia was visiting the greenhouse frequently.


    The greenhouse was the only trace that Julia left in this castle long ago.


    When she was still the Grand Duchess, Julia built the greenhouse for the first time.


    So after she left, Fernan hardly set foot there. It was because he couldn''t breathe even if he went near it.


    Fernan, quietly recalling his memories of that time, crossed the path and headed for the greenhouse.


    When therge ss door was lightly opened, a new warm energy emanated from the gap in the open door with a slight noise.


    Flowers were beautifully spread out on flower beds on one side of the greenhouse, but Fernan didn''t even look at it, and went to the table in the center where Julia would be.


    Julia, who was sitting in front of the table drinking tea, felt a presence and turned her head.


    Oh, Your Highness.


    Julia, who looked at Fernan with a happy face, got up from her seat.


    When he saw her standing in the greenhouse surrounded by flowers, the old memories came back to Fernans mind.


    The soft voice that said that she would fill this greenhouse with only her favorite flowers seemed to ring in his ears.


    At the same time, Fernans heart suddenly felt anxious.


    He had to leave soon and he was worried.


    Are you done with your work?


    Without knowing what he was thinking, Julia asked calmly.


    Fernan nodded his head lightly, hiding the rising anxiety for a moment.


    After sitting down, he exined to her about theing visit to Geranian.


    I have to leave soon. It will take about four days.


    Even if the negotiations took longer than that, he thought hede back in four days somehow.


    I want you to stay in the castle while I am away.


    Fernan added implicitly without any sign of coercion. But the truth was, he was going to make Julia do it even if she didn''t want to. Because it was still very dangerous for her outside the castle.


    Fortunately, Julia meekly agreed to his request to stay at the castle, even though she felt sad that he was going away.


    "I will."


    She then continued and she looked up at him.


    If you are not here I think it will be very lonely.


    Fernan''s eyes fluttered softly at the words that followed.


    Lately, they''ve been spending time together almost every day.


    Ill try toe back sooner.


    Fernan murmured in a determined voice.


    Thinking of reducing the time toe and go somehow, so that he coulde back as quickly as possible.


    Julia raised the corners of her lips with joy at Fernan who said so.


    I will be waiting until youe back.


    However, Fernans expression hardened again at her obedient words that followed.


    It was because the words that she was waiting for him had always brought despair to Fernan.


    She said shed wait, but she never waited for him.


    She always ran away and disappeared.


    Fernan felt nervous as he looked at Julia smiling innocently.


    "By the way, the priest Kalosa said he would soon return to where he was. He also told me that I don''t have to take medicine anymore.


    Unaware of his feelings, Julia babbled as usual. Fernan hid his worries and btedly nodded. Kalosa said he no longer had to take care of Julias condition.


    Julias memory system has fully recovered, and all that remained for her was to bring pieces of her past into reality one by one.


    As Julia said, she was dreaming every day these days, recalling her past memories one by one.


    Now Julia considered past events to be just dreams. But at some point, there would be times when they became reality.


    If Julia remembered everything, then she would surely leave him.


    Fernan secretly grabbed his hands tightly. More and more, he was getting closer to Julia''s departure.


    ****


    Julia woke up early in the morning. Her face lit up as she recalled her dream she hadst night.


    She dreamed of riding her horse with Fernan and running through the wide ins.


    Perhaps because she had a pleasant dream, she felt lighter in her body and pleasant in her head.


    Julia called her maids and began to prepare to go out.


    Time passed quickly, and the day hade when Fernan was going to leave for his important trip.


    She had heard that he was leaving at dawn, so Julia wanted to see him off at that time.


    Her maidsbed her hair and tied it neatly into one.


    When the sun was just starting to rise in the morning, she made her preparations and hurried to the lobby.


    "Your Highness."


    Fernan, who was striding through the long lobby, immediately turned his head to the small voice.


    As she approached him at a fast pace, he looked at Julia with startled eyes.


    Julia.


    Julia stopped in front of him, raised her head and smiled softly.


    Have a safe trip.


    Fernan didn''t answer for a moment, despite the friendly greeting. He just stared at her as if he was holding back something.


    When Julia gradually began to feel suspicious about that appearance, Fernan let out a voice that sounded like a muffled sigh.


    Dont make me not want to leave.


    Aside from her lovable nature, Fernan felt like her goodbye was really herst goodbye.


    Up until now, it was Julia who said soft words then left him afterwards.


    Fernan couldn''t take his steps, he just looked at her endlessly.


    Then he took a deep breath and then spoke again.


    Can you promise me you wont go anywhere while Im away?


    He didn''t know hed be doing a promise game that only children would do, but Fernan was very serious.


    He was still not sure if it was safe enough even though he strengthened the castle''s security and kept escorts around her. Julia made a puzzled face as she looked at Fernans serious face.


    Still, she nodded obediently.


    I promise. Dont worry."


    Fernan reached out and grabbed her hand. Then, he lowered his lips to Julia, who opened her eyes wide.


    Watching his lips silently touched her cheek, Julia went nk momentarily.


    "I will be back."


    Fernan, who gently caressed her eyelids, finally turned around.


    Julia felt as if she had a mark engraved on her cheek where he kissed her as she was looking at him leaving.


    ***


    A day has passed since Fernan left. Julia walked down the hallway, feeling more lonely than she expected. Recently, Julia has spent more time with Fernan than anyone else in this castle. From having meals, tea times, to evening walks.


    Perhaps that was why his vacancy felt so great at this moment.


    Julia slowly went to the study located on the fourth floor with a depressed mood.


    She opened the big door and stepped inside, looking around for a moment.


    That was then. For a moment, she felt suffocated.


    Julia furrowed her eyebrows and pressed her chest. It was just for a moment that she couldnt breathe, and her breath came back right away


    <i>Why do I feel so bad ?''</i>


    It was the second time that Julia set foot in this study. Her first was when she was guided around the castle.


    It must be so, but strangely, Julia felt as if she had stayed here for a long time.


    Also she felt suffocated as soon as she stepped her foot inside.


    Forgetting her purpose to read the book, Julia walked out of the library.


    In fact, this wasnt the first time she had felt this way.


    Just like a while ago, even though it was clearly the first time in her memory, the strange feeling as if her body was remembering it had already continued several times.

 Chapter 97

    Chapter 97


    Julia walked along the hallway with her head tilted.


    Feeling strange, she kept looking back, and slowly returned to her bedroom.


    When her n to spend time in the study vanished, she didn''t know what to do right now.


    Julia sat quietly on the bed, and as she was alone in the quiet room, the letter that had made her feel ufortable for a while came to her mind.


    The letter from Vanosa, probably from her biological mother.


    Julia was secretly paying keen attention to when the letter would arrive again.


    Julia, who had been immersed in her thoughts while fiddling with the bedding, finally got up.


    While she was approaching the doorway to go outside to organize her thoughts, someone knocked on the door.


    Grand Duchess, this is Judy. May Ie in?"


    Julia quickly gave an answer to the familiar voiceing from outside the door.


    "Yes,e in."


    Judy came in and bowed. In Judy''s hand, there was a letter. It was the letter that Julia had been paying attention to the whole time.


    I got another letter from Vanosa. Two of them came this time.


    Judy said as she handed Julia the letter. Julia epted the letter immediately with a tense face.


    She expected the letter woulde soon, but now seeing it, she became anxious. She tore off the envelope of one of the letters in a hurry and read the contents.


    The gaze passing through the letter for such a long time began to shake significantly at some point.


    <i> mother.''</i>


    Because the letter said that her mother was ill.


    She said that she was ill and would notst long, and that she wrote her daughter a letter for thest time as she wanted to see her daughter''s face.


    Julia turned pale as if she was shocked by the unexpected content.


    With her trembling hands, the other letter was also torn off, and Julia lost herposure as she read the contents.


    [Olin Street in Vanosa, Building #3.]


    The rest of the letter had only the address written on it. Julia bit her soft lips and looked away from the letter.


    It wouldnt have been so heartbreaking if the letter was just about her mother wanting to see her long lost daughter.


    But, her mother was in critical condition


    This news came as a shock to Julia because she had only thought that her mother was doing well somewhere.


    Her heart could not help but be shaken. Because she was her mother, whom she always buried deep in her heart and secretly missed.


    She couldn''t ignore the news that her mother was ill. Somehow, she had to go find her.


    However


    <b><i>Can you promise me you wont go anywhere while Im away?</i></b>


    Julia remembered the promise she had made with Fernan just yesterday. She would not leave the castle, she had made a firm promise to him.


    Somehow he seemed very anxious about her leaving the castle.


    So she originally tried to wait patiently for him as he wanted.


    Julia lowered her gaze worriedly. One day has passed, and he wille back three dayster. She could wait for him toe back, ask permission and then leave, but then she had to tell him where she was going.


    Then, there was a possibility that he would find out that she was an illegitimate child.


    <i>What should I do</i>


    While holding the letter with the address on it, Julia fell into anguish.


    Of course, she believed in the sincerity Fernan had shown. Her husband, who smiled, hugged her, and whispered to her. He might already know she was illegitimate but pretended not to know.


    However, that was just her guess, and it was an assumption that she couldn''t be sure ofpletely.


    Even if it was a very small possibility, if he abandoned her, Julia was not confident of enduring the future.


    If his warm gaze turned cold.


    Biting her lip, Julia circled around the same spot. After agonizing for a long time, she stopped in ce with a heavy sigh.


    She then entered the dressing room with a determined face.


    She could only feel relieved if she saw her mother even for a short moment before Fernan returned.


    ***


    Vanosa was a vige in a small estate located in the middle of the imperialnd.


    At the end of a small busy street in town, her mother ran a flower shop.


    She remembered hearing a glimpse of the store run by her maternal grandfather, that her mother took over after he passed away. After that, her mother took her young daughter and made a living on her own.


    There wasn''t much that came to mind because she was so young, but at least she vividly remembered the smell of flowers from her mother.


    So when Julia saw flowers, she always thought of her mother.


    She recalled her old memories for a moment, and then waited to arrive at her destination.


    She was in the carriage leaving for Vanosa. Leaving the castle went smoother than expected.


    When she said she would go out, several of her knights said they would follow her, but when she declined saying it was okay, they turned around obediently.


    However, Julia did not notice that they were actually following me secretly.


    In the carriage, which was quiet because she did not even bring her maid, Julia felt anxious and she could not keep her hand still.


    At the end of such an anxious time, the wagon rattled and entered the entrance of the territory.


    Julia slightly tilted the shield hanging on the window.


    It must have been three hours since she left the Grand castle.


    After looking out for a while, the carriage soon entered a familiar street.


    A faded statue ced in a vacant lot passing through old and worn out buildings.


    The memory of seeing that half-body statue of a wolf was frightening when she was a child suddenly shed through her mind.


    Finally, she arrived in her old hometown of Vanosa.


    <i>Building number 3 on Olin Street.''</i>


    Recalling the address, Julia saw a sign that read Olin'' at the entrance of the street.


    Shortly thereafter, the carriage stopped.


    The coachman, who had parked the carriage at the correct location, ran diligently and opened the door.


    As she got off the carriage, Julia briefly looked around the sparsely popted street. Then without dy, she quickly entered building three.


    The gate was open, and there seemed to be no one guarding the building.


    Standing in front of the door after passing through the small yard, Julia immediately knocked on the door.


    Suddenly, the door swung open from inside. The person who opened the door was a young woman who appeared to be a servant.


    The woman opened her eyes wide and soon asked in a strange voice.


    Are you the one who received the letters? Are you Mrs. Renee''s daughter?"


    "Ah yes. That''s right."


    Julia took the letter out of her pocket and showed it to her.


    The woman checked it, then gave a subtle smile as she opened the door.


    "Come in. Mrs. Renee is waiting for you."


    Renee'' was Julias mother''s name. After hearing her mother''s name from others, she realized that she was now reunited with her mother.


    At the same time, she was worried about how bad her mother''s health would be.


    As she followed the woman up to the second floor, she heard the creaking of the old floor following her steps.


    Mrs. Renee is in there. Shes waiting for her daughter toe, so pleasee in.


    The woman said as she stopped in front of a room.


    Julia looked at the tightly closed door, and then slowly reached out her hand.


    When she grabbed the doorknob and turned it, the inside was revealed with a squeaking and rubbing sound.


    On the bed at the end of the room, someone was seen lying covered in a nket.


    Julia cautiously entered the room, and at that moment, the sound of a tightly closed door mming from behind was heard.


    .?


    While Julia reflexively turned her back, some men suddenly popped out of therge partition on both sides of her.


    They grabbed and held Julia''s arm tightly to stop her movements.


    "Ah!"


    Before she could scream in surprise, someone covered her face with a rough cloth.


    While Julia, who was held on as she was, struggled helplessly, the woman lying in bed pulled down her nket.


    <i>Whats this.!</i>


    Julia looked at the woman whose face finally exposed, and Julia''s eyes began to tremble violently. It was not her mother who was lying in bed, but her stepmother, the Marchioness Elody.


    Its been a while, Julia.


    The Marchioness spoke with a chilling voice as she slowly approached Julia, who was forced to kneel on the floor. The Marchioness then grabbed Julias hair with strong hands and mumbled furiously.


    You still look pretty, no wonder the Grand Duke likes you a lot.


    Suddenly the Marchioness held Julias hair with a stronger force and Julia frowned painfully, twisting her body.


    But Julias struggle was gradually weakened by the men who held her shoulders and covered her mouth.


    Whether there was some medicine in the cloth covering her mouth, her vision gradually began to blur. Meanwhile, the Marchioness kept whispering and turning her chin to and fro. As Julia looked at her for thest time, her body slumped to the side helplessly.

 Chapter 98

    Chapter 98


    The man, who grabbed the fallen Julia and carried her lightly on his shoulder, murmured.


    I didn''t know she came with knights. This situation is bothering me.


    They were sessful in luring Julia into the mansion (*the mansion in Vanosa) and made her lose consciousness, however, it was unexpected that her knights were lurking outside the mansion. As if waiting for Julia to appear, her knights were waiting in hiding everywhere.


    Looking through the window, the Marchioness retorted.


    "We just need to bring this girl before His Majesty the Emperor. The knights seem to be unaware of the situation here, so we can send out a bait.


    The Marchioness looked at Julia, who copsed under sleeping pills.


    Poor and foolish, Julia was deceived by the lie that her mother was dying, and ran all the way here in a month.


    She didn''t expect the knights toe with Julia, but at least it was lucky that the Grand Duke didnte.


    Because of the worry that her illegitimate status would be discovered, Julia kept it secretly.


    That made things very easy.


    "You and the rest, lure the knights away. In the meantime, we''ll leave for the Imperial Pce."


    The Marchioness gave her orders skillfully, pointing at several men and maids standing in the room.


    By disguising a maid as Julia, it would buy them some time.


    If she brought Julia to the imperial pce safely, her job would be done sessfully. A vicious smile crept across her wrinkled lips. Soon, at hermand, her servants scattered in all directions.


    In the meantime, the man, who stayed behind, put Julia into arge luggage bag.


    ***


    Slowly, her body sank down on the bed.


    Julia, who finally came to her senses, noticed that the whole ce was blocked by cloth, and seemed to be trapped in something like a bag.


    Julia unconsciously grabbed her neck as it was difficult to breathe.


    Ugh


    Julia groaned painfully a few times, That''s it.'' and a faint murmur was heard.


    Then someone skillfully untied the straps of her sack in which she was trapped.


    Then, as the air opened up, her vision suddenly brightened.


    "She didn''t have to bring you in harshly, Marchioness Elody is truly merciless."


    An unfamiliar voicended in her ear. Julia took a deep breath and slowly raised her head. Arge, unfamiliar room and a familiar man standing in front of her.


    Julia was well aware who this man was.


    Crown Prince?


    He was definitely the Crown Prince. Why is this person in front of me? Julia was confused. She continued to breathe heavily, trying to figure out the situation somehow.


    Her biological mother was in the Vanosas mansion, and she headed there without hesitation. But the woman in there was not her mother, but the Marchioness.


    Before she could ask anything, she fainted, so she couldn''t remember how she got here.


    Naturally, she didn''t even know why the Marchioness had brought her here.


    Julia grabbed the hem of her dress tightly with her trembling hands.


    The Crown Prince, who was staring at her, smiled.


    There is nothing to be afraid of. I have no intention of harming you.


    His half-moon-curved eyes shone harmlessly, but his gaze was as insidious as he slowly scanned her body.


    Julia, who couldn''t open her mouth easily, finally spoke slowly.


    Why did His Majesty bring me here? Even kidnapped me like this..


    She tried to remain as calm as possible, but her voice was inevitably trembling faintly.


    The Crown Prince smiled.


    Because youre useful.


    The Crown Prince gently lifted her chin with his long fingers. His eyes were attentive, as if looking at his prey.


    Julia reflexively shook off his hand that touched her.


    She felt very repulsed by his unpleasant touch. She stepped back, biting her lips.


    The Crown Prince gently moved his hand and straightened his bent body. The smile on his lips was still the same.


    Well, lets talk about your usefulness, shall we?


    The Crown Prince sat quietly in a chair near her bed.


    With his legs crossed, he continued speaking.


    Before that, I have a lot of questions about the Grand Duchess.


    The Crown Prince, who was swinging his feet up and down, tilted his head slowly.


    Have you been living in the Grand Dukes castle?


    Julia couldn''t figure out the intent of his question, so she just kept silent.


    The Crown Prince kept muttering as if he had no intention of hearing her answers.


    I dont understand. Why did the Grand Duke keep you secretly hidden?


    Hidden ? Julia frowned as she bit her lips, not understanding what the Crown Prince was talking about.


    If he brought you back after you ran away, why didnt he put you back in your original position of the Grand Duchess?


    Oh, did you not want it?


    Even though Julia didn''t say a word, the Crown Prince, who seemed to be convinced by her silence, nodded his head.


    Well, you ran away and were brought back, so there is no reason to go back to that position again.


    Julia couldn''t understand a single word the Crown Prince was speaking.


    Now the Crown Prince was talking as if she had escaped and was brought back to Fernan.


    Julia, who quietly chewed his words, felt a throbbing sensation in her forehead.


    As if something sharp had hit, the headache was intense.


    Fragments of her memory, which suddenly jumped out of her haphazardly, were pounding hard on her head.


    Hey, I still have a lot of questions, so dont be sick.


    The Crown Prince murmured as he watched Julia wrapped her trembling hand on her forehead.


    He then got up and went to the door.


    The Crown Prince inserted the key into the doorknob and opened the door.


    Bring her maid. Oh, the doctor too.


    After giving a brief order, the Crown Prince closed the door again.


    Julia looked at him with difficulty and then lowered her head. Her mind was a mess.


    Memories she never knew came pouring out and randomly mixed with her present memories.


    She couldn''t tell what was the truth and what was a dream.


    Meanwhile, the Crown Prince returned and sat in his seat, lowering his head.


    Julia, who had been buried in the fragments of her memories, slowly raised her head.


    The Crown Prince made eye contact with her and spoke to her in his most gentle voice.


    You only need to know one thing, that you just have to stay here quietly for a few days.


    When things go well, you will be rewarded with great rewards.


    Julia barely held onto her mind, which had not calmed down, and looked the Crown Prince in the eyes.


    His eyes were very familiar to her. Greedy, cruel.


    She was holding her breath without saying a word, and then she grabbed her hands tightly.


    She still couldn''t grasp the situation. But she knew instinctively that she had to stay alert.


    Julia lowered her gaze, revealing her face as calm as possible. The Crown Prince, who was watching her closely, asked subtly.


    Are you calm now?


    As she faced the Crown Prince again, Julia asked back in a quiet voice.


    What benefit does the Crown Prince have with me being here?


    At her question, the Crown Prince gently stroked his chin with a meaningful expression.


    "Well."


    The Crown Prince, who had a crooked smile, spoke slowly but somehow meaningfully.


    The size of the profit will vary depending on how much you are worth to the Grand Duke.


    Grand DukeSurprised by the unexpected remark, Julia asked again.


    Are you trying to use me to harm His Highness? Why


    What the Crown Princes intention now was clear. He was taking her hostage and asking for something from Fernan.


    Fernan was the Crown Princes cousin. Just as she was about to ask him why he was hostile to him, the Crown Prince responded as sharp as knives.


    Why? Because I dont like that b*stard.


    Of course, it was difficult to define the hostility the Crown Prince had toward Fernan in one sentence.


    The Crown Prince has been weighed down for a long time due to his defeat against Fernan since he was very young.


    A long time ago, such a word was secretly circting. If the Crown Princes father had not passed away due to an ident, the present imperial family would have had a stronger foundation.


    His cousin Fernan was said to be more worthy of the throne than the current Crown Prince.


    Comparisons by those around him were getting worse day by day, and in the meantime, the Crown Prince''s hostility towards Fernan was also growing day by day.


    A moment of cynicism passed the Crown Prince''s rxed face.


    "Isn''t it the same for you? I also knew how cold he was to you in the past."


    Thats why you ran away. Because you hated him and were sick of him."

 Chapter 99

    Chapter 99


    Julia, who was listening to the words of the Crown Prince clearly, clenched the hem of her dress.


    At this moment, based on the words of the Crown Prince, her fragmented memories were being put together one by one. Julia realized it now. The fact that she had run away from Fernan. Tired of being treated coldly by him, because her life was too much.


    The cliff and the river flowing beneath it, which she once saw in her dream, were not just a dream.


    The feeling of jumping there without hesitation was clearly etched in her mind.


    "Where have you been since you were dragged back? Oh, there was a time when the Grand Duke was away for months from his castle. Was it then?


    .


    Julia, who was silent, lowered her gaze. Perhaps he was referring to a time when she and Fernan stayed in a vi for quite some time.


    It was a vi overlooking theke. She remembered vividly riding through the ins on a white horse with Fernan.


    She felt quite happy at that time.


    Her memories wereing back. Now with a sense of reality.


    But before she could delve a little deeper, the Crown Prince mumbled shocking words.


    "If the Grand Duke bets on you, he will surely fall. If that happens, I will take everything he has, and Ill make sure hell never be able to raise his head arrogantly in front of me again."


    He felt good just imagining it.


    Julia clenched her hand tightly and bit her lips. Fernan would have foreseen this situation already.


    So that was why he told her not to leave the castle. Julia frowned as if in pain. So, all of this happened because she didn''t listen to him.


    "Looking at that expression, you seem quite favorable to him, contrary to what I thought."


    Lowering his eyes, he spoke with a soft voice.


    "Hmmm. What does he look like when that wooden man cries?


    Once again, the Crown Prince reached out and grabbed a strand of her hair and began to stroke it. Julia endured the throbbing headache and reflexively hit his hand.


    Then the Crown Prince, whoughed as if it was fun, got up from his seat.


    "Okay, let''s stop talking. It must have been hard for you, so you should rest.


    The Crown Prince, murmuring as if he were a friendly man, stared down at her. Julia, who lowered her head while turning away from him, agonized and anguished inside.


    From here, she had to somehow escape. She couldn''t let Fernan get into trouble because of herself.


    ****


    A day passed.


    The Crown Prince has not visited her room again since yesterday, and only the maid visited and brought meals several times.


    In the end, she had only one chance to leave, when the maid opened the door and entered.


    But seizing the opportunity was never easy. The maid only pushed her meal in and left immediately, and there were guards outside.


    Even if she was lucky enough to get out of here, she would be caught quickly.


    <i>Did His Highness know that I''m gone by now.''</i>


    As she leaned against the wall, Julia sighed deeply. Fernan had an important job he had to attend to, and he was worried that things might have gone wrong because of her.


