Today I asked to go outside. Today I got yelled at for wanting to go outside.


    I see now that Gray is very overprotective, to the point of which I am not allowed to go outside. I look out my window, imagining what it would be like to breathe in the fresh air. I haven''t been outside in 4 years.


    Since Grays father is now "taken care of", Gray has been busy with, oh you know, controlling the country. He has actually made some reforms. Creating a society in which everyone is equal. He has stuck with the promises his father made. Promises of freedom and equality.


    Unlike his father, though, Gray cares about the people. He cares what they have to say. He is 16 years old and is wiser than his 50-year-old father.


    Establishing the new government will be challenging, but Gray is willing to take the challenge. ''Make the switch in power before anyone notices'' is what he told me. I guess the shift in power would cause chaos if anyone knew about it.


    My relationship with Gray is complicated. He and I share a bed and kiss and hold hands, but he isn''t open with me like he should be.


    How is a relationship supposed to work if it is onesided? I guess I still don''t truly understand how romance works. I know Gray truly cares and loves me, but he isn''t honest.


    He is also too clingy. He won''t let me outside like I mentioned before. He also won''t let me wander the halls without a bodyguard.


    Hasn''t he seen what I can do? I can take care of myself. So I made up my mind. I am going to confront him about these issues that I am having complications with.


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    I get up out of my comfy bean bag chair and march towards Grays office. My assigned bodyguard immediately follows behind me.


    I go to his office door and hammer it with my hand. Eventually, Gray opens the door. I tell him how I feel. I explain that I want to go outside. I want fresh air. I tell him that I am not a fragile flower. I can take care of myself.


    He just looked at me, amused. He laughed when I finished talking. He told his guards to escort me back to my room.


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    They dragged me to my room while I kicked and screamed. I momentarily forgot about my powers, but then I remembered. I made the guards let go of me, and I walked back to Grays office.


    When I got back, Gray laughed while sitting at his desk, doing whatever work he had to do. I looked at him while he looked up at me. I saw fear in his eyes.


    I walked up to him and sat on his desk. I face him, and I told him, "You do not control me. I am a power in myself, and you have no hold on me. You can''t keep me caged, so I will ask again before I run away to have freedom on the run. Can I go outside?" He looked at me and nodded.


    I walked to the exit. I took one look back, then I opened the door and walked out.


    It was awful. There was no green in this world. There were only grey and browns. It was so dusty. There was these compound like housing systems made of cargo boxes.


    I needed to help. I needed to fix this society. What could I do, though?


    There wasn''t anything I could do. I can''t fix a polluted world with no trees and no grass. I can''t fix the dust storms that come from the pollution.


    I knew things were bad, but I didn''t know they were this bad. I thought a couple trees had died, I didn''t realise the world was dying.


    I turned to go back inside and noticed that I had gone too far away from the base. I couldn''t see through the dust storm, and I didn''t know which way to go.


    My anxiety was getting the best of me. I was having a panic attack. I couldn''t breathe. The dust was in my lungs. I couldn''t breathe.


    My vision was going black. The last thing I saw was dust and a man in a black suit.