《Loop of the destiny》 Prologue "English isn''t my first language, so please excuse any mistakes." Bonds that word that defines the interaction with others in this society, people always seeks to relate to others so they can spend the day to day, obviously the human being is a social being that requires the company of others, want to live in society is very normal and necessary, yet I never felt such a need, after all, what was the point of that to what they call bonds? I grew up with my parents but when I was 7 years old, my mother died, I really do not remember very well how she was, but what I do remember is like my father broke apart by his death, in fact not only him but many relatives, I remember the day of the funeral all had tears in his eyes, apparently my mother was a very dear woman. However I did not understand why all was crying, all were in perfect condition, and so I knew the death of my mother in no way will affect their daily lives, actually many of those people were not family. When people asked me if I was okay, I could only respond with a plain yes. I just didn''t know what relationship had the death of someone with me, even if that person was my own mother. My father was a computer engineer and worked for a big company, but after the death of my mother he became very depressed, so when he received a job offer in Japan, my father did not hesitate for a second and decided that we had to move, I really do not care much as I mentioned I really did not relate to others, my father was the only link that really had so there was nothing to bond me. The tale has been stolen; if detected on Amazon, report the violation. At first it was difficult because not only I had to learn the language but also had to learn the customs of Japan, that was the most difficult of all because Japan is a very cold country in reference hospitality, compared to Mexico where all are called friend or brother, here in Japan were more strict especially with the names, because not only was enough the name but it also should add relevant suffixes when you talk to someone as san or sama. As I never really understood very well that I never made use of suffixes and because of it, I was seen as a rude, not to mention the fact that did not help much that I was a foreigner. I stood more than an excoriated finger, so other children isolated me, but that did not matter I just lived my day to day without interacting with others. I just thought I was being rational, after all what case had to try to live with those who do not care about you, however for those around me I was being apathetic. By the time I realized this called apathy, the word loneliness had taken root deep inside me, however what I felt was not loneliness but something much more mundane. That I felt was simple boredom. Anyway those that form bonds to flee their reality will never understand this boredom. That''s why I never try to get close to anyone, there was no benefit, and remembering the face of my father in tears for the loss of a loved one, I realized that form bonds was something very dangerous. Because of that I concluded that the best thing for me and those around me was wanting nothing, be enthusiastic about nothing and be as unmotivated as possible, thus no one could harm me and I could not hurt anyone. Loop Chapter 1: Loop Rriinngg, Rriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinngg! With the sound of the alarm began another boring day, the same routine. Rriinngg, Rriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinngg! The alarm kept ringing but I just did not feel like shutting down. * Click * Just then the alarm went off, but it was not me who pushed the button. Mmmm, Onii-chan, you could turn off the alarm at least once. When I opened my eyes the person who said these words was none other than my little sister. Chinami was my little sister two years younger than me, and although I said she is my sister, really we are not related by blood. It seems that what my father needed was nothing more than a change of scenery, because immediately since we arrived to Japan my father soon became "friend" of a divorced woman with a little daughter, my father quickly fell in love with her, even though I think that more than love was the need to fill the gap left by my mother in him. Anyway, two years after my mother''s death, I had obtained a new family. My new mother was not a bad person, in fact she behaved very kindly toward me so I had nothing against her, Chinami my little sister is a very cute girl who is very cheerful and always tries to give her maximum in everything she does, But she is very shy because it is very difficult for her to speak in social situations, especially when coming into contact with new people, that provoked that she almost had no friends, I suppose that for that reason she was always very attached to me, she was a spoiled kid, and seeing that I did not object with any of his actions Chinami did not become independent of me, even now that I enter in high school we continue to sleep in the same bed. Getting up slowly from the bed, I began to change my clothes, while doing that my little sister took off her pajamas, while letting me see her underwear with prints of a bunny. -Onii-chan help me put on my bra Little sister, it would be nice if you had a little more modesty, although I am not in a position to say that being naked in front of her, approaching her from behind I slowly began helping Chinami while her bra concealed those extremely large mountains for a young girl of her age. -Don¡¯t you think that you should learn to do this by yourself? -I do not wanna Said my sister while hugging me, while I felt those two soft things rubbing on my chest, I realized that Chinami really was very well developed. Although my bond with Chinami is one of the strongest, I do not want him to tie me because I know it will not last