    And, as the Crown Prince said, they would use her to threaten Fernan. That was the most disturbing. Julia was frustrated.


    She couldn''t figure out what to do, no matter how much she thought about it. In the beginning it was impossible to recognize the unidentified letters if they were fake.


    By giving her mother''s name and the name of her hometown, she was helplessly deceived.


    <i>I shouldn''t have left the castle.''</i>


    Unable to ovee the rising guilt, Julia slowly sat down on the spot. Julia, who had her head bowed for a long time, pressed her reddened eyes tightly together.


    Crying wouldnt fix the situation now. She, somehow, had to find a solution.


    Julia looked around the room without a single window.


    This was a solitary room with only the bathroom as an adjoining room. It was decorated with expensive furniture, but it was like a prison.


    She needed something useful, something that could be used as a weapon


    Julia searched through the side table, chest of drawers, and under the table in the center.


    But what she found was only a small vase. Julia looked at the door while holding the vase tightly in her hand.


    <i> Should I break this and make a fuss, and use the opportunity to escape?''</i>


    At that moment, there was a creaking sound and the sound of someone unlocking the door.


    Julia, who hastily put the vase back on the table, looked at the door with a nervous expression.


    Soon the door opened, and people who she had not expected at all appeared.


    It was the Marchioness and her son, Grayson.


    The Crown Prince is so merciful that he gives you a nice room.


    The Marchioness mumbled as she stepped inside.


    Julia, who had hardened, stepped back as she saw them approaching.


    Turning her gaze from the surroundings and looking at Julia, the Marchioness narrowed her eyes.


    Youre standing there better than I think.


    Perhaps she had hoped that Julia would have been groaning from her torture, and the Marchioness clicked her tongue in regret.


    Then she kept muttering that this room was terribly overdone for Julia.


    Yulia was trying to figure out why they came here alone, but she soon changed her mind and uttered a subdued voice.


    You tricked me and kidnapped me, what else did youe here to do?


    Julia was habitually intimidated by the Marchioness, but at the same time she felt a distinct anger.


    From a long time ago until now, the Marchioness was always bent on insulting and hurting her. In addition, now, she was trying to bring down Fernan through her.


    Julia held her trembling hands tightly. Then the Marchioness approached with her eyes wide open.


    How dare the cheeky one talk back?


    The Marchioness red at her threateningly and raised her hand.


    While Julia was unwaveringly facing her, Grayson blocked his mother.


    Keep your dignity, mother. There are maids and knights outside.


    At his reasonable remark, the Marchioness nodded her head and tried to calm down her anger.


    Really, thats right. Its hard for me to control my anger these days.


    Julia bit her lips as she watched the Marchioness change the tone of her voice in an instant.


    Then she looked up at Grayson who was standing in front of her.


    Many years had passed since she met him, but Julia recognized at once that this man was her half-brother.


    He had brown hair a little lighter than hers and blue eyes.


    His face resembled both the Marquis and the Marchioness.


    Soon, Grayson exined the purpose of theming here on behalf of his mother.


    I came to you at the order of the Crown Prince. He said you would be lonely here by yourself, so we came to spend time together.


    ha."


    Julia let out augh and bit her lips again.


    The Crown Prince''s impudent attitude and the presence of these two, at this moment, began to mash Julia''s head to pieces.


    Julia touched her forehead and spoke.


    As you can see, I am well locked up. Now that you have checked it, are you satisfied?


    As she muttered in an unusually cold voice, the Marchioness retorted sharply.


    You seem to be very dissatisfied with being locked up. Is that why you ran away and made things big to this point?


    If you had kept your original position quietly from the beginning, our family would not have been inclined this way.


    Julia, who was listening to the Marchioness words, clenched her hands tightly with her dimly set eyes.


    When things go wrong, the force of ming everything on her has not changed at all.


    Whether she ran away or not, she was always ungrateful, arrogant, and useless to them. Julia looked at the two with clear contempt.


    "Don''t ever think about using me to get you something again. Never, I won''t let you do that."


    Julia spoke in a firm voice. Her clenched hands were trembling with anger leaking out.


    Youre talking back to me? Should I beat you to get your senses back like when you were young?


    The Marchioness mumbled bitterly and raised her hand again.


    At that moment, Grayson suddenly grabbed her arm.


    Stop it. Lets leave.


    Wait. How can that rude thing block the path of our familys future?


    Grayson forcibly led the shouting Marchioness to the doorstep.


    The Marquis, who was about to shake off his hand, made eye contact with the maid who stood outside, flinched and straightened her body.


    Taking advantage of this opportunity, Grayson sent the Marchioness outside.


    Julia looked at them coldly as they left, and then she turned around slowly. As she struggled to calm her pounding heart, the key on the table caught her eyes. And next to the key, there was a small dagger.


    !


    Julia, who opened her eyes wide, quickly looked at the door. At that moment, Grayson, who was closing the door, met her eyes.


    With an unwavering look, he just closed his eyes slowly and opened them. But in the eyes she encountered, Julia could feel his sincerity.


    Grayson hade to give her this key. Even a dagger that could be used as a weapon just in case.


    Then the door waspletely closed. Julia hid the dagger in her arms while clenching her lips tightly.


    And holding the key in her hand, she continued to stare at the doorway where Grayson had disappeared.

 Chapter 100

    Chapter 100


    Negotiations with Geranian were concluded swiftly.


    Thanks to that, Fernan was able to return two days earlier than the four days promised with Julia.


    Just as he was about to depart for the Grand Duchy, a messenger bird sent by the knight arrived.


    Fernan''s gaze hardened for an instant. If it wasn''t urgent, the messenger bird wouldn''te here.


    Feeling ominous, he hurriedly read the message brought by the bird. After reading it, he crumpled it, biting his lips roughly. Julia disappeared.


    Fernan was able to grasp the situation in a brief moment.


    Based on the message, this time around, Julia probably didn''t leave voluntarily.


    The maid said Julia suddenly wanted to go out two days ago after she read a letter from a stranger that had arrived at the castle a few weeks ago.


    Needless to say, she was deceived by a letter crafted by the Emperor''s people or Marchioness Elody.


    Fernan, who wrinkled his eyebrows, changed the direction of the procession that was going to the Grand Duchy. And he immediately headed to the capital.


    From the beginning, he should have exined it properly to Julia.


    If only he had told her the story that the emperor was after her, this wouldnt have happened.


    Blue veins sprung up on his chin.


    He shouldn''t have turned away from his anxious feelings.


    Hyaaa, he swung the reins loudly. Unable to hide his impatience, he elerated his pace even more. At the same time, he issued an order to his lieutenants.


    "Send a messenger to the Crown Princess to lead the army and infiltrate the capital as quietly as possible."


    ****


    So, what about the Grand Duchess?


    The Emperor, who was receiving a massage from the servant, asked leisurely. Crown Prince Javier, who was sitting opposite the Emperor, answered in a rxed voice.


    As expected, she is quiet. Shes probably scared.


    Javier raised the corners of his lips.


    At first he only intended to use Julia to lure and threaten the Grand Duke, but the woman seemed interesting. When she looked up at him as if she was about to cry, it stimted his heart.


    Soon the Grand Duke will bow under my feet.


    Javier continued speaking with a very satisfied face. As soon as he heard the news that his wife was gone, the Grand woulde to the Imperial Pce like a madman.


    In order to make a smooth transaction with the Grand Duke, I think it would be better to show him the Grand Duchess when he arrives.


    When he saw his wife in captivity and tears in her eyes, the Grand Duke would have no choice but to give up everything he has.


    That woman was the key to shaking the Grand Duke. Javier praised the logic he had made up to that point on his own and tilted his lips proudly.


    The Emperor also leaned his back deeply on the throne with a rxed look on his face.


    Thats a good idea.


    The Emperor was already very excited about how he could destroy Fernan, who woulde to the imperial pce and demand to return his wife.


    Think in advance of what you will ask of the Grand Duke.


    Javier added. Nodding his head, the emperor tilted his lips in satisfaction.


    There were too many things he wanted to ask, so now was the time to start preparing for the unforeseen circumstances.


    With this audience as the main focus, we need to increase the number of guards in the central pce.


    The Grand Duke would not be able to use force when his wife was hostage, but they prepared for the unexpected.


    At the same time, he nned to keep the knights standing in this audience room so that the Grand Duke who arrived at the Imperial Pce would feel a little more pressure.


    The Grand Duchess must also be brought here in time.


    I will. Your Majesty."


    The emperor nodded his head as he looked at Javier who answered him surely.


    Everything was going smoothly.


    ***


    It was evening when the sun hadpletely set when Fernan arrived in the capital.


    The distance to the capital would take a day, he broke through in less than half a day.


    Eventually, when he passed the entrance of the imperial pce, the knights standing on the guard let him pass.


    Fernan went straight to the central pce where the Emperor would be.


    During the long time on his way to the capital, his eyes seemed gloomy at first, as if all thoughts had been sorted out.


    There was no tremor in the footsteps that he took quickly, looking only ahead of him.


    After crossing the wide stairs and passing through the hallway, he finally arrived in front of the emperor''s audience.


    Before the servant could inform the Emperor of his visit, he mmed therge door open with his unhesitating hands.


    Through the wide open entrance, the figure of the Emperor sitting leisurely on the throne could be seen.


    Around such an Emperor, knights were standing in a long line.


    Wee, Grand Duke.


    The Emperor seemed to be somewhat surprised to see him visiting earlier than expected.


    Still, he felt relieved that he had moved the knights in quickly in case Fernan appeared unexpectedly.


    The Emperor then nced at Fernan up and down. He was now standing sullen and dignified, but by the time he left this ce he would leave in utter tatters. The emperor thought and smiled crookedly.


    In the meantime, Fernan asked in a cold voice.


    Where is she?


    The Emperor, who knew who he was asking, tilted his head andughed out loud.


    Grand Duke, no, Fernan.


    The Emperor, who changed his title in an instant, looked at Fernan with a rxed expression.


    This uncle..I thought you hated your wife very much.


    At one point, when Javier said that the Grand Duchess was at the center of the matter, the Emperor did not believe him until the end.


    But, how could you be so rude? I am really curious about your intentions.


    The Emperor waved his hand as if genuinely curious.


    About a month ago, when the Emperor sent his knights secretly to temple IIion to kidnap the woman whom Fernan had kept hidden, he could not imagine that woman was the missing Grand Duchess.


    And it was fortunate that they could kidnap the Grand Duchess, thanks to the Marchioness Elody.


    The Emperor tapped his armrest as he watched Fernan''s face turning blue.


    Hmm I don''t know the details, but seeing you staring at me so fiercely, it seems certain that the Grand Duchess has be your weakness."


    With the joy of finally finding a "weak point" that would keep Fernan stuck, the Emperor snorted aloud.


    Fernan, who stood unshakable, looked as if he was trembling in the eyes of the emperor.


    What do you want?


    As expected, Fernan let out a calm voice as if asking for a deal.


    The Emperor looked at him with a satisfied expression on his face.


    What I want


    The longer he dyed his words, the more impatient Fernan would be.


    The Emperor was sure that the more he did so, the more he would get what he wanted.


    Even though the emperor was dying time like this, Fernan did not show a significant change in his expression, but such a thing did not catch the eyes of the emperor, who was already buried in greed.


    Why dont you sit down first? You must have had a hard timeing a long way.


    The Emperor slowly nodded. With those words, Fernan, who sat quietly on the chair, looked up.


    The Emperor, who smiled satisfactorily, quietly admired Fernan''s docile attitude. What to ask for has been organized in his head dozens of times so far, so it was not difficult to bring it up.


    First of all, he had to take back Fernans territory.


    I dont need to say much. You know your situation well.


    What I want from you is not big. First, return two of the territories you own to the imperial family. A granary in the south and a port town in the west.


    Even if only those two were taken away, the deal remained too profitable for the Emperor.


    But he didn''t stop there, the Emperor continued to line up his demands.


    And, make sure to disband half of your soldiers. Wouldn''t that make the bnce between the imperial family and your military power a good one?"


    He himself thought he had conscience as he didnt ask Fernan to disband all his soldiers.


    If such an excessive demand was made, Fernan might protest. While the Emperor''s calm words continued, Fernan only looked straight at him without any opposition or response.


    The emperor only considered it eptable.


    Even if Fernan looked calm, he must be grinding his teeth on the inside. The Emperor chuckled and leaned against the backrest. A lot of time was wasted during this long conversation. He had already ordered a knight to bring the Grand Duchess who was trapped in the separate pce.


    It was already time for the arrival of the Grand Duchess, but the Emperor was intoxicated with this situation, so he didn''t really care.


    Convinced that he had Fernan at his disposal, the Emperor had a very rxed face.


    Staring at that figure without a single ray of light, Fernan finally let out a calm reply.


    Do whatever you want.


    As it was, Fernan slowly got up from his seat. Then, with arge stride, he approached the emperor at once.


    "Take everything you want."


    At those words, the Emperor''s eyes lit up. It was because Fernan said it straight to the point.


    Fernan, who stopped under the podium, continued in a quiet voice.


    "My uncle will most likely want my life as well."


    Fernan, who had changed his title to match the Emperor, took his right hand to his waist.


    As he pulled out the hidden sword, the knights lined up on both sides flinched and raised their swords together. Fernan continued without even giving them a nce.


    "Kill me."


    Fernan, who slowly gave the Emperor the sword, stared at him with dangerous eyes.


    Before I kill you, uncle.


    At the moment, the door of the audience hall opened wide with a bang as if it was about to be ripped apart.


    Fernans armed knights rushed inside.


    Fernan stared at the Emperor with his bloodshot eyes. The Emperor wasn''t the only one who dragged the time to n a little while ago.

 Chapter 101

    Chapter 101


    What the hell is this?!


    The Emperor shouted in astonishment. Leaving such an emperor behind, Fernans knights immediately entered a fighting stance.


    The Emperor''s knights, who were standing in a line on one side of the audience hall, also hurriedly raised their swords.


    nk! nk!


    With the sound of the swords hitting each other, the audience hall was instantly transformed into a blood-sttering scene of ughter.


    The Emperor, watching the scene, opened his mouth wide. Fernan approached him, who started to tremble while pointing.


    "If you''d only touched me, it wouldn''t have gotten to this point."


    Fernan pointed his sword with a cold voice, and the sharp de touched the Emperor''s neck. Fernan has been patient for a very long time. In the name of serving the Empire, or in the name of preventing meaningless sacrifices.


    But now, such a pretentious title was good enough.


    While the Emperor raised his head and wide opened eyes, a calm yet lively voice descended.


    "You shouldn''t have bothered my wife."


    When Fernan raised his sword high as if he was about to kill him, the Emperor shouted out loudly.


    You, youre going to start a rebellion! Even if you do, you''ll beahhh!


    After cutting off the emperor''s words, the de strucked down relentlessly. At the same time, the emperor copsed on the podium with his chair.


    The Emperor''s white hair was cut off and scattered on the floor.


    Huh, huh, huh.


    The fallen emperor tremblingly touched his head, which was still attached.


    Fernan looked down at the emperor who was shaking like an aspen tree.


    He wanted to put the sword down his neck right now, but it wasn''t the time to kill him. The Emperor was the most useful hostage in this battle.


    Fernan handed over the fallen Emperor to a knight near him. Then he turned around and crossed the chaotic audience hall.


    He hurriedly walked out and ran down the hallway.


    There was blood everywhere, all over the stairs,ndings, and halls. Outside the pce, the knights were also in the midst of a bloody battle.


    Fernan just stared straight ahead, like someone unrted to all of that, and hastened his steps.


    ***


    There was a quiet atmosphere in the detached pce just before themotion broke out in the central pce. Julia looked silently at her meal that the maid had left on the table. The meal on the tray was left cold and untouched for a long time.


    Julia recalled for a moment what she had seen outside through the crack in the door when her maid came in. Even then, there were people standing on the outside.


    But unlike yesterday, there was only one person today.


    <i>If its just one person, maybe</i>


    Julia took out the dagger she had hidden in her arms. As soon as she peeled off the cover, a small but sharp de shed with light.


    Biting her lips tightly, Julia looked at the closed door. If she used the key Grayson gave her, she could open that door and go out.


    The guards also had shifts, so byte at night or early in the morning, their surveince might loosen.


    Julia looked at the blocked walls in all directions for a long time. There were no windows, so she couldnt tell if it was day or night, but the maid who stopped by a long time ago had definitely said. I''ll leave your dinner here.''


    Now, it felt like three or four hours had passed, so it must bete at night.


    Julia stopped her footsteps and slowly approached the door, put her ear to the door and tried to understand the situation outside, but there was no sound.


    Julia took a long deep breath as she straightened her body again.


    She knew that if she dyed further, she would not have an answer. Enough time had already passed, and she had a lot of worries.


    If she does nothing and just stamps her feet helplessly, she will eventually be the Crown Prince''s will.


    Okay.


    Julia, who showed her determined face, held the key. She didn''t forget to grip the dagger with her other hand.


    Her hesitation did notst long. She immediately put the key into the doorknob and the unlocked door with a click.


    Julia turned the doorknob with her nervous face.


    As she peeked outside, she saw a guard dozing off leaning against the opposite wall.


    After she saw that the guards eyes were closed, Julia held her breath and stepped outside the door.


    Her heart beat so much that she was afraid that people could hear it. Julia held her trembling breath and hurriedly ran down the hallway.


    As she ran without looking back, the winding hallway was revealed.


    She looked at the long, wide hallway and bit her lips, but she didn''t dy.


    Throughout her run, her ankle twisted and throbbed. But she never felt pain.


    As she reached the end of the hallway, she saw a circr staircase in the middle of the newly emerged hallway.


    Perhaps because it was night, there was no one nearby. Julia, who was faintly relieved by that fact, hurriedly walked to the stairs.


    Then she btedly turned her head to check behind her, fortunately the guard was not following her.


    Whew.


    Exhaling a breath that was blocked from running in a hurry, Julia raised her head.


    As she was about to go down the circr staircase, she suddenly heard footsteps from below. Frozen, Julia nced down and saw three mening up the stairs.


    It was the Crown Prince and his servants.


    Watching the Crown Prince slowly climb the stairs with his knights, Julia''s head went nk. Still, she instinctively took her steps back and went back the way she hade.


    Running down the hallway, she hurriedly opened any door in sight and stepped inside. Thud! She stumbled on her foot and fell to the floor, but without feeling any pain, she hurriedly got up and ran again.


    After closing the door, Julia exhaled urgently.


    <i> Did the Crown Prince see me?</i>


    She couldn''t figure out why the Crown Prince hade at such ate hour, but it was probably not a good thing.


    Julia lowered her gaze with her anxious face, but her eyes, which were trembling at the sound of footsteps outside, gradually widened.


    The sound of trudging, multiple footsteps began to get closer to where she was.


    Arge closet came into the eyes of Julia, who was hurriedly wandering her gaze. Without time to think about anything else, she ran straight to the closet.


    Julia quickly went into therge closet and closed the sliding door.


    Her hands trembled as she crouched down on her knees to catch her breath. Even if the Crown Prince didnt see her, he would soon find out that she was gone.


    In the end, it was only a matter of time before they would catch her.


    Her breathing gradually grew harsher. Her stomach, which had been clogged with tension and pressure the whole time, seemed to be finally twisting. Amidst all the confusion and fear, a face appeared in Julia''s mind.


    Fernan, who spent the past month with her in her dream-like time.


    Thest time she saw his beautiful face filled her mind.


    Julia bit her lips. She hoped he wouldnte to find her.


    She hoped that he would think she ran away again, and wouldnte so nothing would be taken away by the Crown Prince.


    She didn''t want to see Fernan hurt because of her.


    As the Crown Prince said, if he copses. If it''s because of her..


    Her hands were tense. If that happened, she couldn''t stand it.


    Taking her small breaths, Julia recalled her memories of the past two years that she had forgotten, one by one.


    Her marriage started two years ago. The days when she met new people and lived a happy life for a while after escaping the pain of her foolish love.


    Then one winter day, the man who rescued her from being chased by monsters.


    Like an idiot, she thought he dragged her back by force and misunderstood him. Even at the moment when she showed resentment and hatred, he didn''t say anything.


    He just quietly epted all her feelings.


    When she found out that her presence would harm him, she thought it would be better for each other not to be together.


    So she left him again


    It ended up like this. Also, that person


    Julia felt her vision gradually blur. Why was he always like this, and why couldnt he take a step forward? Tears that I endured with frustration and sadness finally streamed down her face.


    bang!


    At that moment, there was the sound of something breaking. At the same time, someone came into the room.


    Julia opened her eyes wide and tightened her body.


    She heard the footsteps wandering here and there as if looking for something, and Julia covered her mouth with her hand. The sound of footsteps that followed so urgently got closer and closer and finally stopped right in front of her. Julia lowered her trembling hand and grabbed the knife she had put back in her arms.


    Grasping the hilt with all her might, she waited for the door to open. The sound of her pounding heart was loud enough to prate her ears.


    <i>Don''t hesitate.''</i>


    As she struggled to hold onto her mind, the sliding door finally swung open.


    At the same time, Julia raised her dagger high.


    !


    However, her hand, raised high, stopped in the air.


    Julia''s eyes began to tremble, confirming the person in front of her. It wasnt the Crown Prince.


    Julia.


    The man whom she wished would note was standing right in front of her.


    Fernan, whose robe was soaked in blood, looked at her with her intense eyes.


    He was exhaling harsh breaths, perhaps he had searched all over to find her.


    Julia looked at him with wet eyes and muttered.


    Your Highness."

 Chapter 102

    Chapter 102


    Fernan, who had been thoroughly examining Julia for a long time, noticed that her eyes were wet.


    His desperate eyes narrowed slightly. He stretched out his hand and gently pressed the corner of Julia''s eyes with his thumb.


    Are you hurt?


    At the end of the voice that was uttered while maintaining as much calm as possible, there was an impatience that could not be hidden.


    Julia blinked her eyes slowly for a moment, as if she couldn''t believe he was in front of her.


    "No.


    The strength drained from her hand as she muttered. The knife she was holding in her grip fell to the floor.


    Fernan bit his lips as he looked at her hands, which were red with intense pressure.


    Then he quickly revealed his still face and whispered small.


    Its okay now.


    Fernan, with his arms outstretched, picked her up into his arms. Julia felt firm hands supporting her body, and pulled her out of the closet in an instant.


    Just then, a loud noise was heard outside.


    Your Highness, knights areing here. You must hurry.


    The knight standing outside the door hurriedly approached Fernan and spoke.


    Fernan, who nodded, took Julia deeper into his arms and took his steps.


    Julia, who looked up at him, lowered her gaze slowly. Then, she saw that the cor of his shirt was dyed red.


    Then, gradually, her mind began to clear.


    Your Highness, are you hurt?


    At Julia''s words as she stuttered, Fernan looked down at her without stopping his steps.


    "Don''t worry, I''m not hurt."


    Despite his clear answer, Julia bit her pale lips and ced her hand on the nape of his neck.


    The blood on his neck rubbed into her hands. Fortunately, the bloodstain was easily wiped off, so he wasnt wounded.


    Still, Julia couldnt help but to lower her head with her face engulfed in guilt.


    As soon as they stepped out of the annex, the scene of the battle where the sound of swords vibrated caught her eyes.


    Julia, who was looking at the sight of blood sttered and men fighting and screaming in the distance, tensed up.


    Everywhere was a battlefield to the extent of thinking that a rebellion had taken ce.


    As Julias gaze shook, Fernan embraced her soft body more deeply as if to block her view.