long. Family relations are somewhat complicated and over time they become very tenuous and even more so when there is no blood bond, in the end it was a bond that was destined to dissolve, after all one day Chinami will get a boyfriend, get married will do his own life and I shall continue mine. Once we get dressed we have breakfast, the last two pieces of pizza of yesterday dinner. While Chinami was talking to me about the things that happened at his school, I watched the news on television, I could observe the date May 3rd. Only 6 days for Mother''s Day, Chinami had pestered me all the week in order to choosing a gift for our mother, so I had promised that today after school we would go get a gift. We left the house and headed toward school, halfway we separated as the middle school Chinami was in, was in a different direction of the high school that I attended. It had been a month since I started my first year of high school, and even though it had been a while, I still don¡¯t recognize the names and faces of the majority of my classmates. Entering the classroom, I walked to my seat and simply looked through the window. Although I went to classes really I don¡¯t pay attention, more than anything was the fact that I needed obtain the assistance necessary to not repeat the year. After another normal day, without speaking to anybody, classes ended, taking my things I head toward the exit, while walking, saw those who belonged to clubs and how they trained, I wondered why people did Things, I could never understand that, I was not part of any club, I had no interest in studies, I don¡¯t want to have friends, or a girlfriend. According to the doctors I had what was known as apathy syndrome. It is a complex syndrome characterized by a persevering deficit of motivation, both in the aspect of full interaction with one''s own consciousness, and in attention, perception and interaction with the social environment. The usual is that it presents a decrease of the will, of the interest for the activities and the initiative, along with a decrease of affective response in what it does to feelings and emotions before positive and /or negative stimuli. In short, I lacked the motivation to do things, many times this attitude had caused me several problems, but I have never intended to change who I am. Lost in my thoughts I reached the door of my house, just as I was opening the door a cheerful Chinami met me at the entrance. -Welcome home Onii-chan Dressed in black pants and a white sweater with red skulls on it, Chinami ran to hug me, probably not the most suitable clothes for a young lady, but that was because the clothes she was wearing belonged to me. Without counting his school uniform, Chinami don¡¯t have any clothes, all the clothes she wore were mine, for some strange reason Chinami had a rare obsession with my clothes and wouldn¡¯t use anything that did not belong to me, even though my parents Tried to convince her that she should have her own clothes Chinami did not give in a bit, on issues like that she was too stubborn, I don¡¯t care about that, but because of my dignity as an older brother I could at least convince her to have her own underwear. -I¡¯m back Chinami -Let''s go, Onii-chan leave your things and let''s go out -I understand, just calm down a bit Trying to calm an excited Chinami I left my things on the table and I went to my room, after that we went to the shopping district. Once there we went from store to store trying to find a suitable gift for our mother, although I had suggested several things Chinami was not satisfied with any of them so Chinami had been taking me from one side to another, we continue that way a while longer, until we reached what appeared to be an antiquarian. Inside there were various things like furniture lamps watches, jewelry, artwork etc ... Chinami quickly began to search inside the store, I for my part was looking for something appropriate, in the middle of my search, my sister called me. -Onii-chan look at this Saying this Chinami pointed to a gold necklace with an owl''s ornament in the center, the owl appeared to be made of diamonds, although I did not know much about jewelry I could appreciate the great beauty of such exquisite piece, however the price of this was not something we could afford. If you spot this story on Amazon, know that it has been stolen. Report the violation.-You like? -Yes, it''s quite nice reminds me a little of you -To me? -Yeah owls always have that quiet look, it seems to express that they are thinking of something, and you are very intelligent and you always seem to be thinking about something. I see that is Chinami''s impression of me, although I would like to say that her brother is not even close to what she thinks, but for some reason I do not have the courage to destroy her illusions. Chinami took the price tag but upon seeing the exorbitant amount, his mood faded. -Would you like to buy it? -Yes, but I doubt very much that someday we will have enough money to buy it With a crestfallen look Chinami went back to look for a gift. After a while Chinami found some white gold earrings, also quite nice, although they were not as expensive as that necklace, it was not something she could buy with her money, so as an older brother I had to lend her a little, for me Money is not something that has much importance, after all there is nothing that I want to buy, so my savings are only stacked. However seeing my little sister''s smile is something I suppose is worth paying for. Now with this I simply needed to buy a gift, after seeing for a moment, I realized that at the back of the store there are a set of sculptures, and there was also a statue of what appeared to be two rings with spines intertwined with each other, From a distance it seemed to be like the skin of a snake, I approached it a little to observe it better and I realized that it was full of dust, so with my hand I shook the dirt, only that due to the thorns of the statue my finger was cut And blood began to fall on her, for a second it seemed to me that the circles started to move but then they were quiet again. Probably dealing with some visual effect, I don¡¯t give more importance and continue looking for another gift after a while I decided to buy a small glass figurine of a fairy. On the way home Chinami was talking about things that happened to her today, how she was scolded for not knowing how many bones are in the human body and things like that. As we were walking a car passed at high speed, and right next to ours was a huge puddle of water, so meaningless say that we were both totally drenched. Because of this as soon as we returned to our house we decided to take a bath, although I don¡¯t mind sharing the tub with my little sister it was quite tired to always listen "we trust you, remember that you are brothers" and the most annoying of everything "if something happens be sure of using protection " After the bath Chinami and I went to sleep, concluding that day so exhausting. The next morning with the sound of the alarm clock Chinami and I began our morning, while removing his pajamas, while letting me see his teddy underwear, I tried to fight with my tiredness because the day before we were walking a lot, I was exhausted. We left the house and I went to my school and went directly to my seat, I leaned my head against my desk and I went to sleep, but the bustle of the class don¡¯t let me sleep so at the hour of rest I went Towards the roof. I only needed a couple of minutes and I could go back to the classroom, so letting myself, I began to fall asleep. With the sound of the bell announcing the end of classes, I realized that I had been sleeping all the afternoon, if I had known that it would be so, I would have stayed at home, too tired to get up I decided to stay there for a couple more of minutes. * Creak * With the sound of the door opening I directed my eyes at the source of the sound, there was a girl with long black hair, her eyes were red and swollen probably should have cried for a long time, slowly move toward one end of the ceiling, she turned around and opened his arms as if to hug someone and at that moment his gaze fell to where I was apparently she had at last noticed my presence, she was looking at me for a few seconds perhaps waiting for me to say Something, however I did nothing, I simply had no intention of meddling in the affairs of others, if she wanted to commit suicide was her problem. Realizing that I wouldn¡¯t do anything the girl gave a little sigh closed her eyes and slowly let her body fall. When I saw his body disappear, I closed my eyes and prepared to continue to sleep, with the sound of something crashing against the floor, my conscience slowly faded. Rriinngg, Rriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinngg! With the sound of the alarm clock, it began another boring day, the same old routine. Rriinngg, Rriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinngg! The alarm kept ringing but I just did not feel like shutting down. * Click * Just then the alarm went off, but it was not me who pushed the button. -Mmmm, Onii-chan, you could turn off the alarm at least once. When I opened my eyes the person who said these words was none other than my little sister. Waking up in the bed next to my little sister I remembered what had happened, I was supposed to be in school, but now I was in my bed, with only that quickly came to the conclusion that the scene where the girl threw into the void obviously was nothing more than a dream, however, for some reason it felt very real, without much importance, I started to change, while doing that my sister took off her pajamas, while letting me see her bunny underwear. -Little sister I know they are your favorites but you should change your panties everyday it is not hygienic to reuse them without washing -Idiot Onii-chan, my panties are not dirty! While my little sister shouted this while she threw her bra, my little sister started to give me little blows to the chest. How irrational I was just saying for his health. Once I manage to contain a angry Chinami we went to the kitchen, from the refrigerator my sister took a couple of slices of pizza. "Chinami, where did you get that?" -Fridge Little sister was not what I meant, sometimes I wish she dont take everything so literally. "No, little sister, I mean how did you get those pieces of pizza?" -Obvious of the dinner of last night When do we eat pizza last night? As Chinami talked to me about the things that happened at his school, which for some reason felt that what she was saying was strangely familiar, I watched the news on television, suddenly my hand that took the slice of pizza to my mouth stopped, because on the television showed the date of yesterday, the date May 3. It started another boring day, the same routine, literally began the same routine. For the first time I could feel the boredom inside me fading. Awakening Chapter 2: Awakening I was sure that May 3 had already passed. A deja vu? What a strange situation I was in. -Onii-chan, are you all right? Coming out of my trance by the voice of my little sister, I realized that probably all the previous events were only a great dream, after all that was the only plausible explanation for what was happening, after eating we left and we headed toward school, halfway before separating, I told Chinami. -Did you know that the human skeleton is made up of at least 206 bones? -What''s that, Onii-chan? -I just had a dream and thought maybe that information would be useful. Arriving at school I take my place, I dedicate to observe through the window trying not to think about what happened, however as the day progressed the ¡°d¨¦j¨¤ vu¡± became more frequent and things began to become weird, because