    From a distance a little closer because of that, Julia muttered in a voice that contained her emotions.


    Im sorry I couldnt keep my promise. Even if I hadn''t been brought here.


    Its not your fault.


    Fernan didn''t stop his urgent steps and answered straight away.


    Even if it wasnt because of you, it must have happened.


    He was calm. His reassuring soft voice made Julia''s heart tremble even more.


    Still, the battle continued on all sides. However, as if he was in a world that was far away from this bloody battlefield, Fernan held her tightly and stepped forward without hesitation.


    The Imperial Pce Knights, who discovered them while running in the direction away from the battle, began to turn their attack on them.


    At the same time, the Fernans knights, who were advancing together while guarding the surroundings, shouted.


    Protect His Highness and Her Grace!


    In the escort of the knights, Fernan elerated further.


    With unwavering steps while holding Julia, he headed to one side of the vast backing, where a carriage was standing.


    If you leave here, my knights will take you to a safe ce.


    Fernan''s calm voicended on Julia.


    Naturally, at the words of excluding him, Julia grabbed his cor tightly.


    "Your Highness?"


    Fernan lowered his gaze slightly and looked at her hand holding his cor.


    And he lifted her eyes again and met hers.


    Her question implied how long this battle wouldst and whether he would be able to return without any problems.


    Fernan turned his gaze away without a reply. Soon, the carriage approached.


    The knight standing next to him opened the door, and Fernan quickly lowered Julia into the carriage. His hands fell off only after he sat her directly in her seat.


    Fernan, who had straightened his body, whispered small.


    "It''s dangerous here, so leave the Empire. With the Marquis family entangled in this civil war, you will no longer be able to stay in the Empire."


    Ill see you again when the time is right.


    Julia stared at him with her shaky eyes.


    His words that he was going to meet again, for some reason, sounded different to her ears. Behind Fernan, who looked calm, a brutal scene unfolded. While Julia gazed at the contrasting sight, his words continued.


    So, forget everything that happened here.


    Forget everything, this time


    Fernan, who seemed calm, stared at her with a painful gaze for a very short time. Blood vessels sprang up on his hands, as if he was holding something back violently.


    "Be happy.. stay like that. Now, nothing is suppressing you.


    Whispering one word at a time, he grabbed Julia''s hand. He bowed his head, and slowly ced his lips on the back of Julia''s soft hand. Contrary to what he said to forget, he kissed her as if he wanted to leave his mark.


    Love and guilt. And his still simmering desire for her was reflected in his tenacious kiss.


    Fernan, who raised his gaze, looked at Julia with intensely trembling eyes. Julia was convinced at that moment. That he was leaving her hisst words. Saying that he woulde to meet herter was just an empty promise, and he was about to let her go.


    The man, who told her that he could never let her go again and asked her to stay by his side until she died, released her hand with a sad smile that she had never seen before.


    Julia looked silently at his hand, which was slowly moving away. Her heart was pounding, but she didn''t know what kind of emotion it caused.


    Was she sorry? Or was she happy that she could really be free this time?


    Fernan, who had held her in her eyes for a moment, straightened his body. Then he turned to the emperor''s knights who were approaching beyond the patronage.


    Your happiness will be my happiness in the end.


    With thest words that fell down meaningfully, Fernan took a step back.


    The door of the carriage closed immediately, and Julia didnt even have time to look at his back as he moved away.


    Through the window of the rushing carriage, she saw Fernan pull out his sword. Julia continued to stare at the window until his figure disappeared.


    That was thest time she saw him.


    ***


    [As it was revealed that the Emperor of Formene attempted to assassinate Grand Duke Caesar, the Grand Duke led the army and invaded the capital. The Geranian Kingdom joined the Grand Dukes army and participated in the civil war ]


    Autumn. The empire was chaotic due to the civil war.


    Fernans revolt was known as the "Civil War". It was due to the circumstances and the testimony that the Emperor was trying to assassinate him.


    It was not only the Emperors assasinated attempt that was judged.


    Fernan threw all the corruption of the Emperor that had been in his hands to the public.


    As the Emperor has been at the center of the imperial power since its foundation, embezzlement and corruption of the imperial nobles have been rampant.


    In particr, recently, themoners were dissatisfied with the huge tax issue, so the public sentiment quickly turned around.


    The Kingdom of Geranian, which had recently signed an alliance agreement with the Grand Duke, participated in this civil war.


    It was said that the civil war, which had continued to be tense, was moving in a direction favorable to the Grand Duke as the Geranian joined.


    Tak, Cedric, who covered the daily newspaper, fell in thought.


    Two months have passed since the civil war began. He was in a foreign country, far from the Empire, and not affected by the civil war.


    Two months ago, Julia, who was silently kidnapped and imprisoned in the Imperial Pce, left the capital safely before thismotion.


    Before he met her, Cedric received a message from Fernan in advance.


    <b><i>Something big will happen to the empire, so take Julia with you and leave.</i></b>


    After that, Cedric and Julia crossed the borders of the Empire.


    Recalling that day, Cedric showed aplicated face. He then raised his gaze and looked at the back of Julia standing in front of the window.


    Julia was staring endlessly at the sunset sky.


    Julia."


    After hesitating for a while, Cedric opened his mouth. Looking back at him, Julia had a calm face.


    In thest two months, Julia seemed strangely calm. It was like she hid all her feelings


    The Empire It''s probably going to have a long civil war.


    Despite his careful words, Julia only slightly lowered her head, but there was no response from her.


    It is said that the situation is going in favor of the Grand Duke.


    .


    "So don''t worry too much."


    Despite the continuous words of constion, Julia did not show any expression.


    So Cedric could hardly figure out what she was thinking. His eyes, filled with worries, reached her endlessly.

 Chapter 103

    Chapter 103


    Julia, who had been silent for a while, opened her mouth right after she turned her back and looked out the window.


    "Do I deserve to worry about him?"


    There was no life in the voice that came out. Her gaze was the same. Her dark blue eyes were still. But deep in her eyes, there was a heavy worry that could not be hidden.


    She had been living the past two months as if a day was a year.


    She couldn''t stand this situation at first. She was worried about Fernan, and at the same time med herself for putting him in danger.


    Fernan had said it would one day be like this with the Emperor, even if it wasn''t for her.


    The conflict between the imperial family and Fernan, which has been going on for a long time, had already deepened, and would end only when one of the two sides copsed.


    Even so, Julia couldnt help but to me herself.


    It must be because of Fernansst appearance, which was engraved in her mind and never disappeared.


    His overwhelming back with him pulling out his sword.


    A calm voice that told her to be happy, and that it was also happiness for himself.


    Julia held her breath while holding her hands tightly. It was difficult to breathe whenever she thought of him whom she saw for thest time.


    Meanwhile, Cedric came closer to her.


    You don''t have to hide it. Feelings or thoughts.


    Cedric, who was about to reach out to Julia while whispering, stopped and put down his hand.


    Cedric knew it well. In her life, Fernan was an existence that would never disappear easily.


    In her lost memory before, after, and now.


    The man was always at the center of theplicated time she had been through.


    Good times or bad times, her feelings for Fernan always seemed heavy. Julia''s feelings of guilt or pity were not going to disappear any time soon.


    But Cedric believed that her feelings were never due to love.


    After a little more time and the empire stabilizes, newses that Fernan is safe She will definitely turn back to her old self.


    So Cedric was going to wait.


    Until Fernan finished it all. And until Julia put all her guilt down and wasfortable.


    ***


    When spring finally arrived, Julia heard the news she had been waiting for.


    It was the news that the civil war of the Empire, which had been going on for half a year, had nowe to an end.


    [After the ensuing conflict, the Grand Duke finally won.]


    Julia, who was not relieved even after reading the same passage over and over again, raised her head when she heard a chirping voice.


    Julia! What are you doing?"


    When she came in, a small girl rushed to the table where Julia was sitting.


    It was Rosemary who had been with her several months before.


    I want to read that too!


    Seeing Rosemary in her arms, Julia, who had a serious expression on her face, gradually rxed.


    Since she had already checked the contents several times, Julia dly handed the daily newspaper to the child.


    Here you go.


    Rosemary epted the daily newspaper with a bright face.


    Sitting across from her, Rosemary, with her little finger on the newspaper, tracing the texts, read word by word.


    A young voice reading the daily newspaper aloud filled the parlor for a moment.


    After recalling the content one more time in the child''s voice, Julia began to rx little by little from the tension that had filled her mind.


    Fernan finally ended a long civil war.


    The daily newspaper featured the fact that he hadpletely driven out the power of the Emperor.


    Against the corrupt imperial powers and imperial aristocrats, it was said that the vassals of the Geranian Kingdom and the nobles joined Fernan.


    It was half a year. In a short period of less than a year, the Emperor''s powers werepletely wiped out.


    However, it must have been a long and difficult time for those who eagerly awaited the news.


    It was the Helinde family, the bloodline of the imperial family, who were appointed to ascend to the next throne.


    It was also the family that made the most significant contribution to this civil war.


    Due to the sudden change of the Emperor''s power, the Empire was going to have a chaotic time for a while.


    <i>Im d.</i>


    More than any other news, it wasforting to know that Fernan was safe.


    In the meantime, she received the Imperial daily newspaper once a month from the postman.


    By the time it reached her, it had been several more weeks since the daily newspaper had been published.


    So, now, the Empire was more stable than what was written here.


    Fernan was at the center of this civil war, so he was busier than anyone else.


    For Julia, that was enough.


    She hoped he, who returned safely to his ce, would live in an environment that would no longer oppress him.


    May he meet someone who really suits him and would be helpful, and live without being threatened by anyone.


    So she hoped to be reallyfortable in the end.


    Julia could be satisfied with being able to hear his news even from afar.


    As she once said, and as Fernan reiterated, it was going back to where they had never met in the first ce.


    Yes, that was the answer.


    Julia looked at Rosemary who was sitting in front of her, then slowly turned her head.


    Through the window, the rising sun was dazzling.


    The pleasantughter of children could be heard from outside the mansion, and the smell of Gabrielles baked dessert wafted through the door.


    Everything seemed to go back to one year ago, when she was living in the Holy Kingdom.


    Little by little, Julia began to bury all the heavy emotions one by one. It was time to stop thinking about any regrets or feelings for Fernan. This was the ce, and for the best.


    For him and for her.


    ****


    The Emperor, who was at the center of this incident, was greeted with a tragic ending.


    Around winter, the Emperor, who had been held hostage at the height of the civil war in the capital, tried to escape when the situation turned against him.


    He tried to escape to the pce by himself, leaving behind the many people who supported him, by switching clothes with his servant.


    Had he merely waited patiently, he might have been executed or exiled as painlessly as possible.


    However, because he tried to escape, he was brutally killed on the battlefield by the knights who regarded the Emperor as a mere servant.


    After the emperor returned with a wretched corpse, the date of the execution of his son, the Crown Prince, was set.


    In addition, all those who could be a threat to the new imperial family were also exterminated.


    Except for them, the former imperial family, such as the Empress or the Crown Princess, whose crimes could not be identified, ended only at the level of depriving them of their status.


    There was no need to make meaningless sacrifices, it was a generous treatment of the new Emperor Galliard Helinde.


    However, the House of Marquis Elody, who was deeply involved in this case, was wiped out. The heir to the Marquis, Grayson Elody, left the Empire after being acquitted. However, the Marchioness Elody, like the Crown Prince, was imprisoned in the tower, awaiting execution.


    Hey, hey! Bring my daughter, Grand Duchess!


    In the tower of the western part of the Imperial Pce, in the basement equipped with the prison, the voice calling for her daughter continued to resound for a while.


    My daughter, I cant let die like this!


    Even though no food or water was given for the third day, her voice was only resounding.


    However, she did not look like a normal person because she was already emaciated greatly.


    She did not know what she believed, but the Marchioness was proud and confident. No matter how much Julia hated her, Julia would never turn a blind eye to her dying mother.


    Although it was true that she had abused and despised Julia until now, she was her parents who had protected Julia for ten years.


    So that blind and naive thing would most likely not turn away from her.


    "Hey, you! Can''t you hear me?"


    The Marchioness, who had been swearing and screaming, was exhausted and sat down.


    She begged to call Julia for days and nights, but no one listened to her.


    As she sat down, holding the bar tightly, she screamed again.


    "Call Julia! No, call Grand Duke, now!"


    The Marquis, who had been screaming on top of her lungs, was exhausted and copsed after an hour.


    However, when the guard saw her copse, no action was taken.


    Whether she died of exhaustion or beheaded, one way or another she was going to die.

 Chapter 104

    Chapter 104


    The new Emperor of the empire, Galliard, was a young man who turned 30 this year.


    As the head of the imperial family, Galliard joined Fernan and yed a major role in this civil war.


    He was responsible for making measures to minimize damage to the people of the capital and protecting them from this civil war.


    While Fernan dealt with the Emperor and ughtered the rest of his vassals, Galliard led his army and guarded the interior and exterior of the capital himself.


    During the months he was protecting his people from afar, Galliard naturally won the hearts of his people.


    This was also the strategy suggested by Fernan first.


    The young Emperor, who ascended to the throne safely thanks to the support of the Grand Duke, was changing the corrupt political system of the Empire one by one.


    As a result, recently, Galliards work was heavier than anyone else''s.


    Inside the newly renovated Imperial Pce office.


    Galliard, who was eagerly reading the papers, lifted his head at the sound of a knock on the door.


    Your Majesty, this is Chelsea.


    "Come in."


    The one who came in was an aide who hade to report the soon-to-be-invited list of outsiders for the National Day festival.


    Your Majesty, this is the list of the delegations.


    Well done. Let me review it quickly.


    Galliard answered in a very solemn tone and epted the report.


    It was the first National event since the royal family was reced. Because of that, the scale was being prepared on arger scale than at other times.


    Since many delegations from all over the world were scheduled to visit, the capital was currently busy.


    And, Your Majesty. Grand Duke Caesar has expressed his wish not to attend this ceremony.


    "Oh yeah. I already heard it.


    Galliard nodded his head in an insignificant tone.


    Fernan had already told him once. He no longer touched the political world of the capital, but would do his best to rule his own territory.


    Your Majesty, as this is the first founding festival, I think it would be better for the Grand Duke to attend. Apparently, externally, the power of the Grand Duke still has a big influence


    Thats enough. Don''t rush the Grand Duke."


    In Galliards view, Fernan was in need of a rest in many ways.


    A few years after the long war, he had another civil war, so he thought that he would have been seriously hurt.


    I want to set the Grand Duke free. That is also the condition he asked me to do in this civil war.


    Galliard shrugged his shoulders slightly and stamped the document.


    In the meantime, he has seen many victims of the wickedness and selfishness of the previous emperor.


    It was not the way for the Emperor to use the imperial power to keep everyone under his feet and obey him.


    In order to develop the Empire into a bnced state that was not biased toward the imperial power, the existence of Fernan, who supported the power in the north, was essential.


    Galliard was well aware that governing the empire with a bnced force was the more beneficial path for the people of the empire.


    In that respect, it was in line with Fernan. Because of this, Galliard had no intention of demanding allegiance from him.


    The Empire in which the new sun had risen was continuing such innovative steps.


    Around that time.


    The Grand Duchy was also having a busy time due to the changed state of the Empire.


    Taking advantage of the chaos of the Empire, bands of thieves began to appear one after another at each border.


    So for a while, Fernan spent time dealing with the bandits that invaded the borders.


    One afternoon, returning from sweeping, Lloyd shouted in surprise.


    Your Highness!


    Fernans blood was dripping down between his sleeves with his cloak off.


    The amount of bleeding was significant. Lloyd rushed out and called the medical team. As the medical team rushed into the barracks, Fernan was unbuttoning his upper garment as if he felt nothing.


    Lloyd looked at him and opened his mouth with a voice filled with anger.


    Sir, why are you like this these days?


    This wasn''t the first time something like this had happened. In the battlesrge and small at the border, Fernan was using his body too recklessly.


    He was not a sloppy man to the point of getting hurt while dealing with bandits.


    That was to say, he saw blood without avoiding even a sufficiently avoidable attack.


    Lloyd, who tried to say further with his fists clenched, finally sighed as he looked into Fernan''s unfocused eyes.


    As if he couldn''t see Lloyd''s worries and resentment, Fernan sat down on a small chair and quietly closed his eyes.


    Even though his sleeves were soaked in blood, he had an expressionless face as if he couldn''t even feel pain.


    Your Highness, please raise your arm. I will start with hemostasis.


    At the request of the medic, Fernan mechanically raised his arm, but he did not open his closed eyes.


    The medic carefully ripped his sleeve and pulled it off, revealing a long cut in his arm.


    There is no anesthetic, but I have to sew it right away.


    Fernan did not respond to the medic''s words. He just held up his arm quietly as if to do so.


    Fernan made no expression as he poked and sewed a needle into his bare, muscr arm.


    Lloyd continued to watch him like that, and let out a heavy sigh.


    Several months have passed since the civil war ended. The Empire was stabilizing, and there were no more forces to threaten Fernan.


    Still, he was like a human who could not die.


    No, It felt like he was trying to die somehow.


    Lloyd murmured almost in tears as he watched Fernans open skin stitched together.


    "Don''t die, Your Highness. Don''t even think about dying."


    To Lloyd, Fernan was his lord for the rest of his life, but he was also a close friend after a long war.


    He owed his life many times during the war. He was the lord who saved Lloyd, who was only a soldier, and dly established him as a close confidant because of his abilities.


    Since then, Lloyd has vowed to work for him for the rest of his life.


    It wasn''t just Lloyd. Fernan''s lieutenants and knights were all ready to give their lives for him.


    As such, Fernan was a man of great responsibility. So, Lloyd couldn''t stand to see him harm himself like that.


    Youre talking nonsense.


    Fernan, who opened his eyes only then, let out a low voice for the first time. His gaze on Lloyd was just silent.


    Lloyd looked at him and sniffled his nose.


    Please listen to me even if its nonsense.


    Your Highness life is the life of all of us. So, please dont die."


    Lloyd continued his words as if vomiting his anger. Despite his desperate words, Fernan simply lowered his eyelids without answering.


    Looking at him like that, Lloyd struggled to swallow the words he was about to continue.


    If he continued to abuse himself in this way, he couldnt stand still either.


    Lloyd knew that there was only one person who could bring Fernan back to life.


    Perhaps now, Julia, who was living quietly in a small country, would never want toe back, but Lloyd was thinking of going to find her at least once.


    If his master didnt speak, he would.


    <i>Pleasee back. Im not asking you to be the Grand Duchess again, but can you pleasee see His Highness just once and try to stop him from killing himself somehow.</i>


    Lloyd rubbed his reddened eyes, suppressed his inner thoughts.


    Rather than letting Fernan break down like this, he thought it would be hundreds of times the right decision to bring her back even if he would be punished.


    ***


    At the end of spring, there was news about the founding festival of the Empire in the daily newspaper Julia received after a long time.


    After reading the daily newspaper for a while, Julia stopped her gaze. Looking at the date, two weekster was the date of the event.


    In her memory, the National Day festival continued for three days.


    On the first day, imperial figures and nobles were convened at the banquet hall to listen to the Emperor''s speech.


    And on the second day, the Emperor and Empress toured the capital''s square for the parade.


    At that time, other members of the royal family and key figures also came out to the square and stayed near the Emperor. It was the only day that ordinary people would see the imperial family and nobles up close.


    Naturally, she was reminded that Fernan would also attend the ceremony that day.


    He has yed a key role in this change of power, so he would at least attend the parade.


    Tak, Julia, who put down the daily newspaper, slowly approached the window.


    Now the world was so peaceful. As time went on, Julia became more and more detached from her past affairs.


    Even when she saw Fernan''s current status, which was written line by line from time to time in the daily newspaper, Julia was now very calm.


    Fernan, who had a friendly rtionship with the new Emperor, no longer suffered from threats.


    Perhaps that was why when she thought of him, her heart was no longer heavy.


    Fernan himself believed that everything was getting better now, and that was what Julia believed.


    Then, someone knocked on the door. After waking up from her thoughts, Julia walked leisurely and opened the door. Cedric was standing in front of the door.


    Julia, are you busy?


    A cautious voice descended from somewhere, and Julia shook her head and asked.


    "No. What''s going on, Cedric?"


    Cedric hesitated, but answered in a clear voice.


    Before I leave, I was wondering if we could spend some time together.


    A weekter, Cedric was due to return to the temple of Ilion.


    Since he had been away for a long time, Julia meekly agreed to his words of returning.


    She knew very well that Cedric had spent so much time with her. It was time for him to return to his ce.


    Shall we go for an evening walk together like before?


    Cedric asked her again when she gave no answer. Julia then nodded her head.


    "Okay."


    Under the evening sky that gradually began to darken, the two of them walked for a long time without saying a word. About when they were talking over the arch gate, Cedric grabbed his hand tightly and tried to say something, then shut his mouth again and again.


    Julia, who had not noticed his signs as she was walking in vain, lifted her gaze from the ground only when he suddenly stopped.


    Julia.


    Cedric looked down at her with a determined look on his face as if he had something to say.


    As Julia quietly waited for him to speak, he bit her lip and quietly spoke.


    If."


    Cedric, who swallowed his saliva, continued.


    If you just say one word I will stay here.


    Julia blinked her eyes silently, not understanding his words at once.


    Julia, who was thinking about why he was saying this, realized something and opened her mouth slightly. As she looked up, she saw Cedric''s eyes trembling greatly.


    If you allow I can give up my ce. (*he meant his priesthood)

 Chapter 105

    Chapter 105


    "Will you allow me to stay by your side until the end?"


    It was only then that Julia could clearly understand the meaning of Cedric''s words.


    His feelings for her in his rust were so transparent that anyone could see at this moment.


    Julia looked at him with a face that didn''t know what expression to make. He said something so sudden to her. But on the other hand, his eyes are so emotional that she didnt know why she only realized it now.


    Julia, unable to hide her embarrassment, opened her mouth after a long time.


    ".Im sorry."


    It was a word of refusal without a doubt.


    She was afraid her answer would hurt him, but Julia knew that this was the only answer she could give him.


    Cedric was a good person. He was also a respectable person.


    Always friendly and caring, Cedric was the first friend Julia epted into her heart.


    But she was well aware that thefort she felt was never based on rational emotions.


    Julia continued to face him without averting her gaze. Then she spoke in a slightly clearer voice.


    I dont want you to be by my side.


    Dont stagnate here. I want you to move forward.


    Cedric''s eyes sank sadly at the warm yet firm answer.


    Julia felt sorry for him, but she didn''t want to torture him with even the slightest bit of hope.


    Because she knew well that it would cause him even more wounds in the future.


    Cedric''s sunken eyes be empty, struggling to retain their original calm light. As if he had not expected her answer at all, he struggled to lift his lips with a calm face.


    If you want to, I will.


    She knew the end of his voice was trembling, but Julia pretended not to know and shook her head.


    At the same time, she felt bad at the thought that she had hurt him.


    Suddenly, to Cedric in front of her, she saw herself from a long time ago and knew how painful the unrequited love was because she had experienced it too.


    A man''s face appeared in her mind as if it were natural. Julia bowed her head, feeling restless.


    ***


    She didn''t know how she was feeling about the week.


    Time flew by quickly, feeling a little ufortable, and finally the day Cedric was leaving came. A particrly sunny morning in the spring. Julia, who came out to see Cedric off, was hesitant and approached him. Cedric, who found her, greeted her as affectionately as he had ever been.


    "Julia, stay healthy and well. I''ll be back from time to time."