everything was happening exactly as they had happened in that "dream". My head was getting more and more confused and filled with thoughts, I just don¡¯t understand what was happening, I really had no idea what was going on, the situation was too bizarre so I took my things and left the classroom, once in the street I decided to sit down In a nearby park and buy some water, after resting trying to forget the matter I went home, just when I was opening the door a cheerful Chinami met me at the entrance. -Welcome home Onii-chan Dressed in black pants and a white sweater with red skulls on it, Chinami ran to hug me. -Let''s go Onii-chan leave your things and let''s go out The moment she hugged me, I took her by the shoulders and asked. -Chinami -Yes, Onii-chan? -How was school today? -Excellent Onii-chan the teacher congratulate me for answering the question of how many bones the human body has Releasing her I went to my room. -Onii-chan, what''s wrong, are you okay? -Chinami, I''m going to rest in my room -So what''s going to happen with going to buy a present for Mom? -I''m sorry Chinami today I don¡¯t feel well Saying that I lay down under the blankets, I began to question my health because I believed that I was experiencing some kind of nervous collapse, the so-called deja vu occur when a person is under great stress, dehydrated or lacking sleep even though I rarely got worried, I drank enough liquids and doubted that it was due to lack of sleep, even so I decided that the wisest thing was to rest as much as I could. Trying not to move or think about anything for the rest of the night I went to sleep, however my rest was interrupted by the arrival of my parents -Mom, Dad Onii-chan is sick he has been in his bed all the time since he arrived from school -But what''s so strange? You know that your brother is pretty lazy -Your father is right after all that child has the energy of a rock Although I know that I am not the most active person in the world, at least I would appreciate it if they don¡¯t talk about their son like that, although I don¡¯t really care. That night was the first time I slept alone in a long time. With the arrival of the morning a new day came, after checking the date on my phone I could see that was the 4th of May. Apparently everything was normal, when I noticed the time on my phone I realized that it was too late and the school was about to end, knowing that there was nothing else I could do, I decided to stay still for a second, while watching the sunset, I come to think that all that d¨¦j¨¤ vu thing was just a bad experience that only happened to me once. As time passed my eyes began to feel heavy and my conscience began to fade, letting myself be carried away by the stupor I closed my eyes and the world was filled with darkness. Rriinngg, Rriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinngg! With the sound of the alarm began another boring day, the same routine. Rriinngg, Rriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinngg! The alarm kept ringing but I just did not feel like shutting down. * Click * Just then the alarm went off, but it was not me who pushed the button. -Mmmm, Onii-chan, you could turn off the alarm at least once. When I opened my eyes the person who said these words was none other than my little sister. When did Chinami enter my bed? I don¡¯t remember that she had even entered my room, getting up from my bed, I went to the living room, turned on the television and the news showed the date May 3. Again the same date appeared, I couldn¡¯t understand what was happening, and I just know that I don¡¯t dream it nor was it deja vu. Chinami and I went to school, into my classroom the events happened exactly as they had done before. After a while I left school and went back to my room, I started to think about the situation where I was but I had no idea how this could happen, no maybe I had an idea how this was happening I just couldn¡¯t believe it, after all who could believe in something as ridiculous as time travel. However, there was the proof in front of my eyes, things kept repeating themselves over and over again. When Chinami arrived, tried to take me to buy a gift for our mother, however I don¡¯t move a bit, I don¡¯t have the energy enough to leave, Chinami was enraged, and I can hear the door whipping. The rest of the night pass with tranquility, except when Chinami accused me with my parents, sleep takes over me, when I open my eyes I realize that it was too late to go to school. Chinami is responsible for waking me up and if it was not for her I wouldn¡¯t even go to school, but due to the fact that she was upset this time she don¡¯t wake me, I guess she did it so I get punished, although it''s not that I really care. I stay in my bed for a while longer, when the afternoon comes a great tiredness takes over me and I decide that it the best is to sleep a little more. Rriinngg, Rriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinngg! With the sound of the alarm began another boring day, the same routine. Rriinngg, Rriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinngg! The alarm kept ringing but I just did not feel like shutting down. * Click * Just then the alarm went off, but it was not me who pushed the button. -Mmmm, Onii-chan, you could turn off the alarm at least once. When I opened my eyes the person who said these words was none other than my little sister. If you find this story on Amazon, be aware that it has been stolen. Please report the infringement.Checking the date on my cell phone I observe that it was May 3, it happened again, that was problematic, this time I don¡¯t even bother going to school after telling Chinami that I wouldn¡¯t go to school I locked myself in my room and I stayed awake, After all it seemed that whenever I slept was when I returned to the past, so I remained awake with the eyes always looking towards