    At that moment, Julia felt relieved at Cedric''s attitude, which was not different from his usual one. If she had let him go with ufortable feelings, she would always be bothered for a long time.


    Julia answered, raising her lips.


    I will often send letters with the children.


    Cedric smiled faintly and nodded his head, turning his back before the end of his smile turned a bit bitter.


    Cedric, who was about to get on the carriage, stopped for some reason. Then he looked back again.


    Looking at Julia with his subtle eyes, he opened his mouth with a gentle voice.


    Julia.


    As Julia tilted her head, Cedric, who could not hide his lonely smile, spoke.


    Now, I want you to be honest with your feelings.


    Yes?"


    Julia opened her eyes wide as she looked at him. As he lowered his gaze slightly, Cedric spoke.


    In my eyes, I can see the longing you have.


    So don''t be afraid. Now you can be truly happy.


    "Why..


    Before she could even ask why he said that, Cedric turned his back. Without hesitation, he got into the carriage and thest words flowed from him.


    I heard that the founding festival will be held in the Empire soon.


    He smiled and looked back at Julia. Julia''s eyes gradually grew bigger.


    Cedric didn''t say anything more. Soon after the door closed, the carriage began to run quickly.


    Julia held her hands tightly as she looked at the moving carriage.


    <i>You can feel the longing..</i>


    Julia couldn''t tell who Cedric was referring to. But even after hearing those words, Julia could hardly understand her heart.


    With a confused look on her face, she gently grabbed her hands and lowered her head.


    She thought she was fine. Because she didn''t mind thinking of Fernan. She just wanted the man to be happy.


    Is that really all?


    Julia''s eyes fluttered faintly. Until now, she has been whispering to myself that it is okay and that it is really okay.


    Let''s bury the rtionship with Fernan and live. That was the answer.


    Julia''s eyes, which were looking down, became nk as if they were in deep agony.


    Yulia, who had been standing still there, raised her head only after a while.


    <i>Founding festival. If I go there, I can meet Fernan.</i>


    <i>If I see him from afar Can I understand this confused mind?</i>


    Julia sped her hand meaninglessly and stared into the air.


    She had unconsciously thought that she should not meet him, so Julia''s troubles never ended.


    If she saw him, she wasn''t sure if the chaos would fall asleep or be intensified.


    Julia, who had been standing still for such a long time, suddenly remembered that the time until the founding festival was quite short.


    The festival was only one week away.The road from here to the Empire took just the same amount of time.


    It was only when she thought so far that Julia got her mind together.


    She wanted to go. Even if it was an impulsive decision, she wanted to respond to her heart at this moment.


    Julia turned around and hurriedly entered the house. It didn''t take long for her to prepare to leave for the capital.


    While her hesitation was long, Julia''s steps were swift.


    ****


    As expected, it took a week and one more day to reach the Empire.


    Time from dawn to morning. Fortunately, Julia was able to arrive on time for the parade.


    So as soon as she got down from the carriage and put her feet on the floor, she staggered as she lost the strength from her legs. It was because she had been on the carriage for too long.


    Julia, who barely had her focus, lifted her head and looked around her. The capital had changed more than in herst memory.


    gs hung all over the streets of the square were engraved with a splendid emblem embroidered with gold thread.


    It was a new imperial seal, different from the one she knew.


    After a moment''s attention was taken from it, people began to gather one by one. Standing in the square that was filled in an instant, Julia looked over the street, caught in the crowd of people. As if the parade was about to begin, the procession of knights marching from afar began to look very small.


    She thought that she would be able to see the parade up close, but due to the crowds, it was not possible. She tried to go in the direction where she could see the procession as much as possible, but people from all directions blocked her view at once.


    Ah"


    Contact with people around her was also frequent, and Julia, who was hit on the shoulder several times, crouched down. Even standing still in the street was not easy for her.


    While Julia couldn''t do anything with a troubled expression on her face, time flew by helplessly.


    Soon the sound of colorful and majestic music began to fade in the distance.


    His Majesty the Emperor!


    Wow!


    People cheered and screamed.


    With a disciplined gait, a long line of knights strode across the square. The new emperor and empress were riding in a chariot, halfway between the knights lined up. Behind them were several royal families and nobles.


    Julia looked over the crowd standing on her tiptoes, but it was hard to see.


    At that moment, she lost her bnce as someone who had suddenly bumped her on the shoulder.


    Yulia, who had just been pushed out of the crowd, couldnt get back in.


    Meanwhile, the parade processionpletely disappeared from her sight.


    Julia, who stood still for a moment, sighed heavily.


    While she wasing all the way, she had thought that maybe she would never be able to see Fernan. Even so, she came without hesitation.


    Julia looked aimlessly beyond the crowd. Then, she looked back on how she acted so impulsively.


    She wanted to see Fernan from afar. It was because she thought that only then would her mind be cleared up.


    However, that was not the case.


    She brainwashed herself that she had forgotten all about him, that she had no feelings left, she pretended to be calm, but She knew well that all of that was just a lie she whispered to herself.


    The time with Fernan, which she thought she had forgotten, and her feelings for him were still clearly engraved inside her.


    Cedric was right. She herself had missed Fernan for the past half year.


    So she looked at the Imperial daily newspaper every day. She wanted to feel a trace of him, because she missed him. She wanted to meet him, so she left impulsively to this distant ce.


    The kindness contained in the indifferent voice and the warm smile and touch that only showed her came to her mind every day.


    In herst moment with him, the man''s voice who told her to be happy never disappeared from her ears for a second.


    His heart ached and her head throbbed with pain whenever she remembered his back with his sword drawn and steadfastly left.


    I''ll be with you, I''ll give you anything She missed the heart of the man who said that.


    Julia''s hands trembled slightly. While raising her hand and covering her eyes as she was, Julia stood there for a long time.


    The light that leaked through her darkened vision felt cold. At this moment, Julia was buried in the darkness and just wanted to cry endlessly.


    Then, she felt a long shadow over her head. At the same time, a surprised voice descended.


    Grand Duchess?


    After holding her breath for a moment, Julia slowly removed her hand that covered her eyes.


    As she raised her head, a man stood in front of her.


    L Lloyd?


    Julia''s eyes widened. Standing in front of her was Lloyd, Fernan''s subordinate.

 Chapter 106

    Chapter 106


    As the previous imperial family disappeared, the lives of the people of the Empire became smoother.


    Naturally, Fernans status also increased. The people of the Empire praised the new emperor and his loyal servant Fernan, and the number of nobles who wanted to have connections with him somehow grew day by day.


    However, Fernan blocked himself from outside attention. So he had only been in his estate for two months.


    Even at the first founding festival after the change of the imperial family, he did not attend.


    After sending his aide, Lloyd, his trusted right hand man, Fernan stayed only in his bedroom for a long time.


    In the dark room where his breaths werent even heard, hey on the bed and closed his eyes. His dark eyshes, which were set down, didn''t move at all. A strange silence continued. For a while, Fernan had been buried in political affairs or battles.


    Even in a small sweep that he did not need to go out on his own, he just ran out with his sword.


    Only then could he survive the nightmares that crushed him.


    His shirt was half ripped open, and new scars were engraved on his body, covering the original scars.


    An injury that he would never have suffered. It was an injury that could only be exined that he purposely did not avoid the attack.


    His knights said their master looked like someone who couldnt die.


    UhI dont know whats wrong? It''s already been three days. I knocked on the door mornings and nights, but no answer came back


    Outside the door, the voices of servants contemting whether they should wake him up could be heard intermittently.


    In the end, one of the servants mustered up the courage and knocked on the door again, but Fernan didn''t open his eyes even after hearing the sound.


    All colors disappeared from his sight, which was only in darkness. There was no sense of vitality in his world, which was dyed only in ck and white without a single light.


    At first nce, he was so motionless that he looked like a dead person, but at some point he slowly opened his eyes. The golden eyes exposed under the dark eyelids stared nkly at the ceiling.


    As time passed, a woman''s face suddenly began to appear in his empty head.


    In a world where there was only darkness, Julia was the only one painted with color, and she was smiling like the sun.


    The world around her slowly spread the light.


    Even at the moment he seemed to have lost his emotions, his mind heated up when he thought of Julia like this. Feeling the heat spreading through his head, Fernan slowly closed his eyes and opened them.


    As the dead sensation came back to life, he felt a throbbing pain.


    He got up slowly. Not long ago, the wound around his waist opened and the bandage began to turn red, but he didn''t feel the need to stop the bleeding.


    Leaning against the head of the bed, he ruffled his messy hair.


    Julia''s face was always drawn by itself, even if he didn''t have to memorize it.


    For him, Julia has always been an exceptional person.


    In the fiercely lived past, in a time he was not shaken by anyone, Julia always easily drew out his emotions that he did not know existed.


    Even when he harbored feelings of difort and contempt for her, whenever he looked at her, he always felt a burning sensation in his chest.


    When that subtle heat that was unknown to him grew, he eventually reached her feelings of wanting to keep her by his side.


    Only then did he know. He realized that he wanted to hold the woman he had been so reluctant to know that he was being attracted to her.


    After breaking her down with coercive acts and eventually letting her go with his own hands, he realized it again.


    His feelings were not mere possessiveness.


    Ironically, he was so engulfed in emotions that he considered it the least of his life.


    Love. He didn''t want to own Julia, he wanted to love her.


    No, he was already in love with her when he came to his senses.


    Fernan let out a faint bitter smirk with his closed lips.


    He once heard the song of a bard during a war. It was a song about love.


    The old song that praised the woman with beautiful and shiny words, resounded in his ears clearly at this moment.


    Fernan closed his eyes again and listened to the intangible song.


    At the same time, he thought it was fortunate that he didnt tell Julia he loved her.


    If she had heard it, she would have considered it abominable and disgusting.


    But at least once, he wanted to tell her like that song of the minstrel.


    How beautiful she was, and how far she captivated people with her sunny smile.


    Maybe she didnt know at all.


    Fernan lifted his lips gently and ced his arm on my forehead. Suddenly, a sleep that hadn''te in a while was pouring in.


    He felt like he was slowly being encroached into a certain underground that had no end in sight.


    Like that, he felt like he never wanted to wake up again.


    ****


    <b><i>His Highness seems to be trying to die.</i></b>


    <b><i>Hes hurting his body on purpose. That''s an act no less than self-harm </i></b>


    <b><i>I know its selfish of me to ask, but can Grand Duchess go see him just once? Youre the only one who can stop him.</i></b>


    Julia recalled the words she heard from Lloyd.


    As soon as she heard his words, Julia hurriedly left the capital as if possessed by something. The ce she headed straight to was the Castle of Grand Duchy.


    The castle has not changed from her memories. After briefly examining the exterior of the castle, Julia entered without hesitation.


    It took her over half a day to get here.


    Her body was eroded by fatigue after a long journey, but strangely, her body was light as if she had awakened.


    Oh, Grand Duchess?"


    Upon entering the lobby, a servant who recognized her dropped the vase in surprise.


    However, the sharp sounds or their gazes did not enter Julia''s nerves.


    Hurried to Fernan''s bedroom, that was all she remembered.


    Passing through the long hallway, she stopped only when she reached the door.


    Then, suddenly, her mind came back.


    <i>Can I go in? Is it true that Fernan in there?</i>


    With that thought, as she pondered and pondered, her hand was raised by itself.


    When she grabbed the doorknob and turned it, the door opened easily.


    Julia walked into the bedroom with tension and at the same time saw a man lying neatly on the bed.


    A trembling breath came out from her tension, and Julia walked closer to him.


    Your Highness."


    As she called him with a clear voice, she sat down next to him. She filled his face in her eyes.


    Even in half a year, he remained unchanged. Hisrge body covered with muscles was still daunting.


    But his countenance was pale as if he was about to die, and his firm body was more damaged than she remembered.


    Fernan was broken. It was as Lloyd said.


    When she realized that fact with her own eyes, Julia felt a distant feeling. She slowly reached out and took his hand, but she didn''t feel the warmth he had before.


    why."


    Julia held up his hand and buried it on her cheek. She rubbed it on her cheek, hoping the warmth would reach him.


    Even so, his fully closed eyelids were firm as if they would never open again.


    Julia kept calling him, feeling like she wanted to cry.


    "Your Highness, wake up.


    "You said you''de to see me again. But you didn''te, so I came.


    Julia, who kept talking to the man who did not open his eyes, eventually pulled out the feelings she buried deep in her heart.


    I missed you so much.


    It was only after she let out her emotions through her lips, that Julia could fully realize how much she missed him.


    She wanted his big hand to caress her, and the warm gaze he only showed her to touch her whole body.


    She wanted to sleep with him like that one night, when she had a happy dream in his arms.


    They had to cross thisplicated road to untangle the twisted knot.


    But the rough road had already been polished and smoothed by this man, and she only had to take one step.


    All the roads he made for her. The door that was always opened so that she coulde back whenever she wanted.


    Crossing that road and opening the door, she hesitated a lot.


    It took a lot of courage and conviction to fully realize his sincerity and her own heart.


    I am here now."


    Here, I will be by your side.


    Julia whispered in a weeping voice, but did not shed a single tear.


    Instead, she reached out and touched Fernan''s eyelids.


    When she cried, as this man always did, he touched her eyes with a loving touch, wiping away her tears.


    After a while the hand that had been wandering around his eyes stopped. Fernan''s hand, which moved before the tightly closed eyelids, suddenly grabbed Julia''s wrist.


    He slowly opened his eyes.


    With his unfocused gaze, Fernan stared at her still.


    Julia.


    And in his wet, hazy voice, he called out her name.


    While lowering his eyelids half-way again as if he had not fully awakened, he clearly captured Julia in his eyes.


    The voice that came out was hoarse.


    Am I dreaming?


    Julia looked at him, who was murmuring, and raised her lips as if she was falling apart.


    "It''s not a dream."


    Julia held up his hand that was holding her wrist.


    "Look. I''m in your hand like this."


    As she squeezed his sped hand, Fernans fingers flinched.


    At the same time, his eyes that looked at Julia began to gradually return to focus.

 Chapter 107

    Chapter 107


    The soft, warm hand felt vivid. Julia, whom he remembered even before falling asleep, was by his side.


    Fernan opened his eyes and got his body up in a hurry. His golden eyes, still unable to grasp the situation, caught her in his eyes endlessly.


    However, Julia''s presence was so vivid that it brought him a sense of reality little by little.


    Julia waited calmly until he fully recognized her. After some time passed, Fernan spoke in a confused voice.


    . Why."


    ..


    Why are you here


    Fernan knew that Julia left the Empire safely. He thought that disappearingpletely from her sight was the way for Julia to bepletely free.


    So, of course, he never thought that Julia would be in the Empire.


    He never thought that she would appear in front of him again like this.


    It certainly was, but at this moment, Julia was looking at him from a very close distance.


    With watery eyes and a clear smile, she made eye contact with him.


    Fernan slowly reached out and touched her cheek. The feel of her skin was vivid in his hand. Julia did not let go of his hand that had touched her. She sped the back of his hand tightly, as if reassuring him, and she buried her cheek in his hand more deeply.


    Fernan''s eyes gradually began to tremble.


    It was strange. Julia couldnt act like this. He was sure all Julias memories were already back by now.


    So she should have avoided him and shunned him.


    When Fernan could no longer speak with such thoughts, Julia whispered in a quiet voice,


    All my memories came back.


    At those words, Fernan visibly clenched his hand. Julia continued speaking without letting go of his hand.


    So, what Im saying from now on is my only sincerity.


    Her blue eyes that had shone brightly fell down for a moment, and then she turned to him again.


    At this moment, Julia had so many things she wanted to convey to him.


    Whenever I was in danger, Your Highness somehow came and saved me. Time and time again.


    With a calm voice, Julia recalled the countless times he hade to save her.


    For the first time, when war with monsters broke out in the Holy Kingdom. And when he risked his life to find the High Priest to save her, who was dying.


    And half a year ago, when she was taken to the Imperial Pce by the Emperor.


    Thank you for finding me till the end.


    It was ate thank you. She lost her memory and misunderstood him, and she couldn''t say it during such aplicated time.


    Julia gently raised her lips. Fernan was listening to her, barely breathing.


    Your Highness, do you remember what you promised me?


    .


    You said well be together forever, dont worry about anything.


    It was the promise he made while walking through the forest togetherst fall, when Julia, who had lost her memory, returned to the castle.


    It was an empty promise that Fernan made even knowing it wouldnte true, but Julia never forgot that promise.


    And now that all her memories were restored, his promise was still valid for her. She put her hand down slowly, Julia let go of his hand that was on her cheek, and then she reached out again and touched his body.


    She touched the body that had been cut and torn and full of scars, then said.


    You said my happiness is also happiness for Your Highness.


    "So Let''s be happy together."


    Fernan''s gaze began to fluctuate greatly at the sound of her sorrowful voice that did not hide her trembling.


    With his dry lips twitching, he asked in a shaky voice.


    Don''t you resent me?"


    Unlike a man who was always strong and relentless, Fernan deeply contorted the corners of his eyes as if he was unsure.


    Fernan had always thought he had ruined her happiness. He thought she would hate him forever.


    Therefore, for Fernan, everything Julia said now was sudden and difficult to believe. As much as he doubted that he was still dreaming.


    Julia answered with a slightly clearer voice, as if reassuring him.


    I dont resent you.


    Julia recalled the attitude of this man in the past. Fernan, who had saved her many times and endured her hatred again, was always silent.


    She had never been able to fully feel his sincerity and she had to reject him because she couldn''t believe all the emotions he showed her.


    But as time passed, she stood up, and stood a step back and thought.


    It was only then that she could feel it. She knew that there wasn''t a single moment that wasn''t his sincerity.


    Fernan had regretted the past that he had hurt her, and tried to undo all of it.


    And in the end, he really wanted her to be happy.


    Julia looked at him with deep affection. Still, Fernan asked again with a weak face that had never been seen by anyone.


    Then Don''t you hate me?"


    As if he still couldn''t believe her words, Fernan covered his eyes with a trembling hand.


    Even if I want to be by your side again


    ..Can I hold you?


    To him who kept asking, Julia stretched out her arm without answering.


    Julia wrapped his broad back and buried her face in his shoulder.


    The sound of his heart could be heard from the bodies touching each other. She felt his stiff breath, and Julia answered without hesitation.


    Even if Your Highness doesnt hold me, I will be by your side.


    Julia hugged him a little deeper and whispered.


    "Now Because I want you.


    The answerpletely poured out her suppressed emotions. Fernan pulled Julia in front of him with great force.


    In an instant, Julia, who was sitting on his legs, naturally grabbed his neck. At the same time, Fernan pulled her closer to him.


    Fernan closed his eyes as he listened to her heavy breathing flowing from her.


    Julia said she wanted him. It was an unbelievable word that he had never imagined even in a dream.


    However, Julia, now wrapping her arms around him, was a clear reality.


    Fernan muttered without hiding his trembling.


    I want you too.


    At his desperate voice, Julia smiled and nodded.


    At the warm embrace that permeated pleasantly, Julia felt the emotions rising deep in her heart.


    As if time had stopped for a moment, they felt each other''s body temperature. His cold body quickly melted as it came into contact with Julia.


    Before long, Fernan poured out the words he had kept inside, along with his longing feelings.


    I wont ask you to love me again, I can love you alone, so forever, just stay by my side.


    .


    I don''t need anything else. As long as you are with me I can do anything. You can use me and deceive me. But dont leave anymore.


    At his rambling words, Julia smiled, feeling like she was about to cry.


    Fernan, who pulled Julia in even deeper, let out a bted, but more earnest word than ever.


    I love you, Julia."


    Julia felt her heart start to beat. She couldn''t tell if it was hers or this man''s, but it didn''t matter.


    As she embraced him by the shoulder, Julia, who opened a small gap, looked at him quietly. The eyes of the two intertwined.


    Julia smiled sweeter than ever as she stroked his cheek.


    "I love you too.


    With those words, Fernan broke the single string that was barely holding on to her, and hurriedly lowered his head to her.


    The moment his lips touched hers, Julia happily closed her eyes.


    As if not to miss a single breath that was passing, they hugged each other again.


    Yes, it was love. Julia felt it clearly at this moment.


    There were moments when she thought she didn''t love him, but at the very bottom of her feelings that were entangled with him, there was always love.


    When she fully epted her heart, the tears that she had been holding back over and over fell from Julia''s eyes.


    Fernan wiped all the tears that flowed down her cheeks into her hand. Meanwhile, the burning kiss continued more passionately.


    "ha .


    The moment her lips parted slightly, Julia noticed that the corners of Fernan''s eyes were also wet.


    Julia, who was exhaling, raised her hand and wiped his feverish eyes.


    Her heart broke at the tears she saw from him for the first time, and at the same time, her affection surged.


    This man had always protected her, but now this man looked unstable and precarious.. Now she wanted to protect him.


    She lowered her hand that had touched his eyes, and Julia ced her lips on his again. To the clumsy kiss that continued, Fernan dly responded.


    Finally, it was the moment when everything was filled.


    ****


    There was warm sunlight.


    At the same time, there was a familiar winter scent right next to him.


    Julia lifted her heavy eyelids. Then, immediately, the body of arge and strong man caught her eyes.


    Julia, who slowly blinked her eyes a few times, looked at Fernan, who embraced her bodypletely.


    He was in a deep sleep with a rare rxed expression.

 Chapter 108

    Chapter 108


    Up until now, whenever they fell asleep together, Fernan was always the first to wake up, so seeing him still peacefully sleeping like this, Julia felt a new sensation and she couldnt help but smile.


    As she was about to hug him like that, she suddenly felt a strange sensation.


    When she looked down, she could see some blood dripping from the bandage around Fernan''s waist.


    Your Highness !


    When Julia got up in shock, Fernan slowly opened his eyes.


    Fernan''s hazy gaze at the astonished Julia began to gradually be clearer.


    Before he could ask what was going on, Julia stuttered.


    Blood, youre bleeding. Hurry up and see the doctor


    As Julia, who was in a panic, tried to get out of bed, Fernan pulled her back again.


    Julia, whoid back on the bed as it was, looked at him with a puzzled face.


    However, the patient, Fernan,forted her with his nonchnt voice.


    "It''s okay. Its not a big deal, so sleep more.


    Isnt that a big deal? Youre bleeding like this


    Julia narrowed her eyebrows anxiously as she looked at him.


    No. I''ll call the doctor right away."


    Mumbling, Julia tried to get out of bed again, but Fernan wouldn''t let her go.


    He put her back in his arms, and Julia tried to criticize him somehow, but sighed deeply instead.


    Because she wasn''t in a position to criticize him.


    Besides, now he seemed to want to enjoy this moment. As if still considering Julia in front of him as a dream, he carefully stroked her back.


    Leaving him like that, Julia lowered her gaze and looked at his body.


    Yesterday, the room was dark and there was no time to examine his body in detail. But his body, seen from the brightly lit sky, was more serious than she thought.


    As Lloyd had said, it became clear again that Fernan had been using his body carelessly.


    When Julia lowered her head with an upset heart, Fernan gently removed the body that was in contact with her. Then, he lowered his head to make eye contact with her with a serious expression.


    "It doesn''t hurt. It''s not a big injury."


    "It''s telling you the truth."


    Julia nced at him. Even though he didn''t look like a person who had just woken up from sleep, he was showing a clear face in no time.


    However, when she looked down, she saw terrible scars that showed how devastated he had been.


    Very upset by the image, Julia bit her lip again. Then she reached out her arms and hugged his neck tightly.


    She felt sorry for this man who was so hurt and heartbroken. It was all the more so because it was because of her.


    Fernan looked at Julia for a long time like that, and then naturally embraced her.


    Fernan, who was stroking Julia''s back, which was easily held in one arm, smiled slightly for some reason.


    Julia, who still cared about him, was like a dream, and at the same time, Fernan felt a deep satisfaction that all of Julia''s attention was on him.


    He felt a little bad because Julia, who was engulfed in her anxiety because of him  .but he thought it didn''t seem too bad to get hurt.


    While Fernan was thinking such contradictory thoughts, Julia whispered quietly as if she had noticed his intentions.


    Your Highness, please dont get hurt recklessly from now on.


    With those words, Fernan turned his head slightly and looked at Julia quietly.


    I heard from Lloyd. He said that Your Highness intentionally injured your body


    Fernans gaze shook as he watched Julia speaking softly while crying.


    In the end, he had no choice but to get rid of all the thoughts he had been thinking about a while ago. As extra, he hated to see Julia upset.


    He answered in a submissive voice.


    "Yes, I''ll do that."


    "Promise me."


    Julia emphasized again whether she was not relieved even after Fernan answered.


    Fernan reassured her once more by stroking her hair.


    "I promise. I''ll listen to anything you say from now on."


    At that moment, Julia smiled slightly. Seeing that, Fernan also smiled with satisfaction.


    ****


    "Your Highness, Grand Duchess has returned, so why don''t you visit His Majesty?"


    Fernan, who was being treated by his doctor, looked at Lloyd, who was nearby.


    "I thought it might be better to inform His Majesty that Grand Duchess is back.


    Yes, I should do that.


    While disinfecting the wound on his waist with a medicine, Fernan responded with an indifferent face.


    As Lloyd said, he needed to meet and talk to the Emperor.


    Because Julia is known as Marquis Elodys daughter, if she returned to the position of Grand Duchess, there was a possibility that there would be a quarrel.


    Some of the cowardly people might criticize that she was involved with the Elody family in the civil war.


    Fernan was going to get rid of those men and ask the Emperor to rify that Julia had nothing to do with the Elody family.


    While Fernan, who had the new bandages on, got up from his seat, Lloyd spoke suddenly.


    Ah, I just heard the day of the execution of the Marchioness Elody is soon.


    With those words, Fernan buttoned his shirt one by one, looking in the air for a moment.


    Marchioness Elody was the one who had trampled on Julia from the closest of hers.


    Even before her execution, he thought she would die of starvation or exhaustion, but the Marchioness was holding up well.


    But either way it would never be afortable death.


    Fernan got out of the infirmary only after buttoning up his cuffs.


    While he was going back to the parlor where Julia would be, the sun was pouring down through the windows in the hallway. Normally, he would not have even paid attention to such a warm sight, but Fernan suddenly stopped in front of the window.


    It was the time when the end of spring had passed, and summer was slowly starting to arrive.


    All of a sudden, Fernan thought that there was a light in the whole world. It was the first time in his life that he had felt such vain appreciation.


    While he was looking out of the window for a moment, he heard the sound of slow, steady footsteps from afar.


    Even just hearing the sound, Fernan recognized that Julia was approaching him.


    Fernan looked at Julia, missing the world beyond the window.


    "Your Highness."


    Only after seeing Julia getting closer to him did Fernan instinctively notice.


    Because she came back, that was why a bright light had permeated his world.


    Fernan walked towards her. As he faced her like that, he felt an unfamiliar feeling again.


    Surely they were together allst night, and even though he had watched her all morning, he still couldn''t believe Julia in front of him.


    Did your treatment go well? Is there anything else wrong?


    Julia, who asked worriedly, started examining his body. Fernan looked at Julia and shook his head.


    The injury is healing fast.


    Fernan grabbed Julia''s hand, who was still examining his body. At that moment, Julia looked up at him, and her eyes lit up and held his hand tightly.


    Im going to the capital soon.


    When Fernan spoke, Julia quietly nodded her head.


    Do you still have a lot of work to do? Don''t worry about me ande back soon.


    Fernan looked at Julia, who readily answered. He answered, gently stroking the back of her hand.


    No, lets go together.


    "What?"


    Julia tilted her head and lowered her eyes slightly.


    "But..


    Julia seemed to ask if she would get in the way if she followed him, or if he would get in trouble. She must have vaguely guessed her current situation.


    Fernan stroked Julia''s hair and raised his lips slightly.


    "Don''t worry about anything. You don''t have to look at anyone."


    He had no intention of leaving Julia alone any longer. Because the result of leaving her behind had alwayse with despair.


    Now, wherever they went, they had to be together.


    If anyone looked at her with a strange look, it would have been enough to get rid of that person.


    Julia looked up at Fernan and immediately nodded her head.


    "Then Ill go.


    Julia, who answered meekly, smiled pleasantly.


    Because I also want to be with Your Highness all the time.


    Julia did not want to be separated from him anymore.


    The wind blew softly between them as they looked at each other and smiled. At that moment, Julia turned her head and looked at the window.


    It was a sunny day. Julia suddenly thought that the scenery beyond was very beautiful.


    Just like Fernan, there was a clear light permeating her world.

 Chapter 109: End

    Chapter 109: End


    Julia nced at the Emperor who was having a conversation with Fernan.


    The new Emperor of the empire was younger than and more serious-looking than expected.


    The Emperor, who dly weed them in thete evening, seemed surprised to hear that the Grand Duchess had returned, but he acted as if he knew what had happened.


    Regarding Julia''s disposition, the Emperor filled out the paperwork faster than expected and stamped it. In the civil war, she was kidnapped at the behest of the emperor, so it was a document stating that she had nothing to do with the Elody family.


    Unlike the former emperor, Fernan was treated with courtesy and respect by the current emperor.


    Julia listened carefully to their conversation and could tell that Fernan had a good rtionship with the current emperor.


    That fact brought a little peace to her heart.


    The conversation that continued with the private talk led to the execution ceremony that would take ce soon.


    The Emperor suddenly remembered and spoke to Julia.


    "If the Grand Duchess wants it, it''s okay to meet the Marchioness before the execution day."


    The Emperor seemed to want to give Julia his kindness in his own way. Although she was a sinner, the Marchioness was Julias family nheless.


    However, because it was an unexpected proposal, Julia hesitated with her eyes wide open.


    Whileing here, she heard from Fernan that the Marchioness was about to be executed. However, she did not want to see her.


    But when she heard the emperor''s proposal, she suddenly thought that she wanted to check out what kind of appearance she was waiting for her death.


    Julia, who was contemting, nced at Fernan. Then he nodded slightly as if to say she could do whatever she wanted.


    After a brief contemtion, Julia looked at the emperor.


    Thank you for your concern, then, as you allowed I want to see my mother for a moment.


    The dungeon of the imperial pce had a gloomy and unpleasant atmosphere as it was intended.


    Fernan, who was going down the stairs with Julia, suddenly opened her mouth as if it was too much to let her into a ce like this.


    Julia, if you dont like it even now, you dont have to go in.


    Julia, who was taking steps calmly, looked at him and shook her head.


    "No. I want to see her for thest time.


    Fernan looked somewhat worried at the answer, but eventually epted her will.


    They descended a long staircase and headed for the iron cell ced at the far end, following the guidance of the knight.


    Julia stopped in front of it and looked at the woman lying face down in the iron cell. Hearing footsteps, the woman flinched and slowly raised her head.


    Ahhh !


    Perhaps she recognized Julia, the Marchioness groaned, scratching her neck, and crawling to the door of the cell.


    Julia looked at her and murmured softly.


    You seem to have gone through a lot of hardship.


    Ju.Jul.


    It was hard to even open her mouth, so the Marchioness only twitched her parched lips.


    It looked as if she was about to run out of breath.


    If anyone had seen the Marchioness sad appearance, they would have sighed and sympathized. However, Julia only had a dry gaze.


    Why didnt you live quietly from the beginning?


    As her serene words descended, the Marchioness began to raise her voice with all her might as she thought that Julia had sympathy for her.


    Save.me. Iwrongi''m sorry..


    "No. Mother will go to hell.


    Piercing through that expectation, Julia intercepted her words with a cold voice.


    As Julia tried to step back, the Marchioness reached out and tried to grab Julia''s ankle.


    Julia, who lightly avoided her touch, looked down at her calmly, and then, for a moment, recalled her old childhood.


    A long time of oppression and abuse. At the center of it all, the Marchioness was always holding on.


    She constantly poured out abusivenguage and beatings for no reason. In a way, Julia was more afraid of her than the Marquis.


    Never in her dream, she thought she would never look down on the Marchioness like this.


    Julia, who woke up from her thoughts and looked down as she was, spoke in a calm voice as if passing towards the Marchioness.


    I want you to go to hell, and even if you die, I want you to live like youre dead.


    Ugh. No, no..


    Im just here to say this.


    With those words, Julia turned around without hesitation. Behind her, the sound of the Marchionesss painful groans and apology continued to be heard.


    Even after hearing all the heartbreaking noises, Julia continued walking with her expressionless face. Fernan silently followed her by her side.


    When they were up the stairs again and finally reached the brightly lit ground.


    Julia looked back at Fernan, breathing in the open air.


    When her eyes met his, who was staring at her, Julia threw away her gloomy energy and smiled lightly.


    Her heart was stronger than she expected when she saw the Marchioness at the end.


    The feeling wasn''t that bad. Perhaps a little  but it was refreshing.


    Maybe it was thanks to this man who stood firmly beside her.


    Above all else, Julia feltpletely free from the family name that was holding her back all her life.


    She met Fernan''s eyes, who continued to look at her. And once again, she deeply realized it.


    From now on, this man in front of her was really her family.


    Lets go, Your Highness.


    There was no longer anything to interfere with them.


    ***


    At the end of summer, it rained every day.


    It has already been two months since Julia returned to the castle as Grand Duchess.


    They stayed together in the couple''s bedroom every day, leaving their own bedrooms.


    At one time, it was a quiet and cold space because it had never been used, but now the cozy and warm air revolved around it every day.


    One morning when the rain that had been pouring down for days, Julia woke up feeling a touch tickling her cheek.


    Through her half-open eyes, she saw the face of the handsome man looking at her.


    Fernan was looking neat and regal, not like the man who had tormented her all the way from night to dawn.


    At the moment when she felt a little bit of injustice at the sight, a low, soft voice descended from him.


    Its past noon. Its time to get up.


    Julia shook her head and buried herself in her pillow again.


    I''m going to sleep a little longer.


    Her body was aching all over. Her back was throbbing. It was all this man''s fault, so he didn''t have the right to wake her up now.


    Julia tried to close her eyes with such rationalization, but unexpectedly, happy words descended.


    It stopped raining since morning.


    At those words, Julia opened her eyes wide. Fernan smiled and added.


    "Youve been waiting all this time for the rain to stop."


    Eventually, Julia raised her body up. As he said, she had been eagerly waiting for the rainy season, whichsted all summer, to end.


    So, she could hardly miss a rare opportunity. As Julia tried to get out of bed, Fernan immediately supported her.


    Realizing that he had pushed her to her limitsst night, Fernan took care of her more gently than usual.


    In the afternoon, when the sun was at its brightest, they went out together to the forest near the castle where they once walked together. The rain did not dry out, so the ground was slightly muddy, but the sunlight quickly hardened the road.


    The wind blowing through bushes swept through Julia''s hair. When she smelled the scent of green trees that was carried by the wind, she felt more at ease.


    "Promise, you finally kept it."


    Julia looked at Fernan and opened her mouth. Fernan immediately understood her words and nodded.


    I promised toe to this forest with you again.


    Fernan looked at her lovingly.


    At the time, I thought it was a promise I couldnt keep.


    For Fernan, the days of losing Julia were vivid.


    So, there were times when he was still worried about Julia, who was still by his side.


    He wondered if she would disappear again somewhere.


    Fernan put a little more force into his unconsciously grasped hand. Julia looked up at him.


    Now, Julia knew that he was often engulfed in formless anxiety like this.


    After stopping her steps, Julia turned to face him.


    Just as she was about to speak, a drop of water suddenly fell on her head.


    The rain, which had been falling one or two drops at a time, began to intensify in the blink of an eye.


    Suddenly it rains again


    While Julia, who had forgotten what she was going to say, muttered, Fernan led her and turned to a wooded path.


    As they went a little deeper into the forest, the densely lined trees blocked the rain to some extent.


    Fernan reached out and smoothed Julia''s slightly wet hair.


    Julia, who felt his delicate touch, looked up at the darkened sky.


    She then gently raised the corners of her lips.


    I dont think a day like this is too bad.


    Yes, even on an imperfect day was fine.


    Julia suddenly raised her arms and hugged Fernans neck.


    When she was with this man like this, everything was filled. Then, with a gentle smile, Fernan wrapped his arms around Julia.


    His hands brushed her back, and without warning, his lips lightly touched her forehead. Julia closed her eyes and smiled happily. It was such a warm day even though it was raining.


    "You''re right. It''s a good day."


    Fernan whispered btedly. The anxiety that filled him faded little by little as he held her in his arms.


    As soon as his expression improved, Julia raised her head and pulled his neck. With his eyes closed, Fernan lowered his lips as if he had been waiting. At the same time as their lips touched, a deep kiss continued.


    Meanwhile, the rain stopped little by little. Julia smiled, feeling the hot breath flowing through her mouth.


    She didnt have to hope that this time willst forever or feel afraid of when and what will happen. Julia could now be sure that this man would stand by her side forever.


    And she too, would stand by him. So, prayers and wishes were no longer needed.

 Chapter 110: Side story (1)

    Chapter 110: Side story (1)


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    <em><strong>1. Hunting Festival</strong></em>


    ***


    Oh my God, how can you look so good!"


    Madame Ophelia pped in front of arge mirror hanging on one side of the dressing room. Julia, who was looking at herself in her mirror, brushed her hair shyly.


    "It''s my first time wearing clothes like this, is it okay?"


    Julia''s outfit was not the dress she usually wore, but men''s wear. This was the hunting suit that Ophelia had been painstakingly tailoring over the past month. It was for the uing Imperial Hunting Festival.


    Although it was designed with an emphasis on activity and convenience, it also created a beautiful atmosphere by using elegantly colored fabrics. In particr, it was even more beautiful thanks to the moderately revealing of Julia''s body line. Ophelia, who was adjusting her dress, nodded her head fiercely.


    "Of course! Everyone will be busy looking at the Grand Duchess, far from hunting. You are so beautiful!"


    ThatsIm ttered.


    Julia smiled with embarrassment as she thought that Ophelias praise was exaggerated.


    But perhaps, Ophelia was sincere without exaggeration. Recently, Ophelia and other fashion designers in the capital have beenmissioned to produce hunting suits for manydies. In other words, there was a fiercepetition among designers as to who produced the more beautiful hunting suits.


    After calcting and calcting, Ophelia decided to focus on making costumes for only one person, Julia. Julia was a woman who could be considered the most noble in this empire after the Empress.


    It was clear that she would get more attention than anyone else in this hunting festival. Then it was a good opportunity for Ophelia to show off her clothes widely. And, as expected, Julia looked amazing in Ophelia''s costume.


    "Thank you, Madame. Wearing this suit really makes me feel like I can win," Ophelia proudly agreed as Julia shrugged her shoulders.


    "Of course. Grand Duchess will shine the brightest in this hunting festival!"


    Aside from hunting, it was obvious that Julia was the woman who would shine the most anywhere.


    It will be  isnt she so beautiful! Of course, she looked beautiful no matter what she wore, but this outfit was the perfect piece to call Ophelia''s masterpiece. Surely anyone would have to stare and lose their minds. Ophelia looked at Julia in the mirror with a happy expression on her face, and thenmented a little.


    "The Grand Duke should have been the first to see this image of the Grand Duchess.


    At those words, Julia raised her lips silently. But she had a loneliness that she couldn''t hide in her eyes.


    Fernan was inevitably away from the castle for several weeks due to political affairs. Because work was getting longer this time, he couldn''t even attend the hunting festival.


    "Then, would you like to try on a banquet dress? I brought all the dresses that I think will go well with you!"


    Ophelia asked in a bright voice, as if evoking the quiet atmosphere. With one hand, she pointed at the colorfully disyed mannequins.


    Julia looked at the dresses quietly and nodded her head.


    "Yes. I''ll try them.


    .


    .


    .


    After a long time in the dressing room, Ophelia finally left, and Julia sat in the parlor and had tea alone.


    A drizzle was falling outside the window.


    <i>There shouldn''t be much rain at His Highnesss ce.</i>


    Putting down the teacup, Julia thought nkly.


    Fernan left the castle three weeks ago to rearrange the borders, and was due to arrive in the capital on the day of a banquet after the hunting festival.


    It was her first time away from him after returning here.


    It was an afternoon when his empty seat felt particrlyrge. She wanted to meet him as soon as possible. Julia felt lonely.


    As she drank hot steaming tea, she enjoyed the chill of early autumn for a while. Then a heavy voice came from outside the door.


    "Grand Duchess, this is Adrian. May Ie in?"


    Julia, who turned her gaze to your door, answered straight away.


    "Yes,e in."


    With a click, a tall man bowed his head through the open door. It was Adrian who had been appointed her official escort knight not long ago.


    She remembered seeing him often when she was at Fernan''s vi a long time ago. Whether it was because of that or because of Adrian''s bubbly personality, Julia was able to get close to him quickly.


    "Good afternoon, Grand Duchess. His Highness sent you a letter. I was on the way to receive it from the messenger and bring it straight to you."


    Adrian smiled and took the letter out of his pocket. It was a neat letter envelope without a pattern.


    "Your Majesty is someone who never writes handwritten letters other than for public affairs, but as expected, the Grand Duchess is an exception. He seems to be worried about the Grand Duchess, who will be alone."


    Julia''s eyes, startled at the news that a letter hade, slowly curved when she heard Adrian''s words.


    "I see. He must have been busy"


    Adrian approached with a big stride and ripped open the letter with an envelope knife. Julia epted it and she immediately unfolded the paper.


    As she read the letter, her eyes, like ake, gently fluttered, and then a warm light was absorbed.


    It was a letter written in a neat and hard handwriting that resembled Fernan.


    [I don''t feelfortable thinking of you being alone, so I write you a letter. I wanted to say I''m sorry I couldn''t apany you to the imperial pce, but it''s hard to fully convey this feeling in words.]


    Julia smiled slightly, and Adrian, standing opposite her, opened his eyes curiously about what was written.


    [I''ll go see you as soon as the border matters are sorted out. Ill try to arrive before the day of the banquet if possible. I miss you every day]


    It wasn''t a long letter. However, Julia could deeply feel his affection in it.


    Reorganizing the borders took days. As the security of the Empire and the safety of the Grand Duchess were at stake, Fernan, the owner of the Grand Duchy, yed a significant role.


    In the meantime, she was thankful that he sent her a brief letter, and at the same time, she felt a little ashamed of herself for wanting him toe back soon.


    Fernan was fiercely guarding the border while she was having afortable time.


    Julia once again corrected her heart.


    She herself was Fernans wife, but before that, she was the Grand Duchess. She was obligated to protect him and the Grand Duchy too.


    She herself had to y her role diligently.


    You look serious now. A little while ago, you smiled so happily that I wondered about the contents of the letter."


    Only when Adrian spoke to Julia did she raise her head.


    After seeing his curious expression, Julia loosened her hardened face and smiled gently.


    Her smile, as sweet as always, was oveid with a firmness that he had never seen before.


    ***


    A weekter, the day before the hunting festival, Julia arrived in the capital.


    Standing beside her were her three maids, her escort Adrian, and five knights.


    Among them was Melissa, who had long been her full-time maid.


    Melissa had returned a month ago when Julia sent a person to her address to ask her how she was.


    Melissa, who once thought Julia had only left for a distantnd, resigned from her maid position after feeling heartbroken.


    Julia heard the story btedly and felt bad for a long time.


    After much thought, she sent her a message to Melissa, and fortunately, Melissa dly returned to her.


    <b><i>Hic..Grand Duchess. You didnt leave, right? Youre really here, right?</i></b>


    Juliaforted Melissa as Melissa hugged her while crying, and she let go of her long agony.


    Thereafter, she gave Melissa the position of maid of honor, not just a regr maid.


    By that time, except for Melissa, almost all of the servants Julia remembered had disappeared, and they were filled with new ones.


    It was not only the normal servants, but also the high-ranking butlers and maids.


    The changed general butler was the old butler of the Seyrev family, which was Fernan''s mother''s family.


    Fernand said of the incident:


    <b><i>I cant erase the time that bothered you, but all those who stood out and reminded you of those memories are gone.</i></b>


    Then, he said he was sorry he was toote and hugged her.


    <b><i>I''m one of those people who reminds you of that time too.</i></b>


    <b><i>I know there will be times when you will see me and be angry or resentful me.</i></b>


    Julia no longer resented him, but as he said, there were times when she remembered the past.


    She had never made it obvious, but Fernan seemed to have noticed it as well.


    <b><i>In that case, its always good, so pour out all your emotions on me.</i></b>


    <b><i>Dont hold it alone, release it all to me.</i></b>


    If she behaves capriciously about her past or hates and resents him, he will handle everything, so he told her not to suffer alone.


    He said so in a calm, yet sincere voice.


    But Julia affirmed that it would never happen.


    She couldn''t forget all of the past as long as she had memories, and she could forget the agony and pain of that time.


    Because Fernan was there. Because she trusted her husband to do anything for her, and he would never change.


    But even if she told him that, she knew that she wouldnt touch his heart right away.


    So Julia just nodded her head. Hoping that would relieve him of some guilt.


    .


    .


    .


    Oh my gosh, the Imperial Pce.. Its like a ce made of gold and precious stones.


    Melissa, who followed Julia, mumbled with admiration.


    At that moment, Julia came to her senses and stopped thinking.


    I''ve learned etiquette and order for today. I''ll do my best to serve you. Please leave it up to me!"


    Seeing Melissa clenching her fists and nodding her head with determination, Julia let out a smallugh.


    Still, those reliable words made Julia feel better.

 Chapter 111: Side story (2)

    Chapter 111: Side story (2)


    It was the next day after arriving in the capital.


    Around noon, a pic was held in the flower garden of the Empress Pce, where flowers were in full bloom.


    It was a ce for women to chat freely in a peaceful atmosphere.


    Today was the first time Julia appeared in public after bing the Grand Duchess again.


    Perhaps because of that, while pretending not to see the eyes of thedies, she was subtly conscious of herself.


    Julia drank her tea with a very calm attitude, while still feeling the intriguing gazes.


    What a good afternoon, Grand Duchess.


    Then someone came up to her and greeted her. Julia, who was feeling the teas scent, put down her teacup and looked at the owner of her voice.


    It was a familiar woman who appeared with a fresh smile.


    Its a big event for the royal family, so of course I thought you would attend, but Im more than happy to see you.


    Her luscious red hair fluttered around her waist. As Julia looked at the woman, she smiled quietly.


    Long time no see, Lady ir. No, Marchioness Jennes."


    Cornelia ir Jennes. As the only daughter of the Duke of ir, she once conquered the social world, and married Marquis Jennesst year.


    Although Julia didnt have a good memory about her, she knew her.


    Because at one time, Cornelia was once considered to be Fernans hidden lover.


    Of course, the misunderstanding was resolved naturally, and in a sense, she felt a little happy.


    How have you been, Grand Duchess?


    Cornelia''s eyes twinkled with interest. She was staring at Julias face openly, but Julia answered with an indifferent expression.


    "Ive been very well.