the clock, always waiting for the moment when the clock returned in time. At night I could hear as my parents and my little sister knocked on the door asking me to leave my room, I nonetheless just ignore them I don¡¯t have time for that. After a while, the knocking on the door stopped and I could continue to watch the clock in peace, at midnight the clock showed 12:00, while the date of my cell phone also changed, and now showed 4 May on that screen. I tried to keep watching the clock, however, the fatigue was accumulating in my body because I had not slept or eaten all this time, so as the hours advanced I could feel the fatigue gathering inside me, so with the arrival of the afternoon a great tiredness invaded me, and I fell asleep. Rriinngg, Rriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinngg! With the sound of the alarm began another boring day, the same routine. Rriinngg, Rriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinngg! The alarm kept ringing but I just did not feel like shutting down. * Click * Just then the alarm went off, but it was not me who pushed the button. -Mmmm, Onii-chan, you could turn off the alarm at least once. When I opened my eyes the person who said these words was none other than my little sister. I fell asleep by accident, slowly watching the time on my phone, I saw it was May 3, so the time kept coming back, I couldn¡¯t figure out anything so I went back to do the same that last time, I stayed all the time watching The clock, the day changed to May 4, but due to fatigue I fell asleep again in the afternoon, so I don¡¯t understand the reason why time was returning. Awakening I went to the computer and started looking for information about time travel, however all I found was information from movies and science fiction books, I really don¡¯t find anything useful. My sister was calling me but I just ignore her, usually if I ignore Chinami in such obvious way she will remain annoyed for weeks, but since probably none of this will be remembered by anyone I can ignore it. I spent hours looking for relevant information, but couldn¡¯t find anything that would be of any use. While I was looking for information I did not realize the time, Chinami had arrived a long time ago and as soon as my parents arrived Chinami ran to accuse me that I had not gone to school, although Chinami usually cover me when I do things like that, apparently She was very upset with me. My father was about to turn off the computer to start scolding me, however when he saw what I was looking for, he told me. -You''re investigating loops or something? Of course, why I don¡¯t think of that before? That word that best described my situation. "Loop" A loop, in programming, is a statement that is made repeatedly to an isolated piece of code, until the assigned condition of that said loop is no longer fulfilled. Of course, a loop will continue until a certain condition is carried out, perhaps this was not much but it was the most I had, so if this was some kind of loop I just had to find the conditions that originated said loop and change them, and that way I could continue with my normal life. My father turned off the computer and sent me to my room to sleep, I obeyed and soon I prepared to rest. The next morning my little sister started shaking me. -Onii-chan get up it''s time to go to school -Chinami go on your own, Onii-chan is very tired -But Onii-chan is always tired! Get up at once Although Chinami kept shaking me I did not move a bit, I really did not feel like getting up. -Onii-chan get up you cannot skip school two days in a row -Don''t worry about something as insignificant as that Chinami, after all this is the seventh or eighth day in a row that I do not go to school. Or at least that''s how I felt, since I had not even go to school since the loop started. With tears in Chinami''s eyes, she threw my pillow to my face while shouting "Onii-chan became a delinquent!" When all the commotion end, I go back to sleep, in the afternoon I woke up from my dream, while I stretched checked the time of my watch, I could see that it was a little before the afternoon. As my parents had said I was someone who don¡¯t have much energy, however I realize that in the afternoon for some reason I feel too tired, so in order to avoid that, tried to rest as much as possible that way I would not sleep, that way maybe I could figure out something else behind this loop. As time progressed, I kept track of the time shown on my watch, time for some reason seemed slower than usual, so continue for a while, but when the clock struck at 4:07, a wave of fatigue took hold Of my body and my consciousness faded. Rriinngg, Rriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinngg! With the sound of the alarm clock, it began another boring day, the same old routine. Rriinngg, Rriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinngg! The alarm clock kept ringing but I just did not feel like turning it off. * Click * Just then the alarm went off, but it was not me who pressed the button. -mmmm, Onii-chan, you could not turn off the alarm once for a change When I opened my eyes the person who said these words was none other than my little sister. I reluctantly looked at my cell phone and saw the date May 3, maybe coincidence or maybe not but the moment when a great fatigue takes hold of my, I wake up in my bed exactly the same day. The previous times was also around 4 pm that I fell asleep, so with that I can assume that the loop starts when awake in May 3 and restarted on May 4 at 4 pm. While gathering all the information in my head my little sister was trying to get me up. -Onii-chan wake up it''s time to go to school Well at least I had figured out how long the loop lasted, now I just had to figure out how to get out of it, but before that I had to do something more important. -Chinami let me sleep 5 minutes more