    Cornelia nced over her cheeks with a quick nce.


    As proof of her rxed answer, Julia exuded a very different atmosphere from before.


    She waspletely different from when she looked so fragile that she would crumble to the touch.


    Her delicate and beautiful facial features were the same as before, and she was now full of vitality, unlike back then when she only looked pitiful.


    Even among thedies, there was talk about it once.


    The atmosphere of Grand Duchess Caesar has changed a lot from before.


    "That''s a relief. In fact, I''ve often been worried since I heard that you had returned to the Grand Duchy. As before, I wonder if youll be treated coldly by the Grand Duke  That''s why."


    Cornelia''s lips were covered with a soft smile, and the hint of her smirk was pervasive.


    At the same time, she spoke with a voice that could be heard around her, so people''s attention was focused on them for a moment.


    Julia stared at Cornelia silently without any change in her expression.


    By the time Cornelia felt strange about Julias attitude, which did not seem to be embarrassed, Julia raised her lips.


    Marchioness is very considerate.


    Julia, who opened her mouth in a calm voice.


    There is nothing to worry about, so dont worry.


    And she turned to the otherdies who nced at her.


    Finally, Julia, who had Cornelia in her eyes, gave a harmless smile.


    Recently, I heard that Marquis Jennes brought in the mistresses, and that the Marchioness suffered a lot. Were you worried that the same would happen to me?"


    Cornelias face hardened in an instant at the natural change of topic.


    Looking at Cornelias face, which went pale, Julia spoke kindly again.


    I want to repay you for your concern. If you are having a lot of trouble with your marriage, you are wee to consult with me at any time, madam."


    Cornelia''s lips twitched convulsively. Her sharp eyes filled with embarrassment as she red at Julia.


    Cornelia, who barely maintained her expression as if she wanted to say something harsh, answered slowly.


    Yes, Grand DuchessIll do that.


    Turning her face away to bear her shame, Cornelia withdrew to the other table after those words.


    The reason she withdrew more easily than expected was probably because her business was exposed unexpectedly.


    Only after seeing Cornelia moving away did Julia let out her sigh very briefly.


    Before the pic, it was worth listening to Melissa.


    <b><i>There are a total of thirtydies attending the pic today. Among them, I will briefly tell you about the recent status of influentialdies in the social world. That way there won''t be any embarrassment when saying hello. Jane told me that.</i></b>


    Jane was the maid of honor at the Grand Duke''s castle, and she had a lot of experience in social circles.


    The current situation of thedies that Melissa told Julia about was also mixed with Cornelia''s current situation. It was said that Cornelia''s husband, Marquis Jennes, recently brought in two mistresses, which was a hot topic in social circles.


    She listened to what Melissa had to say, but Julia never thought that she would have to say it to Cornelia herself.


    As such, she was not used to exposing someone''s secrets, and she was not in a very pleasant mood.


    Of course, that didn''t mean she regretted it. Because Cornelia was the first to start the quarrel. While Julia was holding the teacup with a calm face, the Empress sitting at the top seat suddenly drew everyone''s attention.


    "It''s an important afternoon, and I''m very happy to be able to spend time with everyone here.


    The Empress looked at the crowd one by one. Thanks to that, the gazes that had stayed on her Julia shifted.


    "Today''s seat is a ce to enjoy the leisure ahead of tomorrow''s hunting festival."


    The Empress, who continued to speak in a kind tone, showed a gentle smile as well.


    "I want everyone to keep in mind that this hunting season has a special purpose more than any other time."


    Julia listened to the Empress and nodded her head. The hunting festival, one of the annual royal ceremonies, was originally limited to male nobles and knights.


    However, this hunting festival was an exception, allowing women to participate as well. In addition, it was an event that drew more attention than other times with the purpose of giving the furs of hunted animals to the poor people.


    "From tomorrow onwards, the schedule will be very difficult. So, let''s wrap up today''s small banquet at this point."


    The middle of the afternoon was approaching. It was a pic that started around noon, so time had passed.


    "Then, I hope you all have a good rest tonight."


    "Thank you, Your Majesty. May you have a peaceful afternoon."


    When the Empress greeted, thedies bowed their heads in courtesy. After the Empress had left with her maids first, the others also got up one by one and began to leave the garden.


    "Grand Duchess, are you feeling tired from sitting for a long time? I''ll take you to your residence right away."


    When Julia got up from her seat, Melissa, who came to her side, asked gently.


    "Yes, lets do that."


    As she was exiting the flower garden, Julia walked slowly along the path.


    Melissa quickly spread out the parasol to block the shining sun.


    At that moment, a group ofdies walking by the nearby fountain spoke in muffled voices.


    Who are you nning to apany to the hunting festival?


    The owner of the voice was Cornelia, who had left first.


    One by one, the noblewomen who were walking nearby answered.


    I''ve never hunted before, so you''re going with your husband, right?


    That''s right. Who else will you be walking around with?"


    Smiling, Cornelia nodded with one hand on her cheek.


    Of course. Its an important event.


    Cornelia made a clear voice towards Julia, who was walking a short distance away.


    "The Grand Duchess will naturally be with His Highness the Grand Duke, right?"


    Since the question was clearly directed at her, Julia stopped and looked at Cornelia.


    When their eyes finally met, Cornelia added with a leisurely smile.


    "His Highness is one of the leading figures of the empire. That''s really reassuring. It is clear that tomorrow, the queen of the hunting festival will be the Grand Duchess.


    At these words, Melissa, who was standing behind Julia, spoke in a small voice.


    I''m sure they all know everything. His Highness the Grand Duke is at the border.


    You mean he won''t participate?


    Julia didn''t answer, but turned to face Cornelia. Melissa''s words were probably correct, since that level of information should already be known to the capital.


    After all, they would like to see Julia depressed that she couldnt go out hunting with her husband.


    The nobledies paused and gave interesting nces as they waited for Julia''s response.


    Julia faced them calmly, not avoiding their gazes.


    If she panicked or deted, they would get what they wanted. Inhaling a small breath, Julia slowly opened her mouth.


    However, at that moment, a noblewoman eximed, looking at the entrance to the garden.


    "Oh, is that.?"


    Everyone''s eyes naturally followed where she was pointing.


    Julia also averted her gaze to stare at the man who had caught their eye.


    She saw a man who stood out even from a distance, approaching them with ease.


    Julia''s eyes slowly grew wide.


    <i>Your Highness?</i>


    She narrowed her eyes for a moment, wondering if it was an illusion.


    There was no way that Fernan would be appearing here now. Because he was supposed to arrive on the day of the feast after the hunting festival.


    But no matter how much she looked at him, hisrge physique and handsome features were clearly those of her husband.


    His Highness is here!


    Behind her, Melissa shouted loudly and joyfully. Finally, Julia''s dazed eyes lit up.


    When their eyes met at a slightly closer distance, Fernan lifted his lips beautifully.


    At that moment, the nobledies around her could not get on Julia''s nerves any more.


    Julia, whoseplexion was gradually brightening, ran to him, holding the hem of her dress.


    Your Highness!


    Fernan, who had stopped, turned to face her and smiled again. He opened his arms and hugged her lightly as she came towards him.


    Julia waspletely wrapped up in his firm arms and chest, and the scent of her husband''s body that she was so familiar with fluttered in her nose. Fernan lowered his head and spoke in a low voice.


    "I missed you"


    A gentle voice that only she could hear. Julia hugged his firm waist tightly. Their bodies touched each other without any space between them, and she felt as if a corner of her empty heart was being squeezed and filled.

 Chapter 112: Side story (3)

    Chapter 112: Side story (3)


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    Julia raised her head as she felt the touch on her back. When their eyes met at a close distance, her heart raced anew.


    From the moment she saw Fernan, the atmosphere around her seemed to have changed.


    "I came here because I heard you went to a pic."


    Fernan said in a low, soft voice.


    "Fortunately, it looks like Ivee just in time."


    Julia looked at him without hiding her happy face.


    How are you? You said you''d be arriving the day after tomorrow."


    Julia btedly looked at his military uniform. Seeing that he wasn''t wearing a robe, it seemed like he hade here as soon as he arrived.


    The job was done sooner than expected.


    He stroked Julia''s eyes with his other hand, and then hepletely wrapped her bright cheek.


    Did anything happen?


    At his question, Julia remembered the pic that was going on a while ago.


    Then she turned her head, remembering the people standing around her.


    Thedies stood a little farther away and looked at her with their mouths covered.


    As soon as they made eye contact with Julia, they left the ce as if they were running away. Cornelia, who was intermingled among them, bit her lip, blushing to her ear, and then she disappeared without looking back.


    Julia, who was watching their backs as they left, straightened her head.


    "No. Nothing happened.


    Julia buried her face deeper into his palm that covered her cheek.


    She didn''t want to think about anything else because she just felt good right now. Thanks to this man who appeared in front of her like a present.


    Fernan touched the corners of her eyes. As if it was ticklish, Julia, who gently closed her eyes, soon took his hand.


    They headed towards a maze garden leading to the side.


    Your Highness, how are you? Are there any injuries?


    Julia, who was looking all over his body, starting with the back and palms of his hands, asked.


    Fernan smiled slightly, seeing how cute she was as she fiddled with his body as if searching.


    "Of course not. Because you told me not to get hurt.


    At the moment when Julia raised her head in relief at his gracious answer, Fernan suddenly lowered his head and kissed her, and their lips touched lightly and fell apart.


    Through the narrow gap, they looked into each other''s eyes as if asking for consent. Then he kissed her lips again.


    Julia slowly raised her arms and hugged his neck, and epted him as his tongue dug into her mouth. A deep kiss continued for a while in the garden with no one around.


    She was used to it, but her heart pounded, as always, at the intense contact with him.


    Deep, hot breaths passed through each other''s mouths for a long time, as if pouring out the longing they had endured. Finally, when their lips parted slightly, he kissed the corner of her lips aloud, as if branding one more time. Then he pulled her into his arms as if to enjoy the rest of her aftertaste.


    Julia leaned her cheek against his chest and felt his warmth. His heart was beating as fast as hers.


    Her two hot ears felt like they were about to explode, so Julia tightly closed her eyes.


    ***


    The hunting festival was to be held on a hill outside the capital.


    The next morning, Julia put on the hunting suit that had prepared in advance while surrounded by her maids.


    "I''ll tie your hair up and decorate it with purple ribbon to match the color of your clothes.


    Yes, please.


    A cumbersome outfit would interfere with activities in the mountains, so it was important to have a light andfortable appearance as much as possible.


    Melissa brushed Julia''s hair with her dazzling hand gestures, and her lustrous hair was tied in a high ponytail.


    The long, white nape of the neck was exposed, creating a cooler atmosphere than usual.


    Melissa finally tied her hair one more time with a purple string.


    The maids praised Julia, saying that she was the goddess of war, like a beautiful fairy living in the forest.


    Julia had to swallow her embarrassed smile several times.


    When she finally finished her preparations and left her dressing room, Fernan, who had been waiting for her in the hallway, straightened his body which was leaning against the wall.


    "Your Highness."


    Julia, who smiled broadly, approached him with frequent steps.


    Fernan stopped as if frozen, and looked at her slowly as she approached.


    His golden eyes fluttered softly as if possessed.


    Julia tilted her head as she looked up at him motionless. Her light brown hair, tied together in the recoil, fluttered over her shoulder.


    Fernan, who was gazing at her as if to engrave Julias image in his eyes, finally raised his eyes. When their eyes met, he made a small cough.


    Pretty"


    With a muttering voice, the nape of his neck was red, avoiding her gaze unsuitably.


    Julia looked up at him with her eyes wide open.


    As she drew closer to him, who didn''t make eye contact, she saw his thick, long neck tremble.


    He looked like he was nervous. Strangely.


    Of course, it wasn''t the first time he''d said that she was pretty. But he had never looked away from her gaze or seemed as nervous as he was now.


    Perhaps that was why Julia felt a little fresh. She was happy to see his new side. Julia raised her lips happily.


    Both of her cheeks were already blushing.


    .


    .


    .


    The hunting area was a hill near the capital. It was a terrain where dangerous beasts appeared as they went deeper.


    For safety, the area where the women go in and out had been designated as the entrance to the mountain. It was an area where small animals such as foxes, rabbits, and deer were gathered. Julia bravely walked the mountain path with her silver crossbow.


    "I''ll do the hunting, so don''t overdo it."


    Fernan, who was walking ahead and paving the way, held out his hand. Julia took his hand and went down the steep road.


    "I can do it too. I trained with Adrian a month ago.


    Julia raised her crossbow. During the time Fernan was away, Julia called Adrian to practice shooting arrows whenever she had spare time.


    At first, the arrows missed randomly, but now she could easily hit the target. Adrian said that her posture was perfect.


    "It won''t be a big beast, but Ill probably be able to hunt deer and foxes."


    But she also added in a low voice, whether there was any certainty.


    "Um.. maybe."


    With her crossbow strapped back to her shoulder, she began to stride ahead.


    Fernan lifted his lips and smiled as he looked at her as she walked proudly.


    Having caught up with her with just a few steps, he looked around with a slow gaze. Although it was a hill, the topography of this mountain was ratherplicated.


    Wild animals such as wild boars sometimes appeared even at the foot of the mountain. Even though the Imperial Pce knights camped and escorted them in the depths of the mountain, dangers beyond their control always appeared in moments of ignorance. So he couldn''t let his guard down.


    "Huh?"


    At that moment, Julia uttered. Arge fox was running in the direction she was looking. She quickly took her pose with her crossbow forward.


    With a click, she pulled her trigger thanks to her preloaded press and her arrow flew right away. It flew with a whoosh through the air.


    However, the arrow flew and dropped to the ground. The fox had run away as soon as she pulled her trigger.


    "Hmmph


    Julia lowered her arm with a sad face. It was certainly not difficult for her to hit a target during training.


    However, it was difficult for her to hit a moving target. As she looked around for other prey, Fernan approached and stood behind her and grabbed her hand and raised her crossbow back.


    "


    Following his movement, Julia put her hand on the trigger. Then she pulled the trigger with her hands ovepping Fernans.


    swish! The arrow, which flew away with a louder sound that could not bepared with the previous one, urately hit the fox that came out of the bush.


    "Wow !


    Julia eximed in admiration. Even before she could turn her head and look at Fernan, the trigger was pulled again.


    puck! This time, the arrow was inserted into a giant rabbit that Julia didn''t even know was there. Julia opened her mouth wide and shouted her cheers.


    Hunting two in less than a minute! When Julia looked up at him excitedly, Fernan whispered as he removed his hand.


    Aiming a moving target may not be easy yet, so learn your senses first.


    "Yes, Yes."


    Herke-blue eyes twinkled as if telling him he was great.


    Julia, who remembered his movement a while ago, quickly raised her crossbow.


    Whoosh! This time she shot an arrow at a flying bird without hesitation.


    However, the arrow that cut through the air, missed the bird, and fell straight to the floor.


    Seeing her regretful eyes, Fernan again carefully grabbed her hand and gave her a crossbow. Then she nced around with alert eyes, and raised her crossbow at the soaring bird. With their hands together, she pulled the trigger.


    puck! Arge bird flew near the tree and fell to the ground in an instant.


    "Oh my gosh."


    Half curious and half excited, Julia looked back at Fernan.


    Ability to hit even flying birds. Adrian knew well how good a sharpshooter Fernan was.


    Whether it be a shotgun, a bow, or a sword, the fact that he has mastered all weapons.


    But seeing it with her own eyes was different. Julia was able to experience his physical abilities in person.


    Looking up at Fernan, Julia smiled and ran to the ce where the bird fell.


    A peaceful warmth permeated Fernan''s eyes as he watched her.

 Chapter 113: Side story (4)

    Chapter 113: Side story (4)


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    Around noon, Julia returned first to the barracks where the shelters were located.


    On one side of the barracks, the knights diligently carried their belongings to the warehouse where the prey was kept.


    There were a total of five prey caught.


    Melissa, who was standing next to Julia, watched the scene with her mouth wide open.


    "Oh my God . Did you catch all of them, Your Grace?


    Seeing Melissa''s face that seemed to send apuse, Julia smiled and shook her head.


    I only hunted one roe deer on my own, and the rest was His Highnesss.


    For safety, women could only go in and out at the beginning of the mountain. Deep in the mountain, wild animals inhabited, so anyone unfamiliar with hunting and fighting could not enter.


    After taking her to the barracks, Fernan went back to the hill alone, saying he would be back before the end of her day.


    Ah, what His Highness caught is what Your Grace caught! You two are one!"


    Melissa gave a thumb up.


    "I''ve been watching, and out of all thedies, Your Grace brought the most prey! Won''t you win at this rate?"


    Seeing Melissa all excited, Julia smiled happily while waving her hand.


    The winner of the hunting festival was selected from 1st to 3rd ce, and it was decided by considering both the quality and quantity of the prey.


    It was apetition in which all the leading knights of the empire participated. So, Julia with only small animals, the victory wouldnt be hers. So the noblewomen anddies were only participating for fun.


    However, the winner was given a chance to give glory to only one woman.


    The woman will be the queen of the hunting festival and be honored, and be the main character of tomorrow''s ball.


    Social circles said that this honor was worth more than wealth and power.


    In fact, it was the honor that women really sought at this hunting festival.


    Julia took off her thick leather gloves and returned to her barracks.


    Then Adrian, who had stood guarding her entrance, greeted her quietly.


    Your Grace, you are back. Did you get hurt?


    No, Im fine.


    Not only was she fine, but she was clean without any dirt. Because she rarely used her hands except for swinging the crossbow a few times.


    Even with that, Fernan helped her control it, so she didn''t put any effort into it.


    Ill bring tea. Do you want to drink the ck tea you like?


    Melissa asked while Adrian opened the door to the barracks.


    "Yes. Please."


    "Yes!


    Melissa disappeared to get the tea, and Julia beckoned to Adrian.


    Adrian alsoes in and rests. You must have been very bored without even hunting.


    Adrian had to protect Julia, so he did not participate in the hunting festival.


    All the other men ran to the mountain with their shy shotguns, so it must have been very frustrating to keep this ce alone.


    Don''t mind me. After all, the victory must belong to His Majesty, but if I even win, I will hear that the Grand Duke family will dominate the championship.


    Adrian was rambling. At the same time, he refused to go inside. So Julia suggested once more.


    Then, pretending not to win, Adrian came in.


    Momentster, Melissa brought the tea, and the three drank together at the tea table.


    When the atmosphere becamefortable, Adrian, engulfed in a faintly rxed aura, opened his mouth.


    Actually, I was a little surprised this time. His Highness has never attended an event like this before.


    "Really?"


    Julia''s eyes widened at the fact that she only knew it now.


    Adrian nodded his head and continued.


    Yes, as you know, there were many enemies long ago. Inrge-scale events, there were a lot of people who prevented His Highness from being able to perform even a small activity.


    It wasn''t just that. There were even frequent assassination attempts. Adrian shook his head in disgust.


    Maybe that''s why. After that, it seems that hepletely hated these events. The same goes for banquets.


    Yulia looked down with aplex and subtle face. That was something she had never known before.


    She didn''t know everything about Fernans past. He always listened to her, but didnt talk much about himself.


    However, the more she knew about his past, the more she realized that he was simr to her.


    So she seemed to have a vague understanding of his feelings that Fernan must have felt at the time. Alone, he must have been very lonely.


    Did His Highness force himself to participate in todays hunting festival?


    When Julia asked with a heavy expression on her face, Adrian was surprised and shook his head.


    Absolutely not! Oh my, I shouldnt have said that. Im sorry!"


    Adrian bowed his head. The recoil caused the teacup to sway. Meanwhile, Adrian reflexively grabbed the teacup.


    "Its okay."


    As Julia struggled to warmly encourage him, Adrian raised his eyes slightly, hesitated, and slowly opened his mouth.


    Well, this is really a secretI made a mistake, so I will be honest.


    "What is it?"


    Julia tilted her head. Adrian looked around and opened his mouth in a very quiet voice.


    Actually, His Highness asked me a serious question yesterday. What would it be like to be the Queen of the Hunting Festival, and if that happens, then will the Grand Duchess like it?


    Well, that was the part that surprised me. It''s very strange that His Majesty asks such a thing  Ah, anyway, I wanted to tell you that he didnt force himself to go to the hunting festival, but because he wanted to please Your Grace.


    Julia''s eyes twinkled softly. Her quiet heart this time tightened.


    She was happy. She felt loved.


    I see.


    Julia lowered her gaze and smiled faintly. In fact, she didn''t even have to win anything.


    She was just happy that Fernan came back early and stayed with her.


    Your Grace, what I said a little while agoCan you keep it a secret?


    Adrian asked timidly as he noticed that Juliasplexion was improving.


    Julia, holding the teacup, shrugged her shoulders without answering. Then Adrian made a statue of death. Seeing him like that, she and Melissaughed at the same time.


    ****


    <b><i>I dont know it well, but I know that bing the Queen of the Hunting Festival increases the reputation in the social world. It seems that such an honor is highly valued among noble women, so the Grand Duchess will surely be pleased.</i></b>


    bang!


    Gunshots echoed through the forest to the extent that the eardrums were overwhelmed.


    With his long shotgun down, Fernan checked his prey. It was a wolf twice the size of a man.


    He walked along the fallen leaves to retrieve his prey. Already behind him, the animals he had hunted were piled up like a mountain.


    He didnt know the criteria for winning, but if it was that much, there wouldnt be any difficulties.


    Fernan brushed off his blood-stained gloves and tightened his shotgun.


    He was supposed to go back before the sun went down, so it was time to clean up.


    As he left the forest with his prey, the eyes of the knights who were guarding nearby grew as if they were about to pop out.


    My, this much in such a short time


    "Your Highness, please give it to us. Well split it up and carry it."


    So Fernan arrived at the barracks when the sun was just beginning to set.


    The knight loudly announced his return. He took off his blood-stained gloves and overcoat.


    Hearing the news of Fernans return, Floyd ran out and took the coat from him.


    "As expected, there is no one who can match Your Highness on the hunt. Oh, it is said that the award ceremony will be held at the banquet tomorrow evening."


    Fernan nodded his head. The winner of the hunting contest was supposed to receive a bracelet made of rare jewels and a certificate owned by the imperial family.


    The bracelet would not be owned by the winner, but it was said that there was a custom that the winner would give the honor to a Lady of their choice.


    And the woman would be crowned Queen of the Hunt'', and that she would be the star of the ball.


    He had heard from Adrian just yesterday that it had special meaning among women.


    Where is Julia?


    Oh, shes in her barracks.


    Nodding his head, Fernan headed first to the knights'' barracks to change his clothes.


    The smell of animal blood permeated the hunting clothes. He couldnt meet Julia like this.


    After cleaning himself with the water provided in the barracks and changing into new clothes, he went to see Julia.


    Your Highness, you have returned safely.


    Adrian, who was waiting in front of the entrance, bowed in silence. And he said right away.


    Her Grace is resting for a moment, she asked me to wake her up when Your Highnesses


    With those words, Fernan lifted the curtain slightly. He saw Julia with her eyes closed as she sat on the bed made for her rest.


    It seems that she was very nervous before the hunting festival. She prepared so hard that she asked me to train her using bow and arrows every day, so she must have been under a lot of pressure.


    .


    Still, she worked hard to put up with drowsiness the whole time, but it must have been that she couldnt ovee her tiredness.


    Fernan, who had listened to Adrian''s words quietly, motioned for him to wait and went inside.


    Julia, waiting for him, was leaning against the wall without even lying downfortably.


    Fernan approached and sat down next to her, then reached out and ran his hand across her white, round forehead.


    Even though she was in an ufortable position, she slept soundly, not moving. As he watched her like that, he felt his heart pounding for some reason. One day Fernan had told her.


    He didn''t ask her toe back to give her the duties as Grand Duchess. She didn''t have to do anything she didn''t want to. However, Julia answered him with a firm voice that he had never heard before.


    <b><i>I want to try something.</i></b>


    <b><i>I dont want to hide and be timid like before I didn''te back to Your Highness to live like that.</i></b>


    Fernan remembered the determined expression on her face as she said that.


    Since then, he knew that Julia was working hard.


    So he wanted to give that too. Whether she was the main character of the ball or the queen of the hunt, she deserved a name that could make her hard work shine and be proud.


    So, if he could give Julia even a little bit of happiness, he would be very happy too.

 Chapter 114: Side story (5)

    Chapter 114: Side story (5)


    The award ceremony for the championship of the hunting festival was held the very next day at the grand banquet hall. Everyone who heard that Fernan participated in the hunting festival had a premonition for the winner.


    Because it was a fact everyone in the empire agreed that he had no rival as a general.


    "I am delighted that the Grand Duke, the protector of the North and the sword of the Empire, has been honored as the winner of the hunting festival."


    On the podium, the young emperor, Galliard, congratted Fernan on his long-standing achievements.


    As Fernan stood in a disciplined military pose, he epted the jewel box from the emperor. Inside the velvet-wrapped boxy a silvery-white bracelet.


    A servant who stood next to the emperor handed Fernan a bouquet of flowers to congratte him on the victory.


    It was a beautiful bouquet made from the roses of the Golden Rose Garden, the pride of the Imperial Pce.


    Your hard work will be a great help to the people of the Empire who will suffer from famine even at this moment.


    The emperor''s final congrattions were delivered to everyone in the banquet hall.


    And finally, the most awaited order has arrived.


    It was time to choose the queen of the hunting festival, the main character of the ball.


    Everyone paid attention to where Fernan was headed, but his destination had been set from the start.


    Fernan, who came down from the podium without hesitation, found Julia with just one nce.


    Exactly in the center of the banquet hall, Julia in a dark purple dress stood. He stepped forward without hesitation as if there was only her in his sight.


    When he finally stood in front of her, shouts poured out from all around.


    There was no one to deny that the appearance of them facing each other was absolutely perfect.


    Fernan reached out his hand ording to the etiquette. With a slightly trembling face, Julia put her hand on top of his slowly.


    He gently kissed her on the back of her white, slender hand, and looked at her.


    Her blue eyes, as if studded with stars, shone and dazzled. Her eyes, which looked tense, slowly curved.


    That smile alone made all this worthwhile to him.


    Fernan put the bracelet directly on her slender wrist. The silvery-white bracelet glided beautifully from the white wrist.


    Coincidentally, the jewel embedded in the center of the bracelet was the same blue color as Julias pupils.


    How beautiful


    Exmations mixed with envy and praise poured out from the people.


    Fernand held out the bouquet of flowers. Golden roses with a dazzling light were held in her arms.


    At the same time, the orchestra began to y. A beautiful tune praised Julia, who became the protagonist of today''s ball.


    It was an evening where everything went perfectly.


    I have never seen the Grand Duke look so affectionate to anyone.


    After the award ceremony, the grand banquet began to ripen. Centering on today''s protagonists, the Grand Duke and his wife, there was a ball with a waltz.


    "Me too. I didn''t even know that His Majesty the Grand Duke and his wife were so friendly. They are both young and beautiful, its like a painting.


    You know what? Last night, on the day of the pic, His Highness even came to pick up the Grand Duchess.


    Ady who covered her mouth with a fan happily spoke.


    Well, you know why. Marchioness Jennes had secretly quarreled with the Grand Duchess from the pic. But the Grand Duke showed up at the right time. The arrogant Marchioness ran away with a red face, how ridiculous it was


    At that, the rest of thedies burst outughing as if exhrating.


    Thedies didnt like Cornelia, who had always reigned as if she was the queen of the social circle, so they decided tough at her as much as they could this time.


    And naturally, in their minds, a slight favor for Julia, who had pushed Cornelia away, sprouted.


    Meanwhile, Julia, who was at the center of the topic, was clumsily continuing her waltz following Fernan''s lead.


    Ah!"


    Julia, who took the wrong step, made a small sound.


    But luckily, no one noticed that she had made a mistake.


    For every time she stumbled like this, Fernan lifted or pulled her with his skillful moves.


    Besides, his expression didnt change at all even though she had already stepped on his foot several times.


    Obviously, I practiced a lot."


    Julia muttered with a gloomy expression. Fernan immediately answered.


    "You don''t have to dance well."


    But youre a good dancer.


    Julia, who was suddenly curious, looked up at him. It was the first time she had ever danced at a ball. But he didn''t seem to be. With whom did he dance? At a ball, it was customary for the gentleman to ask thedy to dance first.


    Did you have a lot of ballroom experience?


    When Julia asked with a hint, Fernan gave an answer without thinking once.


    "It was part of the royal education, so when I was young, I often saw other people dancing."


    He spoke slowly.


    "It''s the first time I dance like this."


    "Really? But youre so good at it.


    Julia had a doubtful expression on her face. Fernan, who watched her reaction, smiled subtly for some reason. After a while, he lowered his head and made eye contact with Julia.


    Im good at everything I do with my body.


    "Maybe I was born with it."


    At the somewhat calm but yful voice, Julia paused. Soon after, she realized something and her face turned red.


    She recalled that one day she had asked him the same question.


    At that time, the difference was that it was not an open ce like this, but on the couple''s bed.


    <b><i>Your Highness. Did you have a lot of experience doing this?</i></b>


    They had spent many nights together since they confessed their feelings.


    Naturally, for Julia, Fernan was her first man. But she probably wasnt his first. At least, that was what Julia thought.


    Because.. he was overly skilled in bed.


    He knew better than herself, where and how to provoke her, how to pleasure her, and how to make her moan.


    However, no matter how inexperienced she was, Julia knew that his physical strength was not normal. Surely someone like that could go long and persistent.


    But Fernan was really like a monster. Julia had never seen him exhausted, because it was she who fell asleep as if she fainted every time.


    She once considered him to be ascetic, but not anymore.


    He was overwhelmingly lustful as much as hisrge and strong physique, and Julia only found out about it years after they married.


    So she was curious about his past. She wondered what kind of women he met.


    But to her cautious question, Fernan answered with a calm expression.


    <b><i>Youre my first.</i></b>


    <b><i>''Oh, that''s a lie. Being this skillful</i></b>


    She didnt seem to believe it, and Fernan at that time slyly gave the same answer as just now.


    <b><i>Im good at everything I do with my body. Maybe I was born with it.</i></b>


    Whats it that made you so red?


    Fernan whispered softly. Then, as an extension of her memory, Julia cut off the obscene scenes that continued to flow.


    Unknowingly, she stepped on his foot again.


    "Ah! Im sorry.


    When Julia hurriedly apologized, Fernan replied casually.


    You can step on it as many times as you like.


    "You can think about what you just did just now."


    It was a mischievous answer and Julia bowed her face red in embarrassment. Fernan pulled her waist in tight as if telling her not to be.


    Naturally, her gaze rose. As she looked at his golden eyes, his face seemed to be quite pleasant at this moment.


    Then, Julia, who had been ncing at him a little hatefully because he was being mischievous, eventually raised the corners of her lips slightly. Still, her hot face showed no sign of cooling down.


    ***


    The schedule in the capital waspleted after five full days of consecutive banquets including grand banquets, dinner parties and closing ceremony.


    It started snowing early on the way back to the Grand Duchy.


    From that day on, the approaching winter began to color the whole world white.

 Chapter 115: Side story (6)

    Chapter 115: Side story (6)


    "The snow shows no signs of stopping. It won''t be easy to go outside for a while."


    Early in the morning, the old butler, Richard, who came to deliver the business n for next year, murmured while looking out the window.


    Fernan, who was reviewing the report, then threw his gaze out the window.


    Last night, the snow that seemed to have stopped gradually, fell again in the morning to the extent that it was piled up.


    "Yes. Last month we increased the number of workers, so we have more than enough."


    Fernan nodded and raised his quill. The sound of paperwork being written down filled the office.


    Richard stood respectfully, waiting for him to finish his signature. After some time had passed, Richard suddenly opened his mouth.


    "Ah, I think the Grand Duchess has woken up.


    At that, Fernan stopped his hand and raised his head. Through therge window on one side of the office, he could see Julia walking in the garden.


    When Fernan woke up this morning, Julia next to him was still asleep. So he was going to wake her up after working for a while.


    But in the meantime, she seemed to have woken up on her own and was going somewhere with a hasty pace.


    Perhaps shes on her way to the greenhouse. While Your Highness was away, she took great care of the greenhouse.


    Did she?


    Fernan, who answered calmly, looked at Julia as she was moving away.


    Then he looked down at the paper again and hurriedly wrote his signature.


    Send it like this. I don''t think there''s anything to modify.


    Yes, my lord.


    As Fernan got up from his seat and was about to leave the office in a hurry, Richard, who was following, held out his jacket in his arms.


    Its cold outside, my lord.


    "Ah."


    Fernan cleared his throat and picked up the jacket. He was in such a hurry that he forgot the outerwear.


    Richard looked at his back as Fernan crossed the hallway and smiled quietly.


    It was a peaceful morning when the sun began to seep into the cold world and the snow fluttered moderately.


    Julias small footprints were imprinted in his eyes, which he had not yet cleared. Fernan followed the footsteps towards the greenhouse.


    Through the foggy and steaming ss windows, colorful flowers were spread out dazzlingly.


    At that moment, a low, heavy voice was heard.


    What do you think? This time it will definitely not wither.


    Fernan frowned slightly. It was the voice of a man he had never heard before.


    "Yes. As expected, soil was also a problem.


    Then, Julia''s admiring voice was heard along with it.


    Fernan slowly walked towards the source of the sound. Then he saw two people standing at the flower bed in front of the fountain.


    An unfamiliar man was standing next to Julia.


    They continued to talk as if they could not hear anything because of the sound of the water from the fountain.


    Oh, this is a golden rose. Its so beautiful that I want to nt it in the greenhouse, but I dont know where to get it.


    Julia held up a rose flower in her hand. It was a rose from the Imperial Pce flower garden, which she received as a congrattory gift for the hunting festival.


    The man with a fierce expression epted it and nodded his head.


    Yeah, Ill take a look. Wow, its so beautiful.


    Fernan, who had been quietly listening to the noisy conversation, couldnt stand it and walked up to them.


    Just then, Julia, who turned her head, found him and smiled brightly.


    "Your Highness!"


    Fernan, who was trying to rx his face while looking at Julia, stood next to her and looked at the man bending his back, and his face turned cold again.


    I see the Grand Duke. Your Highness, my name is Jerome, the appointed gardener of the greenhouse.


    Fernan didn''t like Jeromes polite way of saying hello. While Fernan stared at the gardener coldly, Julia smiled and opened her mouth.


    Hes a gardener who was hired recently. He is a talented person who knows nts well and handles flowers well.


    At those words, Fernan felt even more displeased and looked at the gardener. The gardener, who had raised his head slightly, made eye contact with him and flinched.


    It was only when Julia felt the strange expression in his eyes, Jerome said calmly.


    I will find out where the rose is from.


    I can ask the gardener of the Imperial Pce myself.


    Saying so, Fernan extended his hand to the gardener. It meant to give him back the rose.


    The gardener, who gave him the rose, bowed his head politely again.


    Julia pped her hands and smiled brightly.


    I didnt think of that. Then please.


    Fernan nodded his head and looked at Julia calmly, then gave an order to the gardener who was still obtrusive in his sight.


    You can leave now.


    Yes, yes. Then call me back when you need me.


    After the gardener bowed his head, he slowly left the greenhouse.


    Fernan stared at the back of the person who was leaving, and then averted his gaze.


    Do you visit the greenhouse every morning?


    It was a calm voice that hid a boiling inside. Julia, not knowing his heart, nodded her head brightly.


    Yes, I want to make sure the flowers have grown well overnight.


    .


    Then it meant that she had been spending time with the gardener every morning for the weeks when he (Fernan) was away.


    Fernan gritted his teeth inwardly.


    Come with me from now on.


    Fernan said in a voice that was as casual as possible, and then Julia responded politely.


    "It''s okay. I know you''re busy getting reports in the morning, I can''t bother you with this.


    Fernan, who was somehow impatient, spoke up.


    It doesnt bother me. Even small things are fine, so tell me anything first. Just like a while ago, when we have the information we need.


    Julia tilted her head as she looked at him with a rather long speech.


    Still, she gently nodded her head.


    Yes, I will.


    At that moment, Fernan, who rxed his expression, exhaled a long breath. Then he nced at the table in the middle of the greenhouse.


    Would you like to eat here?


    "Id like that."


    Julia, who readily answered, smiled brightly. With her smile in her eyes, Fernan erased the presence of the annoying gardener.


    However, the gardener''s presence disturbed Fernan''s ntings for quite some time after that.


    .


    .


    .


    This is a flower called aurora. It is characterized by a strange color. If you decorate it in the living room or banquet room, it will create a morous yet subtle atmosphere.


    The gentle voice of the gardener continued, and Julia nodded her head as she looked at the picture of the flower pointed to by the gardener.


    I would like to nt this in a flower bed, too. Can we get seedlings in winter?


    "Yes. There is a flower garden that I know well, and there must be quite a few seedlings there.


    It was the sight Fernan saw every morning when he followed Julia to the greenhouse.


    Julia went around the greenhouse with that gardener and checked the flowers in the flower bed one by one. Along the way, she had a close, face-to-face conversation with the gardener, and asionallyughed. It was also very lovely.


    After that, she has studied nts like this every day.


    Yes, every morning.


    Oh, and this herb is


    Standing next to Julia, the gardener leaned down to turn the page.


    The moment the distance between the two of them narrowed, there was the sound of something sharply breaking.


    It was a teacup in Fernan''s hand.


    Taking her gaze away from the book, Julia looked at the shattered teacup in Fernan''s hand.


    Surprised, she jumped up from her seat.


    "Your Highness!"


    Even when he smashed the teacup with his bare hands, Fernan had an expressionless face as if he didn''t know what had happened.


    However, pieces of broken ss had pierced his palm, red blood began to drip.


    Julia took her handkerchief out of her pocket and shouted to the gardener.


    "Go and call the doctor!"


    "Yes, yes!"


    The gardener, who was in shock, ran out of the greenhouse in a hurry.


    Julia hurriedly grabbed Fernan''s hand and checked it. The hard palms were messed up withrge and small pieces of ss embedded.


    Ah, what should I do. Your Highness, are you okay?


    Julia looked at him with a face that looked like she was about to cry. Fernan, who had juste to his senses, grabbed her wrist and pulled it away.


    Its okay, dont touch it.


    In the meantime, Fernan, who was worried that Julias hand would be injured, stood up.


    Then he led her to a ce where there were no shards of broken ss.


    How did you and the teacup..


    Julia looked at the shattered teacup with an iprehensible face.


    It wasn''t broken by falling to the floor, it was broken by his grip.


    I wondered how it was possible, but considering Fernans usual strength, it didn''t seem like it would be too difficult. But why did he break it?


    Julia thought frantically and looked at his hand again. When she saw his blood-stained hand, all the thoughts she had ran away.


    While she was upset and weeping, Jerome finally ran into the greenhouse with the doctor.


    Your Highness, please show me your hand.


    The attending physician hurriedly came and checked Fernans wound. The attending physician moved, saying that the gaping skin might need to be sewn up.


    When Fernan returned to the castle like that, the workers were rolling their feet as if they heard the news that he was injured.


    It seemed that the gardener had called the attending physician very loudly. Fernan sent them all away as if he was annoyed and headed to the parlor.


    There will be some pain.


    The attending physician warned, and he pulled out a treatment tool. Julia watched anxiously as the affected area was sterilized and then stitched.


    Dont look, Julia.


    Fernan, who hadpletely regained hisposure, muttered.


    However, Julia shook her head and stayed until the end.


    Fortunately, the wound is not deep, but it will be good for your recovery to refrain from using your hand for a while.


    The attending physician who hadpleted the treatment skillfully said politely. Fernan nodded his head in response. After the doctor left, there was a moment of silence in the parlor.


    Julia had her head bowed with an upset face. Fernan, who was looking at her like that, spoke first.


    "Im okay. Its not a big deal.


    You say that every time.


    Intercepting his words, Julia let out her sigh.


    Why did you break the teacup?


    Throughout his treatment, Julia thought. There was no way the teacup could have broken itself.


    The only thing she could think of was that Fernan broke it with force.


    In the end, he deliberately injured his body again. He even made a promise to her that he would never harm himself recklessly again.


    I couldnt control my power.


    Fernan looked at her face as he replied in a lump, but Julia did not give in and asked.


    Why couldnt you control your power?


    Fernan turned his gaze slightly, contemting his answer.


    To be honest, it was long. For the past few days, his nerves were scratched like crazy as he watched Julia sticking with the gardener, and then when he saw the man getting closer to Julia, he lost it.


    Of course, he didn''t want to tell her his foolish jealousy.


    Is it because of Jerome?"


    However, Julia asked a question that caught him off guard.

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    When Fernan was silent, Julia got up quietly and went to the seat next to him.


    Julia, who was sitting next to him as if she was slumping down, held out her hand. She opened her mouth as she gently held his hand wrapped in bandages.


    "I saw Your Highness didn''t look good when you look at Jerome.


    Julia let out a low sigh. She thought it was her spection, but apparently it wasn''t.


    "I don''t know what you don''t like about him, but Jerome is a honest gardener."


    .


    Since Jerome came, the greenhouse has been taken care of better than before.


    Her words were blocked by the sudden touch of her lips.


    Julia opened her eyes wide in surprise.


    Fernan muttered low between their lightly touched lips.


    "Stop talking about him."


    Julia still looked up at him with wide open eyes. Fernan gradually loosened his slightly narrowed forehead.


    However, as much as his eyes, he could not hide his emotions and was shaking greatly.


    Are you mad?"


    At her careful question, Fernan swallowed a simmering sigh and sped her hand tightly.


    Then, in the end, he let out his inner thoughts.


    okay. The truth is, I am very angry.


    Fernan, who lowered his gaze slightly, continued speaking slowly, as if chewing on each word.


    I dont want you to make eye contact with him, nor to respond kindly to him, so Im going crazy.


    Seeing him look at you and flirt with you making me even angrier.


    As he spoke, he scratched his head as if he was a whiny child. Still, the voice, once raised, could not be stopped.


    When I think you be with that b*stard every morning, it makes my blood boil.


    He was jealous and anxious, and he tried to get rid of it on his own. Because he decided not to oppress Julia and let her do whatever she wanted.


    It was a promise he had repeated thousands of times after losing her so many times.


    He tolerated well without Julias knowledge when he saw someone flirting with her, or when someone needlessly courteous and eager to kiss the back of her hand.


    But he had never done anything something like he did today.


    Come to think of it, he should have been more angry then, but why this time he couldnt stand the sight of the gardener.


    Was it because Julia at Jerome?


    Or was it because the name of the gardener that kepting out of her mouth?


    What was certain was that he (Fernan) shouldn''t be acting like this in front of her. Perhaps she will hate him.


    Fernan was rubbed his face to control his emotions, but btedly, he met Julia''s eyes and bit his lips.


    Julia looked embarrassed but at the same time confused.


    Fernan looked at her, feeling anxious.


    Are you disappointed in me?


    When Julia remained silent because she didn''t know what to say, his face turned pale in because he thought she really was disappointed in him.


    D*mn it, I didnt mean to do this.


    He murmured low. Julia tried to say she wasn''t disappointed, but she was speechless for some reason.


    She had never seen Fernan so exasperated before. At least he had been like that since she came back.


    So Julia was a little more embarrassed. She vaguely knew he didnt like Jerome, but she didn''t know he was thinking like that.


    Naturally, Jerome was just a gardener at the castle. And she was just being nice to him.


    Julia.


    As Julia kept silent, Fernan looked anxious and lowered his head. As she looked at him, Julia reached out without realizing it.


    .


    Fernans eyes widened as he saw her suddenly hugging him. Julia buried her face on his neck.


    She wasn''t angry. She wasn''t even disappointed. There''s no way she would hate him for this. If she had been that shallow, she wouldn''t havee back to him. However, her heart fluttered when seeing Fernan so unstable.


    She just wanted to reassure him that he was her only one.


    So instead of answering, the action said it all. Julia released her arms and looked into his shaky eyes, then kissed him first.


    .


    It was an act that she would not have done in the first ce because she was usually shy. Fernan hand fluttered in the air for a moment at her sudden reaction.


    Recalling what Fernan had always done, she clumsily gripped his lips, stuttering and hugging his back.


    Fernan, who had been staring nkly at Julias closed eyelids, finally wrapped around her waist with one hand. Then he cupped her cheek with the other hand and lowered his head deeper to her.


    As the subject of the action was reversed, the kiss deepened at once. Fernans tongue entered between her lips and kissed her deeply. Julia''s face gradually turned red as if on fire.


    Julia, who grabbed his cor tightly, slowly adapted to his action. Slowly she took her breath and epted him. She was half lying on the sofa.


    They embraced each other passionately, forgetting all the emotions they had before. Julias clothes were crumpled and her hair was tangled.


    Fernan lowered his head and buried his lips in the nape of her white neck. Julia suppressed her moan and bit her lip. At that moment, suddenly someone knock on the door.


    "Your Highness! This is Lloyd. Are you inside?"


    After a moment of silence, Julia made a loud ah, and pushed Fernan away. Fernan took a deep breath and ruffled his hair, annoyed at the interruption.


    "I heard you got hurt, are you okay? How on earth"


    Wait there.


    Fernan gave orders to Lloyd in a low-pitched voice and looked down at Julia. Her cheeks were red as if they were about to burst. He quietly reached out his hand, wiped her wet lips and straightened her messy clothes.


    After onest gentle brushing of her messy hair, he got up. Then he whispered softly after barely closing his still boiling eyes.


    Ill be right back.


    Julia nodded her head slightly. Her heart raced as she looked at his back as he left. She felt embarrassed as if she was caught doing something bad.


    ****


    It wasnt until night that the unfinished story could continue.


    Julia said Jerome was already married and had a child. She was just spending time with him to learn about nts.


    When she added that she would be very sad if he misunderstood her, Fernan hurriedly replied.


    I didnt misunderstand you.


    He was just jealous because he wanted to have Julia all for himself.


    He wanted to have her smile, her eyes, and even her time, but he couldn''t do it, so he got angry like a child.


    Fernan looked at her, clearing his throat.


    Dont be upset. It''s my fault."


    Then Julia shook her head.


    She didn''t mean to make him to openly apologize to her. She pushed the nket that covered her legs and slipped into his arms. Fernan hugged her tightly.


    "Your Highness my everything.


    At her whisper, Fernan looked at her with deep affection and closed his eyes.


    "You don''t know how happy those words make me."


    Feeling his heart pounding deep in his chest, Fernan hugged Julia a little more deeply. As he hugged her so tightly, he wanted to touch her a little more. He turned his head and kissed Julia on the cheek.


    "You''re the only one for me, forever."


    Julia gently raised her lips. They looked at each other, gently moved their bodies.


    No matter who came first, their lips met. Quietly, Julias back wasid on the bed.


    Fernan took off her nightgown and kissed her bare shoulders. Slowly, he pressed his hot lips to her slender vicle, and Julia let out a soft moan. Her stomach tingled at the sensation of obsessively kissing all over her body.


    Hmmmm, Your Highness..


    Call my name.


    Huh?


    Julia wrapped her arms around his neck with her round eyes. When she couldn''t answer, he hurried her on.


    He lowered his lips to her chest and tenaciously sucked the spot where her heart was beating. Her back twitched at the hot, tickling sensation.


    As she hugged the back of his head, Julia muttered in a wet voice.


    "Fernan"


    Fernan smiled contentedly and positioned himself on top of her. Then he slowly took off his robe and let go. Julia looked at hisrge, strong, muscr body as if possessed.


    It was a night when desire engulfed reason, as always.

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    Winter continued in full swing after that.


    The soft snow turned into a blizzard, and the road waspletely frozen, making it difficult to go to the greenhouse.


    One afternoon in the midst of such a cold wave, Julia rubbed her eyes and got her body up. When she checked her pocket watch, it was already noon.


    ".Oh my gosh."


    She murmured,ing to her senses. Lately, she has often woken up veryte. Even after sleeping like this, she felt sleepy again in the afternoon.


    When she dozed off while reading her books, Melissa, who hade to find her, would often wake her up.


    Julia hurriedly got out of bed.


    She then called her maid, bathed, and went straight to her dressing room. Wearing thin linen underwear and an underskirt, she wore a thick dark green dress over it.


    As she came out of the hallway, she felt a warm energy. A few weeks ago, the magic stones Fernan had brought in from abroad were hung at regr intervals on the wall of the hallway.


    It was the magic stones that served as bothmps and a heat generator.


    It was expensive, but it was well worth it. Julia felt a moderately warm energy and crossed the hallway.


    As she was going down the central staircase, at the end of therge lobby, she saw Fernan speaking with his lieutenants.


    Unlike her, whose wake-up times were different every day, Fernan has always led a very structured life.


    He woke up at dawn every day and trained with the knights, after which he received various external reports from the butler and took care of government affairs.


    Today, he must have been doing a lot of work since dawn.


    Leave the Western Military Agreement to the 3rd Division. Victor Veron, I will leave it to you.


    "Yes, my lord.


    Fernan, who was giving orders to his lieutenants, felt Julias presence and suddenly looked back at her. The lieutenants standing next to him immediately bowed their heads.


    I see you, Grand Duchess.


    Yes, hello.


    While Julia nodded her head in response, Fernan approached her.


    Did you sleep well?


    He greeted her by kissing her on the cheek, which was familiar to her now.


    The determined look in his eyes when he gave the order to the lieutenants a while ago had disappeared.


    The lieutenants, who at first looked at him like a ghost, were now ustomed to his change of attitude and were not surprised.


    Im going to go eat. Dont worry about me and go do your work.


    Julia smiled and tried to walk away, but Fernan grabbed her hand.


    "Im done. Lets go together.


    Then he looked back and gave his Lieutenants one final order.


    The afternoon training should be conducted in the annex.


    Yes, my lord.


    Fernan turned away from the greeting Lieutenants and walked with Julia. They headed to the dining room together.


    It was ate lunch. As soon as they entered the dining room, the smell of colorful food stimted Julias appetite.


    As they sat down, the prepared food wasid out one after the other on a nice tablecloth.


    White bread made from high-quality wheat, various cheeses, a fresh sd topped with winter raspberries, and a savory veal steakJulia''s eyes twinkled and she admired the prepared food.


    Unlike usual, food constantly entered her mouth.


    "I''m d you eat well today."


    Fernan looked at Julia happily as she cut her steak into small pieces and put it in her mouth.


    She usually has a small appetite. It wasn''t at the level of skipping meals, but she didn''t eat the entire portion set in front of her.


    But today, she emptied all the steaks and even asked the attendant to bring him another te.


    I have a good appetite these days. It must be because it is winter.


    Julia answered with her blushing face. Then she pecked the raspberry with her fork and put it in her mouth.


    Seeing her eat so well, Fernan called the chef and ordered him to bring in more ingredients of Julias favorite food. Nodding his head, the chef quietly stepped back.


    If theres anything else you want to eat, just tell me.


    At Fernan''s request, Julia nodded.


    "Yes."


    Julia even ate the dessert that came out after the meal. Fernan watched her munching deliciously as he drank his wine.


    She wondered if this was the feeling of being full even if she didn''t eat. When Julia returned to the bedroom, she suddenly realized.


    She knew that the reason she suddenly had a big appetite and felt sleepy all the time was because she was on a period. Somehow, it seemed that thest few days, her lower stomach felt heavy and throbbing.


    Julia opened the drawer of her bedside table and took out a small notebook from inside. But when she checked the date, her cycle was a weekte.


    "It''s strange."


    Julia looked down at her notebook and tilted her head. She had a regr lunar cycle. When she was stressed or exhausted, it was sometimes dyed or not at all.


    Buttely, it had never been like that. Rather, she slept well, ate well, and lived peacefully every day.


    After thinking for a while, she told Melissa to call her doctor.


    "Grand Duchess, its Lockman. May Ie in?"


    Melissa ran over and opened the door. The doctor, Lockman, bowed his head in greeting.


    The cycle has been dyed, so I was wondering if there was something wrong with my body.


    When Julia first described her symptoms, Lockman nodded his head.


    Have you been working hard recently or have you been mentally exhausted?


    "No. There was no such thing.


    "Well.."


    Rockman thought quietly, then politely extended his hand.


    Can I feel your pulse for a moment?


    Julia dly entrusted her hand to him. Lockman grabbed her slender wrist and paused for a while.


    Then he tilted his head slightly, shifted his position slightly, and began to feel the pulse again.


    .


    Julia looked at Lockman, who kept checking her pulse, with a slightly anxious look.


    Gulping her saliva, waiting for Lockman to speak, her wrists finally freed.


    Lockman, who was looking at her slowly, opened his mouth with a somewhat emotional smile.


    Your Grace, it''s good news.


    While Julia made a bewildered face, Lockmans joyful voice continued.


    It seems that youre pregnant.


    "What?"


    Julia opened her eyes wide and asked nkly. Melissa, who was standing next to her, jumped out of her ce as she looked back in surprise.


    Oh my God, Your Grace is expecting!


    Melissa jumped up and down with joy.


    However, Julia, who could not believe Lockman''s words for a moment, took a deep breath at themotion of Melissa.


    She blinked her blue eyes several times as she covered her mouth with her hand.


    <i>Pregnant, pregnant..</i>


    With your permission, I will bring this good news to His Highness right away. May I?"


    Lockman said to her without hiding his smile. Julia nodded her head meekly. Lockman, who bowed his head, hurriedly left the bedroom, and Julia slowly raised her hand and touched her chest, which started to thump.


    When she realized her period waste, why didn''t she think of the possibility that she might be pregnant?


    Julia took a deep breath, and then exhaled slowly. Her heart did not calm down.


    She had slept with Fernan many times, so it wasnt sudden. However, she was surprised because it wasnt what she expected. Julia sat down slowly on her bed and exhaled.


    Your Grace, congrattions! How happy His Highness will be.!


    Melissa blessed Julia with all her heart. However, Julia was still in a state of shock.


    She didn''t feel it right now. However, as time passed and she fully realized this situation, joy and happiness began to fill her heart.


    Suddenly, at that moment, the door swung open.


    Fernan appeared at the door with Lockman.


    He hurried to Julia and leaned his body closer to her. He muttered as he met Julias gaze.


    So, Julia


    Yes, my lord. Grand Duchess is expecting.


    Lockman replied with a smile on his face from behind. Fernan''s hands trembled.


    He looked at Julia nkly, as if he did not know what expression to make. It was the same expression Julia had when she first heard that she was pregnant.


    Then he came to his senses and turned to Lockman and asked.


    Is Julias body okay?


    Fernan''s gaze was full of tension. Lockman said in a calm voice.


    "Fortunately, Her Graces current health is very good. However, the future is important."


    Lockman took a breath and spoke.


    "Shes still in the pre-stabilization stage, so there''s a lot to be careful about. Your Highness, too, has to pay more attention to the Grand Duchess than usual."


    Fernan looked at Julia again, listening to Lockman''s words.

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    Julia waited patiently for the words toe from him. She wanted him to be as pleased with this news as she was.


    But on the other hand, she could not fully predict what Fernan would think of the child. Because they had never had a conversation about sessors or children.


    He was the Grand Duke at the center of the empire. For him, session was also one of the indispensable elements.


    However, Julia did not want to be happy simply because they had an heir. She wanted him to be happy to have their child''. A child was the fruit of love. And she wanted Fernan to think so too.


    "Julia."


    Fernan finally called her name and got up slowly. Then he held her in his arms very carefully and affectionately.


    In fact, I thought it was okay to have no children.


    Fernan gently caressed her back. For him, the fact that Julia hade back to him was enough. He did not want to burden her with the obligation to produce his sessor.


    The reason he never brought it up was because he didn''t want to put a burden on her. Even if they didnt have kids, he thought they would be fine.


    But, I guess I was wrong. This.It makes me very happy.


    He looked at Julia as he exhaled his trembling breath deeply. His golden eyes twinkled brightly.


    "I''ll protect you. You and our children."


    Fernan took Julias hand and kissed the back of her white hand. His lips were finally softly curved with affection.


    Fernan was like her. This child was not just a sessor, but the fruit of love and a blessing.


    . our child"


    Julia muttered and nodded her head slowly. Yes, it was their child.


    Julia sniffed her nose as if she was about to cry. Fernan caressed the corners of her red eyes.


    On an ordinary winter day, a very precious gift came to them.


    ***


    On a snowy moonlit night, Julia could not sleep and read her book.


    I used to hate winterbut now I like it.


    Julia felt tight arms around her and turned over the page.


    Fernan, who was holding her from behind and supporting her book, asked,


    "Why?"


    Well, there is a firece, and there is a magic stone.


    "Yes."


    "And, we have two more family members."


    Julia smiled and nced back at Fernan. Then Fernan gently stroked her stomach with his hand.


    At Julias second checkup, Lockman said she was expecting twins. At the first visit, the pulse was faint, so he couldn''t tell them apart, but as the number of weeks increases, he could feel it clearly.


    Yet her stomach was t without any traces. It was hard to believe that there were two children growing in such a small body.


    This moment is like a dream.


    Julia whispered softly.


    The first winter they met, just staring at each other without any passion or hardship.


    It was a dreamlike time and a dreamlike gift in winter.


    Me too.


    Fernan replied softly.


    The sound of burning embers filled the peaceful silence.


    Julia turned one more page. Fernan continued to stroke her stomach.


    Which do you prefer, boy or girl?


    She asked abruptly, fixing her gaze on her book. Fernan answered right away without thinking deeply.


    Its good either way, but Id like them to look like you.


    Um, I hope theyre half and half alike.


    Julia nodded joyfully. Two children resembling them were imagined running around. It would be really cute and lovely.


    Julia turned the page with a pleasant imagination.


    So, when she turned ten pages, the bright moonlight gradually faded. Fernan whispered as he pressed his lips to her cheek.


    You should sleep now. It''ste at night."


    Recalling Lockmans words that mothers should get enough sleep, he encouraged Julia.


    Julia said, Onest page, and quickly skimmed through the long lines.


    Only then did she rest her head on her fluffy pillow and close her eyes. Fernany obliquely next to her and looked at her.


    She said that she couldn''t sleep, and within ten minutes of lying down, Julia fell asleep quietly. Fernan, who smiled faintly, kissed her on the forehead, on the cheek, and then on her lips.


    ***


    The two children were growing up smoothly. Julia''s stomach swelled up quickly, and she paid attention to her health every day, so there was nothing wrong with her body.


    Around that time, her fetal movement began to feel great. The children loved Fernan''s voice. Because they reacted unusually loud whenever he called Julia''s name or stroked her tummy.


    Now winter was over and spring was in full swing.


    Julia liked to take a walk in the garden, feeling the warmth of spring. Because she felt that when she talked to her children here and there, admiring the flowers she had bloomed, she liked them too.


    Perhaps her children also liked what she liked.


    "Your Grace, pleasee out for a moment. A visitor is here to see you.


    Huh?


    Julia, who had spent time embroidering on white handkerchief, tilted her head.


    Melissa grinned, supported her and walked out into the hallway.


    It was then that she knew who Melissa was talking about.


    "Julia, how have you been?"


    "Oh, my god"


    It was priest Matheus, whom Julia hadnt met since returning to the castle. She looked at the man approaching her with a happy face.


    Julia looked up at him in surprise as he got closer. It had been a year since she had seen him like this.


    She couldn''t hide her joy.


    Matheus, how did you get here? I didnt hear from you


    Matheus stopped in front of her and greeted her politely, then smiled sweetly as before.


    I have been called by the Grand Duke to give a blessing to Julia and the children in her womb.


    Then, a smile gradually spread across Julia''s face.


    "I see. I didn''t even think about it


    At one time, Matheus was her longtime benefactor and a strong supporter. Was that why? After being pregnant, she often thought of him.


    She had once told Fernan about it, too, and perhaps that was why Fernan called Matheus.


    The feeling was new. Long ago, she was saved by Matheus divine power, and now she was embracing a new life.


    Julia headed with him to the parlor with her pounding heart. And they talked a lot about things that they couldn''t finish.


    The news that Gabrielle and the children of the monastery have returned safely to their original ce, and the news of Cedric who has left the temple and was free.


    Did Cedric give up his priesthood?


    "Yes, I''ve heard he''s been traveling around.


    Julia was a little startled, but she soon smiled softly. Cedric seemed to be doing just fine, so her heart was relieved.


    It was good that he was happy after bing a free person, Julia thought.


    Matheus looked at her warmly as she smiled, then looked down at her bulging belly.


    It seems that the Grand Duke cares for Julia a lot.


    Now, Julia''s past was gone and she was full of vitality.


    They were more mature and healthier than before by sharing their hearts with a lot of love.


    Matheus could feel that fact deeply just by looking at Julias expression.


    Julia nodded her head and smiled shyly.


    The story of the pastwell, he was cold and heartless. Even Matheus must still be familiar with His Highness at that time.


    An unparalleled warmth permeated her eyes.


    "Now he cares and love me so much, so I dont remember that time anymore."


    As Julia gently sped her hands, she looked up and smiled once more.


    Matheus, I am very happy now.


    The joy spread even to Matheus, who knew at once what she wanted to say.


    In the distant past, when Julia was born, his blessing, wishing her to be happier than any other child in the world, has nowe true.


    Matheus looked at Julia, feeling the emotions overflowing deep in his heart.


    "It''s a great joy for me, too, that you are happy."


    The blessings given to the mother and the children in the womb were made in front of Fernan. Because it was also a blessing for the family.


    After a long time, Julia felt his divine power seep into her stomach.


    The two children will be born healthy. And finally, under the protection of the two of you, they will be happy for a long time."


    Matheus removed his hand from her stomach and whispered softly.


    "So don''t worry about anything."


    Julia nodded her head. At that moment, a spring breeze blew from the window as a proof of blessing.


    Julia smiled happily as she felt the wind wrapped around her body. At the same time, Fernan, who was standing behind her, gently grabbed his hand.


    They looked at each other and smiled lovingly. Julia felt that the children in her stomach were also delighted.

 Chapter 119: Side story (10)

    Chapter 119: Side story (10)


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    After the warm spring, the hot summer came, and by the end of autumn, when the world was colored in five colors, two children were born.


    They were a girl and a boy who inherited the ck hair of their father and the blue eyes of their mother.


    The daughter''s name was Daphne, and the son''s name was Cain.


    The two infants, who were lying quietly in bed, grew little by little, crawling and babbling.


    The children did not cry very much. Every time they saw the two smiling children sitting in the crib, everyone said that they were cute.


    "Oh my goodness, Young Master and the Princess look exactly like the Grand Duchess!


    Melissa thought the children looked like Julia. Adrian, the escort, on the other hand, had a different opinion.


    Um, I think the Young Master resembles Her Grace, and the Princess resembles His Highness.


    They said so, but in fact, Julia still couldn''t quite figure out who her children looked like more. Both were just cute and lovely.


    One afternoon, Julia went out to the lobby to meet Fernan who returned from a brief reconnaissance.


    Daphne was in her arms, and Cain was in the nannys.


    "Why did youe out? I was going to see you all.


    After Fernan kissed Julia on the cheek, he held children in his arms.


    Julia looked at Daphne and Cain in his arms and covered her mouth. Really, they were so cute.


    The children wanted to see Your Highness. Look, they seem to like you more than me.


    Perhaps his arms were more stable for the children, and his face was morefortable when he hugged them.


    She was a little sad, but seeing three people who look alike were together, Julia smiled.


    It was then that Julia realized it. That her children resembled Fernan more than herself.


    Fernan looked down at the children digging into his arms and smiled quietly. Then he said something different from what Julia thought.


    Yeah, they both look like you.


    Julia widened her eyes.


    "In my eyes, they look more like Your Highness.


    Julia smiled softly as she stretched out her finger and tickled the children''s cheeks. No matter how she looked at them, they looked that way in her eyes.


    Fernan whispered, looking at Julia and the children at a nce.


    "Look. They like to dig into my arms like you do.


    At those words, Juli blinked her eyes and burst into a small smile.


    "Unfortunately, I''ll have to give up Your Highness to the children now."


    Julia looked up yfully at him and said, and Fernan followed her and replied with a smile.


    Thats not good. Because I prefer to hold you.


    Julia chuckled at his clever reply. As sheughed out loud, Daphne, who was in Fernan''s arms, also smiled with twinkling blue eyes.


    Cain had a puzzled expression on his face, but when Daphneughed, heughed too.


    The spacious lobby quickly became cozy at the sound of lovelyughter.


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    Unlike other noble children, Daphne and Cain were raised by their parents.


    Ordinary nobles would not raise their children themselves and would entrust them to a capable nanny, but Julia did not want to do that.


    She had never raised children, and shecked many things, so she had her nanny help, but she wanted to take care of her children herself. Fernan respected her will and followed suit. As a result, the two children had a deep bond with their parents.


    A few years passed and the children began to walk on their own and were able to speak rtively clearly.


    The whole castle became a yground for children.


    Cant he find us this time? Yes?"


    A loud voice was heard from behind arge tree in the backyard.


    Daphne looked at Cain, who was squatting next to her, and asked. It was a whisper, but Cain put his index finger to his lips and shook his head.


    Its too loud, Daphne.


    No, not loud!


    While Daphne was shouting, arge shadow fell over the two children.


    Almost at the same time, the children looked up and said, "Hey!" and sighed.


    "I found you."


    Fernan, who was the tagger, chuckled and looked down at the children. He leaned down and spread his arms out, he was at eye level with the children.


    "Come here now that you''ve been caught."


    Cain sighed and hugged his father tightly. He thought it was obvious it was Daphnes shout that they got caught.


    But Fernan had a clear picture of where the two children were hiding each time.


    Behindrge marble columns in the corner of the lobby or shade trees in the backyard. Sometimes behind the fountain in the greenhouse.


    On rare asions, even when they hid in a ce that was difficult to find, passers-by or knights would suggest where the children were headed.


    Father is definitely a wizard. I hid really well this time.


    Daphne hugged her father and dered. Then Cain shrugged his small shoulders.


    Father isn''t a wizard. If Daphne didnt shout, we wouldnt have been caught.


    No, Daphne didnt shout!


    Seeing the children arguing, Fernan smiled. The two children were quite different in appearance and personality.


    Even though they were twins and hung out with each other every day, their personality was just the opposite, so Julia was always amazed.


    Daphne had a tomboy-like personality and was very talkative and full of emotions. Cain, on the other hand, was meek and calm.


    The two children, who turned five this year, were so different and quarreled a lot, but basically they got along. As Fernan returned to the castle with the children in his arms, the sun gradually began to set.


    "Father, when will mothere back?"


    Cain looked up at Fernan and asked. Julia went out this morning. This was because there was a donation event in the estate hosted by her recently, so she had to attend. Fernan asked quietly.


    "Shell be back soon. Do you miss mother?"


    During the day, they had fun ying, but now that their energy was gone, they missed Julia.


    "Yes!"


    Daphne answered loudly instead of Cain, and Cain pointed it out quietly.


    Daphne, you learned yesterday. You have to use honorifics for your parents.


    "Ugh, I''ll use it tomorrow."


    Daphne smiled and dropped her head on Fernan''s shoulder. Cain sighed and followed Daphne, resting his cheek on Fernans other shoulder.


    Fernan smiled softly and hugged the two children deeply. And he slowly looked towards the gate. It wasn''t just the children that wanted to see Julia quickly.


    Grand Duchess, did you have a good time at the event?


    The butler, Richard, greeted Julia and bowed his head. Taking off her wide-brimmed hat, Julia nodded.


    "Did anything happen? Where are the children?


    "Yes, Princess and Young Master were ying with His Highness during the day, and they just went up to their bedrooms."


    At that, Julia smiled and nodded and headed straight upstairs. Although Fernan was busy with government affairs every day, he did not miss ying with the children.


    The active children liked to y with their father more than with her or the servants.


    Her physically fit children liked to y with my father more than she or her other users. Unexpectedly, Fernan took good care of his children. He looked cold and heartless on the outside, but his wife and children were an exception.


    Julia first went to her dressing room and changed into her indoor dress. After that she went to the bedroom. When she opened the door, the calm silence greeted her. In an unexpectedly quiet atmosphere, she tilted her head and went inside her.


    Then she saw the three people sitting together on the sofa, and her eyes widened. Fernan was asleep leaning against the sofa with his two children on both sides. Cain and Daphne, who were lying in their father''s arms, were also sleeping in a frenzy.


    Julia muffled the sound of her footsteps, and approached them. A happy smile spread across her face as she stood still and looked down at her family. She wanted to capture this moment in a painting. Julia slowly lowered her head and kissed the cheeks of her children.


    And finally, after kissing Fernans cheek, she turned around with a smile. Because it was summer, the sun was long and the sky was still bright. The world caught in the sunset cast a red light on the window.


    Julia looked out the window at the beautiful scenery and closed her eyes. She felt drowsy and rxed. At that moment, she suddenly felt firm hands wrapped around her waist from behind. Julia opened her eyes wide and turned her head. Fernan, who had woken up, hugged her and whispered.


    "I missed you."


    In response to his soft voice, Julia responded with a bright smile.


    "Me too."


    As always, his strong and warm arms melted her tender heart. Now that she had be ustomed to it, this little moment with him came to her as a deep sense of happiness for her.


    She suddenly had a thought. This background that surrounded them was like a fairy tale. They lived happily ever after.


    And the fairy tale that concluded. A long time ago, she thought that such a fairy tale would never apply to her.


    she could never be such a fairy tale for me. A fairy tale-like future that premised the deep love of the two main characters. Julia, who lowered her eyelids slightly, smiled softly as she felt like she finally had a fairy tale of her own.


    Now happiness was so close. Her every day was a fairytale.


    "Youre my happiness.


    Julia whispered as she ced her arms on Fernans arms. At those words, Fernan bowed his head and answered clearly in her ear.


    You are my life.


    Julia turned her body and looked at him. Fernan slowly lowered his head and ced a kiss on her forehead.


    "I love you."


    Then he lowered his lips a little further and kissed her softly. Feeling the warm touch on her lips, Julia hugged his waist tightly.


    The world, as the sun was setting, gradually brought darkness. But she wasn''t afraid.


    Because there was this man who protected her world and illuminated it so brightly.


    So, their end was already set.


    Lets be happy for a long time.


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